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I Am Empty

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    Music Is My Solace

    Music just has a way of getting inside me and moving me on the waves of despair... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NIwIAbcLFhI you're welcome.
    collegelady95 collegelady95 18-21, F Nov 27, 2013

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    I Love Somebody I Shouldn't

    I am madly in love with this one girl and she is just amazing in every sense of the word. The only problem is she has a boy friend. I'd feel terrible if I was the reason they broke up, but I just want to be with her more than anything. We have gotten extremely close and talk non...
    Hexxxed99 Hexxxed99 18-21, M May 16, 2013

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    I am not who I used to be.

    I am void of joy, especially at Christmas. I know it sound patheic, but the best part of myself is gone.http://caterikson.blogspot.com/
    fukubus fukubus 46-50, M Dec 25, 2014

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    Butterflies and Hurricanes.

    I don't know where to begin. My daughter died in my arms. She was the most beautiful, pure thing I've ever seen. I fought so hard for her. I fought against every single person in my life, everyone who told me to get an abortion. Everyone who said I was too young...
    AilaI AilaI 22-25, F Jul 26, 2009

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    And Don't Know How to Change..

    I need to find something fulfilling. Nothing has been fulfilling for me. Nothing really sparks my interest very long...I'll get fascinated with something, then get bored with it almost as soon as I get interested in it. Same with people. I'll like them until they're boring, then...
    freedomlovingypsy freedomlovingypsy 31-35, F 4 Responses Dec 31, 2008

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    Empty | Numb

    So empty and numb. The inaction borne of fear and anxiety is grinding out a screech of discord that I want to KEEP AWAY. Bingeing and purging keeps it, and everything else away, and the only thing left is numbness and emptiness. Just like being in limbo, nothing...
    justlikeyou justlikeyou 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 14, 2008

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    Confusion

    I am empty because I live a lie and my past haunts me. I have so many things in my head driving me insane, feel like I am in a daze so sorry if nothing makes any sense. In this hole I find myself death seems to be the only logical way out.   I know I should have...
    Blind Blind 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 10, 2007

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    He's Going To Be A Freaking Father...

    When i was over at my friends house, i met this amazing guy. I believe that im falling in love and it is so terrible... He made his girlfriend pregnant, so now there going to have a baby and they're so happy with eachother... I want to be the girl he loves.. the one time i meet...
    Justxalonelyxgirl Justxalonelyxgirl 16-17, F Dec 16, 2012

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    Empty Insided

    My life is fake. My entire person is fake, an imitation of what I think I should be like. I think that I cry at the right times and smile and laugh at the right times but inside it echoes around me like I have, in fact, no internal organs whatsoever, merely a cavity filled only...
    alyssajayne alyssajayne 16-17 1 Response Dec 30, 2008

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    no hope for humanity.

    everything I see, all actions done, well I don't see everyone having a happy ending. I just hope there's a good story involved...
    jenneruz jenneruz 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    Chilling

    I feel like theres a huge hole in my heart.I can imagine the sound it makes when wind blows through it and feel the chill that grips my heart with icy fingers. All the important things i kept in my heart keep falling out of it,that huge hole, so now i dont have many left. And the...
    kittycat101303 kittycat101303 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 9, 2010

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    Death Without Sleep

    When a life lacks meaning it's like being dead but without sleep. Sure you can close your eyes. Maybe if your lucky you will loose consciousness. You will wake up with your body rejuvenated but your mind will still be tired. your wide awake but you can't get out of bed. I...
    Omniscience Omniscience 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 18, 2010

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    Empty. Devoid of true love.

    Unattainable self-love. Why would anyone love me now? Worthless. Empty. No reason to live. No deities believed. Will death provide me with release? Hopeless. Empty. I have pills by my bed. I have a gun, manual unread. Even my family expects me dead! Death wish. Empty. No one...
    FinalExits FinalExits 41-45, F Feb 11

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    ''heaven-rejection''...by:flaubert Bien

    i always asked ''GOD''why all those things happens'..i remember when i had my first love;i thought it was my last''...i spent 3 years with my girlfriend''....and all of a sudden',it dis-appeared! when time we separated,i almost got myself killed,i run onto these kind of habit,i...
    0116flaubert 0116flaubert 31-35, M Nov 22, 2011

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    I'm 17 years old. And I am

    so empty . I don't feel love , I just feel sadness, and I have for so many years now , and tonight it's worse than ever, tonight I'm wondereing if this feeling will ever go away , tonight I'm feel like if I left this earth would I even be missed ?
    tupaclover tupaclover 16-17 1 Response Jul 23

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    A piece of me is missing.

