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I Am Ftm

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    I am officially one month on T!

    Just today my voice started faultering. I wish I could fast forward two years and know all the changes that will occur, but I know part of the experience is the surprise and seeing the changes slowly occur. I can't wait to hear how my voice turns out! It's still a long road...
    giggponagoshi giggponagoshi 22-25, T 2 Responses Sep 17, 2015

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    Hello guys, my name is Jason.

    Or at least that's what I like to be called. I love that my family and friends call me that, but it gets really weird once I say something. I can pull off the look but once I talk it just ruins it my voice is still pretty high. I really hate it. But anyways, hello everyone...
    Give2Schitts Give2Schitts 13-15, T 6 Responses Feb 17, 2015

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    About half a year ago,

    I came to the realization that I definitely wasn't female. I was genuinely terrified to come out to my parents, not because I didn't think they would accept me, but because I knew saying it out loud to anyone other than my best friend, Maggie, would crush me. Eventually I did...
    dakotakiwi dakotakiwi 13-15, T Nov 5, 2015

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    I am biologically female,

    but have worn mens clothes since 1997. I had psychotherapy in 2001/2 decided I just did not want the whole surgery thing . . I am only about 65% transgendered . . .about 50% lesbian . . .about 100% genderfucked So I live in no-mans land But I would rather be this genderqueer...
    dispossessed dispossessed 46-50, F 1 Response Mar 29, 2014

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    My chosen name is Ian it means Gift from god

    so I really like it |feel free to talk to me *hugs* oh yeah Im Pre-T
    cute4me cute4me 16-17, T 4 Responses Feb 17, 2015

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    does anyone agree that it really sucks

    when ur ready to move forward with your transitions but lack of money stalls progress......
    karisasam karisasam 31-35, F 4 Responses Apr 19, 2015

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    i seriously need a binder what im doing is not

    working and im sick of trying to hide who i really am because of my crazy family!!!! :(
    JR1123 JR1123 16-17, T Jan 13

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    I Don't Know....

    I really don't know what I want to be anymore. I enjoy wearing tuxes and having my hair cut short, and being called a guy's name rather than my own girl name and having a desire for top surgery to make my chest area flat. I also desire to have a beard and mustache and a deeper...
    CasperAdair CasperAdair 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 22, 2013

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    Just wanted to stay that I am wearing a breast

    binder for the first time!!! Feels good
    yo805 yo805 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 3, 2015

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    Hello friends, my name is Daniel.

    I would like to tell you a story, a story about my life over the past four years or so. I moved to a new school in the middle of Freshmen year in High school, and was instantly set apart from other people and labeled the odd one out. Nearly a month after I had gotten fairly...
    DanielReedcaotl DanielReedcaotl 18-21, T 2 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    So, I've had a pretty good day today.

    . That ended very quickly when I was in the shower right now, and remembered I have a female body.
    WhereIsMyBeard WhereIsMyBeard 26-30, T 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Okay, so I'm basically using this site to

    accept advice, log my experiences for my own benefit and also to help others going through the same, complicated experience. I say complicated because I don't want to fully transition into a man, but I do want to bring out my masculine side that has been taunting me for so long...
    Rossi117 Rossi117 26-30 3 Responses May 21, 2014

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    I'm questioning my name ?

    ? I may be a Joseph or a Mason ?? I can't decide gdi
    GayPrinceJoseph GayPrinceJoseph 13-15, T 2 Responses Nov 6, 2015

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    I just got my hair cut!

