I Am Good At Hiding My Feelings

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    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Nov 23, 2014

    It's easier to act stupid,

    crazy, and happy in front of friends and family than to show them that I actually slowly dying inside.
    DarlingItWillBeOkay DarlingItWillBeOkay
    13-15, F
    4 Responses Aug 21, 2014

    I've always had a problem with being self

    conscious. I think being self conscious in small amounts is a good thing. But I'm at a point in my life where I've come to terms with things that made me depressed. Things that made me do things I'm ashamed of even thinking about to myself. My father has always been a tough love...
    TKS00000 TKS00000
    22-25, M
    1 Response Mar 1, 2015

    I dont think I have ever opened up

    for anyone.. for real! Not even my (now ex-) best friend. Not my parents. No one! If Im sad, I'll either put on a big smile or try to avoid people that day. Which is hard since Im the 'happy girl' in class. I just can't talk about stuff with anyone, though a lot of people have...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Oct 16, 2014
    Elizabeth1411 Elizabeth1411
    18-21, F
    Jul 22, 2014

    I am a clam, a sponge.

    I absorb and I don't show how heavy I find it. I hide in the shadows in my mind, and twinkle in the moonlight. I step out into the sun, but always I have my sunglasses!
    Skjeggstad Skjeggstad
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 22, 2014

    lovers only virtually I met a guy in January

    on a website. and he is amazing. we chat when ever we can. We call each other all the time. thibg is we live opposite sides of the country and yesterday he was sent to do training for his new job in Denmark. and im a single mum to twins. we chat about everything. he's the only...
    sammyjo963 sammyjo963
    26-30, F
    1 Response May 3, 2015
    kmisfit123 kmisfit123
    18-21, F
    Feb 12, 2014
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 19, 2014

    People think ohh she's

    so happy everyday nope u wrong I keep my stuff in said nobody is to b trusted
    nikeler nikeler
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jun 5, 2014

    I'm emotionally divorced from my body.

    I have benefited from this "skill" on multiple occasions; however, some people think I'm heartless because of this. Which is fine, everyone is entitled to their opinions. I just saw this topic and I wanted to contribute /share.
    RichardHertz RichardHertz
    36-40, M
    Jun 19, 2014

    My friends think I'm calm,

    put together, and just full of self confidence but what they don't know is sometimes I need reassurance and maybe just a hug.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 23, 2014

    Whenever anyone asks,

    "How are you." I always reply with, "Fine."
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 24, 2014

    The Feelings With In Me

    I am really at telling people how I feel because sometimes I just have no explanation for them. I always feel better when I help other people with their problems, I just have a heart more than anyone I know that lives around me as long as my friends, the pack, and my family are...
    brokenedspirit brokenedspirit
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 23, 2012

    we kissed before you left,

    i pretended i didnt want more. i miss you already and i wanted to fall asleep in your arms.
    ohdeebomdia ohdeebomdia
    16-17, F
    Nov 28, 2014
    existJenna existJenna
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Nov 29, 2014

    I'm So Good At It...

    ...that i could hide my feelings from myself. i don't like expressing my feelings and i don't like how i feel when i do express my feelings, so i hide them. i know it's not healthy, but i've been doing it all my life. it's hard to have a close romantic relationship if you can't...
    NaNeenah NaNeenah
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Apr 4, 2008

    I recently just got dumped

    and told that it was because I am ugly and annoying . we had been together for almost year , he bought me a ring and everything . he was the biggest sweetheart and when he left for college though he completely changed . I can barely eat , I don't want to talk to anyone at home...
    abbyhh25 abbyhh25
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jul 25, 2014

    Hidden by sib232228 Why do we give up what's

    valuable to us because of our friends? The answer is simple friends are valuable. Friends and family are the most valuable things you can have in your Earthly life. Even if it means giving up who we like to keep them happy. Even if it means sacrificing your feelings for...
    Sib232228 Sib232228
    16-17, F
    Jan 3, 2015
    laxprincess laxprincess
    16-17, F
    Aug 17, 2014

    I may be down in the dumps,

    but than you send me a picture which was you posing as me in one of my old not so attractive pictures. It was cute. :) Thank you for making me smile.
    littlejxoxo littlejxoxo
    26-30, F
    Jul 24, 2015

    Some people will never know

    that behind all the laughter I am terrified and crying.
    AnomalousEarthling AnomalousEarthling
    26-30, F
    1 Response Oct 5, 2014

