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    Hello everyone, my name is Katie I'm 32 years old and HIV+. I was shocked when my doctor told me that I had HIV. I was just the girl next door who came from a great family. My ex b/f cheated on me and we had unprotected sex one night. I cried for weeks I thought I was going to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses May 30, 2013

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    Well today was the last day I will see the man

    I fell in love with, seemed as if the world was against us and both thought it was for the best. Now I just feel alone, loving out of my car, no clue where I'm going and don't want to go through this without him. I've only had 2 boyfriends Because I choose wisely.. At this point...
    acetray acetray 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 26

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    It has been 14 months

    since I first heard the news of my HIV status, in the chilly doctor’s office of prison. I often wondered how I managed to pull through so many odds, from being isolated due to my sexuality, to having no information on my newfound diagnosis in prison, crying my heart out in the...
    alifeofpoz alifeofpoz 31-35, M 4 Responses Jan 26

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    I've not posted in a while,

    here's an update! Living in the new city still! Happier than ever! Best decision I made was to move out of the small town. I got my results back about my levels just last week. My CD4 is 727 and viral load is only 104,000 copies! Which is awesome for what it is! I have been...
    acetray acetray 18-21, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm about to go into the doctors

    for my HIV test. I feel almost certain that i have it... I exposed myself within the last two months to people that could definitely have it. I've felt unusually fatigued lately and have had a chronic headache. I've never felt this way before. Idk how to feel. I feel so...
    Matat12 Matat12 22-25, M 3 Responses Jul 14

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    How come people with children

    and people who are dating and having casual sex, paying for prostitutes aren't scared of getting HIV and or other stds?
    acdc8428 acdc8428 26-30, F 4 Responses Jun 15

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    Positive About Life.. I've not hiv, hiv hasn't got me x

    I'm 21 from uk Essex I was diagnosed with hiv at 16 after finding out I was pregnant, obviously I was shocked hurt and to be honest didn't even wanna face the next day, after telling family and friends reading up and having loads of support. I realised I can't live my life...
    proudmum21 proudmum21 22-25, F 8 Responses Sep 12, 2013

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    I have not been diagnosed I just hope it's not

    going to be positive but if that is the case, I am just preparing myself I guess. I hope it's not as bad as society makes it. I really hope not. God bless everyone and have a wonderful future ahead!
    acdc8428 acdc8428 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 15

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    "I feel GYPPED in my life" - DEPRESSION "I'm

    gonna DIE soon...."- FEAR "****! I got flu and rashes. How's my CD4?" - UNCERTAINTY My life before I got HIV was good. The world was normal. I was so lucky with everything. I was dating, having fun, being in-love and being just myself. I was living the life I wanted to be...
    underrepair underrepair 26-30, M 6 Responses Apr 26

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    I am so so so happy .

    Just called my clinic to get my blood results. Been on medication for a month and my VL went down from 42000 to 340 and CD4 from 287 to 306. My doctor is very impressed how my body is doing very well. I feel great . It's time to celebrate and enjoy the life !!! Life is very...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 7 Responses May 22

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    Hello! So this is my story.

    .. About three weeks ago I went for some routine lab examinations... Everything was great until I heard the final words from the doctor: "Unfortunately, the HIV test came positive". I was not ready for that. What happened? When? How? Why? So many questions. My first reaction was...
    fusionconfusion fusionconfusion 26-30, M 8 Responses Mar 5

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    I AM HIV+…AND I HAVE FOUND LOVE…ON EP!

    ! The last story I had shared was one in which I had posed a question…at what point in a relationship does sex become secondary? That was back in October. I had been in a relationship since the previous May with a kind hearted man who was good to me. I had originally been...
    Ralphsnt69 Ralphsnt69 46-50, M 5 Responses May 2

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    Hi. 6 years ago i got infected by my

    ex-boyfriend. we actually were together for 7 months and using protection at the time. But one day, i really wanted to take a break from the relationship because i had a lot going on with my family, my studies, i really wanted to concentrate on myself, i was 20yrs old. So when i...
    Juliettat Juliettat 26-30, F 4 Responses Jun 12

