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I Am HIV Positive

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    "I feel GYPPED in my life" - DEPRESSION "I'm

    gonna DIE soon...."- FEAR "****! I got flu and rashes. How's my CD4?" - UNCERTAINTY My life before I got HIV was good. The world was normal. I was so lucky with everything. I was dating, having fun, being in-love and being just myself. I was living the life I wanted to be...
    underrepair underrepair 26-30, M 6 Responses Apr 26, 2014

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    15 June 2015 i felt my knees go weak,

    i wanted to collapse, i thought of the man i was with, and how our weekend went and how he was adamant he did not want to use a condom, i thought besides i have known him for years he would not do that to me, i went for a routine test and it came back positive i did not...
    jojo061 jojo061 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 19

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    I just found out I was positive Aug 7,

    2015. I have an appointment in 7.5 hrs. It's my first appt with a nurse/PA to get all my labs/bloodwork prior to my first official MD appt. So many anxieties with that, I cannot sleep. The numbers for one. Obviously. But on top of that, the possibility of seeing someone in the...
    JCole2015 JCole2015 31-35, M 5 Responses Aug 17

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    HIV Is A Real Reality In My Life

    In early January I had sex with a prostitute I met online. We had brief unprotected sex, but I don't think that matters really how long it was for. Any way since then I've been going through a lot. I also have a girlfriend that I put in serious danger because at first I didn't...
    blackpen blackpen 26-30 37 Responses Mar 13, 2013

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    It has been 14 months

    since I first heard the news of my HIV status, in the chilly doctor’s office of prison. I often wondered how I managed to pull through so many odds, from being isolated due to my sexuality, to having no information on my newfound diagnosis in prison, crying my heart out in the...
    alifeofpoz alifeofpoz 31-35, M 6 Responses Jan 26, 2014

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    what time you take your meds?

    and why that time? Just want too see everyone schedule
    starstuckshawty starstuckshawty 22-25, M 6 Responses Aug 21

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    I'm going to get myself checked our soon

    because of possible exposure and I would greatly appreciate it if anyone who has been in my shoes can message me and help me navigate these feelings somewhat.
    WarriorsHeart WarriorsHeart 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 23

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    Hi i was recommended too this app.

    . Im was diagnose hiv+ 3 months ago.. it literally been the hardest 3 months of my life, so im look for friends and support, advice would be awesome too.
    starstuckshawty starstuckshawty 22-25, M 5 Responses Aug 9

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    Has anyone seen the skin cancer treatment

    that shows much promise with flushing out the hidden HIV in our system. Not said in stone. However, we might have a cure soon. That makes me happier. Other than that I hope everyone is having a great Friday.
    Godislife91 Godislife91 22-25, M 2 Responses Aug 7

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    Today is day 15 without smoking .

    I feel great . HIV is an awful dizzies but we can control it by medication !!! And we are very lucky to have it these days. Actually just would like to say that HIV "maybe " changed my life to Better !!!! Eating healthy , stopped smoking , juicing every day fresh vegetable and...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 3 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    It's been a while since I've posted anything on

    here. It's been six months since I started antiretroviral therapy, and I am now undetectable. Upon an unfortunate series of events in my early adulthood I still remain thankful for everything that has occurred, the strength I've accumulated throughout this experiences has been...
    bao94 bao94 18-21, M 8 Responses Jun 14, 2014

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    The nurse told me on May

    that I was positive to HIV, the world is falling because the medical report was for the visa processing to continue my Masters studies to Czech Republic. I'm feel so lonely... I don't know what to do...
    Heidi2015 Heidi2015 26-30, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm down in San Diego

    until Saturday because im doing my HIV screening for the navy. Let's just say that I'm not the only one here that's recently positive. I met a muscle bound marine guy that just found out that he was positive two weeks ago. Hes really nice and he hasnt started treatment yet but I...
    TorchPlus TorchPlus 26-30, M 2 Responses Feb 24

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    HIV + And Going To Live

    I am a 40 year old pediatrician. I have 2 healthy beautiful children. I have the life people dream of..... until now. Let me give a brief history. I was raised a poor preacher's son. Went to med school and broke the long family tradition of poor blue collar workers. Met my wife...
    Doc72 Doc72 41-45, M 15 Responses Apr 7, 2013

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    Nothing is certain...

