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I Am Going to Stop Self Harming

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    Even with all of this stuff involving my friend

    leaving me when I needed her the most, my ex trying to get me to come back to him, and family troubles. I have managed to go a week without cutting. And I think that is a pretty awesome :) so as I'm writing this I'm collecting all of my blades and throwing them out I feel sad...
    teenagegirl1 teenagegirl1 13-15, F 3 Responses Dec 23, 2013

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    Not Self-harming In the Traditional Sense...

    I'm not sure if this qualifies as its somewhat different than cutting or burning.  I often find ways to hurt myself just doing every day things, I have 'accidents'.  I just accidentally stuck my arm in the propane torch, accidentally ran on the treadmill until I...
    FranzJosef FranzJosef 26-30, M Nov 6, 2007

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    I Keep Trying

    I keep trying to stop harming myself and i did for 3 yrs but then my boyfriend of 5 yrs left me and my 1 yr old. its been 2 weeks and i just am so depressed. I am trying to be strong for him but it is so hard. I guess because i have these moments when i cant see past the...
    prettybutterfly4521 prettybutterfly4521 26-30 3 Responses Nov 10, 2008

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    HI!

    I started this group because i wanted to add it as a goal. I hope others out there who suffer this problem and want to do something about it will add it to their goals too, and remember this group is here for everyone to help and support each other so don't be afraid to add...
    loobiesa loobiesa 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 20, 2007

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    It's been a week since I last cut myself!

    !! I have had a very hard time with this and always have to have something in my hand to keep me from cutting. I hope I can go longer without cutting :)
    teenagegirl1 teenagegirl1 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 13, 2013

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    Oh Dear...

    I've just gotten out of almost a year of treatment but I'm still cutting...I lied and said that I'd stopped. If someone finds out that I'm still self harmng I'll be in tons of trouble...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Oct 27, 2008

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    Matthews14 Matthews14 13-15, M 1 Response Oct 23

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    Hurts

    i have been self mutilating for quite some time now. sometime i burn, but i mostly cut.i cant wear short sleeves/sleveless things cos my left arm is full of scars that never will heal. i found out that i have a skin condiotion ca;lled keloid, meaning my scars wil never heal...
    TeeVee TeeVee 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 20, 2008

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    Being Scared Can Make You Change Your Mind About Anything

    My boyfriend and I had just finished smoking and the lighter was still hot. He has really calloused feet so he pressed it on his foot as sort of an experiment thing, because he's just like that. He said he couldn't feel anything and was all amused, and I told him not to do that...
    cococrazy cococrazy 16-17, F Jul 27, 2013

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    I Will Stop This Time

    Its been almost a week (i think) since I last scratched/cut although since then I have been hitting my arms, hands, legs and head against walls and corners (tables, doors, cuboards). so does that count as SH? Before I tried to stop the first time I didnt see what I do...
    pine90apple pine90apple 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 26, 2009

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    Two Things....

    One yes, I plan on stop harming myself. When I am strong enough to deal with life, without having to turn to self injury, than I won't have to turn to hurting myself. Another thing, can the founder of this group, please change the group logo, it is way to triggering, and I ...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 23, 2009

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    So I plan on stopping

    for good now. I don't know how well this will work because I've tried it before, and it didn't work well since it only lasted not even 6 months. But I asked my friend if he would help me stop, because he's told me that I'm better than this and it's nothing but a terrible...
    EmoSakurachan EmoSakurachan 16-17 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    3 days without cutting!

    - still can't bring myself to throw the blades out but this is a start. I'm taking it each day at a time but my aim is to give up for lent and then by then I won't need to do it any more. I have stopped before but I relapsed after a month, this time I hope I can stop...
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 6

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    I just threw my blades away.

    I already want to get them out again but I am finally determined to actually stop.
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    Breaking The Habit

    I am finally trying hard to quit cutting and brusing myself. The cutting is the biggest issue of the two, but I should not be bruising myself either. I have been cutting myself for three years now and bruising for one year. I have recognized for a little while now that I need to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 4, 2012

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    So today, I'm giving up my blades.

