I Am Going To Do It Just Because I Want To

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    The REAL Reason EP is Closing Down: Death of an Orphan There are multiple factors that have brought us to the point where EP is closing down. I think the most important factor is...
    conceptualclarity conceptualclarity
    51-55, M
    4 Responses Apr 21
    Since today is the last day of being able to post for the foreseeable future, I thought I should let everybody know a few things about me. 1) I love the great outdoors. I could...
    HaleyAnnabelle HaleyAnnabelle
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 20
    Ok well... I don't know from when.. But it kinda started when I was bullied by kids when I was in 3rd grade primary school. I was 7 years old at the time and always the youngest in...
    imveryhungry imveryhungry
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 20
    Codependency - Will I ever move on? I was told by my therapist I need an outlet so here it is.. I don't know what to do. I feel like I have complete control of myself and at the...
    HardyHar47 HardyHar47
    18-21, M
    Apr 20
    So, I'm thinking this might be my last experience to write on EP. I made my account after deleting Facebook. I just wanted that outlet. When I look back to the day I first made...
    ExploreroftheUnknown ExploreroftheUnknown
    18-21, M
    Apr 19
    Just because I'm used to everyone leaving me, doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. Just because I laugh, doesn't mean I'm happy. Just because I'm having suicidal thoughts, doesn't mean I...
    wherehorizonsmeet wherehorizonsmeet
    18-21, F
    Apr 19
    I'm going to take some time to reflect today. I'm at a point where I question what I'm "studying" is really what I want to do for a "career". And yet, I feel hesitant jumping ship...
    Nick8876 Nick8876
    18-21, M
    Apr 18
    ok, I never thought of posting this but since ep is closing I thought it would help It was two years ago that this happened, but it started much before that, a friend of mine. in...
    guiltyofinnocence guiltyofinnocence
    18-21, T
    2 Responses Apr 18
    This is gonna be a pretty long rant, sorry. You have been warned though. I'm 22, about to turn 23 in a couple of months, and I feel like I'm completely lost. I'm living with my...
    cyberwhat cyberwhat
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 18
    1. What is your name? You may call me by "Sydney". 2. How old are you? 13-15. Just to keep myself a little bit mysterious, you know? 3. Are you sure? ... I was a second ago!! D: 4...
    CherryJelly CherryJelly
    13-15, F
    Apr 16
    i can't type 100 but i will try some i'm having groomy sunday morning my breakfast helps to start my day but i wanna pass out and need to sleep 10 hours(basically 6 or less) we...
    genjiipiexx genjiipiexx
    31-35, F
    Apr 16
    I want friends. I don't want a lot. Just a few. Two or three really good friends who aren't the extremely outgoing type that randomly shout stuff in a crowded room to remind people...
    Nineismyname Nineismyname
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 16
    Well, I have returned. Why ? Because since I heard the news of EP shutting down I knew I have to come here one more time to take a stroll down the memory lane before it's too...
    PhoenixTearz PhoenixTearz
    31-35, M
    Apr 16
    I ALWAYS ASK MYSELF ABOUT FRIENDSHIP AND THE REALITY….I KNOW I CAN’T BE A GOOD FRIEND BUT I CAN’T SAY THAT I’M YOUR FRIEND BECAUSE SOMETIME I FEEL THAT WHEN I SEE PEOPLE...
    IqbalStyles IqbalStyles
    18-21, M
    Apr 15
    I'm very sad and I really hate myself. Everyday I wake up and I don't have a purpose. I don't know what to do with myself. I don't really have friend's and even when I'm with...
    tlmboo tlmboo
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 15
    How to tell my pastor parents that I don't really believe in God anymore? (with facts about the holes in the bible but with love)? My dad is the pastor and my mom is the co-pastor...
    DespicableTruth DespicableTruth
    22-25, F
    Apr 13
    I have been married nearly 8 yrs & I don't know if staying anymore is right for me. This has not been a perfect marriage and once upon a time I was so in love with my husband. He...
    El04 El04
    31-35, F
    6 Responses Apr 13
    I have been married nearly 8 yrs & I don't know if staying anymore is right for me. This has not been a perfect marriage and once upon a time I was so in love with my husband. He...
    El04 El04
    31-35, F
    Apr 13
    I have been married nearly 8 yrs & I don't know if staying anymore is right for me. This has not been a perfect marriage and once upon a time I was so in love with my husband. He...