    Its been over a month since he rejected me and I've just felt numb. (I really shouldn't say 'rejected' because we still talk and he's really sweet) Maybe it was too soon to tell him how I felt. Then we had winter break, which meant i didn't see him for almost a month. Then when...
    blackspikex blackspikex 18-21, F Jan 22

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    Sometimes the silence of loneliness is

    deafening. The weight of it sits upon your chest. It has no color. It has no form. Instead, it is the absence of color and the vacuum where memories disappeared. I am no longer able to find comfort in the twilight; the grayness lays like a quilt over days now without purpose...
    snowviolet snowviolet 66-70 Jun 21

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    A Story You Probably Won't Finish Reading

    Dead inside, empty. That is me, I am that. My life goes in a cylce, from depression at dawn, to anxiety in the morning. From self-disgust at noon, to self-hate in the afternoon. From emptiness in the evening, to yet again anxiety at midnight. If i can't sleep, the anxiety turns...
    TheLost1ofTheHurt TheLost1ofTheHurt 26-30 1 Response Jul 11, 2013

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    .....

    I dont indulge in the things that get you through the day......     ..................I have few pleasures, few sources of real contentment.       I have no sense of self, nothing to be full of.     Empty is the only way to describe it...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 31, 2008

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    The first day we met eachother i resented him.

    He made my blood boil. He made me want to scrach every limb of his body and make it hurt, but then i got to know him. His annoying little funny jokes and his weird humor. He always acted strange around me and kept to himself, but would outburst in an explosion of jokes just to...
    drivefast drivefast 18-21, F Mar 19, 2014

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    Hi my name is Nonto, 24 years.

    I lost my baby when I was 34 weeks pregnant. I still can't believe how my greatest gift could be taken away from me when I was so close to meeting him. It was around 17:30 last year in September when I was rushed to hospital because I was feeling some kind of way, had period...
    Mpiloenhle Mpiloenhle 22-25, F Mar 1, 2014

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    I honestly have no feelings anymore some nights

    I cry and I don't know why ,probably because I have not fiends never leave the house and am always alone.some nights I'm petfectky fine though . This is phase I've been stuck in since 7th grade I am now a senior I don't think this is something I'm ever going to overcome this and...
    tupaclover tupaclover 16-17 Apr 30

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    ..... I don't even know what to say.

    Dying would be better than this.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 18

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    I cannot recall the last time I woke up

    and didn't feel so completely empty that I wished I'd never been born. The most rewarding part of my day is the several second period between waking up and opening my eyes, where only a sub-level of consciousness exists and I swim contentedly in a cloud of pre-alertness. It's...
    chorltonite chorltonite 26-30, M May 27, 2014

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    Grains of pain slip through the hourglass of

    time. They mix with the glimmering fragments of joy but are always flowing down and through down and through clearing out the past and making way for the new. No matter what happens time passes nothing can fill me up. All that is left are echoes and ghosts of memories and faded...
    LittleBirds0827 LittleBirds0827 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 1, 2014

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    I Am Empty

    I live because I cannot die. My sister is the only one who stops me. All I want is for her to be happy. And that is why I live.
    flo295 flo295 18-21 Sep 21, 2008

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    I am perfect on the outside

    but little do they know, I feel empty most of the time. People say I am always bubbly, happy, I have an amazing character, I get a long with different kinds of people. I get very good grades in college. People think I am so innocent and perfectly happy. But the truth is, I feel...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 17

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    I'm rotting away, from the inside out.

    My mind is fading away, And there's all this empty space. My vision is clouded, With empty promises and words. My heart is broken over the swords That cut my soul into pieces. I am nothing but flesh, I am nothing. Just another autumn day, The leaves dying and falling away...
    Yourbaaaby Yourbaaaby 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 29

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    The day before yesterday was my birthday,

    and I turned 19. I don't know how to feel about this - I wasn't excited at all, nor sad or anything. It just passed by. But as always, I felt uneasy with people in such a day because they all acted as if it was very special, and I don't like this. I don't like fests, especially...
    garagara garagara 16-17 2 Responses Mar 22, 2014

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    After a while you become used to a person

    as if they were your daily routine . So when things change and you distance your other half , you're constantly trying to fill that voidness you have within . That's all I've been trying to do for years ... What if that voidness can never be filled besides your temporary one...
    tupaclover tupaclover 16-17 May 30

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    I don't go out with friends.

