I Am Fearful of Heartbreak

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 149 People

    The last time I fell

    for someone, I became so aware. So aware of many senses, emotional and physical experiences and feelings; some I didn't know I was capable of. I learned a lot from it, but the result of it also made me scared to feel all of that again just to end again.
    StillBecomingaButterfly StillBecomingaButterfly
    36-40, F
    Mar 30, 2015

    Petrified ...

    the thought of going through it again almost makes me break into hives ...I dont like to open my feelings up anyways just because i dont like to make myself vulnerable to any one and give them the chance to hurt me .. so normally i dont let any one know how i feel , because i...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme
    26-30, F
    Jan 11, 2008

    Cross My Fingers...

    I am fearful of heart break the people I love always let me down some way or another. It never fails. My father was never there he is only there when it conveniences him. My mother I love her and miss the relationship we had, she can be a little too overwhelming for me. My...
    MiseducatedChik MiseducatedChik
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 23, 2008

    Internet Heartbreak

    September 2008 was the year and month that I found somebody who made me feel strong and alive again. His name was Benjamin, we talked over the internet as I am from Hertfordshire and he was from Walsall; we talked about anything and everything, litterally, I NEVER pretended to be...
    cuppygirl cuppygirl
    16-17, F
    1 Response Dec 17, 2010

    Still Bearing the Scars From Last Time

    I was a bit of a slow starter with boys at school and only got into my first ever relationship about 2 and a half years ago.  He'd had a girlfriend when we met, but I didn't know him that well at all to start with.  They split up, and he started texting / chatting to me...
    buttercup21 buttercup21
    18-21, F
    Jul 23, 2009

    Another Night in HeartBreak HollywoodWoke up,

    around 4pm,springtime’s sunlight,through my bedroom window shining in,I’m in a house,somewhere off Mulholland,had a call from an ex Brazilian lover,she was staying only 10 minutes away,so I stretched,showered,hoped in the Benz,opened the sunroof and headed her way...
    AaronLA AaronLA
    31-35, M
    Apr 3

    Tear Stained Lips...

    I remember when we used to be so intimate with each other. The way he would kiss me and even touch me. It would over whelm my body. I felt like I couldn't give him more of my body fast enough. It was a euphoric drunkeness that I lusted for and I loved it because I believed he...
    SimoneDalliance SimoneDalliance
    18-21, F
    Sep 29, 2012

    Heartbreak and Me... It's Devastating!!

    It does not help to tell yourself after your first heartbreak that "the one" will follow and you will not feel that way again.  Because i'm living proof that i had my heart broken twice now... I do not understand what leads us down the path with the unworthy...
    Ella06 Ella06
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 28, 2008

    My First Everything, Don't Be My First Heartbreak...

    Four years... I have been with him for four years. In a sense... We've only actually been dating for a little over three, but I've been with him for four unofficially. He was my first kiss, he is my first love, and he took all my other firsts that you can think of. Every single...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Sep 26, 2011

    Too Late

    Broke my heart with his cheating ways, gave me a complex and now I'm a broken down, disposable former shell of what I once was. I am no longer who or what I was before all of this. I'll never trust again, I'll never be the same. I am broken and nothing will fix that.
    NorthernOntarioMama NorthernOntarioMama
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jul 14, 2011

    Heartbreak Can Kill Slowly

    Some people may have a problem with the fact that I am only 16, but I do not think age is the relevant thing in a situation of having your heart broken. My first real crush hit me when i was 13 and lasted for two and a half years. I thought I truly liked this guy, Ben...
    Amari Amari
    16-17, F
    1 Response Dec 20, 2008

    It Frikkin Hurt. This Is My Truth.

    I guess I was pretty stupid. I was also pretty young... I had known Travis for two years and I was only in eighth grade. I feel ridiculous looking back, seeing how little I was. I wish I could understand reality then as I do now. We'd talked to each other, liked each other, been...
    Lyndsie Lyndsie
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 18, 2009

    The Goodbyes

    Something I wrote on a really bad day.Why would I say goodbye to someone I have pictured having in the rest of my life, the person that I cannot imagine tomorrow without them in it? Why would I want to say goodbye to someone that knows me better than I know myself? Why would I...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
    41-45, F
    15 Responses Mar 19, 2011

