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    I just started T two weeks ago,

    and I'm hoping to find people to talk to who know what I'm going through instead of trying to muster through the biggest change of my life all on my own.
    dseastorm dseastorm 26-30, T 2 Responses Jul 17

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    Okay, so I'm basically using this site to

    accept advice, log my experiences for my own benefit and also to help others going through the same, complicated experience. I say complicated because I don't want to fully transition into a man, but I do want to bring out my masculine side that has been taunting me for so long...
    Rossi117 Rossi117 22-25 3 Responses May 21, 2014

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    Coming out to my friends: After weeks of

    considering it, I came out to my best friend. Her reaction was great, she said it was really cool and she hugged me. I then came out to three other friends, one by one. The first one thought I was joking at first, buy was the first one to start using the correct pronouns. The...
    illuminatisweaters illuminatisweaters 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 13

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    Everytime I feel like I have the courage to

    come out to my mum, I get this heat rising up in me and this voice that just says "no, stop that you idiot, you'll ruin everything" I guess I'm just afraid that it'll be the new reality. That I'll finally be living outside of my bubble. Though I guess I'm also afraid that they...
    darxmane darxmane 13-15, T 2 Responses Aug 3

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    http://m.bookemon.com/book-profile/the-shadows-arising/165803 If you click on this link, it will take you to a book I wrote a few years ago, "The Shadows Arising". It has become pretty popular and has gotten many good reviews. It is $20, yes, but if you buy the book $10 are put...
    novaftmpride novaftmpride 16-17, T Jul 26

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    Just Another Transguy

    Hi, there.  I'm a transguy living in rural Ohio.  I've lived here my whole life, so I decided to transition here, too.  Some people thinks that that's nuts, but it's actually worked out rather well.  Even though I live in a conservative area, I've found that...
    aranreinhart aranreinhart 41-45 7 Responses Jul 28, 2010

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    Finally got my binder on

    after struggling with getting it over my wide shoulders for MONTHS. I'm thrilled.... So thrilled I don't wanna take it off ugh. But I figured out how to get in on and now I can wear it every day~
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 2

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    Anyone else get this a lot?

    Ill be with friends or family, all who know I'm ftm and yet all they do is ***** to me and whine and complain about how horrible men are. They say how men are all pigs, they ruined their lives, useless back stabbers and I'm sure you get the point. I don't really care if that's...
    RaisingCrazy RaisingCrazy 22-25, T 1 Response Jul 25

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    I've been looking into getting top surgery done

    and found out that it'll be around $5000 so I've set up a go fund me account to help with some of the cost,If anyone is able to help or can get the word out that would be great,The link is http://www.gofundme.com/s6paw4b9 so take a look at it please,Thank you for taking the time...
    RyanBlake87 RyanBlake87 26-30, T Aug 17

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    This is really long so

    if you don't want to read then don't. I wanted to give a little update and I wanted to rant a little bit more. So far, I can't even say anything LGBT to my family none of the less say I am trans. my brother did find out at one point and I thought he would understand, but he told...
    yocallmemark yocallmemark 16-17, T 1 Response Jul 16

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    Hey, My name is Jaz-James

    and I'm 17, im a very proud transgendered guy but i find sometimes that i struggle to cope with the complications that come with this. Ive always known i was trans, but it seems sometimes that no one seems to understand, i dont know any other trans people and we like to meet...
    JazJames JazJames 18-21, T 5 Responses Feb 12, 2014

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    I Don't Know....

    I really don't know what I want to be anymore. I enjoy wearing tuxes and having my hair cut short, and being called a guy's name rather than my own girl name and having a desire for top surgery to make my chest area flat. I also desire to have a beard and mustache and a deeper...
    CasperAdair CasperAdair 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 22, 2013

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    Any FTM want to talk?

    Let's talk about things.
    patftm patftm 26-30, T 1 Response Jun 15

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    Hey I'M New And This Is My Story/Rant

    So yeah I figured out I was trans in December and basically my first reaction was "oh ****." Maybe some of you can relate to that. I recently auditioned for a boy's a capella group. I know I'm not going to get in, I just wanted to make a point by being able to audition. It's...
    The7thSense The7thSense 16-17, M May 12, 2013

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    Okay, so i came out to my mom just today.

