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I Am Going Into Meltdown

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    Last Friday Night I Crashed And Burned....and Then Rose From The Ashes On Sunday

    I had a total meltdown last Friday night. I get so lonely sometimes that I feel like I am going to explode if I don't get to spend time with someone other than a co-worker or a family member. I played with fire and my bipolar disorder and took a couple Ambien with no intention of...
    greenlionburning greenlionburning 41-45 2 Responses Sep 26, 2011

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    Sooo I have two days left and then Im on the plane - spending a week in the city working at my new job, trying to orientate the staff before I head home again to tie off the loose ends for a couple of weeks before back down to start officially. I had organised to stay with a...
    jellibeanz jellibeanz 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 17, 2011

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    Sooner Or Later

    I feel incredibly unstable lately. I'm wondering how long it will actually be before it overwhelms me. Could be tomorrow, could be 5 years from now for all I know. I've also become surprisingly resiliant to my everyday stressors, but even that has its limits... Normally I'd...
    Emptysoul30 Emptysoul30 22-25, M 5 Responses May 14, 2010

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    I Certainly Did Today

    When I got that letter saying he didn't want to talk to me anymore, I just went numb. I managed to eat part of a cinnamon bun and some coffee, then went back to bed. My stomach hurt. I've been in bed all day and evening. After a while, it starts to mess with my head, then I get...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses May 14, 2010

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    Where Did Everybody Go????

    I am losing my mind, I really believe I am. Everything has gone wrong, I can't find anybody. I',m a  babyboomer who realizes she's wasted her life, andeven tho I'm marrired, with one just grown son, I am all alone. All they do is control me. I don't understand how the whole...
    BCBoomer58 BCBoomer58 56-60, F 8 Responses Feb 17, 2012

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    Even my own therapist says this. It started in 2007 when I was 24 but didnt really kick in majority until this yr. (im 31 now) Its like damnit am I ever going to find myself and...
    wickedlilangel69 wickedlilangel69 31-35, F 6 hrs ago

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    In 2010 my 23 year old brother died unexpectadly, in 2011 I got let go from my job, in 2012 after not being supportive at all my husband left me. I found out he hAd been cheating...
    RainStorm19 RainStorm19 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 4

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    I enjoy going commando whenever I possibly can during the warm days of late spring and early autumn. The feeling of doing so is so natural yet so naughty at the same time. Usually...
    JQuest75 JQuest75 31-35, M a week ago

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    I enjoy going commando whenever I possibly can during the warm days of late spring and early autumn. The feeling of doing so is so natural yet so naughty at the same time. Usually...
    JQuest75 JQuest75 31-35, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I enjoy going commando whenever I possibly can during the warm days of late spring and early autumn. The feeling of doing so is so natural yet so naughty at the same time. Usually...
    JQuest75 JQuest75 31-35, M a week ago

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    I enjoy going commando whenever I possibly can during the warm days of late spring and early autumn. The feeling of doing so is so natural yet so naughty at the same time. Usually...
    JQuest75 JQuest75 31-35, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I got one for everyone. So I bought a straitjacket. I was working out of town and while I was there I decided to try it out. Unfortunately I was alone at the time and didn't...
    Photogeek47 Photogeek47 26-30, M 8 Responses Nov 30

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    I thought I wrote this here before, but I guess I was mistaken. It’s probably buried somewhere on my hard drive. Either way, it's on my mind and I'm going to write about it again...
    GiantKaiju GiantKaiju 22-25, M Dec 8

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    id be lying if I said I've changed my life around for the better since my last post. In fact, I've done just the opposite. every month seems to end up worst than the last. if it's...
    addictionbarbie addictionbarbie 18-21, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    Ok, just ran into my ex that couldn't commit. Haven't seen him in little over two weeks. Since the day he ended it. We've only talked twice via txt. Ok, the day he said couldn't...
    rhae963 rhae963 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 26

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    Ughhh...Christmas cookies triggered so much saddness today. We used to do advent, bake Xmas cookies,then bring them to our neighbours caroling & singing. First Xmas separated and...
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 3 Responses Dec 4

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    4 weeks ago on Saturday I decided to bring up to my boyfriend of 2 1/2 years the fact that he likes to drink and because he is so young I was worried it would turn into alcoholism...
    groomer1210 groomer1210 18-21, F Dec 8

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    You cannot imagine how happy I am to find out there are other people with similar unexplainable experiences! Ever since I moved into the house I currently live in I have (for lack...
    Xaviaral Xaviaral 61-65, F 1 Response Dec 3

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    I'm working hard on getting back in shape after some medical issues that kept me from going to the gym.It was a very hard beginning to get back into it.I'm now in a good place...
    AfanOfbigNaturals AfanOfbigNaturals 41-45, M Dec 7

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    It's a last minute inspiration. Thanks to a great fanfic im reading but it kind of answered my silent scream. I'm not sure why I'm going to write it, nor why I'm almost afraid...
    Ic3Queen Ic3Queen 22-25, F Dec 16

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    Not all the time, but often enough. Seeing as I still live in the general area I grew up in as a child, it’s really inevitable I’m going to bump into people I knew from the...
    morea morea 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Day 35: Larceny Inc. ,1942 starring EG Robinson, an incredibly hilarious gangster spoof. Three ex-convicts buy a luggage shop and try to dig their way into a bank that just...
    johnny048 johnny048 46-50, M Nov 28

