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I Am Going to Kill Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 148 People

    Idk if I'm really doing this

    for sure or not but in reality I just had it I'm sick of this life and I believe that there is another life after this 1 this is my story. I'm a 18 148 pound girl I'm not pretty or anything like that I fell like my mom and my sister are ganging up on me just because I love anime...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Oct 1, 2014

    This Time It Will Work

    I have a plan. This time it will work. No more cutting, it's just making my skin ugly. Hanging hurts to much and it takes too long. I drank enough to take down two 200lb. men and I wake up with no hangover. Enough is enough with this. Soon, soon I will fall asleep, a deep sleep...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Jun 13, 2013

    1 Month

    I am done with all this crap. Life is not worth living. I have tried and tried and you know what? Im done. Things are getting better financialy but im still not happy and I dont think I ever will be. So I will save money for 1 month, buy me a .45 and just put that ***** to my...
    Krie Krie
    22-25
    May 5, 2013

    Tonight. I will walk to the train station,

    and just get it over with. I've lost everyone who ever meant something to me. I made decisions that I will regret for the rest of my life, and I can't live with myself anymore. I don't need sympathy, or attention I don't need to be talked out of it. It's the best decision...
    CadyHeron CadyHeron
    18-21, F
    Apr 4, 2014

    24 Hours

    So...I'm about 24 hours away from ending this. I wish I could have an amazing last day on earth, but the truth is I don't know what I'd do.
    thetruth86 thetruth86
    26-30, M
    1 Response Aug 15, 2013

    Tired Of The Pain

    I don't know when and I don't know if ill even succeed but I'm tired of hurting like this tired of feeling pain so intensely that my chest aches and I lose all hope of feeling better i just want it to stop
    yourfaceisyourface yourfaceisyourface
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jul 25, 2013

    Why Bother Fighting

    Hi everyone... I have been fighting suicide since I was 6... I'm now 16... I don't wanna keep fighting... I keep telling mysepf it'll get better, but guess what? It gets worse! The pain gets more and more intense untip I SCREAM!!! I'm haunted by my scars, trips to the mental...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Aug 1, 2013

    Ive tried soo many times

    and it hasn't worked. I was wondering whether anyone had a sure way of ending it all. Am willing to make a suicde pact as well if anyone's interested.
    april8788 april8788
    26-30, F
    Jan 19, 2014

    forgive methank you my mother

    for giving me your life throughout my life, i am sorry i am leaving you like this, i am sorry i have become a burden to you all my life. i hope there is a heaven and i will see you there.thank you my father for having been there with me all my life, thank you for believing in me...
    solomona2003 solomona2003
    31-35, M
    Jan 20, 2014

    Someone Help My Kids I Can't Anymore

    tell my kids i'm sorry.  i already tried.  left updated last will and testament in house.  e-mailed my work addy where to find it.   life ins. beneficiary change doc on my desk at work.  help my kids find it.  stupid i know to seem so...
    theend3102009 theend3102009
    31-35, F
    1 Response Mar 12, 2009

    i feel like there are walls around me.

    And these walls.are pushing at me from all sides. I feel as if im suffocating. I cannot find the will to live anymore. I am going to kill myself
    markless markless
    22-25, F
    Jun 2, 2014

    It's going to be this year.

    I've finally come to terms with myself and that it's going to happen. I've started to distance myself from friends and family. My mother wants me to get help, but I can't see it doing much. Therapy never did much for me in the past. I kind of just want it to be over. 19. Not...
    Twon Twon
    22-25
    2 Responses Jan 16, 2014

    My Life Is Fine. I Just Hate Society

    Hi. i'll try to keep this fairly simple. My name is Evan, i'm 15 and live in a ****** small town in California. after i decided to kill myself, every single person and thing i encountered just reaffirmed my goal of dying. There isn't 1 person in my life who i feel is actually...
    LiveHuman LiveHuman
    18-21
    1 Response Jan 5, 2013

    I'm going to kill myself soon,

    no one knows are even really suspects. It's going to be this weekend, the weird part is I'm not even in that really bad place I usually get to, it's just I know this is the way it has to be. My first suicidal thought was when I was 7 yrs. old, I've been on so many...
    ashleyh27 ashleyh27
    26-30, F
    8 Responses Jan 28, 2014

    Going to Kill Myslef

    have lived with depression, anxiety and all so have a learning and spelling disability  rest of my life I'm 45 years old and had it I'm going to kill myself been waiting do die for years I want to die every day. my life sucks i hate my life
    hopetodie hopetodie
    51-55, M
    2 Responses Oct 1, 2009

    Death By Anaphylaxis

    Suicide By Severe Allergic Reaction Two days ago i came home ready to end my life I took pills I knew I was allergic to I laid down in my bed and waited for the effects to start Just as I began to feel the burning throughout my body just under the skin I freaked out and didnt...
    mljenkins mljenkins
    41-45, F
    Feb 5, 2013

    Made Up My Mind.