    We were on our way back from a shopping trip and i just nervously stumbled over my words. Starting out with saying I was questioning my gender and trying to avoid blunt statements. It was like i was in a trance, like it wasnt really happening. If it werent for her being so...
    darxmane darxmane 13-15, T 1 Response Aug 26

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    Hi, I'm an older woman

    who recently became involved with a younger ftm. We met online and hit it off instantly. He hid it from me at first, but he did tell me once we exchanged numbers and started really getting involved. Its all a new experience for me, so I'm really trying to learn more about it...
    PurpleSorrow PurpleSorrow 41-45, F 1 Response Aug 16

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    I'm new to my thoughts.

    I've always known I was a guy. But I've finally realized I'm a guy on the inside and I love it. I'm going to chop off my hair. But I still need someone to talk to. Someone?
    oliviairene47 oliviairene47 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    I'm not fully ftm, at the moment I have to

    settle for a more genderfluid approach. But when I'm alone I can be 100% me and it feels amazing. I would love to live my life everyday as who I really am, but life just can't be that way, there is no way I can start T, but I do plan to eventually have a mastectomy and...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 5 Responses Feb 17

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    My father in law's funeral was today.

    I had to wear women's clothes because I'm not out to the family. I'll be glad when the T makes that no longer an option.
    dseastorm dseastorm 26-30, T Jul 17

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    I need help. I used to call myself Gene

    but it was so close to my birth name that I hated it. Now I call myself Ross. my friends and my extended family call me Ross but my parents don't know. I told my brother and just like with the name Gene he refuses to call me Ross or a boy at all. I need help. I don't know how to...
    transbuffalowing transbuffalowing 16-17, T 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I don't know who has

    or hasn't seen this, but it really helped me so I thought I'd share! http://ftmguide.rassaku.net/
    giggponagoshi giggponagoshi 22-25, T Jun 5

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    My Story

     So this is the first time that I have shared any of this with anyone.  I've never talked to anyone about being transgender and haven't tried to explain how I feel to anyone before now.  So this is a really big deal for me.I just recently discovered that I was...
    daysofgreen213 daysofgreen213 18-21 8 Responses Dec 10, 2009

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    I'm an ftm and I live in milwaukee wisconsin.

    I'm interested in meeting other FTMs in the area to get together and do fun stuff.
    Cdhazzey Cdhazzey 41-45, T Jul 20

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    hey guys... im currently 6 months on hrt.

    ..and im looking for ppl i can chat with who can relate. im keen to help out where i can with advice if needed. im a easy going lad from australia.
    jayterry87 jayterry87 26-30, T 2 Responses Feb 6

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    I keep going back and forth.

    I want to join the military. But I'm so tired of being stuck how I am. I have to change something because I am slipping to a new low. I'm hurting less and just starting to feel more and more numb and out of place...feel so alone. I don't know what to do.
    SyrkSefhir SyrkSefhir 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 8

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    OMG. I fell out with my mother big time today

    so I put up a status about me being a transgender and the responses I got were amazing!!!! No negativity what so ever. So far. All supportive. Who needs family when you have friends who are that good. I feel like crying I'm that happy. I feel so much better and I feel free. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 12

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    Hey so I didn't really know

    where else to post this and I thought that most of the people on here have probably used binders at some point. I feel like I some how might offend someone in this so I hope that I don't. I identify as a cis gendered female and I am usually comfortable with my chest but some...
    WantingToFly13 WantingToFly13 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 22

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    I have transcended your genders

    and subverted your binary.
    victorytothebold victorytothebold 26-30 1 Response Jul 14

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    A letter to my mom. I'm

    so tired of trying to hide. All of my life, I've had to hide. What I mean by this is all of my life, I've wanted to be a boy. I can remember crying to myself and bed at night praying to God that he would make me a boy. But things don't happen that way. I couldn't be a boy. But...
    oliviairene47 oliviairene47 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 31, 2014

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    Myself

    About a year ago, I put together my feelings and realized I really felt more comfortable as a male, rather than a female. I changed my name from Annie to Andy, and have since felt more comfortable with people calling me by my name. However, many people at my school knew me as...
    KaaruChan KaaruChan 18-21, T 1 Response Feb 27, 2013

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    well not me. my boyfriend is.

    can any of you help me understand him better
    RylandGay RylandGay 13-15, M 5 Responses May 31

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    I get my first shot and injection training

    tomorrow! My boyfriend is also celebrating his 6 month mark. Tomorrow is gonna be a great day :)
    giggponagoshi giggponagoshi 22-25, T 1 Response Aug 26

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    I've always had issues with my gender identity;

    for the longest time, they remained repressed and unacknowledged until the trans movement came to the forefront of politics. I remember having qualms about what I exactly was since elementary school - of course, I only understood stereotypical gender roles at the time, and...
    toska777 toska777 18-21, T Oct 21, 2014

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    I wanna meet FTM guys

    so I can get their insight about their process and how difficult was for them to transition.
    yo805 yo805 22-25, F Jul 20

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    Last night was so awesome!

