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I Am Fearful of Heartbreak

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    Cross My Fingers...

    I am fearful of heart break the people I love always let me down some way or another. It never fails. My father was never there he is only there when it conveniences him. My mother I love her and miss the relationship we had, she can be a little too overwhelming for me. My...
    MiseducatedChik MiseducatedChik 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 23, 2008

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    "I'm gonna live my life Like every day's the

    last Without a simple goodbye It all goes by so fast Gonna open my eyes And see for the first time I let go of you like A child letting go of his kite There it goes, up in the sky There it goes, beyond the clouds For no reason why..." (Can't Cry Hard Enough)
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 30

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    Too Late

    Broke my heart with his cheating ways, gave me a complex and now I'm a broken down, disposable former shell of what I once was. I am no longer who or what I was before all of this. I'll never trust again, I'll never be the same. I am broken and nothing will fix that.
    NorthernOntarioMama NorthernOntarioMama 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 14, 2011

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    Still Bearing the Scars From Last Time

    I was a bit of a slow starter with boys at school and only got into my first ever relationship about 2 and a half years ago.  He'd had a girlfriend when we met, but I didn't know him that well at all to start with.  They split up, and he started texting / chatting to me...
    buttercup21 buttercup21 18-21, F Jul 23, 2009

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    My First Everything, Don't Be My First Heartbreak...

    Four years... I have been with him for four years. In a sense... We've only actually been dating for a little over three, but I've been with him for four unofficially. He was my first kiss, he is my first love, and he took all my other firsts that you can think of. Every single...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 26, 2011

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    Heartbreak Can Kill Slowly

    Some people may have a problem with the fact that I am only 16, but I do not think age is the relevant thing in a situation of having your heart broken. My first real crush hit me when i was 13 and lasted for two and a half years. I thought I truly liked this guy, Ben...
    Amari Amari 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2008

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    The first time a guy broke my heart I pushed

    myself to be normal again.. I started acting normal.. Pretending that it didn't actually happen... Making excuses twisting the truth blah blah... But then it happened again and again and again and I can't pretend anymore because I feel there's something wrong with ME which is...
    LaraLuulu LaraLuulu 26-30, F 5 Responses Nov 21

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    Tear Stained Lips...

    I remember when we used to be so intimate with each other. The way he would kiss me and even touch me. It would over whelm my body. I felt like I couldn't give him more of my body fast enough. It was a euphoric drunkeness that I lusted for and I loved it because I believed he...
    SimoneDalliance SimoneDalliance 18-21, F Sep 29, 2012

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    Adam

    <p style="__styledocument: [object]">I started going out with my ex on November 25, 2007.  We spent a ton of time together and we were very close. I was very protective of myself and thought a lot before doing things such as having sex. Before we had sex I made him...
    Graciepie Graciepie 16-17 1 Response Mar 20, 2009

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    The Goodbyes

    Something I wrote on a really bad day.Why would I say goodbye to someone I have pictured having in the rest of my life, the person that I cannot imagine tomorrow without them in it? Why would I want to say goodbye to someone that knows me better than I know myself? Why would I...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 15 Responses Mar 19, 2011

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    It Always Ends The Same Way

    Have no idea how to start this. I've been in relationships with women, some serious, some not so much. None of them are similar and none of them have anything in common. Yet my relationships always end the same. They slowly cut back on the communication, the sentence "I'm way...
    bluequasi bluequasi 31-35, M 4 Responses Feb 16, 2010

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    Heartbreak and Me... It's Devastating!!

    It does not help to tell yourself after your first heartbreak that "the one" will follow and you will not feel that way again.  Because i'm living proof that i had my heart broken twice now... I do not understand what leads us down the path with the unworthy...
    Ella06 Ella06 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 28, 2008

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    Internet Heartbreak

    September 2008 was the year and month that I found somebody who made me feel strong and alive again. His name was Benjamin, we talked over the internet as I am from Hertfordshire and he was from Walsall; we talked about anything and everything, litterally, I NEVER pretended to be...
    cuppygirl cuppygirl 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2010

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    Disappearing can be quite the coping mechanism

    for those of us who fear abandonment the very most of all. If we disappear, you have to find us. You're the one who worries. We know where we are, but you can't leave me. I'm in charge and doing the leaving. Not the other way around. "Sometimes the clearest mirrors come from...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F Nov 27

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    It Frikkin Hurt. This Is My Truth.

    I guess I was pretty stupid. I was also pretty young... I had known Travis for two years and I was only in eighth grade. I feel ridiculous looking back, seeing how little I was. I wish I could understand reality then as I do now. We'd talked to each other, liked each other, been...
    Lyndsie Lyndsie 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 18, 2009

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    Fearful scared Idk what I should do?

