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    OMG. I fell out with my mother big time today

    so I put up a status about me being a transgender and the responses I got were amazing!!!! No negativity what so ever. So far. All supportive. Who needs family when you have friends who are that good. I feel like crying I'm that happy. I feel so much better and I feel free. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 12

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    I've always had issues with my gender identity;

    for the longest time, they remained repressed and unacknowledged until the trans movement came to the forefront of politics. I remember having qualms about what I exactly was since elementary school - of course, I only understood stereotypical gender roles at the time, and...
    toska777 toska777 18-21, T Oct 21, 2014

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    Hey, My name is Jaz-James

    and I'm 17, im a very proud transgendered guy but i find sometimes that i struggle to cope with the complications that come with this. Ive always known i was trans, but it seems sometimes that no one seems to understand, i dont know any other trans people and we like to meet...
    JazJames JazJames 18-21, T 5 Responses Feb 12, 2014

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    I know I will never be happy.

    I have an extremely religious family that does not accept trans people, and I don't know what do. I hate my body; it makes me uncomfortable. I have no way to escape. I want to run far away from everybody, but I would also love to have trans friends (or anybody of the lgbt) to...
    Thebutterflyboy Thebutterflyboy 18-21, T 3 Responses Apr 14

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    Anyone else get this a lot?

    Ill be with friends or family, all who know I'm ftm and yet all they do is ***** to me and whine and complain about how horrible men are. They say how men are all pigs, they ruined their lives, useless back stabbers and I'm sure you get the point. I don't really care if that's...
    RaisingCrazy RaisingCrazy 22-25, T 1 Response a week ago

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    I keep going back and forth.

    I want to join the military. But I'm so tired of being stuck how I am. I have to change something because I am slipping to a new low. I'm hurting less and just starting to feel more and more numb and out of place...feel so alone. I don't know what to do.
    SyrkSefhir SyrkSefhir 18-21, T 2 Responses Jul 8

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    I want to transition

    so bad but I don't know how to give the best step
    yo805 yo805 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 18

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    Finally got my binder on

    after struggling with getting it over my wide shoulders for MONTHS. I'm thrilled.... So thrilled I don't wanna take it off ugh. But I figured out how to get in on and now I can wear it every day~
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 2

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    well not me. my boyfriend is.

    can any of you help me understand him better
    RylandGay RylandGay 13-15, M 5 Responses May 31

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    I don't know who has

    or hasn't seen this, but it really helped me so I thought I'd share! http://ftmguide.rassaku.net/
    giggponagoshi giggponagoshi 22-25, T Jun 5

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    Every time I'm interested in a random guy I

    meet I chicken out because I'm not comfortable being someone's "girlfriend" since I'm still a closeted ftm. Like, I've never fit the girlfriend role. I am internally a guy who wants to be with another guy (usually, as I'm pansexual). I just can't chase after the guys who see me...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 1 Response May 27

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    I'm new to my thoughts.

    I've always known I was a guy. But I've finally realized I'm a guy on the inside and I love it. I'm going to chop off my hair. But I still need someone to talk to. Someone?
    oliviairene47 oliviairene47 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    My face is so round. I look like a 15 year old

    boy but I'm 20. I'm not that thin but I don't think I'm necessarily fat either. I am working on losing a little weight and I'm going to the gym more to build up muscles. I wonder if this will help slim my jaw? I could contour and stuff but it only goes so far. I want a defined...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 5

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    Last night was so awesome!

    I had been kind of having an awful day where I didn't do much at work because I couldn't concentrate, and then I went home and listened to really loud Punk Music while sort of napping. Not to mention that after not functioning for over an hour while listening to music I was...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming 18-21, T 1 Response Jul 2

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    Gog, I am so happy today-

    which is odd because I usually never am (dysphoria's a *****) because I finally got my hair cut today and I feel more like a guy than I ever have before, which makes me just a little bit happier. Of course- I still haven't bought a binder and I'm stuck with crappy sports bras...
    darxmane darxmane 13-15, T 1 Response Jun 7

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    I would love to make vlogs

    but I'm not out yet so that would be a stupid idea. But maybe I'll make them anyway and not post them until the future, so I can look back on what I was feeling at the time.
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M Jul 21

