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    Hello! So this is my story.

    .. About three weeks ago I went for some routine lab examinations... Everything was great until I heard the final words from the doctor: "Unfortunately, the HIV test came positive". I was not ready for that. What happened? When? How? Why? So many questions. My first reaction was...
    fusionconfusion fusionconfusion 26-30, M 10 Responses Mar 5, 2014

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    3 weeks since my diagnosis

    and 1 week into treatment. I'm feeling hopeful as my side effects have been minimal. I've started to forgive myself and realize the past is the past and the only way to go is forward. I use the words "forgive myself" but really, no one asks for this. Even before my diagnosis...
    z0mKi z0mKi 36-40, M 6 Responses Oct 18, 2014

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    alexandermsb alexandermsb 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 1

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    It's been a while since I've posted anything on

    here. It's been six months since I started antiretroviral therapy, and I am now undetectable. Upon an unfortunate series of events in my early adulthood I still remain thankful for everything that has occurred, the strength I've accumulated throughout this experiences has been...
    bao94 bao94 18-21, M 5 Responses Jun 14, 2014

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    I was just diagnosed last Thursday,

    and I'm still shocked. I just feel so empty, scared and sad. I didn't think this could happen to me at the age of 23.
    shynejr91 shynejr91 22-25, M 8 Responses Feb 25

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    Today I Chose to Live.

    Today I chose to live. Not every day can I say that. I have been lucky because I have may children to make me fight to live. I have a job. Which like all jobs has its good and bad. But with that being said somedays I want to scream. My friends and support are there and here. I...
    ldmongo ldmongo 41-45, F 17 Responses Jan 29, 2008

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    And Am Really Angry Right Now

    Nobody should have this disease.  I never, in a bazillion years, would have ever thought I would be effected by it when I consider the type of family I grew up in.  I never even put a thought toward the idea that I could ever contract the disease. I just...
    JimmyTheBull JimmyTheBull 18-21, M 36 Responses Jun 14, 2009

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    Hi everyone! Just an update.

    I'm happy to say that I've been undetectable since November and I was diagnosed in October. Stribild is really great with my body and I feel so much better. The holidays was great and this month, I've started back college. I have seven more classes left until I get my associates...
    TorchPlus TorchPlus 26-30, M 3 Responses Jan 21

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    When I was first diagnosed I was shocked,

    confused, angry, and most of all, lonely. I spent many nights crying myself to sleep hoping the nightmare would be over when I awoke. At first I was not able to look forward to the future without HIV haunting the back of my mind. I felt dirty and full of shame. It wasn’t...
    z0mKi z0mKi 36-40, M 2 Responses Mar 19

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    I AM HIV+…AND I HAVE FOUND LOVE…ON EP!

    ! The last story I had shared was one in which I had posed a question…at what point in a relationship does sex become secondary? That was back in October. I had been in a relationship since the previous May with a kind hearted man who was good to me. I had originally been...
    Ralphsnt69 Ralphsnt69 46-50, M 7 Responses May 2, 2014

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    As I write this my EP friend is getting ready

    for our night out in San Francisco. When I was first diagnosed 6 months ago I never expected to have such a bond with another person ever. I never expected that in 6 months time I would be smiling and enjoying a holiday with another who knows exactly the same struggles I've...
    z0mKi z0mKi 36-40, M Mar 14

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    Almost a year ago, after 19 years without

    medication I started on Complera. While my numbers are very, very good! Undetectable for over 8 months. The initial side effects were very bad for me and somewhat embarrassing. Really awful "Digestive Issues" LOL. Drastic decline in muscle strength, stamina and overall feeling...
    cubcariboo cubcariboo 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 26

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    Hello everybody :) this just

    and update on how things are after being HIV positive for over six months. This site has been a great place to meet others in the same situation and share our experiences. I want to thank those that helped during this process and make me see things differently... We are not...
    RickyXXX RickyXXX 36-40, M Feb 25

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    "I feel GYPPED in my life" - DEPRESSION "I'm

    gonna DIE soon...."- FEAR "****! I got flu and rashes. How's my CD4?" - UNCERTAINTY My life before I got HIV was good. The world was normal. I was so lucky with everything. I was dating, having fun, being in-love and being just myself. I was living the life I wanted to be...
    underrepair underrepair 26-30, M 7 Responses Apr 26, 2014

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    I am so so so happy .

    Just called my clinic to get my blood results. Been on medication for a month and my VL went down from 42000 to 340 and CD4 from 287 to 306. My doctor is very impressed how my body is doing very well. I feel great . It's time to celebrate and enjoy the life !!! Life is very...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 8 Responses May 22, 2014

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    Please help !!!! ....

