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I Am HIV Positive

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    There's no such a thing

    as a happy life after being HIV+
    Pather2013 Pather2013 46-50, M 3 Responses Jan 28

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    "I feel GYPPED in my life" - DEPRESSION "I'm

    gonna DIE soon...."- FEAR "****! I got flu and rashes. How's my CD4?" - UNCERTAINTY My life before I got HIV was good. The world was normal. I was so lucky with everything. I was dating, having fun, being in-love and being just myself. I was living the life I wanted to be...
    underrepair underrepair 26-30, M 6 Responses Apr 26, 2014

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    Confused,nervous, conflicted.

    First dkcs appt after being diagnosed is this week and I'm emotionally drained.
    NowImDPressed NowImDPressed 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 13

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    I am so so so happy .

    Just called my clinic to get my blood results. Been on medication for a month and my VL went down from 42000 to 340 and CD4 from 287 to 306. My doctor is very impressed how my body is doing very well. I feel great . It's time to celebrate and enjoy the life !!! Life is very...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 8 Responses May 22, 2014

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    Question.. I feel that i often randomly think

    about my hiv+ daily. Does you guys go through that?
    starstuckshawty starstuckshawty 22-25, M 5 Responses Dec 7, 2015

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    I have two daughters

    who are now 6 and 4 years old. They are the sweetest and prettiest little girls that I know. I could go on and on about them. I was married to their dad from the time I was 19 until I was 26. He was abusive to me and a bit abusive to my youngest. I felt like I had to stay to...
    SweetyPetie SweetyPetie 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 28, 2015

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    Good news. Diagnosed in Aug 2015.

    After 2 months of Triumeq, my viral load went from 36,000 to 113.
    JCole2015 JCole2015 31-35, M 2 Responses Nov 15, 2015

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    I Have A Herbal Cure For Hiv Aids Tb

    My name is Wessel de Jager and I have been studying herbs for many years.  I come from an herbal family, where my farther had been the best herbalist I have ever known.  He taught me all about herbs and when we where sick as children he also healed/cured us with herbs...
    wessel wessel 51-55, M 180 Responses Mar 26, 2010

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    So I've been positive

    for almost 20 years now, when I was 10 I started to wonder why do I get treated so differently, get tired so easily, couldn't do things most kids my age could do, like sleep over, go to camp, or have friends over, so one day my dad had my doctor explain to me everything I was...
    champion19 champion19 22-25, F 6 Responses Mar 31, 2015

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    Hi all Am going crazy lately from thinking of

    hiv And I experience a symptoms 3 weeks after expose as hard swallow and lose weight and all gin with antibiotics in 5 days , no fever , no fatigue , but also after 9 weeks of expose I got one Lymph node behind right ear painless and size les than 1 cm till now which is more...
    Medosalas Medosalas 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 17, 2015

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    Hey everyone. It's been a year

    and 16 days since I have heard the heart breaking news. Since, my life has changed a lot. It did and taught me to more appreciate things and live as healthy as I can. Today's 10th March 2015 and I am on my way to meet my friend who I met on EP over 6 month ago. The thing is...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 4 Responses Mar 11, 2015

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    Is It Worth Living, Can Someone Please Tell Me That Im Not Insane

    Im a female, 23yrs, been hiv+ve for about 2yrs now. I got raped while I was doing metric but didnt get infected then. I had a boyfrend at that time and we were always fighting because I never wanted to sleep with him, then I got raped. He told me that I asked for it. I...
    zazi zazi 22-25, F 39 Responses Apr 7, 2008

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    Today is day 15 without smoking .

    I feel great . HIV is an awful dizzies but we can control it by medication !!! And we are very lucky to have it these days. Actually just would like to say that HIV "maybe " changed my life to Better !!!! Eating healthy , stopped smoking , juicing every day fresh vegetable and...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 3 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    I feel I will die sooner

    than expected, but not because of HIV. I'm afraid.
    Pather2013 Pather2013 46-50, M 2 Responses Dec 17, 2015

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    Now technically I have AIDS.