    I'm going to my friends house for a cut check, and I'm giving them to him for good. No more taking apart pencil sharpeners, just no blades in general. It is the official day that I'm giving all of this up.
    EmoSakurachan EmoSakurachan 16-17 2 Responses Dec 18, 2013

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    My Story

    I've been cutting for over five years now.  I've tried to stop several times, but I've never made it anywhere with it.  I really wish I could stop, but I just haven't made it to that point yet.  I hope that one day I will be able to stop.  Right now...
    udontno udontno 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 8, 2009

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    Depression.

    We all have those low times in our lives that make us want to give up. We realize we just don't want to live in this world anymore, what's there left for me here? Most our my generation has lost hope, has sunk into depression with no escape. So many of us have committed suicide...
    Arriesrose Arriesrose 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 7, 2013

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    Trying My Hardest

    i started self harming a few years ago, just small cuts and scratches on my arm here and there, but then i got into the habit of cutting more often and deeper.. one person made me realize how bad it really is and how important it is for me to stop for it was getting worse.. so i...
    CountYourBlessings CountYourBlessings 16-17, F Aug 15, 2008

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    Every Time I Think I Have Beaten This..

    I'm currently a 22-year-old student. I have been struggling with self-harm ever since I can remember, with my most vivid memory at about 8-10 years old when I ripped out my non-loose baby tooth in order for my mom (who has some issues of her own) to stop being...
    jumpfish jumpfish 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 8, 2009

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    Almost There. :)

    I am almost ready to finally throw away my glass shards. I am close to the point to where I can completely break the addiction and go without feeling the need to cut. I am so thankful for EP. Here, I finally could release my issues and move on. I am such a strong person now. Yes...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Mar 30, 2012

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    The Butterfly Project

    Ive been determined to stop self harming for years and every time it beats me But this time I've found a better method that either could work or could fail dramatically I'm doing this not only for myself, but for my friends because they hate seeing me do this to myself and I...
    ImOkayNow ImOkayNow 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 26, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    Sometimes all I want to do is see the deep red blood flow..But then it's difficult to stop making more..and more cuts, eventually making your innocent flesh look like a battle...
    Emilylovespiano Emilylovespiano 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 15

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    Well. I've been self harming for almost a week, it's been cutting. Only today, my boyfriend found out. He didn't deal with it well... He doesn't understand that self harm is my...
    PendalWitch PendalWitch 13-15, F Oct 18

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    I had recently started self harming. Most of my life has been filled with misfortune and alot of negative treatment from people. Those negative events started when i was only four...
    DarkKnightPEKKA DarkKnightPEKKA 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 4

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    I hate how a lot of people say self harming is just cutting. It's not just that it's also scratching, punching, and other things too. I scratch but I've been clean for about 2...
    bvbandmcr bvbandmcr 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 19

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    I never wanted to self harm. I thought "This is stupid, why would anyone do this?" Then at sixteen, after an awful fight with my stepfather about an ex-boyfriend, I knew why. I...
    Ginkofishin Ginkofishin 18-21, F Oct 20

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    I've been self-harming for almost 2 years. It didn't really get bad until my online friend faked her suicide. And I started to self harm almost daily. It was mostly cuts starting...
    mugzib mugzib 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 22

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    I'm known as the Scar Guy at the gym. Not to my face, of course, but I have good hearing. A lot of the comments are negative, which I expect with the stigma surrounding self...
    InkedAmongTheSands InkedAmongTheSands 31-35, M Oct 4

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    7 months today!!! Every month that passes I put it more and more behind me. In 3 short months it will be a year since I self harmed, so great to keep the fight up! It's so far...
    xImparfaitex xImparfaitex 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 6

