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    Hello friends, my name is Daniel.

    I would like to tell you a story, a story about my life over the past four years or so. I moved to a new school in the middle of Freshmen year in High school, and was instantly set apart from other people and labeled the odd one out. Nearly a month after I had gotten fairly...
    DanielReedcaotl DanielReedcaotl 16-17, T 2 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    This is the first draft of a poem I'm thinking

    of using to come out to my mother with. Necessary information, before reading this, well it's not exactly necessary, but it might help. One, I'm blind, two was born four months pre mature at one pound twelve ounces, and I'm from Vermont where it's cold, but I go to school in...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming 18-21, T 1 Response May 7

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    Guys!!!!! My deed poll came in on Tuesday.

    (March 17 2015)!!!!! So Happy. Literally was like bouncing aff the walls. So happy. My name is officially and legally Kyle Luke Joyce. So happy. Oh things are going so damned well.
    KyleJoyce95 KyleJoyce95 18-21, T 2 Responses Mar 18

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    Hello guys, my name is Jason.

    Or at least that's what I like to be called. I love that my family and friends call me that, but it gets really weird once I say something. I can pull off the look but once I talk it just ruins it my voice is still pretty high. I really hate it. But anyways, hello everyone...
    Give2Schitts Give2Schitts 13-15, T 6 Responses Feb 17

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    Okay, so I'm basically using this site to

    accept advice, log my experiences for my own benefit and also to help others going through the same, complicated experience. I say complicated because I don't want to fully transition into a man, but I do want to bring out my masculine side that has been taunting me for so long...
    Rossi117 Rossi117 22-25 3 Responses May 21, 2014

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    Coming out to my friends: After weeks of

    considering it, I came out to my best friend. Her reaction was great, she said it was really cool and she hugged me. I then came out to three other friends, one by one. The first one thought I was joking at first, buy was the first one to start using the correct pronouns. The...
    illuminatisweaters illuminatisweaters 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 13

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    My family has no idea

    but when we all went shopping together (and I hate shopping), I wanted the same shirt as my brother but in a different color. Not that I was trying to copy his style, I just love button downs. My mom didn't want me to but my brother told me it didn't matter. Then my dad took me...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Every time I'm interested in a random guy I

    meet I chicken out because I'm not comfortable being someone's "girlfriend" since I'm still a closeted ftm. Like, I've never fit the girlfriend role. I am internally a guy who wants to be with another guy (usually, as I'm pansexual). I just can't chase after the guys who see me...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 15 hrs ago

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    I've always had issues with my gender identity;

    for the longest time, they remained repressed and unacknowledged until the trans movement came to the forefront of politics. I remember having qualms about what I exactly was since elementary school - of course, I only understood stereotypical gender roles at the time, and...
    toska777 toska777 16-17, T Oct 21, 2014

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    I'm new to my thoughts.

    I've always known I was a guy. But I've finally realized I'm a guy on the inside and I love it. I'm going to chop off my hair. But I still need someone to talk to. Someone?
    oliviairene47 oliviairene47 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    Myself

    About a year ago, I put together my feelings and realized I really felt more comfortable as a male, rather than a female. I changed my name from Annie to Andy, and have since felt more comfortable with people calling me by my name. However, many people at my school knew me as...
    KaaruChan KaaruChan 16-17, T 1 Response Feb 27, 2013

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    bandgeekavery bandgeekavery 13-15, T 1 Response May 10

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    FTM I Am a Gay-male Identified Biologically-born Female

    I am a gay-male identified biologically-born female, a gay man trapped in a woman's body. I am sweet, funny, romantic, and caring. I'm romantically, erotically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually attracted to gay men and gay-male culture. I have no desire whatsoever to turn a gay...
    RomanticRunner RomanticRunner 46-50, T 41 Responses Oct 5, 2009

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    I am biologically female,

    but have worn mens clothes since 1997. I had psychotherapy in 2001/2 decided I just did not want the whole surgery thing . . I am only about 65% transgendered . . .about 50% lesbian . . .about 100% genderfucked So I live in no-mans land But I would rather be this genderqueer...
    dispossessed dispossessed 46-50, F 1 Response Mar 29, 2014

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    I'm not fully ftm, at the moment I have to

    settle for a more genderfluid approach. But when I'm alone I can be 100% me and it feels amazing. I would love to live my life everyday as who I really am, but life just can't be that way, there is no way I can start T, but I do plan to eventually have a mastectomy and...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 5 Responses Feb 17

