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I Am Falling Apart

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    Too Young For This.

    I'm 23. 23 years old. Barely an adult and I'm falling to pieces. I've known for a while that I have a connective tissue disorder, little did I know how it would change my life. Up until a few months ago I knew what I wanted to do with my life and how I wanted to get there. I...
    angeldancer angeldancer 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 25, 2013

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    Piece By Piece

    And each piece goes with a lot of pain. It's a pity that we take our health for granted.
    LordVoldemort LordVoldemort 36-40, F 13 Responses Apr 5, 2009

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    I'm so tired if pretending like everything is

    okay. My relationship doesn't even feel like a relationship anymore. I'm only here to make him happy when he wants to be happy; it doesn't matter how I feel. I'm tired of putting on a face for the world to see when I know that inside, I'm just crumbling. I try to build myself up...
    AmberFranks AmberFranks 18-21, F 4 Responses May 11

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    I really don't know what to do with myself.

    I don't know why but people say I'm annoying and they hate me. I have 3 close friends left. I really don't know what to do. I need people to talk to. Message me.
    King1King King1King 13-15, M Jul 24

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    Moved.......******.........

    well I moved...back to the mainland, the move well dont get me started..long story short the van was very much too small- I booked what my dad told me too!!!!!!!, the only furniture I could move was beds the rest was left behind..literally everything except boxes, and now the man...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 23, 2013

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    Just Done

    this is my last ever i hope i was okay just hate me just hate myself if i am not who i am who am i i would never fall back in her arms
    Sammieangel Sammieangel 18-21, T Jun 14, 2012

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    I am so tired of being tired.

    Being lonely. Being depressed. I've been through so much pain and sorrow in my life. No, I don't want to talk about it. I don't want to tell my long, painful story. I don't want pity. I just want to be the smiling, happy girl that I once was.... </3 - Forever Broken
    BrokenPhoenixx BrokenPhoenixx 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 7

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    I am falling apart right now.

    Its partly my fault, I'm letting everyone walk all over me, and use me however they want, and I don't have the physical strength to stick up for myself anymore, so I'm letting people use me as a door mat. I feel like the few, VERY few people that talk to me daily are only do it...
    AlyAngel AlyAngel 22-25, F Mar 24

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    I really hate what's happened,

    I hate the fact I cant be with you everyday like we used to be, Im falling apart without you.
    Verix Verix 18-21, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    No Fear Though

    A few more drinks and a little velcro and I'll be right as rain. *chugs*
    awhitedot awhitedot 36-40, M 1 Response Nov 30, 2011

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    Yes I am. How to be a heart broken is my thing.

    My love broke my heart by leaving me alone. I am weak. I have no one to feel me or to give me hope. I am still in shock. I can't believe that he left me. How could he? My love used to say whenever I need him, he will be there for me, but his words appear to be just words...
    unknown159231 unknown159231 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 9

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    I don't see how ill ever be able to move

    forward. I just wish i could go back in time so i could relive when we were together.
    BiO811HazarD BiO811HazarD 18-21, M Apr 2

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    sashakimi3 sashakimi3 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 8

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    Lost, Alone, And Fed-up

    I have suffered from depression for most of my life, which is far from being pleasant, but I learned to live with it until February 2012. I had a "cutting" problem since I was 13, but that day in February was the first time it sent me to the hospital. Luckily, it was not on my...
    SammiTay SammiTay 18-21, F Oct 16, 2012

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    I am so upset right now.

    My dad's leaving me again and I am not even there to see him off. I am just now letting myself cry. I have to deal with this friend who over exaggerates stuff! I though she was going to commit suicide! Nope! Just sad over not being able to see people she meet online. Which I get...
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F a week ago

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    salicaria salicaria 18-21, F 1 Response May 11

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    Everything Happens At The Same Time!

    My proxy stops working, that disconnects me from EP, Then my job is in jeopardy, my source of income is dried out! Then I need money to revive my job, and I have to work to get money! I am going to get a loan, it sounds impossible but it's my only chance.
    LordVoldemort LordVoldemort 36-40, F 16 Responses Oct 2, 2010

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    I think about suicide daily.

