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I Am Going to Stop Self Harming

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    Every Time I Think I Have Beaten This..

    I'm currently a 22-year-old student. I have been struggling with self-harm ever since I can remember, with my most vivid memory at about 8-10 years old when I ripped out my non-loose baby tooth in order for my mom (who has some issues of her own) to stop being...
    jumpfish jumpfish 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 8, 2009

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    I Keep Trying

    I keep trying to stop harming myself and i did for 3 yrs but then my boyfriend of 5 yrs left me and my 1 yr old. its been 2 weeks and i just am so depressed. I am trying to be strong for him but it is so hard. I guess because i have these moments when i cant see past the...
    prettybutterfly4521 prettybutterfly4521 26-30 3 Responses Nov 10, 2008

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    Breaking The Habit

    I am finally trying hard to quit cutting and brusing myself. The cutting is the biggest issue of the two, but I should not be bruising myself either. I have been cutting myself for three years now and bruising for one year. I have recognized for a little while now that I need to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 4, 2012

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    Oh Dear...

    I've just gotten out of almost a year of treatment but I'm still cutting...I lied and said that I'd stopped. If someone finds out that I'm still self harmng I'll be in tons of trouble...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Oct 27, 2008

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    So today, I'm giving up my blades.

    I'm going to my friends house for a cut check, and I'm giving them to him for good. No more taking apart pencil sharpeners, just no blades in general. It is the official day that I'm giving all of this up.
    EmoSakurachan EmoSakurachan 16-17 2 Responses Dec 18, 2013

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    HI!

    I started this group because i wanted to add it as a goal. I hope others out there who suffer this problem and want to do something about it will add it to their goals too, and remember this group is here for everyone to help and support each other so don't be afraid to add...
    loobiesa loobiesa 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 20, 2007

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    Even with all of this stuff involving my friend

    leaving me when I needed her the most, my ex trying to get me to come back to him, and family troubles. I have managed to go a week without cutting. And I think that is a pretty awesome :) so as I'm writing this I'm collecting all of my blades and throwing them out I feel sad...
    teenagegirl1 teenagegirl1 13-15, F 3 Responses Dec 23, 2013

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    The Butterfly Project

    Ive been determined to stop self harming for years and every time it beats me But this time I've found a better method that either could work or could fail dramatically I'm doing this not only for myself, but for my friends because they hate seeing me do this to myself and I...
    ImOkayNow ImOkayNow 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 26, 2011

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    It's been a week since I last cut myself!

    !! I have had a very hard time with this and always have to have something in my hand to keep me from cutting. I hope I can go longer without cutting :)
    teenagegirl1 teenagegirl1 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 13, 2013

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    I just threw my blades away.

    I already want to get them out again but I am finally determined to actually stop.
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    Hurts

    i have been self mutilating for quite some time now. sometime i burn, but i mostly cut.i cant wear short sleeves/sleveless things cos my left arm is full of scars that never will heal. i found out that i have a skin condiotion ca;lled keloid, meaning my scars wil never heal...
    TeeVee TeeVee 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 20, 2008

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    I Will Stop This Time

    Its been almost a week (i think) since I last scratched/cut although since then I have been hitting my arms, hands, legs and head against walls and corners (tables, doors, cuboards). so does that count as SH? Before I tried to stop the first time I didnt see what I do...
    pine90apple pine90apple 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 26, 2009

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    So I plan on stopping

    for good now. I don't know how well this will work because I've tried it before, and it didn't work well since it only lasted not even 6 months. But I asked my friend if he would help me stop, because he's told me that I'm better than this and it's nothing but a terrible...
    EmoSakurachan EmoSakurachan 16-17 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    Being Scared Can Make You Change Your Mind About Anything

    My boyfriend and I had just finished smoking and the lighter was still hot. He has really calloused feet so he pressed it on his foot as sort of an experiment thing, because he's just like that. He said he couldn't feel anything and was all amused, and I told him not to do that...
    cococrazy cococrazy 16-17, F Jul 27, 2013

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    Two Things....

    One yes, I plan on stop harming myself. When I am strong enough to deal with life, without having to turn to self injury, than I won't have to turn to hurting myself. Another thing, can the founder of this group, please change the group logo, it is way to triggering, and I ...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 23, 2009

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    Trying My Hardest

    i started self harming a few years ago, just small cuts and scratches on my arm here and there, but then i got into the habit of cutting more often and deeper.. one person made me realize how bad it really is and how important it is for me to stop for it was getting worse.. so i...
    CountYourBlessings CountYourBlessings 16-17, F Aug 15, 2008

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    Depression.

    We all have those low times in our lives that make us want to give up. We realize we just don't want to live in this world anymore, what's there left for me here? Most our my generation has lost hope, has sunk into depression with no escape. So many of us have committed suicide...
    Arriesrose Arriesrose 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 7, 2013

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    3 days without cutting!

    - still can't bring myself to throw the blades out but this is a start. I'm taking it each day at a time but my aim is to give up for lent and then by then I won't need to do it any more. I have stopped before but I relapsed after a month, this time I hope I can stop...
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 6

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    Almost There. :)

    I am almost ready to finally throw away my glass shards. I am close to the point to where I can completely break the addiction and go without feeling the need to cut. I am so thankful for EP. Here, I finally could release my issues and move on. I am such a strong person now. Yes...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Mar 30, 2012

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    My Story

    I've been cutting for over five years now.  I've tried to stop several times, but I've never made it anywhere with it.  I really wish I could stop, but I just haven't made it to that point yet.  I hope that one day I will be able to stop.  Right now...
    udontno udontno 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 8, 2009

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    Not Self-harming In the Traditional Sense...