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    Looking for anyone who has started T

    and begun the transition later in life (30s) after being married and having kids. Anyone? I'm in a constant state of mental torment from all the years of faking female when inside I'm a pan-romantic/asexual/male. I've know for years that I preferred women in a romantic sense...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 1 day ago

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    So, This is the paper I wrote

    for my Creative Writing professor earlier this year. Thought it would be good to share. Hint, Hint, this is where I got the idea for my Username, and that's why it means so much to me. Process of Becoming Why is my brush so important? It’s not like it belonged to...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming 18-21, T May 7

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    I am a FTM individual

    who is pansexual and would like to be addressed as Mark. I have been through a lot storms on my own and this is one of the storms that I need help with. My parents are anti LGBT all the way. hates anyone that is and hates everyone that supports. I'm literally both. growing up in...
    yocallmemark yocallmemark 16-17, T 2 Responses a week ago

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    ethanjade ethanjade 13-15, T 1 Response Apr 27

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    I decided to stay biologically female,

    but battle with my identity. I didn't want to go through with hormones and a knife. Researched it thoroughly for about two years then at once, just let it go. I don't have anyone that would've hated me or loved me any less for it. My friends, my girl, and my parents all knew. In...
    Armorkillo Armorkillo 26-30 4 Responses Mar 16, 2014

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    I Am, Who I Am, Who I Am, Who I Am... A Trainwreck

    I'm Cade, and I'm a 16 year old FtM transgender kid. I think I really realized something was wrong when I was 6, and I saw my cousin wearing a towel around his waist after his shower. I did the same, and was met with a fuss and my aunt yelling at me because "girls are supposed...
    Cadeninprogress Cadeninprogress 16-17, M 2 Responses Feb 27, 2010

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    I just got my hair cut!

    I was feeling pretty bad today. I don't own a binder yet so usually I just wear one or two sports bras and a loose fitting shirt. However, today I had to wear a padded bra as I couldnt find anything else and you could see my chest even with a loose jumper on. I was feeling...
    illuminatisweaters illuminatisweaters 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 16

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    does anyone agree that it really sucks

    when ur ready to move forward with your transitions but lack of money stalls progress......
    karisasam karisasam 31-35, F 3 Responses Apr 19

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    drugsandscales drugsandscales 13-15, T Feb 18

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    So, I'm not sleeping again

    even though I have to write a two thousand word paper, create a six page powerpoint, and take a map quiz, that all have to do with my final grade in a Geography class, later today. Also, keep in mind that I'm blind, so tonight just sucks. And yes, I can blame this on the...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming 18-21, T May 7

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    Trans Fears

    Back in 2011 I had a private conversation with a cisgendered woman on this site. At the time she had an interest in getting to know what transgendered / transsexual people were really like and because I had extended a welcome for people to contact me if they had any questions on...
    MartyMcFly MartyMcFly 22-25, T 1 Response Aug 14, 2013

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    My name is Julien, and I am FTM,

    a female to male transgendered individual. But, I'm not straight, I'm gay, so I'm an FTM who also happens to be gay. But, get this, there's more. I already have a post where I ramble a little about being gay and being FTM and wanting gay guys to know that I exist, but that's...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming 18-21, T 1 Response Apr 29

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    Just Another Transguy

    Hi, there.  I'm a transguy living in rural Ohio.  I've lived here my whole life, so I decided to transition here, too.  Some people thinks that that's nuts, but it's actually worked out rather well.  Even though I live in a conservative area, I've found that...
    aranreinhart aranreinhart 41-45 7 Responses Jul 28, 2010

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    My Coming Out

    When I truly discovered this was the date of February 12 of this year. One of my friend's and I had got to talking, like in a deep down conversation about myself. I kept telling him how I hated being female, I didn't like it and I don't really feel female, and that I've never...
    FaeytesEternal FaeytesEternal 18-21, T May 5, 2013

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    hey guys... im currently 6 months on hrt.

    ..and im looking for ppl i can chat with who can relate. im keen to help out where i can with advice if needed. im a easy going lad from australia.
    jayterry87 jayterry87 26-30, T 1 Response Feb 6

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    I feel like I should update my story.

    I've been on T for 4.5 years now and live fully as my true self. I haven't felt the need for surgery of any kind, though I fully acknowledge that that could change tomorrow. I live openly as a bisexual trans guy & couldn't be stealth if I tried (though I acknowledge that some...
    aranreinhart aranreinhart 41-45 1 Response Feb 2, 2014

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    I know I will never be happy.

