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I Am HIV Positive

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    karenSharp karenSharp 22-25, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    Is It Worth Living, Can Someone Please Tell Me That Im Not Insane

    Im a female, 23yrs, been hiv+ve for about 2yrs now. I got raped while I was doing metric but didnt get infected then. I had a boyfrend at that time and we were always fighting because I never wanted to sleep with him, then I got raped. He told me that I asked for it. I...
    zazi zazi 22-25, F 39 Responses Apr 7, 2008

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    So today was my birthday

    and I admit it was quite a good day. It wasn't the warm wishes from people or the gifts of mini cakes that made the day a good one. It was the realization of the potential of my future living with HIV. I feel grateful for the growth that has happened in the past 7 months...
    z0mKi z0mKi 36-40, M 2 Responses Apr 24

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    I haven't gotten my diagnosis yet.

    I get it tomorrow. I feel so scared man. I've never felt so afraid. I've alerted my cousins and a few friends already but for the most part I'm hoping I don't have it. Although, I did take a rapid test and it said I was. I'm in the military and don't want my career to end...
    Godislife91 Godislife91 22-25, M 4 Responses May 3

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    I got some confusing update on my numbers I was

    very happy on deember with me cd4 going up from 260 to 348... But now im back to 284... :( im scared.... Im taking Atripla... I hope my VL has stayed on undectectable..... Im very nervous... Has this happened to you?
    d29new d29new 26-30, M 2 Responses May 7

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    Hey everyone. Just joined this app today.

    I would like to share my story with you . Had always perfect lifestyle . Doing job that I always wanted ,healthy, lots if travel, great and healthy family and amazing 2 best friends. Then one day went as a support to my friend to the clinic. She felt anxious of testing and I...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 5 Responses May 17, 2014

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    And Am Really Angry Right Now

    Nobody should have this disease.  I never, in a bazillion years, would have ever thought I would be effected by it when I consider the type of family I grew up in.  I never even put a thought toward the idea that I could ever contract the disease. I just...
    JimmyTheBull JimmyTheBull 18-21, M 36 Responses Jun 14, 2009

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    So I've been positive

    for almost 20 years now, when I was 10 I started to wonder why do I get treated so differently, get tired so easily, couldn't do things most kids my age could do, like sleep over, go to camp, or have friends over, so one day my dad had my doctor explain to me everything I was...
    champion19 champion19 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 31

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    hmmmmm 2nd chance trully exist,

    i was given my result right infront of my mum, can u imagine that, i tot i was going to die the nx day,but today am still the happy girl hav always been,all thanks to my mum & my SWAG p
    olunma olunma 26-30 1 Response Mar 19

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    I went to the clinic couple of weeks ago to

    have my blood test done. Finally got my numbers. So my VL is down to 67 and my CD4 went up to 408. Almost undetectable. Was hoping that will get there this time, but hopefully next time. God is looking after me, I pray every day. I been on medication for 3 months. Taking...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 4 Responses Aug 3, 2014

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    Please help !!!! ....

    ... I was diagnosed in 2012 with full blown aids along with kidney cancer . Very very sick . Now I'm undetectable and very grateful for life today and also 2 years cancer free . I worked at a health center as a peer support advocate last year and out of convince switched my...
    cts77 cts77 36-40, M 4 Responses Mar 26

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    Today is a good day. Everyday should be really.

    .. I just wanted to tell anyone who might not be having a good day that things will get better. Everyday will not be perfect and there will be ups and downs but that's life in general, no matter your diagnosis. I know it can be hard, lonely, scary... but don't let your emotions...
    JustMe1228 JustMe1228 22-25, F May 18

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    A Long Time Now

     hello to everyone.   I have been HIV for 24 years now.  I have been with it, and it has been with me a very long time.  I was there in the beginning, and yet I find myself, all these years later still here.  And no, I have no answer for that.  If...
    brucedance brucedance 46-50 35 Responses Dec 14, 2008

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    I Have A Herbal Cure For Hiv Aids Tb

    My name is Wessel de Jager and I have been studying herbs for many years.  I come from an herbal family, where my farther had been the best herbalist I have ever known.  He taught me all about herbs and when we where sick as children he also healed/cured us with herbs...
    wessel wessel 51-55, M 145 Responses Mar 26, 2010

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    Silver Linings And BBQ Wings.