    Adam

    <p style="__styledocument: [object]">I started going out with my ex on November 25, 2007.  We spent a ton of time together and we were very close. I was very protective of myself and thought a lot before doing things such as having sex. Before we had sex I made him...
    Graciepie Graciepie
    16-17
    1 Response Mar 20, 2009

    It Always Ends The Same Way

    Have no idea how to start this. I've been in relationships with women, some serious, some not so much. None of them are similar and none of them have anything in common. Yet my relationships always end the same. They slowly cut back on the communication, the sentence "I'm way...
    bluequasi bluequasi
    31-35, M
    4 Responses Feb 16, 2010

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    This is something so painful that only people experiencing this will truly understand ... I'm from Australia , Sydney in particular I've known this guy since 15 mind you we fell...
    Lydiaaellise Lydiaaellise
    18-21, F
    Apr 21
    I had been contemplating writing something here, but decided to go ahead. This place has been a place of laughter, dreams, helpfulness, heartbreak and so much more. I have made...
    AwakenEdge AwakenEdge
    41-45, F
    1 Response Apr 21
    Its helped me with my heartbreak, helped me feel less broken, hey, avoidance and distraction are valid coping mechanisms, right?To all who have shared a space on a page, a piece of...
    brokencowboy brokencowboy
    41-45, M
    Apr 21
    I'm wishing everyone the best on their journey when I first joined here I was very depressed and heartbroken feeling lost. I'm glad to say I'm feeling a lot better still have...
    Devinefaith Devinefaith
    26-30, F
    Apr 21
    I will miss EP This place has helped shape some life changing events for me I have found love I have experienced heartbreak I have tasted loss And I have learned a lot Thank you...
    rexwalker rexwalker
    36-40, M
    1 Response Apr 21
    Everything really does have an ending, huh? I think that it's a good thing EP is closing ever so soon. Sad? Why, Yes. Good? Absolutely. It's good that EP is ending. Why...
    musicvideographer musicvideographer
    31-35, M
    Apr 20
    Goodbye EP thanks for everything. It's really heartbreaking seeing everyone saying goodbye to EP I am so out of words.
    PiecingMeBackTogether PiecingMeBackTogether
    22-25, M
    Apr 20
    I found myself had feeling to girl since I was probably 12.It's hard to feel normal now.I don't even know how feels 'normal' should be like.I had involved myself with several girls...
    innocentkiller91 innocentkiller91
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 20
    Hello everyone, my name is Maria & I turn 18 this friday... I just wanted to share a small story to you all.Two years ago I had the biggest heartbreak ever, got cheated on.I wanted...
    majesticwalls majesticwalls
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Apr 18
    ok, I never thought of posting this but since ep is closing I thought it would help It was two years ago that this happened, but it started much before that, a friend of mine. in...
    guiltyofinnocence guiltyofinnocence
    18-21, T
    2 Responses Apr 18
    "Loving too hard is one of my biggest weaknesses. I find myself constantly putting in more than I ever get and probably ever will get. Heartbreak is my best friend, we go way back...
    ToughKitty ToughKitty
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Apr 17
    With the end near and seeing some of the negativity that has been presented about EP, I wanted to take a few moments and tell everyone about the positive that EP brought to my...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
    41-45, F
    12 Responses Apr 16
    Rather than fearfully shutting down your sensitivity, dive in deeper into all possible feeling. As you expand, keep only those who are not afraid of oceans.
    iamnotperfect iamnotperfect
    26-30, F
    Apr 16
    I've said it before, but this is mostly self-inflicted. My true personality is soft, frail, gentle, fearful, not the hot, confident, stubborn person I come across as. I'm the...
    AsYetNameless AsYetNameless
    13-15, T
    Apr 14
    I know the feeling of heartbreak I know the feeling of losing hope The world is against you No one cares, so you just cut all your ties They won't notice But then they do And...
    Smileydork Smileydork
    16-17, F
    Apr 14
    HUMAN BEHAVIOUR AND MONEY Human beings - the most complicated and mentally ****** up of all creatures inhabiting Planet Earth. My landlord,  in March 2015, knocked my door and...
    TNTandCHOCOLATE TNTandCHOCOLATE
    31-35
    2 Responses Apr 12
    I have lived with my fiancé for about 3 years and utterly HATE his dog. He has a 50lb Rottweiler/pitbul mix and it's HORRIBLE. So far.. - it's bitten 3 people (one of them was my...
    Chambers1426 Chambers1426
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 12
    "Silence" The quiet scares me Perhaps because It reminds me I'm alone Thoughts unspoken Mind racing Unknowledgeable Unaware Ever fearful Of impending doom Silent killer...
