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I Am Going to Kill Myself

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    Whats The Big Deal - I have these thoughts about suicide now, I don't see what is the big deal about it. Some people live there whole life and they are miserable, they think about...
    mljenkins mljenkins 41-45, F Feb 7, 2013

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    Tonight. I will walk to the train station, and just get it over with. I've lost everyone who ever meant something to me. I made decisions that I will regret for the rest of my...
    CadyHeron CadyHeron 18-21, F Apr 4

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    Soon.. - Yesterday sealed the deal. My decision is set.. The day is coming closer and closer. And the truth is, I'm not afraid anymore.
    Amay408 Amay408 18-21, F Oct 29, 2012

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    1 Month - I am done with all this crap. Life is not worth living. I have tried and tried and you know what? Im done. Things are getting better financialy but im still not happy and...
    Krie Krie 22-25, M May 5, 2013

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    Do Not Kill Yourself For Any Reason - Do not kill yourself for any reason. You may be thinking to yourself, " I am going to kill myself," or "I am going to commit...
    dontdoit dontdoit 21-25 Mar 19, 2008

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    The End Of Augusta - I have decided that on the date of 5/16/13 I will kill myself if I am unable to find my Billy by then. If he refuses to come back to me I will end it all. I...
    imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 26, 2013

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    Within The Next Week.. - I've already begun planning. I'm not going to screw this up, I know exactly what I'm going to do and how I'm going to do it. I had it planned once before...
    Amay408 Amay408 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    Um... - Then there are all of the failed suicides where people just end up brain damaged human vegetables... proving once again that even suicide is not %100 in your hands...
    Yoshimine Yoshimine 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 21, 2007

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    today is the day that i say goodbye. i've had enough and so have my friends and family. it's time that i say good bye and time for people to stop worrying or having to deal with me...
    3Words4You 3Words4You 18-21 1 Response Jan 21

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    Do Not Kill Yourself For Any Reason - Do not kill yourself for any reason. You may be thinking to yourself, " I am going to kill myself," or "I am going to commit...
    dontdoit dontdoit 21-25 1 Response Mar 19, 2008

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    I'm Not Going To Say When & I'm Not Going To Say How - I'm getting more & more bitter by the day. This year has been horrible. I've completely broken apart like I never have...
    deadmoon deadmoon 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 7, 2011

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    I Reached Out For Help An Was Laughted At... - I reached out for help an all I got was laughted at, told to quit being so self centered an made fun of... When someone opens up an...
    the1noonelikes the1noonelikes 46-50, F Oct 2, 2013

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    This Isn't A "whim" Or A Moment Of Madness. - This feeling which i am/ have been experiencing for the past 3 years is that of an empty, numbness.  the Doctors...
    Samuel1990 Samuel1990 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 29, 2010

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    I'm Still Bitter That I Was Born... - I have never much cared for life, or the things that make other people happy.  95% of everything we do in this world is BS.  I'm...
    michelle5298 michelle5298 26-30, F 3 Responses Jun 21, 2010

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    Tried Till Im Blue In The Face - Im out of here friday.Ive said this a time or twoagain.But i truly believe this will work out.It has to as it almost worked out before.Im just...
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 26, 2013

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    Not Just Yet. - Like ArmyWifeUk, I'm not going to do it now. Nor any time in the forseeable future. But I just like the comfort of knowing I have complete control over when and how...
    insides insides 16-18, F Nov 20, 2007

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    forgive methank you my mother for giving me your life throughout my life, i am sorry i am leaving you like this, i am sorry i have become a burden to you all my life. i hope there...
    solomona2003 solomona2003 31-35, M Jan 20

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    Ive tried soo many times and it hasn't worked. I was wondering whether anyone had a sure way of ending it all. Am willing to make a suicde pact as well if anyone's interested.
    april8788 april8788 22-25, F Jan 19

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    Happening Next Week - I am not religious, and I believe it is my choice how and when I die. I have always considered suicide, but having just found out I have a degenerative eye...
    acerdo acerdo 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 20, 2013

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    Tired Of The Pain - I don't know when and I don't know if ill even succeed but I'm tired of hurting like this tired of feeling pain so intensely that my chest aches and I lose all...
    yourfaceisyourface yourfaceisyourface 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 25, 2013

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    The World Will Be A Much Better Place Without Me - I hate it. I'm tired of dealing with these non-stop problems day after day after day... struggling to make things better, but...
    DatAlgorithm DatAlgorithm 22-25, M Sep 27, 2012

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    Eventually. - If I must. I don't intend to grow old. I am not necessarily suicidal just yet. Not exactly desperate for a way out -far from it actually- I simply do not wish to grow...
    ZSeventeen ZSeventeen 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 15, 2013

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    Going to Kill Myslef - have lived with depression, anxiety and all so have a learning and spelling disability  rest of my life I'm 45 years old and had it I'm going to kill...
    hopetodie hopetodie 41-45, M 2 Responses Oct 1, 2009

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    I'm going to kill myself soon, no one knows are even really suspects. It's going to be this weekend, the weird part is I'm not even in that really bad place I usually get to, it's...
    ashleyh27 ashleyh27 26-30, F 8 Responses Jan 28

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    Waiting For the Answer - I've never been one to seek attention. If the spotlight was on me I'd hastily move out of the way so I could slink back into the shadows. I've spent the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 5, 2009

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    It's going to be this year. I've finally come to terms with myself and that it's going to happen. I've started to distance myself from friends and family. My mother wants me to get...
    Twon Twon 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 16