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    A letter to my mom. I'm

    so tired of trying to hide. All of my life, I've had to hide. What I mean by this is all of my life, I've wanted to be a boy. I can remember crying to myself and bed at night praying to God that he would make me a boy. But things don't happen that way. I couldn't be a boy. But...
    oliviairene47 oliviairene47 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 31, 2014

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    I wanna meet FTM guys

    so I can get their insight about their process and how difficult was for them to transition.
    yo805 yo805 22-25, F Jul 20

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    I'm referred to as "Krys" a lot

    and that makes me more than happy. I bind, which makes me feel like I'm on top of the world. I get to buy guy clothes, bind, have my hair cut short, be called "Krys", and all in all look like a guy. So I'm one of the lucky ones who are accepted by some family members. those who...
    ImperfectWeirdo ImperfectWeirdo 13-15, T Jun 2

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    My chosen name is Ian it means Gift from god

    so I really like it |feel free to talk to me *hugs* oh yeah Im Pre-T
    cute4me cute4me 16-17, T 4 Responses Feb 17

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    Myself

    About a year ago, I put together my feelings and realized I really felt more comfortable as a male, rather than a female. I changed my name from Annie to Andy, and have since felt more comfortable with people calling me by my name. However, many people at my school knew me as...
    KaaruChan KaaruChan 16-17, T 1 Response Feb 27, 2013

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    I honestly want to express to my parents how I

    feel towards the thing of me transition from woman to man. I am terrified by the idea and I don't even know from where to start such process...! My mind keeps me stoping from all these things
    yo805 yo805 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm FtM, been medically transitioning

    for a while. right now I feel really stuck trying to get top surgery. it bums me out seeing so many young trans guys on t a year or less and are getting top surgery. I mean, I'm happy for them, but I wish it was my turn already. it's been almost 5 years I've been waiting and I'm...
    jonahpocalypse jonahpocalypse 22-25, T Jul 17

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    Hello guys, my name is Jason.

    Or at least that's what I like to be called. I love that my family and friends call me that, but it gets really weird once I say something. I can pull off the look but once I talk it just ruins it my voice is still pretty high. I really hate it. But anyways, hello everyone...
    Give2Schitts Give2Schitts 13-15, T 6 Responses Feb 17

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    I Know I Want This. But I'm Afraid To Take The First Step.

    For as long as I can remember I have liked girls. I was always a tomboy when I was little. When I was 14 I came out as a lesbian. I am now twenty. I still identify as female though, that is not how I feel. I have the most beautiful girlfriend and we have been together for two...
    VonMoose VonMoose 18-21, M 5 Responses Sep 3, 2010

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    So, today the US Supreme Court legalized Gay

    Marriage which is so perfect. I know, it really shouldn't even have to be a conversation, but at least now those 14 remaining states have to legalize it and acknowledge people who want to get married regardless of gender. I am just so pumped. But I think I'm also a little...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming 18-21, T 2 Responses Jun 26

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    NOTE: This is a sad, whining,

    depressed post, if you don't want to get sad by association right now don't read this. I just needed to scream, so don't feel the need to read my raving. I feel guilty when after posting a really happy experience on EP that a week later or so I want to post a ranting, sad...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming 18-21, T 3 Responses Jul 10

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    bandgeekavery bandgeekavery 13-15, T 1 Response May 10

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    Coming out to my friends: After weeks of

    considering it, I came out to my best friend. Her reaction was great, she said it was really cool and she hugged me. I then came out to three other friends, one by one. The first one thought I was joking at first, buy was the first one to start using the correct pronouns. The...
    illuminatisweaters illuminatisweaters 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 13

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    Hello friends, my name is Daniel.

