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I Am Feeling Suicidal

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 71 People

    Whats Another Soul To Waste

    Ive tried many of times to end this game called life when i was younger, and for awhile i was content with life and the way things were going. Yet now its back, for the past week or so ive been hearing the dark call me back. My long endless baths with me just staring into space...
    NotEnoughLight NotEnoughLight
    22-25
    Oct 3, 2012

    Out, Out, Brief Candle!

    I find life to be a tiresome drag.  I suffer from depression and chronic pain.  They make each other worse.  It's a vicious cycle.  I think everyone would be better off if I were dead.  In fact, it would have been better if I were never conceived.  I...
    soulful1 soulful1
    31-35
    Nov 22, 2010

    Even With Insurance I Cant Get The Surgery I Need.

    I have suffered with a rare kidney disease for years,each time i try to get help i lose my job and there goes the insurance.[hyperaldosteronism]I purchased a private insurance its pretty pricey yet im making the sacrifice for my lifeIm ready for the surgery and guess what the...
    janet456 janet456
    51-55
    Jul 12, 2011

    I Am Suicidal

    I have been fighting severe depression for years and have had many horrendous experiences in my life. I am very tired of living and want to make sure I succeed when I kill myself.
    notguiltygirl2002 notguiltygirl2002
    46-50, F
    1 Response Aug 4, 2007

    You Are All Loved. Become Love With Me

    I love everyone one of you, and you are not alone. I am a part of a movement that will change the world. the movement is connecting everyone through love by becoming love. I invite you to become involved in this movement as well by simply becoming love, and sharing this love...
    MIGHTY921 MIGHTY921
    22-25
    Jun 9, 2011

    ...

    I feel like I'm losing it right now... I'm not worth the life they're trying to give me... I'm going to fail all my subjects this term as well... Maybe I should just go jump over or something... If I can't pass even just one subject this term... I'm afraid I won't be able to...
    ruidunhill ruidunhill
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 7, 2011

    Im Going To Kill Myself

    Suicidal to me that means i am thinking about killing myself, i dont want to but my thoughts take over there constantly knocking around my dead brain, i want to kill myself that means to me i am going to try my hardest to do it and im ready i have planned and ready to take the...
    flyingwithangels flyingwithangels
    22-25, F
    Jun 5, 2011

    Ready For Heaven

    I am a Christian, which I suppose is ironic if I'm suicidal. I guess most are supposed to love life, love God, and save others from suicide or whatever. Even though I hate God (hating Him doesn't mean I don't believe in Him or Jesus and all), all I want is to end this life and...
    DesrtRat28 DesrtRat28
    26-30
    Nov 30, 2012

    I Am A Stupid Teacher.

    I tried my best but the kids hate me. They gave comments such as I am senseless and should act like a normal person. That I not a good role model to them. I did not go to work for 4 days now and I feel bad. I want to kill myself if only my bf would be killing himself too if I...
    ayamaya ayamaya
    22-25, F
    Jul 24, 2012

    Im Suicidal But Dont Want To Die Alone

    ive been suicidal since i was a kid..dont knw why i hve these feelings but ive fought these thoughts enuf..im mentaly and physicaly exhausted..im 33 yrs and i dont wnt to live anymore..
    given5up given5up
    31-35
    Sep 2, 2012

    I just wanna end it all.

    End it all right now. Will anyone care. **** no they won't. Caise this is life. This is who we are. Cause everyone is in a free for all war. You can post my ****ing pics. You can burn me in hell. You can call me names but you will not break me mother****er. >:D so try your best...
    Levonphillips19 Levonphillips19
    18-21, M
    Dec 9, 2015

    I always tell myself

    that its OK, everything will be OK. But its impossible in my life. I am not happy. I don't know how many years its been since I felt beautiful or loved. I am extremely depressed. I have no friends. I isolate myself. I have tried and now I am so tired of being broken and hurt. I...
    themosthated themosthated
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 12, 2014

    No, this isn’t about bullying.

    I am a 20-year-old pupil with acnes on her face. I know what you must be thinking, but I’m asking you to read the whole story before judging me. I am very self-conscious about my appearance, and all I want is to have a clear and acne free skin. but it seems impossible for me...
    Katearcher Katearcher
    18-21, F
    Aug 18, 2015

    Wanting to Die

    For some time now, i have wanted to die and leave behind the world I have to suffer living. I have begun questioing my purpose and role in life and often wonder why I carry on. I have suffered a rough childhood but I have never felt more alone. And at 25, this has become tiring...
    lost711 lost711
    22-25
    2 Responses Jun 10, 2008

    Down And Cant Get Help!

    I cant help the way i am feeling anymore! I am an 18 year old young women and i don't wanna live anymore. When i was growing up i watched my parents smoke crack out of a beer can,smoke weed in front of me and smoke meth.my parents split when i was six and i went to live with my...
    xxcitylifexx xxcitylifexx
    18-21, F
    Jul 19, 2012

    I Wish I Was Dead

    I can't offer any hope to anyone else because i would kill myself if I could.You know the only thing stopping me?If I screw it up like everything else in my life then I give my husband more things to scream at me for.If I don't die and I'm permanently damged he'll stay out of...
    brokenrose brokenrose
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Oct 3, 2008

    I Don'T Want To Feel Pain Anymore.

