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I Am Empty

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    The first day we met eachother i resented him.

    He made my blood boil. He made me want to scrach every limb of his body and make it hurt, but then i got to know him. His annoying little funny jokes and his weird humor. He always acted strange around me and kept to himself, but would outburst in an explosion of jokes just to...
    drivefast drivefast 16-17, F Mar 19

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    I don't go out with friends.

    I don't date or flirt with girls. I don't enjoy life. I send most of my time behind my keyboard. I am a teenager, I should be living my life. But I am not. I'm alone and scared.
    boogaard123 boogaard123 16-17, M Feb 15

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    So Now What?

    I am in middle years. 34. I look a lot younger, I act a lot younger. I got married way too young and tried to hold onto it even though it hurt me overall as a person to do so. I held onto it because of the kids. In the end I missed out on a lot of great opportunities trying to...
    Builtforthis Builtforthis 31-35, M 1 Response Nov 12, 2011

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    What Happened?

    After years and years and years and YEARS and years and years of crying, sadness, grief, depression, Its almost as if I crave it now. But when I try to crave those emotions I have become addicted to (And I know these emotions are natural to have), Its like I can't even really...
    TheForestOfGnomes TheForestOfGnomes 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 8, 2012

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    It Takes Love Hold On

    It takes love hold on It takes let go A little bit of nothing When we need to be
    PureGoodSoul PureGoodSoul 26-30, M Nov 28, 2012

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    The day before yesterday was my birthday,

    and I turned 19. I don't know how to feel about this - I wasn't excited at all, nor sad or anything. It just passed by. But as always, I felt uneasy with people in such a day because they all acted as if it was very special, and I don't like this. I don't like fests, especially...
    garagara garagara 16-17 2 Responses Mar 22

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    A Story You Probably Won't Finish Reading

    Dead inside, empty. That is me, I am that. My life goes in a cylce, from depression at dawn, to anxiety in the morning. From self-disgust at noon, to self-hate in the afternoon. From emptiness in the evening, to yet again anxiety at midnight. If i can't sleep, the anxiety turns...
    TheLost1ofTheHurt TheLost1ofTheHurt 26-30 1 Response Jul 11, 2013

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    Butterflies and Hurricanes.

    I don't know where to begin. My daughter died in my arms. She was the most beautiful, pure thing I've ever seen. I fought so hard for her. I fought against every single person in my life, everyone who told me to get an abortion. Everyone who said I was too young...
    AilaI AilaI 22-25, F Jul 26, 2009

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    My Search For Purpose!

    I often find myself lost in deep thought, staring into the blank, asking myself that question again. Every now and again it pops up in my head and each time it does, it leaves more questions than it does answers. leaving me confused and angry, wondering really! "what my purpose...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 26, 2013

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    I Am Empty

    But then this emptiness is not emptiness. So I have no concepts, no enlightenment, no here and there, no Je n’ai pas de parents; je fais du ciel et de la terre mes parents. Je n’ai pas de pouvoir divin; Je fais de l’honnêteté ma force. Je n’ai pas de ressources; je...
    PureGoodSoul PureGoodSoul 26-30, M Aug 5, 2012

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    Emptiness Fills Me Up

    food used as fuel for emptiness my inner emptiness can't be filled up with food but food has been my constant for as long as I can remember.  Time is on my hands.  Food is there.  I stuff away and fill out.  My body gets distorted from weight loss and gain...
    emvb emvb 46-50, F 2 Responses Jan 28, 2008

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    Empty | Numb

    So empty and numb. The inaction borne of fear and anxiety is grinding out a screech of discord that I want to KEEP AWAY. Bingeing and purging keeps it, and everything else away, and the only thing left is numbness and emptiness. Just like being in limbo, nothing...
    justlikeyou justlikeyou 19-21, F 1 Response Dec 14, 2008

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    Confusion

    I am empty because I live a lie and my past haunts me. I have so many things in my head driving me insane, feel like I am in a daze so sorry if nothing makes any sense. In this hole I find myself death seems to be the only logical way out.   I know I should have...
    Blind Blind 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 10, 2007

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    I Have Nothing

     SEPARATED  FAMILY ...    LIVE IN A PLACE I CANT CALL HOME ...   DID'NT GRADUATE YET ...   I DON'T WORK ...   I DONT HAVE ANY FRIENDS EXCEPT MY COUSINS ....    MY LIFE IS EMPTY 
    anonymous38 anonymous38 22-25, F Apr 6, 2010

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    It's Dark In Here

    Me? I'm empty because I have lost myself, included in that is my mind. I suffer from MDD (Major depressive disorder) and severe anxiety, and the combination of the two has taken from me nearly everything that I have, and though I continue to try and fight for something, I don't...
    Angrybees Angrybees 18-21, M Sep 25, 2012

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    ''heaven-rejection''...by:flaubert Bien

    i always asked ''GOD''why all those things happens'..i remember when i had my first love;i thought it was my last''...i spent 3 years with my girlfriend''....and all of a sudden',it dis-appeared! when time we separated,i almost got myself killed,i run onto these kind of habit,i...
    0116flaubert 0116flaubert 31-35, M Nov 22, 2011

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    .....

