I Am Going Into Meltdown

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 35 People

    I always feel autistic

    for going into a meltdown :( I scream, yell, kick, hit myself... I wish I could be a normal 18 year old. Why can't meltdowns be controllable 😒
    PsychotixLeon PsychotixLeon
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 24, 2015

    Insert Swear Words Here

    Sooo I have two days left and then Im on the plane - spending a week in the city working at my new job, trying to orientate the staff before I head home again to tie off the loose ends for a couple of weeks before back down to start officially. I had organised to stay with a...
    jellibeanz jellibeanz
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Sep 17, 2011

    Last Friday Night I Crashed And Burned....and Then Rose From The Ashes On Sunday

    I had a total meltdown last Friday night. I get so lonely sometimes that I feel like I am going to explode if I don't get to spend time with someone other than a co-worker or a family member. I played with fire and my bipolar disorder and took a couple Ambien with no intention of...
    greenlionburning greenlionburning
    41-45
    1 Response Sep 26, 2011

    I Certainly Did Today

    When I got that letter saying he didn't want to talk to me anymore, I just went numb. I managed to eat part of a cinnamon bun and some coffee, then went back to bed. My stomach hurt. I've been in bed all day and evening. After a while, it starts to mess with my head, then I get...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses May 14, 2010

    Where Did Everybody Go????

    I am losing my mind, I really believe I am. Everything has gone wrong, I can't find anybody. I',m a  babyboomer who realizes she's wasted her life, andeven tho I'm marrired, with one just grown son, I am all alone. All they do is control me. I don't understand how the whole...
    BCBoomer58 BCBoomer58
    56-60, F
    8 Responses Feb 17, 2012

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