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I Am HIV Positive

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    Im scared it looks like i have to start my

    medication tonight 😭😭😭 scared of the side effects
    skelly23 skelly23 22-25, M 4 Responses Jun 8

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    It has been 14 months

    since I first heard the news of my HIV status, in the chilly doctor’s office of prison. I often wondered how I managed to pull through so many odds, from being isolated due to my sexuality, to having no information on my newfound diagnosis in prison, crying my heart out in the...
    alifeofpoz alifeofpoz 31-35, M 6 Responses Jan 26, 2014

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    How HIV Children Are Injured And Kill By The

    Actions Of The City Of Salinas, Ca. The Salinas Valley is one of the largest agricultural centers in the USA and the city of Salinas, Ca., which is located there, releases toxic chemicals which can get into the food grown in the Salinas Valley. Some of the toxic...
    marcthegiantkiller marcthegiantkiller 56-60, M Jul 11

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    Looking At All Of The Testimonies Brings My

    Faith As High As The Clouds. Well, I'm 18 And Yesterday Went To The Hospital For An Appointment And Later On Was Diagnosed HIV+. I Couldn't Do Anything But Cry. I Was In The Room By Myself After The Doctor Left And All I Could Do Was Look Up To The Lord And Ask "Why?" I Asked...
    hisangel97 hisangel97 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 3

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    im scared. i am not taking my arvs anymore.

    this is day 3. im already on 2nd line meds and know that ive probably screwed up big time but im tired of all the meds and just want to suffer and die. why do i deserve to live ..there is no reason
    adi91 adi91 22-25, F 8 Responses Jun 17

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    It's been a while since I've posted anything on

    here. It's been six months since I started antiretroviral therapy, and I am now undetectable. Upon an unfortunate series of events in my early adulthood I still remain thankful for everything that has occurred, the strength I've accumulated throughout this experiences has been...
    bao94 bao94 18-21, M 8 Responses Jun 14, 2014

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    Let me begin by thanking everyone

    for their positivity on this forum. It has truly been an outlet for me to laugh, contemplate, and empathize with each of your situations or memories. I have needed this as I now navigate a road filled with sadness, grief, happiness, tears, and reminiscence.Six years ago I was at...
    TNtoNP TNtoNP 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 21

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    Hey everyone !!! Didn't write a post

    for few months , but gonna do little update about me . I feel good , blessed, healthy and lucky !!! Almost year and half on medication. Life is good , life is what u make it . Undetectable, CD4 around 400. Don't wanna sound life is perfect, is not ... But positivity is...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 2 Responses Jul 22

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    HIV + And Going To Live

    I am a 40 year old pediatrician. I have 2 healthy beautiful children. I have the life people dream of..... until now. Let me give a brief history. I was raised a poor preacher's son. Went to med school and broke the long family tradition of poor blue collar workers. Met my wife...
    Doc72 Doc72 41-45, M 15 Responses Apr 7, 2013

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    ok ive relized that i have hiv

    and im inderstanding it i know that this is gonna happen were i like it or not ....uhm now im just thinking about my future now ..i never really got to explore my family...if im scared and im 16 imagine my sister if i tell her she would die ...she already has sucide thoughts and...
    lmaoitsjoe lmaoitsjoe 16-17, M 3 Responses Jun 20

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    And Am Really Angry Right Now

    Nobody should have this disease.  I never, in a bazillion years, would have ever thought I would be effected by it when I consider the type of family I grew up in.  I never even put a thought toward the idea that I could ever contract the disease. I just...
    JimmyTheBull JimmyTheBull 18-21, M 36 Responses Jun 14, 2009

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    I want to write this

    because I can see my life going out of control really soon. I have been in the Army now for 15+ years. I believe I may have contracted HIV from a situation I should never have put myself in. Of course I know this is going to equate to my wife and children leaving me and...
    hopeiamnotahypo hopeiamnotahypo 31-35, M 3 Responses Jul 19

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    Fighting For My Life

    You never know how bad you want to live until death is staring you in the face. I was given an AIDS diagnoses while in the hospital Feb 2007. This story starts long before the day the doctor walked into my room and delivered that mind blowing news and just turned around and...
    HBM57 HBM57 56-60, M 10 Responses Oct 21, 2012

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    okay this is like the #5 day i have this

    and i think now that ibknow i have it its killing me i only once a day and ny stomach is killing me its not just my mind though i need someone to help give me feedback and tell me how this works did yall stomach start to hurt...okay my morning just started off wrong ...i woke up...
    lmaoitsjoe lmaoitsjoe 16-17, M 3 Responses Jun 22

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    TODAY 17TH JUNE a year ago I was diagnosed

    with hiv..I saw my live crumbling all over me...but few days later I knew it was a beginning of a new life a healthier life ... a life of medicines too.... a year later im as healthy as before this day I look at life positive and thank god that we have medication to live on...
    paulcor paulcor 51-55 3 Responses Jun 17

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    HIV Is A Real Reality In My Life

    In early January I had sex with a prostitute I met online. We had brief unprotected sex, but I don't think that matters really how long it was for. Any way since then I've been going through a lot. I also have a girlfriend that I put in serious danger because at first I didn't...
    blackpen blackpen 26-30 37 Responses Mar 13, 2013

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    I have put implanon contraceptive on friday .