    El04 El04
    31-35, F
    Apr 13
    I have been married nearly 8 yrs & I don't know if staying anymore is right for me. This has not been a perfect marriage and once upon a time I was so in love with my husband. He...
    El04 El04
    31-35, F
    Apr 13
    So I see people are trying to post more experiences and let more things off their chest and telling their stories before EP closes. So I decided, hey, I might as well join the...
    jaeger053 jaeger053
    16-17
    Apr 12
    I'm so bored right now I'm going to do this. 1) I am Chinese but I don't speak the language #dishonouronmyfamily 2) I tend to overthink things, which is why posts like these are...
    VioletVivid VioletVivid
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 12
    Though I haven't always been a regular here I had come to feel that whenever I had the time to visit here, it was always here. No it's going to be no more :(...I will, however, be...
    Xlandria61 Xlandria61
    61-65, F
    Apr 11
    Wow, I rarely get on this site ever since me and my ex broke up. I found this site 4 years ago. And I loved it... Because I didn't want to go running off talking to someone else...
    wendysosa wendysosa
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 11
    So it's nearing the end of day 2. I had an okay day today, I would feel sad for a while and then something would cheer me back up again, like the moth, the cute puppy named Jesse...
    dearonedaya dearonedaya
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 11
    I don't believe in going down to someone's genitals if we are not engaged or married that's just how I view others may not their do it because their like it no judgement but this...
    LucidxxShivery LucidxxShivery
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 10
    Hi everyone I've decided to leave and start a new life I hope it works out, if you've ever wanted to do this but you feel like you just can't then here I am doing it on your behalf...
    dearonedaya dearonedaya
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 10
    Ok so I needed to go toilet like really really bad so I went to the servo and I was like hi excuse me can I please use the toilet and he was like ummm I don't usually let anyone...
    dearonedaya dearonedaya
    22-25, F
    Apr 10
    I was thinking earlier about the way I always try to stay positive, and try to find ways to navigate the dark maze in my mind... Why do I still keep trying? Why do I even bother...
    VioletVivid VioletVivid
    26-30
    2 Responses Apr 10
    DISCLAIMER: I am dramatic and deep, so if your dramatic and deep like me please read on. I know I've heard it said a million times that I am free, that we are free, but am I...
    dearonedaya dearonedaya
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Apr 10
    We've been going out for about 5 months. Its been great and I love her. I should be happy and excited by this right? The only problem is that Im not sexually attracted to her but I...
    steviemac95 steviemac95
    18-21, M
    Apr 9
    Another weekend of hell is upon me and I honestly don't think I can take one more day. It is now 630am and I got 2 hours of sleep last night. I was rudely awoke at 330am because my...
    princesskitu princesskitu
    51-55, F
    Apr 9
    I made my account to share my story because reading these helps and I want that closure I never got for someone else. So my ex of 4 years (we dated the entire time in high school...
    Jadebroken Jadebroken
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 9
    It's hard not to. I'm split into so many parts. So many thoughts and emotions that feel like they shouldn't be mine. But it's more than that, no one sees the things I do in music...
    justbnatural justbnatural
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 8
    My boyfriend and I fought for 2 or 3 months because I suspected he was cheating when I noticed he started acting differently. It upset me because we shared a love that was...
    CMC93 CMC93
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 8
    Has anyone here ever dropped everything in their lives and just left? I'm feeling an overwhelming need to do this lately but I have some major road blocks. 1. (Most important to...
    ACWK226 ACWK226
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Apr 8
    The only man to have touched me in the last year has been the trainer at the gym. I don't do anything fancy, I just discovered the free classes that no one takes advantage of and I...
    ijustneed2talk ijustneed2talk
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Apr 7
    I'm going to propose to my boyfriend in May :D The woman proposing seems a little backwards, but I've thought about it a lot and I've concluded that it's good for us ^^ We know...
    anniechan anniechan
    18-21, F
    Apr 7
    The winds of change! They are blowing and continuing! What a wonderous fate befalls me, and oh how eager I am to receive it! Enough of that, but seriously, WOW! I'm super...
    Nateindenver Nateindenver
    31-35, M
    1 Response Apr 7
    Like many, I came across Experience Project when I needed it most. It was a time in my life when everything had been going wrong and I felt completely alienated from everyone in my...
