I Am HIV Positive

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,164 People

    Confused,nervous, conflicted.

    First dkcs appt after being diagnosed is this week and I'm emotionally drained.
    NowImDPressed NowImDPressed
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Jan 13

    There's no such a thing

    as a happy life after being HIV+
    Pather2013 Pather2013
    46-50, M
    3 Responses Jan 28

    Hey everyone. Just joined this app today.

    I would like to share my story with you . Had always perfect lifestyle . Doing job that I always wanted ,healthy, lots if travel, great and healthy family and amazing 2 best friends. Then one day went as a support to my friend to the clinic. She felt anxious of testing and I...
    1981angel 1981angel
    31-35, M
    5 Responses May 17, 2014

    Is it possible to get hiv without penetration.

    From genital rubbing if fluids are present. Had and got all the symptoms
    Mikeysanche Mikeysanche
    31-35, M
    1 Response Mar 28

    And The Waves Will Not Take Me

    I was 21 years old, it was a hot summer day in june when I found out. I got a call from the health department telling me someone that I had sex with contracted an STD. Having the decency to be upfront and honest, I went over to get tested. Sitting in the waiting room was torture...
    JayChi22 JayChi22
    22-25, M
    7 Responses Jan 11, 2012

    So I've been positive

    for almost 20 years now, when I was 10 I started to wonder why do I get treated so differently, get tired so easily, couldn't do things most kids my age could do, like sleep over, go to camp, or have friends over, so one day my dad had my doctor explain to me everything I was...
    champion19 champion19
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Mar 31, 2015

    Hi everyone I am a32 year old male

    and I live in Barbados, that's in the Caribbean. I was diagnosed in early February with HIV. It hit me really hard. I told my gf about it and she was tested and came back negative. She decided to leave me. I haven't told anyone else about my status. I started atripla on the 23...
    Truvada Truvada
    31-35, M
    3 Responses Mar 28

    It's been a while since I've posted anything on

    here. It's been six months since I started antiretroviral therapy, and I am now undetectable. Upon an unfortunate series of events in my early adulthood I still remain thankful for everything that has occurred, the strength I've accumulated throughout this experiences has been...
    bao94 bao94
    22-25, M
    7 Responses Jun 14, 2014

    Today is day 15 without smoking .

    I feel great . HIV is an awful dizzies but we can control it by medication !!! And we are very lucky to have it these days. Actually just would like to say that HIV "maybe " changed my life to Better !!!! Eating healthy , stopped smoking , juicing every day fresh vegetable and...
    1981angel 1981angel
    31-35, M
    3 Responses Jun 29, 2014

    I found out I was HIV positive on the 6th of

    November 2015, that is a day I will never forget. waiting for my results I had a thought in the back of my mind that maybe I am positive , then the nurse came and told me I was infact positive. I've never experienced such pain in my life before and I still have episodes of pain...
    HerMajesty31 HerMajesty31
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Mar 23

    Learning To Love Life

    well its been along road almost 4yrs now since i was diagnosed,ive almost died n given up on myself at sum points but im finally in a good place.i have an amzing family and i was blessed tomeet an awesome girl who has became my best friend..life is never easy and wen ur handed...
    anthonysmommy36 anthonysmommy36
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Jun 16, 2012

    Hi everyone, Thank you

    so much for the positive feedback on my post yesterday. I believe the reason I am HIV positive is so I can bring healing to myself and others. Now, today's post might be a bit longer as I would like to briefly share how I contracted the chronic infection. Please read right to...
    peaches286 peaches286
    31-35, F
    1 Response Mar 25

    I'm supposed to read up on meds

    so that I have an understanding when I see my doctor to start treatment, but I don't even know where to start. Nukes, non-nukes, combos... Then there's a million under each category. So overwhelming. Especially when you're still trying to grasp the fact that you ARE positive.
    NowImDPressed NowImDPressed
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jan 26

    Is It Worth Living, Can Someone Please Tell Me That Im Not Insane

    Im a female, 23yrs, been hiv+ve for about 2yrs now. I got raped while I was doing metric but didnt get infected then. I had a boyfrend at that time and we were always fighting because I never wanted to sleep with him, then I got raped. He told me that I asked for it. I...
    zazi zazi
    22-25, F
    39 Responses Apr 7, 2008

    Silver Linings And BBQ Wings.

