I Am Falling Apart

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    I keep on holding on to someone

    that keeps pushing me away. We got in fights and stayed apart for months and they always find a way to come back to me. I find myself forgiving them just to keep them in my life. I need to stop forgiving and start moving on. But how ?
    zz0828 zz0828
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 8, 2014

    Everything Happens At The Same Time!

    My proxy stops working, that disconnects me from EP, Then my job is in jeopardy, my source of income is dried out! Then I need money to revive my job, and I have to work to get money! I am going to get a loan, it sounds impossible but it's my only chance.
    LordVoldemort LordVoldemort
    36-40, F
    15 Responses Oct 2, 2010

    I literally cannot cope with anymore emotional

    turmoil. I am at my limit and I am sick and tired of being pulled in so many different directions. From now I'm I am doing what I want to do and being whoever the hell I want to be. Nothing is going to stop me because in my heart of hearts I know that I am going to be successful...
    blxnde blxnde
    18-21, F
    Mar 10, 2015

    i am currently falling apart inside

    and i have no one to help me. my world is falling apart. none of my friends know that im slowly breaking down and i dont want the ones i care about to see me break down.
    deleted deleted
    Oct 20, 2014

    I'm pretty sure i met the love of my life a

    couple of months ago, she was really smart, kind, and beautiful. But i waited too long to tell her how i felt and she ended up dating someone else, and then i think she got hurt by that person because she started avoiding me afterwards, i just wanted to make her happy. I feel so...
    HiiroTenshi HiiroTenshi
    18-21, M
    Sep 6, 2015

    Suicide has been sounding better

    and better this weekend. Everything seems wrong. I'm more anxious than usual and everything sends me flashbacks (I suffer from PTSD.) My paranoia is so far off the charts I can't handle it. I feel completely disconnected and alone emotionally. I feel like resorting to my...
    xMayesx xMayesx
    18-21, M
    1 Response May 11, 2014

    I really need to talk.

    ...and i need an understanding person who wont only support me...i want an honest opinion but not in a very blunt way cuz am too fragile (emotionally) right now....i am gonna end up suiciding...help
    Zunairanasim Zunairanasim
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 15, 2014

    My world, Spiraling out of control.

    .. I'm falling apart at the seams and I'm not even sure if I know what that means. I'm so lost, I can't see in the dark. Hot blood, Pouring from my heart. All the words I meant to say, All the things I said a little too late... They are lifeless in my mouth. My tongue can...
    deleted deleted
    May 13, 2015

    There's not enough room

    for me to ask this as a question but; Okay so I live in a really small town and I'm known for being awkward. In eighth grade a guy friend said he didn't want everyone to know that he liked me bc a few guys said I'm ugly. That was a couple years ago but guys still sometimes get...
    spacedoutfish spacedoutfish
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 24, 2015

    Princess....that's the word

    that broke me. I thought I was okay. I read that and I started bawling. Superman; I miss you and I can't stand it. You made me so fcking happy and I don't know why but I can't get past you. I keep listening to songs we sent the lyrics too and that's when it hits me. I still...
    Lilred17 Lilred17
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 1, 2015

    No Fear Though

    A few more drinks and a little velcro and I'll be right as rain. *chugs*
    awhitedot awhitedot
    36-40, M
    1 Response Nov 30, 2011

    yes its true its all

    because im not having luck with anything all me and my fiance do now is smoke weed to get along its freaking terrible
    peeingbikini peeingbikini
    22-25, T
    Apr 11, 2016

    Im Crumbiling

    i dont know how much more of this i can take...i have over a milllion pepole mad at me at shcool...i have lost the girl i love most in this world due to my deprresion...i am losing more and more fireands by the day and my parents are disgustid with me for being bisexual...i know...
    LelouchZero LelouchZero
    18-21, T
    2 Responses Aug 30, 2009

    Lost, Alone, And Fed-up

    I have suffered from depression for most of my life, which is far from being pleasant, but I learned to live with it until February 2012. I had a "cutting" problem since I was 13, but that day in February was the first time it sent me to the hospital. Luckily, it was not on my...
    SammiTay SammiTay
    18-21, F
    Oct 16, 2012