    ... I was diagnosed in 2012 with full blown aids along with kidney cancer . Very very sick . Now I'm undetectable and very grateful for life today and also 2 years cancer free . I worked at a health center as a peer support advocate last year and out of convince switched my...
    cts77 cts77 36-40, M 4 Responses Mar 26

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    Hey everyone. It's been a year

    and 16 days since I have heard the heart breaking news. Since, my life has changed a lot. It did and taught me to more appreciate things and live as healthy as I can. Today's 10th March 2015 and I am on my way to meet my friend who I met on EP over 6 month ago. The thing is...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 3 Responses Mar 11

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    This may sound stupid

    and im sorry if offends anybody. I know im young but about a year ago I was in a relationship with another female. Later in the relationship we decided to have oral. We did twice and one time a little blood was involved. About 3 months later I started having vaginal problems...
    yourlesbiancousin yourlesbiancousin 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    HIV + And Going To Live

    I am a 40 year old pediatrician. I have 2 healthy beautiful children. I have the life people dream of..... until now. Let me give a brief history. I was raised a poor preacher's son. Went to med school and broke the long family tradition of poor blue collar workers. Met my wife...
    Doc72 Doc72 41-45, M 15 Responses Apr 7, 2013

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    I'm so happy. So I've been talking to this guy

    about a month and this whole time I didn't tell him I was HIV + because I was afraid he would not give me a chance. We'll yesterday things was getting deep and I felt he need to know. The reason why I thought he should know was (well is) falling for me. So when I made up my mind...
    1morestatus 1morestatus 22-25, M 6 Responses Sep 11, 2014

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    I AM HIV+ AND I HAVE FOUND LOVE ON EP -

    UPDATE Back in May 2014, I shared the story of how I met Eric on EP and how we fell in love with one another. When I wrote that story it had been about a month since he had moved down from New York to be with me in Florida...a month since we had seen each other in person for...
    Ralphsnt69 Ralphsnt69 46-50, M 4 Responses Jan 7

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    So I've been positive

    for almost 20 years now, when I was 10 I started to wonder why do I get treated so differently, get tired so easily, couldn't do things most kids my age could do, like sleep over, go to camp, or have friends over, so one day my dad had my doctor explain to me everything I was...
    champion19 champion19 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 31

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    was diagnosed after my bf passed away 2009.

    tgthr 4 yrs Never knew he had it. I've been on meds 3 yrs.. doing better, undectable but still stuggling
    oopsusernameistaken oopsusernameistaken 36-40, F 5 Responses Feb 25

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    GERMANY. Is there someone from Germany here?

    I have a question could you please inbox me? Thanks! :)
    alexandermsb alexandermsb 18-21, M Jan 20

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    I'd like to share you a Warm-hearted

    and exclusive community for singles and friends with HIV+ and other STDs which has over 700K members,15,000+ Daily Active Members,more chances to find someone to talk to,to laugh with and understands what you go through,even have a relationship with!!100% Anonymous,Private,Safe...
    pozoq pozoq 22-25, M Feb 10

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    I'm not positive, I'm waiting

    for test results. I'm also not normally one of those people who freaks out about these things, but the more I think about, the more I have to worry about. I have been sick for 9months. I'm dizzy, my joints and muscles hurt, having palpitations and night sweats, and 3 months...
    startingover87 startingover87 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 25

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    A Long Time Now

     hello to everyone.   I have been HIV for 24 years now.  I have been with it, and it has been with me a very long time.  I was there in the beginning, and yet I find myself, all these years later still here.  And no, I have no answer for that.  If...
    brucedance brucedance 46-50 35 Responses Dec 14, 2008

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    Just got my first labs today VL: 250 CD4:

    688 I was super nervous but my bf being there helped but me at ease. My doctor said that my body is fighting the virus extremely well and originally did not think that I needed to begin medication right away. However after talking with him further we decided to start me with...
    JustMe1228 JustMe1228 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 19

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    Today is day 15 without smoking .

    I feel great . HIV is an awful dizzies but we can control it by medication !!! And we are very lucky to have it these days. Actually just would like to say that HIV "maybe " changed my life to Better !!!! Eating healthy , stopped smoking , juicing every day fresh vegetable and...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 2 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    PozlifeD PozlifeD 18-21, M 5 Responses Jan 25

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    Learning To Love Life

    well its been along road almost 4yrs now since i was diagnosed,ive almost died n given up on myself at sum points but im finally in a good place.i have an amzing family and i was blessed tomeet an awesome girl who has became my best friend..life is never easy and wen ur handed...
    anthonysmommy36 anthonysmommy36 22-25, F 5 Responses Jun 16, 2012

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    Hey everyone. Just joined this app today.

