Post
Experience Project iOS Android Apps | Download EP for your Mobile Device

I Am Going to Stop Self Harming

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 66 People

    Depression.

    We all have those low times in our lives that make us want to give up. We realize we just don't want to live in this world anymore, what's there left for me here? Most our my generation has lost hope, has sunk into depression with no escape. So many of us have committed suicide...
    Arriesrose Arriesrose 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 7, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I just threw my blades away.

    I already want to get them out again but I am finally determined to actually stop.
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F Mar 28, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Every Time I Think I Have Beaten This..

    I'm currently a 22-year-old student. I have been struggling with self-harm ever since I can remember, with my most vivid memory at about 8-10 years old when I ripped out my non-loose baby tooth in order for my mom (who has some issues of her own) to stop being...
    jumpfish jumpfish 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 8, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My Story

    I've been cutting for over five years now.  I've tried to stop several times, but I've never made it anywhere with it.  I really wish I could stop, but I just haven't made it to that point yet.  I hope that one day I will be able to stop.  Right now...
    udontno udontno 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 8, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Almost There. :)

    I am almost ready to finally throw away my glass shards. I am close to the point to where I can completely break the addiction and go without feeling the need to cut. I am so thankful for EP. Here, I finally could release my issues and move on. I am such a strong person now. Yes...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Mar 30, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Hurts

    i have been self mutilating for quite some time now. sometime i burn, but i mostly cut.i cant wear short sleeves/sleveless things cos my left arm is full of scars that never will heal. i found out that i have a skin condiotion ca;lled keloid, meaning my scars wil never heal...
    TeeVee TeeVee 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 20, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    So I plan on stopping

    for good now. I don't know how well this will work because I've tried it before, and it didn't work well since it only lasted not even 6 months. But I asked my friend if he would help me stop, because he's told me that I'm better than this and it's nothing but a terrible...
    EmoSakurachan EmoSakurachan 16-17 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    3 days without cutting!

    - still can't bring myself to throw the blades out but this is a start. I'm taking it each day at a time but my aim is to give up for lent and then by then I won't need to do it any more. I have stopped before but I relapsed after a month, this time I hope I can stop...
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 6, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Keep Trying

    I keep trying to stop harming myself and i did for 3 yrs but then my boyfriend of 5 yrs left me and my 1 yr old. its been 2 weeks and i just am so depressed. I am trying to be strong for him but it is so hard. I guess because i have these moments when i cant see past the...
    prettybutterfly4521 prettybutterfly4521 26-30 3 Responses Nov 10, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Being Scared Can Make You Change Your Mind About Anything

    My boyfriend and I had just finished smoking and the lighter was still hot. He has really calloused feet so he pressed it on his foot as sort of an experiment thing, because he's just like that. He said he couldn't feel anything and was all amused, and I told him not to do that...
    cococrazy cococrazy 16-17, F Jul 27, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Matthews14 Matthews14 13-15, M 1 Response Oct 23, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Will Stop This Time

    Its been almost a week (i think) since I last scratched/cut although since then I have been hitting my arms, hands, legs and head against walls and corners (tables, doors, cuboards). so does that count as SH? Before I tried to stop the first time I didnt see what I do...
    pine90apple pine90apple 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 26, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    So today, I'm giving up my blades.

    I'm going to my friends house for a cut check, and I'm giving them to him for good. No more taking apart pencil sharpeners, just no blades in general. It is the official day that I'm giving all of this up.
    EmoSakurachan EmoSakurachan 16-17 2 Responses Dec 18, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    HI!

    I started this group because i wanted to add it as a goal. I hope others out there who suffer this problem and want to do something about it will add it to their goals too, and remember this group is here for everyone to help and support each other so don't be afraid to add...
    lifenotknife lifenotknife 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 20, 2007

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Not Self-harming In the Traditional Sense...

    I'm not sure if this qualifies as its somewhat different than cutting or burning.  I often find ways to hurt myself just doing every day things, I have 'accidents'.  I just accidentally stuck my arm in the propane torch, accidentally ran on the treadmill until I...
    FranzJosef FranzJosef 26-30, M Nov 6, 2007

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Oh Dear...

    I've just gotten out of almost a year of treatment but I'm still cutting...I lied and said that I'd stopped. If someone finds out that I'm still self harmng I'll be in tons of trouble...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Oct 27, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Two Things....

    One yes, I plan on stop harming myself. When I am strong enough to deal with life, without having to turn to self injury, than I won't have to turn to hurting myself. Another thing, can the founder of this group, please change the group logo, it is way to triggering, and I ...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 23, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Trying My Hardest

    i started self harming a few years ago, just small cuts and scratches on my arm here and there, but then i got into the habit of cutting more often and deeper.. one person made me realize how bad it really is and how important it is for me to stop for it was getting worse.. so i...
    CountYourBlessings CountYourBlessings 16-17, F Aug 15, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Even with all of this stuff involving my friend

    leaving me when I needed her the most, my ex trying to get me to come back to him, and family troubles. I have managed to go a week without cutting. And I think that is a pretty awesome :) so as I'm writing this I'm collecting all of my blades and throwing them out I feel sad...
    teenagegirl1 teenagegirl1 13-15, F 3 Responses Dec 23, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Breaking The Habit

    I am finally trying hard to quit cutting and brusing myself. The cutting is the biggest issue of the two, but I should not be bruising myself either. I have been cutting myself for three years now and bruising for one year. I have recognized for a little while now that I need to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 4, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    It's been a week since I last cut myself!

