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I Am Falling Apart

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    And I haven't in years.

    I'm described as emotionally empty, I don't really understand empathy or sympathy. When I try to fake it because it seems like that's what's needed in the moment, I come across as an insincere *****. I figured out a long time ago how to turn everything off. I sleep, I work...
    poisonandwine poisonandwine 26-30, F Mar 17

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    As I walked along the shore with the sun

    setting, basking everything in its fading rays I saw a little boy with his parents. He splashed in the tide pools laughing without a care in the world. I thought to myself, I was once that little boy, before my spirit was crushed under the weight of the world, forging me into...
    chasethesky4ever chasethesky4ever 26-30, M Mar 8

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    My Username Says It All

    You all probably have to brace yourselves for my story. I didn't have anywhere else to go and what prompted me to rush to Google and start hunting sites to help me out is that I received a message from my ex-boyfriend, prompting my whole life (which I have been trying to rebuild...
    Unlucky2013 Unlucky2013 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 26, 2013

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    Everything is in a tailspin.

    It seems like all of the decisions I made to better my life are backfiring right now, I just hope all these wires untangle themselves soon.
    Rayonkier Rayonkier 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    Everything Happens At The Same Time!

    My proxy stops working, that disconnects me from EP, Then my job is in jeopardy, my source of income is dried out! Then I need money to revive my job, and I have to work to get money! I am going to get a loan, it sounds impossible but it's my only chance.
    LordVoldemort LordVoldemort 36-40, F 17 Responses Oct 2, 2010

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    Dont Know What To Do

    first off, my boyfriend lives in canada and i live in the US so it is difficult for us to see each other often because of money issues and schooling. anyways, last month, he found out that his uncle got into a car accident and passed away. he didn't know how to react or how to...
    bostongirl101 bostongirl101 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 28, 2012

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    It's getting at that point

    where I have one person that I can call a friend. My now ex best friend has got the whole school turned against me....I can't go anywhere in the building without out being stared at and pointed at I'm the laughing stalk of the school...also at home it's not to great either... Me...
    Justanobody17 Justanobody17 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 6

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    I don't see how ill ever be able to move

    forward. I just wish i could go back in time so i could relive when we were together.
    BiO811HazarD BiO811HazarD 18-21, M Apr 2

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    Too Young For This.

    I'm 23. 23 years old. Barely an adult and I'm falling to pieces. I've known for a while that I have a connective tissue disorder, little did I know how it would change my life. Up until a few months ago I knew what I wanted to do with my life and how I wanted to get there. I...
    angeldancer angeldancer 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 25, 2013

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    Piece By Piece

    And each piece goes with a lot of pain. It's a pity that we take our health for granted.
    LordVoldemort LordVoldemort 36-40, F 13 Responses Apr 5, 2009

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    No Fear Though

    A few more drinks and a little velcro and I'll be right as rain. *chugs*
    awhitedot awhitedot 36-40, M 1 Response Nov 30, 2011

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    I'm Falling Apart

    I'm falling apart,Running rough,Help please,Someone lift my hood,There's something wrong,You've guessed it,I'm becoming a car!
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 5, 2011

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    Memories Lost, Pain Left

    I fear there may be roots spinning down my spine. Roots that have tightened, feeding off the memories of swingsets, and laughter. Roots originating from a tree that's black and fighting death. It thrives helplessly with a leaf or two. There's not enough to satisfy, not enough to...
    sagesbones sagesbones 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 25, 2013

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    Yes I am. How to be a heart broken is my thing.

    My love broke my heart by leaving me alone. I am weak. I have no one to feel me or to give me hope. I am still in shock. I can't believe that he left me. How could he? My love used to say whenever I need him, he will be there for me, but his words appear to be just words...
    unknown159231 unknown159231 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 9

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    Im Failing To Keep Strong.

    Its so hard to keep strong,my heart is broken.One day im booming,next im in floods of tears.Why i but my self through this for a man that beat and abuse me so much.I see him the other day,looking al good and healthy,Still in the rehab for drink and gambling.Then theres me...
    whiteangle whiteangle 36-40, F 11 Responses Apr 29, 2010

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    Depression

    Pain and suffering Present for so long They stick around They're a plague I spread them through contact through coughs, hacks, and speech words dig deep they alter those gases the greens, the blues, the purples all the shades of your vices but as the disease progresses it withers...
    sagesbones sagesbones 18-21, M Feb 24, 2013

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    "Isn't it tiring to live like this,

    when nothing is real, when nothing is right, when nothing is true, when nothing made sense? Won't it be easier to just end it all and say, **** you world I'm leavin'?" I wish I can say yes and do so, but I can't. I feel sad, I feel depressed, I feel stressed out, I do want to...
    AlyssaTM AlyssaTM 16-17, F Mar 29

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    The Good Stuff Never Hits All At Once...

