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I Am Fearful of Heartbreak

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    If this relationship doesn't work I'm going to

    therapy. Not because I'm crazy or anything but to figure out why I keep getting into relationships knowing full well i'm a coward. Idk, I'm still really offended that my bf kept saying alright. And he hasn't spoken to me at all today so I know he was angry about something that...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    I can put up a big front.

    .. Put a smile on my face, be strong, and whisper my own encouraging words. Tonight I am fearful... I'm playing what if. What if I never become what I aspire to be? I will be strong, play Russian roulette. I pray I am not a disappointment, and someone catches me if I fall.
    HotMessExpress101 HotMessExpress101 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    Petrified ...

    the thought of going through it again almost makes me break into hives ...I dont like to open my feelings up anyways just because i dont like to make myself vulnerable to any one and give them the chance to hurt me .. so normally i dont let any one know how i feel , because i...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F Jan 11, 2008

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    This is my soul's truth.

    https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=pFCBSiXG59U
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 3 Responses Apr 4

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    Internet Heartbreak

    September 2008 was the year and month that I found somebody who made me feel strong and alive again. His name was Benjamin, we talked over the internet as I am from Hertfordshire and he was from Walsall; we talked about anything and everything, litterally, I NEVER pretended to be...
    cuppygirl cuppygirl 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2010

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    Adam

    <p style="__styledocument: [object]">I started going out with my ex on November 25, 2007.  We spent a ton of time together and we were very close. I was very protective of myself and thought a lot before doing things such as having sex. Before we had sex I made him...
    Graciepie Graciepie 16-17 1 Response Mar 20, 2009

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    Tear Stained Lips...

    I remember when we used to be so intimate with each other. The way he would kiss me and even touch me. It would over whelm my body. I felt like I couldn't give him more of my body fast enough. It was a euphoric drunkeness that I lusted for and I loved it because I believed he...
    SimoneDalliance SimoneDalliance 18-21, F Sep 29, 2012

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    Cross My Fingers...

    I am fearful of heart break the people I love always let me down some way or another. It never fails. My father was never there he is only there when it conveniences him. My mother I love her and miss the relationship we had, she can be a little too overwhelming for me. My...
    MiseducatedChik MiseducatedChik 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 23, 2008

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    The Goodbyes

    Something I wrote on a really bad day.Why would I say goodbye to someone I have pictured having in the rest of my life, the person that I cannot imagine tomorrow without them in it? Why would I want to say goodbye to someone that knows me better than I know myself? Why would I...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 15 Responses Mar 19, 2011

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    My First Everything, Don't Be My First Heartbreak...

    Four years... I have been with him for four years. In a sense... We've only actually been dating for a little over three, but I've been with him for four unofficially. He was my first kiss, he is my first love, and he took all my other firsts that you can think of. Every single...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 26, 2011

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    "I'm gonna live my life Like every day's the

    last Without a simple goodbye It all goes by so fast Gonna open my eyes And see for the first time I let go of you like A child letting go of his kite There it goes, up in the sky There it goes, beyond the clouds For no reason why..." (Can't Cry Hard Enough)
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 30, 2014

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    Riddles and rhymes nobody has time.

    Only you can see in my heart what pulled me apart. Don't ask too much you'll know in my touch. With every sigh you look to the sky. I pull you deep within as you touch my skin Only you will know how much I can show I prey you come here I need you near.
    HotMessExpress101 HotMessExpress101 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    The last time I fell

    for someone, I became so aware. So aware of many senses, emotional and physical experiences and feelings; some I didn't know I was capable of. I learned a lot from it, but the result of it also made me scared to feel all of that again just to end again.
    StillBecomingaButterfly StillBecomingaButterfly 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    Still Bearing the Scars From Last Time

    I was a bit of a slow starter with boys at school and only got into my first ever relationship about 2 and a half years ago.  He'd had a girlfriend when we met, but I didn't know him that well at all to start with.  They split up, and he started texting / chatting to me...
    buttercup21 buttercup21 18-21, F Jul 23, 2009

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    Disappearing can be quite the coping mechanism

    for those of us who fear abandonment the very most of all. If we disappear, you have to find us. You're the one who worries. We know where we are, but you can't leave me. I'm in charge and doing the leaving. Not the other way around. "Sometimes the clearest mirrors come from...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F Nov 27, 2014

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    Heartbreak and Me... It's Devastating!!

    It does not help to tell yourself after your first heartbreak that "the one" will follow and you will not feel that way again.  Because i'm living proof that i had my heart broken twice now... I do not understand what leads us down the path with the unworthy...
    Ella06 Ella06 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 28, 2008

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    The first time a guy broke my heart I pushed

    myself to be normal again.. I started acting normal.. Pretending that it didn't actually happen... Making excuses twisting the truth blah blah... But then it happened again and again and again and I can't pretend anymore because I feel there's something wrong with ME which is...
    LaraLuulu LaraLuulu 26-30, F 5 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    Heartbreak Can Kill Slowly

    Some people may have a problem with the fact that I am only 16, but I do not think age is the relevant thing in a situation of having your heart broken. My first real crush hit me when i was 13 and lasted for two and a half years. I thought I truly liked this guy, Ben...
    Amari Amari 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2008

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    Fearful scared Idk what I should do?

