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I Am Fearful of Heartbreak

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    It Frikkin Hurt. This Is My Truth.

    I guess I was pretty stupid. I was also pretty young... I had known Travis for two years and I was only in eighth grade. I feel ridiculous looking back, seeing how little I was. I wish I could understand reality then as I do now. We'd talked to each other, liked each other, been...
    Lyndsie Lyndsie 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 18, 2009

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    Still Bearing the Scars From Last Time

    I was a bit of a slow starter with boys at school and only got into my first ever relationship about 2 and a half years ago.  He'd had a girlfriend when we met, but I didn't know him that well at all to start with.  They split up, and he started texting / chatting to me...
    buttercup21 buttercup21 18-21, F Jul 23, 2009

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    Heartbreak Can Kill Slowly

    Some people may have a problem with the fact that I am only 16, but I do not think age is the relevant thing in a situation of having your heart broken. My first real crush hit me when i was 13 and lasted for two and a half years. I thought I truly liked this guy, Ben...
    Amari Amari 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2008

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    Cross My Fingers...

    I am fearful of heart break the people I love always let me down some way or another. It never fails. My father was never there he is only there when it conveniences him. My mother I love her and miss the relationship we had, she can be a little too overwhelming for me. My...
    MiseducatedChik MiseducatedChik 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 23, 2008

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    I can put up a big front.

    .. Put a smile on my face, be strong, and whisper my own encouraging words. Tonight I am fearful... I'm playing what if. What if I never become what I aspire to be? I will be strong, play Russian roulette. I pray I am not a disappointment, and someone catches me if I fall.
    HearMyEscape HearMyEscape 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 5, 2015

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    Petrified ...

    the thought of going through it again almost makes me break into hives ...I dont like to open my feelings up anyways just because i dont like to make myself vulnerable to any one and give them the chance to hurt me .. so normally i dont let any one know how i feel , because i...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F Jan 11, 2008

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    Riddles and rhymes nobody has time.

    Only you can see in my heart what pulled me apart. Don't ask too much you'll know in my touch. With every sigh you look to the sky. I pull you deep within as you touch my skin Only you will know how much I can show I prey you come here I need you near.
    HearMyEscape HearMyEscape 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 10, 2015

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    Too Late

    Broke my heart with his cheating ways, gave me a complex and now I'm a broken down, disposable former shell of what I once was. I am no longer who or what I was before all of this. I'll never trust again, I'll never be the same. I am broken and nothing will fix that.
    NorthernOntarioMama NorthernOntarioMama 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 14, 2011

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    The Goodbyes

    Something I wrote on a really bad day.Why would I say goodbye to someone I have pictured having in the rest of my life, the person that I cannot imagine tomorrow without them in it? Why would I want to say goodbye to someone that knows me better than I know myself? Why would I...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 15 Responses Mar 19, 2011

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    Adam

    <p style="__styledocument: [object]">I started going out with my ex on November 25, 2007.  We spent a ton of time together and we were very close. I was very protective of myself and thought a lot before doing things such as having sex. Before we had sex I made him...
    Graciepie Graciepie 16-17 1 Response Mar 20, 2009

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    It Always Ends The Same Way

    Have no idea how to start this. I've been in relationships with women, some serious, some not so much. None of them are similar and none of them have anything in common. Yet my relationships always end the same. They slowly cut back on the communication, the sentence "I'm way...
    bluequasi bluequasi 31-35, M 4 Responses Feb 16, 2010

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    My First Everything, Don't Be My First Heartbreak...

    Four years... I have been with him for four years. In a sense... We've only actually been dating for a little over three, but I've been with him for four unofficially. He was my first kiss, he is my first love, and he took all my other firsts that you can think of. Every single...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 26, 2011

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    Heartbreak and Me... It's Devastating!!

    It does not help to tell yourself after your first heartbreak that "the one" will follow and you will not feel that way again.  Because i'm living proof that i had my heart broken twice now... I do not understand what leads us down the path with the unworthy...
    Ella06 Ella06 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 28, 2008

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    Internet Heartbreak

    September 2008 was the year and month that I found somebody who made me feel strong and alive again. His name was Benjamin, we talked over the internet as I am from Hertfordshire and he was from Walsall; we talked about anything and everything, litterally, I NEVER pretended to be...
    cuppygirl cuppygirl 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2010

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    Tear Stained Lips...

    I remember when we used to be so intimate with each other. The way he would kiss me and even touch me. It would over whelm my body. I felt like I couldn't give him more of my body fast enough. It was a euphoric drunkeness that I lusted for and I loved it because I believed he...
    SimoneDalliance SimoneDalliance 18-21, F Sep 29, 2012

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    The last time I fell

    for someone, I became so aware. So aware of many senses, emotional and physical experiences and feelings; some I didn't know I was capable of. I learned a lot from it, but the result of it also made me scared to feel all of that again just to end again.
    StillBecomingaButterfly StillBecomingaButterfly 36-40, F Mar 30, 2015

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    The worst part is I enjoy the heartbreaks and drama I put myself through. Its like I'm in favor in making my life harder than it really is just for the thrill of being in an...
    magnumopus666 magnumopus666 22-25, F 3 hrs ago

