I Am Fighting to Overcome Ptsd

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 506 People

    Not doing to well right

    now looking for support has been both difficult and upsetting so far i've been bounced around between two counselor's and my triggers are worse now then when i started lately i've been isolating my self more and more and just spent the last 5 min with my head in my hands crying...
    foxtrottango foxtrottango
    36-40, M
    1 Response Aug 1, 2015

    I was in an abusive marriage

    for 30 years. Lost both of my parents at 22 years old. After 20 years of my husband had a motorcycle accident and suffered a severe brain injury. I rehabbed him for 10 years until he almost killed me I knew I had to leave him. It was a very long divorce made more difficult by my...
    seasonedsoul seasonedsoul
    56-60, F
    2 Responses Jun 29, 2014

    A Cry For Help.

    I got PTSD from having to watch my boyfriend get stabbed and then bleed to death. At first it was just nightmares, making me scared to sleep which then led to depression. But I'm one of those people who are bubbly and doesn't want any attention, so I ignored all the signs even...
    DyingFromWithin DyingFromWithin
    16-17, F
    9 Responses Apr 20, 2013

    Today I Face My Fears

    I'm tired of hiding from everyone in my past because they bring up the memories of what has changed my life forever. I've been shutting them out for so long; experiencing anxiety and ugly panic attacks whenever I am faced towards someone or something that reminds me of what...
    idsjester idsjester
    16-17
    2 Responses Jul 4, 2010

    I Fought Ptsd and Won.

    Several years ago, I was in two fairly spectacular car accidents within two weeks of each other.  The first one actually involved my car flying off of a mountain an in to a flooding river; the second involved being at the mercy of a jerk who was driving 70 in several feet of...
    DiscoveryChick DiscoveryChick
    41-45, F
    7 Responses Jan 21, 2009

    Ptsd

    i hate it. Flashback of him raping me them raping me blackout where i cant remember where i am flashback after flashback in class i have panic attack anixtey attack people staring at me like i'm crazy if only they knew that my wicked head loves playing games with me at night i...
    angeluvzs angeluvzs
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Sep 3, 2012

    I want to share a link to an online booklet

    about se*ual assault, in case it will help anyone who has been through this or had a friend or loved one go through it. http://www.sascwr.org/files/www/resources_pdfs/sexual_assault/Sexual_Assault_completed_package.pdf
    GreenButtercup GreenButtercup
    36-40, F
    Apr 3, 2014

    I am not sure where to put this.

    I am a veteran that still fights with wounds inside. I have caused pain to my family and there have been days the pain seems more than I can bare. I know I am not the only one so I thought I would come on here and Sh'ree my wins and some of my failures. One thing I have learned...
    soldierstory soldierstory
    46-50, M
    1 Response Feb 21

    It comes from the abusive relationships I've

    had. I will not let it run my life though.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jun 13, 2015

    Does fear cause real diarrhea

    or does it cause the feeling only ? http://livelifetothefullest.live-panic-free.com/2014/03/03/does-fear-cause-real-diarrhea-or-does-it-cause-the-feeling-only-.aspx Hey guys, sorry if this seems spammy, not my intention at all. I used to just paste my experiences in several...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    Mar 4, 2014

    I've had mild PTSD for a few years.

    It all started out when me and now my ex-husband bought our first home in a nice suburban neighborhood with wide streets in summer of 2012. We closed in August and 2 days after we move in we discover the AC units wasn't working right so we couldn't use it. We haven't gotten...
    Yinhx Yinhx
    31-35, F
    Mar 13

    The hardest part when facing things is

    realising I've lied to myself about things to protect someone who has lied to me. Realizing those lies brought on so many trust issues and left me with an inner voice who belittles me and the guilt I feel because I should be stronger then this because the same person who lied...
    pettypenies pettypenies
    31-35, F
    Oct 20, 2015

    Having panic attacks?

