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I Am Fucked Up

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 281 People

    I've been through so many traumatic events the

    only way i even sleep anymore is if i pop a couple pills. can't purge anymore bc I'm in college and my roommate will freak, plus the walls are thin... that made me feel better. i need to be home i need to be skinny i need a perfect life. :(
    hypnoticz hypnoticz
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 8, 2014

    Yes I Am

    who isn't?we all are,just on different levels...living in denial, pretending to be someone else...that's ****** up!
    anotherclone anotherclone
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Feb 23, 2013

    Stuffy

    Im 21 now. I'm about 60kg, pretty average for a woman my age... Over the past 13 years off my life I've struggled with my sexuality, to give you my background; I was brought up in a home with a mother that had/still has Schizophrenia and Bipolar DIsorder and a father who was in...
    Stuffybear Stuffybear
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 7, 2012

    I was in 1st grade and my crush

    and some other guy opened the bathroom door and I was just sitting there in shock had this ever happened to you ?
    Bubbly1011 Bubbly1011
    36-40
    1 Response Jul 8, 2015

    And Now It Can Be Proven!

    I had an appointment with my job network member a few days ago, which is basically a job agency/career adviser type thing that is funded by the federal government. At the appointment I had a preliminary assessment of possible courses as to why I have had some difficulty finding...
    LordNothing LordNothing
    26-30, M
    Jan 29, 2011

    Lol!

    I just took more xanax than I've ever had in my life, and now I'm haivng wine too.  I needed it, I almost had a heart attack earlier.  I am still having chest pains.
    BellasHappyPlace BellasHappyPlace
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 25, 2009

    I truly believe that I am the definition of 50

    shades of ****** up. Maybe that's why no one but my best friend has ever loved me. The only one who's ever stuck around long enough to understand WHY. I get attached easily, I'm afraid of separation...but I push everyone away. I'm so sweet and I care too much...but I have the...
    ObviouslyAlex ObviouslyAlex
    18-21, F
    Dec 12, 2013

    My Life

    Alright, here's my life in a nut shell. I was born, I lived in apartment buildings with my mom working night shifts and dad doing whatever and who knows. I apparently gave a 100$ bill out to my friend whom I used to play with as a very small child (ages 0 - 4?), oh, and I also...
    Menasay Menasay
    22-25, F
    Nov 19, 2012

    I'M Screwed Up

    I need my dad off my back. I am really heartbroken. I think my dad thinks he is the only one to support me with school. I want to prove him wrong that I do not need his money to get me through with college. He has too many rules for me to follow in the house. Rules: I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jul 2, 2013

    a recluse who is so socially inept

    and forever maladjusted
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Nov 1, 2015

    my father never protected me,

    my mother never cared about me, all my life I have to be there for myself. I'm so sorry if I can't be happy for anyone, I am barely surviving the aftermath of my birth. God told me to not kill myself, the society tells me to get over it. But how can you fix a crushed soul? No...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Nov 1, 2015

    ...

    My name is Peter, I could be neater. I prefer to cover my eyes, To leave the darkness a surprise. My vices I must battle each day, But sooner or later I will pay. For with each time that I succumb, More deadened do I become. A choice I struggle to make, Whether or not my life to...
    TaintedSoul TaintedSoul
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Aug 10, 2012

    I wana be hurt forced

    and ******... That is all
    Goaskher Goaskher
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 21, 2014

    Help

    I know I'm ****** up , so does everyone I work with. I'm standoffish *******, I don't think I'm better than anyone else , but at the same time I find myself judging everyone around me. For what ? Idk. I want to be like able but don't know how.
    Rudyp Rudyp
    22-25, M
    May 31, 2012

    Inside And Out

    I look ****-d up, I act ****-d up, I AM ****-d up!! I've been called a selfish, calculating, evil, b¡tch so many times. I lived my life. I tried to work hard and kiss everyone's a$s. And it didn't work! Even strangers hate me! They know I'm no good! I've lead a terrible life and...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe
    22-25
    5 Responses Apr 18, 2011

    In Need Of Therapy

    I've always been a pretty okay person, I mean, I had my usual issues, like everyone else.But lately, everything has just been so messed up. I've always been a very touchy person. Huggy, cuddly, etc. And lately, I just don't want people touching me. I can't stand when someone hugs...
    UnderneathWhatYouSee UnderneathWhatYouSee
    18-21, F
    Dec 26, 2012

    Forever ******

    Everything about me is just wrong. I’ve been abused so much I think I’ve learned to not only expect it, but to enjoy it (to an extent). I’m constantly questioning other people’s motives. I’m constantly questioning myself. I scare myself. Oh well, life goes on...
    ephemeraldaemon ephemeraldaemon
    18-21, T
    1 Response Sep 11, 2011

    My love my boyfriend more

    than anything but today he got really mad at me. My ex that I don't even talk to decides to buy me a Michael kors bag and I told my boyfriend about it and I think he just got mad at the fact that my ex is still buying me things. If I could go back I wouldn't tell him at all but...
    PerfectlyImperfect02 PerfectlyImperfect02
    18-21, F
    3 Responses May 6, 2014

    Catch Up

    been a while since i have written anything. havent really had much to say. i am still strung out on meth and just recently got a heroin habit. not happy about it all. plan on taking these next couple of days off from work to get over the heroin. My friend who is like a dad to me...
    Darkfairygirl Darkfairygirl
    36-40, F
    Oct 22, 2013

    Sometimes I literally cannot control what I say.

