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I Am Falling Apart

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    I need to get away!!!

    ! Please help I wanna leave this cruel cruel place
    maddog1000 maddog1000 13-15, F Oct 24

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    Shattered

    I hate hurting others as I loathe that dreaded feeling of having my feelings hurt, its a frequent thing, though I understand I'm over sensitive, it makes me empathize with others easily. So if I'm the one causing the pain to someone else it's almost unbearable. As a child I...
    Tillydevine82 Tillydevine82 31-35, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    And if my heart just stops,

    pack my memories in it, I want to know all the love I’ve got. And if my heart just stops, keep me alive for a minute, I want to know if a curtain drops.
    XxscarsxX XxscarsxX 16-17, F Dec 4

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    **** anxiety. **** feeling like a terrible

    person. I'm going to stop, I need to. :)
    spacedoutfish spacedoutfish 16-17, F Aug 30

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    I've been diagnosed with bipolar depression

    since high school. I've had my ups and downs, and 2 rock bottoms (failed suicide attempts). My last rock bottom was a huge wake up call to myself and I would never consider suicide again. But now I feel stuck, like I'm suffocating, and like I'm empty or incomplete. Everything...
    Cari92 Cari92 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 4

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    It feels as if I'm falling apart again.

    I can feel my walls cracking and slowly, one by one, crumbling into non-existence. Stress, if not for all of this stress I'd be more or less ok, but I'm not, and it's causing the pain, torment, agony, suffering, anguish to all start trying to break free from the depths of my...
    shadow2233 shadow2233 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 28

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    Today has just been one bad thing

    after another... I can't take it anymore
    AmberFranks AmberFranks 18-21, F Jul 24

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    I keep on holding on to someone

    that keeps pushing me away. We got in fights and stayed apart for months and they always find a way to come back to me. I find myself forgiving them just to keep them in my life. I need to stop forgiving and start moving on. But how ?
    zz0828 zz0828 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 8

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    Police officers came to my door today to tell

    me there is not enough evidence to take my rapist to trial. i lost my fiance my job my ability to study and my dignity because of that guy. After the police left i received a letter saying my insurance company doesn't have enough information to pay for my counseling i just want...
    hannah2411 hannah2411 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    Lost, Alone, And Fed-up

    I have suffered from depression for most of my life, which is far from being pleasant, but I learned to live with it until February 2012. I had a "cutting" problem since I was 13, but that day in February was the first time it sent me to the hospital. Luckily, it was not on my...
    SammiTay SammiTay 18-21, F Oct 16, 2012

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    I am so upset right now.

    My dad's leaving me again and I am not even there to see him off. I am just now letting myself cry. I have to deal with this friend who over exaggerates stuff! I though she was going to commit suicide! Nope! Just sad over not being able to see people she meet online. Which I get...
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F Aug 22

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    But only on the inside.

    All my safety that helped me keep me together is fastly leaving one by one. Feeling lost and alone again. Unsure how to put myself together again.
    misguidedthoughts misguidedthoughts 31-35, F Sep 27

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    All the stress I think is

    now physically affecting me. Usually when I'm really depressed and anxious I start to feel sick and I'm feeling sick tonight. My whole body's in pain ( probably from being so tense) and I feel like I'm a hundred degrees (my anxiety is making me sweat). It's three am and all I...
    blahlahblah599 blahlahblah599 16-17, F Sep 1

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    The doctors now think my uncle may have

    suffered a stroke on top of everything else. I don't want to feel anything anymore.
    blahlahblah599 blahlahblah599 16-17, F Aug 31

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    Moved.......******.........

    well I moved...back to the mainland, the move well dont get me started..long story short the van was very much too small- I booked what my dad told me too!!!!!!!, the only furniture I could move was beds the rest was left behind..literally everything except boxes, and now the man...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 23, 2013

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    I feel so deeply sad.

