I Am Fighting My Own Thoughts

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 454 People

    Stuck between hating everyone

    and wanting to push them all away, and wanting to not be alone and be loved......... Think my head or my heart is going to explode.
    js246 js246
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Sep 28, 2015

    My cousin gets horny

    and masturbates when I talk to him because he is in love with me
    chels2442 chels2442
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Jun 20, 2014

    I Can't Do This...

    i try, try, and try...but im not getting anywhere.. he's only called twice in three weeks.. for a max of 30mins each time... i can't stand this.. wat is going on with him... he doesn't txt me anymore because he's busy, ok then at least let me kno u busy so i dun worry all...
    iGotMine8 iGotMine8
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 16, 2008

    I want to be seen, but I don't want to be seen.

    I want to be completely honest, but then I run away from the truth. I act like things doesn't matter, but then I'm terrified at the thought of losing it. I don't love when you are here, but after you're gone I love so much. I dislike myself, but then I see what a beautiful...
    Clothed Clothed
    41-45, M
    1 Response Feb 24, 2015


    I had this weird dream about a ghost. At first it seemed like it was haunting me. some how i ended up on top of it, tazering it. I felt the tingling of the tazer but felt no pain. For some reason the ghost got a hard on and it turned me on. I leaned and whispered something in...
    flamingkittens flamingkittens
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 15, 2012

    What to Do...

    ... jus recently my bf got into a major fight with his dad and wants to move here... im perfectly fine with that, i'd absolutely love that! but!..... he wants to get a place with his friendl bobbie(a girl)... since im not 18, ....this girl bobbie, has major feelings for him...
    iGotMine8 iGotMine8
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 13, 2008

    And Winning Most Of The Time...

    My mind works very sequentially and so I have to actively argue with myself about difficult choices. Like the cartoons where the devil and angel form of yourself pop up on your shoulders. Kinda like that. It has a good side. It made it possible for me to be rational even when I'm...
    Beanow Beanow
    22-25, M
    Apr 8, 2011


    It seems like everyday I'm fighting the urge just to leap into the darkness and just be forgotten. Yet I fight it everyday with a smile capable of holding every tear back until I can lay back and let them sink deep into the back of my eyes where the thoughts bubble up. I just...
    TellmeaLie TellmeaLie
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 1, 2013

    Is History Repeating Itself Or Am I Just Making It Repeat?

    My first marriage ended with my wife leaving for Texas with another man while I was in the Army and taking my son with her, after having several affairs and one night stands... that was 17 years ago. Now my current partner of 13 years has begun acting in a manner that causes me...
    FreefromManistee FreefromManistee
    41-45, M
    Jul 26, 2010

    But Am I Really

    Am I really worth fighting for I'm a depressed disabled abuse survivor with serious problems. Why not let my thoughts defeat me. I'm so crazy I make a psycho look like a freaking school kid I'm so dark I'd make Jack the ripper sh!t himself and I'm so messed up I could be a mother...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jul 14, 2013

    The Constant Battle of Bipolar Disorder

    I constantly fight my thoughts . I have alot of irrational thoughts and they tend to control my life . One of the horrible negative aspects of bipolar disorder . Right now my biggest fear is someone breaking into my house . It leaves me traumatized almost every evening i feel so...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 7, 2009

    Last year I found my partner had

    not only had an affair but also a one night stand. He still won't fully confess, he feels that it wouldn't benefit the relationship. I am still going through daily heartache and anger but he's not listening he just states 'I thought we were past this?' I don't know if therapy...
    wjean71 wjean71
    46-50, F
    5 Responses Jun 20, 2014

    I'm trying to figure out

    why I think it's ok to splurge my feelings out to a whole host of people on the Internet on ep and then hate myself for it but then carry on doing it?.)
    js246 js246
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Sep 28, 2015

    I Am My Own Worst Enemy

    I am my own worst enemy. My mind races and just keeps spooling and spooling thinking about a ton of things all at once. It starts as soon as I wake up and even as I go to sleep at night I'm still thinking. It's not just about the things I have to do that day. I have some...
    marid3 marid3
    2 Responses Mar 4, 2013
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