I Am Full of Contradictions

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    I am no longer sure of anything.

    If I satiate my desires, I sin but I deliver myself from them; if I refuse to satisfy them, they infect the whole soul. -Jean Paul Satre
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    Oct 10, 2015

    I hate this uncertainty I have within me,

    its bringing me negative thoughts. I should never doubt myself or my skills. I should believe in myself that I'll do good and I deserve it. I don't want to be a disappointment.
    ImAlivingParadox ImAlivingParadox
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 22, 2016

    I see mushrooms grow in the ground

    and I say to myself .. That's effin gross. But I order them on my pizza all the time. Smh
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    Nov 11, 2015

    Varying Threads....

    I am currently working out these contradictions.  I know they exist, I know that I am extreme in some likes and dislikes and my contradictions are a result of impulsive behaviour on my part.  One of my goals should be to place a 'hmm' mentally in my mind before engaging...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Aug 8, 2008

    Desperate isolation tends to breed recklessness

    -- the building of inconsequential bridges and meaningless superficiality. I don't just burn these bridges; I destroy them in transit. I savor the taste of sweat as your skin boils beneath the flames -- the tender splash on my lips as it bubbles and peels -- and revel in the...
    SisterCyanide SisterCyanide
    26-30, T
    Mar 14, 2014

    You will always find refuge

    and insecurity in the same object. Why do we eagerly and naively hide in what will pull us backwards? What's it so joyful about joy where through countless layers suspicion of fall prosper. For what reason do these countless layers appear to exist if not for the sake of lyricism...
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    1 Response Aug 12, 2015

    Me too, I am drawn to things I don't like,

    like forced, such as when I drive by the cal-de-sac and I look to see if there are cars (druggies or sketchy people) down there, even though I don't want to. I have sexual urges, but I don't want someone just for sex. I'm actually a virgin and saving it for someone special. I...
    4EverBlissful 4EverBlissful
    26-30, F
    Jun 12, 2014
    lifesize lifesize
    22-25, F
    Apr 15, 2014

    Aren't We All?

    It seems to me that all humans are full of contradictions.  I am contradictory in that I smoke cigarettes, have a long history with drugs and alcohol, yet I am into health and fitness, work out often, do yoga, eat pretty healthy, read and learn about health, etc.  ...
    ReformedAutomaton ReformedAutomaton
    41-45, M
    4 Responses Dec 2, 2007

    I have nothing you need.

    I may yell don't yell, tell you to brush your teeth then not brush mine, say ask questions then say why did you ask that...ya know I'm human.
    Nuancecomm Nuancecomm
    31-35, F
    Mar 13, 2016

    'bout Time I Wrote This Down

    I do admit to having my own internal contradictions, but what exactly those contradictions are is a harder question. Often I think people demonstrate their own contradictions with their thoughts, opinions, goals, without really realizing it or being capable of realizing it...
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    Sep 6, 2011
    chris7379 chris7379
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Mar 16, 2016

    I suppose I have a bit of central guide,

    kind of the nucleus of an atom, but other than that I am mostly like the electrons, flying everywhere and all over the place out of control.
    QueenVen QueenVen
    18-21, F
    Jan 21, 2016

    Should I go on a wearisome,

    surpressing, fatal striving or scatter myself by being carried away of flood gently savouring of fatality. Who knows which option shall be the last one.
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    Oct 10, 2015

    just looking through my groups here on ep.

    .. lol. lol. lol. it's crazy how you are one person with contradicting personalities within you. well i guess all of us are paradoxes on our own ways. lol :D sigh
    elysium9527 elysium9527
    22-25, F
    Dec 3, 2015

    Aren't We All?

    I've always found this very interesting...how most human beings operate with opposite extremes of the same thing. For example, I was born in an island but LOVE snow...I appear to be a very social being but in reality, I'm a loner...I cannot tolerate animal or child abuse...
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    4 Responses Jul 6, 2009

    carefreelifelover1326 has multiple personalities

    and it is difficult for him to keep track of them all.
    carefreelifelover1326 carefreelifelover1326
    31-35, M
    Dec 25, 2013

    She is a paradox, she is faithful

    and yet detached. She is committed and yet relaxed. She loves everyone and yet no one. She is social but also a loner. She is gentle and yet tough. She is passionate but can also be platonic. In short, she is predictable in her unpredictability....
    beautifullybroken29 beautifullybroken29
    31-35, F
    Nov 24, 2015

    Me In a Nutshell(help I'm In a Nutshell and Can't Get Out)

    yes i am for instance     * i was raised in the midwest, therefore i love nascar like any good redneck should, and i love rap and boom it everywhere i go.  i often wonder what people think when i drive around in my car with nascar stickers all over and my...
    Trinity76 Trinity76
    2 Responses Feb 2, 2008

