I Am Ftm

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,166 People

    But I haven't told any one.

    I'm slowly starting to do things "as a boy" and I'm so much more comfortable I just wish I had enough courage to tell my family and completely transform
    FtmTroy FtmTroy
    13-15, T
    2 Responses Dec 23, 2015

    im a transmasculine female

    if that makes any sense, at spirit i am male, im hairy everywhere (born with a lot of T) and i dress like a male which i was made fun of all my 12 years in school.
    olufemi94 olufemi94
    22-25, T
    1 Response Feb 20

    Hey I'M New And This Is My Story/Rant

    So yeah I figured out I was trans in December and basically my first reaction was "oh ****." Maybe some of you can relate to that. I recently auditioned for a boy's a capella group. I know I'm not going to get in, I just wanted to make a point by being able to audition. It's...
    The7thSense The7thSense
    16-17, M
    May 12, 2013

    All my favorite shirts are too long.

    I looked in the mirror and thought "Well, I'm a short guy anyway so I can't expect all men's shirts to fit me the same as they fit my guy friends who are 6 feet tall." I have a sewing machine so I have been thinking of hemming them. I folded the ends under and then turned around...
    starling156 starling156
    18-21, M
    Mar 1

    I'm not fully ftm, at the moment I have to

    settle for a more genderfluid approach. But when I'm alone I can be 100% me and it feels amazing. I would love to live my life everyday as who I really am, but life just can't be that way, there is no way I can start T, but I do plan to eventually have a mastectomy and...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX
    31-35
    5 Responses Feb 17, 2015
    daveless daveless
    18-21, T
    Jan 3

    Okay, so I'm basically using this site to

    accept advice, log my experiences for my own benefit and also to help others going through the same, complicated experience. I say complicated because I don't want to fully transition into a man, but I do want to bring out my masculine side that has been taunting me for so long...
    Rossi117 Rossi117
    26-30
    3 Responses May 21, 2014

    So im going to cut my hair today.

    my mother is going to kill me but i hate my hair. i want itto go away so im taking matters into my own hands wish me luck
    JR1123 JR1123
    18-21, T
    2 Responses Jan 13

    About half a year ago,

    I came to the realization that I definitely wasn't female. I was genuinely terrified to come out to my parents, not because I didn't think they would accept me, but because I knew saying it out loud to anyone other than my best friend, Maggie, would crush me. Eventually I did...
    dakotakiwi dakotakiwi
    13-15, T
    Nov 5, 2015

    I'm not an "it" or a "they" I'm a "him"

    and a "he" get it right. So before say something about my being trans please read this.
    xxAlexBridgerxx xxAlexBridgerxx
    16-17, T
    1 Response Apr 1

    I just got my first packer today!

    it's a 4 in 1 Freetom, 5.5 inches. Good for packing, peeing, playing, and pleasure. I'm in love with it! SO FRICKEN REALISTIC.
    littleone212 littleone212
    16-17, T
    2 Responses Dec 12, 2015

    Hey, My name is Jaz-James

    and I'm 17, im a very proud transgendered guy but i find sometimes that i struggle to cope with the complications that come with this. Ive always known i was trans, but it seems sometimes that no one seems to understand, i dont know any other trans people and we like to meet...
    JazJames JazJames
    18-21, T
    5 Responses Feb 12, 2014

    does anyone agree that it really sucks

    when ur ready to move forward with your transitions but lack of money stalls progress......
    karisasam karisasam
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Apr 19, 2015

    Why does facial hair take

    so long to grow
    Benjermanleon Benjermanleon
    26-30, T
    1 Response Dec 19, 2015

    FTM I Am a Gay-male Identified Biologically-born Female

    I am a gay-male identified biologically-born female, a gay man trapped in a woman's body. I am sweet, funny, romantic, and caring. I'm romantically, erotically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually attracted to gay men and gay-male culture. I have no desire whatsoever to turn a gay...
    RomanticRunner RomanticRunner
    46-50, T
    42 Responses Oct 5, 2009

    I'm finally 3 months hrt

    and I'm super happy. Growing a little bit of facial hair and my voice is getting deeper, got some muscle and some body redistribution. But I'm a bit frustrated because I actually passed as a male alot more before hrt than I do now. I can't fathom why that is. I've thought of it...
    GlitchedShark GlitchedShark
    22-25, T
    Dec 5, 2015

    I can't stand myself anymore.

