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    FTM In College

    I began transitioning a few years ago when I was 18. I'm now in college, about to get married and living a relativity wonderful life. I am stealth – dealing with the problems that do still arise without the advantage of the support that comes from people knowing.  ...
    anonymousandfree anonymousandfree 22-25 Jan 31, 2009

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    I'm brand new. 33 and just starting to hope

    that maybe my reality can actually be reality. Maybe there's nothing wrong with me. Maybe this could be a possibility. I've been 'faking it' for so long and never allowing myself to admit more than 'I'm a ****** girl so I must be a ****** person'...Last night, talking to and...
    greyshon greyshon 31-35, T 3 Responses Jun 30

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    DHEA Update and Some Other Stuff

    I have been taking 100mg of DHEA every morning for about 20 days now. I have 5 whole beard hairs (4 on my chin, 1 side burn). Yes, I've been counting them. My breast tissue seems to be somewhat less dense making binding easier; it still itches after I take my binder off (I have a...
    loserski loserski 18-21, M 4 Responses Jul 16, 2008

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    Tw: menstruation I started my period today

    and it's making me really bottom dysphoric which is something I rarely/never feel and the fact that I've already been feeling dysphoric about my chest and waist just makes it all the worse. Any advice? (Yes I did just post this in another forum but this one has way more people...
    Dreamsyndicate Dreamsyndicate 16-17, T 3 Responses May 3

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    Okay, so I'm basically using this site to

    accept advice, log my experiences for my own benefit and also to help others going through the same, complicated experience. I say complicated because I don't want to fully transition into a man, but I do want to bring out my masculine side that has been taunting me for so long...
    Rossi117 Rossi117 22-25 3 Responses May 21

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    I decided to stay biologically female,

    but battle with my identity. I didn't want to go through with hormones and a knife. Researched it thoroughly for about two years then at once, just let it go. I don't have anyone that would've hated me or loved me any less for it. My friends, my girl, and my parents all knew. In...
    Armorkillo Armorkillo 26-30 4 Responses Mar 16

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    I'm feeling very bottom dysphoric :/ especially

    when it comes to certain things..I'm taking estrogen blockers and am feeling pretty good but when it comes to that I get pretty emotional. Does that happen to you guys a lot? I've been with my fiancée for a long time but lately it doesn't feel right owning up to what I have :(
    Rossi117 Rossi117 22-25 3 Responses May 26

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    Okay tell me if this makes sense.

    I'm a transman and I consider myself a straight man. I have never been attracted to men sexually or romantically, but I have met a pan sexual transman that has shown interest in me on more than one occasion. At first I didn't think much of it and we have established a "look but...
    Swordsman101 Swordsman101 18-21, M 3 Responses Apr 4

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    My Coming Out

    When I truly discovered this was the date of February 12 of this year. One of my friend's and I had got to talking, like in a deep down conversation about myself. I kept telling him how I hated being female, I didn't like it and I don't really feel female, and that I've never...
    FaeytesEternal FaeytesEternal 18-21, T May 5, 2013

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    Hello. For now you all can call me Mo

    since I a very new to this whole situation. I recently expressed to myself that I should be true to myself and to stop pretending I am something I am not. It has taken a while, since my family is very conservative, to be true to the fact that I am a boy. I've felt this way ever...
    MoShokair MoShokair 18-21 2 Responses Dec 20, 2013

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    I'm so excited! My interview to get promoted is

    today and tomorrow my pee-**** will be here!!! Ahhhh!!!!
    Rossi117 Rossi117 22-25 5 Responses May 27

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    I am a 22 year old Jamaican college student.

    I was born and raised in Kingston, Jamaica and as many of you may know, my country is HIGHLY homophobic and violent. I can't tell you how many times I've been chased and feared for my life. All my life I've been a "tom-boy", never liked pink, dresses or dolls. The last time I...
    iwritelife iwritelife 22-25 2 Responses Feb 22

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    I Am, Who I Am, Who I Am, Who I Am... A Trainwreck

    I'm Cade, and I'm a 16 year old FtM transgender kid. I think I really realized something was wrong when I was 6, and I saw my cousin wearing a towel around his waist after his shower. I did the same, and was met with a fuss and my aunt yelling at me because "girls are supposed...
    Cadeninprogress Cadeninprogress 16-17, M 3 Responses Feb 27, 2010

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    im pre op and pre t..