    I was born HIV+. It is all I have ever known in my 18 years of life and honestly I'm pretty laid back about the whole thing. I guess it would be harder for a positive diagnosis later in life because you would have to learn how to live with a diagnosis such as this. But honestly...
    PizzaOnMyMind PizzaOnMyMind
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Aug 13, 2013

    My Whole Story About Being Gay, HIV, Drugs, Prison Life And Trying To Get Back On Track.

    We all made mistakes in life. Some stay with you momentarily, and some attach to you for life. It is so easy to look at someone and pass off any judgements on them, yet it makes so much difference to look for a moment beyond, for that sadness beneath their smiles, or a glimmer of...
    alifeofpoz alifeofpoz
    31-35, M
    11 Responses Oct 25, 2013

    I Have A Herbal Cure For Hiv Aids Tb

    My name is Wessel de Jager and I have been studying herbs for many years.  I come from an herbal family, where my farther had been the best herbalist I have ever known.  He taught me all about herbs and when we where sick as children he also healed/cured us with herbs...
    wessel wessel
    51-55, M
    183 Responses Mar 26, 2010

    HIV + And Going To Live

    I am a 40 year old pediatrician. I have 2 healthy beautiful children. I have the life people dream of..... until now. Let me give a brief history. I was raised a poor preacher's son. Went to med school and broke the long family tradition of poor blue collar workers. Met my wife...
    Doc72 Doc72
    41-45, M
    14 Responses Apr 7, 2013

    I'm tired. After 2.5 years in treatment my

    numbers are awful. I'm tired of doctors, meds, labs, appointments, etc. My depression is worsening. I want to stop. I'm overwhelmed by life.
    Pather2013 Pather2013
    46-50, M
    1 Response Jan 25

    HI guys. Please like my page on FB.

    I am living with HIV and I feel it should not hold us back from being happy...Let us walk the journey together https://www.facebook.com/Pabiwabatho-677967035615674/
    peaches286 peaches286
    31-35, F
    Apr 6

    I love the abbreviation

    for Antiretroviral therapy (ART) It is scientific state of the ART, thanks to this kind of art our lives are still pumping and kicking at great pace. HIV is not the worst disease ever, but it is something that will remain in our bodies until a cure is discovered. Regiments have...
    bao94 bao94
    22-25, M
    4 Responses Feb 17, 2014

    Hello. ... Does anybody know what I can use to

    get rid of these ugly dark spots I've acquired from my recent shingles episode? These marks are cramping my style, I can't even wear swimwear or low neck tops? Any recommendations are welcome
    Bilharzia Bilharzia
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 16

    "i couldnt control my feelings.

    i couldnt control my thoughts. yet everyday fought the battle. everyday i lost. i lost myself. i lost my confidence. my self esteem. i lost hope. one day a friend just told me to stop fighting. to accept the feelings. to rest my weary mind. he told me that this was the key...
    CarloTevez CarloTevez
    26-30, M
    1 Response Apr 16

    Even though I don't like to be positive,

    at least I'm alive and healthy. I'd love to have better numbers but I can have my meds and the strength to keep on fighting for a healthier life.
    Pather2013 Pather2013
    46-50, M
    1 Response Jan 31

    I'm so happy. So I've been talking to this guy

    about a month and this whole time I didn't tell him I was HIV + because I was afraid he would not give me a chance. We'll yesterday things was getting deep and I felt he need to know. The reason why I thought he should know was (well is) falling for me. So when I made up my mind...
    1morestatus 1morestatus
    22-25, M
    5 Responses Sep 11, 2014

    I just found out I'm positive last week.

    I took the test because I was dating this amazing guy for only one month (I was already falling for him), and he asked me to take it, so we could move forward with the relationship. Neither of us thought that it was going to be positive. He is now waiting for his results, but...
    d29new d29new
    26-30, M
    8 Responses Aug 21, 2014

    OK, 12 hours into Trip

    and I'm angry AF. what the hell is up with this? Does anybody know if I'm ok to take trip with my anxiety meds?
    Bilharzia Bilharzia
    31-35, F
    Feb 12

    Fighting For My Life

    You never know how bad you want to live until death is staring you in the face. I was given an AIDS diagnoses while in the hospital Feb 2007. This story starts long before the day the doctor walked into my room and delivered that mind blowing news and just turned around and...
    HBM57 HBM57
    56-60, M
    10 Responses Oct 21, 2012

    Hey everyone. It's been a year

    and 16 days since I have heard the heart breaking news. Since, my life has changed a lot. It did and taught me to more appreciate things and live as healthy as I can. Today's 10th March 2015 and I am on my way to meet my friend who I met on EP over 6 month ago. The thing is...
    1981angel 1981angel
    31-35, M
    4 Responses Mar 11, 2015