    Police officers came to my door today to tell

    me there is not enough evidence to take my rapist to trial. i lost my fiance my job my ability to study and my dignity because of that guy. After the police left i received a letter saying my insurance company doesn't have enough information to pay for my counseling i just want...
    hannah2411 hannah2411
    26-30, F
    Dec 15, 2014


    well I moved...back to the mainland, the move well dont get me started..long story short the van was very much too small- I booked what my dad told me too!!!!!!!, the only furniture I could move was beds the rest was left behind..literally everything except boxes, and now the man...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever
    31-35, F
    1 Response Aug 23, 2013

    All my life I was alone,

    scared to feel love or compassion for others....yet I did, in exchange I was hurt horribly. I found friends, lost allot of them. I grew to learn love is like a flower, it is born through care and love it grows then blooms to something so beautiful....then it starts to die and...
    GinKiba GinKiba
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jul 18, 2015

    I had a break up a year ago.

    ...I got fine after a while...that's when I joined EP but then I found this guy who really loves me and is great...but he's the carefree type...and doesn't understand that he hurts me with his words....and on top of it he rarely has time for me...I tried talking to him about it...
    Zunairanasim Zunairanasim
    18-21, F
    Mar 21, 2015
    maddog1000 maddog1000
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 25, 2015

    I'm having those days.

    But it seems like I am having a lot of those lately. I got to my 9am appt. I ran a few minutes late. It was on a HUGE hill and it appears to be in construction. I hate hills because my design bag is sooo heavy. Also, I hurt myself at the last construction site. I call the client...
    airzm airzm
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Dec 11, 2015

    I can't believe people

    that don't even know you tell you how your life is gonna end up... Like you don't even know me leave me alone. Leave me and my boyfriend alone. Were in love and you have no say in anything. Excuse my language but I feel like complete **** right now. You know who you are, so...
    Megannr21 Megannr21
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 7, 2015
    salicaria salicaria
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 11, 2014
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Mar 4, 2015

    the one question staying on my mind is

    why you keep playing with my heart
    imagination34 imagination34
    18-21, M
    Dec 8, 2014

    I think about suicide daily.

    Probably more than that. I'm not going to ask for help. I'm resigned to being nothing more than some teenager who killed themself. It's not like I matter anyways. No one really cares enough to stop what they see is happening to me. That's fine, though. I'll just follow through...
    mysteryhatcat mysteryhatcat
    18-21, F
    19 Responses May 11, 2014

    I need to get away!!!

    ! Please help I wanna leave this cruel cruel place
    maddog1000 maddog1000
    18-21, F
    Oct 24, 2014

    My girlfriend recently just broke up with me,

    I feel so lost and broken. After a few days, she's with someone else already. I want to hate her for it but I couldn't. I still love her.
    RichieMad RichieMad
    26-30, M
    Apr 6, 2015

    What if I've wasted the last 4 years of my life

    in this relationship? I want to marry this person but my mental illness is getting in between every relationship in my life. I don't know what to do and need someone to talk too.
    mel1006 mel1006
    22-25, F
    Jun 24, 2015

    SO update on my class situation,

    there's a new girl in my class and i introduced her to all my frds and stuff. and i feel like hse is replacing me, even my best friends think that she is trying to. some guys like her even though she's only been here 5 days. the guy i like i have a suspicion he likes her. We...
    unknowngirlonline unknowngirlonline
    16-17, F
    1 Response Aug 21, 2015

    Someone I love dearly told me

    once that they didn't understand my depression, and wouldn't pretend they did, but they would do anything they could to help me. That's probably the kindest thing anyone's ever said to me, because they never pretended they understood. I've got to the point where i barely have...
    ForBetterOrForWorse ForBetterOrForWorse
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 28, 2014

    **** is happening in my life

    and people keep leaving me. Important people. I just can't take it any longer.
    Zunairanasim Zunairanasim
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 6, 2015

    When I finally crack

    and break down into a disaster and I stop working and die will you be sad and cry? Will you miss me? 😔 why do I even try anymore?
    Spirit2259 Spirit2259
    26-30, M
    Oct 16, 2015

    nothing is right anymore.