    Probably more than that. I'm not going to ask for help. I'm resigned to being nothing more than some teenager who killed themself. It's not like I matter anyways. No one really cares enough to stop what they see is happening to me. That's fine, though. I'll just follow through...
    mysteryhatcat mysteryhatcat 16-17, F 21 Responses May 11

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    As I walked along the shore with the sun

    setting, basking everything in its fading rays I saw a little boy with his parents. He splashed in the tide pools laughing without a care in the world. I thought to myself, I was once that little boy, before my spirit was crushed under the weight of the world, forging me into...
    chasethesky4ever chasethesky4ever 26-30, M Mar 8

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    My Username Says It All

    You all probably have to brace yourselves for my story. I didn't have anywhere else to go and what prompted me to rush to Google and start hunting sites to help me out is that I received a message from my ex-boyfriend, prompting my whole life (which I have been trying to rebuild...
    Unlucky2013 Unlucky2013 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 26, 2013

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    Im Scared

    I throw my hands up i'm scared, so scared, I am in this house on my own the stupid ferry was late so I finally got home at 3am, walking in felt so cold, quiet, I have never been here on my own, the house has always been filled with noise, the lightbulb in the hallway had gone so...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 3, 2013

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    Suicide has been sounding better

    and better this weekend. Everything seems wrong. I'm more anxious than usual and everything sends me flashbacks (I suffer from PTSD.) My paranoia is so far off the charts I can't handle it. I feel completely disconnected and alone emotionally. I feel like resorting to my...
    xMayesx xMayesx 16-17, M 1 Response May 11

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    Friendzone

    I have a huge issue with the word "friend." I know it's weird but it's so scary to hear that word sometimes. It's like a dagger in my thoughts from anyone that I like. I overthink, I feel as though everything is going to get ****** up and I end up ruining it anyways because...
    sagesbones sagesbones 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 24, 2013

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    .............................

    The wind blows and the birds fly but I stay, I stay and watch as they all leave. I stand as the rain pours I stand so no one can see the tears that trickle down my face. Behind the crowd I cry, I cry but no one knows. I stand between the strangers, The strangers I once...
    arooj2020 arooj2020 16-17, F Nov 28, 2013

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    And I haven't in years.

    I'm described as emotionally empty, I don't really understand empathy or sympathy. When I try to fake it because it seems like that's what's needed in the moment, I come across as an insincere *****. I figured out a long time ago how to turn everything off. I sleep, I work...
    poisonandwine poisonandwine 26-30, F Mar 17

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    At mums house ~ Two years ago,

    my mum and step dad (Adam) got married. My mum has anger problems, and it seems that it is rubbing off on Adam. My brother and I already get angry easily, so it's like a house full of constant arguments and shouting. I hate it. My mum used to take out her anger on me, by...
    loveyourselfalwaysxx loveyourselfalwaysxx 13-15, F May 7

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    But no one knows. I put on a happy face

    and everyone thinks I'm fine. I'm not fine. Right now.. I would rather be dead then alive.
    blossomingMe blossomingMe 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 24

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    "Isn't it tiring to live like this,

    when nothing is real, when nothing is right, when nothing is true, when nothing made sense? Won't it be easier to just end it all and say, **** you world I'm leavin'?" I wish I can say yes and do so, but I can't. I feel sad, I feel depressed, I feel stressed out, I do want to...
    AlyssaTM AlyssaTM 16-17, F Mar 29

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    Someone I love dearly told me

    once that they didn't understand my depression, and wouldn't pretend they did, but they would do anything they could to help me. That's probably the kindest thing anyone's ever said to me, because they never pretended they understood. I've got to the point where i barely have...
    ForBetterOrForWorse ForBetterOrForWorse 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Broken

    Inside I feel this empty space. It hurts sometimes. It’s always in my heart too. Some days I can ignore it, other days it takes over. The fact is it still remains. It never truly ”goes away.” I can mask it. I am the master of sugarcoating that hollow. But it’s still there...
    Emily26 Emily26 18-21, F Apr 27, 2013

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    My Friend And I Are Growing Apart.