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    I guess I'm kinda desperate if I'm posting my story to a bunch of people I don't know, but, I'm too afraid to tell anyone close to me really. So here goes nothing. These past few...
    wifitoasters wifitoasters 13-15, T 1 Response Oct 16

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    Hey everyone... I know it's been a while since I have posted and stuff... I have been really depressed lately. I've been self-harming a lot lately... I cut again last night and I...
    xxbrokengirl98xx xxbrokengirl98xx 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 7

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    Started self harming 3 years ago. Cant remember why. My friend recommended it to me which i now hate her for cos its ****** up my life. I do it every night now. Just feel so lonely...
    saffroncindy saffroncindy 13-15, F Oct 14

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    I'm depressed and I've been selfharming since I was 11, 6th grade. I've tried to kill myself twice and the 2nd time I freaked out and told my dad and he just screamed at me for 20...
    YourBabeAnon YourBabeAnon 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 8

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    I'm going to self spank today after church. I need it, it's way overdue!
    angkath80 angkath80 31-35, F 11 Responses Oct 19

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    You're not just born with self respect, a lot of people don't know their self worth. I was one of them, I didn't realize my self worth was not linked to what others think or value...
    Offing Offing 18-21, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    Simple as that. I finally found a word that I feel like can best describe me, in almost every aspect... I'm always the problem. I'm my own enemy, my own problem, my own reason, my...
    Theworldisminenow Theworldisminenow 18-21, F Oct 12

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    I've struggled with self-harm for 6 years. I was clean for 7 months, and I swore I would never go back. But then my dad left. He told my mom and I he was going to work and got on a...
    pandakitty8901 pandakitty8901 16-17 1 day ago

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    How many of us look into the mirror and hate what you see? Wait a second. Did you create yourself? No, you didn't. I made myself feel bad for years because of my appearance and I...
    ladybug96 ladybug96 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 21

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    At the moment I'm in retreat, and going through a lot of soul-searching. One of the things that's come up in my procrastination breaking programme is the notion of self-acceptance...
    sometimeslonelytoo sometimeslonelytoo 41-45, M 6 Responses a week ago

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    Nobody should ever cut them self, suicide is devastating for others, people always think that they have no one... But there always is, family, friends, colleagues! Also it's...
    cali0ne cali0ne 18-21, F Oct 20

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    I've already shared a few stories on this experience but one more won't hurt. As some may know, if they've read my writings from the past, I use to cut myself with little remorse...
    ImEndangeredGimmeYourCola ImEndangeredGimmeYourCola 22-25, F Oct 9

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    READ!! {sorry about any spelling errors} If anyone read my experience I wrote about getting caught about a month ago at school so here's the incident form of anyone wants to...
    13AndMiserable 13AndMiserable 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 18

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    Money isn't everything. Money doesn't impair your abilities to expand your knowledge beyond your government provided education. Saying you know you can't get a scholarship is false...
    BallinBae BallinBae 16-17, F 4 Responses Oct 19

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    Last weekend I met a great guy and we hit it off immediately. But somehow I found myself doing what I ALWAYS do around guys I find interesting - I started acting flaky and...
    yellowtrees yellowtrees 26-30, F Oct 3

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    Ten years down a rabbit hole of hurt, lies, and selfishness. Love for each other is and was undeniable.... But I ask my self was it true? Was it real? Because my gut tells me...
    stephers127 stephers127 26-30, F Oct 16

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    I read some of the stories here and they break my heart, so I wanted to share some information that might help Have you ever heard of DBT? "Dialectic Behaviour Therapy" www...
    EmperorJulian EmperorJulian 46-50, M 1 day ago

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    All I really want to do right now is mutilate my thigh till it's nothing but a bloody mess. I'm not going to though because really should be stopping. I don't want to, but I know...
    FOBIsPerfection FOBIsPerfection 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 2

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    Someone please help me it's going to kill me but I can't stop :'(
    SophieeJordan SophieeJordan 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 6

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