    .. he's moves on and he's happy. It hurts, someone who knows everything, who you've been with, were close with is just gone. He was my best friend and more and he's moving on. I miss it all... but if he's happy I should be too right? Why aren't I? I guess I am a horrible friend...
    KeKeNae KeKeNae
    22-25, F
    Apr 11, 2015

    I've been diagnosed with bipolar depression

    since high school. I've had my ups and downs, and 2 rock bottoms (failed suicide attempts). My last rock bottom was a huge wake up call to myself and I would never consider suicide again. But now I feel stuck, like I'm suffocating, and like I'm empty or incomplete. Everything...
    Cari92 Cari92
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 4, 2014

    I just...I want to pick things up fast.

    .be a better person..harder than I thought aye
    XxSxarletxX XxSxarletxX
    18-21, F
    Nov 27, 2015

    I feel like I'm not as smart

    as I used to be. It's bothering me so much.. I've been overwhelmed with stress, and at this age, I shouldn't even have that much stress. I feel like an adult. I have depression and anxiety, you can read about my depression in a previous experience I posted and my anxiety is...
    trellatay trellatay
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Oct 28, 2014

    I feel like I'm falling apart.

    The last few years have been a constant struggle of pain and endurance and it doesn't look like it's going to get any better any time soon. I have been in constant pain for 3 years now due to a knee injury I have I had two surgeries for already. My knee is scarred and...
    misspaperwait misspaperwait
    22-25, F
    Sep 11, 2015

    I Try Remind Myself That I've Been Here Before

    And Survived; That I Came Too Far To Have Only Come This Far, But It's Something Different About This Time.... I Don't Know How To Recover This Time... I Can't Find Motivation In Anything Or Anyone Not Even My Son. It's All Just Falling Apart && Im Trying To Keep Going But I Can...
    YoungForever101 YoungForever101
    22-25, F
    Jul 10, 2015

    Today has just been one bad thing

    after another... I can't take it anymore
    AmberFranks AmberFranks
    22-25, F
    Jul 24, 2014

    where do I start the past.

    .. im just lost...
    nixf1 nixf1
    22-25, F
    Apr 12, 2015

    As I walked along the shore with the sun

    setting, basking everything in its fading rays I saw a little boy with his parents. He splashed in the tide pools laughing without a care in the world. I thought to myself, I was once that little boy, before my spirit was crushed under the weight of the world, forging me into...
    chasethesky4ever chasethesky4ever
    31-35, M
    Mar 8, 2014

    Getting closer to suicide by the second.

    Really hard to keep going when your mom tries to kill you.
    Mollythebunnie Mollythebunnie
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 29, 2015

    But no one knows. I put on a happy face

    and everyone thinks I'm fine. I'm not fine. Right now.. I would rather be dead then alive.
    blossomingMe blossomingMe
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 24, 2014

    I'm so tired if pretending like everything is

    okay. My relationship doesn't even feel like a relationship anymore. I'm only here to make him happy when he wants to be happy; it doesn't matter how I feel. I'm tired of putting on a face for the world to see when I know that inside, I'm just crumbling. I try to build myself up...
    AmberFranks AmberFranks
    22-25, F
    3 Responses May 11, 2014

    Every Time you want to vent,

    No one is around at the time. I hate being alone... I dont have no one to talk cause no one under this. Im almost in my breaking point. All i want is a real friend, my friends, they all will leave me. I will be alone. In my family im alone, i always have a fake my smile. No one...
    deleted deleted
    Sep 28, 2015
    deleted deleted
    Sep 27, 2015

    Im Failing To Keep Strong.

    Its so hard to keep strong,my heart is broken.One day im booming,next im in floods of tears.Why i but my self through this for a man that beat and abuse me so much.I see him the other day,looking al good and healthy,Still in the rehab for drink and gambling.Then theres me...
    whiteangle whiteangle
    36-40, F
    12 Responses Apr 29, 2010

    Piece By Piece

    And each piece goes with a lot of pain. It's a pity that we take our health for granted.
    LordVoldemort LordVoldemort
    36-40, F
    12 Responses Apr 5, 2009

    I just want to shut everything down

    and start over. A new life. But I can't I just can't. I'm falling apart every day
    FallingApart33 FallingApart33
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 3, 2016

    I know I post a lot but that's just me I have a

    hard life and right now I'm choosing between life and death right now!! I'm so confused I am being pulled apart limb by limb... I'm getting torn by all my friends I don't know what to do anymore
    maddog1000 maddog1000
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 8, 2014
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