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    Hi, i'm sofia, age 25,

    didn't marry, hiv positive (age: 23).. i feel very bad when got hiv, i spent more time alone, i didt take care of food and health tips. But i thought why i need spend time alone. i want to marry who like me.. I setup my profile on mpwh. weebly .com - i met Jack, he is really...
    gracesofia121 gracesofia121 31-35, F 6 days ago

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    I Have A Herbal Cure For Hiv Aids Tb

    My name is Wessel de Jager and I have been studying herbs for many years.  I come from an herbal family, where my farther had been the best herbalist I have ever known.  He taught me all about herbs and when we where sick as children he also healed/cured us with herbs...
    wessel wessel 51-55, M 131 Responses Mar 26, 2010

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    I was diagnosed HIV+ 2 years ago.

    ...I'm currently very healthy and on medications and physically feel great. But I hate the stigma of being HIV+....I feel like no woman will ever want to date me just because of my status, & with the exception of one who left me, it's been true....dates go perfectly well...
    SuperblackSER SuperblackSER 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 2

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    mon082912 mon082912 22-25, M 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    Yesterday was my first appointment at the

    clinic. The were so helpful but took so much blood. I have a friend who offered me to move in with him. He doesn't know and I'm scared of finding out. Today I feel like I have an ear infection and I have a headache and neck pain from it. My whole body is in pain today. If this...
    acetray acetray 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 1

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    I havnt been on here in

    so long but I recently had an HIV check up and my cd4 is 890 & my viral is 953 I'm happy with my numbers but I still don't understand it it but from what my doctor said they our good numbers I go back next week to talk about getting on some medicine or not idk I feel great...
    LondonKiss LondonKiss 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 15

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    And Am Really Angry Right Now

    Nobody should have this disease.  I never, in a bazillion years, would have ever thought I would be effected by it when I consider the type of family I grew up in.  I never even put a thought toward the idea that I could ever contract the disease. I just...
    JimmyTheBull JimmyTheBull 18-21, M 36 Responses Jun 14, 2009

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    It's been a while since I've posted anything on

    here. It's been six months since I started antiretroviral therapy, and I am now undetectable. Upon an unfortunate series of events in my early adulthood I still remain thankful for everything that has occurred, the strength I've accumulated throughout this experiences has been...
    bao94 bao94 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 14

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    now its a month since I know

    that im hiv positive..of course im not happy about it ..but then I have to accept my situation and look at the future with positivity.....reading stories here give me courage .....I realized I had hiv when in a span of 2 weeks I got so many infections all over my body I was...
    paulcor paulcor 51-55 2 Responses Jul 18

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    Silver Linings And BBQ Wings.

    I was born HIV+. It is all I have ever known in my 18 years of life and honestly I'm pretty laid back about the whole thing. I guess it would be harder for a positive diagnosis later in life because you would have to learn how to live with a diagnosis such as this. But honestly...
    PizzaOnMyMind PizzaOnMyMind 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 13, 2013

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    My Story

    Well it has been exactly a month today since I found out I was positive. I have my follow up tomorrow and find out if I need medication and my numbers. This is all very new to me. I am a 34 yr female that loves life. My family is very supportive and I have wonderful friends. I...
    Hopefulforanormallife Hopefulforanormallife 31-35, F 6 Responses Sep 26, 2013

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    You Can Be Healed of Aids!

    I was flipping the television channel to watch my favourite show when my grandmother came rushing into the room. I knew that was the end of my show! Every time she comes home from Arulagam, She always had an interesting story to tell. So, I sheepishly got up from the...
    GodsBeloved GodsBeloved 26-30, F 54 Responses May 5, 2009

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    Learning To Love Life

    well its been along road almost 4yrs now since i was diagnosed,ive almost died n given up on myself at sum points but im finally in a good place.i have an amzing family and i was blessed tomeet an awesome girl who has became my best friend..life is never easy and wen ur handed...
    anthonysmommy36 anthonysmommy36 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 16, 2012

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    HIV Is A Real Reality In My Life

    In early January I had sex with a prostitute I met online. We had brief unprotected sex, but I don't think that matters really how long it was for. Any way since then I've been going through a lot. I also have a girlfriend that I put in serious danger because at first I didn't...
    blackpen blackpen 26-30 16 Responses Mar 13, 2013