    My doctor tells me i have to start tribuss .i am panicking because of both side effects
    Luiji Luiji 26-30 Jun 9

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    I rarely post anything on here,

    I even wonder if anyone will read this post. It's been over a year since my diagnosis, so much has changed. I ended up changing antiretroviral medication just once, b/c the previous one made me extremely depressed. I have a new job, which I love. I'm finally 21, yay! Anyways and...
    bao94 bao94 18-21, M 5 Responses Apr 25

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    I love the abbreviation

    for Antiretroviral therapy (ART) It is scientific state of the ART, thanks to this kind of art our lives are still pumping and kicking at great pace. HIV is not the worst disease ever, but it is something that will remain in our bodies until a cure is discovered. Regiments have...
    bao94 bao94 18-21, M 4 Responses Feb 17, 2014

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    "I feel GYPPED in my life" - DEPRESSION "I'm

    gonna DIE soon...."- FEAR "****! I got flu and rashes. How's my CD4?" - UNCERTAINTY My life before I got HIV was good. The world was normal. I was so lucky with everything. I was dating, having fun, being in-love and being just myself. I was living the life I wanted to be...
    underrepair underrepair 26-30, M 6 Responses Apr 26, 2014

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    Being HIV Positive doesn't define me,

    or make me any less of a person. Being HIV Positive, is a life sentence but the virus is manageable. I was diagnosed with HIV August 20, 2014 and my CD4 was 460 and my viral load was 6566. I've been taking Stribild since and my CD4 is 666 and I'm undetectable.
    PozlifeD PozlifeD 18-21, M 3 Responses Jul 1

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    So I've been positive

    for almost 20 years now, when I was 10 I started to wonder why do I get treated so differently, get tired so easily, couldn't do things most kids my age could do, like sleep over, go to camp, or have friends over, so one day my dad had my doctor explain to me everything I was...
    champion19 champion19 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 31

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    I'm going to get myself checked our soon

    because of possible exposure and I would greatly appreciate it if anyone who has been in my shoes can message me and help me navigate these feelings somewhat.
    WarriorsHeart WarriorsHeart 22-25, M Jul 23

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    I was diagnosed positive August of 2013.

    My CD4 count that time was really very low. I took medications prescribed by my doctor. Nobody in the family knows my status. I only told two of my closest friends about it. There are times that I get really down and EP really helped me. I use this social media to vent out and I...
    IamAugust IamAugust 26-30, M 4 Responses Jun 12

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    And The Waves Will Not Take Me

    I was 21 years old, it was a hot summer day in june when I found out. I got a call from the health department telling me someone that I had sex with contracted an STD. Having the decency to be upfront and honest, I went over to get tested. Sitting in the waiting room was torture...
    JayChi22 JayChi22 22-25, M 7 Responses Jan 11, 2012

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    I tested positive in 2004

    after a date rape and the first sex experience. I started getting sick a day to my graduation. Actually on my graduation day i was very sick and spent the better part of the day in bed. A month later is when i took the test and my worst fears were confirmed. I immediately...
    Ilovejulie2000 Ilovejulie2000 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 25

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    I just found out I'm positive last week.

    I took the test because I was dating this amazing guy for only one month (I was already falling for him), and he asked me to take it, so we could move forward with the relationship. Neither of us thought that it was going to be positive. He is now waiting for his results, but...
    d29new d29new 26-30, M 8 Responses Aug 21, 2014

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    Silver Linings And BBQ Wings.

    I was born HIV+. It is all I have ever known in my 18 years of life and honestly I'm pretty laid back about the whole thing. I guess it would be harder for a positive diagnosis later in life because you would have to learn how to live with a diagnosis such as this. But honestly...
    PizzaOnMyMind PizzaOnMyMind 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 13, 2013

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    I was officially diagnosed yesterday.