    KnightBlade KnightBlade
    36-40, M
    1 Response Apr 7
    My boyfriend broke up with me. I have had a difficult life, struggled with horrible depression and anxiety sense the age of 6years old, when i first started being addressed, as I...
    anonlovely anonlovely
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 6
    mai rahoon ya na rahoon..of armaan malik..just reminded me of those nights when it was on repeat mode..it made me cry so much. .for nothing though. .he is not here today. .n I have...
    BrokenSB BrokenSB
    22-25, F
    Apr 6
    OPEN HEAVENS FELLOWSHIP DAILY DEVOTION THE NEW CREATION IS THE ADDRESS OF GOD ON EARTH 2 Corinthians 6:16 And what agreement hath the temple of God with idols? for ye are the...
    ganyoji ganyoji
    22-25, F
    Apr 5
    When I met my husband he had just been separated because he had a lot of problems with his couple, she was a cheater, there where a lot of domestic violence against him since there...
    Joviss Joviss
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Apr 5
    Right now. My spring break is officially over. I'm literally in the car, on my way to school. I'm excited to go because I like it...but I'm going to miss being at home and doing...
    Hannah1100 Hannah1100
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 5
    my baby fever is at an all-time high and my relationship is at an all-time low... we work different shifts and never get to see each other, we started fighting more than normal. my...
    4lynlover 4lynlover
    22-25
    1 Response Apr 5
    I thought that going to school and getting good grades was how I could be successful and happy. I thought I would be an academic success, get a degree, and find a steady job. I was...
    Lukas2727 Lukas2727
    22-25
    Apr 4
    I am looking for a great friend. I've had friends but they all seems to have went beyond the repair of friendship. Some I have even ignored their faults or told them what they were...
    NeedaGreatFriend NeedaGreatFriend
    31-35, F
    14 Responses Apr 4
    I don't think I'll ever get to know what being okay feels like anymore. Everyday is a battle for me just to wake up. Eating is a goal, going to work is a goal, going to the...
    QueenxChance QueenxChance
    18-21, F
    Apr 2
    They didn't want to post this because I used a word which meant pleasuring myself. So I'll remove the word. Going out with friends dancing, and trolling for the first time since...
    Mcinacann Mcinacann
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Apr 2
    A year and a half into this love thing and we've grown to become so attached to each other (obv not physically) when something is bothering him or if he's going through something...
    MickxLove MickxLove
    18-21, F
    Apr 2
    [Don't you DARE take this rant the wrong way you perverts out there, I know you're here...] Geez, I hate being female. I love flannel with my heart and soul, but the buttons never...
    EridianaAndErin EridianaAndErin
    13-15, F
    1 Response Mar 31
    finally a gloomy rainy day and I feel soooo calm and my God does I feel good.... I'm being lazy watching love and hip hop Atlanta marathon watching miss ollianna play I'm not over...
    Brokenwingz1986 Brokenwingz1986
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 31
    I'm worried about my friend.. not realy sure if shes my friend anymore... she got detention bcz of one of my other friends. she was so mad. told me she was never going to be...
    kiwigirl2021 kiwigirl2021
    13-15, F
    1 Response Mar 30
    As many of you don't know me, the real me. But for those of you who actually read through my mile long posts I want to thank you. You have taken the time to read through my profile...
    FieryWolf FieryWolf
    16-17, F
    Mar 30
    I'm sad that this is probably my very last post here on ep.I can't believe it is closing.I didn't expect to be this sad about it.I guess the reason I'm so upset is because I'm so...
    howsab howsab
    31-35, F
    Mar 30
    Although i dont use EP as much as i used to, it feels like part of me is being taken away. I found this site when i was young and afraid that i was alone and a freak. I am a boy...
    Sarah147 Sarah147
    18-21
    1 Response Mar 30
    So although I'm not really sure whether or not very many people might entirely believe that I'm learning a new language (if they didn't it would likely be because of the reason I'm...
    Venum21 Venum21
    13-15, M
    Mar 29
    The "Highway" Dream Dreamt on May 13, 2013-May 18, 2013 (for 5 days I was dreaming the same dream, and something inside of me changed ) This dream started off very dark, the sky I...
    sjasianbaby408 sjasianbaby408
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Mar 29
    A positive change Here it is. A positive change in my life. Well, when it comes to my health anyways. For about a year I've been training with F45, and while I feel much stronger...
    brokenpetal brokenpetal
    26-30, F
    Mar 29
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