    Smileydork Smileydork
    16-17, F
    Apr 12
    When you let someone have the power of your state of mind, that’s when you realise you’re in such a dangerous space. Letting them protrude every corridor of your mind to the...
    trying2forgetyou trying2forgetyou
    22-25, F
    Apr 12
    I feel like the dream realm is where it's at. I go to sleep, and I dream. When I'm dreaming there's no pain. No heartbreak. No drama. No flaws. In my dreams, I'm perfect and happy...
    Heroprincess2207 Heroprincess2207
    13-15, F
    Apr 11
    My world, my ways and all my views are based on past, present and can either be exciting or fearful, when looking ahead by looking at what I believe You can do for me. Father by...
    meto2015 meto2015
    41-45, F
    1 Response Apr 11
    My world, my ways and all my views are based on past, present and can either be exciting or fearful, when looking ahead by looking at what I believe You can do for me. Father by...
    meto2015 meto2015
    41-45, F
    Apr 11
    My world, my ways and all my views are based on past, present and can either be exciting or fearful, when looking ahead by looking at what I believe You can do for me. Father by...
    meto2015 meto2015
    41-45, F
    Apr 11
    11/04/2016 - It's crazy to think that in a couple hours I will be the big 30! If I'm being honest I'm not really looking forward to it and I guess at the same time I'm...
    shecanonlydream shecanonlydream
    26-30, F
    Apr 11
    I have come to believe that i am Emphatic recently. Does it hurt to feel hatred towards a certain person? I feel very weak when absorbing negative thoughts from the people who are...
    shaymd shaymd
    22-25
    1 Response Apr 11
    Life can suck, it's full of users, liars, ********, etc. People that don't think twice about how their actions or behavior towards people will affect them. This is just the sad...
    kk1874 kk1874
    31-35, F
    Apr 10
    She is asleepShe is off dancing among the starsPlaying with Orion’s beltCaught by Sagittarius’s arrowWishing that fancy cupid to hellShe is off in the distant...
    nocool nocool
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Apr 10
    My 8 friends: different personalities whom I was just beginning to get to know...I love them all. petey, you were Solegne's first friend. Take all the time to heal, my dear. One...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Apr 10
    I regret my abortion that I had on April 7th, 2016 because of the fact that my boyfriend was with me and he was supportive. And then the next day, he broke up with me on Facebook...
    kmar2 kmar2
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 10
    I can't say this enough , I love Arab men but it's not many in my area .. I see a few at the. Gas stations , but unfortunately it's not quiet the same , as the ones I've met...
    Prettibrowngirl Prettibrowngirl
    70+, F
    Apr 10
    https://youtu.be/m65U56sG-Ew your letter of goodbye is written on the walls of heartbreak
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 9
    So today went smoothly. Until the hospice nurse came to tell me Mr W is in his last hours! Heartbreaking, he's a sweetheart,I hugged him, kissed him, told him I love him, held his...
    hotlatinamomma hotlatinamomma
    36-40, F
    1 Response Apr 8
    So many times I feel unloved and pushed away, when I try to help. Loving someone with a Border Line Personality Disorder is heartbreaking the at times, and can be very lonely.
    InterestedMe123 InterestedMe123
    51-55, M
    4 Responses Apr 8
    About a week ago, a friend and I were out birdwatching when we decided to check in a field for a bird we were looking for. Instead of seeing the bird, however, we were greeted with...
    ViperaStellaris ViperaStellaris
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Apr 8
    Wow I can't believe that I'm even writing about this they say writing is therapeutic and I always used to write but haven't in 5 years when my life changed forever. I always knew...
    Danielleirisgene Danielleirisgene
    31-35, F
    Apr 7
    It's so stupid how you've feeling so good one moment then you just want to cry your eyes out the next. The feeling of worthlessness even how good and nice you are to people is so...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    Apr 6
    It's so stupid how you've feeling so good one moment then you just want to cry your eyes out the next. The feeling of worthlessness even how good and nice you are to people is so...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 6
    It's so stupid how you've feeling so good one moment then you just want to cry your eyes out the next. The feeling of worthlessness even how good and nice you are to people is so...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 6
    It's so stupid how you've feeling so good one moment then you just want to cry your eyes out the next. The feeling of worthlessness even how good and nice you are to people is so...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Apr 6
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