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    I dreamt this many years ago, but it's stuck with me all these years. It felt so much like my home. I don't know if I'll ever actually live in a house like it, but I hope to. As...
    JJjenniejones JJjenniejones 41-45, F Nov 30

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    Many years ago, in my heavy drinking days, we had a place we liked to frequent which I’ll call the Fish. Anyway we were celebrating something, I think it was my scuba...
    dave6879 dave6879 41-45, M 1 Response Dec 3

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    Day 3: Honeymoon in Vegas This movie is similar to City Slickers because it's a comedy about how an adult, a man, overcomes a internal conflict to realize a milestone in his...
    WarmGoldenHeart WarmGoldenHeart 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 3

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    Lets be honest there is alot of racial hypocrisy from both blacks and whites. Yes There is still racism in this world its sad and trifling but its not just the whites being bigots...
    BurningFist BurningFist 22-25, M 4 Responses Dec 4

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    EP made me 70 pounds fatter. When I first came to EP, I was around 125 pounds. I got hooked on this feederism thing, and I'm now 195 pounds and gaining more and more weight every...
    CupcakeFatty CupcakeFatty 18-21, T 16 Responses Dec 5

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    I am planning on moving into a Luxe student apartment in the Fall of 2015. Right now I am planning everything that I am going to do to it. I feel like this might be a little too...
    CaptainMT CaptainMT 18-21, F Dec 8

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    Going out is a hassle and 9/10 times it leaves me dissatisfied. Went to hang out with a friend's house. The first time in months I'd gone somewhere aside from home after school...
    pancaekes pancaekes 13-15, F Dec 10

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    I miss being happy. my parents don't get along anymore. they are both always so negative and depressed. my mom just cries and complains all day and my dad is just grumpy. they get...
    taylormorgan2113 taylormorgan2113 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 10

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    My step dad and step mom have been out of town for about a week on their honey moon. My siblings and I have been staying with my step uncle and step aunt. Last night my friends and...
    Lexikay99 Lexikay99 18-21, F 9 Responses Dec 13

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    The Philbrook Museum in Tulsa has its Second Saturday every month in which admission is free and it has other events going on during the day. I've only been a few times and it has...
    CinimonGypsy CinimonGypsy 41-45 Dec 14

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    If you wish to shed the extra pounds, you must eat healthier in order to lose that weight efficiently. This article is designed to provide you advice on how you're going to be able...
    waypuma73 waypuma73 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 15

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    I just like to be out and about in the world around me, with my friends having a good time. Doesn't matter what we do, it's just pure fun. Maybe that's why I like cross country so...
    sblp2017 sblp2017 18-21, M Dec 15

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    I spent the whole day crossdressed in public today. Well not the whole day since I didn't leave the house till 1:30. I started out by going and playing bingo, which I do every...
    Michelle1976 Michelle1976 36-40, T 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I have to I'm sick of being unhappy and dealing with/living with/ helping people who don't give a crap about me. I'm not where I was last year and therefore I don't wish to be in...
    newasexy newasexy 26-30, F Nov 26

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    I'm turning 30 next week I see people pitty me because I'm single I feel pressure to marry have kids I don't want to do it till it feels right.I don't want to be a statistic...
    Confused848 Confused848 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 30

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    I AM HAPPY TODAY. I know. I know that it sounds ridiculous giving a measurement, some sort of time element into something inwardly special. Being happy is a gift that is worth your...
    PsychjiLL PsychjiLL 22-25 2 Responses Nov 30

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    Monday morning....Dreading the thought of having to go back in to work. I already had 2 meetings that I knew of for the day plus a lunch date with some old friends both to catch up...
    AthenaJones AthenaJones 36-40, F 32 Responses Dec 1

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    I am a master. Have been for going on 5 years now. I am looking for a new sub. My requirements are must be ok with online. Must be ok sharing photos. Work up to on the phone. Body...
    Cloudwolf1313 Cloudwolf1313 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 3

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    I've been kind of miserable for the last two months. I kept blowing off my crappy mood and tried to focus more on the times when I was happy. And I really was happy, only the bad...
    Friability Friability 18-21 1 Response Dec 6

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    When I was around 8 years old, my grandpa died. I was really close to him & loved him immensely. We went to his funeral...all of my cousins were there as well. During the...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F Dec 7

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    I wonder where you go. I wake up, and you're not there. You're not in my house. You're not in my town. Are you even in my part of the country? You've smoothly removed yourself from...
    Colourfi Colourfi 13-15, F Dec 10

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    My sister was born in a guy's body. She just came out recently. I am really happy that she came out and all, but I also worry a lot about how other people treat her outside of the...
    mcus mcus 13-15, M Dec 10

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    What's currently bothering me is the fact that I have to wash my makeup off before I can get into my bed and sleep. That is all. I don't even wanna get up y'all! ;(
    jerzshorecoll21 jerzshorecoll21 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 11

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    Day 52: One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest, 1975, a classic starring Jack Nicholson and Louise Fletcher. McMurphy (Nicholson) gets transferred from a prison farm into a mental...
    johnny048 johnny048 46-50, M Dec 15