    My hair, my clothing, my "female parts". My parents keep telling me I can't express myself and saying its to "protect me" and that I wouldn't have the guts to show up to school looking like a boy and it's starting to get sickening. The only thing holding me back is my family...
    dakotakiwi dakotakiwi
    13-15, T
    2 Responses Nov 7, 2015

    Just wishing you could hold my hand right now,

    Just wishing you were he,he,here right now. Just wishing you were re,ea,ea,real right now. Just wishing I could be there right now. Just wishing I could hold your hand right now. Not usually what I think of during the night, but on occasion I'll sing, in my awful voice...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming
    18-21, T
    1 Response Sep 12, 2015

    New to this but would really like

    input/advice/support of some kind because I honestly think doing what I need to do to be truly happy w myself ( which transitioning to a male ) will make me lose a lot of people in my life . I am still living life identifying as a female and my reasoning behind it makes me hate...
    juliandaniel95 juliandaniel95
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 13, 2015

    Finally got my binder on

    after struggling with getting it over my wide shoulders for MONTHS. I'm thrilled.... So thrilled I don't wanna take it off ugh. But I figured out how to get in on and now I can wear it every day~
    starling156 starling156
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jun 2, 2015

    I'm looking for a ftm buddy.

    If interested message me
    GothicSkeleton GothicSkeleton
    16-17, F
    Feb 6

    I just had the most interesting convo with my

    married female roommate...about ftm trans to gay man benefits...I was like...umm would your hubby support your transition?? Lol I'm getting closer to coming out for realz...
    napanda69 napanda69
    51-55, T
    1 Response Nov 24, 2015

    ....or maybe I'm not really ftm.

    I'm starting to believe that my gender discomfort comes from a mixture of internalized sexism, along with a lifetime sense of powerlessness and shame. We're all exposed to the gender construct of male and female. I think what's really happening is a mismatch between me and my...
    Chroniclesz7 Chroniclesz7
    18-21
    1 Response Dec 11, 2015

    I know I will never be happy.

    I have an extremely religious family that does not accept trans people, and I don't know what do. I hate my body; it makes me uncomfortable. I have no way to escape. I want to run far away from everybody, but I would also love to have trans friends (or anybody of the lgbt) to...
    Thebutterflyboy Thebutterflyboy
    18-21, T
    3 Responses Apr 14, 2015

    First off ill say im not out

    yet as trans. I dont even know how to come out to my best friend... or girlfriend of 2 years. I know my mom won't be supportive and my girlfriend tells me all the time how she's glad I don't want to be a man... any advice on coming out to people when you know most likely you...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Dec 28, 2015

    its weird being the only ftm in the family.

    i still have my biological features and considering taking hormones. but im nervous. since i can remember i felt something was out place. ever since i was a kid. i didn't want to play with barbie i wanted to play with toy hand cuffs and shoot my toy gun. i would run around with...
    erronblake erronblake
    18-21, M
    Dec 5, 2015

    i seriously need a binder what im doing is not

    working and im sick of trying to hide who i really am because of my crazy family!!!! :(
    JR1123 JR1123
    18-21, T
    Jan 13

    I Don't Know....