    I'm not sure if this qualifies as its somewhat different than cutting or burning.  I often find ways to hurt myself just doing every day things, I have 'accidents'.  I just accidentally stuck my arm in the propane torch, accidentally ran on the treadmill until I...
    FranzJosef FranzJosef 26-30, M Nov 6, 2007

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    Related Experiences

    My sister has started self harming again. She was clean for awhile but she started a week ago again.
    blahlahblah599 blahlahblah599 16-17, F Jul 24

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    I've been pretty good with not touching a blade, even if it's in sight. I just didn't have the urge to do it. Until a few nights ago, when I started thinking about all the things I...
    SwimmingDarkness SwimmingDarkness 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    As a 13-year old cutter, I can say that living with scars is difficult. I have to hide in my own home, I can't shower after gym class with the other girls, I can't wear shorts or T...
    ColourfulDreams ColourfulDreams 13-15, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    It's been rough. I'd tell you all about it but I know what would be said, and frankly I don't want the advice. What's right for you won't always be what's right for someone else...
    MyMonstersHideUnderMySkin MyMonstersHideUnderMySkin 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 25

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    There just comes a point in life when you're completely done, it just so happens that that point is now. I'm eighteen and I feel like I have nothing to live for. I had a...
    LeslieMarie247 LeslieMarie247 18-21, F 9 Responses Jul 29

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    After staying clean for almost a month, I relapsed tonight. It would be appreciated if you guys would pray that I can completely place my faith in God and let him lead me out of...
    Ellyhi Ellyhi 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 29

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    I have good days and bad days. Today would be the latter. I really want to cut but cigarette burns are easier and less noticeable. I hate just laying here overthinking. Kill me.
    TheLonelyStoner95 TheLonelyStoner95 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 2

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    I relapsed a couple days ago i didn't cut yesterday. I need to talk to my mom and dad and uncle about getting therapy and ending this crap for once and for all.
    laserabe1 laserabe1 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 2

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    I don't do it for attention and people who do do it for attention are stupid. I know it's not a good way to cope but now I'm addicted. I don't seek attention. I seek help. You don...
    faithy8888 faithy8888 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 13

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    I feel like I have no confidence anymore. I stopped self harming, but I'm beginning to feel the need again. I'm always being happy in front of others, but inside it's like I'm...
    namelessjosie namelessjosie 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 31

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    It's been one year that I've stopped self harming it was very hard at first but I've got more than 20 dirty scars on my left arm and I'm not proud of it, I'm kind of ashamed...
    femalerebel femalerebel 13-15, F Aug 6

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    If you cut or use to, please read this. I'm doing a survey for future understanding of self harm as I may become a therapist. I understand that a lot of people don't like talking...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 8 Responses 3 days ago

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    Ok, some people believe self harm is only cutting yourself. But let me tell you self harm can be done in so many more ways. I've always had an issue with anger, and a big one at...
    Redmaynes Redmaynes 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    2Years later and I still think about it... I didn't start until I was 13 and had never even heard about it my childhood was a very painful one filled with abuse and neglect as...
    Forbiddenkisses Forbiddenkisses 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 10

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    I find self harming utterly stupid. Why don't you take a look at the bed you sleep on, the good you eat, the roof you have over your head. If you have problems why don't you just...
    ChaoticCaroline ChaoticCaroline 13-15, F 15 Responses Jul 27

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    My parents check my wrists from time to time, so I can't cut there :( I want to so bad, I think it would feel loads better than cutting my thighs. Today I did a large burn, right...
    HorizonHeart HorizonHeart 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    since the age of 12 i have self harmed, i have a lot of scars and i regret them all but i still cant help but cut myself, however i used to do it daily and now its once a week or...
    fantasycaver fantasycaver 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 2

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    Nothing massively life changing happened to me to trigger my self harming, i just started one day when the everyday social struggles and my own self hate became too much. Now that...
    Gallobaby Gallobaby 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 28

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    I started self harming when I was 6. The older I got the worst it was. I cut, burn, and sometimes I would even set parts of my arm on fire. I don't do it as much anymore. I only...
    MgkLez96 MgkLez96 18-21, F Aug 2

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    Getting clean.. I'm finally over my addiction to self harming.. This is the best I've felt in a long long time..
    SqueakyRaveFox SqueakyRaveFox 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 7

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    I burn. I use my curling iron. I have 7 or 8 burns. I started self harming a couple days ago. I've contemplated cutting myself but I never would. I've been depressed and had bad...
    ohlordimamess ohlordimamess 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    19 weeks clean today...that's right!! Every week I just get more excited!! I can't believe I'm almost at 5 months...last time I made it 4 and I lost it all...this time is different...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 4

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    Selfharm is a cry for help ... It is not intentionally reacted upon oneself to purposely cut, burn, hit themselves ... It is a sentiment of relief and it is not a "attention...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 12

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    I used to love harming now I don't like it but I'm still addicted to it and it truly helps. I just don't like the look on my arms and legs after.
    ruledbydepression ruledbydepression 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 30

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    The bravest thing I do is continue living when I don't want to. The strongest thing I do is hot harming myself when I get the urge to. The scariest thing I do is stay alone when...
    Katiepoohmm Katiepoohmm 18-21, F Aug 13

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    My story can be quite a long one, but to sum it up semi-quickly I had started cutting myself on my 16th birthday. I truly can't remember what had caused me to start, I just know...
    LostInALife LostInALife 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 25

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    Dammit. I'm going to start behaving with a little more self-respect starting now. No more fawning over him, he doesn't want me. That's fine. No recriminations. But I will have...
    Specificity Specificity 36-40, F Jul 26

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    More trouble I had two weeks off work and was dreading going back, not because I hate it but because of the chaos that might have ensued while I was gone; who knows what awful...
    CrookedMan CrookedMan 46-50 Jul 26

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