    I love things being organized

    but my room is a disaster. I think grades are really important but I don't put as much work into them as I should. I can't stand "typical teenager things" but I still love hashtags and pop music. I encourage others, but I'm a sad person myself. I give relationship advice even...
    Rachel335 Rachel335
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 17, 2016

    I love girls who love anime

    but I hate anime myself..
    akaShaun akaShaun
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Aug 2, 2015

    I Want This But I Dont Want That

    For instance i want a relationship but yet i dont want to let my emotions out ... yet i yearn for someone to really know me . I want to quit smoking ...Yet i dont want to .I think its just a weeding process for me to decide what i really want in my life . I want to be positive...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 25, 2008

    i am afraid to passing through future.

    .. so much contradictions, its hard to move... its hard to walk.. what should i do? moreover, anytime i talk to people, just few people can understand... i am trapped...!!! cannot tell anybody...
    Aeicesky7 Aeicesky7
    22-25, M
    Jul 11, 2015

    Damned If I Do, Damned If I Don't (Self Inflicted)...

    I don't know how to deal with it. I have a constant battle inside my head that seems to never let me go and just allow me to be happy... Last night my sisters friend came over (I live with my sister) and we were all just chilling on the couch watching TV. Just before my sister...
    itsallaparadox itsallaparadox
    26-30, M
    1 Response Oct 22, 2013

    A Living, Breathing Contradiction

    I love you. I hate you. You fill my body with pleasure and my heart with pain, my mind with numbness. I long for your touch, but I'm repelled by your hand. I need to be held, but I want to be alone. I laugh and I cry....all for you. I keep falling in love, and then standing...
    LG76 LG76
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Apr 12, 2013

    Not Sure Its Contradictions Or Different Masks

    Not sure if I am full of contradictions or just have different masks for social/work as opposed to the time I am with friends or alone - maybe its both :-)  Seeming full of confidence at work, nothing gets me down  - or so I get told my co-workers, not me at home though...
    Calia Calia
    46-50, F
    1 Response Jul 6, 2009

    Last night for dinner my mom

    who died back in 81' made Jumbo shrimp for tomorrow for lunch. Next week...I'm supposed to get a call from my best friend who will be in Hawaii. He's coming in from Boston that day to show me how build a deck on my house. Now my one bedroom apartment in NYC is cozy...but it's...
    Pilotbob75 Pilotbob75
    41-45, M
    1 Response Sep 27, 2015

    "When I don't know, people treat me like a

    fool. When I do know, the knowledge gets me into trouble. When I fail to do good, I hurt others. When I do good, I hurt myself. If I avoid my duty, I am remiss, But if I do it, I am ruined. How can I get out of these contradictions?" -Chuang Tzu
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    Aug 1, 2015

    I Go By Extremes

    I am always perplexed by my contradictions, they send me in two directions at the same time, sort invalidating both and making both feel wrong.   I'd really like to buy a house but I don't want to get stuck in a lifestyle. I want to have sex in fantasy but in reality...
    eelarc eelarc
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Feb 13, 2010

    Definitly Yes, Except More Of A No

    I never contradict myself, except for when I do. I simply can't abide a lie, except for when it's true. There's no place that I'd rather be, except where I've not gone. In arguments I'm always right, except for when I'm wrong. I absolutely love the sun, except for...
    FordPrefect42 FordPrefect42
    41-45, M
    6 Responses Apr 22, 2010
    awfullyscaredofeverything awfullyscaredofeverything
    22-25, F
    Oct 14, 2015

    Always But Not

    A friend you could say would always tell me I'm contradicting myself. I geuss now that I notice it I am and I never knew it would bother people to much. Because everyone contradicts themselves sometimes right? Anyway, most of the time I would say like something really ridiculous...
    LeeAnonymous LeeAnonymous
    Jan 8, 2011
    azurerush azurerush
    22-25, F
    Jan 21, 2016

    I Am Myself, Yet I Am Myself.

    I love my life, yet I harbor a certain hatred for it.I am an optimist, yet quite pessimistic.I am easygoing, yet relatively grumpy.I am kind, yet unkind.I am quite open and honest, yet I do make lies.I am impulsive, yet so heavily reliant on stability.I am calm and relaxed, yet...
    PirateMonkeyCabinet PirateMonkeyCabinet
    1 Response Apr 18, 2013

    What a contradiction are those moments

    when you're both completely honest and lacking of feeling that you are honest. I would tell, the sky is blue, but I will not believe in such statement.
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    Oct 7, 2015

    I Am While I Am Not

    I like to be that way ;)....
    XxJamberxX XxJamberxX
    18-21, F
    Jun 19, 2010
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