    😔 Like what's the point of me being here because no one likes me. My brother hates me I think because he never wants to talk to me anymore. He just walks over me and I miss him so much. I don't know what changed. Maybe nothing changed but I feel like something did. Ever...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Nov 28

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    I know I post a lot but that's just me I have a

    hard life and right now I'm choosing between life and death right now!! I'm so confused I am being pulled apart limb by limb... I'm getting torn by all my friends I don't know what to do anymore
    maddog1000 maddog1000 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 8

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    No Fear Though

    A few more drinks and a little velcro and I'll be right as rain. *chugs*
    awhitedot awhitedot 36-40, M 1 Response Nov 30, 2011

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    Protect

    I am slowly falling apart. I don't want to cry anymore. I've recently been told I have ADD, ADHD, and I am suffering from anxiety, depression, and trichotillomania. That's not the worst part though. I am tied together with a smile, but I am quietly coming undone, counting down to...
    littletalks littletalks 18-21, F Mar 10, 2013

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    Depression

    Pain and suffering Present for so long They stick around They're a plague I spread them through contact through coughs, hacks, and speech words dig deep they alter those gases the greens, the blues, the purples all the shades of your vices but as the disease progresses it withers...
    sagesbones sagesbones 18-21, M Feb 24, 2013

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    Im Failing To Keep Strong.

    Its so hard to keep strong,my heart is broken.One day im booming,next im in floods of tears.Why i but my self through this for a man that beat and abuse me so much.I see him the other day,looking al good and healthy,Still in the rehab for drink and gambling.Then theres me...
    whiteangle whiteangle 36-40, F 12 Responses Apr 29, 2010

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    I can't stand myself.

    I was horrible to so many people. I really don't know how i'm going to keep going. My friend killed himself. He was unstable and I treated him like crap. And my dad got early parole and came home today and he keeps influeceing my mom and I know shes not safe. And my sister is...
    LandonS LandonS 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 15

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    I am beyond agitated

    and cannot stop moving around. My mind is wide awake speeding a million miles a minute and I'm about to cry. I've hit myself and the walls a few times and wanna swallow all the 60 pills I have. I'm fighting to not do that though. Cutting didn't help much. I want everything to...
    blahlahblah599 blahlahblah599 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    I used to be pretty strong.

    .. I could handle things without crying or being upset... Now it seems like everything in my life is tearing apart...
    MindOfManyThoughts MindOfManyThoughts 16-17, F Sep 27

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    Too Young For This.

    I'm 23. 23 years old. Barely an adult and I'm falling to pieces. I've known for a while that I have a connective tissue disorder, little did I know how it would change my life. Up until a few months ago I knew what I wanted to do with my life and how I wanted to get there. I...
    angeldancer angeldancer 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 25, 2013

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    I binged on two hot dogs

    and 26 chocolate covered pretzels. I tried to make myself suck but I couldn't do anything but gag so I started panicking and crying. I then hopped on the treadmill and ive been jogging as hard as I can. It just said I burned a little over 1000 calories so I'm now walking because...
    blahlahblah599 blahlahblah599 16-17, F Sep 20

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    Verix Verix 18-21, M Sep 26

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    I really need to talk.

    ...and i need an understanding person who wont only support me...i want an honest opinion but not in a very blunt way cuz am too fragile (emotionally) right now....i am gonna end up suiciding...help
    Zunairanasim Zunairanasim 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    It's been months, but I'm still suffering.

    I'm not suicidal but a part of me wants to be. Death would offer the escape I need. I'm tired of these tears, of these fears. When will it be over?
    shadow2233 shadow2233 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 2

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    Friendzone

    I have a huge issue with the word "friend." I know it's weird but it's so scary to hear that word sometimes. It's like a dagger in my thoughts from anyone that I like. I overthink, I feel as though everything is going to get ****** up and I end up ruining it anyways because...
    sagesbones sagesbones 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 24, 2013

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    I think about suicide daily.

    Probably more than that. I'm not going to ask for help. I'm resigned to being nothing more than some teenager who killed themself. It's not like I matter anyways. No one really cares enough to stop what they see is happening to me. That's fine, though. I'll just follow through...
    mysteryhatcat mysteryhatcat 18-21, F 20 Responses May 11

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    I'm so tired if pretending like everything is

    okay. My relationship doesn't even feel like a relationship anymore. I'm only here to make him happy when he wants to be happy; it doesn't matter how I feel. I'm tired of putting on a face for the world to see when I know that inside, I'm just crumbling. I try to build myself up...
    AmberFranks AmberFranks 18-21, F 3 Responses May 11

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    Broken

    Inside I feel this empty space. It hurts sometimes. It’s always in my heart too. Some days I can ignore it, other days it takes over. The fact is it still remains. It never truly ”goes away.” I can mask it. I am the master of sugarcoating that hollow. But it’s still there...
    Emily26 Emily26 18-21, F Apr 27, 2013

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    I can't believe I was actually considering

    going out clubbing tonight, like me of all people, who hates socialising like that and who hates drinking, I'm so glad I decided not to go, but the fact I considered it just shows I'm slowly falling apart.
    Verix Verix 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 29

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    Everything that goes wrong is my fault i know.

