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    Okay, so I'm basically using this site to

    accept advice, log my experiences for my own benefit and also to help others going through the same, complicated experience. I say complicated because I don't want to fully transition into a man, but I do want to bring out my masculine side that has been taunting me for so long...
    Rossi117 Rossi117 22-25 3 Responses May 21, 2014

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    I recently came out to my family about being

    trans* but I don't think they fully understand what being trans* and transitioning entails (I've sent them links that mention T). Due to the fact that in underage I need their support to transition, does anyone have advice for bringing it up?
    Dreamsyndicate Dreamsyndicate 16-17, T 3 Responses May 2, 2014

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    i have to change myself I'm too childish I

    don't take anything seriously and now my life became a joke which is not funny at all... I want to be responsible person I want to be Man of the house.. soon I'll be out of my parents house don't know how but I will... may be I have to run away thats the last option i have... I...
    sidd73 sidd73 22-25, M 2 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    Hey I'M New And This Is My Story/Rant

    So yeah I figured out I was trans in December and basically my first reaction was "oh ****." Maybe some of you can relate to that. I recently auditioned for a boy's a capella group. I know I'm not going to get in, I just wanted to make a point by being able to audition. It's...
    The7thSense The7thSense 16-17, M May 12, 2013

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    Hey, My name is Jaz-James

    and I'm 17, im a very proud transgendered guy but i find sometimes that i struggle to cope with the complications that come with this. Ive always known i was trans, but it seems sometimes that no one seems to understand, i dont know any other trans people and we like to meet...
    JazJames JazJames 18-21, T 4 Responses Feb 12, 2014

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    DHEA Update and Some Other Stuff

    I have been taking 100mg of DHEA every morning for about 20 days now. I have 5 whole beard hairs (4 on my chin, 1 side burn). Yes, I've been counting them. My breast tissue seems to be somewhat less dense making binding easier; it still itches after I take my binder off (I have a...
    loserski loserski 18-21, M 5 Responses Jul 16, 2008

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    Recently I have this feeling of discomfort,

    before I could handle life somehow. Everything seem to lack in taste, feeling, smell and sound, everything that is suppose to make me alive is nowhere to be found. What do I wanna do with my life, I want to do something I never done before. Live. Being alive in a world where I...
    BlackNekoIIIX BlackNekoIIIX 18-21 3 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    Hello friends, my name is Daniel.

    I would like to tell you a story, a story about my life over the past four years or so. I moved to a new school in the middle of Freshmen year in High school, and was instantly set apart from other people and labeled the odd one out. Nearly a month after I had gotten fairly...
    DanielReedcaotl DanielReedcaotl 16-17, T 2 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    I am biologically female,

    but have worn mens clothes since 1997. I had psychotherapy in 2001/2 decided I just did not want the whole surgery thing . . I am only about 65% transgendered . . .about 50% lesbian . . .about 100% genderfucked So I live in no-mans land But I would rather be this genderqueer...
    dispossessed dispossessed 46-50, F 1 Response Mar 29, 2014

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    I've always had issues with my gender identity;

    for the longest time, they remained repressed and unacknowledged until the trans movement came to the forefront of politics. I remember having qualms about what I exactly was since elementary school - of course, I only understood stereotypical gender roles at the time, and...
    toska777 toska777 16-17, T Oct 21, 2014

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    Getting a tattoo done today ,

    the girl working at the desk kept calling me she even after I told her my name is Kevin , it's gotten to the point where I don't want to talk because my voice is way to high when I don't talk I'm fine everyone calls me make but as soon as I open my mouth and talk then it's down...
    KevinV98 KevinV98 16-17, M 3 Responses Feb 7

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    Hello. For now you all can call me Mo

    since I a very new to this whole situation. I recently expressed to myself that I should be true to myself and to stop pretending I am something I am not. It has taken a while, since my family is very conservative, to be true to the fact that I am a boy. I've felt this way ever...
    MoShokair MoShokair 18-21 2 Responses Dec 20, 2013

