I Am Good At Pretending That I Am Okay

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    Well yeah I am good at it.

    But it breaks me inside. I am not happy. This is not what I expect.
    IAMPINAY IAMPINAY
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Feb 18, 2016

    Oh my gosh is the pain (physical) real today!

    !! I just want to stay home but we have a tour at work today and I need to be there for it. Idk maybe I can get out of work early and go get a massage.... For now and smile and a little make up will have to do... :/
    TristeMuneca87 TristeMuneca87
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 23, 2016

    Everyone thinks we're the cute,

    lovey couple who have this great relationship. If they only knew it's been *years* since he's wanted to touch me. We love each other, but we're just roommates who happen to share a bed. It's his issue, but he doesn't want to fix it. I'm so lonely.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses May 15, 2015

    I'm still in the closet

    as gay to my family. I've known since 6th grade (I'm a senior now) and it's taken a toll on me. Depression, self-esteem issues, it was only last year that my life started to turn around. I met my current gay best friend and started coming out to people I know would support and...
    pantswetter98 pantswetter98
    26-30, M
    1 Response Oct 15, 2015

    i am really good at it ur lucky

    if i tell u whats wrong that means u mean alot and i trust u
    SexyBabyGirl1234 SexyBabyGirl1234
    13-15, F
    Nov 17, 2015

    So, tired.. Feeling my smile,

    my wall of perfection fade, people are going to start figuring out something is wrong, fix it Missy... fix it.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 4, 2015

    My big sister always told me to

    but on a smile and pretend to be okay so that's what I've been doing but lately it's been really hard. I try my best to stay cheerful and smile but I can't take it anymore.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jan 27, 2016

    Am I Ok? Thats what you asked,

    "am I ok?" No I am not okay. Why do you ask? Do you even care? ****. I know better then to respond with anything else besides "Yea I am fine." Makes no sence to explane again why I am not okay. You knew the answer to that question before you asked. I am so tired of...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Sep 7, 2015

    I think we all are. We all have something

    that pains us and most of us just keep it bottled up. I like to think I've mastered the pretending thing. There are subjects I just don't talk about, drunk or not. (I talk A LOT when I'm drunk.) Whether this is good or bad, it gets me by and I just keep on pretending.
    DisappearIntoSilence DisappearIntoSilence
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Oct 19, 2015

    I went to Florida for vacation.

    the boy I loved most left me the first night in Florida. he said he'd never hurt me. but he's the one who hurt me most.. I had to not cry for a week straight about it. I was sharing a room with my little cousin. she couldn't see me like that, crying at night. so I waited. a...
    catherinecrisp catherinecrisp
    16-17, F
    Nov 18, 2015

    Just put a smile on your face

    and everyone thinks you are fine.
    TeresaChanaki TeresaChanaki
    16-17, F
    Oct 11, 2014

    I can put on a brave face

    that almost always fools everyone. I don't like to show other people that I'm having problems or that I'm struggling with something, I guess it's pride.
    CloakedStranger CloakedStranger
    26-30, M
    1 Response Feb 10, 2014

    Outwardly no one can tell.

    Actually most people I meet comment on what a happy person I am. But on the inside I am dying. I want someone to choose me. I want to be someone's everything/anything. I don't want to be lonely anymore.
    ch3ll3 ch3ll3
    31-35, F
    Oct 3, 2014

    I hate when someone asks,

    "How are you?" And you take a moment to playback in your head how you feel so low and horribly alone. You could sum up how terrible your feeling and let it all out...but instead you keep all your troubles in, as you breathe out a sigh and reply, "I'm fine."
    Moonlight0runner Moonlight0runner
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Apr 18, 2015

    all it takes is a smile.

    no one else will know how bad it really is.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Oct 15, 2015

    In fact, I am so good at this,

    that I've gone through failed relationships, family deaths, and huge family problems and my closest friends know nothing about this.
    Jkabstmnijno Jkabstmnijno
    18-21, F
    Nov 4, 2015

    nope. nothing. I'm ok.

    I'm fine. smile big. I'm perfectly perfect.. I think... hmmm..
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 16, 2015

    I've become quite the pro at pretending I'm ok.

