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I Am Fighting to Overcome Ptsd

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    It's actually kind of funny this came across

    the discover page.. I was just cleaning out my back pack when I came across my doctors note with a list of mental health specialists. She told me I should look into speaking with someone as she believes it could solve issues I have in my life now. I'm doing alright, but I will...
    what2experience what2experience 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 6

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    ****Trigger warning *** Last night I had sex

    with this guy who I trusted and thought wouldn't hurt me and In my heart thought it would help me get over my sexual abuse for some reason but it made me much worse I'm a wreck and can't stop crying how the whole night went down wasn't good in the beginning is just like when...
    ktrlz ktrlz 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 8, 2013

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    Life's Hurdles

    Hi there I'm here to get some support, insight and converse with others that may be able to relate to PTSD... child sex abuse.. and infidelity. I'm a 28 year old female who has been battling with PTSD for the last year or so.. it's onset caused by the realisation that I was...
    Naturebaby85 Naturebaby85 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 11, 2013

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    Follow-up story on adrenal fatigue: I

    mentioned in a previous story, about adrenal fatigue being the physical side of PTSD. The adrenal glands, and the whole hormone system of the body, are affected by long-term extreme stress and trauma. When a person has been poisoned or physically harmed, that doesn't make it...
    GreenButtercup GreenButtercup 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 1

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    I Fought Ptsd and Won.

    Several years ago, I was in two fairly spectacular car accidents within two weeks of each other.  The first one actually involved my car flying off of a mountain an in to a flooding river; the second involved being at the mercy of a jerk who was driving 70 in several feet of...
    DiscoveryChick DiscoveryChick 41-45, F 8 Responses Jan 21, 2009

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    as usual

    monday 5 september 2011 I found someone in this group today about whom I got enthused. I joined the group, I friended her and commented on one of her posts, wrote her a message... and only after all that did I notice that she hasn't made a peep here at EP for two years. gone. her...
    sehnen sehnen 51-55, F 5 Responses Sep 5, 2011

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    People get PTSD from real traumatic events.

    Unfortunately they often get accused of paranoia on the grounds that they are afraid of things that most people are not afraid of. The following link provides the best definition that I can find. http://medical-dictionary.thefreedictionary.com/paranoia 'Paranoia is an...
    GreenButtercup GreenButtercup 36-40, F Aug 9

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    I really need someone to talk to on here cause

    well...no one gets it. No one gets why I have problems trusting people or why I jump sky high when even someone opens the door. I hate living like this. I hate always have high anxiety and having dreams where I die. Because of this disorder my whole life has been turned upside...
    FreeSpiritFritz FreeSpiritFritz 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 24

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    I hate having PTSD and seizures at the same time

    and being treated like a case of uncontrolled emotions. I don't like getting stuck in various spiraling melt-downs when I'm just trying to live. I don't like the way my brain goes into alternate forgetfulness, flashbacks, and deja vu - the feelings of disorientation and lack...
    GreenButtercup GreenButtercup 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 17

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    A Life Of PTSD

    I have had PTSD for over 30 years. I did not know that was what I had until I moved out of Canada to the US, and a Doctor who deals with such recognized what was going on , and got me help. Two years in therapy for it, and I was doing so much better. Then a freaking ef5 tornado...
    JustRho JustRho 46-50, F Jul 8, 2013

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    There is a lot of horrible misinformation about

    this. Not just in religious circles, but social and medical and psychological ones too. A lot of people will tell you to 'just forget whatever has happened to you, and move on.' Well PTSD is the way a person's whole system is caught in a loop while trying to forget and move...
    GreenButtercup GreenButtercup 36-40, F 2 Responses Feb 20

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    I want to share a link to an online booklet

    about se*ual assault, in case it will help anyone who has been through this or had a friend or loved one go through it. http://www.sascwr.org/files/www/resources_pdfs/sexual_assault/Sexual_Assault_completed_package.pdf
    GreenButtercup GreenButtercup 36-40, F Apr 3

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    How I Overcame Panic, Fear, Hypochondria And Agoraphobia!