    My life isn't worth living.  So I've finally made up my mind to end it.  But I don't feel calm or at peace like you're supposed to once you've made up your mind.  I feel as miserable and empty as ever.  I guess it doesn't matter - it'll all be over soon...
    missyfin missyfin
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Feb 24, 2010

    Why Am I Still Here?

    Why am I here? I am so miserable. I have never been happy and at 34 my life is even worse. I know that I am above the average age to commit suicide but what the hell can I do? I am married and have no doubt that my wife would be better off without me. She could get a better man...
    msudawgsfan msudawgsfan
    31-35
    12 Responses Feb 13, 2008

    The End Of Augusta

    I have decided that on the date of 5/16/13 I will kill myself if I am unable to find my Billy by then. If he refuses to come back to me I will end it all. I can not go on living a life full of sadness anymore. My life is unremarkable, nothing really interesting about it nor is it...
    imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 26, 2013

    Only If I Wind Up With Something Incurable

    It won't be now, or any time soon, but if I ever find out that I have horrible disease that is disabling, I fully plan on committing seppuku, with my best fiend acting as second. I would rather be dead then have the mind of a two year old, or **** in diapers because I have no...
    Satsujinkyou Satsujinkyou
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Mar 16, 2008

    Sooner Or Later

    I want to right now, but I wont cause its a rather large investment. Wanna check the mileage and ****, right? It is rather apparent to me that Im not wanted in this world. I am the lonliest person ever and more so for a lot of ****** up reasons. Im ****** up...
    rpyromaniac rpyromaniac
    22-25, M
    4 Responses Apr 10, 2009

    I Hate Myself!!!!!!

      I’m tired of living a life of painful loneliness. What is the point? I have lived with depression, anxiety and obsessive compulsiveness all my life and have never been apart of this world.   I have tried committing suicide twice in my life. The...
    jaayyee jaayyee
    36-40
    Jun 13, 2008

    A Long Path Of Bad Choices

    I have recently left my house. I had to leave my daughter behind because I want her to have a house. I am so depressed now that I can't even think straight. My family keeps saying that she is doing so well without me there. She was the only reason I haven't yet killed myself. I...
    hellpuddle hellpuddle
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 27, 2013

    Do Not Kill Yourself For Any Reason

    Do not kill yourself for any reason. You may be thinking to yourself, " I am going to kill myself," or "I am going to commit suicide." I would not recommend it. I was having a ****** day today, I was really bored, sitting at home, my partner was ignoring me...
    dontdoit dontdoit
    22-25
    Mar 19, 2008

    Probably

    i'm FAR too narcissistic to let myself be felled to another. i can't find work, i have so little friends now, i am a leech. leeches, like all parasites should be killed. its been years since i've known another's touch. aside of course from the half-hearted hugs of family members...
    nephandai nephandai
    26-30, M
    Sep 23, 2011

    I Think This Was How It Was Always Supposed To End.

    I tried killing myself with an overdose when I was fifteen, the night I tried to come out to my parents about being trans.  My biggest regret, more than not being able to move out or get a job, is that I didn't die that night.  Whatever pain or fear I would have felt...
    ImNothingReally ImNothingReally
    26-30, T
    4 Responses Dec 2, 2010

    I Really Have No Reason To Live..

    I know "I've got so much of my life to live." But ever since I was 13 I've battled with depression and self-harm and I've just lost the will. I'm over-weight, I'm ugly, my parents hate me, **** it, my whole family hates me. My friends don't even give a ****. I don...
    lostinwonderland lostinwonderland
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Oct 11, 2009

    Do Not Kill Yourself For Any Reason

    Do not kill yourself for any reason. You may be thinking to yourself, " I am going to kill myself," or "I am going to commit suicide." I would not recommend it. I was having a ****** day today, I was really bored, sitting at home, my partner was ignoring me...
    dontdoit dontdoit
    22-25
    Mar 19, 2008

    In a few days, this will all be over.

    I'm slowly coming to terms with the finality. I'm spending the last few days of my life just relaxing and doing pretty much nothing. I'm not a memorable person. I won't be known for anything. I'm not special. I just realize, rationally, there's no reason for me to continue this...
    Neauxp Neauxp
    31-35, F
    Mar 30

    Do Not Kill Yourself For Any Reason

    Do not kill yourself for any reason. You may be thinking to yourself, " I am going to kill myself," or "I am going to commit suicide." I would not recommend it. I was having a ****** day today, I was really bored, sitting at home, my partner was ignoring me...
    dontdoit dontdoit
    22-25
    1 Response Mar 19, 2008

    Evades, Evading, Evasion

    I look around and and everyone I know is evading in one form or another. I like to think I am grounded in reality and I think about things realistically which may sound ****** up because I really just want to die most of the time. I try to commit suicide and eventually come...
    mljenkins mljenkins
    41-45, F
    Feb 9, 2013

    Um...

