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I Am Ftm

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    Becoming The Man I Always Was

    I knew when I was about six years old that I should have been a boy. I was a proper tomboy all through childhood, but with most tomboys it's a phase they grow out of. Not me. I was a tomboy teenager and a tomboy adult too (although at that stage the word "tomboy" gets replaced by...
    downtide downtide 41-45, M 1 Response Jun 7, 2012

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    I Don't Know....

    I really don't know what I want to be anymore. I enjoy wearing tuxes and having my hair cut short, and being called a guy's name rather than my own girl name and having a desire for top surgery to make my chest area flat. I also desire to have a beard and mustache and a deeper...
    CasperAdair CasperAdair 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 22, 2013

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    Hey, My name is Jaz-James

    and I'm 17, im a very proud transgendered guy but i find sometimes that i struggle to cope with the complications that come with this. Ive always known i was trans, but it seems sometimes that no one seems to understand, i dont know any other trans people and we like to meet...
    JazJames JazJames 16-17, T 4 Responses Feb 12

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    I Am, Who I Am, Who I Am, Who I Am... A Trainwreck

    I'm Cade, and I'm a 16 year old FtM transgender kid. I think I really realized something was wrong when I was 6, and I saw my cousin wearing a towel around his waist after his shower. I did the same, and was met with a fuss and my aunt yelling at me because "girls are supposed...
    Cadeninprogress Cadeninprogress 16-17, M 3 Responses Feb 27, 2010

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    I have been thinking,

    I've been thinking too much really. I am Honestly thinking about coming out to my family, but this might not be the right time. It's only 3 days until Chrismas, I dont want to ruin Chrismas just yet. The other fact that im only thinking about this at night and it feels like...
    BlackNekoIIIX BlackNekoIIIX 16-17 2 Responses Dec 21, 2013

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    Intimesy Problems, Help?

    Hi I'm a 19 year old ftm, tho I always say I'm just a guy. I dunno where else too turn but.. I need help, you see I have a boyfriend, I've been out for 2 years, he's known it for 3 and we've been together for 5.. Our problem now is I'm post op and no T yet.. our sex life I guess...
    ForgottenPortrait ForgottenPortrait 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 18, 2013

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    Starting The Journey.

    I have always known I was different from the other girls. Ever since I had a name for what it was, I knew I was transgender. Growing up, I always hated the girly outfits my mother would put me in. When I was allowed to pick out my own clothing, I ran to the guys' department and...
    IzaacC IzaacC 18-21, M Oct 3, 2013

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    How Am I Not Myself?

    I decided one day to be really honest with myself if I wanted to get better. Part of that process meant that I had to admit to myself that trying to be something I'm not was detrimental to my health and personal well-being. That was two years ago. I'm out to my best friend, and...
    CaptainPeachFuzz CaptainPeachFuzz 31-35, T 1 Response Feb 13, 2013

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    My Coming Out

    When I truly discovered this was the date of February 12 of this year. One of my friend's and I had got to talking, like in a deep down conversation about myself. I kept telling him how I hated being female, I didn't like it and I don't really feel female, and that I've never...
    FaeytesEternal FaeytesEternal 18-21, T May 5, 2013

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    I decided to stay biologically female,

    but battle with my identity. I didn't want to go through with hormones and a knife. Researched it thoroughly for about two years then at once, just let it go. I don't have anyone that would've hated me or loved me any less for it. My friends, my girl, and my parents all knew. In...
    Armorkillo Armorkillo 26-30 4 Responses Mar 16

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    I Am A Muslim FTM

    Assalam Alaykum, My name is Abraham K. Espinoza and this is my story: Ever since I was a kid, I have always known I was different (I am 15 now). When I was 8 years old, I felt that I should come out to my mother, but fear overtook me. I've always known I was a boy from the...
    proudmuslim98 proudmuslim98 13-15, M 1 Response Nov 8, 2013

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    FTM I Am a Gay-male Identified Biologically-born Female

    I am a gay-male identified biologically-born female, a gay man trapped in a woman's body. I am sweet, funny, romantic, and caring. I'm romantically, erotically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually attracted to gay men and gay-male culture. I have no desire whatsoever to turn a gay...
    RomanticRunner RomanticRunner 46-50, T 38 Responses Oct 5, 2009

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    First Meeting With The Therapist!