    I walk around every day thinking about ending my life. Sometimes the feeling is do strong, that I want to do it right now. If I were to tell anyone this, they would be shocked, because I'm not the type of girl that appears that way. No one would ever picture me doing that, mainly...
    Iflywithmyownwings Iflywithmyownwings
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 21, 2013

    A Great Great Deal Lately

    I never knew I was this hated... I mean I knew I was disliked but they certainly knew how to kill off my hopes n heart that barely are surviving.I am so burnt and torn by the lack of care n I feel like no one wants to hear my side and care.I am not a bad person some have made out...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
    36-40, F
    1 Response May 31, 2012

    The man I can't forget,

    the man who I first met as a kid in gr 7, the man who is happily married and loves his wife, will never leave her for me but he comes to me for emotional support. I can't take it anymore. I tried forgetting him but couldn't. I can't live like this anymore.
    clouds4208 clouds4208
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jun 21, 2015

    Nearly Overdosed Today =(

    Went to pharmasist for slimming tablets and started walking home and i took loads of them but stopped myself and thrown them in the bin. think took about 30. but i havent told family because i did this before and it put me in hospital =(
    Sophie193 Sophie193
    18-21
    Apr 10, 2012

    So Lost In The Dark

    I haven't felt this worthless or depressed since I was 13. I am a cutter.... AGAIN. I also have complex PTSD. I have been psychologically/sexually/physically abuse all through my life.I just can't take the my life anymore. It hurts so much to just make it from one hour to the...
    BeautifulLie30STM BeautifulLie30STM
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jan 28, 2011

    Me

    I have been through a lot in life. Sexually abused by 4 different people, 2 of which are family. Mentally and emotionally abused and vulnerable since a young age I've always been too clingy. Its hard for me to let things go. I have a failed marrige that should have never...
    lifecereal lifecereal
    26-30, M
    May 13, 2013

    No One Console Me...

    I feel so alone... so alone... every one hates me.. everyone will soon leave me... my father left me... my mother and sister will leave me too and soon my boyfriend will leave me ... what I'am in this world... im useless... worthless.... no one cares... broken family...
    broken012 broken012
    22-25
    Oct 19, 2012

    Please Help So Empty

    I am a 20 year old female. I have had kidney stone problems and recently went threw a surgery for a 12cm cyst on my tail bone. I had a 107 feaver and almost died my surgeon said. It's been two weeks now and I'm still in pain. I feel so empty and depressed. I have a boyfriend but...
    Kd13492 Kd13492
    18-21
    Oct 3, 2012

    No More

    i just dont want to live feeling miserable everyday..
    blackdust blackdust
    31-35, F
    Jul 25, 2012

    Torn Between Two Choices

    my life is completely meaningless I can't stand it anymore my chances are so damn small should i give up or should i fight for this little piece of hope the other day i was depressed and so ready to commit suicide all what left to do is cleaning my room and throw the things...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Apr 25, 2013

    Suicidal Tendencies

    I cant cope with the way i feel. I feel utterly down and no one understands. Im close to break and need some who understands. Seeing psychiatrists but feel scared to talk and when a do acant get how i feel across. Wish somebody understood
    hopelessness216 hopelessness216
    26-30, F
    Nov 6, 2012

    Lost.

    Help! :"( I quit talking to my family 3 days ago. I feel like they can't understand me. I did everything they want me to do! I lived like a robot for 15 years. Problems are coming all at once! I don't know what to do :"(
    UnknownSirk UnknownSirk
    18-21, F
    Jul 2, 2013

    For The Ones Feeling Suicidal, Please Read.

    Think nobody cares about you? Think again. Even if people don’t show it, they care about you, they love you. If you kill yourself today, or any other day, you won’t know just how much you meant to people. If you kill yourself today, it stops your pain, but it pains all the...
    UrNotAloneOk UrNotAloneOk
    18-21
    Aug 19, 2012

    The Only Way To Escape Is To End It.

    depression messes you up completely. it makes you feel like you're a zombie. like literally. you just have no motivation to do anything. you lose your passions that you had in life. you look at things from a bad and negative perspective. you isolate yourself. you even push your...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Sep 17, 2013

    I Have Ruined My Life

    I just feel like sleeping forever. my body feels so heavy and my head hurts. all this feels unbearable for me right now. I feel powerless and hopeless. all the world seems to laugh at me right now. The why I feel suicidal is in my confession. i've been lonely all my life. I have...
    thrishanku thrishanku
    26-30, M
    Oct 21, 2013

    I Need To Die

    i have been suicidal and self harming since i was 16. i have good and bad days the bad days are the worst i dont know why i want to die but it feels like a need, like an instinct to want to die, i have attempted suicide several times and i want to believe there was a reason i...
    bloodlily bloodlily
    18-21
    Nov 3, 2012

    What Have I Done To Not Be Happy.

    I am tired. I am so sick of it. It is so unfair. I don't want to continue anymore. Why am I so.. me that I cannot have a girlfriend. Am I that ugly. I am to shy, I am short, I am to "not your type." Why is it that people around me have a girlfriend and I sit alone. I don't know...
    ForeverAlone92 ForeverAlone92
    18-21
    Dec 16, 2012
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