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I Am Ftm

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    Hey I'M New And This Is My Story/Rant

    So yeah I figured out I was trans in December and basically my first reaction was "oh ****." Maybe some of you can relate to that. I recently auditioned for a boy's a capella group. I know I'm not going to get in, I just wanted to make a point by being able to audition. It's...
    The7thSense The7thSense 16-17, M May 12, 2013

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    its weird being the only ftm in the family.

    i still have my biological features and considering taking hormones. but im nervous. since i can remember i felt something was out place. ever since i was a kid. i didn't want to play with barbie i wanted to play with toy hand cuffs and shoot my toy gun. i would run around with...
    erronblake erronblake 18-21, M Dec 5, 2015

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    well not me. my boyfriend is.

    can any of you help me understand him better
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses May 31, 2015

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    My chosen name is Ian it means Gift from god

    so I really like it |feel free to talk to me *hugs* oh yeah Im Pre-T
    cute4me cute4me 16-17, T 4 Responses Feb 17, 2015

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    I am officially one month on T!

    Just today my voice started faultering. I wish I could fast forward two years and know all the changes that will occur, but I know part of the experience is the surprise and seeing the changes slowly occur. I can't wait to hear how my voice turns out! It's still a long road...
    giggponagoshi giggponagoshi 22-25, T 2 Responses Sep 17, 2015

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    I just got my first packer today!

    it's a 4 in 1 Freetom, 5.5 inches. Good for packing, peeing, playing, and pleasure. I'm in love with it! SO FRICKEN REALISTIC.
    littleone212 littleone212 16-17, T Dec 12, 2015

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    I've wanted to tell someone a

    while now, but I don't have the courage yet. So, in order to take a tiny baby step towards the right direction, I've decided to write a letter to my idol (favourite actor), telling him everyhing. We've never met or anything, but atleast there will be someone significant to me...
    WhereIsMyBeard WhereIsMyBeard 26-30, T 2 Responses Nov 29, 2015

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    My Story

     So this is the first time that I have shared any of this with anyone.  I've never talked to anyone about being transgender and haven't tried to explain how I feel to anyone before now.  So this is a really big deal for me.I just recently discovered that I was...
    daysofgreen213 daysofgreen213 18-21 8 Responses Dec 10, 2009

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    Just Another Transguy

    Hi, there.  I'm a transguy living in rural Ohio.  I've lived here my whole life, so I decided to transition here, too.  Some people thinks that that's nuts, but it's actually worked out rather well.  Even though I live in a conservative area, I've found that...
    aranreinhart aranreinhart 41-45 7 Responses Jul 28, 2010

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    I can't stand myself anymore.

    My hair, my clothing, my "female parts". My parents keep telling me I can't express myself and saying its to "protect me" and that I wouldn't have the guts to show up to school looking like a boy and it's starting to get sickening. The only thing holding me back is my family...
    dakotakiwi dakotakiwi 13-15, T 2 Responses Nov 7, 2015

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    Guys!!!!! My deed poll came in on Tuesday.

    (March 17 2015)!!!!! So Happy. Literally was like bouncing aff the walls. So happy. My name is officially and legally Kyle Luke Joyce. So happy. Oh things are going so damned well.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 18, 2015

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    Okay, so I'm basically using this site to

    accept advice, log my experiences for my own benefit and also to help others going through the same, complicated experience. I say complicated because I don't want to fully transition into a man, but I do want to bring out my masculine side that has been taunting me for so long...
    Rossi117 Rossi117 26-30 3 Responses May 21, 2014

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    New to this but would really like

    input/advice/support of some kind because I honestly think doing what I need to do to be truly happy w myself ( which transitioning to a male ) will make me lose a lot of people in my life . I am still living life identifying as a female and my reasoning behind it makes me hate...
    juliandaniel95 juliandaniel95 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 13, 2015

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    ....or maybe I'm not really ftm.