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    My Coming Out

    When I truly discovered this was the date of February 12 of this year. One of my friend's and I had got to talking, like in a deep down conversation about myself. I kept telling him how I hated being female, I didn't like it and I don't really feel female, and that I've never...
    FaeytesEternal FaeytesEternal 18-21, T May 5, 2013

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    When I was a kid, I always thought

    that someone's demeanor is what determined their gender. Of course, now I've wised up a lot since elementary school ;) I think trying to mold one's preferences to seem more masculine or feminine just perpetuates gender stereotypes. Contrary to what I described in my earlier post...
    toska777 toska777 16-17, T Oct 21, 2014

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    Hello guys, my name is Jason.

    Or at least that's what I like to be called. I love that my family and friends call me that, but it gets really weird once I say something. I can pull off the look but once I talk it just ruins it my voice is still pretty high. I really hate it. But anyways, hello everyone...
    Give2Schitts Give2Schitts 13-15, T 6 Responses Feb 17

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    I had my apt two days ago ,

    got the papers to look over for T. Going to be starting T on the 20th!!! So happy I couldn't believe it , I've been counting the days down now. I've been on hormone blockers for about 6 months just under, not going to be pre-t anymore! I still can't believe it :)
    KevinV98 KevinV98 16-17, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    FTM I Am a Gay-male Identified Biologically-born Female

    I am a gay-male identified biologically-born female, a gay man trapped in a woman's body. I am sweet, funny, romantic, and caring. I'm romantically, erotically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually attracted to gay men and gay-male culture. I have no desire whatsoever to turn a gay...
    RomanticRunner RomanticRunner 46-50, T 41 Responses Oct 5, 2009

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    Trans Fears

    Back in 2011 I had a private conversation with a cisgendered woman on this site. At the time she had an interest in getting to know what transgendered / transsexual people were really like and because I had extended a welcome for people to contact me if they had any questions on...
    MartyMcFly MartyMcFly 22-25, T 1 Response Aug 14, 2013

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    I Don't Know....

    I really don't know what I want to be anymore. I enjoy wearing tuxes and having my hair cut short, and being called a guy's name rather than my own girl name and having a desire for top surgery to make my chest area flat. I also desire to have a beard and mustache and a deeper...
    CasperAdair CasperAdair 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 22, 2013

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    Yesterday I packed with a sock

    for the first time & it was good, it helped with my dysphoria a bit. I can't wait to get an actual packer
    suckulent suckulent 16-17, T Nov 2, 2014

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    Any advice for a freshman ftm in college?

    I would post this in questions but I normally get sarcastic/hurtful comments about being trans.
    Swordsman101 Swordsman101 18-21, M 3 Responses Oct 11, 2014

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    Hi, I'm Allen, 17, wow it already feels amazing

    to even type out this name rather than my birth name. I've been in the closet for a while now, and I need serious help getting out. I've always been an insecure and shy person, and because of this people seem to believe that I make choices based on what other people are making...
    borderingontheborderlands borderingontheborderlands 16-17, T 1 Response Jan 5

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    I have no idea how to come out to my parents .

    I mean I have been living as a girl my entire life but wanting nothing more than to be a guy is have no idea how to tell that to my homophobe dad
    ShaunIsWhoIAm ShaunIsWhoIAm 13-15, T 4 Responses May 25, 2014

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    drugsandscales drugsandscales 13-15, T Feb 18

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    I've been living as a male with hormone therapy

    for about two and a half years. I've legally changed my name and can't afford surgery (plus my insurance has refused to cover it). My family is very religious and only recently agreed to avoid pronouns if they can't say "he." If love them to fully accept me as Matthew, but I...
    WrittenxSymphony WrittenxSymphony 18-21, T 2 Responses Sep 1, 2014

