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I Am Going to Stop Self Harming

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    Breaking The Habit

    I am finally trying hard to quit cutting and brusing myself. The cutting is the biggest issue of the two, but I should not be bruising myself either. I have been cutting myself for three years now and bruising for one year. I have recognized for a little while now that I need to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 4, 2012

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    Hurts

    i have been self mutilating for quite some time now. sometime i burn, but i mostly cut.i cant wear short sleeves/sleveless things cos my left arm is full of scars that never will heal. i found out that i have a skin condiotion ca;lled keloid, meaning my scars wil never heal...
    TeeVee TeeVee 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 20, 2008

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    I Keep Trying

    I keep trying to stop harming myself and i did for 3 yrs but then my boyfriend of 5 yrs left me and my 1 yr old. its been 2 weeks and i just am so depressed. I am trying to be strong for him but it is so hard. I guess because i have these moments when i cant see past the...
    prettybutterfly4521 prettybutterfly4521 26-30 3 Responses Nov 10, 2008

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    Being Scared Can Make You Change Your Mind About Anything

    My boyfriend and I had just finished smoking and the lighter was still hot. He has really calloused feet so he pressed it on his foot as sort of an experiment thing, because he's just like that. He said he couldn't feel anything and was all amused, and I told him not to do that...
    cococrazy cococrazy 16-17, F Jul 27, 2013

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    Two Things....

    One yes, I plan on stop harming myself. When I am strong enough to deal with life, without having to turn to self injury, than I won't have to turn to hurting myself. Another thing, can the founder of this group, please change the group logo, it is way to triggering, and I ...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 23, 2009

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    Not Self-harming In the Traditional Sense...

    I'm not sure if this qualifies as its somewhat different than cutting or burning.  I often find ways to hurt myself just doing every day things, I have 'accidents'.  I just accidentally stuck my arm in the propane torch, accidentally ran on the treadmill until I...
    FranzJosef FranzJosef 26-30, M Nov 6, 2007

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    HI!

    I started this group because i wanted to add it as a goal. I hope others out there who suffer this problem and want to do something about it will add it to their goals too, and remember this group is here for everyone to help and support each other so don't be afraid to add...
    lifenotknife lifenotknife 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 20, 2007

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    YouCantEscapeMyDemons YouCantEscapeMyDemons 13-15, M 1 Response Oct 23, 2014

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    Depression.

    We all have those low times in our lives that make us want to give up. We realize we just don't want to live in this world anymore, what's there left for me here? Most our my generation has lost hope, has sunk into depression with no escape. So many of us have committed suicide...
    Arriesrose Arriesrose 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 7, 2013

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    So today, I'm giving up my blades.

    I'm going to my friends house for a cut check, and I'm giving them to him for good. No more taking apart pencil sharpeners, just no blades in general. It is the official day that I'm giving all of this up.
    EmoSakurachan EmoSakurachan 18-21 2 Responses Dec 18, 2013

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    I just threw my blades away.

    I already want to get them out again but I am finally determined to actually stop.
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F Mar 28, 2014

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    3 days without cutting!

    - still can't bring myself to throw the blades out but this is a start. I'm taking it each day at a time but my aim is to give up for lent and then by then I won't need to do it any more. I have stopped before but I relapsed after a month, this time I hope I can stop...
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 6, 2014

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    My Story

    I've been cutting for over five years now.  I've tried to stop several times, but I've never made it anywhere with it.  I really wish I could stop, but I just haven't made it to that point yet.  I hope that one day I will be able to stop.  Right now...
    udontno udontno 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 8, 2009

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    It's been a week since I last cut myself!

    !! I have had a very hard time with this and always have to have something in my hand to keep me from cutting. I hope I can go longer without cutting :)
    teenagegirl1 teenagegirl1 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 13, 2013

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    I Will Stop This Time

    Its been almost a week (i think) since I last scratched/cut although since then I have been hitting my arms, hands, legs and head against walls and corners (tables, doors, cuboards). so does that count as SH? Before I tried to stop the first time I didnt see what I do...
    pine90apple pine90apple 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 26, 2009

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    Trying My Hardest

    i started self harming a few years ago, just small cuts and scratches on my arm here and there, but then i got into the habit of cutting more often and deeper.. one person made me realize how bad it really is and how important it is for me to stop for it was getting worse.. so i...
    CountYourBlessings CountYourBlessings 16-17, F Aug 15, 2008

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    Oh Dear...

    I've just gotten out of almost a year of treatment but I'm still cutting...I lied and said that I'd stopped. If someone finds out that I'm still self harmng I'll be in tons of trouble...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Oct 27, 2008

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    So I plan on stopping

    for good now. I don't know how well this will work because I've tried it before, and it didn't work well since it only lasted not even 6 months. But I asked my friend if he would help me stop, because he's told me that I'm better than this and it's nothing but a terrible...
    EmoSakurachan EmoSakurachan 18-21 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    Every Time I Think I Have Beaten This..

