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I Am Falling Apart

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    As I walked along the shore with the sun

    setting, basking everything in its fading rays I saw a little boy with his parents. He splashed in the tide pools laughing without a care in the world. I thought to myself, I was once that little boy, before my spirit was crushed under the weight of the world, forging me into...
    chasethesky4ever chasethesky4ever 26-30, M Mar 8

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    Suicide has been sounding better

    and better this weekend. Everything seems wrong. I'm more anxious than usual and everything sends me flashbacks (I suffer from PTSD.) My paranoia is so far off the charts I can't handle it. I feel completely disconnected and alone emotionally. I feel like resorting to my...
    xMayesx xMayesx 16-17, M 1 Response May 11

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    Depression

    Pain and suffering Present for so long They stick around They're a plague I spread them through contact through coughs, hacks, and speech words dig deep they alter those gases the greens, the blues, the purples all the shades of your vices but as the disease progresses it withers...
    sagesbones sagesbones 18-21, M Feb 24, 2013

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    I really don't know what to do with myself.

    I don't know why but people say I'm annoying and they hate me. I have 3 close friends left. I really don't know what to do. I need people to talk to. Message me.
    King1King King1King 13-15, M Jul 24

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    All the stress I think is

    now physically affecting me. Usually when I'm really depressed and anxious I start to feel sick and I'm feeling sick tonight. My whole body's in pain ( probably from being so tense) and I feel like I'm a hundred degrees (my anxiety is making me sweat). It's three am and all I...
    blahlahblah599 blahlahblah599 16-17, F Sep 1

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    **** anxiety. **** feeling like a terrible

    person. I'm going to stop, I need to. :)
    spacedoutfish spacedoutfish 16-17, F Aug 30

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    I think about suicide daily.

    Probably more than that. I'm not going to ask for help. I'm resigned to being nothing more than some teenager who killed themself. It's not like I matter anyways. No one really cares enough to stop what they see is happening to me. That's fine, though. I'll just follow through...
    mysteryhatcat mysteryhatcat 18-21, F 21 Responses May 11

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    I don't see how ill ever be able to move

    forward. I just wish i could go back in time so i could relive when we were together.
    BiO811HazarD BiO811HazarD 18-21, M Apr 2

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    I can't get out of this depression.

    When I tell people about my problems and what's going on in my life, every one always says "just be positive" or "good things will come your way soon" but I've been positive. I really truly have, for 2 years now. But with each new month something even worse comes my way. I used...
    bta5051 bta5051 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I really hate what's happened,

    I hate the fact I cant be with you everyday like we used to be, Im falling apart without you.
    Verix Verix 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 27

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    Everything Happens At The Same Time!

    My proxy stops working, that disconnects me from EP, Then my job is in jeopardy, my source of income is dried out! Then I need money to revive my job, and I have to work to get money! I am going to get a loan, it sounds impossible but it's my only chance.
    LordVoldemort LordVoldemort 36-40, F 16 Responses Oct 2, 2010

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    People have many ways of expressing their selfs

    to make themselves feel better. No matter what it is like mine is music. I shouldn't say I'm alone. Because I have music. Maybe you might not have a lot of friends. But for example sports is the way you express yourself and get away. You can say I'm not lonely because I have...
    zxmnwendy zxmnwendy 13-15, F Aug 13

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    I used to be pretty strong.

    .. I could handle things without crying or being upset... Now it seems like everything in my life is tearing apart...
    MindOfManyThoughts MindOfManyThoughts 16-17, F Sep 27

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    Someone I love dearly told me

    once that they didn't understand my depression, and wouldn't pretend they did, but they would do anything they could to help me. That's probably the kindest thing anyone's ever said to me, because they never pretended they understood. I've got to the point where i barely have...
    ForBetterOrForWorse ForBetterOrForWorse 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 28

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    Just Done

    this is my last ever i hope i was okay just hate me just hate myself if i am not who i am who am i i would never fall back in her arms
    Sammieangel Sammieangel 18-21, T Jun 14, 2012

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    Today has just been one bad thing

    after another... I can't take it anymore
    AmberFranks AmberFranks 18-21, F Jul 24

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    salicaria salicaria 18-21, F 1 Response May 11

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    Im Failing To Keep Strong.