    I'm starting to believe that my gender discomfort comes from a mixture of internalized sexism, along with a lifetime sense of powerlessness and shame. We're all exposed to the gender construct of male and female. I think what's really happening is a mismatch between me and my...
    Chroniclesz7 Chroniclesz7 18-21 1 Response Dec 11, 2015

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    First off ill say im not out

    yet as trans. I dont even know how to come out to my best friend... or girlfriend of 2 years. I know my mom won't be supportive and my girlfriend tells me all the time how she's glad I don't want to be a man... any advice on coming out to people when you know most likely you...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 28, 2015

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    I've been post top surgery

    and testosterone for a few years now, but I almost always identify more as gender fluid or third gendered. Sometimes I wish there were a more direct way to explain that while my physical body has transitioned to male, my gender identity is more queer than anything. Ah well...
    echoamorphous echoamorphous 22-25, T 1 day ago

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    I'm finally 3 months hrt

    and I'm super happy. Growing a little bit of facial hair and my voice is getting deeper, got some muscle and some body redistribution. But I'm a bit frustrated because I actually passed as a male alot more before hrt than I do now. I can't fathom why that is. I've thought of it...
    GlitchedShark GlitchedShark 18-21, T Dec 5, 2015

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    Being in my female body feels

    so wrong. Being in my female body AND experiencing PMS, menstrations and so on, is pure torture.
    WhereIsMyBeard WhereIsMyBeard 26-30, T 2 Responses Nov 17, 2015

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    Why does facial hair take

    so long to grow
    Benjermanleon Benjermanleon 26-30, T 1 Response Dec 19, 2015

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    i seriously need a binder what im doing is not

    working and im sick of trying to hide who i really am because of my crazy family!!!! :(
    JR1123 JR1123 16-17, T Jan 13

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    Had two little girls at my work try

    and figure out if I was a boy or a girl, when they decided I was a boy, they giggled and I smiled a little on the inside, even though I was feeling neutral that day.
    Amichelseaoramichris Amichelseaoramichris 18-21, T Oct 16, 2015

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    I Don't Know....

    I really don't know what I want to be anymore. I enjoy wearing tuxes and having my hair cut short, and being called a guy's name rather than my own girl name and having a desire for top surgery to make my chest area flat. I also desire to have a beard and mustache and a deeper...
    CasperAdair CasperAdair 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 22, 2013

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    My name is Julien, and I am FTM,

    a female to male transgendered individual. But, I'm not straight, I'm gay, so I'm an FTM who also happens to be gay. But, get this, there's more. I already have a post where I ramble a little about being gay and being FTM and wanting gay guys to know that I exist, but that's...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming 18-21, T 2 Responses Apr 29, 2015

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    I know I will never be happy.

    I have an extremely religious family that does not accept trans people, and I don't know what do. I hate my body; it makes me uncomfortable. I have no way to escape. I want to run far away from everybody, but I would also love to have trans friends (or anybody of the lgbt) to...
    Thebutterflyboy Thebutterflyboy 18-21, T 3 Responses Apr 14, 2015

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    I'm not fully ftm, at the moment I have to

    settle for a more genderfluid approach. But when I'm alone I can be 100% me and it feels amazing. I would love to live my life everyday as who I really am, but life just can't be that way, there is no way I can start T, but I do plan to eventually have a mastectomy and...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 5 Responses Feb 17, 2015

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    Hey, My name is Jaz-James

    and I'm 17, im a very proud transgendered guy but i find sometimes that i struggle to cope with the complications that come with this. Ive always known i was trans, but it seems sometimes that no one seems to understand, i dont know any other trans people and we like to meet...
    JazJames JazJames 18-21, T 5 Responses Feb 12, 2014

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    does anyone agree that it really sucks

    when ur ready to move forward with your transitions but lack of money stalls progress......
    karisasam karisasam 31-35, F 4 Responses Apr 19, 2015

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    A letter to my mom. I'm

    so tired of trying to hide. All of my life, I've had to hide. What I mean by this is all of my life, I've wanted to be a boy. I can remember crying to myself and bed at night praying to God that he would make me a boy. But things don't happen that way. I couldn't be a boy. But...
    oliviairene47 oliviairene47 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 31, 2014

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    Two things in one experience today: 1.