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    what scares me the most is not being able to be

    me. I'm having lots of family issues I had haircut 2 months ago and its was like a blast my parents was so angry on me and now they want me to wear girls clothes they don't allow me to do a job and they don't ever give me money I'm feeling locked up :( but I still hope I'll get...
    sidd73 sidd73 22-25, M Mar 21, 2014

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    New friends... Recently I got a job

    and i made some new friends and now I'm confuse coz of them... I'm not out to them. One of my friends is become too close to me and I'm thinking about come out to her. But meanwhile I'm scared. I don't know if she understands or not. I have to explain her about transguys. I don...
    sidd73 sidd73 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 17

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    Myself

    About a year ago, I put together my feelings and realized I really felt more comfortable as a male, rather than a female. I changed my name from Annie to Andy, and have since felt more comfortable with people calling me by my name. However, many people at my school knew me as...
    KaaruChan KaaruChan 16-17, T 1 Response Feb 27, 2013

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    I'm 25 and have been out

    for about two years, give or take. I have seen a therapist and been diagnosed with Gender Dysphoria. I have been fighting to start HRT for at least a year now. Too many things get in the way... one of which being finances. I'm finally financially capable. I am so close... but...
    cloaked1 cloaked1 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 20, 2014

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    My chosen name is Ian it means Gift from god

    so I really like it |feel free to talk to me *hugs* oh yeah Im Pre-T
    cute4me cute4me 13-15, T 4 Responses Feb 17

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    I'm new to my thoughts.

    I've always known I was a guy. But I've finally realized I'm a guy on the inside and I love it. I'm going to chop off my hair. But I still need someone to talk to. Someone?
    oliviairene47 oliviairene47 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    Just Another Transguy

    Hi, there.  I'm a transguy living in rural Ohio.  I've lived here my whole life, so I decided to transition here, too.  Some people thinks that that's nuts, but it's actually worked out rather well.  Even though I live in a conservative area, I've found that...
    aranreinhart aranreinhart 41-45 7 Responses Jul 28, 2010

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    I've finally got my pee-****!

    I had to hunt down the driver after FedEx closed to receive my d*** in a box lol so I went home and tried it out in every way and it's interesting. It's really not like a normal toy. It's very soft and detailed on most parts. I definitely feel like I need to adapt to it more but...
    Rossi117 Rossi117 22-25 May 28, 2014

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    My Story

     So this is the first time that I have shared any of this with anyone.  I've never talked to anyone about being transgender and haven't tried to explain how I feel to anyone before now.  So this is a really big deal for me.I just recently discovered that I was...
    daysofgreen213 daysofgreen213 18-21 8 Responses Dec 10, 2009

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    i'm thinking about running away from my house i

    can't tolerate this anymore.. my parents forcing me to wear girls dresses and act like a girl which is impossible for me.. i tried a lot to convince them but they don't want to hear anything they just want to see me as a girl thats it... I became depress and they notice that...
    sidd73 sidd73 22-25, M 6 Responses Oct 29, 2014

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    I am 14 years old and have been **** over by

    family, so called friends and pretty much everyone In my family. I don't know how to cope because I'm all alone 24/7 and people at school call me dyke or tranny even when I haven't told random people like them... I don't know what to do as I'm so dysphoric and everyone one tels...
    FuckupXD FuckupXD 13-15, T 3 Responses Sep 13, 2014

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    I am a 22 year old Jamaican college student.

    I was born and raised in Kingston, Jamaica and as many of you may know, my country is HIGHLY homophobic and violent. I can't tell you how many times I've been chased and feared for my life. All my life I've been a "tom-boy", never liked pink, dresses or dolls. The last time I...
    iwritelife iwritelife 22-25 2 Responses Feb 22, 2014

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    so I just needed to share my ongoing success of

    changing my name at work. For almost 2 years I struggled with finding a way to start changing my name at work. Then I lost my nametag. I had just gotten promoted to Manager and was making my new nametag when I realized that I could just put my new name on it. It would be that...
    milo1890 milo1890 22-25, F Feb 4

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    I Am, Who I Am, Who I Am, Who I Am... A Trainwreck

