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I Am Fearful of Heartbreak

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 120 People

    Adam

    <p style="__styledocument: [object]">I started going out with my ex on November 25, 2007.  We spent a ton of time together and we were very close. I was very protective of myself and thought a lot before doing things such as having sex. Before we had sex I made him...
    Graciepie Graciepie 16-17 1 Response Mar 20, 2009

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    Petrified ...

    the thought of going through it again almost makes me break into hives ...I dont like to open my feelings up anyways just because i dont like to make myself vulnerable to any one and give them the chance to hurt me .. so normally i dont let any one know how i feel , because i...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F Jan 11, 2008

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    Too Late

    Broke my heart with his cheating ways, gave me a complex and now I'm a broken down, disposable former shell of what I once was. I am no longer who or what I was before all of this. I'll never trust again, I'll never be the same. I am broken and nothing will fix that.
    NorthernOntarioMama NorthernOntarioMama 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 14, 2011

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    It Always Ends The Same Way

    Have no idea how to start this. I've been in relationships with women, some serious, some not so much. None of them are similar and none of them have anything in common. Yet my relationships always end the same. They slowly cut back on the communication, the sentence "I'm way...
    bluequasi bluequasi 31-35, M 4 Responses Feb 16, 2010

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    Cross My Fingers...

    I am fearful of heart break the people I love always let me down some way or another. It never fails. My father was never there he is only there when it conveniences him. My mother I love her and miss the relationship we had, she can be a little too overwhelming for me. My...
    MiseducatedChik MiseducatedChik 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 23, 2008

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    "I'm gonna live my life Like every day's the

    last Without a simple goodbye It all goes by so fast Gonna open my eyes And see for the first time I let go of you like A child letting go of his kite There it goes, up in the sky There it goes, beyond the clouds For no reason why..." (Can't Cry Hard Enough)
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 30, 2014

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    Heartbreak Can Kill Slowly

    Some people may have a problem with the fact that I am only 16, but I do not think age is the relevant thing in a situation of having your heart broken. My first real crush hit me when i was 13 and lasted for two and a half years. I thought I truly liked this guy, Ben...
    Amari Amari 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2008

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    Fearful scared Idk what I should do?

    Run now? I wish I could. T_T
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 23, 2014

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    My First Everything, Don't Be My First Heartbreak...

    Four years... I have been with him for four years. In a sense... We've only actually been dating for a little over three, but I've been with him for four unofficially. He was my first kiss, he is my first love, and he took all my other firsts that you can think of. Every single...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 26, 2011

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    It Frikkin Hurt. This Is My Truth.

    I guess I was pretty stupid. I was also pretty young... I had known Travis for two years and I was only in eighth grade. I feel ridiculous looking back, seeing how little I was. I wish I could understand reality then as I do now. We'd talked to each other, liked each other, been...
    Lyndsie Lyndsie 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 18, 2009

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    Riddles and rhymes nobody has time.

    Only you can see in my heart what pulled me apart. Don't ask too much you'll know in my touch. With every sigh you look to the sky. I pull you deep within as you touch my skin Only you will know how much I can show I prey you come here I need you near.
    HotMessExpress101 HotMessExpress101 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    Still Bearing the Scars From Last Time

    I was a bit of a slow starter with boys at school and only got into my first ever relationship about 2 and a half years ago.  He'd had a girlfriend when we met, but I didn't know him that well at all to start with.  They split up, and he started texting / chatting to me...
    buttercup21 buttercup21 18-21, F Jul 23, 2009

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    Heartbreak and Me... It's Devastating!!

    It does not help to tell yourself after your first heartbreak that "the one" will follow and you will not feel that way again.  Because i'm living proof that i had my heart broken twice now... I do not understand what leads us down the path with the unworthy...
    Ella06 Ella06 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 28, 2008

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    The first time a guy broke my heart I pushed

    myself to be normal again.. I started acting normal.. Pretending that it didn't actually happen... Making excuses twisting the truth blah blah... But then it happened again and again and again and I can't pretend anymore because I feel there's something wrong with ME which is...
    LaraLuulu LaraLuulu 26-30, F 5 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    I can put up a big front.

    .. Put a smile on my face, be strong, and whisper my own encouraging words. Tonight I am fearful... I'm playing what if. What if I never become what I aspire to be? I will be strong, play Russian roulette. I pray I am not a disappointment, and someone catches me if I fall.
    HotMessExpress101 HotMessExpress101 31-35, F 3 Responses Jan 5

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    Tear Stained Lips...

    I remember when we used to be so intimate with each other. The way he would kiss me and even touch me. It would over whelm my body. I felt like I couldn't give him more of my body fast enough. It was a euphoric drunkeness that I lusted for and I loved it because I believed he...
    SimoneDalliance SimoneDalliance 18-21, F Sep 29, 2012

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    Disappearing can be quite the coping mechanism

    for those of us who fear abandonment the very most of all. If we disappear, you have to find us. You're the one who worries. We know where we are, but you can't leave me. I'm in charge and doing the leaving. Not the other way around. "Sometimes the clearest mirrors come from...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F Nov 27, 2014

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    Internet Heartbreak

    September 2008 was the year and month that I found somebody who made me feel strong and alive again. His name was Benjamin, we talked over the internet as I am from Hertfordshire and he was from Walsall; we talked about anything and everything, litterally, I NEVER pretended to be...
    cuppygirl cuppygirl 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2010

