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I Am Feeling Numb

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    Its Not A Feeling

    inside...on more occaions then id like, i do not "feel" a thing. there is nothing there and yes, it should be scary and upsetting but its not, its nothing. its not dark or light, or happy or mad...picture, crawling in yourself through your stomach and what do you see? do you see...
    SunkinLies SunkinLies 18-21, T 1 Response Dec 2, 2010

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    Numb

    Numb,That's me,The way I feel,Looking back,2011,One hell of a year,Earthquakes,Hometown wrecked,Had to move on,Too scared to return,The familiar,All gone,I'm in a new town,Trying to move on,I wonder,Sometimes,How did I survive?
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Dec 13, 2011

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    Quadriplegic.

    my mama recently fell down the stairs & changed our world. quadriplegia is now her life. it consumes my entire family as it changes what we used to know to a different outcome. there's still hope that with rehab, she may regain her arm and/or leg function, but worst case scenario...
    gardenbeauty gardenbeauty 22-25, F Sep 5, 2011

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    I've been ignoring this big lump in my throat I

    shouldn't be crying Tears were for the weaker days I'm stronger, now what? So why say that something's missing? Whatever it is, it feels like it's laughing at me through the glass of a two-sided mirror Whatever it is, it's just laughing at me And I just wanna scream, "What now...
    Mandaryn Mandaryn 26-30, F Nov 15, 2014

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    Feelings, Nothing More Than Nothing

    I am feeling numb. It's hard to explain. I feel like every day when I wake up is like a dream. I take things for granted and I know I'm doing it. I don't care. I recently ended my "relationship" with my girlfriend because I felt like my feelings just shut off and I didn...
    kylecrs kylecrs 31-35 7 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    InfiniteMusic InfiniteMusic 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 11

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    I Shut Myself From Feeling Anything To Keep Myself From Getting A Broken Heart And Of Course It Worked

    All I do now is surround myself with things that make me happy because the first time when my girlfriend rejected me for another I went home that day with overwhelming pain and I went to the kitchen and tried to end my life of course right when I had the knife on my wrist I didnt...
    angelus1988 angelus1988 22-25, M Jul 11, 2011

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    Untitled

    the sun it rises and im still awake, it goes down again, i still can't sleep. i take sleeping pills, but i have grown tolerant to their effects. i drink, and this makes me feel good for a little while. and then I crash, the feelings, they drain out of me. i am an empty shell of...
    blondeone2013 blondeone2013 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 1, 2013

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    Nothing

    I miss waking up in the morning and being excited for no reason. I miss the jitters I got when I knew something good was going to happen. I miss being able to feel. I miss him.
    bluemoon3729 bluemoon3729 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 23, 2010

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    Need chocolate to feel better.

    But only have ice cream. Just need to find a big enough spoon.
    whitevan whitevan 46-50, M Sep 10, 2014

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    Hollow

    I, like many other people in this group, have been feeling hollow, numb, or even emotionless. I feel like I have to put on a mask everyday, fake-smile to one of my friends, tell a joke to get a laugh and see if it has an effect, throw a fake-laugh at one of my friend's comments...
    howlerwolf howlerwolf 16-17 Apr 28, 2011

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    Just Lost

    Nothing, no feelings, no pain, no happiness, just blank. I'm sitting here reading others stories, trying to forget my own issues and yet my mind and body are completely empty. I can honestly say that my limbs are so numb that they are heavy and my mind unfocused. Even my attempt...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 30, 2007

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    UnderTheSleeves UnderTheSleeves 13-15, F Apr 2

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    Blank

     I dont feel, I am just simply Blank, Empty. Sometimes i can feel, but right now i dont.
    coliom coliom 26-30, M 2 Responses May 19, 2009

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    The Sad Truth...

    Truth is, no matter how much I love a lot of my friends, no matter how much I tell them that, no matter how many hugs I give or the advice I share. There will always be a distance between them and myself. I will never let them get close enough to me. I will never be as receptive...
    Guinevere5290 Guinevere5290 18-21, F Mar 1, 2012

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    I don't have the luxury of have an emotional

    or mental breakdown, I have 3 kids to take care of. So I guess I just suppressed everything I'm feeling. I'm still aware of it, I just don't react. I know this isn't good to bottle it up, but I just don't have a choice. The only people who use to watch our children say that 3...
    vault101 vault101 26-30, F Jan 26

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    Feeling So Crazy.... Dont Know Whats Happening!

    I have been in a relationship with this man for almost 3 years now. we moved along really fast in our relationship, 5 months together and we were engaged, 10 months together and i got pregnant. before i became pregnant we moved in together and everything was fine. since i became...
    jdorsey2007 jdorsey2007 18-21 Nov 10, 2010

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    i am 16yrs old and iv been feeling numb

    for around 5-6yrs. in the recent years the hollowness/numbness has got worse, much worse. i dont really know how to explain it. Everyday i have to put on a fake face and act fine but im not, and i think my friends are noticing something is wrong with me. I have become more...
    apett apett 18-21, F Mar 2, 2014

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    Truly Numb

    I'm only 18 years of age and still I am numb I used to enjoy playing video games and now... well i feel nothing towards them... once i ate nothing for 2 days or so and even afterwards i wasn't hungry i just ate something because i didn't want my mother to get upset but afterwards...
    Error7 Error7 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 19, 2013

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    Emotionless

    I don't feel numb in the depression kind of sense. Like nothing traumatic has happened to me and now I feel numb. It's just like I've forgotten how to be happy or sad. I hardly ever smile anymore, only to be polite, and I almost never cry anymore, whereas I used to be an...
    amysfc95 amysfc95 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 21, 2013

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    Why Am I Feeling Numb?