    So I have accepted my status

    and I am okay and strong. I only have one challenge. The guy that infected me denies it. He says he is negative. Now it can only mean I infected myself hey because I tested shortly before we met and during the course of our relationship and I was negative until further notice...
    peaches286 peaches286
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Mar 28

    What are the possibilities of testing negative

    when u are undetectable??I'm curious. I test poz n my bf of 2 n half yr tested negative. How possible is that??I met him 3 yrs back,4 months in to our rship I starated to have rush on my arm pits,I went n saw a doc, last yr on the 11 th of Jan that's when I knew I was poz,I told...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Jan 29

    And Am Really Angry Right Now

    Nobody should have this disease.  I never, in a bazillion years, would have ever thought I would be effected by it when I consider the type of family I grew up in.  I never even put a thought toward the idea that I could ever contract the disease. I just...
    JimmyTheBull JimmyTheBull
    18-21, M
    36 Responses Jun 14, 2009

    Just an update: I had an appointment with my

    new HIV Specialist, Dr. Morris two days ago. I am doing well, my viral load is still "undectabable" and my CD4 is at 994. I haven't skipped a dose and have been on meds since October 31, 2014. My advice to anyone that is HIV Positive, you aren't alone. Just because you are HIV...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Oct 2, 2015

    I am a somali straight man with hiv.

    Pls any lady with hiv can send me a message.
    Maxamed2016 Maxamed2016
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Feb 5

    Dear friends, as the end of EP is getting

    closer I'd like to continue being in touch with you. This website and you helped me so much, when I needed it more. As an HIV+ man, my condition will not change for years or for life. I don't lose hope on a cure. If you would like to continue a mutual support please send me a...
    Pather2013 Pather2013
    46-50, M
    Apr 13

    So it's been 4 hours

    and 41 mins since I drank my first Atripla.... first of a million/trillion more. And everytime I drink it,I will continue to wonder where I got this from? Could it have been from that quickie in the loo with the barman? Or was it from that guy that I'd met in the cemetery...
    Bilharzia Bilharzia
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Feb 11

    Hello! So this is my story.

    .. About three weeks ago I went for some routine lab examinations... Everything was great until I heard the final words from the doctor: "Unfortunately, the HIV test came positive". I was not ready for that. What happened? When? How? Why? So many questions. My first reaction was...
    fusionconfusion fusionconfusion
    26-30, M
    9 Responses Mar 5, 2014

    Feeling depressed a bit today.

    Though I know the pros and cons about this disease and being healthy is the key to success yet I get that sudden feeling 'why ******* me? I was always careful, i haven't harmed anyone then why the hell me?' Another biggest concern is 'am i being careful enough since i stay...
    lifology lifology
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jan 23

    8 hours and 30 mins since my 1st Atripla.

    I think I'm gonna give it an alias and call it Trip. Sounds awesome doesn't it? So that's how my first trip has gone. haven't gotten out of bed yet though, so I don't know if I can still walk? But I can type,read and write & that's good enough. I'm good to go. nothing...
    Bilharzia Bilharzia
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 11

    A Long Time Now

     hello to everyone.   I have been HIV for 24 years now.  I have been with it, and it has been with me a very long time.  I was there in the beginning, and yet I find myself, all these years later still here.  And no, I have no answer for that.  If...
    brucedance brucedance
    46-50
    32 Responses Dec 14, 2008

    "there are some of you

    who are sraced when to look at me. you think you shake hands with me and i'll pass the virus to you, dont you? have you ever given a lil thought that for most hiv positive people, their immune system is no longer responding. have you ever given a lil thought that a sneezed of...
    CarloTevez CarloTevez
    26-30, M
    Apr 16

    "I feel GYPPED in my life" - DEPRESSION "I'm

    gonna DIE soon...."- FEAR "****! I got flu and rashes. How's my CD4?" - UNCERTAINTY My life before I got HIV was good. The world was normal. I was so lucky with everything. I was dating, having fun, being in-love and being just myself. I was living the life I wanted to be...
    underrepair underrepair
    31-35, M
    6 Responses Apr 26, 2014

    are there really postive men in Kenya

    or are there guys who would date a Kenyan girl for something long term
    Mergann Mergann
    18-21, F
    Apr 18

    So happy right now. I just got my blood test

    results. My CD4 count is now 794 and I'm undetectable. No side effects from meds aside from minor fatigue and mild nausea. All my other results were clear. My doc says I'm healthier than some HIV negative patients. I want to thank everyone for all the support over the last 8...
    JCole2015 JCole2015
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Apr 6