    I would like to share my story with you . Had always perfect lifestyle . Doing job that I always wanted ,healthy, lots if travel, great and healthy family and amazing 2 best friends. Then one day went as a support to my friend to the clinic. She felt anxious of testing and I...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 5 Responses May 17, 2014

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    Fighting For My Life

    You never know how bad you want to live until death is staring you in the face. I was given an AIDS diagnoses while in the hospital Feb 2007. This story starts long before the day the doctor walked into my room and delivered that mind blowing news and just turned around and...
    HBM57 HBM57 56-60, M 9 Responses Oct 21, 2012

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    I just found out I'm positive last week.

    I took the test because I was dating this amazing guy for only one month (I was already falling for him), and he asked me to take it, so we could move forward with the relationship. Neither of us thought that it was going to be positive. He is now waiting for his results, but...
    d29new d29new 26-30, M 8 Responses Aug 21, 2014

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    I'll never forget 8/5/2014 the first time I got

    the bad news an HIV positive test result. It's going to take a long time to feel better and be happy again. Reading stories about others gives me strength and hope for my future. Hopefully I can exchange emails with some of you to share our experiences. I wish you all the best...
    RickyXXX RickyXXX 36-40, M 11 Responses Aug 27, 2014

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    HIV Is A Real Reality In My Life

    In early January I had sex with a prostitute I met online. We had brief unprotected sex, but I don't think that matters really how long it was for. Any way since then I've been going through a lot. I also have a girlfriend that I put in serious danger because at first I didn't...
    blackpen blackpen 26-30 31 Responses Mar 13, 2013

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    I was told the news last year March.

    it was the worst thing ever. I was in the hospital(my grandma and I) and the doctors can in and told us. it was the worst thing ever. a whole year later and I still don't know how to deal with it. I can feel with it but it's like I don't have it. I don't talk about it, think...
    iamdreee iamdreee 18-21, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I have been positive

    for a little over two months now.. I remember the doctors every word. It echos in my head every night, every time i close my eyes. My whole world seemed to be crashing. My future seemed to do a a complete reversal right there and then. I dont want this. I dont want to die...
    Dradian Dradian 26-30, M 13 Responses Jan 10, 2014

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    well I've been hiv positive

    for almost half a year now. on the meds. numbers good. doctor says i will live a normal life span give or take. so why am i still feeling ****?
    ventt ventt 26-30, M 3 days ago

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    Is It Worth Living, Can Someone Please Tell Me That Im Not Insane

    Im a female, 23yrs, been hiv+ve for about 2yrs now. I got raped while I was doing metric but didnt get infected then. I had a boyfrend at that time and we were always fighting because I never wanted to sleep with him, then I got raped. He told me that I asked for it. I...
    zazi zazi 22-25, F 39 Responses Apr 7, 2008

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    It has been 14 months

    since I first heard the news of my HIV status, in the chilly doctor’s office of prison. I often wondered how I managed to pull through so many odds, from being isolated due to my sexuality, to having no information on my newfound diagnosis in prison, crying my heart out in the...
    alifeofpoz alifeofpoz 31-35, M 6 Responses Jan 26, 2014

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    How do I tell my best friend I have HIV?

    I recently found out a few days ago that I am HIV+. While this of course was a huge shock, my biggest fear has come with telling my partner / best friend. I have known this guy for a very long time, we have always looked out for each other and have recently been exploring the...
    JustMe1228 JustMe1228 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 1

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    I went to the clinic couple of weeks ago to

    have my blood test done. Finally got my numbers. So my VL is down to 67 and my CD4 went up to 408. Almost undetectable. Was hoping that will get there this time, but hopefully next time. God is looking after me, I pray every day. I been on medication for 3 months. Taking...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 4 Responses Aug 3, 2014

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    Hello everyone, My story is a little different,

    I had a contact with hiv+ (oral sex given to me). Since then (almost 3 months) I've had a lot of physical changes over my body, twitches, tremors, weakness, headaches, soar throat .. etc etc... I was convinced I am hiv+ but my question is what is wrong with my tests??? 2,4,6 and...
    Ryole Ryole 26-30, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I love the abbreviation

    for Antiretroviral therapy (ART) It is scientific state of the ART, thanks to this kind of art our lives are still pumping and kicking at great pace. HIV is not the worst disease ever, but it is something that will remain in our bodies until a cure is discovered. Regiments have...
    bao94 bao94 18-21, M 4 Responses Feb 17, 2014

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    Silver Linings And BBQ Wings.

    I was born HIV+. It is all I have ever known in my 18 years of life and honestly I'm pretty laid back about the whole thing. I guess it would be harder for a positive diagnosis later in life because you would have to learn how to live with a diagnosis such as this. But honestly...
    PizzaOnMyMind PizzaOnMyMind 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 13, 2013

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