    I was born HIV+. It is all I have ever known in my 18 years of life and honestly I'm pretty laid back about the whole thing. I guess it would be harder for a positive diagnosis later in life because you would have to learn how to live with a diagnosis such as this. But honestly...
    PizzaOnMyMind PizzaOnMyMind 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 13, 2013

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    I was recently diagnosed

    and i am devastated, I am looking for friends in the same situation, I want to chat and share pain :( I also would love to chat with some girls.... hiv+ ofc... I am goodlooking 26 years old :)
    Ryole Ryole 26-30, M 5 Responses Mar 1

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    What are the probability of living

    when your CD4 count is 50???? please HELP I'm feeling scared for my boyfriend
    TelezAby TelezAby 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I have been positive

    for a little over two months now.. I remember the doctors every word. It echos in my head every night, every time i close my eyes. My whole world seemed to be crashing. My future seemed to do a a complete reversal right there and then. I dont want this. I dont want to die...
    Dradian Dradian 26-30, M 13 Responses Jan 10, 2014

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    I rarely post anything on here,

    I even wonder if anyone will read this post. It's been over a year since my diagnosis, so much has changed. I ended up changing antiretroviral medication just once, b/c the previous one made me extremely depressed. I have a new job, which I love. I'm finally 21, yay! Anyways and...
    bao94 bao94 18-21, M 4 Responses Apr 25

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    Well I'm positive. I'm actually not going to

    let this get me down. I'm maintaining my positive outlook. I feel like everyone kind of wants to pity me but I tell them don't. I'm staying happy so you should too. Looking for friends on here. Someone I can talk to and maybe chill with.
    Godislife91 Godislife91 22-25, M 2 Responses May 4

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    As I write this my EP friend is getting ready

    for our night out in San Francisco. When I was first diagnosed 6 months ago I never expected to have such a bond with another person ever. I never expected that in 6 months time I would be smiling and enjoying a holiday with another who knows exactly the same struggles I've...
    z0mKi z0mKi 36-40, M Mar 14

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    Fighting For My Life

    You never know how bad you want to live until death is staring you in the face. I was given an AIDS diagnoses while in the hospital Feb 2007. This story starts long before the day the doctor walked into my room and delivered that mind blowing news and just turned around and...
    HBM57 HBM57 56-60, M 9 Responses Oct 21, 2012

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    i want to share my experience of how i got

    cured from HIV. It may sound strange but it's true! For the past 3years i have spent a lot of money in buying anti-retroviral medicines to strengthen my immune system and keep me healthy, until i read an article on the internet about an Africa Herbalist who uses herbs and roots...
    ANGELA134 ANGELA134 36-40, F 1 Response May 17

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    I have been overcome with shame

    and I am letting it go. I used to believe the negative stigma associated with a positive diagnosis and lived in fear of my capacity to thrive in the future. My negative self opinions correlated with my diagnosis have impacted every part of my life and I wont live that way...
    Dantheman88888888 Dantheman88888888 26-30, M 2 Responses May 7

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    3 weeks since my diagnosis

    and 1 week into treatment. I'm feeling hopeful as my side effects have been minimal. I've started to forgive myself and realize the past is the past and the only way to go is forward. I use the words "forgive myself" but really, no one asks for this. Even before my diagnosis...
    z0mKi z0mKi 36-40, M 6 Responses Oct 18, 2014

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    Today is day 15 without smoking .

    I feel great . HIV is an awful dizzies but we can control it by medication !!! And we are very lucky to have it these days. Actually just would like to say that HIV "maybe " changed my life to Better !!!! Eating healthy , stopped smoking , juicing every day fresh vegetable and...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 2 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    well I've been hiv positive

    for almost half a year now. on the meds. numbers good. doctor says i will live a normal life span give or take. so why am i still feeling ****?
    ventt ventt 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 15

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    HIV Is A Real Reality In My Life

    In early January I had sex with a prostitute I met online. We had brief unprotected sex, but I don't think that matters really how long it was for. Any way since then I've been going through a lot. I also have a girlfriend that I put in serious danger because at first I didn't...
    blackpen blackpen 26-30 33 Responses Mar 13, 2013

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    Here I'm again, at the waiting area

    for the doctor to talk about my HIV numbers. I'm nervous and the ADHD doesn't help too much. I feel like crying but I don't know why. This roller coaster of emotions drives me insane. Even more than what I already am. It's kinda sad to think about all that I've been through...
    Pather2013 Pather2013 46-50, M May 13

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    When I was first diagnosed I was shocked,

    confused, angry, and most of all, lonely. I spent many nights crying myself to sleep hoping the nightmare would be over when I awoke. At first I was not able to look forward to the future without HIV haunting the back of my mind. I felt dirty and full of shame. It wasn’t...
    z0mKi z0mKi 36-40, M 2 Responses Mar 19

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    I am so so so happy .