    .. im a little scared of a few things.. i need someone to talk to.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Sep 6

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    I don't know if anyone was ever interested in

    my posts, but if so, I'm sorry I haven't posted in so long! Things in the ftm scale have been very few and far between for me lately because I've been SOOO busy in life. I got a house, a promotion, and it's my baby's 21st birthday this week! I haven't used my stp in a while and...
    Rossi117 Rossi117 22-25 Jul 5

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    I am biologically female,

    but have worn mens clothes since 1997. I had psychotherapy in 2001/2 decided I just did not want the whole surgery thing . . I am only about 65% transgendered . . .about 50% lesbian . . .about 100% genderfucked So I live in no-mans land But I would rather be this genderqueer...
    dispossessed dispossessed 46-50, F 2 Responses Mar 29

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    what scares me the most is not being able to be

    me. I'm having lots of family issues I had haircut 2 months ago and its was like a blast my parents was so angry on me and now they want me to wear girls clothes they don't allow me to do a job and they don't ever give me money I'm feeling locked up :( but I still hope I'll get...
    sidd73 sidd73 22-25, M Mar 21

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    I have no idea how to come out to my parents .

    I mean I have been living as a girl my entire life but wanting nothing more than to be a guy is have no idea how to tell that to my homophobe dad
    ShaunIsWhoIAm ShaunIsWhoIAm 13-15, T 4 Responses May 25

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    My Story

     So this is the first time that I have shared any of this with anyone.  I've never talked to anyone about being transgender and haven't tried to explain how I feel to anyone before now.  So this is a really big deal for me.I just recently discovered that I was...
    daysofgreen213 daysofgreen213 18-21 8 Responses Dec 10, 2009

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    This is going around fb

    and it makes me really mad.
    Rossi117 Rossi117 22-25 6 Responses May 24

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    I just got my hair cut

    and I finally look like a boy, kinda! I'm so excited. I don't even care that my mom hates me. But I look amazing:D
    noahjames47 noahjames47 16-17, T Mar 6

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    Hey I'M New And This Is My Story/Rant

    So yeah I figured out I was trans in December and basically my first reaction was "oh ****." Maybe some of you can relate to that. I recently auditioned for a boy's a capella group. I know I'm not going to get in, I just wanted to make a point by being able to audition. It's...
    The7thSense The7thSense 16-17, M May 12, 2013

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    I Don't Know....

    I really don't know what I want to be anymore. I enjoy wearing tuxes and having my hair cut short, and being called a guy's name rather than my own girl name and having a desire for top surgery to make my chest area flat. I also desire to have a beard and mustache and a deeper...
    CasperAdair CasperAdair 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 22, 2013

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    Myself

    About a year ago, I put together my feelings and realized I really felt more comfortable as a male, rather than a female. I changed my name from Annie to Andy, and have since felt more comfortable with people calling me by my name. However, many people at my school knew me as...
    KaaruChan KaaruChan 16-17, T 1 Response Feb 27, 2013

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    Hey, My name is Jaz-James

    and I'm 17, im a very proud transgendered guy but i find sometimes that i struggle to cope with the complications that come with this. Ive always known i was trans, but it seems sometimes that no one seems to understand, i dont know any other trans people and we like to meet...
    JazJames JazJames 18-21, T 4 Responses Feb 12

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    My Story

    As a kid i never liked wearing dresses or pink or even having long hair. I fist told my mom i was a lesbian at the age of 13. she said you have no idea what that is and it's just a faze. As time went by i would do things that just would make me suffer more with pain and sorrow...
    marcus96 marcus96 16-17, T 1 Response Dec 30, 2012

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    I've Known I Was Male Ever Since I Was a Little Boy

    I was born Ashley. As a child I always identified with my male friends and didn't have any problems until I was 10 and learned the difference between boys and girls. It wasn't until high school that I started having doubts about my gender expression, which at that time was...
    loserski loserski 18-21, M 10 Responses Jul 6, 2008

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    The Man Inside.