    Its so hard to keep strong,my heart is broken.One day im booming,next im in floods of tears.Why i but my self through this for a man that beat and abuse me so much.I see him the other day,looking al good and healthy,Still in the rehab for drink and gambling.Then theres me...
    whiteangle whiteangle 36-40, F 12 Responses Apr 29, 2010

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    I sometimes cry for no real reason except I

    just can't keep myself together any longer.
    TheWaySheFeels3 TheWaySheFeels3 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    I'm so depressed right now.

    I'm also angry and anxious and confused. I have no clue what to do. I could use some advice about something
    blahlahblah599 blahlahblah599 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 13

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    Im Crumbiling

    i dont know how much more of this i can take...i have over a milllion pepole mad at me at shcool...i have lost the girl i love most in this world due to my deprresion...i am losing more and more fireands by the day and my parents are disgustid with me for being bisexual...i know...
    LelouchZero LelouchZero 18-21, T 2 Responses Aug 30, 2009

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    It's getting at that point

    where I have one person that I can call a friend. My now ex best friend has got the whole school turned against me....I can't go anywhere in the building without out being stared at and pointed at I'm the laughing stalk of the school...also at home it's not to great either... Me...
    Justanobody17 Justanobody17 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 6

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    I am beyond agitated

    and cannot stop moving around. My mind is wide awake speeding a million miles a minute and I'm about to cry. I've hit myself and the walls a few times and wanna swallow all the 60 pills I have. I'm fighting to not do that though. Cutting didn't help much. I want everything to...
    blahlahblah599 blahlahblah599 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    I am so upset right now.

    My dad's leaving me again and I am not even there to see him off. I am just now letting myself cry. I have to deal with this friend who over exaggerates stuff! I though she was going to commit suicide! Nope! Just sad over not being able to see people she meet online. Which I get...
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F Aug 22

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    i am currently falling apart inside

    and i have no one to help me. my world is falling apart. none of my friends know that im slowly breaking down and i dont want the ones i care about to see me break down.
    picofire picofire 22-25, M 3 days ago

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    But only on the inside.

    All my safety that helped me keep me together is fastly leaving one by one. Feeling lost and alone again. Unsure how to put myself together again.
    misguidedthoughts misguidedthoughts 31-35, F Sep 27

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    I binged on two hot dogs

    and 26 chocolate covered pretzels. I tried to make myself suck but I couldn't do anything but gag so I started panicking and crying. I then hopped on the treadmill and ive been jogging as hard as I can. It just said I burned a little over 1000 calories so I'm now walking because...
    blahlahblah599 blahlahblah599 16-17, F Sep 20

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    Protect

    I am slowly falling apart. I don't want to cry anymore. I've recently been told I have ADD, ADHD, and I am suffering from anxiety, depression, and trichotillomania. That's not the worst part though. I am tied together with a smile, but I am quietly coming undone, counting down to...
    littletalks littletalks 18-21, F Mar 10, 2013

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    My world is crashing

    and coming to am end what do I do!!!
    maddog1000 maddog1000 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 28

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    Im Scared

    I throw my hands up i'm scared, so scared, I am in this house on my own the stupid ferry was late so I finally got home at 3am, walking in felt so cold, quiet, I have never been here on my own, the house has always been filled with noise, the lightbulb in the hallway had gone so...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 3, 2013

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    Verix Verix 18-21, M Sep 26

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    Lost, Alone, And Fed-up

    I have suffered from depression for most of my life, which is far from being pleasant, but I learned to live with it until February 2012. I had a "cutting" problem since I was 13, but that day in February was the first time it sent me to the hospital. Luckily, it was not on my...
    SammiTay SammiTay 18-21, F Oct 16, 2012

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    But no one knows. I put on a happy face

    and everyone thinks I'm fine. I'm not fine. Right now.. I would rather be dead then alive.
    blossomingMe blossomingMe 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 24

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    I can't believe I was actually considering

    going out clubbing tonight, like me of all people, who hates socialising like that and who hates drinking, I'm so glad I decided not to go, but the fact I considered it just shows I'm slowly falling apart.
    Verix Verix 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 29

