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I Am Falling Apart

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    Everything Happens At The Same Time!

    My proxy stops working, that disconnects me from EP, Then my job is in jeopardy, my source of income is dried out! Then I need money to revive my job, and I have to work to get money! I am going to get a loan, it sounds impossible but it's my only chance.
    LordVoldemort LordVoldemort 36-40, F 16 Responses Oct 2, 2010

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    I know I post a lot but that's just me I have a

    hard life and right now I'm choosing between life and death right now!! I'm so confused I am being pulled apart limb by limb... I'm getting torn by all my friends I don't know what to do anymore
    maddog1000 maddog1000 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 8, 2014

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    My girlfriend recently just broke up with me,

    I feel so lost and broken. After a few days, she's with someone else already. I want to hate her for it but I couldn't. I still love her.
    RichieMad RichieMad 26-30, M Apr 6

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    SO update on my class situation,

    there's a new girl in my class and i introduced her to all my frds and stuff. and i feel like hse is replacing me, even my best friends think that she is trying to. some guys like her even though she's only been here 5 days. the guy i like i have a suspicion he likes her. We...
    unknowngirlonline unknowngirlonline 13-15, F Aug 21

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    Today has just been one bad thing

    after another... I can't take it anymore
    AmberFranks AmberFranks 22-25, F Jul 24, 2014

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    I feel like I'm not as smart

    as I used to be. It's bothering me so much.. I've been overwhelmed with stress, and at this age, I shouldn't even have that much stress. I feel like an adult. I have depression and anxiety, you can read about my depression in a previous experience I posted and my anxiety is...
    trellatay trellatay 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 28, 2014

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    It feels as if I'm falling apart again.

    I can feel my walls cracking and slowly, one by one, crumbling into non-existence. Stress, if not for all of this stress I'd be more or less ok, but I'm not, and it's causing the pain, torment, agony, suffering, anguish to all start trying to break free from the depths of my...
    thehonestgentleman thehonestgentleman 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 28, 2014

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    And if my heart just stops,

    pack my memories in it, I want to know all the love I’ve got. And if my heart just stops, keep me alive for a minute, I want to know if a curtain drops.
    XxscarsxX XxscarsxX 16-17, F Dec 4, 2014

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    But no one knows. I put on a happy face

    and everyone thinks I'm fine. I'm not fine. Right now.. I would rather be dead then alive.
    blossomingMe blossomingMe 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 24, 2014

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    Broken

    Inside I feel this empty space. It hurts sometimes. It’s always in my heart too. Some days I can ignore it, other days it takes over. The fact is it still remains. It never truly ”goes away.” I can mask it. I am the master of sugarcoating that hollow. But it’s still there...
    Emily26 Emily26 18-21, F Apr 27, 2013

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    the one question staying on my mind is

    why you keep playing with my heart
    imagination34 imagination34 16-17, M Dec 8, 2014

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    where do I start the past.

    .. im just lost...
    nixf1 nixf1 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 12

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    I am slowly falling apart. I don't want to cry anymore. I've recently been told I have ADD, ADHD, and I am suffering from anxiety, depression, and trichotillomania. That's not the worst part though. I am tied together with a smile, but I am quietly coming undone, counting down to...
    littletalks littletalks 18-21, F Mar 10, 2013

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    I Try Remind Myself That I've Been Here Before

    And Survived; That I Came Too Far To Have Only Come This Far, But It's Something Different About This Time.... I Don't Know How To Recover This Time... I Can't Find Motivation In Anything Or Anyone Not Even My Son. It's All Just Falling Apart && Im Trying To Keep Going But I Can...
    YoungForever101 YoungForever101 18-21, F Jul 10

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    I keep on holding on to someone

    that keeps pushing me away. We got in fights and stayed apart for months and they always find a way to come back to me. I find myself forgiving them just to keep them in my life. I need to stop forgiving and start moving on. But how ?
    zz0828 zz0828 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 8, 2014

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    maddog1000 maddog1000 16-17, F Mar 25

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    Princess....that's the word

    that broke me. I thought I was okay. I read that and I started bawling. Superman; I miss you and I can't stand it. You made me so fcking happy and I don't know why but I can't get past you. I keep listening to songs we sent the lyrics too and that's when it hits me. I still...
    Jurnee16 Jurnee16 18-21, F Aug 1

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    Too Young For This.