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    HIV+

    I am good person , I cant believe that now Im hiv and I feel so hurts , sad , I just hope I can find someone love me dont think I disgusting ,:-( I want some one to love me , be together and have a nice family !! I hope for this !!
    pammiesee pammiesee 22-25, F 11 Responses Oct 5, 2013

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    Hello everyone! Three years ago I started

    dating someone for a short period of time, shortly after we ended our relationship I found out that he was HIV+. I simply checked out with fear and denial but not entirely because I haven't been with anyone since. I've done everything wrong, I wish I would have been brave like a...
    Tmmrlonl Tmmrlonl 22-25, M 3 Responses Jun 18

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    Hiv and me A bundle of joy,

    turned dull from pain, She found herself running all over again. And out of the blue it all happened so fast, She tried to forget but the nightmare still lasts. Against her will and power, She who was once just a precious flower, Had began to feel so weak in the knees, Oblivious...
    k4m4r k4m4r 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 28

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    Just wanted to say to keep your heads up.

    You guys are all amazing and strong and the best thing is that you're all very supportive of each other. This is one of the last groups on EP as far as I can see that actually sticks to what EP was originally supposed to be about. Medicine is progressing and I wish all of you...
    fairytalesandspiderwebs fairytalesandspiderwebs 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    14th of June marked my 5th month anniversary of

    my diagnosis. I imagine this virus with a face, I imagine punching it sometimes and telling it to go away. I was fortunate not to react "irrationally" to the bad news, you know wanting to spread this thing or killing myself (the suicide idea did run in my head a bit though). I...
    brokenfixed brokenfixed 18-21, M 3 Responses Jun 16

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    Well If you followed my first story,

    I went to the specialist infection control doctor since my last post. He Started me on Atripla once a day. I will be going for more blood work in two weeks to see if it is effecting my liver and kidneys. then six weeks to get viral load tests and cd4 counts again. This has...
    Mr5cellophane Mr5cellophane 26-30, M 4 Responses Jul 13

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    Today I have been chatting with the guy

    who transmitted HIV to me and conversation with his is a bit off. Since I have found out I am positive we have sat down and talked, but all the information he told me is totally different tonight. First off he is/was a drug dealer something I unaware of) and when I asked him...
    mitchell713 mitchell713 22-25, M 4 Responses Jul 24

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    June 17th 2014 my life changed forever.

    After being told my HIV test came back abnormal the week before when the doctor called for me to come in I know there was no good news to come. Living with my best friend I instantly started crying. My best friend of 16 years rolled over and said let's go. I didn't feel so alone...
    acetray acetray 18-21, M 7 Responses Jun 24

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    I love the abbreviation

    for Antiretroviral therapy (ART) It is scientific state of the ART, thanks to this kind of art our lives are still pumping and kicking at great pace. HIV is not the worst disease ever, but it is something that will remain in our bodies until a cure is discovered. Regiments have...
    bao94 bao94 18-21, M 4 Responses Feb 17

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    Siting on the train and thinking .

    .. It's gonna be 5 months since I got the life changing news about my status . So far accepted that life is like this even though it was and still is a rocky journey . When I feel down I always remind myself how lucky I , that I have achieved what I always wanted .... And I...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 3 Responses Jul 15

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    I have recently been talking to a guy

    that I met on an app called Scruff. He lives about 45 miles from me and I am ok with that because not many people will know him. I am also scared because it almost seems to good to be true. If something works out with him not only will it be my first relationship ever, but my...
    mitchell713 mitchell713 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 9

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    Today is day 15 without smoking .

    I feel great . HIV is an awful dizzies but we can control it by medication !!! And we are very lucky to have it these days. Actually just would like to say that HIV "maybe " changed my life to Better !!!! Eating healthy , stopped smoking , juicing every day fresh vegetable and...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 1 Response Jun 29

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    Newly Dignosed

     Hi  Im newly diagnosed HIV + Im in my 30s and was with my ex partner for ten years.  We seperated but still live in the same house. I started to see a guy Ive known for years, He is my age and Ive liked him for a long time, I also knew he was HIV+.  We...
    LondonCalling LondonCalling 26-30, M 32 Responses Apr 22, 2008

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    Is HIV painful to have?