    But of course the bad stuff does. Sometimes I wonder if it's just me-that whom ever is upstairs running the show finds itparticularly entertaining to dump on my life.Things usually go pretty well for me and USUALLY i know how fortunate I am...it could always be worse. But then I...
    lessthanlucky lessthanlucky 22-25 Feb 4, 2012

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    Shattered

    I hate hurting others as I loathe that dreaded feeling of having my feelings hurt, its a frequent thing, though I understand I'm over sensitive, it makes me empathize with others easily. So if I'm the one causing the pain to someone else it's almost unbearable. As a child I...
    Tillydevine82 Tillydevine82 31-35, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Protect

    I am slowly falling apart. I don't want to cry anymore. I've recently been told I have ADD, ADHD, and I am suffering from anxiety, depression, and trichotillomania. That's not the worst part though. I am tied together with a smile, but I am quietly coming undone, counting down to...
    littletalks littletalks 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 10, 2013

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    Empty

    Everyday I try not to feel it. I try to push it away. But it will find me. Creep up when I least expect it. Ruining my day. I can't explain it. I don't know where it came from. I don't know how to make it go away. But this empty feeling I have is slowly killing me inside.
    ElliBunny ElliBunny 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 26, 2013

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    Im Scared

    I throw my hands up i'm scared, so scared, I am in this house on my own the stupid ferry was late so I finally got home at 3am, walking in felt so cold, quiet, I have never been here on my own, the house has always been filled with noise, the lightbulb in the hallway had gone so...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 3, 2013

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    I Keep Avoiding Everything

    My head.... has been a mess lately. I've been trying so hard to avoid to clear obvious bull **** right in front of my face. I can't handle everything on my own. The more I try to distance myself from people, the more I just end up hurting myself. I don't want to need people. I...
    Greeneyedandcurious Greeneyedandcurious 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 22, 2013

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    Friendzone

    I have a huge issue with the word "friend." I know it's weird but it's so scary to hear that word sometimes. It's like a dagger in my thoughts from anyone that I like. I overthink, I feel as though everything is going to get ****** up and I end up ruining it anyways because...
    sagesbones sagesbones 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 24, 2013

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    I am so tired of being tired.

    Being lonely. Being depressed. I've been through so much pain and sorrow in my life. No, I don't want to talk about it. I don't want to tell my long, painful story. I don't want pity. I just want to be the smiling, happy girl that I once was.... </3 - Forever Broken
    BrokenPhoenixx BrokenPhoenixx 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 7

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    I am falling apart right now.

    Its partly my fault, I'm letting everyone walk all over me, and use me however they want, and I don't have the physical strength to stick up for myself anymore, so I'm letting people use me as a door mat. I feel like the few, VERY few people that talk to me daily are only do it...
    AlyAngel AlyAngel 22-25, F Mar 24

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    My Friend And I Are Growing Apart.

    I feel as if were different people. And we don't have anything to talk about anyone. I am scared.
    happiness8888 happiness8888 13-15, F Oct 27, 2013

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    Just Done

    this is my last ever i hope i was okay just hate me just hate myself if i am not who i am who am i i would never fall back in her arms
    Sammieangel Sammieangel 18-21, T Jun 14, 2012

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    If It Means Anything ....

    I have lost another sibling and that leaves only five of us now. Time seems to be racing by and not a lot is getting done as far as getting out of this horrible community. I have tried all that I know to do and nothing is working. Although I am not quite ready to throw in the...
    busybettyboop busybettyboop 46-50, F Dec 1, 2011

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    Tomorrow Never Seems to Come

    Some tomorrows don’t come. Because they weren’t meant too sometimes, but sometimes because we neglect to make sure they will. Sometimes we get so wrapped up in ourselves that we forget that people we expect to always be there can, and if we let them, will be taken...
    Treval Treval 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 6, 2009

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    Falling Apart And Alone

    I am 45 and in the past 3 years have developed numerous health issues.  On the surface most would not suspect.  I am a very busy active professional who appears healthy.  I am overweight but have lost a lot of weight over the past 5 years and am only slightly overweight now...
    almond66 almond66 41-45 2 Responses Nov 8, 2011

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    Broken Road Of Tears

    It started when I was twelve years old. Back in those days nothing really matters though, girls are just mean and boys are just boys. You try to ignore everything that tries to shut you down. I made it through that for the most part. High school came. My high school was a school...
    Sammy1215 Sammy1215 18-21 Mar 27, 2013

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    .............................