    I'm 23. 23 years old. Barely an adult and I'm falling to pieces. I've known for a while that I have a connective tissue disorder, little did I know how it would change my life. Up until a few months ago I knew what I wanted to do with my life and how I wanted to get there. I...
    angeldancer angeldancer 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 25, 2013

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    Moved.......******.........

    well I moved...back to the mainland, the move well dont get me started..long story short the van was very much too small- I booked what my dad told me too!!!!!!!, the only furniture I could move was beds the rest was left behind..literally everything except boxes, and now the man...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 23, 2013

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    My world is crashing

    and coming to am end what do I do!!!
    maddog1000 maddog1000 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 28, 2014

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    Someone I love dearly told me

    once that they didn't understand my depression, and wouldn't pretend they did, but they would do anything they could to help me. That's probably the kindest thing anyone's ever said to me, because they never pretended they understood. I've got to the point where i barely have...
    ForBetterOrForWorse ForBetterOrForWorse 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 28, 2014

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    I had a break up a year ago.

    ...I got fine after a while...that's when I joined EP but then I found this guy who really loves me and is great...but he's the carefree type...and doesn't understand that he hurts me with his words....and on top of it he rarely has time for me...I tried talking to him about it...
    Zunairanasim Zunairanasim 16-17, F Mar 21

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    I feel so alone all the time.

    I want to cry so bad, but the tears aren't there. I'm tired of every aspect of my life making me feel inadequate, like I don't belong, and that it will never get better. Every time someone says they're there if I need to talk and I finally break down and do, they suddenly...
    Cari92 Cari92 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 26, 2014

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    It's been months, but I'm still suffering.

    I'm not suicidal but a part of me wants to be. Death would offer the escape I need. I'm tired of these tears, of these fears. When will it be over?
    thehonestgentleman thehonestgentleman 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 2, 2014

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 4

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    I literally cannot cope with anymore emotional

    turmoil. I am at my limit and I am sick and tired of being pulled in so many different directions. From now I'm I am doing what I want to do and being whoever the hell I want to be. Nothing is going to stop me because in my heart of hearts I know that I am going to be successful...
    blxnde blxnde 16-17, F Mar 10

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    My world, Spiraling out of control.

    .. I'm falling apart at the seams and I'm not even sure if I know what that means. I'm so lost, I can't see in the dark. Hot blood, Pouring from my heart. All the words I meant to say, All the things I said a little too late... They are lifeless in my mouth. My tongue can...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 13

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    All my life I was alone,

    scared to feel love or compassion for others....yet I did, in exchange I was hurt horribly. I found friends, lost allot of them. I grew to learn love is like a flower, it is born through care and love it grows then blooms to something so beautiful....then it starts to die and...
    GinKiba GinKiba 16-17, M Jul 18

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    Im Crumbiling

    i dont know how much more of this i can take...i have over a milllion pepole mad at me at shcool...i have lost the girl i love most in this world due to my deprresion...i am losing more and more fireands by the day and my parents are disgustid with me for being bisexual...i know...
    LelouchZero LelouchZero 18-21, T 2 Responses Aug 30, 2009

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    I've been diagnosed with bipolar depression

    since high school. I've had my ups and downs, and 2 rock bottoms (failed suicide attempts). My last rock bottom was a huge wake up call to myself and I would never consider suicide again. But now I feel stuck, like I'm suffocating, and like I'm empty or incomplete. Everything...
    Cari92 Cari92 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 4, 2014

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    I really need to talk.

    ...and i need an understanding person who wont only support me...i want an honest opinion but not in a very blunt way cuz am too fragile (emotionally) right now....i am gonna end up suiciding...help
    Zunairanasim Zunairanasim 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 15, 2014

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    I think about suicide daily.

    Probably more than that. I'm not going to ask for help. I'm resigned to being nothing more than some teenager who killed themself. It's not like I matter anyways. No one really cares enough to stop what they see is happening to me. That's fine, though. I'll just follow through...
    mysteryhatcat mysteryhatcat 18-21, F 19 Responses May 11, 2014

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    Im Failing To Keep Strong.