    I really don't know what I want to be anymore. I enjoy wearing tuxes and having my hair cut short, and being called a guy's name rather than my own girl name and having a desire for top surgery to make my chest area flat. I also desire to have a beard and mustache and a deeper...
    CasperAdair CasperAdair
    13-15, F
    1 Response Sep 22, 2013

    My Story

     So this is the first time that I have shared any of this with anyone.  I've never talked to anyone about being transgender and haven't tried to explain how I feel to anyone before now.  So this is a really big deal for me.I just recently discovered that I was...
    daysofgreen213 daysofgreen213
    18-21
    8 Responses Dec 10, 2009

    This is a letter thing

    that I am going to read to both of my parents this weekend when I am home for Thanksgiving. I have been depressed for months, not letting their distaste and disappointment about my coming out get to me, but it ******* got to me. All the words we didn't say over the phone, all...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming
    18-21, T
    3 Responses Nov 24, 2015

    I am officially one month on T!

    Just today my voice started faultering. I wish I could fast forward two years and know all the changes that will occur, but I know part of the experience is the surprise and seeing the changes slowly occur. I can't wait to hear how my voice turns out! It's still a long road...
    giggponagoshi giggponagoshi
    22-25, T
    2 Responses Sep 17, 2015

    Just Another Transguy

    Hi, there.  I'm a transguy living in rural Ohio.  I've lived here my whole life, so I decided to transition here, too.  Some people thinks that that's nuts, but it's actually worked out rather well.  Even though I live in a conservative area, I've found that...
    aranreinhart aranreinhart
    41-45
    7 Responses Jul 28, 2010
    TransgenderAlex TransgenderAlex
    13-15, T
    2 Responses Mar 18

    A letter to my mom. I'm

    so tired of trying to hide. All of my life, I've had to hide. What I mean by this is all of my life, I've wanted to be a boy. I can remember crying to myself and bed at night praying to God that he would make me a boy. But things don't happen that way. I couldn't be a boy. But...
    oliviairene47 oliviairene47
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 31, 2014

    hi! I'm Everett, I'm ftm,

    16, pansexual, and looking for new friends ^~^ add me if you want!
    littleone212 littleone212
    16-17, T
    1 Response Dec 2, 2015

    Guys!!!!! My deed poll came in on Tuesday.

    (March 17 2015)!!!!! So Happy. Literally was like bouncing aff the walls. So happy. My name is officially and legally Kyle Luke Joyce. So happy. Oh things are going so damned well.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 18, 2015

    Myself

    About a year ago, I put together my feelings and realized I really felt more comfortable as a male, rather than a female. I changed my name from Annie to Andy, and have since felt more comfortable with people calling me by my name. However, many people at my school knew me as...
    KaaruChan KaaruChan
    18-21, T
    1 Response Feb 27, 2013

    I've been post top surgery

    and testosterone for a few years now, but I almost always identify more as gender fluid or third gendered. Sometimes I wish there were a more direct way to explain that while my physical body has transitioned to male, my gender identity is more queer than anything. Ah well...
    echoamorphous echoamorphous
    22-25, T
    Feb 11
    duhwellman duhwellman
    22-25, M
    Nov 5, 2015

    I've always had issues with my gender identity;

    for the longest time, they remained repressed and unacknowledged until the trans movement came to the forefront of politics. I remember having qualms about what I exactly was since elementary school - of course, I only understood stereotypical gender roles at the time, and...
    toska777 toska777
    18-21, T
    Oct 21, 2014

    I am struggling with my chest dysphoria really

    badly. I still haven't found a binder that fits and every time I put on a bra to hold up these huge boobs I feel sick.
    napanda69 napanda69
    51-55, T
    1 Response Dec 25, 2015

    Hello friends, my name is Daniel.

    I would like to tell you a story, a story about my life over the past four years or so. I moved to a new school in the middle of Freshmen year in High school, and was instantly set apart from other people and labeled the odd one out. Nearly a month after I had gotten fairly...
    DanielReedcaotl DanielReedcaotl
    18-21, T
    2 Responses Dec 17, 2014

    So, I slept for a bit,

    and then woke up around midnight, and decided that although I've been hiding in my dorm room for about two weeks that I needed to get up and write something. So, I went out to the little window seats we have around my dorm and sat down. I have homework I should be doing, but...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming
    18-21, T
    2 Responses Oct 12, 2015

    Just wanted to stay that I am wearing a breast

    binder for the first time!!! Feels good
    yo805 yo805
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Aug 3, 2015

    My chosen name is Ian it means Gift from god

    so I really like it |feel free to talk to me *hugs* oh yeah Im Pre-T
    cute4me cute4me
    16-17, T
    3 Responses Feb 17, 2015

    My middle name is Stewart.