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    A very weird thing has happened. I joined Ep, as I was so sad, so lonely and utterly adrift, I didn't know where to turn or what to do. I was somewhere that there wasn't a map, or...
    egbertnosh egbertnosh 51-55, M 4 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I absolutely love children, and I have always wanted to be a mum but I may never be able to have children and it's all my own fault. When I was 13 I was diagnosed with anorexia...
    SarahJane3 SarahJane3 31-35, F 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Do you even know how it feels to be alone in a crowd? It's heartbreaking. You want to share your funny stories w them. What makes you laugh. What makes you a cry baby. What can...
    hawksnravens hawksnravens 41-45, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    With the amount of trolls and pervs on EP, even the good people are turning to being anonymous, fearful of sharing much or letting anyone get too close. Sad
    DoolinDalton DoolinDalton 56-60, M 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    You are lost. No I wouldn't say lost. I'm thinking more assertive, more demanding, less fearful, and even more sinister. So lost isn't the term. No the term is AWOKEN
    thetamedbeast thetamedbeast 18-21, M 19 hrs ago

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    Last August my wife got abruptly sick. At first we were convinced she'd developed a heart condition, but since that point her physical symptoms became increasingly mental and the...
    BarvoDelancy BarvoDelancy 31-35, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have a weird fear in the back of my head that my dad hurt me when I was a baby. It just kind of lurks there. I'm just trying to think of why I was so disturbed as a kid. Was it...
    Hush92 Hush92 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Teach only Love for that is what you are We teach what we want to learn, and I want to learn to experience inner peace. In 1975, the outside world saw me as a successful...
    goodogstay goodogstay 46-50, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I wish I didn't have to deal with this. This is so hard. I thought since I felt better the last couple of days, I must have arrived to the next step in this whole process but no...
    ISurgeProvocation ISurgeProvocation 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    ...i buy mostly whole grain foods. i love soy milk and almond milk. ...i am not very active so i try not to eat more than i need. thanks for holding me accountable. i have an...
    coffeeonice coffeeonice 31-35, F 6 days ago

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    anger meant shutting up. pathetic how people in desperate need of control are so fearful of losing it that they feel the need to forbid others to express.
    sadcookiemonster sadcookiemonster 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    A lot of those older people are just white, fearful old men. They do not deserve respect.
    TrumpDestroyer TrumpDestroyer 26-30, M 2 Responses Feb 4

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    My favorite line from "The Old Astronomer to His Pupil" Though my soul may set in darkness, it will rise in perfect light; I have loved the stars too fondly to be fearful of the...
    kayla459 kayla459 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 4

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    I lie awake, breathing deeply, Trying to soothe the panicked flutter in my chest The fearful little creature, Afraid of the unknown Breathe in, breathe out The tension leaves my...
    sophiebelle27 sophiebelle27 26-30, F 4 Responses Feb 4

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    Due to my PTSD and other panic-related disorders, I have developed a paranoid demeanor. I've tried to stop, to calm myself down and use logic to prove to myself that I'm okay. Yet...
    Blueaquatic Blueaquatic 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 4

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    My "Goodbye" letter to my ex husband: Dear ___________ , I have loved you with an intensity second to none. You were my soul mate, my best friend, my other half. I thought we...
    Kate2point0 Kate2point0 36-40, F 2 Responses Feb 2

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    The power of Cruz compels you ! As a secular person, I have a dilemma every 4 years. I can vote for a candidate of faith, or I can refuse to vote at all. If I decide NOT TO VOTE...
    Honey82bunny Honey82bunny 26-30, F Feb 2

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    I imagine her smile every day and feel so sorry about everything that have happened lately. But there is no turning back, we are not writing each other anymore. And she deleted her...
    Tourion Tourion 22-25, M Feb 2

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    Hi, I stumbled upon this site while searching ( as iv done thousands of times, for yeeears now) in hopes that I can find some magical supplement to cure the living hell that my...
    Hopelesslyfallen Hopelesslyfallen 31-35, F Feb 1

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    What I Seek Comes By God’s Grace "Let go! Let God fill your need." Mary L Kupferle Three days ago, I thought of the different names of God. I even Googled it but I didn't find...
    vector8 vector8 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 31

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    I wonder why did I even write ? Should I be fearful? Not at All..! I have a husband name " Mahsum Ur Rahman", He, whom I share the address of 127 Telegraph road. Alexandria, VA...
    Farzanaquudusneisa Farzanaquudusneisa 41-45, F 2 Responses Jan 31

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    " Virtue is bold, and goodness never fearful. " William Shakespeare never be afraid to do the right thing.
    Pariah1984 Pariah1984 31-35, F Jan 31

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    This was the lowest point in my life to where i had my first heartbreak. I fell hopelessly in love with someone who didn’t love me the way I thought he did. The relationship was...
    mgnash mgnash 18-21, F 8 Responses Jan 29

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    Father I Thank You for what You are doing in me, through me and around me. May You soften my spiritual senses, my eyes, my ears and my being. Father You know the battle that I go...
    meto2015 meto2015 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    Father I Thank You for what You are doing in me, through me and around me. May You soften my spiritual senses, my eyes, my ears and my being. Father You know the battle that I go...
    meto2015 meto2015 41-45, F 2 Responses Jan 27