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I Am HIV Positive

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    I'm so happy. So I've been talking to this guy

    about a month and this whole time I didn't tell him I was HIV + because I was afraid he would not give me a chance. We'll yesterday things was getting deep and I felt he need to know. The reason why I thought he should know was (well is) falling for me. So when I made up my mind...
    1morestatus 1morestatus 22-25, M 6 Responses Sep 11, 2014

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    A Long Time Now

     hello to everyone.   I have been HIV for 24 years now.  I have been with it, and it has been with me a very long time.  I was there in the beginning, and yet I find myself, all these years later still here.  And no, I have no answer for that.  If...
    brucedance brucedance 46-50 35 Responses Dec 14, 2008

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    Man it's ganna be a year on the 26th

    since I found out I'm positive.and Im still alive.. A year went by so fast. I didn't even think I would still be alive .but here I am I'm undetectable:).. To think I was ganna give up on life but you know what I held on, stayed positive well trying to stay positive at least to...
    filipinoako filipinoako 26-30, M 2 Responses Dec 17, 2015

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    And Am Really Angry Right Now

    Nobody should have this disease.  I never, in a bazillion years, would have ever thought I would be effected by it when I consider the type of family I grew up in.  I never even put a thought toward the idea that I could ever contract the disease. I just...
    JimmyTheBull JimmyTheBull 18-21, M 36 Responses Jun 14, 2009

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    I Have A Herbal Cure For Hiv Aids Tb

    My name is Wessel de Jager and I have been studying herbs for many years.  I come from an herbal family, where my farther had been the best herbalist I have ever known.  He taught me all about herbs and when we where sick as children he also healed/cured us with herbs...
    wessel wessel 51-55, M 180 Responses Mar 26, 2010

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    Silver Linings And BBQ Wings.

    I was born HIV+. It is all I have ever known in my 18 years of life and honestly I'm pretty laid back about the whole thing. I guess it would be harder for a positive diagnosis later in life because you would have to learn how to live with a diagnosis such as this. But honestly...
    PizzaOnMyMind PizzaOnMyMind 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 13, 2013

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    I am so so so happy .

    Just called my clinic to get my blood results. Been on medication for a month and my VL went down from 42000 to 340 and CD4 from 287 to 306. My doctor is very impressed how my body is doing very well. I feel great . It's time to celebrate and enjoy the life !!! Life is very...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 8 Responses May 22, 2014

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    I feel I will die sooner

    than expected, but not because of HIV. I'm afraid.
    Pather2013 Pather2013 46-50, M 2 Responses Dec 17, 2015

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    8 hours and 30 mins since my 1st Atripla.

    I think I'm gonna give it an alias and call it Trip. Sounds awesome doesn't it? So that's how my first trip has gone. haven't gotten out of bed yet though, so I don't know if I can still walk? But I can type,read and write & that's good enough. I'm good to go. nothing...
    Bilharzia Bilharzia 31-35, F 1 day ago

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    Is It Worth Living, Can Someone Please Tell Me That Im Not Insane

    Im a female, 23yrs, been hiv+ve for about 2yrs now. I got raped while I was doing metric but didnt get infected then. I had a boyfrend at that time and we were always fighting because I never wanted to sleep with him, then I got raped. He told me that I asked for it. I...
    zazi zazi 22-25, F 39 Responses Apr 7, 2008

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    Even though I don't like to be positive,

    at least I'm alive and healthy. I'd love to have better numbers but I can have my meds and the strength to keep on fighting for a healthier life.
    Pather2013 Pather2013 46-50, M 2 Responses Jan 31

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    Question.. I feel that i often randomly think

    about my hiv+ daily. Does you guys go through that?
    starstuckshawty starstuckshawty 22-25, M 5 Responses Dec 7, 2015

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    HIV + And Going To Live

    I am a 40 year old pediatrician. I have 2 healthy beautiful children. I have the life people dream of..... until now. Let me give a brief history. I was raised a poor preacher's son. Went to med school and broke the long family tradition of poor blue collar workers. Met my wife...
    Doc72 Doc72 41-45, M 15 Responses Apr 7, 2013

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    I'm very sad. My HIV results came awfully bad.