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    The Goodbyes

    Something I wrote on a really bad day.Why would I say goodbye to someone I have pictured having in the rest of my life, the person that I cannot imagine tomorrow without them in it? Why would I want to say goodbye to someone that knows me better than I know myself? Why would I...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 15 Responses Mar 19, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    I had so many relationships. I've tried dating a guy who's been my childhood boy friend and ended up like in denial relationship. And then I've dated a girl for 6 months but she...
    Achelle07 Achelle07 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 3

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    Okay so what do you do when you felt a feeling you have never felt before with someone like love at first sight. You even experience making love for the first time witH this person...
    kpweant1 kpweant1 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 9

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    Great heartbreak movie: (500) Days of Summer ... has a happy ending :)
    bleubyrd bleubyrd 26-30, F Jan 21

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    So much better than Johnny Thunders and the Heartbreakers! 
    SavannahAnsley SavannahAnsley 41-45, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    me and this guy were just starting out. we didnt even go on any dates yet! we barely started. and it turns out he was just a player. cant stand to look at him.
    mysteriousnite mysteriousnite 13-15, F 15 hrs ago

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    GodsGurl69 GodsGurl69 61-65, F 1 hr ago

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    I'm trying to overcome it. It's difficult but not 100% impossible. I will get there, it takes time but it is making my new relationship hard. Something has triggered it. I've...
    topsykrit topsykrit 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Am I the only one who's tired of getting into a relationship? Am I the only one who realized that I'm still not mature enough to deal with relationships? It's been a long and bumpy...
    ProjectGirlThings ProjectGirlThings 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    I am in love with someone who used to be in love with me and I feel still is, but they broke up with me almost 5 months ago. I look back at memories pictures and songs and cry...
    mer1238 mer1238 13-15, F Jan 4

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    Johndoe10000 Johndoe10000 46-50, M Jan 7

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    It was one day in the month of October when I met him, I met him on a website he sent me a message and I replied to it, on October the 31st after chatting for about a week he asked...
    Marlenyfl83 Marlenyfl83 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 7

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    and it feels pretty damned good (most of the time). Getting back to me... Woot!
    canthinkofanything canthinkofanything 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    10 years since we were 17... how do you finally move on after giving a person chance after chance after chance... if anyone knows the answer, please tell me... I feel useless.
    CharlotteTeller CharlotteTeller 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    I tell myself and everyone that I hate this guy so much so I don't fall for him again and get heartbroken a second time
    littlelup littlelup 16-17, F Jan 12

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    I'm actually at a point where I am content with myself. I'm starting to see some light... A little. I'm doin my thing tryin to stay busy and staying in school. But I lie awake at...
    kpweant1 kpweant1 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 12

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    I always seem to put my heart out there for people who can't possibly appreciate it. I am just stupid hopeful sometimes. I am so overwhelmingly sad right now I can't even be a...
    Smilechik Smilechik 31-35, F 4 days ago

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    In my reveries a thousand words I often share with you-I know not why? But when I face you I remain silent.I retreat-I know not Why? My heart weeps.No more it weaves dream...
    winterfall winterfall 36-40 4 days ago

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    have lost all feeling for my cheating gf of 7yrs ??
    frankie2114 frankie2114 22-25, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    it's hard sometimes when you think you have the most perfect relationship that will never end but yet there are cracks and some nights you feel alone and then after a while you get...
    queenofthesouthpaw queenofthesouthpaw 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    You ask me do I understand, I reply“yes” I do, but honestly my dear I don’t believe this is true. For what really is “understanding” ??? When I am so far away from You...
    winterfall winterfall 36-40 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I find it sad and frustrating in the world that we live in that people still find hatred towards the lesbian and gay community. I know people do not accept change very well and are...
    Jessy1414 Jessy1414 13-15, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    I never told her. All I remember was all the stupid things I've ever said to her accidentally. She messaged me. I haven't messaged her back. I received it 3 months ago. I can't...
    charkzilla20 charkzilla20 16-17, M 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    Getting over a heartbreak . Starts as this deep intense pain that you're not sure you will ever get over . You become numb , you get used to living with it......but with time , it...
    Tristee Tristee 36-40, F 3 hrs ago

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    Hunter Hayes - Somebody's Heartbreak Lyrics I'd love to know just what you're thinkin' Every little river, runnin' through your mind You give and you take You come and you go...
    sherrianna sherrianna 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I find attachment styles interesting. We all develop one of the 4 styles..secure, anxious preoccupied, dismissive avoidant and fearful avoidant. The theory is that you develop...
    sartur sartur 36-40, F 12 Responses 5 days ago

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    I think many people can relate to this song in one way or another. Reaching Out by Caroline Pennell Young in denial, stopped for a while, waiting on a boy to change. She's...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 16

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    Hi all. It's been a while since I posted... I once said that falling in love is falling in love (no matter what situation you're in). Heartbreak is also heartbreak... Here's...
    Koalaclover Koalaclover 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 17

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    I dreamed that I happened upon what looked like a large copper colored slug of sorts. This was in my home. It had taken over a pet sized bed that had some sort of food in it...
    cdeeper cdeeper 46-50, F Jan 2

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    "Can I find love again?" When you lose your spouse you often re-examine what love really is. You may feel unlovable and even be afraid that you will never be in love again. This...