    I dont indulge in the things that get you through the day......     ..................I have few pleasures, few sources of real contentment.       I have no sense of self, nothing to be full of.     Empty is the only way to describe it...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 31, 2008

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    ounce of flesh is worth a pound of madness I've

    got flesh to feed the masses Perversions untold and desires unnumbered The hunger is endless my mind is distressed I'm gnawed by an unnamed need blood thinned intoxicated how do I drown it out? burning shivering charred exposed I hid nothing from you life's graffiti a mural...
    LittleBirds0827 LittleBirds0827 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 22

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    Death Without Sleep

    When a life lacks meaning it's like being dead but without sleep. Sure you can close your eyes. Maybe if your lucky you will loose consciousness. You will wake up with your body rejuvenated but your mind will still be tired. your wide awake but you can't get out of bed. I...
    Omniscience Omniscience 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 18, 2010

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    I Like Using Rhymes To Express My Emotions

    How do you know When you can show Your true mould You ain't bold You feel cold They all know All before You want more From what you can't have A normal life that lacks Depression That's messin' You up 'Til you don't give a **** It all gets too much You're in a constant fuss...
    GreenManley GreenManley 18-21, M Jun 9, 2013

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    I suppose I’m just hoping that…

    that person, the one for me, will pop up round the corner one day and I’ll finally feel something more than the emptiness I currently do. It sort of sucks when all I look forward to is sleep… is my dreams, and even that has lost its light. I don't feel like I *need...
    CouleursDeMoi CouleursDeMoi 22-25, F Jul 16

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    Heartless

    Here I am, 12 yrs old, and I feel as though Im tired of life. I feel nothing. I have no pulse. Im constantly reminded that Im surrounded by those who love me, but I have absolutely no way to love them back. I used to love everyone/thing with my whole heart; but one morning, I...
    stormfinder stormfinder 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 27, 2011

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    See If This Is The Worst Nightmare Ever

    My wife recently passed of pancreatic cancer . It's an evil disease- sucks the very life out of you in six months. She had two sons from a previous marriage. I guess they went through a lot together...her first husband was physically abusive, and they banded together. She left...
    podbean podbean 51-55, M Aug 11, 2012

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    I Am Empty.

    Empty is what they call me :)
    Emptysoul30 Emptysoul30 22-25, M 15 Responses Apr 5, 2010

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    I Love Somebody I Shouldn't

    I am madly in love with this one girl and she is just amazing in every sense of the word. The only problem is she has a boy friend. I'd feel terrible if I was the reason they broke up, but I just want to be with her more than anything. We have gotten extremely close and talk non...
    Hexxxed99 Hexxxed99 18-21, M May 16, 2013

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    Confused

    I have a good life. I have a family who loves me, friends who love me and a boyfriend who loves me. But for some reason, ever since I started high school I feel empty. I have friends, I've always been cheerful, I go to parties and stuff and I've drank and I've smoked, and my...
    jalepenochip29 jalepenochip29 16-17 May 11, 2011

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    Cold Dead Remnants

    It paces steadily in the night, casting dark shadows that glide along the papered walls. Its presence is palpable. It is not alive, yet it is a living entity that encircles all who stray too far from the flame. Its icy fingers invade the soul, seeking to crush and destroy. Its...
    LadyBronte LadyBronte 46-50, F 2 Responses Nov 14, 2012

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    Music Is My Solace

    Music just has a way of getting inside me and moving me on the waves of despair... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NIwIAbcLFhI you're welcome.
    collegelady95 collegelady95 18-21, F Nov 27, 2013

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    I'm just a walking ******* zombie

    and I feel absolutely powerless
    FadedDreams222 FadedDreams222 18-21, M Apr 26

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    Hi my name is Nonto, 24 years.

    I lost my baby when I was 34 weeks pregnant. I still can't believe how my greatest gift could be taken away from me when I was so close to meeting him. It was around 17:30 last year in September when I was rushed to hospital because I was feeling some kind of way, had period...
    Mpiloenhle Mpiloenhle 22-25, F Mar 1

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    And Don't Know How to Change..