    I don't have my VL yet, but the rest it's like a year time set back. I'm afraid. I don't wanna die yet. All my lymphocytes went down to almost 50%. Technically now I have AIDS. Which sounds like the worst. I was doing great for almost a year. And now this. I don't know if I want...
    Pather2013 Pather2013 46-50, M 3 Responses Dec 17, 2015

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    I'm sad. I'm getting older

    and as I've read HIV+ people age faster. I'm afraid. My dad died of colon cancer. Metabolic syndrome runs in the family. I'm getting bitter. Life is 10% fun and 90% problems and suffering. I'm sad.
    Pather2013 Pather2013 46-50, M 5 Responses Nov 26, 2015

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    PozlifeD PozlifeD 18-21, M 7 Responses Jan 25, 2015

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    There's no such a thing

    as a happy life after being HIV+
    Pather2013 Pather2013 46-50, M 3 Responses Jan 28

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    I'm tired. After 2.5 years in treatment my

    numbers are awful. I'm tired of doctors, meds, labs, appointments, etc. My depression is worsening. I want to stop. I'm overwhelmed by life.
    Pather2013 Pather2013 46-50, M 1 Response Jan 25

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    I rarely post anything on here,

    I even wonder if anyone will read this post. It's been over a year since my diagnosis, so much has changed. I ended up changing antiretroviral medication just once, b/c the previous one made me extremely depressed. I have a new job, which I love. I'm finally 21, yay! Anyways and...
    bao94 bao94 18-21, M 7 Responses Apr 25, 2015

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    Fighting For My Life

    You never know how bad you want to live until death is staring you in the face. I was given an AIDS diagnoses while in the hospital Feb 2007. This story starts long before the day the doctor walked into my room and delivered that mind blowing news and just turned around and...
    HBM57 HBM57 56-60, M 10 Responses Oct 21, 2012

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    It's been a while since I've posted anything on

    here. It's been six months since I started antiretroviral therapy, and I am now undetectable. Upon an unfortunate series of events in my early adulthood I still remain thankful for everything that has occurred, the strength I've accumulated throughout this experiences has been...
    bao94 bao94 18-21, M 8 Responses Jun 14, 2014

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    When was your exposure ?

    When you test positive ?
    Medosalas Medosalas 31-35, M Dec 19, 2015

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    I was diagnosed a year ago,

    some days I great and some days I ask myself how I let this happen to me? I really haven't told anyone but my sister and well my best friend other than that no one knows. I do good until I go to the doctor and I have to say it out loud that I am HIV+
    KeepingHope2014 KeepingHope2014 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 22, 2015

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    So I've been positive

    for almost 20 years now, when I was 10 I started to wonder why do I get treated so differently, get tired so easily, couldn't do things most kids my age could do, like sleep over, go to camp, or have friends over, so one day my dad had my doctor explain to me everything I was...
    champion19 champion19 22-25, F 6 Responses Mar 31, 2015

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    What does everyone else have planned

    for World HIV/AIDS day on the 1st? I'm probably gonna stuff my face with everything in my fridge... I might even throw a party...
    brokenfixed brokenfixed 22-25, M 2 Responses Nov 27, 2015

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    3 weeks since my diagnosis

    and 1 week into treatment. I'm feeling hopeful as my side effects have been minimal. I've started to forgive myself and realize the past is the past and the only way to go is forward. I use the words "forgive myself" but really, no one asks for this. Even before my diagnosis...
    z0mKi z0mKi 36-40, M 6 Responses Oct 18, 2014

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    I have been positive

    for a little over two months now.. I remember the doctors every word. It echos in my head every night, every time i close my eyes. My whole world seemed to be crashing. My future seemed to do a a complete reversal right there and then. I dont want this. I dont want to die...
    Dradian Dradian 31-35, M 13 Responses Jan 10, 2014

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    So I'm sitting here thinking,

    Love doesn't have to stop after the diagnoses. I believe that someone should love you pass HIV. I am healthy, happy and so much better than this diagnoses. I have HIV it does not have me. So I'm picking myself up by my boot straps and moving head on....My love for myself, my bf...
    KeepingHope2014 KeepingHope2014 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2015

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    I've known for about 3 months now.