    So, I had my first meeting with my therapist/counselor Monday. Let me just say that it went extremely well. She was super easy to talk to, hit the right spots to where I spilled almost a lifetime worth of events and experiences into an hour of conversation. This is a big deal...
    IzaacC IzaacC 18-21, M Oct 8, 2013

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    Myself

    About a year ago, I put together my feelings and realized I really felt more comfortable as a male, rather than a female. I changed my name from Annie to Andy, and have since felt more comfortable with people calling me by my name. However, many people at my school knew me as...
    KaaruChan KaaruChan 16-17, T 1 Response Feb 27, 2013

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    I Am FTM

    Well first off, hi how are you. I'm an FTM named Dekota. I'm a unknown gentleman. When I first found out what it was called, I knew that that's what I was. For the longest I thought I was the only one. (Don't know why I thought that) Most of the time during school, I was alone or...
    dekota180 dekota180 18-21, M Nov 27, 2013

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    My Story

     So this is the first time that I have shared any of this with anyone.  I've never talked to anyone about being transgender and haven't tried to explain how I feel to anyone before now.  So this is a really big deal for me.I just recently discovered that I was...
    daysofgreen213 daysofgreen213 18-21 8 Responses Dec 10, 2009

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    Hey I'M New And This Is My Story/Rant

    So yeah I figured out I was trans in December and basically my first reaction was "oh ****." Maybe some of you can relate to that. I recently auditioned for a boy's a capella group. I know I'm not going to get in, I just wanted to make a point by being able to audition. It's...
    The7thSense The7thSense 13-15, M May 12, 2013

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    I feel like I should update my story.

    I've been on T for 4.5 years now and live fully as my true self. I haven't felt the need for surgery of any kind, though I fully acknowledge that that could change tomorrow. I live openly as a bisexual trans guy & couldn't be stealth if I tried (though I acknowledge that some...
    aranreinhart aranreinhart 41-45 1 Response Feb 2

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    The Man Inside.

    Hey guys/girls, My name is Alex I grew up in Canada/New Brunswick and am here to meet friends and also am new to the experience Project. I came here cause I am a FTM, I have been so my whole life for a long as I could remember but only came out of the closet about a year ago, it...
    Alex1993 Alex1993 18-21, T 1 Response Aug 16, 2012

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    Coming Out

    I remember standing in the school high walls people whispering and other I could over here talking asking" Are they gay? Why did they change there clothes?" The questions are annoying people that past me ran thought my head for years, no one ever asking my face to face but...
    MichaelDream1 MichaelDream1 18-21 Nov 17, 2013

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    I am biologically female,

    but have worn mens clothes since 1997. I had psychotherapy in 2001/2 decided I just did not want the whole surgery thing . . I am only about 65% transgendered . . .about 50% lesbian . . .about 100% genderfucked So I live in no-mans land But I would rather be this genderqueer...
    dispossessed dispossessed 46-50, F 2 Responses Mar 29

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    Hello. For now you all can call me Mo

    since I a very new to this whole situation. I recently expressed to myself that I should be true to myself and to stop pretending I am something I am not. It has taken a while, since my family is very conservative, to be true to the fact that I am a boy. I've felt this way ever...
    MoShokair MoShokair 18-21 2 Responses Dec 20, 2013

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    I've always known what I am.

    I've just had to be the perfect little girl my mom and dad want, when in all reality, I'm just a boy. I never wanted to disappoint them, but now, I want to make myself happy for once. Recently I had my hair cut to the appropriate length that I wanted, (short and a bit choppy...
    PaulFTM PaulFTM 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 13

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    Just Another Transguy

    Hi, there.  I'm a transguy living in rural Ohio.  I've lived here my whole life, so I decided to transition here, too.  Some people thinks that that's nuts, but it's actually worked out rather well.  Even though I live in a conservative area, I've found that...
    aranreinhart aranreinhart 41-45 8 Responses Jul 28, 2010

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    I need help. Anyone and everyone please message

    me. I have so many questions about surgery and Testosterone. I want to do it, I'd feel more comfortable, definitely. I just need someone to talk to about all this please.
    lovingapocalypse lovingapocalypse 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 13

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    I'm feeling pretty conflicted about what to do

    right now, as far as coming out, transitioning, and just the future in general. Anyone who would be willing to give some advice and/or share some experiences please message me!
    Dowisetrepla Dowisetrepla 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 26

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    Any Advice On T?