    I'm currently a 22-year-old student. I have been struggling with self-harm ever since I can remember, with my most vivid memory at about 8-10 years old when I ripped out my non-loose baby tooth in order for my mom (who has some issues of her own) to stop being...
    jumpfish jumpfish 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 8, 2009

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    Almost There. :)

    I am almost ready to finally throw away my glass shards. I am close to the point to where I can completely break the addiction and go without feeling the need to cut. I am so thankful for EP. Here, I finally could release my issues and move on. I am such a strong person now. Yes...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Mar 30, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    I know it's better that I have stopped cutting but I miss the feeling of it. The relieving feeling of using a blade and cutting. Seeing the blood just makes me know I'm alive and...
    jess965 jess965 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 6

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    So stressed with work, I thought about doing it last night. can barely sleep. I'm exhausted and tired of no one seeing the pain I'm in. I've gotten good at hiding it.
    darkalice24 darkalice24 26-30, F Mar 6

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    I wish I could stop its killing me and my family. I just want to stop but I'm so addicted...
    annajvbanana annajvbanana 16-17, F Mar 3

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    And I'm thinking why stop the countdown. Maybe I should just see where this takes me.
    Sewmuch2do Sewmuch2do 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    How do I tell her that this has happened? It's not like I've never told anybody before because I have. I've never said the word rape out loud before and it's still quite painful...
    hopeandsoul hopeandsoul 16-17, F 2 hrs ago

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    self harming is the only way I can make the pain go away:(
    meghantownsend1999 meghantownsend1999 13-15, F 4 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    I'm honestly tired of people glorifying self harm. I'm done and I need a good rant. Depression is NOT fun, it's NOT a choice, and more importantly self harm is NOT beautiful. It's...
    Whathi Whathi 16-17, F 7 Responses Feb 28

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    For all the suicidal and self harming people out there. Stay strong please stay strong, life is full of ups and downs so some day life will give you all an up and you all will be...
    demonswithin demonswithin 18-21, M 2 days ago

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    I've been really really really struggling lately and have started self harming again
    tinyanorexic tinyanorexic 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    Since I discovered that I am trans, came out to some people and started presenting in a more masculine way, I have been self-harming much less and I'm pretty proud of myself for...
    illuminatisweaters illuminatisweaters 13-15, M 2 Responses Mar 20

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    just something about seeing myself bleed makes me feel better. I cant think of "safer" ways to satisfy this without self-harming. (theres probably none but) Im addicted. and my...
    bloodyborgiabastard bloodyborgiabastard 26-30, M 5 days ago

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    I'm going to selfhelpfest, this will be my second time attending :P
    BatVein BatVein 16-17, F Mar 1

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    It pains when I see your struggles, all your screams your crying... Don't think I don't see or don't feel... Neither do I think you're crazy You kicked my out & turned your back on...
    LeahLovee LeahLovee 16-17, F 10 hrs ago

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    Forgiveness is unhealthy. Unless it's over something minor. Negative emotions should be accepted as part of life. It is better to hold onto hate for someone than it is to give them...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 7 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I wish I could die, but too many people are relying on me to be strong and stop them from killing themselves
    drowninginsaltwater drowninginsaltwater 16-17, F 5 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    The time is near So near it's stirring the blood in their veins! And yet beware Don't let the wine go to your brains! We need a sign To rally the people To call them to arms To...
    AcousticAnne1 AcousticAnne1 26-30, F 13 hrs ago

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    I have self harmed since I was about 15 and it has steadily got worse. I hate the pain of self harm now although I think I used to use it to calm me down. It's better to feel...
    LinkinParkMuse LinkinParkMuse 26-30, F 8 hrs ago

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    We always ask for fairness but often end up with selfishness.
    RedThatDescribesMe RedThatDescribesMe 18-21, F 3 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    i hate my self when someone ****** me off and my outburst of anger i put out on my son and sometimes i cant control my self i seem to be angry a lot especial lately i feel like i...
    anazi anazi 26-30, F 4 hrs ago

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    Its not something I would tell anyone. But seeing as I'm anonymous here, it feels easier to say. To be honest. At first, I didn't know what I was doing. I thought that self harm...
    shhyoudontknowme shhyoudontknowme 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 12

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    I'm always getting compared to other girls who are prettier, thinner, smarter, nicer, and overall better than me. It's caused my self esteem to plummet and my insecurities to sky...
    gummball gummball 18-21, F 7 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    I dunno really, I started when I was 12 (selfharming) and it's turned into wht feels like an addiction. It's always in my head, although I went through a really clean patch where I...
    krhiann krhiann 16-17, F 13 hrs ago

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    At this time, my confidence and self esteem levels are hitting rock bottom.. Wow!!
    TheLeftBehind TheLeftBehind 16-17, M 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    This is my first time using this app. The first time I really even heard about it. But I Googled something that brought me here. I am a self-harmer. For ten years now (and still...
    NovaSixx NovaSixx 22-25, F Mar 6