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    Broken

    Inside I feel this empty space. It hurts sometimes. It’s always in my heart too. Some days I can ignore it, other days it takes over. The fact is it still remains. It never truly ”goes away.” I can mask it. I am the master of sugarcoating that hollow. But it’s still there...
    Emily26 Emily26 18-21, F Apr 27, 2013

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    Friendzone

    I have a huge issue with the word "friend." I know it's weird but it's so scary to hear that word sometimes. It's like a dagger in my thoughts from anyone that I like. I overthink, I feel as though everything is going to get ****** up and I end up ruining it anyways because...
    sagesbones sagesbones 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 24, 2013

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    Everything that goes wrong is my fault i know.

    No one hesitates to tell me either. All cuz I messed up once. I didn't know it's affect as many people as it did and I feel like **** and I feel like I'm just slowly decaying
    fl3shnbon3 fl3shnbon3 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 30

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    Shattered

    I hate hurting others as I loathe that dreaded feeling of having my feelings hurt, its a frequent thing, though I understand I'm over sensitive, it makes me empathize with others easily. So if I'm the one causing the pain to someone else it's almost unbearable. As a child I...
    Tillydevine82 Tillydevine82 31-35, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    No Fear Though

    A few more drinks and a little velcro and I'll be right as rain. *chugs*
    awhitedot awhitedot 36-40, M 1 Response Nov 30, 2011

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    I'm so tired if pretending like everything is

    okay. My relationship doesn't even feel like a relationship anymore. I'm only here to make him happy when he wants to be happy; it doesn't matter how I feel. I'm tired of putting on a face for the world to see when I know that inside, I'm just crumbling. I try to build myself up...
    AmberFranks AmberFranks 18-21, F 3 Responses May 11

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    I am so tired of being tired.

    Being lonely. Being depressed. I've been through so much pain and sorrow in my life. No, I don't want to talk about it. I don't want to tell my long, painful story. I don't want pity. I just want to be the smiling, happy girl that I once was.... </3 - Forever Broken
    BrokenPhoenixx BrokenPhoenixx 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 7

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    At mums house ~ Two years ago,

    my mum and step dad (Adam) got married. My mum has anger problems, and it seems that it is rubbing off on Adam. My brother and I already get angry easily, so it's like a house full of constant arguments and shouting. I hate it. My mum used to take out her anger on me, by...
    loveyourselfalwaysxx loveyourselfalwaysxx 13-15, F May 7

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    Piece By Piece

    And each piece goes with a lot of pain. It's a pity that we take our health for granted.
    LordVoldemort LordVoldemort 36-40, F 13 Responses Apr 5, 2009

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    The doctors now think my uncle may have

    suffered a stroke on top of everything else. I don't want to feel anything anymore.
    blahlahblah599 blahlahblah599 16-17, F Aug 31

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    Moved.......******.........

    well I moved...back to the mainland, the move well dont get me started..long story short the van was very much too small- I booked what my dad told me too!!!!!!!, the only furniture I could move was beds the rest was left behind..literally everything except boxes, and now the man...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 23, 2013

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    I hate this feeling. Everything is crumbling

    down around me. People upset with me at work. The person I am closest to is upset with me. Air Condition unit is out in the house... In TEXAS in JULY! Parents are coming down to visit next weekend so has to be fixed. Truck is starting to act up. Bank account is empty. Everything...
    ballen0420 ballen0420 36-40, M 2 Responses Jul 23

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    Too Young For This.

    I'm 23. 23 years old. Barely an adult and I'm falling to pieces. I've known for a while that I have a connective tissue disorder, little did I know how it would change my life. Up until a few months ago I knew what I wanted to do with my life and how I wanted to get there. I...
    angeldancer angeldancer 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 25, 2013

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    I can't stand myself.

    I was horrible to so many people. I really don't know how i'm going to keep going. My friend killed himself. He was unstable and I treated him like crap. And my dad got early parole and came home today and he keeps influeceing my mom and I know shes not safe. And my sister is...
    LandonS LandonS 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 15

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