    I need to find something fulfilling. Nothing has been fulfilling for me. Nothing really sparks my interest very long...I'll get fascinated with something, then get bored with it almost as soon as I get interested in it. Same with people. I'll like them until they're boring, then...
    freedomlovingypsy freedomlovingypsy 31-35, F 4 Responses Dec 31, 2008

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    Grains of pain slip through the hourglass of

    time. They mix with the glimmering fragments of joy but are always flowing down and through down and through clearing out the past and making way for the new. No matter what happens time passes nothing can fill me up. All that is left are echoes and ghosts of memories and faded...
    LittleBirds0827 LittleBirds0827 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 1

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    Empty Insided

    My life is fake. My entire person is fake, an imitation of what I think I should be like. I think that I cry at the right times and smile and laugh at the right times but inside it echoes around me like I have, in fact, no internal organs whatsoever, merely a cavity filled only...
    alyssajayne alyssajayne 16-17 1 Response Dec 30, 2008

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    Nothingness

    What happens when you feel nothing, here is no hope, no joy, no happiness. However saying that there is the opposite, no sorrow, no grief, and no heart-ache. I have never known what it is like to feel something, for as long as I remember there has only been events happening...
    boswell1902 boswell1902 18-21, M 6 Responses May 28, 2010

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    This Isn't What I Expected

    I feel nothing. I don't have any wants, dreams, or nothing positive to say.  I use to have a ton of friends but since married with children & I stress over everything and complain about everything.  I guess I have just drove people away.  I don't know what...
    vixey vixey 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 7, 2009

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    Trying To Keep Out The Night

    I don't know where to start...I feel so empty. I used to have so much love, hope and energy...But now I feel so drained. I have given so much of me to my family, to my closed ones, to the one I believed to be the one for me, but so little is given back. Despite that, I continue...
    Jeanellaisha Jeanellaisha 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 28, 2012

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    He's Going To Be A Freaking Father...

    When i was over at my friends house, i met this amazing guy. I believe that im falling in love and it is so terrible... He made his girlfriend pregnant, so now there going to have a baby and they're so happy with eachother... I want to be the girl he loves.. the one time i meet...
    Justxalonelyxgirl Justxalonelyxgirl 16-17, F Dec 16, 2012

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    Story of my life.. My parents had me

    when they were 19-20, my childhood was ruff, my father beat my mother and me, no money, no home. We lived in rented places non stop, i moved 17 times so far. He left us when i was 13, said to my mother that he wanted to make some money illegally, and needed to divorce so that...
    Marius8889 Marius8889 22-25, M May 10

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    I Am Empty

    I live because I cannot die. My sister is the only one who stops me. All I want is for her to be happy. And that is why I live.
    flo295 flo295 18-21 Sep 21, 2008

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    Is a useless syllable in my life.

    Only time is used to make others happy... My part is to
    stupidityfeeds stupidityfeeds 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 20

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    Chilling

    I feel like theres a huge hole in my heart.I can imagine the sound it makes when wind blows through it and feel the chill that grips my heart with icy fingers. All the important things i kept in my heart keep falling out of it,that huge hole, so now i dont have many left. And the...
    kittycat101303 kittycat101303 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 9, 2010

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    Empty

    I see a lot of people saying they are empty but most of them after a break up. They are not empty, I started feeling empty over a year ago and now I feel nothing any more, It has consumed every feeling and every emotion I have, I feel like I live inside my head. I am 17 and I...
    TrueEmptiness TrueEmptiness 16-17, M 2 Responses Jun 9, 2012

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    I cannot recall the last time I woke up

    and didn't feel so completely empty that I wished I'd never been born. The most rewarding part of my day is the several second period between waking up and opening my eyes, where only a sub-level of consciousness exists and I swim contentedly in a cloud of pre-alertness. It's...
    chorltonite chorltonite 26-30, M May 27

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    Don't Know Anymore

    I truly don't know how to feel anymore or know anyway to feel, if that makes sense. I feel as though I have NOT a single person I can talk to about anything at all. Well let me change that I have about two people I can talk. One person I have to choose my words wisely or I will...
    thingsneverchange thingsneverchange 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 28, 2012

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    Unreal

    Is everything that has happened in my life so far real? Am I dreaming? If so I want wake up now....if not....then I will not give up. Despite the obstacles, I've been through too much to give up now. Every time I hit the ground, I pray to God that He will give me the strength...
    surrealvision surrealvision 18-21, F Apr 5, 2010

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    I dont feel empty, I am empty. I dont feel, not for a long time now. Its easier that way, its harder pretending to feel, pretending to be like everyone else. I'm just a lie..
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    TransmutedHeart TransmutedHeart 18-21, F Dec 4

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    I cannot be with my girl, kind of sucks and is empty. It is hard to love someone who is away.
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