    I found out just after moving 2000 miles in the pursuit of happiness. I was struggling financially, hustling on craigslist and working fulltime to get by, and decided to donate plasma for money. 2 weeks later I got a crippling awakening from my western blot results. For over a...
    nvrtr nvrtr 22-25, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I love the abbreviation

    for Antiretroviral therapy (ART) It is scientific state of the ART, thanks to this kind of art our lives are still pumping and kicking at great pace. HIV is not the worst disease ever, but it is something that will remain in our bodies until a cure is discovered. Regiments have...
    bao94 bao94 18-21, M 4 Responses Feb 17, 2014

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    I'm supposed to read up on meds

    so that I have an understanding when I see my doctor to start treatment, but I don't even know where to start. Nukes, non-nukes, combos... Then there's a million under each category. So overwhelming. Especially when you're still trying to grasp the fact that you ARE positive.
    NowImDPressed NowImDPressed 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 26

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    after arguing on the phone with the doctor to

    tell me my hiv test results I got some of the worst news I've heard in awhile, the results came back positive for hiv. I turned 18 a month ago I'm to young for this to be happening to me! I'm kind of in denial about it, but at the same time I new I was positive before the...
    greeneyedmysterygirl greeneyedmysterygirl 18-21, F 8 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    HIV Is A Real Reality In My Life

    In early January I had sex with a prostitute I met online. We had brief unprotected sex, but I don't think that matters really how long it was for. Any way since then I've been going through a lot. I also have a girlfriend that I put in serious danger because at first I didn't...
    blackpen blackpen 26-30 42 Responses Mar 13, 2013

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    So it's been 4 hours

    and 41 mins since I drank my first Atripla.... first of a million/trillion more. And everytime I drink it,I will continue to wonder where I got this from? Could it have been from that quickie in the loo with the barman? Or was it from that guy that I'd met in the cemetery...
    Bilharzia Bilharzia 31-35, F 1 day ago

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    Confused,nervous, conflicted.

    First dkcs appt after being diagnosed is this week and I'm emotionally drained.
    NowImDPressed NowImDPressed 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 13

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    I must get a colonoscopy

    because I may have colon cancer and because of being HIV+ I may develop anal cancer. People with HIV are more likely to get anal cancer
    Pather2013 Pather2013 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 28, 2015

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    5 months into the relationship

    and 4 months into knowing that my bf was HIV positive. Everything has fallen into place. Truly, time heals all wounds. Little to no side effects, no sickness, and he's beginning to get more weight. Now I look at him sleeping soundly and snoring under the Christmas lights we've...
    daroq daroq 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 18, 2015

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    Now technically I have AIDS.

    HIV+ is bad enough, having AIDS IS THE WORST
    Pather2013 Pather2013 46-50, M 5 Responses Dec 26, 2015

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    I'll never forget 8/5/2014 the first time I got

    the bad news an HIV positive test result. It's going to take a long time to feel better and be happy again. Reading stories about others gives me strength and hope for my future. Hopefully I can exchange emails with some of you to share our experiences. I wish you all the best...
    RickyXXX RickyXXX 36-40, M 12 Responses Aug 27, 2014

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    Feeling depressed a bit today.

    Though I know the pros and cons about this disease and being healthy is the key to success yet I get that sudden feeling 'why ******* me? I was always careful, i haven't harmed anyone then why the hell me?' Another biggest concern is 'am i being careful enough since i stay...
    lifology lifology 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 23

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    OK, 12 hours into Trip

    and I'm angry AF. what the hell is up with this? Does anybody know if I'm ok to take trip with my anxiety meds?
    Bilharzia Bilharzia 31-35, F 1 day ago

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    I have been HIV positive

    for year. When I found out I was "poz" I was about to enter my sophomore of college, Yes I was scared, nervous, happy, sad, and all the above because I didn't know where my diagnosis was going to take me. I began to everything regularly and didn't let HIV take over and control...
    PozlifeD PozlifeD 18-21, M 5 Responses Sep 14, 2015

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    Learning To Love Life

    well its been along road almost 4yrs now since i was diagnosed,ive almost died n given up on myself at sum points but im finally in a good place.i have an amzing family and i was blessed tomeet an awesome girl who has became my best friend..life is never easy and wen ur handed...
    anthonysmommy36 anthonysmommy36 22-25, F 5 Responses Jun 16, 2012

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    Just an update: I had an appointment with my

    new HIV Specialist, Dr. Morris two days ago. I am doing well, my viral load is still "undectabable" and my CD4 is at 994. I haven't skipped a dose and have been on meds since October 31, 2014. My advice to anyone that is HIV Positive, you aren't alone. Just because you are HIV...
    PozlifeD PozlifeD 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 2, 2015

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    I have two daughters

    who are now 6 and 4 years old. They are the sweetest and prettiest little girls that I know. I could go on and on about them. I was married to their dad from the time I was 19 until I was 26. He was abusive to me and a bit abusive to my youngest. I felt like I had to stay to...
    SweetyPetie SweetyPetie 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 28, 2015

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