    Then there are all of the failed suicides where people just end up brain damaged human vegetables... proving once again that even suicide is not %100 in your hands. Every human action is prone to mistakes, chance, and unforeseen circumstances. Best case scenario, you end up in...
    Yoshimine Yoshimine
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 21, 2007

    My life is done. I have nothing.

    My marriage just ended. I have nothing left to live for. I see where this is headed and I will accept that. Even if its an eternity in Hell, if God wants me to die then it will be. I won't fight it anymore.
    kayleighjade78 kayleighjade78
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Oct 14, 2015

    Happening Next Week

    I am not religious, and I believe it is my choice how and when I die. I have always considered suicide, but having just found out I have a degenerative eye condition and I am going blind, there is really no other choice for me. I can no longer socialize, I will never get a job...
    acerdo acerdo
    22-25, F
    Jul 20, 2013

    I Reached Out For Help An Was Laughted At...

    I reached out for help an all I got was laughted at, told to quit being so self centered an made fun of... When someone opens up an shares such a horrible thought the LAST thing I/anyone needs to to be made to feel even worse then I already do!! It just reminded me just how...
    the1noonelikes the1noonelikes
    51-55, F
    Oct 2, 2013

    Work

    Well I am finding that what TurbulentDiffusion said about work to be rather accurate. Here I push through my days and working two jobs I have little down time, hence I don't have time to kill myself although the thoughts are always there. I was thinking that at the interview I...
    mljenkins mljenkins
    41-45, F
    Feb 19, 2013

    Idk if I'm really doing this

    for sure or not but in reality I just had it I'm sick of this life and I believe that there is another life after this 1 this is my story. I'm a 18 148 pound girl I'm not pretty or anything like that I fell like my mom and my sister are ganging up on me just because I love anime...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Oct 1, 2014

    today is the day that i say goodbye.

    i've had enough and so have my friends and family. it's time that i say good bye and time for people to stop worrying or having to deal with me. good bye
    3Words4You 3Words4You
    22-25
    1 Response Jan 21, 2014

    From Contemplating To Going To

    Today I changed my view on killing myself. Originally I was just considering suicide as an option. From this point forward I am making it an inevitiblity. It is no longer a question of... hmm what is a word for this?.. eh it is a matter of when from this point on. I am going to...
    ForgottenMale ForgottenMale
    26-30, M
    9 Responses Aug 8, 2010

    One Of These Days

    I am 16 and I have hated my life since I was 11. Nobody likes me. I am nice a bit shy I like almost everyone. But without fail I am the third fourth fifth etc wheel and I'm always left out. Guys don't like me my own damn dad doesn't even like me. He cuts me down for everything I...
    Canidie000 Canidie000
    22-25, F
    Jul 2, 2013

    I'm Not Going To Say When & I'm Not Going To Say How

    I'm getting more & more bitter by the day. This year has been horrible. I've completely broken apart like I never have before & honestly, I'm bored & very disappointed with life. I'm not getting anything out of it. It feels like a jail sentence. The truth is, I cannot wait...
    deadmoon deadmoon
    22-25, F
    7 Responses Dec 7, 2011

    My anxiety and depression is making me go crazy

    and the kind of family I have make it more impossible. Either they turned their backs on me or I'm fighting with them. My back injury isn't allowing me to run or lift weights which was my medicine passion and life. It has been over a year since my last run and I've gained 25...
    Thefightingangel Thefightingangel
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Oct 14, 2015

    Within The Next Week..

    I've already begun planning. I'm not going to screw this up, I know exactly what I'm going to do and how I'm going to do it. I had it planned once before, but something changed and I didn't go through with it. But now, I'm ready. It's just a matter of waiting for the time...
    Amay408 Amay408
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 8, 2013

    Idk if I'm really doing this

    for sure or not but in reality I just had it I'm sick of this life and I believe that there is another life after this 1 this is my story. I'm a 18 148 pound girl I'm not pretty or anything like that I fell like my mom and my sister are ganging up on me just because I love anime...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Oct 1, 2014

    Tried Till Im Blue In The Face

    Im out of here friday.Ive said this a time or twoagain.But i truly believe this will work out.It has to as it almost worked out before.Im just tired so tired of my chaotic famliy life.Sitting around hoping it will fix itself wont do any good.No its just going to get worse. Thats...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Feb 26, 2013

    Whats The Big Deal

    I have these thoughts about suicide now, I don't see what is the big deal about it. Some people live there whole life and they are miserable, they think about death all the time and literally cannot wait to die. Is it healthy? Guess that depends on your interpretation of what...
    mljenkins mljenkins
    41-45, F
    Feb 7, 2013

    Will Vodka And Over The Counter Sleeping Pills Work?

    I'm straight-edge so I have zero alcohol tolerance, but would over the counter sleeping pills help or not? I can probably get a prescription for something from my psychopharm, but I'd rather not have to wait that long.
    missyfin missyfin
    26-30, F
    Dec 20, 2011
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