    Just called my clinic to get my blood results. Been on medication for a month and my VL went down from 42000 to 340 and CD4 from 287 to 306. My doctor is very impressed how my body is doing very well. I feel great . It's time to celebrate and enjoy the life !!! Life is very...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 8 Responses May 22, 2014

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    And The Waves Will Not Take Me

    I was 21 years old, it was a hot summer day in june when I found out. I got a call from the health department telling me someone that I had sex with contracted an STD. Having the decency to be upfront and honest, I went over to get tested. Sitting in the waiting room was torture...
    JayChi22 JayChi22 22-25, M 7 Responses Jan 11, 2012

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    I just found out I'm positive last week.

    I took the test because I was dating this amazing guy for only one month (I was already falling for him), and he asked me to take it, so we could move forward with the relationship. Neither of us thought that it was going to be positive. He is now waiting for his results, but...
    d29new d29new 26-30, M 8 Responses Aug 21, 2014

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    Hello! So this is my story.

    .. About three weeks ago I went for some routine lab examinations... Everything was great until I heard the final words from the doctor: "Unfortunately, the HIV test came positive". I was not ready for that. What happened? When? How? Why? So many questions. My first reaction was...
    fusionconfusion fusionconfusion 26-30, M 10 Responses Mar 5, 2014

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    I went today to have a follow up from multiple

    rapid tests coming back positive and I am "officially" HIV+. I figured I would be terrified just knowing it's officially "real" but I have to admit I feel so much better. I found out that my ex can face AT LEAST 25 years in prison for criminal transmission. That's just for me...
    LetsJustStartOver LetsJustStartOver 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I was told the news last year March.

    it was the worst thing ever. I was in the hospital(my grandma and I) and the doctors can in and told us. it was the worst thing ever. a whole year later and I still don't know how to deal with it. I can feel with it but it's like I don't have it. I don't talk about it, think...
    iamdreee iamdreee 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 16

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    My name Douglas dashy from England,

    Oxford,UK ...HIV has been ongoing in my family for long..I lost both parents to HIV and it is so much pain have not been able to get over.As we all know medically,there is no solution or cure for HIV and the cost for Medication is very expensive..Someone introduced me to a man...
    Kenned Kenned 18-21, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    PozlifeD PozlifeD 18-21, M 6 Responses Jan 25

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    It's been a while since I've posted anything on

    here. It's been six months since I started antiretroviral therapy, and I am now undetectable. Upon an unfortunate series of events in my early adulthood I still remain thankful for everything that has occurred, the strength I've accumulated throughout this experiences has been...
    bao94 bao94 18-21, M 8 Responses Jun 14, 2014

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    I feel scared... I haven't really felt anything

    really since my diagnosis (if that makes any sense). But today I feel scared. I feel afraid and I feel lonely. I have a great support system around me and yet I feel so empty. It's like everyday I try to look at the good things in life and all of the things that I have to be...
    JustMe1228 JustMe1228 22-25, F 5 Responses Apr 24

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    Learning To Love Life

    well its been along road almost 4yrs now since i was diagnosed,ive almost died n given up on myself at sum points but im finally in a good place.i have an amzing family and i was blessed tomeet an awesome girl who has became my best friend..life is never easy and wen ur handed...
    anthonysmommy36 anthonysmommy36 22-25, F 5 Responses Jun 16, 2012

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    Ive been hiv positive

    for 2 months now and just started ART treatment. At first i felt empty and even now i still don't know what the future holds for me except i am the holder of my own destiny and i will not break. Be healthy and be strong...
    Christopher100 Christopher100 36-40, M 7 Responses Mar 10

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    HIV on the first time?

    I'm here in the E.R with my boyfriend wich we have been together for 3 years but I knew him for a almost year before we even started dating I thought I did everything right I was 19 had been with my boyfriend for 3 months but knew him way longer as a friend... when we started...
    TelezAby TelezAby 18-21, F 4 Responses May 18

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    I'm so happy. So I've been talking to this guy

    about a month and this whole time I didn't tell him I was HIV + because I was afraid he would not give me a chance. We'll yesterday things was getting deep and I felt he need to know. The reason why I thought he should know was (well is) falling for me. So when I made up my mind...
    1morestatus 1morestatus 22-25, M 6 Responses Sep 11, 2014

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    HIV + And Going To Live

    I am a 40 year old pediatrician. I have 2 healthy beautiful children. I have the life people dream of..... until now. Let me give a brief history. I was raised a poor preacher's son. Went to med school and broke the long family tradition of poor blue collar workers. Met my wife...
    Doc72 Doc72 41-45, M 15 Responses Apr 7, 2013

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    "I feel GYPPED in my life" - DEPRESSION "I'm

    gonna DIE soon...."- FEAR "****! I got flu and rashes. How's my CD4?" - UNCERTAINTY My life before I got HIV was good. The world was normal. I was so lucky with everything. I was dating, having fun, being in-love and being just myself. I was living the life I wanted to be...
    underrepair underrepair 26-30, M 7 Responses Apr 26, 2014

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