    I've been doing for so long now. Life seems a lot easier that way.
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Jan 27, 2016

    I've been pretending I'm okay

    for so long I've mastered the art. I tell myself that someday I will take a time out and go somewhere out in nature all alone and scream until I can scream no more and cry until I have no more tears but for now I keep a smile and pretend I'm not falling apart so I can wake up...
    thescarletibis thescarletibis
    51-55, F
    1 Response Sep 16, 2014

    Since my job requires me to always be smiling

    and looking good ... No one really notices that im sad or angry or uncomfortable or even if i have been crying for days ... Ill always wear my smile and pretending that i am not just ok but im fantastic and extremely happy ... Yes im good at pretending.
    rb47 rb47
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jul 25, 2015
    ForeverKittenn ForeverKittenn
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Sep 15, 2014
    g4it g4it
    26-30, F
    1 Response Feb 26, 2016

    im getting tired of putting a smile on my face

    and acting like evrything is okay when it isnt. I just want to runaway and hide
    godsgift1993 godsgift1993
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Nov 2, 2014

    Saturday November 28th "We all have

    that day in which we feel alone and are in need of a hug from that special someone" Sometimes my Facebook feed has some posts worth sharing here xo peeps...
    TristeMuneca87 TristeMuneca87
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Nov 28, 2015

    I mean I managed to convince my parents

    that I'm okay now and don't need to see a therapist anymore even though I would still definitely jump in front of a train if given the chance
    prettyboyy prettyboyy
    13-15, T
    Dec 15, 2015
    lobosluv lobosluv
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Nov 4, 2015

    I can lie to anyone that I'm okay,

    but he's the only one that knows I'm really not. He won't push me to tell him, but I love his caring heart.
    rebecky1221 rebecky1221
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jun 29, 2015

    I have been told recently by friends

    that I hide my emotions. I can be hurting or mad as hell etc but when asked I'll say I'm ok. It's not bc I'm not willing to show emotion but bc I don't want to burden others with my drama. People have enough drama in their on life without mine adding to it. So I continue to say...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Oct 25, 2014

    Sometimes, when you put the facade on

    that everything should be fine, people start believing you when you say it is. Don't you ever want to just buy into that too? Just believe for a few minutes that everything is ok before reality comes back? Sometimes, the reality of life feels a bit overwhelming. I just wish...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Feb 19, 2016

    I smile and act hyper that's how I hide it I

    usually only talk about random things so nobody knows someone ask me if I'm ok I'll be I'm fine XD and ya ya know only one person truly gets me everybody else sees the happy me(the fake me) they don't care to know how I actually feel etc. so I mean yea
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Oct 16, 2015

    Today words hurt me..

    quite profoundly..and no one knew how deep. The words were lies but if they say it loud enough.... if enough people say the same, one questions the truth. Words of strangers do not bother me..but it's hard to defend against someone who you invited past your guards...I pretended...
    Lastpoppy Lastpoppy
    26-30, M
    Mar 11, 2015

    I don't know how my brother in law can tell I'm

    not okay. But he was right, I'm a mess.
    druggedondreams druggedondreams
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Dec 23, 2015

    I'm really good at it.

    People seriously ask me how I am so happy. I want to laugh to them and say "Me and being happy in the same sentence? You gotta be kidding me." but instead of I just smile and say "Stay positive. " Oh, I wish you could see whats happening in my mind. and I wish you could see my...
    darklotus01 darklotus01
    13-15, T
    1 Response Feb 7, 2016

    i got used to it. i learnt

    that showing your feelings to others and making yourself "weak" in front of them doesn't always turn out good. you'd be surprised of how others are good at pretending. you don't want to actually know how much people don't care about you or your feekigs and how fake they...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Apr 18, 2015

    I am more than good at pretending.

    . my whole life is one giant act.. do I even know who I truly am anymore
    svencerr svencerr
    26-30, F
    May 18, 2015

    I will just have to keep doing

    that from now on. I opened up about my life, I thought it was a safe place, I guess not though. Still no one cares about anything I have to say, so I will just tell everyone I am fine no matter how I am really feeling.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic
    31-35, F
    Oct 15, 2015

    I have become practically a pro at it by now.

    I hide my true feeling from specific people sometimes and sometimes on rarer occasions I hide them from a very very specific person....At first I never really knew how to explain how it worked with me but I do now. My happiness isn't as important as yours is to me. so I will...
    Raptax231 Raptax231
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Oct 10, 2014

    It's Hard To Fathom The Idea Of Going To School

    And Being Seen As The Most Cheerful, Sweet, Funny Person ; And Then Going Home To Your Depressing Thoughts.
    Erie23 Erie23
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 16, 2015

    I don't even know what's wrong anymore.

