I Am Going to Beat My Depression

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    Day 6 And 7

    I had a crushing blow on saturday night. I worked up the courage to message the guy i like to see what he was up to and guess what?? No reply! that was a big, big thing for me to do too and the rejection hurt. Just something to add to my list of why i hate myself so...
    muffintop muffintop
    22-25, F
    Apr 4, 2010

    A New Start

    I've struggled with depression for some years now, and slowly it's getting better. I feel like getting over depression isn't a steady incline- it's up, then down a little, then up a little more, then down a bit where the overall result is that I've gotten better but everyday...
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    26-30
    1 Response Mar 2, 2009

    Day 8 And 9

    Sink or swim. One day at a time. That is my mantra. I get so anxious thinking about the future and so depressed looking back on the past that I forget about the here and now. It's like the present has become a sort of limbo where I'm neither here nor there, wishing that I...
    muffintop muffintop
    22-25, F
    Apr 6, 2010

    Day 11

    Yay! a pretty good day overall...no I didn't communicate with anyone or make any friends or do something spontaneous or outside of the norm....it was just a calm, stable, fairly routined day- I enjoyed my lectures at uni, I didn't feel fatigued or excessively tired...
    muffintop muffintop
    22-25, F
    Apr 14, 2010

    Day 1 ..

    Day 1 was a hard hard day. The only thing I was able to do was to roll out of bed to eat. And eat. And eat some more. I can't stop eating.. It didn't help that the night before I had a fight with my guy. Because we had a small argument, the whole day I sat around hoping that I...
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    26-30
    1 Response Mar 4, 2009

    Day 3

    Today was better than yesterday which is a positive thing. I was able to concentrate in class and even though the bad thoughts are still circulating they were manageable today. Baby steps. I still have a long way to go. Every action I take is forced and conscious...
    muffintop muffintop
    22-25, F
    Mar 31, 2010

    29th April

    Decided just to date my entries as I haven't been consistent enough to write everyday. Yes life sucks. Yes everything is hard for me and it sucks. No I dont have any social support, or interests or attachment to anything really. I am just an aimless, floating nobody. But I am...
    muffintop muffintop
    22-25, F
    Apr 28, 2010

    Today......

    I want to quit. I'm so sick of this.................... I AM SO SICK OF IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
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    26-30
    4 Responses Mar 8, 2009

    Day 10-15

    Been preoccupied and have forgotten to write. Went on a short holiday with three girls from thurs-sun. It's interesting to notice how I've changed in my interactions with people- i no longer make an effort to be friendly or impress- I'm ultra mellow and I think I like that...
    muffintop muffintop
    22-25, F
    Apr 13, 2010

    Day 4 And 5

    I have been lazy in keeping up with the journal entries. But in my defence I went out Thursday night, got drunk, took a pill, got a tattoo in an act of spontaneity and had some crazy intense d&ms with two amazing individuals who are still plagued with their childhood demons. I...
    muffintop muffintop
    22-25, F
    Apr 2, 2010
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