    What does it feel like? How long can you expect to live for? Do you just deteriorate? ( Dear God I hope not! I am only 30 years old! I have my whole life ahead of me! ) I am hoping not to go on any meds as they may give me bad side effects....
    acdc8428 acdc8428 26-30, F 4 Responses Jun 21

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    HIV Positive does not mean “Dirty” All

    over hook-up websites, gay men portraying themselves as HIV Negative refer to themselves as “being clean”. This is also true on TV shows and in gay romance novels (one of my guilty pleasures). The fact is that this is true to our gay “culture”. Results coming back as...
    Ralphsnt69 Ralphsnt69 46-50, M 2 Responses Jul 21

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    Exhusband Caused A Lifetime Of Distrust

    Hello, My name is Crystal. I am 34 years old and have been HIV positive for one year in October 2011. I remember the day I was diagnosed as it was yesterday. It all started with me getting thrush twice in less then a month. I had a feeling then that something was wrong but I...
    aloneinokc aloneinokc 31-35, F 6 Responses Nov 8, 2012

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    I am 26 years old and I am HIV+.

    I found out when I had my blood tests done during my pregnancy. My heart just sank. My son is now 6 months and he means everything to me yet only now I am battling to make peace with what i am now living with. I always thought that it would not happen to me as i did not have...
    Mafuh Mafuh 26-30, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    Today I moved from my Hometown of 21 years!

    I'm now two hours away and in the city. Also closer to the clinic.. Day 1- moved in, got dinner in the oven and room clean. My roommate is also gay but I don't plan to disclose my status with him Because we are completely just friends and I don't think he should know. He is also...
    acetray acetray 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 5

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    Today I Chose to Live.

    Today I chose to live. Not every day can I say that. I have been lucky because I have may children to make me fight to live. I have a job. Which like all jobs has its good and bad. But with that being said somedays I want to scream. My friends and support are there and here. I...
    ldmongo ldmongo 41-45, F 17 Responses Jan 29, 2008

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    HIV + And Going To Live

    I am a 40 year old pediatrician. I have 2 healthy beautiful children. I have the life people dream of..... until now. Let me give a brief history. I was raised a poor preacher's son. Went to med school and broke the long family tradition of poor blue collar workers. Met my wife...
    Doc72 Doc72 41-45, M 14 Responses Apr 7, 2013

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    I have been positive

    for a little over two months now.. I remember the doctors every word. It echos in my head every night, every time i close my eyes. My whole world seemed to be crashing. My future seemed to do a a complete reversal right there and then. I dont want this. I dont want to die...
    Dradian Dradian 26-30, M 10 Responses Jan 10

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    Could this be God telling us

    that we should just be with one person? And where does this HIV virus and other stds come from?
    acdc8428 acdc8428 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 15

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    A Long Time Now

     hello to everyone.   I have been HIV for 24 years now.  I have been with it, and it has been with me a very long time.  I was there in the beginning, and yet I find myself, all these years later still here.  And no, I have no answer for that.  If...
    brucedance brucedance 46-50 34 Responses Dec 14, 2008

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    I just found out my status two weeks ago.

    ..i feel lost, confused and scared...i need help but i dont know where to turn to...
    mon082912 mon082912 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Seems So Long Ago

    I'm not sure which guy I fell in love with and had unprotected sex with some 22+ years ago. I was young, impressionable and seemingly invincible. My first boyfriend was a nice guy. We lived in the same suburb and met in a gay area of the city. He was cute, but had one problem...
    stoogechicago4327 stoogechicago4327 46-50, M 4 Responses Feb 13, 2009

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    Am 29 years Old female,

    i was diagnosed HIV positive 7 years ago, am healthy, and upbeat about life. Life has been a lonely journey for me. Only my ex knows about my status, no one in my family knows simply because i know they are not strong enough and i cannot be strong enough for the whole family...
    hopefulcharl hopefulcharl 26-30, F 5 Responses Jun 16

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