    I struggled with panic, fear, hypochondria and eventually even agoraphobia for years. It seemed like my mind just got stuck in this loop in which I just kept worrying. As soon as my panic kicked in, my heart started racing and I was absolutely convinced that I was on the verge...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M 1 Response Nov 25, 2013

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    Explosions from Iraq: Ever

    since my last Iraq tour. Any super loud bang or noise that I dont cause freaks me out. Gunshots, explosions, fireworks, you name it. I flinch instantly. When they fire cannons (simulated noise maker in ceremonies) every time i almost hit the pavement. It is a reflex. IDK why but...
    ken757 ken757 31-35, M 2 Responses Jan 1

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    The Trifecta: Workers Compensation, Mental Injury And Unemployment/Discrimination

    Worker's Compensation was supposed to help the injured workers when they get injured on the job. Their is no fault determination, because the system is a no-fault system. Basically, a person can fall asleep in his chair and fall and break his hip could collect under this system...
    98750il 98750il 22-25, M May 6, 2013

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    To Compartmentalize Or Not To Compartmentalize…

    Compartmentalization is the separation of anything into separate areas, categories or compartments. When talking about the pantry, compartmentalization is a good thing. Keeping canned goods in the same cupboard as the rest of the canned goods, and the boxed dry food with the rest...
    TypicalPisces TypicalPisces 31-35, F Jan 10, 2011

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    The 'freeze and be nice' mechanism.

    This is what gets me into a lot of difficulty in threatening situations, by making it extra hard to confront while things are happening or right after. In a way it is a defense, and this is partly how I've survived certain things, but sometimes it is really counter...
    GreenButtercup GreenButtercup 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 14

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    So What Was the Point of This Life?

    I'm afraid I just can't figure out how to use these websites. I'm so frustrated. I can see on the right that I must have written about the book "The Myth of Sanity" by Martha Stout, but I don't know where that post is located or to find out what I said. Anyway, I have...
    cestmarrant cestmarrant 61-65, F 19 Responses Aug 28, 2008

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    Two Steps Forward, One Giant Step Back

    I have been diagnosed with PTSD. It sucks. I feel like every time I make some progress, I slip backwards. I finally got a steady job, though my employers do not know about my PTSD. The problem is that I work with kids. While I love kids and they usually help me stay with the...
    runningaway runningaway 18-21, F Jul 1, 2010

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    After My Time In The Desert

    It's been a few years since my last combat deployment. Some say you kind of miss it. There are some things I miss, but I dont miss being over there. I don't like having to spend a year or longer away from my family. To miss the little things in life. I don't miss being shot...
    ken757 ken757 31-35, M 2 Responses Oct 28, 2013

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    Today I Face My Fears

    I'm tired of hiding from everyone in my past because they bring up the memories of what has changed my life forever. I've been shutting them out for so long; experiencing anxiety and ugly panic attacks whenever I am faced towards someone or something that reminds me of what...
    idsjester idsjester 16-17 2 Responses Jul 4, 2010

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    My Triggers Have Come Home To Roost

    A friend of mine, on another site, uses the term "Wonderful Husband" whenever she vents about her hubby.... so I'm going to do the same here. When I was still living at home, as a child/teenager, my abuser was impossibly hard to please. She demanded perfection in everything she...
    rollingwithhusky rollingwithhusky 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 1, 2010

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    Ptsd has sadly been my friend

    since i was younger .....my husband who is a great friend and person sadly is the one paying for what every abuser did to me....but he is a trooper and i ask that you please pray for his strength..........it takes so long for me to trust i have known him for 3 years and still...
    warriormom89 warriormom89 22-25, F Feb 18

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    I was in an abusive marriage

    for 30 years. Lost both of my parents at 22 years old. After 20 years of my husband had a motorcycle accident and suffered a severe brain injury. I rehabbed him for 10 years until he almost killed me I knew I had to leave him. It was a very long divorce made more difficult by my...
    seasonedsoul seasonedsoul 51-55, F 2 Responses Jun 29