    ..it just comes out and I pay for I later
    emeraldtriangle420 emeraldtriangle420
    26-30, F
    Feb 24, 2014

    ........

    F.U.B.A.R.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Dec 6, 2012
    Kasney Kasney
    18-21, F
    Mar 25, 2014

    I'm So Beyond ****** Up Right Now.

    I don't know what I'm feeling right now... But I'm shaking. I apparently have been putting faith in people that I shouldn't. I didn't actually think I was being ignored by friends. But found out otherwise today. Apparently whenever I have people I trust, and want in my life...
    Greeneyedandcurious Greeneyedandcurious
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Dec 28, 2012

    I just realized nothing

    and no one can save me from me...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Oct 23, 2015

    i have the most amazing boyfriend on the

    planet seriously he's incredible. and i dont deserve him. im self destructive and depressed and we live together i feel like im drowning , and hes trying to save me, but he doesnt know that him being so perfect, makes me drown even more. hes everything im not, kind, genuine...
    lookingformyself88 lookingformyself88
    18-21, F
    Jul 30, 2015

    Third Personality

    Well it happened again. My third personality came out yesterday. Its been awhile since that happened. I don't remember much from yesterday, especially when I was going nuts. I don't even know why I was so angry yesterday. Is it because Iam over slam, the needle? That could it. Is...
    Darkfairygirl Darkfairygirl
    36-40, F
    Sep 25, 2013

    sometimes i think ive been ****** up

    since that ******* day that ive married!living with a man is already disaster but with this ******* one is horrible i just want to be aloneeeeeee
    psh3146 psh3146
    26-30, F
    Apr 3, 2014

    Now I know most of it is all in my head,

    but still couldn't control it so I'm an incurable case?
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Apr 7, 2014

    Wtf

    I thought I liked a younger guy that I work with, but it turns out I completely misunderstood everything that he said, I just confronted him.....(i.e. he was speaking about some random other person) and now he knows I like him and I feel like a ******* moron!!! and I have to...
    thestarsalign thestarsalign
    22-25
    Apr 1, 2012

    I drink a lot and party a lot

    and **** a lot to escape my own reality. It's the only thing that gives me satisfaction.
    ghostnerd ghostnerd
    26-30, M
    1 Response Dec 14, 2013
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Oct 26, 2015

    ****** By Many Men.

    I am extreme hot horny ,extreme sexy col gl with a hot sexy curvy figure ,which I used to show to all to seduce all hot male to enjoy hard sex and for the reason I always wear too low waist jeans ,so that my pubic part and ***** hair will be some how little visible and small...
    lovly50789 lovly50789
    31-35, F
    1 Response May 9, 2012

    $%^&$%^&^%

    I want to write in this group but there is no point, what happened last time will repeat. I wont share myself..its frustrating not to...
    Floydian Floydian
    22-25, M
    3 Responses May 8, 2009

    Watch Me Dance

    Watch me and my girl dance for you live on camera $40 MSG for more info ;)
    lovesasha lovesasha
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 2, 2013

    i need to vent so ignore me

    if you must. i wish i could write all this down with pen and paper like i usually do but with the wrist pain ive been having its almost impossible. i cant stand having anxiety any longer. i cant take thinking people around me are thinking that im dumb because i have to think...
    tehkittehh tehkittehh
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 6, 2014

    i never have a best friend in my entire life.

    i always want a best friend who always there with me when i am happy or sad. but, what i got was all pain, just so much pain. the other people will never understand how it feels like because they do not know what best friend is and i do.
    sergiostoykov sergiostoykov
    18-21, M
    Apr 16

    if you're happy and you know it,

    shake your meds~~~~
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Oct 25, 2015

    ****** Up Situation

    I'm in a really ****** up situation. A few weeks ago I met a girl from an alternative lifestyle website. She was just coming up to her 18th birthday. I'm 42. This is totally legal in my state and she was advertising for older men. We met, we talked, we hugged, we went our...
    mrtexasguy mrtexasguy
    46-50, M
    3 Responses Jan 30, 2013

    What Did I Do Wrong In My Life That I Am The Person I Am In This Moment?

    What is wrong with me? I had this new years that was and experience for me, I had encounter with a guy (FTM) and we hit it off , would walk away from dance floor to go kiss and make-out. Days later we are chatting to each other and I am trying figure out for me who i am as...
    AcadStudent AcadStudent
    22-25
    1 Response Jan 4, 2012

    Hello Everyone Out There Its very frustrating

    when you come across your life situations and you need to decide something big which could change the life which once you planned ....the one you planned could be entirely different than the one which is going to be infront of you.... First in the school life itself my parents...
    Andrieke Andrieke
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Mar 25, 2014

    I knew it was wrong yet it seemed a little fun,

    Oh how exciting it would be to have a toy just as ****** up as me, I knew it would cost you everything and I was the only one to gain, But Hell with it i did It anyways, I deceived you with my beauty and made you feel alive, brought you into my evil world, that is filled with...
    stacycat27 stacycat27
    31-35, F
    1 Response May 5, 2014
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