    Hey guys/girls, My name is Alex I grew up in Canada/New Brunswick and am here to meet friends and also am new to the experience Project. I came here cause I am a FTM, I have been so my whole life for a long as I could remember but only came out of the closet about a year ago, it...
    Alex1993 Alex1993 18-21, T 1 Response Aug 16, 2012

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    I've finally got my pee-****!

    I had to hunt down the driver after FedEx closed to receive my d*** in a box lol so I went home and tried it out in every way and it's interesting. It's really not like a normal toy. It's very soft and detailed on most parts. I definitely feel like I need to adapt to it more but...
    Rossi117 Rossi117 22-25 May 28

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    I recently came out to my family about being

    trans* but I don't think they fully understand what being trans* and transitioning entails (I've sent them links that mention T). Due to the fact that in underage I need their support to transition, does anyone have advice for bringing it up?
    Dreamsyndicate Dreamsyndicate 16-17, T 4 Responses May 2

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    Trans Fears

    Back in 2011 I had a private conversation with a cisgendered woman on this site. At the time she had an interest in getting to know what transgendered / transsexual people were really like and because I had extended a welcome for people to contact me if they had any questions on...
    MartyMcFly MartyMcFly 22-25, T 1 Response Aug 14, 2013

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    I Know I Want This. But I'm Afraid To Take The First Step.

    For as long as I can remember I have liked girls. I was always a tomboy when I was little. When I was 14 I came out as a lesbian. I am now twenty. I still identify as female though, that is not how I feel. I have the most beautiful girlfriend and we have been together for two...
    VonMoose VonMoose 18-21, M 4 Responses Sep 3, 2010

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    A letter to my mom. I'm

    so tired of trying to hide. All of my life, I've had to hide. What I mean by this is all of my life, I've wanted to be a boy. I can remember crying to myself and bed at night praying to God that he would make me a boy. But things don't happen that way. I couldn't be a boy. But...
    noahjames47 noahjames47 16-17, T 1 Response Jan 31

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    I've been living as a male with hormone therapy

    for about two and a half years. I've legally changed my name and can't afford surgery (plus my insurance has refused to cover it). My family is very religious and only recently agreed to avoid pronouns if they can't say "he." If love them to fully accept me as Matthew, but I...
    WrittenxSymphony WrittenxSymphony 18-21, T 1 Response Sep 1

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    I Am FTM

    Well first off, hi how are you. I'm an FTM named Dekota. I'm a unknown gentleman. When I first found out what it was called, I knew that that's what I was. For the longest I thought I was the only one. (Don't know why I thought that) Most of the time during school, I was alone or...
    dekota180 dekota180 22-25, M Nov 27, 2013

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    I'm new to my thoughts.

    I've always known I was a guy. But I've finally realized I'm a guy on the inside and I love it. I'm going to chop off my hair. But I still need someone to talk to. Someone?
    noahjames47 noahjames47 16-17, T 3 Responses Jan 21

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    I'm feeling pretty conflicted about what to do

    right now, as far as coming out, transitioning, and just the future in general. Anyone who would be willing to give some advice and/or share some experiences please message me!
    Dowisetrepla Dowisetrepla 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 26

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    I'm 25 and have been out

    for about two years, give or take. I have seen a therapist and been diagnosed with Gender Dysphoria. I have been fighting to start HRT for at least a year now. Too many things get in the way... one of which being finances. I'm finally financially capable. I am so close... but...
    cloaked1 cloaked1 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 20

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    Ftm....