    Its so hard to keep strong,my heart is broken.One day im booming,next im in floods of tears.Why i but my self through this for a man that beat and abuse me so much.I see him the other day,looking al good and healthy,Still in the rehab for drink and gambling.Then theres me...
    whiteangle whiteangle 36-40, F 12 Responses Apr 29, 2010

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    I can't believe people

    that don't even know you tell you how your life is gonna end up... Like you don't even know me leave me alone. Leave me and my boyfriend alone. Were in love and you have no say in anything. Excuse my language but I feel like complete **** right now. You know who you are, so...
    Megannr21 Megannr21 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 7

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    Police officers came to my door today to tell

    me there is not enough evidence to take my rapist to trial. i lost my fiance my job my ability to study and my dignity because of that guy. After the police left i received a letter saying my insurance company doesn't have enough information to pay for my counseling i just want...
    hannah2411 hannah2411 22-25, F Dec 15, 2014

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    I feel so deeply sad.

    😔 Like what's the point of me being here because no one likes me. My brother hates me I think because he never wants to talk to me anymore. He just walks over me and I miss him so much. I don't know what changed. Maybe nothing changed but I feel like something did. Ever...
    Smelyalata97 Smelyalata97 18-21, F Nov 28, 2014

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    I'm so tired if pretending like everything is

    okay. My relationship doesn't even feel like a relationship anymore. I'm only here to make him happy when he wants to be happy; it doesn't matter how I feel. I'm tired of putting on a face for the world to see when I know that inside, I'm just crumbling. I try to build myself up...
    AmberFranks AmberFranks 22-25, F 3 Responses May 11, 2014

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    Piece By Piece

    And each piece goes with a lot of pain. It's a pity that we take our health for granted.
    LordVoldemort LordVoldemort 36-40, F 13 Responses Apr 5, 2009

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    I hate this feeling. Everything is crumbling

    down around me. People upset with me at work. The person I am closest to is upset with me. Air Condition unit is out in the house... In TEXAS in JULY! Parents are coming down to visit next weekend so has to be fixed. Truck is starting to act up. Bank account is empty. Everything...
    ballen0420 ballen0420 36-40, M 2 Responses Jul 23, 2014

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    As I walked along the shore with the sun

    setting, basking everything in its fading rays I saw a little boy with his parents. He splashed in the tide pools laughing without a care in the world. I thought to myself, I was once that little boy, before my spirit was crushed under the weight of the world, forging me into...
    chasethesky4ever chasethesky4ever 26-30, M Mar 8, 2014

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    What if I've wasted the last 4 years of my life

    in this relationship? I want to marry this person but my mental illness is getting in between every relationship in my life. I don't know what to do and need someone to talk too.
    mel1006 mel1006 18-21, F Jun 24

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    No Fear Though

    A few more drinks and a little velcro and I'll be right as rain. *chugs*
    awhitedot awhitedot 36-40, M 1 Response Nov 30, 2011

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    i am currently falling apart inside

    and i have no one to help me. my world is falling apart. none of my friends know that im slowly breaking down and i dont want the ones i care about to see me break down.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 20, 2014

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    Lost, Alone, And Fed-up

    I have suffered from depression for most of my life, which is far from being pleasant, but I learned to live with it until February 2012. I had a "cutting" problem since I was 13, but that day in February was the first time it sent me to the hospital. Luckily, it was not on my...
    SammiTay SammiTay 18-21, F Oct 16, 2012

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    nothing is right anymore.

    .. he's moves on and he's happy. It hurts, someone who knows everything, who you've been with, were close with is just gone. He was my best friend and more and he's moving on. I miss it all... but if he's happy I should be too right? Why aren't I? I guess I am a horrible friend...
    WhyWasIStupid WhyWasIStupid 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 11

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    Friendzone

    I have a huge issue with the word "friend." I know it's weird but it's so scary to hear that word sometimes. It's like a dagger in my thoughts from anyone that I like. I overthink, I feel as though everything is going to get ****** up and I end up ruining it anyways because...
    sagesbones sagesbones 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 24, 2013