    I have an extremely religious family that does not accept trans people, and I don't know what do. I hate my body; it makes me uncomfortable. I have no way to escape. I want to run far away from everybody, but I would also love to have trans friends (or anybody of the lgbt) to...
    Thebutterflyboy Thebutterflyboy 18-21, T 2 Responses Apr 14

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    My Story

     So this is the first time that I have shared any of this with anyone.  I've never talked to anyone about being transgender and haven't tried to explain how I feel to anyone before now.  So this is a really big deal for me.I just recently discovered that I was...
    daysofgreen213 daysofgreen213 18-21 8 Responses Dec 10, 2009

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    Hey, My name is Jaz-James

    and I'm 17, im a very proud transgendered guy but i find sometimes that i struggle to cope with the complications that come with this. Ive always known i was trans, but it seems sometimes that no one seems to understand, i dont know any other trans people and we like to meet...
    JazJames JazJames 18-21, T 5 Responses Feb 12, 2014

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    Hello. For now you all can call me Mo

    since I a very new to this whole situation. I recently expressed to myself that I should be true to myself and to stop pretending I am something I am not. It has taken a while, since my family is very conservative, to be true to the fact that I am a boy. I've felt this way ever...
    MoShokair MoShokair 18-21 2 Responses Dec 20, 2013

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    A letter to my mom. I'm

    so tired of trying to hide. All of my life, I've had to hide. What I mean by this is all of my life, I've wanted to be a boy. I can remember crying to myself and bed at night praying to God that he would make me a boy. But things don't happen that way. I couldn't be a boy. But...
    oliviairene47 oliviairene47 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 31, 2014

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    so I just needed to share my ongoing success of

    changing my name at work. For almost 2 years I struggled with finding a way to start changing my name at work. Then I lost my nametag. I had just gotten promoted to Manager and was making my new nametag when I realized that I could just put my new name on it. It would be that...
    milo1890 milo1890 22-25, F Feb 4

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    I am not FTM. But some of my BF in the past

    were transgender,FTM. I personally think i don't think bisexual or gay or LGBT about myself. because if i fall in love with someone,that person is woman,ftm,gay,straight,guy,man. I don't really care. I just like you. That's all. Some guy on here,after they know i'm not...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 29

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    OMG. I fell out with my mother big time today

    so I put up a status about me being a transgender and the responses I got were amazing!!!! No negativity what so ever. So far. All supportive. Who needs family when you have friends who are that good. I feel like crying I'm that happy. I feel so much better and I feel free. I...
    KyleJoyce95 KyleJoyce95 18-21, T 1 Response Mar 12

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    I Don't Know....

    I really don't know what I want to be anymore. I enjoy wearing tuxes and having my hair cut short, and being called a guy's name rather than my own girl name and having a desire for top surgery to make my chest area flat. I also desire to have a beard and mustache and a deeper...
    CasperAdair CasperAdair 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 22, 2013

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    My mom found my sock packer.

    I made a packer that looked like a full on d*** with balls and everything out of two socks, and I kept it under my bed. One day, I searched all under my bed for it, and I couldn't find it. I got worried that I left it out in my bathroom or something. Then, I checked my sock...
    bandgeekavery bandgeekavery 13-15, T 2 days ago

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    My chosen name is Ian it means Gift from god

    so I really like it |feel free to talk to me *hugs* oh yeah Im Pre-T
    cute4me cute4me 13-15, T 4 Responses Feb 17

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    New friends... Recently I got a job

    and i made some new friends and now I'm confuse coz of them... I'm not out to them. One of my friends is become too close to me and I'm thinking about come out to her. But meanwhile I'm scared. I don't know if she understands or not. I have to explain her about transguys. I don...
    sidd73 sidd73 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 17

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    How many of you realized you were ftm later in

    life? I'm already 20 and wish I had realized it sooner. I knew of drag queens and cross dressing from the media and from cosplaying, but only really found out what transgender meant in high school or so. I never looked into it though because I didn't think it was something I...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Hey, figured I'd introduce myself.

    I'm Noah, I'm about 2 years on T and looking to get top surgery within a year or so. I don't really have any ftm friends right now so I'm hoping to meet some people here and connect over similar experiences. I'm in college and completely stealth. I love animals, baking, and...
    DrEggplant DrEggplant 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 4

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    Okay, so I guess I'm just looking

    for a place where I can easily meet other people like me and maybe even help other people. I'm an ftm, I'm 17, I'm on hormones, and I'm post-op top surgery. I'm also a total dork who loves art, animation, anime, netflix, tumblr, and other random crap.
    suchduck suchduck 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 21

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