I Am Guarded

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    I'm a guarded person

    so if I let you in and tell you things that are hard for me to say otherwise that means that you mean something to me. If you give me any indication that your taking advantage of me or just doing something negative you better ******* believe that I've already put my guard back...
    lifesize lifesize
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 15, 2014

    Why do I do this to myself?

    I don't know what it is, but any time I like someone, and I get so much as a feeling that he might like me back, I shut down and avoid him altogether; I push him away; I don't want to do it, and I don't know why I do it, but I do, and I don't know how to let people in.
    Madigascar Madigascar
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 21, 2013

    I Live In A Complex Jail Of Emotion...

    It's like someone took a glass cage and captured me in it...and that someone is ME. The other day I looked at myself in the mirror and started to cry, I had run out of ways to unleash my emotion (cutting, etc.) because I decided not to do them anymore. I never tell people...
    meowlucy meowlucy
    18-21, F
    Jul 10, 2011

    Because I have been left more often

    than done the leaving myself. Because I love and trust with all I have. Because its easier to replace broken things with brand new ones. Because my heart is saving the last piece still untouched by bitter cynicism.
    girlyusername girlyusername
    26-30, F
    Mar 9, 2014

    ....and Deny It

    I don't like to post how I'm feeling on EP. I feel it's whiny, needy, a cry for help. Yet, when I see others' feelings, I don't think of them as whiny, needy people. I send a gesture, a gift, a little something just to let them know they are not alone. I never thought I was...
    deleted deleted
    8 Responses Jul 13, 2010

    I Think I'm Too Guarded

    I have always been an emotional person. I had emotional outbursts as a teenager and vented but never really let my guard down. I would be angry for many reasons but if someone would ask me what was wrong I'd pick the easier and less personal one (the safe excuse) and say that...
    zlanki28 zlanki28
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 14, 2011

    I Had This Bookmarked

    I thought I'd share it. It is like this guy crawled into my head when he wrote it: It Sucks Being Guarded And Difficult To Love Aug. 16, 2012 By Christopher Hudspeth You have to be close to someone to genuinely love them, so from the jump I make that difficult. It’s not...
    deleted deleted
    Apr 19, 2013

    Don't Tell Nobody

    i didn't really know what it was all i knew was i was getting headaches from not speaking my mind or telling anyone anything until my friend goes 'you're very guarded'. it was that obvious. when someone tells me anything at all, i'd keep it in, not speak my mind because i didn...
    izzyd izzyd
    18-21, F
    Oct 9, 2011
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