    I'm part of a therapy group once a week, and today all I could think about was coming out to the others. I felt confident, strong and ready to finally say the words out loud. But I couldn't. I have no idea what happened, and it frustrates me so dang much! If I knew why I...
    WhereIsMyBeard WhereIsMyBeard 26-30, T 3 Responses Nov 25, 2015

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    daveless daveless 16-17, T Jan 3

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    I just had the most interesting convo with my

    married female roommate...about ftm trans to gay man benefits...I was like...umm would your hubby support your transition?? Lol I'm getting closer to coming out for realz...
    napanda69 napanda69 51-55, T 1 Response Nov 24, 2015

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    duhwellman duhwellman 22-25, M Nov 5, 2015

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    hi! I'm Everett, I'm ftm,

    16, pansexual, and looking for new friends ^~^ add me if you want!
    littleone212 littleone212 16-17, T Dec 2, 2015

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    So, I slept for a bit,

    and then woke up around midnight, and decided that although I've been hiding in my dorm room for about two weeks that I needed to get up and write something. So, I went out to the little window seats we have around my dorm and sat down. I have homework I should be doing, but...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming 18-21, T 2 Responses Oct 12, 2015

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    I'm new to my thoughts.

    I've always known I was a guy. But I've finally realized I'm a guy on the inside and I love it. I'm going to chop off my hair. But I still need someone to talk to. Someone?
    oliviairene47 oliviairene47 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    So im going to cut my hair today.

    my mother is going to kill me but i hate my hair. i want itto go away so im taking matters into my own hands wish me luck
    JR1123 JR1123 16-17, T 2 Responses Jan 13

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    Finally got my binder on

    after struggling with getting it over my wide shoulders for MONTHS. I'm thrilled.... So thrilled I don't wanna take it off ugh. But I figured out how to get in on and now I can wear it every day~
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 2, 2015

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    Hello friends, my name is Daniel.

    I would like to tell you a story, a story about my life over the past four years or so. I moved to a new school in the middle of Freshmen year in High school, and was instantly set apart from other people and labeled the odd one out. Nearly a month after I had gotten fairly...
    DanielReedcaotl DanielReedcaotl 18-21, T 2 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    Myself

    About a year ago, I put together my feelings and realized I really felt more comfortable as a male, rather than a female. I changed my name from Annie to Andy, and have since felt more comfortable with people calling me by my name. However, many people at my school knew me as...
    KaaruChan KaaruChan 18-21, T 1 Response Feb 27, 2013

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    Just wishing you could hold my hand right now,

    Just wishing you were he,he,here right now. Just wishing you were re,ea,ea,real right now. Just wishing I could be there right now. Just wishing I could hold your hand right now. Not usually what I think of during the night, but on occasion I'll sing, in my awful voice...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming 18-21, T 1 Response Sep 12, 2015

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    Just wanted to stay that I am wearing a breast

    binder for the first time!!! Feels good
    yo805 yo805 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 3, 2015

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    I just got my hair cut!

    I was feeling pretty bad today. I don't own a binder yet so usually I just wear one or two sports bras and a loose fitting shirt. However, today I had to wear a padded bra as I couldnt find anything else and you could see my chest even with a loose jumper on. I was feeling...
    illuminatisweaters illuminatisweaters 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 16, 2015

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    I've always had issues with my gender identity;

    for the longest time, they remained repressed and unacknowledged until the trans movement came to the forefront of politics. I remember having qualms about what I exactly was since elementary school - of course, I only understood stereotypical gender roles at the time, and...
    toska777 toska777 18-21, T Oct 21, 2014

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    FTM I Am a Gay-male Identified Biologically-born Female

    I am a gay-male identified biologically-born female, a gay man trapped in a woman's body. I am sweet, funny, romantic, and caring. I'm romantically, erotically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually attracted to gay men and gay-male culture. I have no desire whatsoever to turn a gay...
    RomanticRunner RomanticRunner 46-50, T 43 Responses Oct 5, 2009

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    I'm looking for a ftm buddy.

    If interested message me
    GothicSkeleton GothicSkeleton 16-17, F 5 days ago

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