    Day before yesterday. I was so happy full of life ambitious. But now feels that I have no reason to live. Yesterday I came to know about my status. I want to die.feels as if left with nothing. Don't. Have courage to face society and my family
    Surkhab Surkhab 31-35, M 4 Responses Jul 22

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    Learning To Love Life

    well its been along road almost 4yrs now since i was diagnosed,ive almost died n given up on myself at sum points but im finally in a good place.i have an amzing family and i was blessed tomeet an awesome girl who has became my best friend..life is never easy and wen ur handed...
    anthonysmommy36 anthonysmommy36 22-25, F 5 Responses Jun 16, 2012

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    Is It Worth Living, Can Someone Please Tell Me That Im Not Insane

    Im a female, 23yrs, been hiv+ve for about 2yrs now. I got raped while I was doing metric but didnt get infected then. I had a boyfrend at that time and we were always fighting because I never wanted to sleep with him, then I got raped. He told me that I asked for it. I...
    zazi zazi 22-25, F 39 Responses Apr 7, 2008

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    3 weeks since my diagnosis

    and 1 week into treatment. I'm feeling hopeful as my side effects have been minimal. I've started to forgive myself and realize the past is the past and the only way to go is forward. I use the words "forgive myself" but really, no one asks for this. Even before my diagnosis...
    z0mKi z0mKi 36-40, M 6 Responses Oct 18, 2014

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    And Am Really Angry Right Now

    Nobody should have this disease.  I never, in a bazillion years, would have ever thought I would be effected by it when I consider the type of family I grew up in.  I never even put a thought toward the idea that I could ever contract the disease. I just...
    JimmyTheBull JimmyTheBull 18-21, M 36 Responses Jun 14, 2009

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    Hey everyone. It's been a year

    and 16 days since I have heard the heart breaking news. Since, my life has changed a lot. It did and taught me to more appreciate things and live as healthy as I can. Today's 10th March 2015 and I am on my way to meet my friend who I met on EP over 6 month ago. The thing is...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 4 Responses Mar 11

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    I have been suffering hardship from HIV/AIDS

    since 9 years now, and i happen to have 2 kids for my husband, and now we cannot proceed to have another kids all because of my disease and now i have do all what a human like i and my husband can do just to get my disease healed, i have went to several places to seek for help...
    sidneybab3 sidneybab3 22-25, F 5 Responses Aug 1

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    Since I was diagnosed September 12th,

    2013. I've been teated at the same clinic by 2 doctors (One is a Diva) and the other is more empathic and talkative. Nice. Last week we return from our 3 week vacations abroad and I started checking appointments & emails. I noticed that I didn't have an appointment with this...
    Pather2013 Pather2013 46-50, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Fighting For My Life

    You never know how bad you want to live until death is staring you in the face. I was given an AIDS diagnoses while in the hospital Feb 2007. This story starts long before the day the doctor walked into my room and delivered that mind blowing news and just turned around and...
    HBM57 HBM57 56-60, M 10 Responses Oct 21, 2012

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    I'm so happy. So I've been talking to this guy

    about a month and this whole time I didn't tell him I was HIV + because I was afraid he would not give me a chance. We'll yesterday things was getting deep and I felt he need to know. The reason why I thought he should know was (well is) falling for me. So when I made up my mind...
    1morestatus 1morestatus 22-25, M 6 Responses Sep 11, 2014

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    Hey everyone !!! Didn't write a post

    for few months , but gonna do little update about me . I feel good , blessed, healthy and lucky !!! Almost year and half on medication. Life is good , life is what u make it . Undetectable, CD4 around 400. Don't wanna sound life is perfect, is not ... But positivity is...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 22

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    Hey everyone. Just joined this app today.

    I would like to share my story with you . Had always perfect lifestyle . Doing job that I always wanted ,healthy, lots if travel, great and healthy family and amazing 2 best friends. Then one day went as a support to my friend to the clinic. She felt anxious of testing and I...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 5 Responses May 17, 2014

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    Let me begin by thanking everyone

    for their positivity on this forum. It has truly been an outlet for me to laugh, contemplate, and empathize with each of your situations or memories. I have needed this as I now navigate a road filled with sadness, grief, happiness, tears, and reminiscence.Six years ago I was at...
    TNtoNP TNtoNP 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 21

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    Well I just picked up my Stribild today.

    Gonna start it. Just is sinking in that this is real. Gonna take it with a grain of salt however. Yeah I have HIV but I will not let this hold me down. I won't.
    Godislife91 Godislife91 22-25, M 3 Responses Jun 25

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    I just found out I'm positive last week.