    ..I'm thinking that should be my male name.
    napanda69 napanda69
    51-55, T
    Nov 23, 2015

    Had two little girls at my work try

    and figure out if I was a boy or a girl, when they decided I was a boy, they giggled and I smiled a little on the inside, even though I was feeling neutral that day.
    Amichelseaoramichris Amichelseaoramichris
    18-21, T
    Oct 16, 2015

    it started when i was in 5th grade.

    i go to a Catholic school. i really love my friend there. but im really scared what they'll say when they find out in ftm. i also have a girlfriend but im to scared to tell anyone, even my sister, which im really close to. i also never "came out to my family" they just figured...
    OScow OScow
    13-15, T
    Feb 29

    My name is Julien, and I am FTM,

    a female to male transgendered individual. But, I'm not straight, I'm gay, so I'm an FTM who also happens to be gay. But, get this, there's more. I already have a post where I ramble a little about being gay and being FTM and wanting gay guys to know that I exist, but that's...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming
    18-21, T
    2 Responses Apr 29, 2015

    I am biologically female,

    but have worn mens clothes since 1997. I had psychotherapy in 2001/2 decided I just did not want the whole surgery thing . . I am only about 65% transgendered . . .about 50% lesbian . . .about 100% genderfucked So I live in no-mans land But I would rather be this genderqueer...
    dispossessed dispossessed
    51-55, F
    1 Response Mar 29, 2014

    well not me. my boyfriend is.

    can any of you help me understand him better
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses May 31, 2015

    I'm new to my thoughts.

    I've always known I was a guy. But I've finally realized I'm a guy on the inside and I love it. I'm going to chop off my hair. But I still need someone to talk to. Someone?
    oliviairene47 oliviairene47
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jan 21, 2014

    I'm questioning my name ?

    ? I may be a Joseph or a Mason ?? I can't decide gdi
    GayPrinceJoseph GayPrinceJoseph
    16-17, T
    2 Responses Nov 6, 2015

    Being openly transgender & in high school is

    one the hardest things I've experienced so far in my life. On top of a dysmorphic disorder, I struggle with anxiety & depression that stems from my insecurities. I've never had a companionship with someone who has a legit understanding or has related to my situation in full...
    odyl73 odyl73
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Mar 29

    In another post, I mentioned calling myself

    Dakota behind people's backs, but being uncomfortable because it still seems like such a feminine name. I tried Dakota-James, and I even told an old friend from my old school, but she made a snide comment and told me she would just call me DJ, which I've told her is an extremely...
    dakotakiwi dakotakiwi
    13-15, T
    2 Responses Nov 5, 2015

    I decided to go back to my regular highschool

    and ive been wearing my binder to school. I dont know why but my left side ribs really hurt.))))): -Alyx
    SpideyKid1999 SpideyKid1999
    16-17, M
    4 Responses Nov 4, 2015

    Hello guys, my name is Jason.

    Or at least that's what I like to be called. I love that my family and friends call me that, but it gets really weird once I say something. I can pull off the look but once I talk it just ruins it my voice is still pretty high. I really hate it. But anyways, hello everyone...
    Give2Schitts Give2Schitts
    13-15, T
    6 Responses Feb 17, 2015

    I just got my hair cut!

    I was feeling pretty bad today. I don't own a binder yet so usually I just wear one or two sports bras and a loose fitting shirt. However, today I had to wear a padded bra as I couldnt find anything else and you could see my chest even with a loose jumper on. I was feeling...
    illuminatisweaters illuminatisweaters
    16-17, M
    1 Response Mar 16, 2015
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