I Am Finding Demetrie

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 57 People

    Find Your Dream And Go After It.

    It was because of EP that I truly found my dream of wanting to get paid to write. And when I discovered this passion I slowly began to go after it. I'd check craigslist on a daily basis looking for writing jobs. I found a wonderful website that goes out to review theater and...
    Deee1930 Deee1930
    31-35, F
    Feb 15, 2013

    I Believe In Love.

    I have always valued love.  It's probably because my parents divorced when i was 5 years old.  I wanted to find a relationship that actually worked.  I wanted to feel that love and share that love with somebody.  I wanted somebody that cherished me for me...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 24, 2010

    In Life,

    When we are young we rush to get older.  Get to 16 so we can drive a car, rush to 18 so we can move out ot the house and be done with high school.  Rush to be 21 so we can drink.  then we reach a certain age where we feel we want to be younger, to relive those days that were...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jan 17, 2011

    I Feel

    that the older I get the more angry I get. There's a frustration about life. You begin to look at yourself harder, and hate yourself more. You grow frustrated, and have less patience. Growing up is just not fun. It's all work and rarely no play. You grow tired. And all...
    Deee1930 Deee1930
    31-35, F
    Apr 3, 2012

    I've Battled

    I've battled with low self esteem and insecurity my whole life. I am reaching a point in my life now where I am truly starting to accept myself as a person,a nd I am finally supporting my decisions in life for what they are. "My decisions." I am finally making decisions in my...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jul 20, 2010

    Finding Demetrie.. What Does That Mean ? Please Answer :)

    i found my demetrie.. and i've been a different person ever since. He picked me up where others had always let me down. He loves me like i have never been loved before. its in His eyes when He looks at me. Its in His kiss. in His words and most importantly its in His action. Hes...
    impossibly impossibly
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 7, 2011

    I Am Far Too Hard On Myself...

    You know.  I've had this conversation earlier in the week about myself, but I realize I have a really hard time seeing the good in myself. Even with this job search I'm going through, the jobs I'm applying for, I know I'd do a great job at, but I still sell myself short. I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Nov 11, 2010

    Confidence.

    Confidence is an attractive quality. I guess, for me, when I think of confidence, I think of how a person truly presents themselves. When they truly know themselves, they are confident. I admire those that can say whatever is on their mind. I admire those that don't hold back...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Sep 7, 2010

    Today.

    So, my former girlfreinds got together to give a baby shower to one of my former friends.  I don't know what hurts more.  Knowing that I wasn't told about it at all (although i was completely far away, but if I would have known I would have sent something to be apart of it...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 19, 2011

    Energy Levels.

    Overall, I am a low energy person.  When I have high energy I really make the most of my days, I clean, I go out into the world, I explore something new, but the majority of days I truly am a low energy person.  It takes a lot of mental energy to get me to go out into the world...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Feb 25, 2011

    Energy.

    What is normal? To many people you would look at me and I would appear normal, but so many days I feel far from normal.  My emotions are constantly changing in me.  One minute I could be happy as can be and the next moment I could be just as sad.  My emotions are...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 13, 2010

    Who Is Demetrie?

    I've been asked that a lot lately.. let me share this with you. My parents divorced when I was 5 years old. I spent the rest of my life vying for my father's attention hoping I would be good enough for him. I felt unappreciated by him. It was reaffirmed when he got remarried...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Sep 17, 2010

    Christmas Time.

    Christmas time was always my favorite holiday.  As a kid, it was all about the presents.  As I grew older, it stopped becoming less about that, but more about other things.  With my gifts, I always tried hard to make them personal and give a little touch of De in them.  I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 23, 2010

    I Use To.

    Every holiday season, I use to want so much.  I wanted this or I wanted that.  I would walk in a store and I'd come out with a list of 10 things I wanted, at least.  Now that I am older, my wanting has gone down tremendously.  There are no longer wants in my...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Nov 24, 2010

    How Does One?

    How does one more from their past of what happened as a child to actually accepting it, forgiving and then move on as an adult while trying to repair the relationships that may have gotten broken in the process?For example,my relationship with my father.   It's never been full...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 17, 2011

    Effort.

    The key to any successful relationship comes down to one thing: Effort. Both people need to put effort in. It can't be one person always making the phone calls. It can't be one person always doing the inviting. It can't be one person always sending the emails out. There...
    Deee1930 Deee1930
    31-35, F
    1 Response May 18, 2012

    I Made.

    I made this group as my outlet.   My outlet of finding myself.  It's not that I do not know who I am as a person, but there are other areas in my life that I need to find and discover within myself.  I'm going to use this group to write about me.  Write...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Apr 22, 2010

    Life As A Woman

    As a little girl we think of our dreams, we think of being married one day, we play house with our friends, we ride our bikes, we create stories within our heads.  We dream and we fantasize as to what life is going to be. As a teenager we begin to find who we truly are...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    130 Responses Nov 16, 2010

    " My Goals Before The Year Ends "

    Well there are so many things that i would love to talk about that would be my top goals before the year 2011 ends, well i think i would have to start with Finding a job that would possibly keep me busier so i could have something to keep my mind off things that i wish i would...
    strongestangelalive strongestangelalive
    18-21, F
    Nov 3, 2011

    Who Is Demetrie??