    HIV+ is bad enough, having AIDS IS THE WORST
    Pather2013 Pather2013 46-50, M 5 Responses Dec 26, 2015

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    So it's been 4 hours

    and 41 mins since I drank my first Atripla.... first of a million/trillion more. And everytime I drink it,I will continue to wonder where I got this from? Could it have been from that quickie in the loo with the barman? Or was it from that guy that I'd met in the cemetery...
    Bilharzia Bilharzia 31-35, F 1 hr ago

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    Even though I don't like to be positive,

    at least I'm alive and healthy. I'd love to have better numbers but I can have my meds and the strength to keep on fighting for a healthier life.
    Pather2013 Pather2013 46-50, M 2 Responses Jan 31

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    It's been a while since I've posted anything on

    here. It's been six months since I started antiretroviral therapy, and I am now undetectable. Upon an unfortunate series of events in my early adulthood I still remain thankful for everything that has occurred, the strength I've accumulated throughout this experiences has been...
    bao94 bao94 18-21, M 8 Responses Jun 14, 2014

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    I've known for about 3 months now.

    I found out just after moving 2000 miles in the pursuit of happiness. I was struggling financially, hustling on craigslist and working fulltime to get by, and decided to donate plasma for money. 2 weeks later I got a crippling awakening from my western blot results. For over a...
    nvrtr nvrtr 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm very sad. My HIV results came awfully bad.

    I don't have my VL yet, but the rest it's like a year time set back. I'm afraid. I don't wanna die yet. All my lymphocytes went down to almost 50%. Technically now I have AIDS. Which sounds like the worst. I was doing great for almost a year. And now this. I don't know if I want...
    Pather2013 Pather2013 46-50, M 3 Responses Dec 17, 2015

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    I was diagnosed a year ago,

    some days I great and some days I ask myself how I let this happen to me? I really haven't told anyone but my sister and well my best friend other than that no one knows. I do good until I go to the doctor and I have to say it out loud that I am HIV+
    KeepingHope2014 KeepingHope2014 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 22, 2015

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    Just an update: I had an appointment with my

    new HIV Specialist, Dr. Morris two days ago. I am doing well, my viral load is still "undectabable" and my CD4 is at 994. I haven't skipped a dose and have been on meds since October 31, 2014. My advice to anyone that is HIV Positive, you aren't alone. Just because you are HIV...
    PozlifeD PozlifeD 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 2, 2015

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    My bf has just completed his 1st month on meds

    and he's doing fine! He has very minimal side effects. I, on the other hand, tested negative so we're both really really happy. I think his status made us much closer and is continuously teaching us to live life to the fullest, day by day, and to really learn how to love and...
    daroq daroq 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 19, 2015

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    HIV + And Going To Live

    I am a 40 year old pediatrician. I have 2 healthy beautiful children. I have the life people dream of..... until now. Let me give a brief history. I was raised a poor preacher's son. Went to med school and broke the long family tradition of poor blue collar workers. Met my wife...
    Doc72 Doc72 41-45, M 15 Responses Apr 7, 2013

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    Not a pretty story ,

    but it is mine. I'm a male and a father divorced after my life was ruined by my ex wife. As a person growing up in a conservative family, I have never thought about sexual contact and never had one until my marriage. 7 years of marriage ruined my future. I married a woman that I...
    saadg125 saadg125 22-25, M 4 Responses Jan 13

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    Today marked my 30th Atripla pill.

    The first 11 days were hell... I woke up nauseous every single morning until I threw up on the 11th day. After that, I instantly felt better. My kidneys (which are working too well) and liver are fine, so this drug isn't affecting them. I gained weight, ugh. Not much, but...
    brokenfixed brokenfixed 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 16

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    Learning To Love Life

    well its been along road almost 4yrs now since i was diagnosed,ive almost died n given up on myself at sum points but im finally in a good place.i have an amzing family and i was blessed tomeet an awesome girl who has became my best friend..life is never easy and wen ur handed...
    anthonysmommy36 anthonysmommy36 22-25, F 5 Responses Jun 16, 2012

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    What are the possibilities of testing negative

    when u are undetectable??I'm curious. I test poz n my bf of 2 n half yr tested negative. How possible is that??I met him 3 yrs back,4 months in to our rship I starated to have rush on my arm pits,I went n saw a doc, last yr on the 11 th of Jan that's when I knew I was poz,I told...
    ntebatse ntebatse 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 29

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    I rarely post anything on here,

    I even wonder if anyone will read this post. It's been over a year since my diagnosis, so much has changed. I ended up changing antiretroviral medication just once, b/c the previous one made me extremely depressed. I have a new job, which I love. I'm finally 21, yay! Anyways and...
    bao94 bao94 18-21, M 7 Responses Apr 25, 2015

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    I have been positive

    for a little over two months now.. I remember the doctors every word. It echos in my head every night, every time i close my eyes. My whole world seemed to be crashing. My future seemed to do a a complete reversal right there and then. I dont want this. I dont want to die...
    Dradian Dradian 31-35, M 13 Responses Jan 10, 2014