    I would like to tell you a story, a story about my life over the past four years or so. I moved to a new school in the middle of Freshmen year in High school, and was instantly set apart from other people and labeled the odd one out. Nearly a month after I had gotten fairly...
    DanielReedcaotl DanielReedcaotl 18-21, T 2 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    Being true to myself

    and coming out would make me leave behind my current life, which aside from terrible dysphoria is actually good. I'm going to a new college next year and I'm excited to be a little more like myself, but I still have the same job. My boss is a family friend who I respect and don...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 2 Responses May 28

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    I just started T two weeks ago,

    and I'm hoping to find people to talk to who know what I'm going through instead of trying to muster through the biggest change of my life all on my own.
    dseastorm dseastorm 26-30, T 2 Responses Jul 17

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    Just Another Transguy

    Hi, there.  I'm a transguy living in rural Ohio.  I've lived here my whole life, so I decided to transition here, too.  Some people thinks that that's nuts, but it's actually worked out rather well.  Even though I live in a conservative area, I've found that...
    aranreinhart aranreinhart 41-45 7 Responses Jul 28, 2010

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    I Am, Who I Am, Who I Am, Who I Am... A Trainwreck

    I'm Cade, and I'm a 16 year old FtM transgender kid. I think I really realized something was wrong when I was 6, and I saw my cousin wearing a towel around his waist after his shower. I did the same, and was met with a fuss and my aunt yelling at me because "girls are supposed...
    Cadeninprogress Cadeninprogress 16-17, M 2 Responses Feb 27, 2010

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    http://m.bookemon.com/book-profile/the-shadows-arising/165803 If you click on this link, it will take you to a book I wrote a few years ago, "The Shadows Arising". It has become pretty popular and has gotten many good reviews. It is $20, yes, but if you buy the book $10 are put...
    novaftmpride novaftmpride 16-17, T 5 days ago

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    My Coming Out

    When I truly discovered this was the date of February 12 of this year. One of my friend's and I had got to talking, like in a deep down conversation about myself. I kept telling him how I hated being female, I didn't like it and I don't really feel female, and that I've never...
    FaeytesEternal FaeytesEternal 18-21, T May 5, 2013

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    I was seeking those "man points.

    " And I came to realize they weren't worth it while I was drudging through a swamp with a foot still on the mend. The stars pierced my soul while my rucksack begged me to pull out my sleeping mat and lay down for rest. My civilian job broke my foot some months before. It too was...
    victorytothebold victorytothebold 26-30 Jun 2

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    Choosing your name, just something I've been

    wondering about. Mostly how others were able to decide on a name. Every time I think I've decided I start to second guess my decision, hard to think of me as anything other then what I've been called these 20+ years.
    RaisingCrazy RaisingCrazy 22-25, T 1 Response 5 days ago

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    hey guys... im currently 6 months on hrt.

    ..and im looking for ppl i can chat with who can relate. im keen to help out where i can with advice if needed. im a easy going lad from australia.
    jayterry87 jayterry87 26-30, T 2 Responses Feb 6

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    I Don't Know....

    I really don't know what I want to be anymore. I enjoy wearing tuxes and having my hair cut short, and being called a guy's name rather than my own girl name and having a desire for top surgery to make my chest area flat. I also desire to have a beard and mustache and a deeper...
    CasperAdair CasperAdair 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 22, 2013

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    I am biologically female,

    but have worn mens clothes since 1997. I had psychotherapy in 2001/2 decided I just did not want the whole surgery thing . . I am only about 65% transgendered . . .about 50% lesbian . . .about 100% genderfucked So I live in no-mans land But I would rather be this genderqueer...
    dispossessed dispossessed 46-50, F 1 Response Mar 29, 2014

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    I'm an ftm and I live in milwaukee wisconsin.

    I'm interested in meeting other FTMs in the area to get together and do fun stuff.
    Cdhazzey Cdhazzey 41-45, T Jul 20

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    This is really long so

    if you don't want to read then don't. I wanted to give a little update and I wanted to rant a little bit more. So far, I can't even say anything LGBT to my family none of the less say I am trans. my brother did find out at one point and I thought he would understand, but he told...
    yocallmemark yocallmemark 16-17, T 1 Response Jul 16

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    I'm not fully ftm, at the moment I have to

    settle for a more genderfluid approach. But when I'm alone I can be 100% me and it feels amazing. I would love to live my life everyday as who I really am, but life just can't be that way, there is no way I can start T, but I do plan to eventually have a mastectomy and...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 6 Responses Feb 17

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    i think i want to wear my binder in pubic,

    i never have, just at school.. i will be with my grandparents, i dont want them to ask whats up.DX
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 31

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    Any FTM want to talk?

    Let's talk about things.
    patftm patftm 26-30, T 2 Responses Jun 15

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