    Just wondering.. The only Demetrie I can think of is Anastasia's love interest in Anastasia. 
    GenineFilS GenineFilS
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 3, 2011

    The Past, Present, And Future

    It's like the past is just a dream. what happened in the beginning was so magical, but it always fades, it always goes away. People change, people adapt, and then their real selves come out. The person I am today is no longer the same. I have become jaded, I have become...
    Deee1930 Deee1930
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Dec 7, 2012

    Smiles

    As time goes by, I have found one true and constant thing. Smiles cause a ripple affect. Smiles make you feel GOOD. Start your day smiling at the first 10 people you see, they will in turn smile at the next people they see, soon, many people have a happier day just because you...
    rchiolino rchiolino
    46-50
    Feb 3, 2011

    More And More

    I am realizing.  I just want to find a partner that can truly get me to pen up about life.  About my feelings, my opinions, my dreams.  I want someone I can talk to for hours at a time with.  To just be playful with, have fun with, enjoy each other's company...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    May 23, 2010

    My Sex Drive.

    I asked myself this question tonight, "when did sex truly become important to me?" The first time I lost my virginity, it was perfect. My boyfriend, at the time, was my first true love, and he was also a virgin so we were literaly in the same place, and truly wanted to explore...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Sep 7, 2010

    Response To Life As A Woman

    I liked the story about "Life as a Woman." It was very heart warming and normally would be true in the progression from girl to womanhood. I am a woman in my 50 now and dealt with many challenges and ups and downs throughout my phase from girl to womanhood. As a very young girl...
    Technofreak Technofreak
    46-50, F
    5 Responses Nov 30, 2010

    " As A Little Girl "

    As a little girl we grew up playing with out tea sets and having sleep over's with our friends and being tucked in to bed by your parents at night, we as little girls eventually grow up and we don't touch our tea sets anymore we would rather give them to some one else because...
    strongestangelalive strongestangelalive
    18-21, F
    Nov 3, 2011

    Sex.

    I enjoy it. It is a part of who I am. and I'm perfectly okay with this fact =)
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Aug 17, 2010

    Woman In A Mans Body

    I knew from a very earley age i was different from other boys.I was always playing girls and doing girlie things.I now live full time as a woman and i am now very happy.It has been a long hard road over the years but it has all been worth it.
    sassysissy sassysissy
    61-65, M
    2 Responses Dec 8, 2010

    The Woman I Have Become..

    I am a sister I am a daughter I am a fiancee I am a lover I am a caregiver I am a friend I am a photographer I am a writer I am a worker I am person with a degree I have worked for a company for years I was a disgruntled employee I am a free spirit I am a traveler I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 6, 2010

    I Struggle.

    I battle with myself.There are days where I truly feel beautiful and am confident with the person I am.But more often than not, I have those days where I truly dislike myself.  I have a hard time really seeing the good in myself. I know I ocme off as confident, and I am, in a...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jan 30, 2011

    ...Friendship...

    Friendship. It is one of the toughest relationships to maintain. I have kind of become a "friendship snob" in my life. In the sense that I don't just let anyone in. I know I should have a more open mind, and I am willing to give everyone a chance, but lets just say...
    Deee1930 Deee1930
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 17, 2013

    Heh.

    Insecurity is the death of me. It always will be.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jul 26, 2010

    Challenge To Myself..

    The next time I get in a bad mood or get down on myself, I'm going to challenge myself to turn the mood around.  To turn it around and appreciate what's truly in front of me.I am done with the days of beating myself up.  I am done with the days of looking at myself negatively...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jan 31, 2011

    The One Thing

    The one thing I always believed in was love. Once I had my first relationship, I realized the emotions that could truly come from it. Realizing that yes it was my goal in life to find that someone to spend the rest of my life with. That is my one goal and dream in life. To...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jul 14, 2010
    Gabster27 Gabster27
    18-21, F
    Dec 30, 2014

    Okay.

    So.. I'm weird, I'm quirky. I'm an introvert but long to be deeply connected with people. However, I find myself so different from the majority of people. For example, I like football, but I'm not a diehard football fan. I could go without it :) For example, I understand...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Oct 10, 2010

    Embracing The Woman Body...

    I always thought I was ugly growing up so I barely paid any attention to my body. I remember when my boobs first started to come in. And I wore my first training bra. Even then, I didn't really embrace my body. I just felt, "my boobs are small compared to everyone else." I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Oct 29, 2010

    I Could.

    I bet I could have an extremely active social life if I put int he effort. Because I know people that are constantly out doing things. However, there is a part of me that is truly content with just being alone. However, I'm getting really sick of spending so much time alone...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Aug 15, 2010

    Compliments

    I struggle with compliments for a variety of reasons. One, I come from the understanding that when you're first meeting someone or haven't seen someone in a long time you will usually comment on their hair or what they're wearing to break the ice. Yes, its nice you took the...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    7 Responses Feb 24, 2011

    I Think

    I think there's something inside me that honestly keeps me from being happy.  In the quietest of days my mind goes to the past.  I start to think about how things should be, how I added to such problems, and wonder if there is more than I could have done.  I live in the past...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Feb 17, 2011

    It's been awhile since I've stopped in to write

    on this beloved site. I believe "Demetrie" has officially been found. It's funny. When I first got married, I was just at the ripe age of 23. At that time, I thought I knew it all, knew who I was, and was ready to get serious. Years later, well, we all know what happened...
    Deee1930 Deee1930
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 2, 2014

    " My Goals Before The Year Ends "

    Well there are so many things that i would love to talk about that would be my top goals before the year 2011 ends, well i think i would have to start with Finding a job that would possibly keep me busier so i could have something to keep my mind off things that i wish i would...
    strongestangelalive strongestangelalive
    18-21, F
    Nov 3, 2011

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