    Here's some advice from Tyler Durden
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    Mar 7, 2014

    I hate having PTSD and seizures at the same time

    and being treated like a case of uncontrolled emotions. I don't like getting stuck in various spiraling melt-downs when I'm just trying to live. I don't like the way my brain goes into alternate forgetfulness, flashbacks, and deja vu - the feelings of disorientation and lack...
    GreenButtercup GreenButtercup
    36-40, F
    1 Response Feb 17, 2014

    Ptsd Is Killing My Marriage....help?

    I'm a former USMC infantry machine gunner, who served in Iraq for two tours. My first deployment was hell, and I lost quite a few good buddies, one in front of my eyes. Due to our command telling us we were to suck it up and not go get help (for fear of losing people to medical...
    ajmilberg ajmilberg
    26-30, M
    4 Responses May 4, 2012

    Unfortunately, I don't often succeed.

    It has gotten worse since I am pregnant. I completely lose it emotionally and put my poor husband through hell. I expect him to understand, what I cannot and to be so supportive, when I can recognize the madhouse I am being. it is overwhelming me. it was triggered tonight...
    VerveMum VerveMum
    36-40, F
    1 Response Sep 7, 2014

    Follow-up story on adrenal fatigue: I

    mentioned in a previous story, about adrenal fatigue being the physical side of PTSD. The adrenal glands, and the whole hormone system of the body, are affected by long-term extreme stress and trauma. When a person has been poisoned or physically harmed, that doesn't make it...
    GreenButtercup GreenButtercup
    36-40, F
    1 Response Mar 1, 2014

    I'm the girl that always came home sad from

    school. Because I know there was no light in the house I was living in. Screaming, abuse,bullying was waiting for me at the door. After I would encounter that. I'd head straight to my room. Where the bad memories lie. It was mostly throughout the house but in that room there was...
    MoonPrincessLuna MoonPrincessLuna
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 7, 2015

    Ptsd has sadly been my friend

    since i was younger .....my husband who is a great friend and person sadly is the one paying for what every abuser did to me....but he is a trooper and i ask that you please pray for his strength..........it takes so long for me to trust i have known him for 3 years and still...
    warriormom89 warriormom89
    26-30, F
    Feb 18, 2014

    So What Was the Point of This Life?

    I'm afraid I just can't figure out how to use these websites. I'm so frustrated. I can see on the right that I must have written about the book "The Myth of Sanity" by Martha Stout, but I don't know where that post is located or to find out what I said. Anyway, I have...
    cestmarrant cestmarrant
    61-65, F
    19 Responses Aug 28, 2008

    Hopefully

    I spent the first eight years of my life being slammed into walls, thrown through windows, molested, and raped. I know that I had a very hard time dealing with the trauma I suffered at the hands of my "father". However, I thought that I had dealt with it and moved on.Not that...
    lyricaldemise lyricaldemise
    36-40, T
    1 Response Oct 6, 2013

    Long story short . My defibrillator went off

    six times in the beginning of July of this year. I was on my way to vacation. I thought that it was "The End" Anyway I'm trying to get back to normal life. However every time I feel alone, my heart races a few, I'm alone or if I bring up anything that has to do with the event...
    TaylorD93 TaylorD93
    22-25, F
    Jul 19, 2015

    A Life Of PTSD

    I have had PTSD for over 30 years. I did not know that was what I had until I moved out of Canada to the US, and a Doctor who deals with such recognized what was going on , and got me help. Two years in therapy for it, and I was doing so much better. Then a freaking ef5 tornado...
    JustRho JustRho
    46-50, F
    Jul 8, 2013

    A few words about secondary trauma: When a

    person goes through trauma, their family gets affected too. If there is a spouse or children, they probably need to get some counseling and have some friends to talk to about it. Otherwise, it will be more difficult for them to handle the stress on their loved one and on the...
    GreenButtercup GreenButtercup
    36-40, F
    Jun 6, 2014