    I had been kind of having an awful day where I didn't do much at work because I couldn't concentrate, and then I went home and listened to really loud Punk Music while sort of napping. Not to mention that after not functioning for over an hour while listening to music I was...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming 18-21, T 1 Response Jul 2

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    I just got my hair cut!

    I was feeling pretty bad today. I don't own a binder yet so usually I just wear one or two sports bras and a loose fitting shirt. However, today I had to wear a padded bra as I couldnt find anything else and you could see my chest even with a loose jumper on. I was feeling...
    illuminatisweaters illuminatisweaters 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 16

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    FTM I Am a Gay-male Identified Biologically-born Female

    I am a gay-male identified biologically-born female, a gay man trapped in a woman's body. I am sweet, funny, romantic, and caring. I'm romantically, erotically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually attracted to gay men and gay-male culture. I have no desire whatsoever to turn a gay...
    RomanticRunner RomanticRunner 46-50, T 42 Responses Oct 5, 2009

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    I Know I Want This. But I'm Afraid To Take The First Step.

    For as long as I can remember I have liked girls. I was always a tomboy when I was little. When I was 14 I came out as a lesbian. I am now twenty. I still identify as female though, that is not how I feel. I have the most beautiful girlfriend and we have been together for two...
    VonMoose VonMoose 18-21, M 5 Responses Sep 3, 2010

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    I honestly want to express to my parents how I

    feel towards the thing of me transition from woman to man. I am terrified by the idea and I don't even know from where to start such process...! My mind keeps me stoping from all these things
    yo805 yo805 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 29

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    I am biologically female,

    but have worn mens clothes since 1997. I had psychotherapy in 2001/2 decided I just did not want the whole surgery thing . . I am only about 65% transgendered . . .about 50% lesbian . . .about 100% genderfucked So I live in no-mans land But I would rather be this genderqueer...
    dispossessed dispossessed 46-50, F 1 Response Mar 29, 2014

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    My face is so round. I look like a 15 year old

    boy but I'm 20. I'm not that thin but I don't think I'm necessarily fat either. I am working on losing a little weight and I'm going to the gym more to build up muscles. I wonder if this will help slim my jaw? I could contour and stuff but it only goes so far. I want a defined...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 5

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    Gog, I am so happy today-

    which is odd because I usually never am (dysphoria's a *****) because I finally got my hair cut today and I feel more like a guy than I ever have before, which makes me just a little bit happier. Of course- I still haven't bought a binder and I'm stuck with crappy sports bras...
    darxmane darxmane 13-15, T 1 Response Jun 7

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    Hello guys, my name is Jason.

    Or at least that's what I like to be called. I love that my family and friends call me that, but it gets really weird once I say something. I can pull off the look but once I talk it just ruins it my voice is still pretty high. I really hate it. But anyways, hello everyone...
    Give2Schitts Give2Schitts 13-15, T 6 Responses Feb 17

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    My chosen name is Ian it means Gift from god

    so I really like it |feel free to talk to me *hugs* oh yeah Im Pre-T
    cute4me cute4me 16-17, T 4 Responses Feb 17

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    So, today the US Supreme Court legalized Gay

    Marriage which is so perfect. I know, it really shouldn't even have to be a conversation, but at least now those 14 remaining states have to legalize it and acknowledge people who want to get married regardless of gender. I am just so pumped. But I think I'm also a little...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming 18-21, T 2 Responses Jun 26

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    Hello friends, my name is Daniel.

    I would like to tell you a story, a story about my life over the past four years or so. I moved to a new school in the middle of Freshmen year in High school, and was instantly set apart from other people and labeled the odd one out. Nearly a month after I had gotten fairly...
    DanielReedcaotl DanielReedcaotl 18-21, T 2 Responses Dec 17, 2014