    I just started my T injections on the 2nd of May.  I am so stoked and don't have anyone to talk to about it.  I am curious about how long it takes for T to start working as far as things like voice change, facial hair etc.  Anyone got any info?  Thanks. Erik
    Erik Erik 41-45, T 7 Responses May 3, 2008

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    Trans Fears

    Back in 2011 I had a private conversation with a cisgendered woman on this site. At the time she had an interest in getting to know what transgendered / transsexual people were really like and because I had extended a welcome for people to contact me if they had any questions on...
    MartyMcFly MartyMcFly 22-25, T 1 Response Aug 14, 2013

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    Its Been a long time

    since ive typed a word on Experience Project and a lot has changed since my last. My last post was in 2012 i believe about 2 years, wow how time flys. If youve read my previous stories you would read about my worries of coming out and planns for my future, living life as a...
    unknownjay25 unknownjay25 18-21, T 1 Response Jan 23

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    What Do I Do Now

    It seems like this is going by so slowly. I don't know any older FtM people in my town, so I don't know where to get advice from. I told my mom already, and I asked her to help me do something about it. She hasn't really helped me with anything, she was just like "oh it's...
    Chroniclesz7 Chroniclesz7 16-17 5 Responses Jun 12, 2013

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    My Story

    As a kid i never liked wearing dresses or pink or even having long hair. I fist told my mom i was a lesbian at the age of 13. she said you have no idea what that is and it's just a faze. As time went by i would do things that just would make me suffer more with pain and sorrow...
    marcus96 marcus96 16-17, T Dec 30, 2012

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    How Did I Get Here....?

    Hello everyone, my name is Michael friends call me Mikey I live in Canada/NB I am a pretty normal guy only I am FTM. I am here cause I am looking to chat with other like me and are willing to chat, I've always known I was different from other so called "girls" I think even my...
    MichaelDream1 MichaelDream1 18-21 3 Responses Nov 17, 2013

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    I've Known I Was Male Ever Since I Was a Little Boy

    I was born Ashley. As a child I always identified with my male friends and didn't have any problems until I was 10 and learned the difference between boys and girls. It wasn't until high school that I started having doubts about my gender expression, which at that time was...
    loserski loserski 18-21, M 10 Responses Jul 6, 2008

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    Okay tell me if this makes sense.

    I'm a transman and I consider myself a straight man. I have never been attracted to men sexually or romantically, but I have met a pan sexual transman that has shown interest in me on more than one occasion. At first I didn't think much of it and we have established a "look but...
    Swordsman101 Swordsman101 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 4

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    I am a 22 year old Jamaican college student.

    I was born and raised in Kingston, Jamaica and as many of you may know, my country is HIGHLY homophobic and violent. I can't tell you how many times I've been chased and feared for my life. All my life I've been a "tom-boy", never liked pink, dresses or dolls. The last time I...
    iwritelife iwritelife 22-25 1 Response Feb 22

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    Ftm Top Surgery Help?

    Hey everyone if you could spare any please check out my link thanks :) http://www.gofundme.com/4rkryw
    IzaacC IzaacC 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 11, 2013

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    I'm new to my thoughts.

    I've always known I was a guy. But I've finally realized I'm a guy on the inside and I love it. I'm going to chop off my hair. But I still need someone to talk to. Someone?
    noahjames47 noahjames47 16-17, T 2 Responses Jan 21

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    DHEA Update and Some Other Stuff

    I have been taking 100mg of DHEA every morning for about 20 days now. I have 5 whole beard hairs (4 on my chin, 1 side burn). Yes, I've been counting them. My breast tissue seems to be somewhat less dense making binding easier; it still itches after I take my binder off (I have a...
    loserski loserski 18-21, M 4 Responses Jul 16, 2008

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    Its Been a long time

    since ive typed a word on Experience Project and a lot has changed since my last. My last post was in 2012 i believe about 2 years, wow how time flys. If youve read my previous stories you would read about my worries of coming out and planns for my future, living life as a...
    unknownjay25 unknownjay25 18-21, T 1 Response Jan 23

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    what scares me the most is not being able to be

    me. I'm having lots of family issues I had haircut 2 months ago and its was like a blast my parents was so angry on me and now they want me to wear girls clothes they don't allow me to do a job and they don't ever give me money I'm feeling locked up :( but I still hope I'll get...
    sidd73 sidd73 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 21

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    I need someone to mentor me,