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    A Long Path Of Bad Choices - I have recently left my house. I had to leave my daughter behind because I want her to have a house. I am so depressed now that I can't even think...
    hellpuddle hellpuddle 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 27, 2013

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    Do Not Kill Yourself For Any Reason - Do not kill yourself for any reason. You may be thinking to yourself, " I am going to kill myself," or "I am going to commit...
    dontdoit dontdoit 21-25 Mar 19, 2008

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    I Decided Not To Do It Friend K Came To The Rescue - I decided not to kill myself I was contacted by my best friend K who realised something was wrong after I emailed him to...
    Frankie62 Frankie62 46-50, M Feb 6, 2011

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    I Cant Take It Anymore - I am hoping to do it this week. this pain will not stop it wont go away and i will never in my life truly be happy. Living with chronic depression...
    YoucancallmeJuliet YoucancallmeJuliet 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2012

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    Sooner Or Later - I want to right now, but I wont cause its a rather large investment. Wanna check the mileage and ****, right? It is rather apparent to me that Im...
    rpyromaniac rpyromaniac 22-25, M 4 Responses Apr 10, 2009

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    My Life Is Fine. I Just Hate Society - Hi. i'll try to keep this fairly simple. My name is Evan, i'm 15 and live in a ****** small town in California. after i decided to kill...
    LiveHuman LiveHuman 18-21 1 Response Jan 5, 2013

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    From Contemplating To Going To - Today I changed my view on killing myself. Originally I was just considering suicide as an option. From this point forward I am making it an...
    ForgottenMale ForgottenMale 26-30, M 9 Responses Aug 8, 2010

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    I Am Going To Kill Myself -  i'm not sure when or how...I just know I will. Ive always been depressed and somewhat screwed up in the head. i'm 22 and i always felt like i'd...
    caits111 caits111 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 11, 2009

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    What Do You Do If You Dont Want To Get Better? - So much of therapy, meds, all forums, all conversations, so much of depression is about wanting to get better, and how to get...
    MJLane MJLane 22-25, F Jun 13, 2012

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    Evades, Evading, Evasion - I look around and and everyone I know is evading in one form or another. I like to think I am grounded in reality and I think about things realistically...
    mljenkins mljenkins 41-45, F Feb 9, 2013

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    One Of These Days - I am 16 and I have hated my life since I was 11. Nobody likes me. I am nice a bit shy I like almost everyone. But without fail I am the third fourth fifth etc...
    Canidie000 Canidie000 22-25, F Jul 2, 2013

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    I Hate Myself!!!!!! -   I’m tired of living a life of painful loneliness. What is the point? I have lived with depression, anxiety and obsessive...
    jaayyee jaayyee 36-40 Jun 13, 2008

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    I Think This Was How It Was Always Supposed To End. - I tried killing myself with an overdose when I was fifteen, the night I tried to come out to my parents about being trans...
    ImNothingReally ImNothingReally 26-30, T 4 Responses Dec 2, 2010

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    When Does It Ever End? - Does anything ever get better. Essentially have given up. Not a day goes by that I don't think about taking my life. My biggest fear is the pain and...
    shell6306 shell6306 46-50 1 Response Sep 5, 2012

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    Only If I Wind Up With Something Incurable - It won't be now, or any time soon, but if I ever find out that I have horrible disease that is disabling, I fully plan on committing...
    Satsujinkyou Satsujinkyou 26-30, M 2 Responses Mar 16, 2008

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    Someone Help My Kids I Can't Anymore - tell my kids i'm sorry.  i already tried.  left updated last will and testament in house.  e-mailed my work addy where to find...
    theend3102009 theend3102009 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 12, 2009

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    Actually I Am Not Worth It - You know, I often times wonder about people. So many people out there tell me that I need to go out there and try to change and fix myself. Then I am...
    ForgottenMale ForgottenMale 26-30, M 7 Responses Mar 1, 2012

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    Will Vodka And Over The Counter Sleeping Pills Work? - I'm straight-edge so I have zero alcohol tolerance, but would over the counter sleeping pills help or not? I can probably...
    missyfin missyfin 26-30, F Dec 20, 2011

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    Work - Well I am finding that what TurbulentDiffusion said about work to be rather accurate. Here I push through my days and working two jobs I have little down time, hence I don't...
    mljenkins mljenkins 41-45, F Feb 19, 2013

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    I Have Decided To Do It. - I won't say when or How, but I am going to do it It won't be soon, but it will happen. That is all there is to it. I am only saying this here to say it...
    Bipolareffingsucks Bipolareffingsucks 26-30 Jul 27, 2012

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    Why Bother Fighting - Hi everyone... I have been fighting suicide since I was 6... I'm now 16... I don't wanna keep fighting... I keep telling mysepf it'll get better, but guess...
    galviall galviall 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 1, 2013

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    Not Now - I know I'm not going to do it right now, I just think that that is the way my life will end. I have made loads of attempts, though obviously not great ones! It doesn't...
    AWUK AWUK 26-30, F 40 Responses Nov 20, 2007

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    Why Can't I Do It? - I sit here at 1:23 in the morning, feeling nothing be negativity. My future I only seem misery, loneliness, and worst of all sexlessness. I look around my...
    ForgottenMale ForgottenMale 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 6, 2010

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    This Time It Will Work - I have a plan. This time it will work. No more cutting, it's just making my skin ugly. Hanging hurts to much and it takes too long. I drank enough to take...
    2young4marriage 2young4marriage 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 13, 2013

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    I Really Have No Reason To Live.. - I know "I've got so much of my life to live." But ever since I was 13 I've battled with depression and self-harm and I've just lost...
    lostinwonderland lostinwonderland 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 11, 2009