    I don't date or flirt with girls. I don't enjoy life. I send most of my time behind my keyboard. I am a teenager, I should be living my life. But I am not. I'm alone and scared.
    boogaard123 boogaard123 18-21, M Feb 15, 2014

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    Cold Dead Remnants

    It paces steadily in the night, casting dark shadows that glide along the papered walls. Its presence is palpable. It is not alive, yet it is a living entity that encircles all who stray too far from the flame. Its icy fingers invade the soul, seeking to crush and destroy. Its...
    LadyBronte LadyBronte 46-50, F 2 Responses Nov 14, 2012

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    My Search For Purpose!

    I often find myself lost in deep thought, staring into the blank, asking myself that question again. Every now and again it pops up in my head and each time it does, it leaves more questions than it does answers. leaving me confused and angry, wondering really! "what my purpose...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 26, 2013

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    I Like Using Rhymes To Express My Emotions

    How do you know When you can show Your true mould You ain't bold You feel cold They all know All before You want more From what you can't have A normal life that lacks Depression That's messin' You up 'Til you don't give a **** It all gets too much You're in a constant fuss...
    GreenManley GreenManley 18-21, M Jun 9, 2013

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    Nothingness

    What happens when you feel nothing, here is no hope, no joy, no happiness. However saying that there is the opposite, no sorrow, no grief, and no heart-ache. I have never known what it is like to feel something, for as long as I remember there has only been events happening...
    boswell1902 boswell1902 18-21, M 4 Responses May 28, 2010

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    Story of my life.. My parents had me

    when they were 19-20, my childhood was ruff, my father beat my mother and me, no money, no home. We lived in rented places non stop, i moved 17 times so far. He left us when i was 13, said to my mother that he wanted to make some money illegally, and needed to divorce so that...
    Marius8889 Marius8889 26-30, M May 10, 2014

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    Is a useless syllable in my life.

    Only time is used to make others happy... My part is to
    stupidityfeeds stupidityfeeds 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 20, 2014

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    ounce of flesh is worth a pound of madness I've

    got flesh to feed the masses Perversions untold and desires unnumbered The hunger is endless my mind is distressed I'm gnawed by an unnamed need blood thinned intoxicated how do I drown it out? burning shivering charred exposed I hid nothing from you life's graffiti a mural...
    LittleBirds0827 LittleBirds0827 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 22, 2014

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    I Am Empty.

    Empty is what they call me :)
    Emptysoul30 Emptysoul30 22-25, M 11 Responses Apr 5, 2010

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    I woke up with this empty feeling in my gut,

    the kind where you can feel the energy emptying from your eyes. The kind that rattles through your bones, to the core. I had the first dream I've remembered in years last night; It was about me and my best friend Luci, who I haven't seen in a couple years. She had this awful...
    Yourbaaaby Yourbaaaby 22-25, F May 3

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    This Isn't What I Expected

    I feel nothing. I don't have any wants, dreams, or nothing positive to say.  I use to have a ton of friends but since married with children & I stress over everything and complain about everything.  I guess I have just drove people away.  I don't know what...
    vixey vixey 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 7, 2009

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    I just don't feel anymore.

    I can't feel, and I can't feel people who feel. Hollowness is eating me up alive.
    introverteddementor introverteddementor 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    Emptiness Fills Me Up

    food used as fuel for emptiness my inner emptiness can't be filled up with food but food has been my constant for as long as I can remember.  Time is on my hands.  Food is there.  I stuff away and fill out.  My body gets distorted from weight loss and gain...
    emvb emvb 46-50, F 2 Responses Jan 28, 2008

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 14

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    I suppose I’m just hoping that…

    that person, the one for me, will pop up round the corner one day and I’ll finally feel something more than the emptiness I currently do. It sort of sucks when all I look forward to is sleep… is my dreams, and even that has lost its light. I don't feel like I *need...
    CouleursDeMoi CouleursDeMoi 22-25, F Jul 16, 2014

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