    I was feeling pretty bad today. I don't own a binder yet so usually I just wear one or two sports bras and a loose fitting shirt. However, today I had to wear a padded bra as I couldnt find anything else and you could see my chest even with a loose jumper on. I was feeling...
    illuminatisweaters illuminatisweaters 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 16, 2015

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    My name is Julien, and I am FTM,

    a female to male transgendered individual. But, I'm not straight, I'm gay, so I'm an FTM who also happens to be gay. But, get this, there's more. I already have a post where I ramble a little about being gay and being FTM and wanting gay guys to know that I exist, but that's...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming 18-21, T 2 Responses Apr 29, 2015

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    FTM I Am a Gay-male Identified Biologically-born Female

    I am a gay-male identified biologically-born female, a gay man trapped in a woman's body. I am sweet, funny, romantic, and caring. I'm romantically, erotically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually attracted to gay men and gay-male culture. I have no desire whatsoever to turn a gay...
    RomanticRunner RomanticRunner 46-50, T 43 Responses Oct 5, 2009

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    I'm not fully ftm, at the moment I have to

    settle for a more genderfluid approach. But when I'm alone I can be 100% me and it feels amazing. I would love to live my life everyday as who I really am, but life just can't be that way, there is no way I can start T, but I do plan to eventually have a mastectomy and...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 5 Responses Feb 17, 2015

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    I can't stand myself anymore.

    My hair, my clothing, my "female parts". My parents keep telling me I can't express myself and saying its to "protect me" and that I wouldn't have the guts to show up to school looking like a boy and it's starting to get sickening. The only thing holding me back is my family...
    dakotakiwi dakotakiwi 13-15, T 2 Responses Nov 7, 2015

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    New to this but would really like

    input/advice/support of some kind because I honestly think doing what I need to do to be truly happy w myself ( which transitioning to a male ) will make me lose a lot of people in my life . I am still living life identifying as a female and my reasoning behind it makes me hate...
    juliandaniel95 juliandaniel95 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 13, 2015

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    duhwellman duhwellman 22-25, M Nov 5, 2015

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    Please help I so i really want to come out to

    my mom because i want to go to my first paintball game in a couple days and i want to be treated as a guy, and i really dont know if i should just come out now, or what. Please tell me if its a good idea or not.
    aidenlex15 aidenlex15 13-15, T 1 Response Nov 3, 2015

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    In another post, I mentioned calling myself

    Dakota behind people's backs, but being uncomfortable because it still seems like such a feminine name. I tried Dakota-James, and I even told an old friend from my old school, but she made a snide comment and told me she would just call me DJ, which I've told her is an extremely...
    dakotakiwi dakotakiwi 13-15, T 2 Responses Nov 5, 2015

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    Had two little girls at my work try

    and figure out if I was a boy or a girl, when they decided I was a boy, they giggled and I smiled a little on the inside, even though I was feeling neutral that day.
    Amichelseaoramichris Amichelseaoramichris 18-21, T Oct 16, 2015

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    Two things in one experience today: 1.

    I'm part of a therapy group once a week, and today all I could think about was coming out to the others. I felt confident, strong and ready to finally say the words out loud. But I couldn't. I have no idea what happened, and it frustrates me so dang much! If I knew why I...
    WhereIsMyBeard WhereIsMyBeard 26-30, T 3 Responses Nov 25, 2015

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    Finally got my binder on

    after struggling with getting it over my wide shoulders for MONTHS. I'm thrilled.... So thrilled I don't wanna take it off ugh. But I figured out how to get in on and now I can wear it every day~
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 2, 2015

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    First off ill say im not out

    yet as trans. I dont even know how to come out to my best friend... or girlfriend of 2 years. I know my mom won't be supportive and my girlfriend tells me all the time how she's glad I don't want to be a man... any advice on coming out to people when you know most likely you...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 28, 2015

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    Hey, so this is the letter i plan to come out

    with, so if anyone came read it and give me advice, that would be awesome. and it is a bit personal. Dear Mom, I have spent nearly seven months trying to figure out the best way to tell you this, but honestly I have not figured out as single good or easy way to tell you this...
    aidenlex15 aidenlex15 13-15, T 3 Responses Nov 3, 2015

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    Just Another Transguy

    Hi, there.  I'm a transguy living in rural Ohio.  I've lived here my whole life, so I decided to transition here, too.  Some people thinks that that's nuts, but it's actually worked out rather well.  Even though I live in a conservative area, I've found that...
    aranreinhart aranreinhart 41-45 7 Responses Jul 28, 2010