    The wind blows and the birds fly but I stay, I stay and watch as they all leave. I stand as the rain pours I stand so no one can see the tears that trickle down my face. Behind the crowd I cry, I cry but no one knows. I stand between the strangers, The strangers I once...
    arooj2020 arooj2020 16-17, F Nov 28, 2013

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    She is perfect. Gets good grades no the highest

    in the class. Has 17 awards for having the highest mark. Broke our school record and is going to life sciences and i think she will also get into med school as well. An extraordinary human. On the other side there is me, who wants to be like her.But so jealous. I am not such a...
    1234abcj 1234abcj 18-21 Jan 3

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    Lost, Alone, And Fed-up

    I have suffered from depression for most of my life, which is far from being pleasant, but I learned to live with it until February 2012. I had a "cutting" problem since I was 13, but that day in February was the first time it sent me to the hospital. Luckily, it was not on my...
    SammiTay SammiTay 18-21, F Oct 16, 2012

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    I sometimes cry for no real reason except I

    just can't keep myself together any longer.
    TheWaySheFeels3 TheWaySheFeels3 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    FML!

    I really don't know what to do with my life. I had a major emotional breakdown just a couple of weeks ago. I went to the hospital and everything because I was completely ready to kill myself.Fortunately after my discussion with the doctor, I realized that F-this. They just want...
    reset reset 18-21, F 10 Responses Apr 5, 2009

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    Broken

    Inside I feel this empty space. It hurts sometimes. It’s always in my heart too. Some days I can ignore it, other days it takes over. The fact is it still remains. It never truly ”goes away.” I can mask it. I am the master of sugarcoating that hollow. But it’s still there...
    Emily26 Emily26 18-21, F Apr 27, 2013

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    I can't stand myself.

    I was horrible to so many people. I really don't know how i'm going to keep going. My friend killed himself. He was unstable and I treated him like crap. And my dad got early parole and came home today and he keeps influeceing my mom and I know shes not safe. And my sister is...
    LandonS LandonS 16-17, M Mar 15

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    Moved.......******.........

    well I moved...back to the mainland, the move well dont get me started..long story short the van was very much too small- I booked what my dad told me too!!!!!!!, the only furniture I could move was beds the rest was left behind..literally everything except boxes, and now the man...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 23, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    ever since we moved and ever since my mom died, we are all now physically alive but emotionally and in terms of living life-- we are dead. My sisters are across the universe...
    Shamandora Shamandora 16-17, F a week ago

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    ever felt as thought everything in your life is just falling apart? right from your work life to your personal life? I know I am still young and have my entire life ahead of me...
    teddybarom teddybarom 22-25, M Mar 29

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    I wake up every morning with the intentions to be a better me and to have a good day but something always ruin those purposes. I'm falling apart and I have no one around to help...
    TheBlackVelma TheBlackVelma 22-25, F Apr 2

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    So this might be long. I do feel like a pretty lucky guy with a lot of blessings.. But I do have a lot of worries about my family which I will express here.. Ok so my family is...
    PhindingPhronesis PhindingPhronesis 16-17, M Mar 30

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    I feel so lost so alone and i wanna cry. i never felt so not my self. i feel like the outcast that nobody want to help but feel sorry for. i becoming so distance from every one...
    thuff01 thuff01 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 29

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    My mum kicked my brother out today. He nearly drink drove last night due to his girlfriend being terrible and he was plastered and we had to take his keys off him and hide them.
    AHelpfulLover AHelpfulLover 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    I had unprotected sex. I know it wasn't smart but it happened. I was supposed to start my period today and didn't. I'm so scared, I'm falling apart. I'm only 17, and my parents...
    RNicole35 RNicole35 16-17, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    One of my best friends, one of the people I lean on, I am falling in love with... I didn't think he would ever want me. Today he told me that he is applying for a military college...
    curveycupcake curveycupcake 18-21, F Apr 8

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    So my first love was a girl. She's the only person I've ever love. It's been three years and well we stopped talking and started talking again I feel like im falling in love with...
    Loovee1C Loovee1C 18-21, F Apr 7

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    I am falling in love all over again. I've been with her for over 5 straight years and I have always loved her. Now our love has hit another level. So yes I am falling in love again...
    Bwlane Bwlane 36-40 Apr 9

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    which is a sad story actually so, hi guys, you can call me Christopher, I'm from Indonesia i realized that i'm gay at 7 years old, at that time there is a hole inside my heart and...
    ChristopherLeardno ChristopherLeardno 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 21

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    So, I recently met a boy that I get all tingly and giggly about. Y'know, the good ol' teenage crush. I guess you can't say its falling in love, but still, it could happen. If you...
    fallingintowonderrland fallingintowonderrland 16-17, F Mar 22

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    I love falling asleep to the sound of rain, I think it's rhythmic and really soothing. It's colder when it rains too and that makes my bed feel 100 times more comfortable :)
    MINIONPOP MINIONPOP 16-17 1 Response Mar 23

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    I am falling for a crossdresser. I love him and who he is and I would never change him. I told my family, which consist of my mother and sister. Mom was accepting, my sister was...
    bbsw1963 bbsw1963 46-50, F 2 Responses Mar 24

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    I believe that I am falling in love with a guy who died less than 2 years ago. He would have been in his late 30s had he lived. I wondered what it will be like if he were alive...
    erykah123 erykah123 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 27

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