    No one hesitates to tell me either. All cuz I messed up once. I didn't know it's affect as many people as it did and I feel like **** and I feel like I'm just slowly decaying
    fl3shnbon3 fl3shnbon3 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 30

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    I hate this feeling. Everything is crumbling

    down around me. People upset with me at work. The person I am closest to is upset with me. Air Condition unit is out in the house... In TEXAS in JULY! Parents are coming down to visit next weekend so has to be fixed. Truck is starting to act up. Bank account is empty. Everything...
    ballen0420 ballen0420 36-40, M 2 Responses Jul 23

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    I feel like I'm not as smart

    as I used to be. It's bothering me so much.. I've been overwhelmed with stress, and at this age, I shouldn't even have that much stress. I feel like an adult. I have depression and anxiety, you can read about my depression in a previous experience I posted and my anxiety is...
    trellatay trellatay 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 28

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    As I walked along the shore with the sun

    setting, basking everything in its fading rays I saw a little boy with his parents. He splashed in the tide pools laughing without a care in the world. I thought to myself, I was once that little boy, before my spirit was crushed under the weight of the world, forging me into...
    chasethesky4ever chasethesky4ever 26-30, M Mar 8

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    I really hate what's happened,

    I hate the fact I cant be with you everyday like we used to be, Im falling apart without you.
    Verix Verix 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 27

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    Im Crumbiling

    i dont know how much more of this i can take...i have over a milllion pepole mad at me at shcool...i have lost the girl i love most in this world due to my deprresion...i am losing more and more fireands by the day and my parents are disgustid with me for being bisexual...i know...
    LelouchZero LelouchZero 18-21, T 2 Responses Aug 30, 2009

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    I'm so depressed right now.

    I'm also angry and anxious and confused. I have no clue what to do. I could use some advice about something
    blahlahblah599 blahlahblah599 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 13

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    Piece By Piece

    And each piece goes with a lot of pain. It's a pity that we take our health for granted.
    LordVoldemort LordVoldemort 36-40, F 13 Responses Apr 5, 2009

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    i am currently falling apart inside

    and i have no one to help me. my world is falling apart. none of my friends know that im slowly breaking down and i dont want the ones i care about to see me break down.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 20

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    My world is crashing

    and coming to am end what do I do!!!
    maddog1000 maddog1000 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 28

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    the one question staying on my mind is

    why you keep playing with my heart
    imagination34 imagination34 16-17, M Dec 8

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    But no one knows. I put on a happy face

    and everyone thinks I'm fine. I'm not fine. Right now.. I would rather be dead then alive.
    blossomingMe blossomingMe 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 24

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    Dont Care

    ...it seems as if i am falling apart becsuse I dont care about anything anymore...Nothing is ever right in my life and I never am truly happy...thats something i have begun to accept and something i have become bored with... ...I just lay down on my bed all day sometimes typing...
    ConLocura ConLocura 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 12, 2009

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    Just Done

    this is my last ever i hope i was okay just hate me just hate myself if i am not who i am who am i i would never fall back in her arms
    Sammieangel Sammieangel 18-21, T Jun 14, 2012

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    Someone I love dearly told me

    once that they didn't understand my depression, and wouldn't pretend they did, but they would do anything they could to help me. That's probably the kindest thing anyone's ever said to me, because they never pretended they understood. I've got to the point where i barely have...
    ForBetterOrForWorse ForBetterOrForWorse 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 28

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    I can't get out of this depression.

    When I tell people about my problems and what's going on in my life, every one always says "just be positive" or "good things will come your way soon" but I've been positive. I really truly have, for 2 years now. But with each new month something even worse comes my way. I used...
    bta5051 bta5051 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 19

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    Everything Happens At The Same Time!

    My proxy stops working, that disconnects me from EP, Then my job is in jeopardy, my source of income is dried out! Then I need money to revive my job, and I have to work to get money! I am going to get a loan, it sounds impossible but it's my only chance.
    LordVoldemort LordVoldemort 36-40, F 16 Responses Oct 2, 2010

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    I feel so alone all the time.

    I want to cry so bad, but the tears aren't there. I'm tired of every aspect of my life making me feel inadequate, like I don't belong, and that it will never get better. Every time someone says they're there if I need to talk and I finally break down and do, they suddenly...
    Cari92 Cari92 22-25