    Okay, so i'm a ftm (surprising,right?!). I am 13 (almost 14) years old. I haven't come out to any one yet, so this is the first time I've written some thing like this. When i was younger i always wore female clothing and what not... I played with barbies and would play pretend...
    Comcu Comcu 13-15 2 Responses Nov 12, 2011

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    I need advice on estrogen blockers/testosterone

    boosters! I always felt like a third gender! Definitely not a girl, but not a full on dude which would explain why I don't want to fully transition and have T injections. I would like to be more in touch with my masculine side though, and enhance those areas without fully...
    Rossi117 Rossi117 22-25 1 Response May 20

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    Just Another Transguy

    Hi, there.  I'm a transguy living in rural Ohio.  I've lived here my whole life, so I decided to transition here, too.  Some people thinks that that's nuts, but it's actually worked out rather well.  Even though I live in a conservative area, I've found that...
    aranreinhart aranreinhart 41-45 8 Responses Jul 28, 2010

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    I feel like I should update my story.

    I've been on T for 4.5 years now and live fully as my true self. I haven't felt the need for surgery of any kind, though I fully acknowledge that that could change tomorrow. I live openly as a bisexual trans guy & couldn't be stealth if I tried (though I acknowledge that some...
    aranreinhart aranreinhart 41-45 1 Response Feb 2

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    I am 14 years old and have been **** over by

    family, so called friends and pretty much everyone In my family. I don't know how to cope because I'm all alone 24/7 and people at school call me dyke or tranny even when I haven't told random people like them... I don't know what to do as I'm so dysphoric and everyone one tels...
    FuckupXD FuckupXD 13-15, T 1 Response Sep 13

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    Rossi117 Rossi117 22-25 May 22

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    Ok. One step at a time.

    I want to talk to my dad about legally changing my name to Gabriel Julian. I don't know how to bring it up exactly though? Any tips?
    Dreamsyndicate Dreamsyndicate 16-17, T 3 Responses May 7

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    FTM I Am a Gay-male Identified Biologically-born Female

    I am a gay-male identified biologically-born female, a gay man trapped in a woman's body. I am sweet, funny, romantic, and caring. I'm romantically, erotically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually attracted to gay men and gay-male culture. I have no desire whatsoever to turn a gay...
    RomanticRunner RomanticRunner 46-50, T 41 Responses Oct 5, 2009

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    Even if I Always feelt like just me,

    Everything in school Always made me remember that we have genders. The Girls locker room a familiar Place where you get sent to year after year.. In the city, the Girls bathroom, where your friends expect you to go, everyone do.. who you play with, the boys do remind you that...
    BlackNekoIIIX BlackNekoIIIX 18-21 1 Response May 4

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    Does anyone know where I can get hormonal

    replacement therapy done in central Florida???
    Rossi117 Rossi117 22-25 Jun 3

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    So I didn't think I'd be able to say anything

    new on here for a while because I just started taking t bomb 2, but thanks to my amazing fiancée my progress will a lot faster in about a week! For a long time, I've been wanting a generation 2 pee-****. If you haven't heard of it, check it out! It's a stand-to-pee, play, and...
    Rossi117 Rossi117 22-25 1 Response May 23

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    Any Advice On T?

    I just started my T injections on the 2nd of May.  I am so stoked and don't have anyone to talk to about it.  I am curious about how long it takes for T to start working as far as things like voice change, facial hair etc.  Anyone got any info?  Thanks. Erik
    Erik Erik 41-45, T 7 Responses May 3, 2008

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    Hey im kyle,Needing some new people to talk to.Im kina shy so bear with me but looking forward to talking to people.!Hit me up!Im ftm but that dosent define me just wanting to...
    kyleJlewis kyleJlewis 22-25, M 3 Responses Sep 11

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    I came out to one of my closest friends earlier today. She's the only one who knows. I need to tell my parents soon. My mother will take it better a lot more than my dad will...
    Potter66 Potter66 13-15, M Sep 2

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    well, Im 17 years now, I've elt this way since the day i was born! i didnt had much friend when i was young but when i played with my cousin a game is called ''family'' which u...
    Sam25k Sam25k 16-17, T Sep 4

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