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    PTSD,MAJOR Deppression,and Anxiety

    about 3 years ago i was almost killed. i had my hands bound behind my back and was brutally beaten by 10-12 "men",.... the attack lasted 4-6 minutes,.. although, yes.... it seemed like much longer.after i was bound and thrown to the ground, i was maced in the face...
    crucified13 crucified13 36-40 8 Responses Dec 16, 2008

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    Damn you fox! Second attempt:  Having

    panic attacks? Here's some advice from Tyler Durden. 
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Mar 7

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    10 Years Of Ptsd

    Unfortunately I have had PTSD since a young teenager. I am now in my mid 20's and going on year 10 of living with PTSD. I have gone through many phases of having long term PTSD. I went through a self medicate phase in the beginning of taking a bunch of recreational drugs to...
    mhollywoodc mhollywoodc 22-25, F Nov 2, 2012

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    This picture I posted pretty much sums up how

    my brain has been functioning the last few years. I was diagnosed with PTSD years ago after a terrible experience. A few years later I had a similar experience and again was diagnosed with PTSD. Lately I have had a hard time wrapping my head around what happened to me, I can't...
    HerrExpierience HerrExpierience 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    Does fear cause real diarrhea

    or does it cause the feeling only ? http://livelifetothefullest.live-panic-free.com/2014/03/03/does-fear-cause-real-diarrhea-or-does-it-cause-the-feeling-only-.aspx Hey guys, sorry if this seems spammy, not my intention at all. I used to just paste my experiences in several...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Mar 4

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    Apparently a lot of us

    who have PTSD, if not all of us, are suffering from adrenal fatigue as a result of prolonged traumatization. If you google it, you can get a free online test, and then you could ask about it at your local health food store or talk to a natural medicine practitioner. I wish I...
    GreenButtercup GreenButtercup 36-40, F 3 Responses Feb 20

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    Having panic attacks?

    Here's some advice from Tyler Durden
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Mar 7

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    I'm Starting To Realize No One Will Ever Understand

    I feel so alone and trapped sometimes that it's hard to see reality for what it is. I know no one believes me and what I went through as a child. My mom used to put me into mental facilities from the age of 5 and the last placement I had was when I was 14. These placements were...
    justme8903 justme8903 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 30, 2013

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    What is a Panic AttackA very important question

    if you're struggling with this condition. You should really understanding exactly what's going on behind the scenes.So what is a PA?A sudden feeling of acute and disabling anxiety.`Ok, that's the textbook definition, but i don't think that clears things up too much so let's go l...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Feb 23

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    A Cry For Help.

    I got PTSD from having to watch my boyfriend get stabbed and then bleed to death. At first it was just nightmares, making me scared to sleep which then led to depression. But I'm one of those people who are bubbly and doesn't want any attention, so I ignored all the signs even...
    DyingFromWithin DyingFromWithin 13-15, F 10 Responses Apr 20, 2013

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    Ptsd

    i hate it. Flashback of him raping me them raping me blackout where i cant remember where i am flashback after flashback in class i have panic attack anixtey attack people staring at me like i'm crazy if only they knew that my wicked head loves playing games with me at night i...
    angeluvzs angeluvzs 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 3, 2012

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    Hopefully

    I spent the first eight years of my life being slammed into walls, thrown through windows, molested, and raped. I know that I had a very hard time dealing with the trauma I suffered at the hands of my "father". However, I thought that I had dealt with it and moved on.Not that...
    lyricaldemise lyricaldemise 36-40 1 Response Oct 6, 2013

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    Damaged (not broken)

    I’m not what anyone would call emotionally stable, even three years after what can only be described as the worst night of my admittedly short life. That night left me with PTSD, something I can best describe to those who ask as like being a manic depressive except with...
    Steffi97 Steffi97 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 16, 2012