    Run now? I wish I could. T_T
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 23, 2014

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    It Frikkin Hurt. This Is My Truth.

    I guess I was pretty stupid. I was also pretty young... I had known Travis for two years and I was only in eighth grade. I feel ridiculous looking back, seeing how little I was. I wish I could understand reality then as I do now. We'd talked to each other, liked each other, been...
    Lyndsie Lyndsie 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 18, 2009

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    Too Late

    Broke my heart with his cheating ways, gave me a complex and now I'm a broken down, disposable former shell of what I once was. I am no longer who or what I was before all of this. I'll never trust again, I'll never be the same. I am broken and nothing will fix that.
    NorthernOntarioMama NorthernOntarioMama 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 14, 2011

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    It Always Ends The Same Way

    Have no idea how to start this. I've been in relationships with women, some serious, some not so much. None of them are similar and none of them have anything in common. Yet my relationships always end the same. They slowly cut back on the communication, the sentence "I'm way...
    bluequasi bluequasi 31-35, M 4 Responses Feb 16, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    So here is my story. It isn't easy to share because I am not only heart broken but also the source of heartbreak and I feel like a victim and like perpetrator at the same time. I...
    pickingdaisiesnow pickingdaisiesnow 31-35, F 1 Response May 10

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    Heartbreak is terrible,it changes a person from this sweet person to this evil person. People shouldn't play with others emotions.
    Ridemywavvvve Ridemywavvvve 31-35, F May 11

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    I've experienced it shortly after expericing betrayal. All of my significant others have left me for others and yet I'm always described as "the best girlfriend" I'm told...
    Mintleafcookie Mintleafcookie 22-25, F 1 Response May 11

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    I left a really great guy. :( He did nothing wrong.. Instead I was battling with my own issues of fear, depression, and wanting to be happy with myself. He had it all together. He...
    Mseducated18 Mseducated18 18-21, F 3 Responses May 13

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    Do you really know what that is, it is neither a failure relationship nor to lose a heart of someone, it is something entirely different and far crueller than that, it is a lost...
    umayyad umayyad 31-35, M 1 Response May 17

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    In my country we have had something akin to the term "hater" for many years. Here people kinda think it is something special to our culture, but id say it can be found everywhere...
    mirkwood86 mirkwood86 26-30, M Apr 28

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    I met him at 18 while travelling abroad. He was a childhood friend that my mother insisted i visit even if its for a few days. Our fathers were best friends and as children they...
    soulshatttttered soulshatttttered 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 28

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    im tired of that feeling that s enough
    imanb99 imanb99 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 28

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    It hurt, yeah. Probably the deepest pain you will ever feel is losing your first love. Except I didn't just lose him, he lost himself. It was sad to see someone you were once to in...
    LorenFlower LorenFlower 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 29

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    Yep, and I should be crying and all out depressed. But cutting makes me numb to it. Razor blade my true friend.
    NomadAngel117 NomadAngel117 18-21, M 1 Response May 3

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    I’m really hoping some of you can offer me some much needed support and guidance as I’m young, confused and heartbroken. Where do I start? I started my job coming up to 2...
    anony333 anony333 18-21, F May 4

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    Don’t despair if your heart has been through a lot of trauma. Sometimes that’s how beautiful hearts are remade: they are shattered first.” Yasmin Mogahed
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 10

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    The hurt began with you...I always liked to tell the story from the positive angle but the truth is ... I was shattered when we broke up...it appeared as if I took it so well...
    Toomuchsoul Toomuchsoul 31-35, F 1 Response May 10

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    in jr high school my crush tored up my loveletter and threwit away it broked my heart,.hi my name is crystal Brandon,.i just recently found out that my friend kyle has a crush on...
    happy133 happy133 26-30, F 1 Response May 10

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    I experienced it twice.....
    BearHugs20 BearHugs20 13-15, F 2 Responses May 10

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    At some point, we all experience this, very painful.. Someone you thought will be till your old age leaves you in the middle of the journey... You can't do a lot but just move on...
    simplydbest simplydbest 22-25, M 3 Responses May 11

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    I have a pity story tbh it's horrible if anyone cares message me and I'll spill it
    coldasice2014 coldasice2014 22-25, M 2 Responses May 11

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    Amd not only in a loving relationship... hearts get broken when people don´t care about hurting your sensitivity... even if they had told you how much you meant to them, they won...
    Brunette4U Brunette4U 31-35, F 4 Responses May 11

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    it's when you've been married 21 years, and you make a mistake (not adultery) and are denied the opportunity to fix the relationship. I lost my wife, 3 kids, and my home, all in...
    Marty8438888 Marty8438888 46-50, M 3 Responses May 11

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    leaving some one you totally love behind who you love with all your heart . Because his family are so horrible to him. You cannot stick around because you felt like dying...
    gallagher1969 gallagher1969 46-50, F May 11

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    I thought I knew pain, in all its agony, its angles, edges. But heart-break is whole other ball game. By falling in love with someone, I not only put their happiness first, but I...
    Tearystar1027 Tearystar1027 18-21 May 12

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    and pretty hurt. forgot how this felt like.
    olahjagger olahjagger 22-25, F May 12