    This post is not really

    for me. It's for friends and family members of people who have been s**ually assaulted. For some readers I would be stating the obvious, but not for everyone. What happens with assault and things like that is very traumatic. It affects a person's identity and the way they...
    GreenButtercup GreenButtercup
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jun 6, 2014

    10 Years Of Ptsd

    Unfortunately I have had PTSD since a young teenager. I am now in my mid 20's and going on year 10 of living with PTSD. I have gone through many phases of having long term PTSD. I went through a self medicate phase in the beginning of taking a bunch of recreational drugs to...
    mhollywoodc mhollywoodc
    22-25, F
    Nov 2, 2012

    Damn you fox! Second attempt:  Having

    panic attacks? Here's some advice from Tyler Durden. 
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    Mar 7, 2014

    A counselor told me once

    that PTSD is a normal response to the abnormal. Anyway, it does not make somebody any less of a person if they have this condition.
    GreenButtercup GreenButtercup
    36-40, F
    1 Response Feb 10, 2014

    I am a retired police officer.

    There were many things that happened over the years that affected me. Murders, rapes, terrible accidents. People think police officers are cold, heartless and do not care. Well they are mistaken. You see so much. And you feel every possible emotion. But with that said the...
    gsm45 gsm45
    51-55, M
    2 Responses Mar 1, 2014

    Two Steps Forward, One Giant Step Back

    I have been diagnosed with PTSD. It sucks. I feel like every time I make some progress, I slip backwards. I finally got a steady job, though my employers do not know about my PTSD. The problem is that I work with kids. While I love kids and they usually help me stay with the...
    runningaway runningaway
    18-21, F
    Jul 1, 2010

    Im a mother now and a wife 2 things I didint

    think I would ever have. Im not broken but im bent by some of my lifes experiences. I wish I could see the world as I did as a child because thats the world I want to raise my child in. Where I really believed nothing could go wrong. I'm already an anxious person and along with...
    KMBJuneBaby14 KMBJuneBaby14
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Aug 28, 2015

    Friends and family. I have a story to tell.

    One that only a few have heard. I have only recently opened up about it. It is one of the reasons (of several) for my PTSD. I think this will help me recover faster and maybe shed some light into why I have been more withdrawn as an adult, compared to my youth. This story is...
    MrM0J0RISIN MrM0J0RISIN
    46-50, M
    Aug 11, 2015

    To Compartmentalize Or Not To Compartmentalize…

    Compartmentalization is the separation of anything into separate areas, categories or compartments. When talking about the pantry, compartmentalization is a good thing. Keeping canned goods in the same cupboard as the rest of the canned goods, and the boxed dry food with the rest...
    TypicalPisces TypicalPisces
    36-40, F
    Jan 10, 2011

    PTSD,MAJOR Deppression,and Anxiety

    about 3 years ago i was almost killed. i had my hands bound behind my back and was brutally beaten by 10-12 "men",.... the attack lasted 4-6 minutes,.. although, yes.... it seemed like much longer.after i was bound and thrown to the ground, i was maced in the face...
    crucified13 crucified13
    36-40
    8 Responses Dec 16, 2008

    People get PTSD from real traumatic events.

    Unfortunately they often get accused of paranoia on the grounds that they are afraid of things that most people are not afraid of. The following link provides the best definition that I can find. http://medical-dictionary.thefreedictionary.com/paranoia 'Paranoia is an...
    GreenButtercup GreenButtercup
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Aug 9, 2014

    Hi everyone -- I'm here to share my story about

    how I halted the majority of my depression and PTSD symptoms through diet change. :) I've suffered from depression for my entire life -- mood swings, crying spells, thoughts of suicide. Even when I was a toddler, I felt like the world weighed heavy on me. This continued into my...
    annexthecelt annexthecelt
    22-25, F
    Feb 9, 2015

    There is a lot of horrible misinformation about

    this. Not just in religious circles, but social and medical and psychological ones too. A lot of people will tell you to 'just forget whatever has happened to you, and move on.' Well PTSD is the way a person's whole system is caught in a loop while trying to forget and move...
    GreenButtercup GreenButtercup
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Feb 20, 2014

    It's actually kind of funny this came across

    the discover page.. I was just cleaning out my back pack when I came across my doctors note with a list of mental health specialists. She told me I should look into speaking with someone as she believes it could solve issues I have in my life now. I'm doing alright, but I will...
    what2experience what2experience
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jun 6, 2014

    Did it make you feel good?

