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I Am Fearful of Heartbreak

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    If this relationship doesn't work I'm going to

    therapy. Not because I'm crazy or anything but to figure out why I keep getting into relationships knowing full well i'm a coward. Idk, I'm still really offended that my bf kept saying alright. And he hasn't spoken to me at all today so I know he was angry about something that...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F Mar 28

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    The last time I fell

    for someone, I became so aware. So aware of many senses, emotional and physical experiences and feelings; some I didn't know I was capable of. I learned a lot from it, but the result of it also made me scared to feel all of that again just to end again.
    StillBecomingaButterfly StillBecomingaButterfly 36-40, F Mar 30

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    My First Everything, Don't Be My First Heartbreak...

    Four years... I have been with him for four years. In a sense... We've only actually been dating for a little over three, but I've been with him for four unofficially. He was my first kiss, he is my first love, and he took all my other firsts that you can think of. Every single...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 26, 2011

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    It Frikkin Hurt. This Is My Truth.

    I guess I was pretty stupid. I was also pretty young... I had known Travis for two years and I was only in eighth grade. I feel ridiculous looking back, seeing how little I was. I wish I could understand reality then as I do now. We'd talked to each other, liked each other, been...
    Lyndsie Lyndsie 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 18, 2009

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    Fearful scared Idk what I should do?

    Run now? I wish I could. T_T
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 23, 2014

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    I can put up a big front.

    .. Put a smile on my face, be strong, and whisper my own encouraging words. Tonight I am fearful... I'm playing what if. What if I never become what I aspire to be? I will be strong, play Russian roulette. I pray I am not a disappointment, and someone catches me if I fall.
    HotMessExpress101 HotMessExpress101 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    Still Bearing the Scars From Last Time

    I was a bit of a slow starter with boys at school and only got into my first ever relationship about 2 and a half years ago.  He'd had a girlfriend when we met, but I didn't know him that well at all to start with.  They split up, and he started texting / chatting to me...
    buttercup21 buttercup21 18-21, F Jul 23, 2009

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    Internet Heartbreak

    September 2008 was the year and month that I found somebody who made me feel strong and alive again. His name was Benjamin, we talked over the internet as I am from Hertfordshire and he was from Walsall; we talked about anything and everything, litterally, I NEVER pretended to be...
    cuppygirl cuppygirl 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2010

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    Too Late

    Broke my heart with his cheating ways, gave me a complex and now I'm a broken down, disposable former shell of what I once was. I am no longer who or what I was before all of this. I'll never trust again, I'll never be the same. I am broken and nothing will fix that.
    NorthernOntarioMama NorthernOntarioMama 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 14, 2011

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    Heartbreak and Me... It's Devastating!!

    It does not help to tell yourself after your first heartbreak that "the one" will follow and you will not feel that way again.  Because i'm living proof that i had my heart broken twice now... I do not understand what leads us down the path with the unworthy...
    Ella06 Ella06 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 28, 2008

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    Adam

    <p style="__styledocument: [object]">I started going out with my ex on November 25, 2007.  We spent a ton of time together and we were very close. I was very protective of myself and thought a lot before doing things such as having sex. Before we had sex I made him...
    Graciepie Graciepie 16-17 1 Response Mar 20, 2009

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    Heartbreak Can Kill Slowly

    Some people may have a problem with the fact that I am only 16, but I do not think age is the relevant thing in a situation of having your heart broken. My first real crush hit me when i was 13 and lasted for two and a half years. I thought I truly liked this guy, Ben...
    Amari Amari 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2008

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    Cross My Fingers...

    I am fearful of heart break the people I love always let me down some way or another. It never fails. My father was never there he is only there when it conveniences him. My mother I love her and miss the relationship we had, she can be a little too overwhelming for me. My...
    MiseducatedChik MiseducatedChik 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 23, 2008

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    Riddles and rhymes nobody has time.

    Only you can see in my heart what pulled me apart. Don't ask too much you'll know in my touch. With every sigh you look to the sky. I pull you deep within as you touch my skin Only you will know how much I can show I prey you come here I need you near.
    HotMessExpress101 HotMessExpress101 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    Petrified ...

    the thought of going through it again almost makes me break into hives ...I dont like to open my feelings up anyways just because i dont like to make myself vulnerable to any one and give them the chance to hurt me .. so normally i dont let any one know how i feel , because i...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F Jan 11, 2008

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    It Always Ends The Same Way

    Have no idea how to start this. I've been in relationships with women, some serious, some not so much. None of them are similar and none of them have anything in common. Yet my relationships always end the same. They slowly cut back on the communication, the sentence "I'm way...
    bluequasi bluequasi 31-35, M 4 Responses Feb 16, 2010

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    Tear Stained Lips...