    I feel as if were different people. And we don't have anything to talk about anyone. I am scared.
    happiness8888 happiness8888 13-15, F Oct 27, 2013

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    Mother Is Terminally Ill

    Well...my mother is terminally ill. She's been given ten days and I'm terrified. I've got two younger sisters and a father with PTSD. I hate what I'm going through.
    justmexoxo123 justmexoxo123 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 21, 2013

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    Today has just been one bad thing

    after another... I can't take it anymore
    AmberFranks AmberFranks 18-21, F Jul 24

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    I can't believe I was actually considering

    going out clubbing tonight, like me of all people, who hates socialising like that and who hates drinking, I'm so glad I decided not to go, but the fact I considered it just shows I'm slowly falling apart.
    Verix Verix 18-21, M 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    Im Crumbiling

    i dont know how much more of this i can take...i have over a milllion pepole mad at me at shcool...i have lost the girl i love most in this world due to my deprresion...i am losing more and more fireands by the day and my parents are disgustid with me for being bisexual...i know...
    LelouchZero LelouchZero 18-21, T 2 Responses Aug 30, 2009

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    It's getting at that point

    where I have one person that I can call a friend. My now ex best friend has got the whole school turned against me....I can't go anywhere in the building without out being stared at and pointed at I'm the laughing stalk of the school...also at home it's not to great either... Me...
    Justanobody17 Justanobody17 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 6

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    Im Failing To Keep Strong.

    Its so hard to keep strong,my heart is broken.One day im booming,next im in floods of tears.Why i but my self through this for a man that beat and abuse me so much.I see him the other day,looking al good and healthy,Still in the rehab for drink and gambling.Then theres me...
    whiteangle whiteangle 36-40, F 12 Responses Apr 29, 2010

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    Shattered

    I hate hurting others as I loathe that dreaded feeling of having my feelings hurt, its a frequent thing, though I understand I'm over sensitive, it makes me empathize with others easily. So if I'm the one causing the pain to someone else it's almost unbearable. As a child I...
    Tillydevine82 Tillydevine82 31-35, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    She is perfect. Gets good grades no the highest

    in the class. Has 17 awards for having the highest mark. Broke our school record and is going to life sciences and i think she will also get into med school as well. An extraordinary human. On the other side there is me, who wants to be like her.But so jealous. I am not such a...
    1234abcj 1234abcj 18-21 Jan 3

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    I hate this feeling. Everything is crumbling

    down around me. People upset with me at work. The person I am closest to is upset with me. Air Condition unit is out in the house... In TEXAS in JULY! Parents are coming down to visit next weekend so has to be fixed. Truck is starting to act up. Bank account is empty. Everything...
    ballen0420 ballen0420 36-40, M 1 Response Jul 23

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    I sometimes cry for no real reason except I

    just can't keep myself together any longer.
    TheWaySheFeels3 TheWaySheFeels3 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    People have many ways of expressing their selfs

    to make themselves feel better. No matter what it is like mine is music. I shouldn't say I'm alone. Because I have music. Maybe you might not have a lot of friends. But for example sports is the way you express yourself and get away. You can say I'm not lonely because I have...
    zxmnwendy zxmnwendy 13-15, F Aug 13

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    Protect

    I am slowly falling apart. I don't want to cry anymore. I've recently been told I have ADD, ADHD, and I am suffering from anxiety, depression, and trichotillomania. That's not the worst part though. I am tied together with a smile, but I am quietly coming undone, counting down to...
    littletalks littletalks 18-21, F Mar 10, 2013

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    Depression

    Pain and suffering Present for so long They stick around They're a plague I spread them through contact through coughs, hacks, and speech words dig deep they alter those gases the greens, the blues, the purples all the shades of your vices but as the disease progresses it withers...
    sagesbones sagesbones 18-21, M Feb 24, 2013

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    I can't stand myself.

    I was horrible to so many people. I really don't know how i'm going to keep going. My friend killed himself. He was unstable and I treated him like crap. And my dad got early parole and came home today and he keeps influeceing my mom and I know shes not safe. And my sister is...
    LandonS LandonS 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 15

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    school started a few days ago and ever since then everything has gone downhill. I've lost so many friends, and my boyfriend. i started this school year off all alone, I'm not...
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    We are on the topic of "Divorce!" I'm told how stupid I am every day. How ****** my family is! That I'm a useless idiot, that you can't teach me a thing. I get called a dumb...
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    I've liked this guy since 8th grade, and we've had a thing on and off. He told me a couple days ago he wants to commit himself 101% to me, yet he hasn't texted/messaged me since...
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    I love my husband, but the spark doesn't seem to be there anymore...
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    I've lost everyone I ever cared about. I blamed my actions on the damage that was done to me. I walk around hurting people before they can hurt me. The only two men I've ever...
    mitted mitted 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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