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I Am Fearful of Heartbreak

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    My First Everything, Don't Be My First Heartbreak...

    Four years... I have been with him for four years. In a sense... We've only actually been dating for a little over three, but I've been with him for four unofficially. He was my first kiss, he is my first love, and he took all my other firsts that you can think of. Every single...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 26, 2011

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    It Always Ends The Same Way

    Have no idea how to start this. I've been in relationships with women, some serious, some not so much. None of them are similar and none of them have anything in common. Yet my relationships always end the same. They slowly cut back on the communication, the sentence "I'm way...
    bluequasi bluequasi 31-35, M 4 Responses Feb 16, 2010

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    Petrified ...

    the thought of going through it again almost makes me break into hives ...I dont like to open my feelings up anyways just because i dont like to make myself vulnerable to any one and give them the chance to hurt me .. so normally i dont let any one know how i feel , because i...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F Jan 11, 2008

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    Cross My Fingers...

    I am fearful of heart break the people I love always let me down some way or another. It never fails. My father was never there he is only there when it conveniences him. My mother I love her and miss the relationship we had, she can be a little too overwhelming for me. My...
    MiseducatedChik MiseducatedChik 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 23, 2008

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    Disappearing can be quite the coping mechanism

    for those of us who fear abandonment the very most of all. If we disappear, you have to find us. You're the one who worries. We know where we are, but you can't leave me. I'm in charge and doing the leaving. Not the other way around. "Sometimes the clearest mirrors come from...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F Nov 27, 2014

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    Internet Heartbreak

    September 2008 was the year and month that I found somebody who made me feel strong and alive again. His name was Benjamin, we talked over the internet as I am from Hertfordshire and he was from Walsall; we talked about anything and everything, litterally, I NEVER pretended to be...
    cuppygirl cuppygirl 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2010

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    Adam

    <p style="__styledocument: [object]">I started going out with my ex on November 25, 2007.  We spent a ton of time together and we were very close. I was very protective of myself and thought a lot before doing things such as having sex. Before we had sex I made him...
    Graciepie Graciepie 16-17 1 Response Mar 20, 2009

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    Riddles and rhymes nobody has time.

    Only you can see in my heart what pulled me apart. Don't ask too much you'll know in my touch. With every sigh you look to the sky. I pull you deep within as you touch my skin Only you will know how much I can show I prey you come here I need you near.
    HotMessExpress101 HotMessExpress101 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    If this relationship doesn't work I'm going to

    therapy. Not because I'm crazy or anything but to figure out why I keep getting into relationships knowing full well i'm a coward. Idk, I'm still really offended that my bf kept saying alright. And he hasn't spoken to me at all today so I know he was angry about something that...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F 1 hr ago

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    Fearful scared Idk what I should do?

    Run now? I wish I could. T_T
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 23, 2014

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    I can put up a big front.

    .. Put a smile on my face, be strong, and whisper my own encouraging words. Tonight I am fearful... I'm playing what if. What if I never become what I aspire to be? I will be strong, play Russian roulette. I pray I am not a disappointment, and someone catches me if I fall.
    HotMessExpress101 HotMessExpress101 31-35, F 3 Responses Jan 5

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    Heartbreak Can Kill Slowly

    Some people may have a problem with the fact that I am only 16, but I do not think age is the relevant thing in a situation of having your heart broken. My first real crush hit me when i was 13 and lasted for two and a half years. I thought I truly liked this guy, Ben...
    Amari Amari 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2008

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    Tear Stained Lips...

    I remember when we used to be so intimate with each other. The way he would kiss me and even touch me. It would over whelm my body. I felt like I couldn't give him more of my body fast enough. It was a euphoric drunkeness that I lusted for and I loved it because I believed he...
    SimoneDalliance SimoneDalliance 18-21, F Sep 29, 2012

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    The first time a guy broke my heart I pushed

    myself to be normal again.. I started acting normal.. Pretending that it didn't actually happen... Making excuses twisting the truth blah blah... But then it happened again and again and again and I can't pretend anymore because I feel there's something wrong with ME which is...
    LaraLuulu LaraLuulu 26-30, F 6 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    Heartbreak and Me... It's Devastating!!

    It does not help to tell yourself after your first heartbreak that "the one" will follow and you will not feel that way again.  Because i'm living proof that i had my heart broken twice now... I do not understand what leads us down the path with the unworthy...
    Ella06 Ella06 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 28, 2008

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    It Frikkin Hurt. This Is My Truth.

    I guess I was pretty stupid. I was also pretty young... I had known Travis for two years and I was only in eighth grade. I feel ridiculous looking back, seeing how little I was. I wish I could understand reality then as I do now. We'd talked to each other, liked each other, been...
    Lyndsie Lyndsie 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 18, 2009

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    "I'm gonna live my life Like every day's the

    last Without a simple goodbye It all goes by so fast Gonna open my eyes And see for the first time I let go of you like A child letting go of his kite There it goes, up in the sky There it goes, beyond the clouds For no reason why..." (Can't Cry Hard Enough)
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 30, 2014

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    The Goodbyes

    Something I wrote on a really bad day.Why would I say goodbye to someone I have pictured having in the rest of my life, the person that I cannot imagine tomorrow without them in it? Why would I want to say goodbye to someone that knows me better than I know myself? Why would I...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 15 Responses Mar 19, 2011