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    PozlifeD PozlifeD 18-21, M 7 Responses Jan 25, 2015

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    What does everyone else have planned

    for World HIV/AIDS day on the 1st? I'm probably gonna stuff my face with everything in my fridge... I might even throw a party...
    brokenfixed brokenfixed 22-25, M 2 Responses Nov 27, 2015

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    It has been 14 months

    since I first heard the news of my HIV status, in the chilly doctor’s office of prison. I often wondered how I managed to pull through so many odds, from being isolated due to my sexuality, to having no information on my newfound diagnosis in prison, crying my heart out in the...
    alifeofpoz alifeofpoz 31-35, M 6 Responses Jan 26, 2014

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    I must get a colonoscopy

    because I may have colon cancer and because of being HIV+ I may develop anal cancer. People with HIV are more likely to get anal cancer
    Pather2013 Pather2013 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 28, 2015

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    And Am Really Angry Right Now

    Nobody should have this disease.  I never, in a bazillion years, would have ever thought I would be effected by it when I consider the type of family I grew up in.  I never even put a thought toward the idea that I could ever contract the disease. I just...
    JimmyTheBull JimmyTheBull 18-21, M 36 Responses Jun 14, 2009

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    I'm sad. I'm getting older

    and as I've read HIV+ people age faster. I'm afraid. My dad died of colon cancer. Metabolic syndrome runs in the family. I'm getting bitter. Life is 10% fun and 90% problems and suffering. I'm sad.
    Pather2013 Pather2013 46-50, M 5 Responses Nov 26, 2015

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    A Long Time Now

     hello to everyone.   I have been HIV for 24 years now.  I have been with it, and it has been with me a very long time.  I was there in the beginning, and yet I find myself, all these years later still here.  And no, I have no answer for that.  If...
    brucedance brucedance 46-50 35 Responses Dec 14, 2008

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    Hey everyone. Just joined this app today.

    I would like to share my story with you . Had always perfect lifestyle . Doing job that I always wanted ,healthy, lots if travel, great and healthy family and amazing 2 best friends. Then one day went as a support to my friend to the clinic. She felt anxious of testing and I...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 5 Responses May 17, 2014

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    Man it's ganna be a year on the 26th

    since I found out I'm positive.and Im still alive.. A year went by so fast. I didn't even think I would still be alive .but here I am I'm undetectable:).. To think I was ganna give up on life but you know what I held on, stayed positive well trying to stay positive at least to...
    filipinoako filipinoako 26-30, M 2 Responses Dec 17, 2015

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    I'm tired. After 2.5 years in treatment my

    numbers are awful. I'm tired of doctors, meds, labs, appointments, etc. My depression is worsening. I want to stop. I'm overwhelmed by life.
    Pather2013 Pather2013 46-50, M 1 Response Jan 25

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    I'm supposed to read up on meds

    so that I have an understanding when I see my doctor to start treatment, but I don't even know where to start. Nukes, non-nukes, combos... Then there's a million under each category. So overwhelming. Especially when you're still trying to grasp the fact that you ARE positive.
    NowImDPressed NowImDPressed 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 26

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    Feeling depressed a bit today.

    Though I know the pros and cons about this disease and being healthy is the key to success yet I get that sudden feeling 'why ******* me? I was always careful, i haven't harmed anyone then why the hell me?' Another biggest concern is 'am i being careful enough since i stay...
    lifology lifology 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 23

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    I'm so happy. So I've been talking to this guy

    about a month and this whole time I didn't tell him I was HIV + because I was afraid he would not give me a chance. We'll yesterday things was getting deep and I felt he need to know. The reason why I thought he should know was (well is) falling for me. So when I made up my mind...
    1morestatus 1morestatus 22-25, M 6 Responses Sep 11, 2014

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    I just found out I'm positive last week.

    I took the test because I was dating this amazing guy for only one month (I was already falling for him), and he asked me to take it, so we could move forward with the relationship. Neither of us thought that it was going to be positive. He is now waiting for his results, but...
    d29new d29new 26-30, M 8 Responses Aug 21, 2014

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    HIV Is A Real Reality In My Life

    In early January I had sex with a prostitute I met online. We had brief unprotected sex, but I don't think that matters really how long it was for. Any way since then I've been going through a lot. I also have a girlfriend that I put in serious danger because at first I didn't...
    blackpen blackpen 26-30 42 Responses Mar 13, 2013

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