    I took the test because I was dating this amazing guy for only one month (I was already falling for him), and he asked me to take it, so we could move forward with the relationship. Neither of us thought that it was going to be positive. He is now waiting for his results, but...
    d29new d29new 26-30, M 8 Responses Aug 21, 2014

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    So I've been positive

    for almost 20 years now, when I was 10 I started to wonder why do I get treated so differently, get tired so easily, couldn't do things most kids my age could do, like sleep over, go to camp, or have friends over, so one day my dad had my doctor explain to me everything I was...
    champion19 champion19 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 31

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    I tested positive in 2004

    after a date rape and the first sex experience. I started getting sick a day to my graduation. Actually on my graduation day i was very sick and spent the better part of the day in bed. A month later is when i took the test and my worst fears were confirmed. I immediately...
    Ilovejulie2000 Ilovejulie2000 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 25

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    I'll never forget 8/5/2014 the first time I got

    the bad news an HIV positive test result. It's going to take a long time to feel better and be happy again. Reading stories about others gives me strength and hope for my future. Hopefully I can exchange emails with some of you to share our experiences. I wish you all the best...
    RickyXXX RickyXXX 36-40, M 11 Responses Aug 27, 2014

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    I was diagnosed with HIV on the 5th of march

    2015. I'm in the process of starting with treatment. it has been really hard for,especially the part where I have to accept that I'm HIV positive. I find it hard to talk to anyone because all they tell me is that be strong, stay positive. I'm tired of hearing that, honestly.
    Ndiwe Ndiwe 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 8

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    How HIV Children Are Injured And Kill By The

    Actions Of The City Of Salinas, Ca. The Salinas Valley is one of the largest agricultural centers in the USA and the city of Salinas, Ca., which is located there, releases toxic chemicals which can get into the food grown in the Salinas Valley. Some of the toxic...
    marcthegiantkiller marcthegiantkiller 56-60, M Jul 11

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    Looking At All Of The Testimonies Brings My

    Faith As High As The Clouds. Well, I'm 18 And Yesterday Went To The Hospital For An Appointment And Later On Was Diagnosed HIV+. I Couldn't Do Anything But Cry. I Was In The Room By Myself After The Doctor Left And All I Could Do Was Look Up To The Lord And Ask "Why?" I Asked...
    hisangel97 hisangel97 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 3

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    I just recently found out i was hiv+ positive

    about a month ago. right now I feel like I have been taking it pretty well but there's just those days when it hits you like " what now?" The part that hits me the hardest is knowing that I have no one to talk about it and not just anyone but someone who can relate to me about...
    jay4ever2015 jay4ever2015 18-21, M 4 Responses Aug 15

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    I have been positive

    for a little over two months now.. I remember the doctors every word. It echos in my head every night, every time i close my eyes. My whole world seemed to be crashing. My future seemed to do a a complete reversal right there and then. I dont want this. I dont want to die...
    Dradian Dradian 26-30, M 13 Responses Jan 10, 2014

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    Can someone tell me if you hv similar

    experience..l have a swollen node under my armpit and it gets painful at times.My doc said it will disappear when lm on meds..it's been 6 months now and still no progress..
    peppergrey peppergrey 31-35 3 Responses Jul 3

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    My Whole Story About Being Gay, HIV, Drugs, Prison Life And Trying To Get Back On Track.

    We all made mistakes in life. Some stay with you momentarily, and some attach to you for life. It is so easy to look at someone and pass off any judgements on them, yet it makes so much difference to look for a moment beyond, for that sadness beneath their smiles, or a glimmer of...
    alifeofpoz alifeofpoz 31-35, M 11 Responses Oct 25, 2013

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    I am so so so happy .

    Just called my clinic to get my blood results. Been on medication for a month and my VL went down from 42000 to 340 and CD4 from 287 to 306. My doctor is very impressed how my body is doing very well. I feel great . It's time to celebrate and enjoy the life !!! Life is very...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 8 Responses May 22, 2014

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    okay this is like the #5 day i have this

    and i think now that ibknow i have it its killing me i only once a day and ny stomach is killing me its not just my mind though i need someone to help give me feedback and tell me how this works did yall stomach start to hurt...okay my morning just started off wrong ...i woke up...
    lmaoitsjoe lmaoitsjoe 16-17, M 3 Responses Jun 22

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    Hello! So this is my story.

    .. About three weeks ago I went for some routine lab examinations... Everything was great until I heard the final words from the doctor: "Unfortunately, the HIV test came positive". I was not ready for that. What happened? When? How? Why? So many questions. My first reaction was...
    fusionconfusion fusionconfusion 26-30, M 9 Responses Mar 5, 2014

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    Hey everyone, just wanted to vent

    and give an update. I'm done going through my phases of grief I think, I'm not sad anymore. Im more accepting now of my diagnosis and can talk about it. I'm still looking to reach out and talk to people's names similar situations. Anyone from Florida?! I am in the process of...
    Nclangel611 Nclangel611 26-30, F 3 Responses Jul 29

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    Hi im brett,26 yrs old,

    asian guy who lives here in san diego now.I was diagnose hiv+ last june 2015.Because of my faith in God,i accepted my situation right away.I just hope to find more friends here who are hiv+ too especially here in san diego.God Bless us all! :)
    asianbrett asianbrett 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 13

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    PozlifeD PozlifeD 18-21, M 7 Responses Jan 25

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