    I feel alone. My friends know, the person I am with knows, my parents and sister do not. It's sad when I have the ability to tell my younger brother, who usually tells everything on me, and I kind of wish he would've just told them for me... My mother is very homophobic, and she...
    PaulFTM PaulFTM 16-17, M Jan 14

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    A letter to my mom. I'm

    so tired of trying to hide. All of my life, I've had to hide. What I mean by this is all of my life, I've wanted to be a boy. I can remember crying to myself and bed at night praying to God that he would make me a boy. But things don't happen that way. I couldn't be a boy. But...
    noahjames47 noahjames47 16-17, T Jan 31

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    So I just came out to one of my teammates,

    and I just wanted to share the experience. I realized two years ago that I identify as a boy, but I didn't do much about it, and still went on my merry way with my life plan (playing a division one sport in college- yes, on a women's team). So flash forward to now: I'm a...
    Dowisetrepla Dowisetrepla 18-21, M Jan 13

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    I honestly am not sure of

    who I am. I was born a female and have always felt like I didn't completely fit that role. When I was young I used to have guy friends, and play outside, got dirty, played with cars and toy guns, I used to pretend to be a boy power ranger or ninja turtle. I came out as a lesbian...
    9Cerulean9 9Cerulean9 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 24

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    Just two months to go

    before my 20th birthday. It's my golden birthday. I try to think of what I want, and another tattoo or a new piercing is all I can think of. The trouble is, the area I want tattooed is controlled by these two mountains mom gave me at birth. I don't want to ruin the tattoo later...
    EarthEyes420 EarthEyes420 18-21, T Feb 1

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    I just got my hair cut

    and I finally look like a boy, kinda! I'm so excited. I don't even care that my mom hates me. But I look amazing:D
    noahjames47 noahjames47 16-17, T Mar 6

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    I Know I Want This. But I'm Afraid To Take The First Step.

    For as long as I can remember I have liked girls. I was always a tomboy when I was little. When I was 14 I came out as a lesbian. I am now twenty. I still identify as female though, that is not how I feel. I have the most beautiful girlfriend and we have been together for two...
    VonMoose VonMoose 18-21, M 4 Responses Sep 3, 2010

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    First Step Toward The Transition...

    Hi guy, I took first step toward my transition and I'm on my way now. I joined indian ftm group, I got new ftm friend who is living in same city where am going for job. He is so supportive and he understand my situation. He gave me his number for any kind of help plus he gave me...
    sidd73 sidd73 22-25, M 4 Responses Feb 20, 2013

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    I feel like,... Before I start the process I

    need to talk to someone who has already undergone it. I need a mentor to help guide me, and all I can find are mtf's willing to help. Yes, all the support is a beautiful thing, but... Having someone FTM, going on testosterone and have had the surgeries done, would be amazing...
    PaulFTM PaulFTM 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 14

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    Probably The Best Day Of My Life....

    I am not too fond of Shakespeare’s plays so, when my English teacher told me I needed to read a part out loud of Shakespeare's A Midsummer Night's Dream I was not very happy. I walked up to a set of desks, each labeled with a character. There were only two seats opened; one...
    NeonPanda03 NeonPanda03 13-15, T Mar 28, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    So, I recently met a boy that I get all tingly and giggly about. Y'know, the good ol' teenage crush. I guess you can't say its falling in love, but still, it could happen. If you...
    fallingintowonderrland fallingintowonderrland 16-17, F Mar 22

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    I'm FTM but as a guy I'm gay. It's a strange set up for me but I know I am. I need friends that accept me, and I also need a potential lover. I know this sounds like I'm asking y...
    facelessDARK facelessDARK 16-17, T 1 Response Mar 25

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    This may come as a shock to any of the friends I've made on here, but I wanted to be myself on here, so here it is. The reason I've gotten my confidence up about posting here now...
    Ahote Ahote 16-17, T 1 Response Mar 31

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    Someone to talk to would be awesome. I'm really suicidal
    noahjames47 noahjames47 16-17, T Apr 12

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    I'm only 16, so now would be a good time to explore myself. I have feelings for both guys and girls, but never anything serious. I want to say I'm straight, but I'm a dash on the...
    fallingintowonderrland fallingintowonderrland 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    I am in the process of ftm and while certain parts are already done I am finding everyday I'm happy with the phase I am in now during my transition and having thoughts of just...
    tsmar tsmar 26-30, T 2 Responses Mar 27

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