    I went today for another blood work,

    let's hope the new numbers are better. I'm so looking forward to something positive in my journey.
    Pather2013 Pather2013
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Feb 16

    It has been 14 months

    since I first heard the news of my HIV status, in the chilly doctor’s office of prison. I often wondered how I managed to pull through so many odds, from being isolated due to my sexuality, to having no information on my newfound diagnosis in prison, crying my heart out in the...
    alifeofpoz alifeofpoz
    31-35, M
    5 Responses Jan 26, 2014

    I have been HIV positive

    for year. When I found out I was "poz" I was about to enter my sophomore of college, Yes I was scared, nervous, happy, sad, and all the above because I didn't know where my diagnosis was going to take me. I began to everything regularly and didn't let HIV take over and control...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Sep 14, 2015

    I have been positive

    for a little over two months now.. I remember the doctors every word. It echos in my head every night, every time i close my eyes. My whole world seemed to be crashing. My future seemed to do a a complete reversal right there and then. I dont want this. I dont want to die...
    Dradian Dradian
    31-35, M
    12 Responses Jan 10, 2014

    Hey one more thing guys.

    Does anyone have or know of an alternate website we can use to share and keep in contact with each other? Its really cool to have other ppl like me to talk to and who can relate. I now found out about this site and their closing it down already. Just my luck :(
    Truvada Truvada
    31-35, M
    1 Response Apr 6

    I am so so so happy .

    Just called my clinic to get my blood results. Been on medication for a month and my VL went down from 42000 to 340 and CD4 from 287 to 306. My doctor is very impressed how my body is doing very well. I feel great . It's time to celebrate and enjoy the life !!! Life is very...
    1981angel 1981angel
    31-35, M
    8 Responses May 22, 2014

    hi all ....I was diagnosed almost 2 years ago

    and now am undetectable and all is going well...but lately I met a guy and I really getting fond of him we met a couple of times and even had safe sex I did not tell him I was positive ...but I want to tell him I'm positive but am afraid he will panic and leave.... usually I...
    paulcor paulcor
    51-55
    2 Responses Mar 26

    3 weeks since my diagnosis

    and 1 week into treatment. I'm feeling hopeful as my side effects have been minimal. I've started to forgive myself and realize the past is the past and the only way to go is forward. I use the words "forgive myself" but really, no one asks for this. Even before my diagnosis...
    z0mKi z0mKi
    36-40, M
    5 Responses Oct 18, 2014

    Today marked my 30th Atripla pill.

    The first 11 days were hell... I woke up nauseous every single morning until I threw up on the 11th day. After that, I instantly felt better. My kidneys (which are working too well) and liver are fine, so this drug isn't affecting them. I gained weight, ugh. Not much, but...
    brokenfixed brokenfixed
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Jan 16

    Cd4 count 700+ viral load undetectable.

    I feel so much better now. :)
    Godislife91 Godislife91
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Mar 16

    I am feeling low today may be

    because I am Hiv, may be bcoz I am gay or may be...I am having a mild fever.
    lifology lifology
    26-30, M
    Mar 9

    I'm down in San Diego

    until Saturday because im doing my HIV screening for the navy. Let's just say that I'm not the only one here that's recently positive. I met a muscle bound marine guy that just found out that he was positive two weeks ago. Hes really nice and he hasnt started treatment yet but I...
    TorchPlus TorchPlus
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Feb 24, 2015

    I'll never forget 8/5/2014 the first time I got

    the bad news an HIV positive test result. It's going to take a long time to feel better and be happy again. Reading stories about others gives me strength and hope for my future. Hopefully I can exchange emails with some of you to share our experiences. I wish you all the best...
    RickyXXX RickyXXX
    36-40, M
    12 Responses Aug 27, 2014

    I've known for about 3 months now.

    I found out just after moving 2000 miles in the pursuit of happiness. I was struggling financially, hustling on craigslist and working fulltime to get by, and decided to donate plasma for money. 2 weeks later I got a crippling awakening from my western blot results. For over a...
    nvrtr nvrtr
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Feb 10

    I rarely post anything on here,

    I even wonder if anyone will read this post. It's been over a year since my diagnosis, so much has changed. I ended up changing antiretroviral medication just once, b/c the previous one made me extremely depressed. I have a new job, which I love. I'm finally 21, yay! Anyways and...
    bao94 bao94
    22-25, M
    7 Responses Apr 25, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    7 Responses Jan 25, 2015
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