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    Too Late

    Broke my heart with his cheating ways, gave me a complex and now I'm a broken down, disposable former shell of what I once was. I am no longer who or what I was before all of this. I'll never trust again, I'll never be the same. I am broken and nothing will fix that.
    NorthernOntarioMama NorthernOntarioMama 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 14, 2011

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    Still Bearing the Scars From Last Time

    I was a bit of a slow starter with boys at school and only got into my first ever relationship about 2 and a half years ago.  He'd had a girlfriend when we met, but I didn't know him that well at all to start with.  They split up, and he started texting / chatting to me...
    buttercup21 buttercup21 18-21, F Jul 23, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    I'd like to share my story. I'm 24, he's 19. I'm already working, he's still a student. I'm a Muslim, he's Catholic. It was very wrong from the very beginning yet I still pushed...
    Jojane Jojane 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 16

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    I feel broken , beyond repair my love life is a joke I don't have anyone, my fiancé and boyfriend left me for a ******** it's been 7 months I feel horrible I feel like I will...
    dnicebby dnicebby 22-25, F Feb 28

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    I thought I was in love with my first serious boyfriend (15). <3 Until I found out he was just using me while dating some other chick. But I'm over it now and once and I while...
    Jessica4770 Jessica4770 18-21, T 2 Responses Mar 7

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    Sophomore year, my boyfriend of 6 months cheats on me, with 3 other girls. Sad to say, I handled it like a baby. I cried, fell into a depression, started living an unhealthy...
    tessagj14 tessagj14 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 7

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    its so hard to move on from a break up if your significant other is your bestfriend and colleague.. i cant mingle with my frendz bcoz it reminds me of all the happy memories...
    Psyche09 Psyche09 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    The more I try to improve the person I am, the more pain I feel when I am treated disrespectfully by those I love. How can I feel that I have value when others treat me as though...
    casunshine casunshine 56-60, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Hi I want to update you on my recent news at the supported housing for adults with mental health issues ..as I walked into the staff office yesterday morning to tell the support...
    Powerlesss Powerlesss 31-35, F 2 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers - Refugee
    RedOnTheFarm RedOnTheFarm 26-30, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    Today started with a visit from the neurologist. He asked how I was feeling and what I was able to accomplish. He had obviously already read what the nurses wrote though, since...
    ncbarr ncbarr 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 5

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    I Know Why The Caged Bird Sings ~ Maya Angelou The free bird leaps On the back of the wind And floats downstream Till the current ends And dips his wings In the orange sun rays...
    GlitzandGlamber GlitzandGlamber 18-21, F Mar 10

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    THE TIGER by William Blake (1757–1827) TIGER, tiger, burning bright In the forests of the night, What immortal hand or eye Could frame thy fearful symmetry? In what...
    chocomint chocomint 51-55, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Well... since mah baby left meh I found a new place to dwell Well, it's down at the end of lonely street at heartbreak hotel, where I'll be... where I get so lonely baby where I...
    HeyHer1234 HeyHer1234 16-17, F Mar 8

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    This is a rather long one guys. But I want to share it with you. Right now as we speak I have a girlfriend and by we been going together for six months or so. Every morning she...
    Miguel55 Miguel55 46-50, M 7 Responses Mar 8

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    I am sitting here, sick, having trouble sleeping and thought to share an experience with you. When I was 16, I met a beautiful girl named Nikki. She needed my help with her trig...
    bioprof34 bioprof34 36-40 a week ago

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    So... Here I am. With another chip in my pride and ego. Ever since the end of my long term relationship. Everything in my love department has been going downhill. Literally. Every...
    Ichizu Ichizu 26-30, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I'm at a hospital ICU watching a family member virtually fade away. I've been close to her all my life. She's too young. It's heartbreaking. As I walk down the halls I see old...
    biggunsatx biggunsatx 41-45, M 36 Responses a week ago

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    Sadness stings The salty tears sting your eyes Your heart feels empty Sadness stings Depression burns It leaves skin deep scars But there are scars that cannot be seen The...
    Ladybugprincess Ladybugprincess 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    Honestly Im only 17 years old, and i know i have life ahead of me, but sometimes i like to think if it hard now , then how harder will it get, will it really get better or will we...
    thatgirlalbana thatgirlalbana 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    Hello solitude my old friend, It is you which I can count on to never offend, You are are always here when I am on the mend, With you I never ever have to pretend, Deep within...
    johnny048 johnny048 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 28

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    I have been using essential oils for a few years now. Lately though, I have had a renewed interest in them. I have been plagued by headaches and nausea. You grow tired and fearful...
    455cargirl 455cargirl 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 1

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    I'm a faker. I walk like I'm proud and confident. I'm just weak and fragile inside. I hide it so people won't take advantage of me. I see in this world people like to take down the...
    ptsdlady ptsdlady 26-30, F Mar 3

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    Childhood was awful. But my teenage years were worse. I'm not sure if I've shared the story in particular of my childhood? Think I have just not sure where. I realised quite a...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 4 Responses Mar 3

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    I not only bettle depression I battle low self image! I am so frustrated how guys tend to base a girl on what she looks like when we all get older and ugly with age your wife you...
    MichaelaG MichaelaG 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 5

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    not only bettle depression I battle low self image! I am so frustrated how guys tend to base a girl on what she looks like when we all get older and ugly with age your wife you...
    MichaelaG MichaelaG 26-30, F 5 Responses