    When you grabbed me by my hair and pulled me down to the tub and rubbed my head and hair to take off the shampoo from the floor Did it make you feel good? When you threaten me with " I'll tell the doctors to give me pills to kill you" Did it make you feel good? When you would...
    MoonPrincessLuna MoonPrincessLuna
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Oct 10, 2015

    My Triggers Have Come Home To Roost

    A friend of mine, on another site, uses the term "Wonderful Husband" whenever she vents about her hubby.... so I'm going to do the same here. When I was still living at home, as a child/teenager, my abuser was impossibly hard to please. She demanded perfection in everything she...
    rollingwithhusky rollingwithhusky
    46-50, F
    1 Response Aug 1, 2010

    This picture I posted pretty much sums up how

    my brain has been functioning the last few years. I was diagnosed with PTSD years ago after a terrible experience. A few years later I had a similar experience and again was diagnosed with PTSD. Lately I have had a hard time wrapping my head around what happened to me, I can't...
    HerrExperience HerrExperience
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jul 4, 2014

    I Have Had Pstd For 10 Years

    I have had PSTD ever since a drunken man got off his bicyle and pushed me, a social worker in ED told me I might have it some year in time, I get flash backs every time a bicyle passes by me within a couple of feet of me, it scares me, how can I over come this feeling, nighmaresw...
    Ratfink Ratfink
    51-55, M
    Jul 31, 2008

    "The problem with any Level 4 virus is

    that it turns the person you love into a Category A. Bio-Hazard... "...And it totally destroys your own self image". --------------
    carolinesawyer carolinesawyer
    46-50, F
    Jun 16, 2015

    Ptsd After, Being Lied To For Years

    My story began 4 years ago when I meet my first boyfriend, I was 22, after 3 .years of being together and a week later after we broke up I find out that he repeatedly cheated on me many many times, The news were chocking, I could not believe this at first I was...
    Trixiz Trixiz
    22-25
    Jul 6, 2012

    What is a Panic AttackA very important question

    if you're struggling with this condition. You should really understanding exactly what's going on behind the scenes.So what is a PA?A sudden feeling of acute and disabling anxiety.`Ok, that's the textbook definition, but i don't think that clears things up too much so let's go l...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    Feb 23, 2014

    No Fight In Me

    This experience stopped me in my tracks.  I am decidedly not fighting to overcome Ptsd.  In fact, it was only a few weeks ago that I even realized that I might have, indeed, had Ptsd at the age of 15. Something very violent, sudden and awful...
    LilAnnie LilAnnie
    56-60, F
    9 Responses Jan 28, 2009

    as usual

    monday 5 september 2011 I found someone in this group today about whom I got enthused. I joined the group, I friended her and commented on one of her posts, wrote her a message... and only after all that did I notice that she hasn't made a peep here at EP for two years. gone. her...
    sehnen sehnen
    51-55, F
    5 Responses Sep 5, 2011

    Apparently a lot of us

    who have PTSD, if not all of us, are suffering from adrenal fatigue as a result of prolonged traumatization. If you google it, you can get a free online test, and then you could ask about it at your local health food store or talk to a natural medicine practitioner. I wish I...
    GreenButtercup GreenButtercup
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Feb 20, 2014

    Through the Crucible

    I will not let these memories own me. I am not an animal, regardless of how I have been treated and what I have gone though; I am a sovereign being, a human being with self-awareness and the powers of reason, with dignity and a right to be at peace once in a while. My fears are...
    Sysiphuslove Sysiphuslove
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Jul 31, 2008
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