    I have completely no idea what's going on with me right now. I have a fear of showing my emotions in public. It's something like "Doxophobia". I'm even afraid to cry when I heard the news that someone passed away. I was fine for a while. I let people go against me, when I'm a one...
    teeekilicious17 teeekilicious17 16-17, F Mar 27, 2011

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    Life, one blink away from destruction,

    one heartbeat away from death. Everything can change within seconds, your whole world can alter so easily without your consent. The world doesn't care, people don't care. you're in it by yourself, but what's the point of even trying by yourself if you know your not good enough...
    BleedingOut BleedingOut 16-17, F Aug 17, 2014

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    Darkening Anquish

    Feelings deep, never complete Crooked hearts, fallen thoughts Lonesome girl, wrongful scars Vindicated lips, ripped to the sewn Fearing all that's let on it's own Contradicting misconception Shadows crept within perception Lost between fingertips Weakness then comes to grips Hope...
    blondeone2013 blondeone2013 22-25, F Feb 24, 2013

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    Should I watch weep-inducing Seeking A Friend

    for the End of the World to get me out of my funk or not risk the haunting bitter-sweetened heartache? It's such a good movie but it really opens the floodgates. Maybe that's what I need. Or should I go for a light, amusing rom-com (Wedding Crashers?) or a loopy laugh-riot? (I...
    MissAnthony MissAnthony 41-45, F Feb 27, 2014

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    SexyBoss70 SexyBoss70 41-45, F 1 Response May 1

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    Choices

    I am feeling numb. Lately I have been walking through my life the past month like a robot. I used to cry but lately that has stopped. I no longer care to keep my house clean and just hope someone cleans up for me. It happens but theN i feel this guilt...
    lawchic32 lawchic32 31-35 3 Responses May 11, 2009

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    So everyone has their bad days,

    we'll the past two have been ****** for me, I don't know the cause or what exactly I am feeling other than confused, lost and numb. (Literally numb) I don't know whether I'm paranoid about the numbness or weather the numbness is from the paranoia, I just wish it would stop. I'm...
    spiritorchid9 spiritorchid9 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 1, 2014

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    ....

    more often times than not i find my self in this position and i ask myslef will isnt this better than feeling pain...is it really? that question is just unanswerable. i guess i was sick of feeling pain. so now im stuck in nowhere land with no escape and no way out.
    deciphery deciphery 22-25 Sep 21, 2010

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    Hello.

    I have been feeling depressed and indifferent throughout most of the school year due to my excessive shyness and lost ability to conversate. I considered having some mental disorder (because that must explain it) but thought it was just my restrictions. Well, I acquired...
    SewingNudist SewingNudist 16-17, F May 21, 2009

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    Always have. its odd.

    ..when it comes to situations at home, when it gets critical, i stay calm and don't cry,...and sometimes laugh when things get too serious. Its like i don't feel! I don't know how to react! But...here is the interesting part. When it comes to tv, drama's...books...i always have...
    suziewuzie suziewuzie 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 10, 2014

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    I miss someone very near

    and dear to my heart. This person is way too amazing to ever forget about. We talk every day and facetime when we can. But that's only half of what I'm feeling right now. Ever feel hungry, you eat a good amount, but then your still hungry. This person is going to get mad at me...
    Devilscar Devilscar 22-25, M Oct 5, 2014

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    I am starting to feel this way.

    .. Just numb towards life, towards people, towards my own thoughts, to pain.. Just numb in general really!!! And is frustrating and it just makes me feel like crying my heart out... But because I'm so low on emotion and close to feeling completely numb... I find it incredibly...
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    There Are No Words...

    Words fail me as I try to descibe the way I am feeling. I feel this mass of empty throught out my entire being. All from a few little words that caused my world to come crashing down. A couple little words to mute all sound. Who knew words could cause such empty pain? Whatever it...
    PerfectRainbows PerfectRainbows 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 4, 2012

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    Your betrayal beating me down,

    down, into the ground.... Oh well
    Gardener1 Gardener1 22-25, M Mar 26, 2014

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    Fifteen Years Of Nothingness

      I've had a tough life, yet everyone thinks I'm the happiest most outgoing person there is. I laugh; I smile; I joke around, but I'm not happy. I've cut myself and resorted to drugs and alcohol. I've spiraled into depression, have OCD, am extremely introverted and paranoid...
    paperandpentoremember paperandpentoremember 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 15, 2011

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    I don't really feel any emotion anymore besides

    sadness and anger. Rarely I feel happiness, not fake happiness, true happiness. Failing almost every test I've had this year doesn't help. I EVEN STUDIED!!!! I keep on having suicidal thoughts, fighting them at night. I don't really have a lot of time to eat anymore but who...
    CatWithScars CatWithScars 13-15, F Aug 27, 2014

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    I keep seeing doubles of numbers when I look at the clock...so weird. 11:11 12:12 12:33 4:44
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    I miss the feeling of being in love, of having a genuine bliss of happiness radiating in you, making you feel so glow and so bloomingly beautiful. I miss the after effect of saying...
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    HATE it so much.. I really dont like using the word "hate" but i cant help but feel like this. You would think this would be the happiest time for me, but i feel like its the most...
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