    Hard Exterior, Soft & Cushy Inside

    Maybe I'm too good at hiding my feelings. I think half the time it's hiding, and half the time I just don't know how to express them or am too shy to express them fully. Consequently, I think many people think I have no feelings. In fact, I'm talking to an ex, now a friend, about...
    blueberryoctopus blueberryoctopus
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 1, 2011

    it is so easy to pretend; although,

    it is so difficult to hide them when you are not here. Your strength gives me a reason, your weakness makes me angry but your absence kill me. I wish you were here...
    Lhily Lhily
    36-40, M
    Nov 28, 2014

    My longtime friend has really distanced herself

    from me and it makes me really sad and upset but all I do is go around acting like I'm okay with it
    hebr0 hebr0
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 16, 2014

    People have literally gotten mad at me

    because I don't vocalize what's going on in my mind and it's nearly impossible to figure out what I'm thinking without me saying something. It's both a blessing and a curse.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jan 26, 2015

    I'm not a happy girl,

    infact I'm a very sad one. I walk around with scars and cuts under my clothes that not many people have ever seen and when they do they're disgusted with me and that makes me feel so much worse
    Blueeyedprincesses Blueeyedprincesses
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 19, 2014
    pinkylo7 pinkylo7
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 31, 2014

    Hiding Hurt

    Hiding your hurt only intensifies it. Problems grow in the dark and only become bigger and bigger, but when exposed to the light of truth, they shrink. You are only as sick as your secrets. So take off your mask, stop pretending, you’re perfect, walk into freedom.--Purpose...
    Wings1969 Wings1969
    46-50, F
    Mar 29, 2012

    sometimes it is the best idea to hide your

    feeling, this is because they're people in this world that will be quick to grab an opportunity to take advantage of thoughts who are emotionally weak, because they will know what makes that person crack; some will even be manipulative enough to gain control over that person
    Elizabeth1411 Elizabeth1411
    18-21, F
    Jul 22, 2014

    I just want to let out some feelings.

    Right now I just feel annoyed and tired, just unmotivated. I should feel happy, I started a new job today. It wasn't what I thought it was going to be, but I have to just deal with it. I don't see myself growing with this. I'm shy, and introverted. I wanted to be somewhere else...
    littlejxoxo littlejxoxo
    26-30, F
    1 Response Aug 11, 2015

    It's crazy how good of a liar I've become.

    I'm like a pro. Even the police believed my smile and laugh saying I would never think of self harm or Suicide.... I'm getting too good at this... Now Im starting to lie to myself...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Feb 14, 2014

    I smile on the outside

    and hide my depressed self within, walking round with cuts that only two people know about
    vicky282 vicky282
    13-15, F
    Jun 19, 2014

    My sister is so open about her feelings

    and I just keep mine to myself feeling like a burden in people's lives. If I try to tell someone how I feel I usually get cut off by someone else. So I'm reluctant to share feelings with people unless I think they're good friends.
    SianWendy SianWendy
    18-21, F
    3 Responses May 17, 2014

    People say its not good to bottle up emotions

    but I don't care lol I do it anyway! When someone hurts me and I'm dying inside I still throw a smile on my face and no one knows if I'm hurting I call that a skill it's almost like a game of charades XD
    PantyQueen95 PantyQueen95
    18-21, T
    1 Response Oct 1, 2014

    I'm great at hiding how I really feel from

    everyone around me, even myself.
    saladays saladays
    16-17, M
    1 Response Jan 26, 2015

    Until I really like someone

    and it completely changes me for the worse and I get so paranoid it's ridiculous.
    Unicornpeasant Unicornpeasant
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 7, 2015

    My boyfriend broke up with me

    because my phone has a problem and he thinks it affects our relationship. Cause his friend said "if my boyfriend had a bad phone I would dump him" Mind you we have been together for a year I've never been emotionally abused as much as this before
    crazyminds crazyminds
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jul 25, 2014

    I just want to be important to someone,

    you know, to matter to them, to feel needed. Not wanted, wanted is a desire. I want to know, to feel, that if I suddenly disappeared, you would not be okay. That my presence in your life matters. I bet that feeling is nice.
    parkerropes parkerropes
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 26, 2014

    so that dreadful night of three years ago is

    approaching 17th of august. from that night that was supposed to be a good night of fun at a friends house for a little drink. but others turned up.. (you can read my experience from ages ago about being date raped) but I'm choosing to reflect on how far ive come. Im not scared...
    sammyjo963 sammyjo963
    26-30, F
    1 Response Aug 1, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 8, 2015

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    cherryxblossom cherryxblossom
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    Apr 20
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    46-50, F
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    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 20
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    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 20
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