    Run now? I wish I could. T_T
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 23

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    Petrified ...

    the thought of going through it again almost makes me break into hives ...I dont like to open my feelings up anyways just because i dont like to make myself vulnerable to any one and give them the chance to hurt me .. so normally i dont let any one know how i feel , because i...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F Jan 11, 2008

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    Related Experiences

    This is the first story I've ever written on this site and likewise my first real experience of heartbreak. The stupid kind, where there are no grand betrayals or the cruel lapse...
    starstarstar58 starstarstar58 18-21, F Nov 19

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    My whole life is a "heartbreak" I can't anymore.... I look around me and find so many ppl are happy in love and I can't embrace it given to me from another
    IntomeYousee IntomeYousee 36-40, F Nov 25

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    I like him so much but I'm affriad to indulge in my emotions. I guess I've kept my gaurd up so I don't have to face possible pain . . .
    Mi5tiqu3 Mi5tiqu3 16-17, F Nov 18

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    I had been dating my ex for about two years this was my longest relationship... he was a lot of first. how do you get over it... it hurts... I still loved him.. but he wanted to...
    butterflyofchange butterflyofchange 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 18

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    I respond with fear instead of trust, with tears and cruelty instead of smiles and hugs... that he gave me. why do I respond so wrong to the people who love the most ... I hate...
    butterflyofchange butterflyofchange 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 18

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    I came to Canada 3 years ago to study and then hopefully settle down here. Just the way I saw marriages and relationships go down in my family (my mother has been the mistress of...
    TheDragonBorn TheDragonBorn 22-25, M Nov 18

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    Although I am telling to my friends that I am numb and don't fall in love , the fact still remains that I am still broken-hearted and that is what made me so bitter in life...
    Mariangabalon Mariangabalon 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 19

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    What if you let the wrong person go? What if he/she fought for you but you are too unsure and too scared of your demons that you can't let anyone see? What would you do if you...
    filledspaces filledspaces 26-30, F Nov 20

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    I spent seven year of my life with my ex fiancé . I don't believe in sex before marriage he knew that from the beginning I am a virgin he's not he broke up with me a few months...
    dnicebby dnicebby 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 23

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    Standing in the center of broken hearts zone.. Yesterday was his birthday, i wish i could be there with him, i wish i could celebrate his day, i wish i was able to greet him on...
    SnowCrystall SnowCrystall 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 24

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    I need to gather my heart, hug myself, heal my pain, and walk away..I want ur love to go away, and I dont feel that pain anymore..I need to teach myself how to forget..how to live...
    SnowCrystall SnowCrystall 26-30, F Nov 25

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    My heart is as a snow crystal, white, pure, glamorous, serene, & yet so fragile..Only a shining sun can make it melt so hard, & only a devil would break it so bad..a shining sun...
    SnowCrystall SnowCrystall 26-30, F Nov 27

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    It is getting worse, i dont know how to live normally anymore, im hating all men, im unable to open my heart to anyone else, i even lost my charm, i prefer to stay alone, wasting...
    SnowCrystall SnowCrystall 26-30, F Nov 28

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    Should i believe him? He said he still loved me when he broke up with me, he said i wasn't supportive, i was pushy and demanding, that i broke his heart and couldn't bring...
    SnowCrystall SnowCrystall 26-30, F Nov 28

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    Proven right. After decades of being called wrong. And meds doing damage. http://youtu.be/vw5lwK9UAY8
    OddlyScintilating OddlyScintilating 46-50, M Nov 28

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    I'm starting to think I shouldn't be in a relationship now, or if I ever should. Every time I'm in a relationship it starts off great and then I get more and more.. Lost. I lose...
    qwernia qwernia 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 29

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    abused and heart broke, we break up :'(
    rahulgentleman rahulgentleman 22-25, M Dec 1

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    Not sure which hurts worse right now, my heart or my head.
    SJS15 SJS15 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 4

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    Love is too selfish..im in love so im selfish..
    SnowCrystall SnowCrystall 26-30, F Dec 7

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    My pain button..a memory, a place, a word, a song may turn u on
    SnowCrystall SnowCrystall 26-30, F Dec 7

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    I can't get over him. I can't stop thinking about him. I wish I could just forget the past year. Forget him. Forget it all. Erase everything from my memory. Stop feeling...
    Miranda240 Miranda240 26-30, F Dec 9

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    I have had my heart broken by so many guys I have lost track. Several didn't like me back as more than a friend, and another just wanted to hook up and nothing more. And I realized...
    advicefairy advicefairy 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    So my bf told me a girl from the past started messaging him and I told him that needs to stop now obviously it didn't work out before I came into the picture and he is going to...
    missyluvslilies missyluvslilies 26-30, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    Jim738v4hf7 Jim738v4hf7 31-35, M 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    one.� Custodian theft threat - All IRA money needs to be held by a broker, who would be the custodian from the IRA account.� If you keep up With all the information you at...
    William7025boa3 William7025boa3 31-35, M 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    My first relationship was when I was in 8th grade. The relationship was more of a one-sided love. I loved him more than he loved me. We broke up a few months after we entered high...
    Alekz2816 Alekz2816 22-25, F 19 hrs ago

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    I am currently half way through the most important year of my current school life. Year 11. Today I completed the last of my mock exams. I have two weeks off from revision and...
    ForeverIsOver ForeverIsOver 16-17, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    When significant or almond-formed eyes could get absent with Daring brows, Connelly’s quite peepers are too compact for thick frames. As an alternative to upstaging her...
    Anthony6913uep8 Anthony6913uep8 31-35, M 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    JOHN MAYER~ HEARTBREAK WARFARELightning strikesInside my chest to keep me up at nightDream of waysTo make you understand my painClouds of sulfur in the airBombs are falling...
    Ijemmnu Ijemmnu 70+, F 4 days ago

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    sorrow poisoned moon chained misery and grief stabbed and bleeding heartbreak is like walking death behind dim desolate Tear Stained eyes, no light shines no joy exists, kissed...
    AntonioV AntonioV 46-50, M 3 Responses Dec 10

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