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    A few words about secondary trauma: When a

    person goes through trauma, their family gets affected too. If there is a spouse or children, they probably need to get some counseling and have some friends to talk to about it. Otherwise, it will be more difficult for them to handle the stress on their loved one and on the...
    GreenButtercup GreenButtercup 36-40, F Jun 6

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    Through the Crucible

    I will not let these memories own me. I am not an animal, regardless of how I have been treated and what I have gone though; I am a sovereign being, a human being with self-awareness and the powers of reason, with dignity and a right to be at peace once in a while. My fears are...
    Sysiphuslove Sysiphuslove 26-30, F 6 Responses Jul 31, 2008

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    It's so hard. My 7 year old daughter has it to

    because of what my step-son did. We were doing so well, then a week and a half ago we found my dog had died unexpectedly in the night, in the barn, after an argument between the two of us and I forgot to let her in. We are now back to her having complete melt downs as soon as...
    fairydreams fairydreams 36-40 1 Response Feb 11

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    I am a retired police officer.

    There were many things that happened over the years that affected me. Murders, rapes, terrible accidents. People think police officers are cold, heartless and do not care. Well they are mistaken. You see so much. And you feel every possible emotion. But with that said the...
    gsm45 gsm45 46-50, M 2 Responses Mar 1

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    This post is not really

    for me. It's for friends and family members of people who have been s**ually assaulted. For some readers I would be stating the obvious, but not for everyone. What happens with assault and things like that is very traumatic. It affects a person's identity and the way they...
    GreenButtercup GreenButtercup 36-40, F 1 Response Jun 6

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    I Have Had Pstd For 10 Years

    I have had PSTD ever since a drunken man got off his bicyle and pushed me, a social worker in ED told me I might have it some year in time, I get flash backs every time a bicyle passes by me within a couple of feet of me, it scares me, how can I over come this feeling, nighmaresw...
    Ratfink Ratfink 51-55, M Jul 31, 2008

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    Fear And Anxiety..i Will No Longer Allow To Control Me.

    I was hit by a van right outside my house when I was 4 or 5. I was playing with my friend, and I ran home to get a toy to show her. I was running back to her house and I distinctly remember before I crossed the street there was something important I had to do. I stopped..I looked...
    DanceInColor DanceInColor 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 3, 2011

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    Vehicle Born Improvise Explosvie Devices

    (carbombs): These things were the bane of my existance over there. Mainly one car can be packed with mulitple artelery shells (very big bomb) I **** you now seein these things both stationary, and moving explode is the scarest thing I had ever seen. Scarier than spiders...
    ken757 ken757 31-35, M 2 Responses Jan 1

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    Ptsd Is Killing My Marriage....help?

    I'm a former USMC infantry machine gunner, who served in Iraq for two tours. My first deployment was hell, and I lost quite a few good buddies, one in front of my eyes. Due to our command telling us we were to suck it up and not go get help (for fear of losing people to medical...
    ajmilberg ajmilberg 26-30, M 4 Responses May 4, 2012

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    No Fight In Me

    This experience stopped me in my tracks.  I am decidedly not fighting to overcome Ptsd.  In fact, it was only a few weeks ago that I even realized that I might have, indeed, had Ptsd at the age of 15. Something very violent, sudden and awful...
    LilAnnie LilAnnie 56-60, F 9 Responses Jan 28, 2009

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    A counselor told me once

    that PTSD is a normal response to the abnormal. Anyway, it does not make somebody any less of a person if they have this condition.
    GreenButtercup GreenButtercup 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 10

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    Lately I'm going through another phase

    where I dream about certain people trying to murder me in brutal ways. I also can't get appropriate medicine because it makes the seizures worse. God helps but I also appreciate my friends, even though I have to be careful who I get close to. I try not to over-burden people...
    GreenButtercup GreenButtercup 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 6

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    I have been through so much,

    from being adopted, being mentally abused by my adoptive mother, losing all my friends and loved ones, being sexually assaulted by a teacher when I was 15, struggling with suicidal tendencies, being in a physical and mentally abusive 8yr relationship and the list goes on. I've...
    StuckInAFog StuckInAFog 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 4

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