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    I just got my first packer today!

    it's a 4 in 1 Freetom, 5.5 inches. Good for packing, peeing, playing, and pleasure. I'm in love with it! SO FRICKEN REALISTIC.
    littleone212 littleone212 16-17, T Dec 12, 2015

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    So, I slept for a bit,

    and then woke up around midnight, and decided that although I've been hiding in my dorm room for about two weeks that I needed to get up and write something. So, I went out to the little window seats we have around my dorm and sat down. I have homework I should be doing, but...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming 18-21, T 2 Responses Oct 12, 2015

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    Hey, My name is Jaz-James

    and I'm 17, im a very proud transgendered guy but i find sometimes that i struggle to cope with the complications that come with this. Ive always known i was trans, but it seems sometimes that no one seems to understand, i dont know any other trans people and we like to meet...
    JazJames JazJames 18-21, T 5 Responses Feb 12, 2014

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    Guys!!!!! My deed poll came in on Tuesday.

    (March 17 2015)!!!!! So Happy. Literally was like bouncing aff the walls. So happy. My name is officially and legally Kyle Luke Joyce. So happy. Oh things are going so damned well.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 18, 2015

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    I'm looking for a ftm buddy.

    If interested message me
    GothicSkeleton GothicSkeleton 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    well not me. my boyfriend is.

    can any of you help me understand him better
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses May 31, 2015

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    Why does facial hair take

    so long to grow
    Benjermanleon Benjermanleon 26-30, T 1 Response Dec 19, 2015

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    Hey I'M New And This Is My Story/Rant

    So yeah I figured out I was trans in December and basically my first reaction was "oh ****." Maybe some of you can relate to that. I recently auditioned for a boy's a capella group. I know I'm not going to get in, I just wanted to make a point by being able to audition. It's...
    The7thSense The7thSense 16-17, M May 12, 2013

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    I've always had issues with my gender identity;

    for the longest time, they remained repressed and unacknowledged until the trans movement came to the forefront of politics. I remember having qualms about what I exactly was since elementary school - of course, I only understood stereotypical gender roles at the time, and...
    toska777 toska777 18-21, T Oct 21, 2014

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    My Story

     So this is the first time that I have shared any of this with anyone.  I've never talked to anyone about being transgender and haven't tried to explain how I feel to anyone before now.  So this is a really big deal for me.I just recently discovered that I was...
    daysofgreen213 daysofgreen213 18-21 8 Responses Dec 10, 2009

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    A letter to my mom. I'm

    so tired of trying to hide. All of my life, I've had to hide. What I mean by this is all of my life, I've wanted to be a boy. I can remember crying to myself and bed at night praying to God that he would make me a boy. But things don't happen that way. I couldn't be a boy. But...
    oliviairene47 oliviairene47 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 31, 2014

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    So im going to cut my hair today.

    my mother is going to kill me but i hate my hair. i want itto go away so im taking matters into my own hands wish me luck
    JR1123 JR1123 16-17, T 2 Responses Jan 13

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    I decided to go back to my regular highschool

    and ive been wearing my binder to school. I dont know why but my left side ribs really hurt.))))): -Alyx
    AlyxJey AlyxJey 16-17, M 4 Responses Nov 4, 2015

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    its weird being the only ftm in the family.

    i still have my biological features and considering taking hormones. but im nervous. since i can remember i felt something was out place. ever since i was a kid. i didn't want to play with barbie i wanted to play with toy hand cuffs and shoot my toy gun. i would run around with...
    erronblake erronblake 18-21, M Dec 5, 2015

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    daveless daveless 16-17, T Jan 3

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    I'm new to my thoughts.

    I've always known I was a guy. But I've finally realized I'm a guy on the inside and I love it. I'm going to chop off my hair. But I still need someone to talk to. Someone?
    oliviairene47 oliviairene47 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    I am struggling with my chest dysphoria really

    badly. I still haven't found a binder that fits and every time I put on a bra to hold up these huge boobs I feel sick.
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