    I remember when we used to be so intimate with each other. The way he would kiss me and even touch me. It would over whelm my body. I felt like I couldn't give him more of my body fast enough. It was a euphoric drunkeness that I lusted for and I loved it because I believed he...
    SimoneDalliance SimoneDalliance 18-21, F Sep 29, 2012

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    The Goodbyes

    Something I wrote on a really bad day.Why would I say goodbye to someone I have pictured having in the rest of my life, the person that I cannot imagine tomorrow without them in it? Why would I want to say goodbye to someone that knows me better than I know myself? Why would I...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 15 Responses Mar 19, 2011

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    The first time a guy broke my heart I pushed

    myself to be normal again.. I started acting normal.. Pretending that it didn't actually happen... Making excuses twisting the truth blah blah... But then it happened again and again and again and I can't pretend anymore because I feel there's something wrong with ME which is...
    LaraLuulu LaraLuulu 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    I am probably a glaring example of what a Scorpio is and represents, but I won't apologize for it. It has made me tough enough to withstand the pain of heartbreak and also kept me...
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    Miley is a superstar ! She show the side of this world , everyone wanna crazy inside !! I feel she is a true girl ! Plus , I believe she is a heartbreaking for Liam , her ex BF...
    NoneEver NoneEver 22-25, F 3 hrs ago

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    Hi all- yes I am new.. been sneaking around for a while and I share all feelings and tears with each one of you. I am married with children, he is married with none. Been together...
    bella1306 bella1306 36-40, F 8 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I miss you so much. But I know what you're doing, and it breaks my heart. I've shed so many tears over you, sometimes I feel like you've caused me more pain than joy. I wonder if...
    lurkingscorpio lurkingscorpio 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    Trust me. I know how it feels. I know exactly how it feels to cry in the shower so no one can hear you. I know what it's like to wait for everyone to be asleep so you can fall...
    Pinaybarbie Pinaybarbie 31-35, F 2 days ago

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    I wanted to write this for everyone who's going through a heartbreak including myself. Today is the day. It's time to move on, we already know how a heartbreak looks like but we...
    American19 American19 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I am 50, Jewish, Male (I say this in case other people share my background it might make then feel better that they are not alone). I am very depressed right now. I have been...
    badman50 badman50 46-50, M 4 days ago

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    My husband John was so easy to love. He was so good for me in so many ways. He brought out the best in me. I miss him every minute of everyday. I feel him close sometimes and it...
    IPleadthe5th IPleadthe5th 41-45 11 Responses 4 days ago

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    I am a presently a government employee, i received bonuses and other incentives in my almost more than a year of working but despite the fact that this is my first job since i...
    cheska378 cheska378 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    I know my ex boy friend from Social media since 2009. He is from Sri Lanka n I'm from Malaysia. We were became friends in Social media friends n used to chat once in a while. And...
    leenaDV87 leenaDV87 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    As I was erasing my sent messages and old emails, I stumbled upon our old email exchanges. Constantly... I'd say I love you... Constantly you'd reply w/ I love you. Now... Now that...
    ComplicatedWounded ComplicatedWounded 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    Hi Folks Well, in 2009 while working to try and get through a work-related (and marriage-related, although unbeknownst to me at the time) burnout, I wrote my fist post on...
    Mrcellophane Mrcellophane 36-40, M 1 Response a week ago

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    The Power of expression I am 27. Uptill now, I felt that I have been very expressive in sharing what I feel. I felt I am straightforward. But when I look back, I realized that it...
    Xpressionist Xpressionist 26-30, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I have investigated paranormal or psi phenomena for some 20 years. This includes taking hundreds of photographs of energy phenomena and the portals they travel through, a...
    MacGreg MacGreg 66-70, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    I saw forever in YOU and I. Others did too. BUT YOU DIDN'T SEE FOREVER. You chose to do things that can make it END. Now... How can I still love you like you've never hurt me...
    ComplicatedWounded ComplicatedWounded 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    Someone can ask me why I resent you so much but it's emotions that I've battled with for years. I know you didn't want me even when I was in my mothers womb... Then you brought us...
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    Not afraid to commit actually, I'm full on board if/when the time comes. I guess the "non commital" part comes from the fact I'm afraid I'll never make him happy for one. Two, we...
    Lov3intheasylum Lov3intheasylum 31-35, F Aug 22

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    Considering my childhood was bloody and fearful I'd be far more messed up if I was still 'sane'. Not to mention all kinds of messed up choices growing up. I won't claim sanity but...
    4thGeneration 4thGeneration 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 21

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    I wrote few days earlier a farewell post about my dearest friend but today I want to announce I was mistaken. I never lost my dearest friend, I thought he was, I wanted him to be...
    StrongWoman9 StrongWoman9 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 20

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    No, of course I’m not all totally sorted. Healing is a journey and it occurs one part, one step, one moment, one layer at a time. I have received much clarity over a period of...
    Injoy1767 Injoy1767 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    Just found out he was definitely seeing someone else while he was still sleeping with me. I'd like to throw up but he's not really worth that kind of a reaction. I haven't spoken...
    katariffik katariffik 31-35, F 4 Responses Aug 19

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    "Anyone who walks away from me, I give them roller-skates. They walk away because of them, not because of me. They walk away because they have a fearful story that has nothing...
    Injoy1767 Injoy1767 46-50, F Aug 19