    . I don't know what I feel. all I know is I am not okay. but I have to smile anyway because I have people who depend on me to be happy..
    thetruemisfit thetruemisfit
    18-21, F
    Nov 17, 2015

    This is one talent I've mastered.

    ... But I'm not okay..... I won't be okay...... If I don't have you.......
    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 31, 2014

    like always though peace can be done.

    sometimes stepping away from a certain type of social group can change the effects of how people will look at you.im so content that people assume im passive a lot when really I don't like negative energy my body is so messed up from things its like my heart skips a beat I...
    MyraTomPhil MyraTomPhil
    26-30, F
    1 Response Oct 15, 2015

    I think I have been down

    for so long that people think that is just how I am. I always say I'm ok because I am so broken right now I don't think I could stand any more bullying. I am a bleeding heart, and I'm not sure it can be fixed, there is so much wrong in my life currently I am considering just...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Nov 18, 2015

    Letting my family know how depressed I am at

    work sometimes just seems to make them feel disappointed in me. So now I just have to pretend like everything is fine and dandy but every time I get up to go to work I feel miserable. I guess most people don't like their jobs so I guess I should just try to suck it up and be...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Dec 16, 2015

    actually m like a poker face.

    ..lol..u'll never knoe wats on my mind so judging me is a waste of ur precious time... :p
    phoenixangel1802 phoenixangel1802
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 15, 2015

    I have always been good at hiding whats going

    on inside me.... The fact that I want to carve into my arm and not worry about what the world would think is going on. That I want to cry right now cause well I haven't heard from someone all day.... and haven't since yesterday.... I am falling apart and so totally depressed...
    Starbuck82 Starbuck82
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Sep 5, 2015

    So here we go, anxiety building up again.

    I feel like everything is always on me to figure out and resolve. I feel like I am getting pulled multiple ways and I am just so ready to say "**** all this **** figure it out yourself!" There's this personal matter my husband needs to handle in Mexico this January and he claims...
    TristeMuneca87 TristeMuneca87
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Dec 14, 2015

    I'm always pretending

    that I am "okay" or at least I feel like I am always pretending. I feel like I don't really know who I am. I'm just this soul with confused thoughts. [i like it but I don't, I want it but I don't. I'm fine, but I'm not. None of it matters, but it does.] I don't even know if my...
    amessofgorgeouschaos amessofgorgeouschaos
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 12, 2015

    Everyday I wake up, and put a smile on my face,

    and 'I'm Fine' to anyone who ask. Nobody truly knows what happens inside my head. Or in My heart. Everything I'm battling I just keep inside. But, I just wanna let it all out.
    GoneGirl17 GoneGirl17
    18-21, F
    3 Responses May 21, 2015

    I went to see my parents today.

    They were just a few blocks from my last appt so I thought I'd stop by to say hello and pick up my mail. I love my parents, but they don't get me or understand me. Growing up, I've learned that they are very cautious and conservative. They don't like to try anything new because...
    airzm airzm
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Dec 16, 2015

    My life is such a mess right now!

    I need to get my life back in order. I want to wake up every morning loving my life. I want to free from the feeling that somehow, somewhere I'm failing at something. Why me, God? :(
    neitheratomboynoragirlygirl neitheratomboynoragirlygirl
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Oct 15, 2015

    It's been a 2 weeks since my parents got

    divorced, and I want to tell them that I'm gay but i don't think it's the best time right now, what should i do? ;A;
    KitorasDoll KitorasDoll
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Jan 26, 2016

    I've suffered a few extremely personal loss in

    my family. I miss them terribly. When my brother passed, everything was dark. I won't get into details, but I was lost. I think about my brother constantly, but I try to confine those feelings. They'll do nothing but hurt. My friends know what happened, but what they don't know...
    isabel001 isabel001
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 16, 2015

    I got so used to acting,

    I can almost fool even myself.
    maiomeN maiomeN
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Oct 25, 2014

    I have habit of saying I am ok

    but I don't be. I am trying to learn how not to let other people actions or words get to me. For the most part when someone hurt me I don't say anything. I quickly forgive. But on the inside I am hurting and no one knows. I am tired of explaining my sensitivity to people or...
    thesecrettearkeeper thesecrettearkeeper
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Nov 2, 2014
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