    I'm Cade, and I'm a 16 year old FtM transgender kid. I think I really realized something was wrong when I was 6, and I saw my cousin wearing a towel around his waist after his shower. I did the same, and was met with a fuss and my aunt yelling at me because "girls are supposed...
    Cadeninprogress Cadeninprogress 16-17, M 2 Responses Feb 27, 2010

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    I don't know if anyone was ever interested in

    my posts, but if so, I'm sorry I haven't posted in so long! Things in the ftm scale have been very few and far between for me lately because I've been SOOO busy in life. I got a house, a promotion, and it's my baby's 21st birthday this week! I haven't used my stp in a while and...
    Rossi117 Rossi117 22-25 Jul 5, 2014

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    Hi , my name is Kevin I am 16 almost 17

    and I'm in the start of my process not on T yet but I'm really hoping that I will be soon. It feels good typing this out because even with support from my family I don't know anyone else who is or has gone through this. I lately started to struggle more with being uncomfortable...
    KevinV98 KevinV98 16-17, M 3 Responses Feb 2

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    I'm so far in the closet

    and I want to come out so bad, but I feel that nobody will accept me. My 'friends' at school don't use my preferred name or pronouns. Every time my family says 'she' or 'her' or use my birth name, it's like i'm being pushed farther into the closet. I asked for more male clothes...
    RyleeFTM RyleeFTM 13-15, M 2 Responses Dec 11, 2014

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    iceprincess666 iceprincess666 13-15, F 6 Responses Jan 23

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    I feel like I should update my story.

    I've been on T for 4.5 years now and live fully as my true self. I haven't felt the need for surgery of any kind, though I fully acknowledge that that could change tomorrow. I live openly as a bisexual trans guy & couldn't be stealth if I tried (though I acknowledge that some...
    aranreinhart aranreinhart 41-45 1 Response Feb 2, 2014

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    I decided to stay biologically female,

    but battle with my identity. I didn't want to go through with hormones and a knife. Researched it thoroughly for about two years then at once, just let it go. I don't have anyone that would've hated me or loved me any less for it. My friends, my girl, and my parents all knew. In...
    Armorkillo Armorkillo 26-30 4 Responses Mar 16, 2014

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    I'm not fully ftm, at the moment I have to

    settle for a more genderfluid approach. But when I'm alone I can be 100% me and it feels amazing. I would love to live my life everyday as who I really am, but life just can't be that way, there is no way I can start T, but I do plan to eventually have a mastectomy and...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 2 Responses Feb 17

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    im pre op and pre t..

    .. im a little scared of a few things.. i need someone to talk to.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Sep 6, 2014

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    iceprincess666 iceprincess666 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 25

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    A letter to my mom. I'm

    so tired of trying to hide. All of my life, I've had to hide. What I mean by this is all of my life, I've wanted to be a boy. I can remember crying to myself and bed at night praying to God that he would make me a boy. But things don't happen that way. I couldn't be a boy. But...
    oliviairene47 oliviairene47 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 31, 2014

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    I Know I Want This. But I'm Afraid To Take The First Step.

    For as long as I can remember I have liked girls. I was always a tomboy when I was little. When I was 14 I came out as a lesbian. I am now twenty. I still identify as female though, that is not how I feel. I have the most beautiful girlfriend and we have been together for two...
    VonMoose VonMoose 18-21, M 4 Responses Sep 3, 2010

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    Okay, so I guess I'm just looking

    for a place where I can easily meet other people like me and maybe even help other people. I'm an ftm, I'm 17, I'm on hormones, and I'm post-op top surgery. I'm also a total dork who loves art, animation, anime, netflix, tumblr, and other random crap.
    suchduck suchduck 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 21

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    So it's been almost 4 years

    since I came out to my parents and things have changed but not for the better. My mom has labeled me a butch lesbian and has more than likely told my family the same thing. I live in the Bible Belt in the US so most of my family is very conservative. They are extremely racist...