    !! I have had a very hard time with this and always have to have something in my hand to keep me from cutting. I hope I can go longer without cutting :)
    teenagegirl1 teenagegirl1 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 13, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Related Experiences

    cant wait until i pick up the knife and start scratching my self with it. im done with the crap of every day life that i go through. no one listens. and i get treated like a mat at...
    alysia28 alysia28 13-15, F 6 Responses Jan 5

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Does anyone have tips on how I can stop, I've been trying so hard. I don't really have anyone to help me through it though.
    lostgirl2001 lostgirl2001 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I know self harming is really bad and that I shouldn't do it anyway but I just can't help it. I don't cut, I scratch. I rarely break the skin, but the lines are visible. One time...
    lily13576349 lily13576349 13-15 Jan 11

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I cut myself as a teenager but stopped. Since that I used to scratch myself till I had cuts and bruises. I managed to stop that. I keep seeing myself cutting myself in my head. I...
    paliglass paliglass 31-35, F 3 Responses Jan 5

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I started in 5th grade, 10 years old. I stopped freshman year. 1 year later I started again and it got worse, first a few cuts a day, the 10 cuts a day. Told myself this year that...
    demonswithin demonswithin 18-21, M a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I can't f*cking stop, it's too hard to. They don't understand how hard it is to stop. They think I'm joking, they think it's all a joke but it's not and the cutting is getting...
    demonswithin demonswithin 18-21, M 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I never feel like I'm never going to be good enough. Despite knowing that comparing yourself to everyone else is just setting yourself up for sadness, I still do it and allow my...
    Ayelleffar Ayelleffar 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 12

    Your Response

    Cancel
    i need to talk to someone i self harm in a physicle way
    15Chelsea 15Chelsea 16-17, M 2 Responses Dec 28, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I slipped up tonight. I think I need stitches for one cut but I don't want to get in trouble. The pain is so bad.
    Roadtorecovery31997 Roadtorecovery31997 16-17, F Jan 18

    Your Response

    Cancel
    *Trigger warnings are in the post* I started self-harming in early 2008. I stopped in late 2011. So four years. I was in highschool then, and finished highschool in 2012. I...
    Nomnomk Nomnomk 18-21, F Jan 4

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have been clean for about 2 monthes its been hard but good. I was never major at doing it. And ive always been able to hide it. And now i dont need to. When i selfharmed they...
    kyleee009 kyleee009 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 11

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I've attempted suicide once by cutting my vein, but that wasn't deep enough and left me alive with a nasty fading scar. I stopped self-harming for about two or three months, but I...
    roseinsurvival roseinsurvival 13-15 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I feel like it's not even worth it to stop self harming anymore these feelings don't go away there's already scars I just don't even feel like trying but I'm almost 2 months clean...
    Ummer1235 Ummer1235 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 6

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My foster dad walked in on my self-harming today. He was so pissed, he just doesn't under stand that him and his family are a big part of the reason I do self harm. I can't take...
    lostgirl2001 lostgirl2001 13-15, F Dec 28, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I wish I could tell anybody that has harmed them selves in any way whether it's self harming, alcohol abuse, drug abuse, an eating disorder.. You CAN get through it but only YOU...
    buttonsandbowsx buttonsandbowsx 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 31, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I'm curious as to if anyone knows why self harmer bodies do what they do.. You know how when you touch something hot or something unpleasant and your body instantly puts up a red...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses Jan 2

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I started self harming myself in 7th grade. I am now in 8th grade, and have to admit that I still do. I first started because, well, I honestly kind of just wanted to try it out...
    davetheestrider davetheestrider 18-21, T 1 Response Jan 8

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I self harmed for about 4 years. I haven't cut in a year. I'm actually very proud of myself for that. But there are times i think about, when i have wondering thoughts. or when I...
    AfraidOfMyOwnMind AfraidOfMyOwnMind 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Happy new year everyone!!! I hope 2015 brings happiness!!! My year has started well, I've had lots of my old mates messaging me appogising and wanting to be mates again!!! :-) I...
    james3950 james3950 13-15, M Dec 31, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel
    self harming used to be my drug,my escape from reality for just a few minutes.
    penguinproblems penguinproblems 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 1

    Your Response

    Cancel
    this is definitely not something im proud of.. but its not something im that ashamed of.. everyone has their way of coping with situations.. and well cutting was mine. i hate when...
    unknownana unknownana 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 7

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I haven't cut in around 6 months.I don't know if I can keep going like this. pretending that I'm happy to everyone. I've gotten so good at acting happy that sometimes I even...
    lonelyjoe16 lonelyjoe16 13-15, M 10 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I haven't had a day where I felt in tune with the world in so long I wonder if it's only something I've dreamed about. The days where I feel in tune with the world and the people...
    Friability Friability 18-21 1 hr ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    And Suicide but I respect those who do it though, I understand that they are going through so much pain and that to them it's their only way out but to me- I see many different...
    AlohaJess AlohaJess 13-15, F 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    when i was little i was horribly bullied. one day he tried to strangle me it got to that point. i was only young about 4 or 5 and since then i've always had incredibly low self...
    makeitsomeday makeitsomeday 18-21, F Dec 27, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I can't deal with the pain of losing my soulmate. We were so prefect together. My whole world is crashing down around me. I'm in incredible physical and emotional pain. Can't...
    EmilyPouliot EmilyPouliot 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 4

    Your Response

    Cancel
    10 years from now I keep having an image pop up, in my mind. I'm sitting down at a computer, it seems, or maybe I'm writing something on a piece of paper. I look occupied, but...
    TheAnonymousINFx TheAnonymousINFx 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 4