    My exposure was back in Dec 2014 unprotected sex with a man I have been seeing for 3 years, the same man I lost my virginity too. He had been with several other women during the same time that I was unaware of and he picked it up. He told me in Jan he was positive. I got checked...
    Nclangel611 Nclangel611 22-25, F 6 Responses Jun 17

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    PozlifeD PozlifeD 18-21, M 7 Responses Jan 25

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    Can someone tell me if you hv similar

    experience..l have a swollen node under my armpit and it gets painful at times.My doc said it will disappear when lm on meds..it's been 6 months now and still no progress..
    peppergrey peppergrey 31-35 3 Responses Jul 3

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    I found out I'm positive

    when I had my blood test on April 2015 and I started my med two weeks ago in June 2015. My cd 4 was 448 and viral load was 58k. Doctor suggested me to start my med and don't wait. skipping all the emotional problem, now I'm feeling better after read all the experiences here. I...
    sunkist87 sunkist87 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 25

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    15 June 2015 i felt my knees go weak,

    i wanted to collapse, i thought of the man i was with, and how our weekend went and how he was adamant he did not want to use a condom, i thought besides i have known him for years he would not do that to me, i went for a routine test and it came back positive i did not...
    jojo061 jojo061 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 19

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    Hey everyone, just wanted to vent

    and give an update. I'm done going through my phases of grief I think, I'm not sad anymore. Im more accepting now of my diagnosis and can talk about it. I'm still looking to reach out and talk to people's names similar situations. Anyone from Florida?! I am in the process of...
    Nclangel611 Nclangel611 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Hey everyone. Just joined this app today.

    I would like to share my story with you . Had always perfect lifestyle . Doing job that I always wanted ,healthy, lots if travel, great and healthy family and amazing 2 best friends. Then one day went as a support to my friend to the clinic. She felt anxious of testing and I...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 5 Responses May 17, 2014

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    I'm so happy. So I've been talking to this guy

    about a month and this whole time I didn't tell him I was HIV + because I was afraid he would not give me a chance. We'll yesterday things was getting deep and I felt he need to know. The reason why I thought he should know was (well is) falling for me. So when I made up my mind...
    1morestatus 1morestatus 22-25, M 6 Responses Sep 11, 2014

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    I'll never forget 8/5/2014 the first time I got

    the bad news an HIV positive test result. It's going to take a long time to feel better and be happy again. Reading stories about others gives me strength and hope for my future. Hopefully I can exchange emails with some of you to share our experiences. I wish you all the best...
    RickyXXX RickyXXX 36-40, M 11 Responses Aug 27, 2014

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    I have been positive

    for a little over two months now.. I remember the doctors every word. It echos in my head every night, every time i close my eyes. My whole world seemed to be crashing. My future seemed to do a a complete reversal right there and then. I dont want this. I dont want to die...
    Dradian Dradian 26-30, M 13 Responses Jan 10, 2014

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    I Have A Herbal Cure For Hiv Aids Tb

    My name is Wessel de Jager and I have been studying herbs for many years.  I come from an herbal family, where my farther had been the best herbalist I have ever known.  He taught me all about herbs and when we where sick as children he also healed/cured us with herbs...
    wessel wessel 51-55, M 151 Responses Mar 26, 2010

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    Hey everyone. It's been a year

    and 16 days since I have heard the heart breaking news. Since, my life has changed a lot. It did and taught me to more appreciate things and live as healthy as I can. Today's 10th March 2015 and I am on my way to meet my friend who I met on EP over 6 month ago. The thing is...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 4 Responses Mar 11

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    Hey everyone !!! Didn't write a post

    for few months , but gonna do little update about me . I feel good , blessed, healthy and lucky !!! Almost year and half on medication. Life is good , life is what u make it . Undetectable, CD4 around 400. Don't wanna sound life is perfect, is not ... But positivity is...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 22

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    I have put implanon contraceptive on friday .

    My doctor tells me i have to start tribuss .i am panicking because of both side effects
    Luiji Luiji 26-30 1 Response Jun 9

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    3 weeks since my diagnosis

    and 1 week into treatment. I'm feeling hopeful as my side effects have been minimal. I've started to forgive myself and realize the past is the past and the only way to go is forward. I use the words "forgive myself" but really, no one asks for this. Even before my diagnosis...
    z0mKi z0mKi 36-40, M 6 Responses Oct 18, 2014

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    My Whole Story About Being Gay, HIV, Drugs, Prison Life And Trying To Get Back On Track.

    We all made mistakes in life. Some stay with you momentarily, and some attach to you for life. It is so easy to look at someone and pass off any judgements on them, yet it makes so much difference to look for a moment beyond, for that sadness beneath their smiles, or a glimmer of...
    alifeofpoz alifeofpoz 31-35, M 11 Responses Oct 25, 2013

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    I am so so so happy .

    Just called my clinic to get my blood results. Been on medication for a month and my VL went down from 42000 to 340 and CD4 from 287 to 306. My doctor is very impressed how my body is doing very well. I feel great . It's time to celebrate and enjoy the life !!! Life is very...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 8 Responses May 22, 2014

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    Siting on the train and thinking .

    .. It's gonna be 5 months since I got the life changing news about my status . So far accepted that life is like this even though it was and still is a rocky journey . When I feel down I always remind myself how lucky I , that I have achieved what I always wanted .... And I...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 6 Responses Jul 15, 2014

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