I Am Haphephobic

Haphephobia; a morbid fear or dislike of being touched. 113 People

    My mother is convinced

    that all of this started when I was three and she lost me in a mall for two hours. I have no recollection of this. It could be any of a thousand reasons I have no idea. What I do know is that I can't touch people I don't trust completely. I mean absolutely completely. I...
    Mystchevious Mystchevious
    36-40, M
    1 Response Aug 15, 2014

    Recent Haphephobia

    Up until recently, I was fine with hugging my family and high-fiving my friends. But a few months ago this boy started having a lot of physical contact with me -- completely platonic, but still. And it became really uncomfortable for me because I liked him. And I started crying...
    deleted deleted
    Nov 22, 2013

    Touch At Your Own Risk...

    I've been Haphephobic for as long as I can remember; I never knew that is was a legitimate phobia, however, until I was bombarded by a repressed memory coming to light. I had seen fragments of the scene before, but I always disregarded them because I thought: "Surely, if...
    Touchaphobe Touchaphobe
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Dec 29, 2012

    I don't know if why I do this is normal

    but I feel out of place. I cannot stand being touched, poked, tapped anything it makes me antsy and in a bad mood. I avoid seeing my boyfriend in the halls at school because I fear that physical contact will happen. Maybe it's normal and I'm just a mean teenager going through A...
    Ryleemorganxx Ryleemorganxx
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 26, 2013

    I Think I Just Discovered That I Am Haphephobic

    everything Im reading about this phobia is sounding like me. I always flinch any time anyone tries to touch me in any way, only time i can be touched is if i touch them first and even then Im still nervous.
    montelu montelu
    1 Response Jul 10, 2013

    I Want To Get Closer.

    I've been reading posts on this site, and it has always made me feel better about how I am. Knowing that other people go through exactly what I do is relieving for me, as I know I'm not alone. I'd like to share my experiences to those who have helped me, and in hope that they'll...
    Surreptitiousgiraffe Surreptitiousgiraffe
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 26, 2013

    I'm So Sick

    My name is Camille, I am going into 8th I have been struggling with Haphephobic since sixth grade It all started in the end of sixth grade (as said before) I never wished to be touched by anyone, I can remember the first time I ever felt different because of my wish to not be...
    epicfreak101 epicfreak101
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 5, 2013

    I Think I Am...

    I dunno, I don't have any problems with certain people touching me. I give great big bear hugs to my lil bro all the time. Its... other people. When I was in highschool I had a lot of friends that liked to hug. I hated it... made me feel sick, uncomfortable and stiff. I was a...
    KittyLuck KittyLuck
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Sep 3, 2009

    When I was four and in kindergarden,

    I had a friend. I used to go over to his house a lot. He was my best friend. One day he told me to trust him and to keep this a secret because we were best friends and that best friends kept secrets. He would touch me. This would happen every time I went to his house after that...
    matsokat matsokat
    22-25, F
    Jan 24, 2015

    Are You Ready For The Relentless Word Vomit That Is The Hopelessly Depressing Story Of My Life? I Sure Hope So...

    I don't remember much from below the age of 14 and nothing from below the age of eight. Now this wouldn't be all that surprising if I was even remotely elderly and only mildly worrying if I was middle aged and even maybe a bit heart wrenching if I was in my thirties. But I'm not...
    nazza000 nazza000
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 4, 2012


    odd name I know but still felt it was some what fitting for how I deal with it and I guess part of the cause I feel this way. I'm male and my fear is strongest to other guys but have no idea why, maybe I see them as more disgusting things or maybe I find girls agreeable or...
    yokia yokia
    26-30, M
    Oct 20, 2013

    Antisocial, Much?

    I am antisocial. I am haphephobic. I am an anthropophobic. And I am at a small, local concert with at least fifty other people. The concert is at a small café, a café that has a maximum capacity of seventy people; it's the length of a mobile home...
    takeitorleaveit takeitorleaveit
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 10, 2008

    I'm so sad, I just spilled my life story,

    and it took me over an hour to write. I've never been able to share with anyone.. And then I accidentally hit the home key on my phone, and I lost the whole thing. well, I can't type it again, it was hard enough the first time. suffice to say, I am Haphephobic. I can only touch...
    jimmyneutron4eva jimmyneutron4eva
    31-35, M
    1 Response Dec 28, 2014

    I never knew what this was called

    until I very recently made a determined search for the name, but I know I have this phobia. All my life I've had an intense fear of being touched, even lightly. I remember cringing when my own mother tried to hug me when I was as little as four years old. I was able to fight it...
    al13ngr33n al13ngr33n
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Aug 22, 2015

    I have same issues. I only recently began to

    think about it and wonder what caused it. As a toddler I was left w/ dad when mom was at hospital givin birth to lil brother. Apparently i was hella upset and when i was brought to hospital to see mom i wouldn't let her touch me (and i never agin wanted to be touched). It's...
    bromeliad23 bromeliad23
    36-40, M
    3 Responses Sep 20, 2015

    I Have Never Been Able To Have People Touch Me

    Whenever someone trys to touch me or even gets close to me it feels like im under attack and i shut down. I get really anxious and i can't talk or move. I freeze up. I'm my most insecure when people are touching me. When somebody surprise touches me my instant reaction is anger...
    babybop12 babybop12
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Jun 27, 2013

    Suffering From Haphephobia

    I've been haphephobic for most of my llife. I didn't really grow up in a safe environmaent as a little kid, and I grew up around people where it was always safer to just not let them near enough tot touch you. Where i was raised most physical touch was not a very good thing...
    raiven raiven
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jul 16, 2010

    I think, me and haphephobia have this

    relationship where we are constantly trying to subtly attack each other. Actually, it's the haphephobia that does most of the attacking and I'm busy doing my best to defend against it and go on with life. There's no getting away from physical human contact. It doesn't matter how...
    BlueRio BlueRio
    18-21, F
    Mar 10, 2014

    Personal Space

    Most people don't understand what it's like to be haphephobic. How your heart races and you begin to sweat every time someone touches you? I have this friend who is a great guy always kind and caring but likes to hug people, especially his friends. Every time we say good-bye he...
    pallas pallas
    5 Responses May 13, 2009

    hey, im a 14 year old guy

    and I think I am starting to develop haphephobia. I dont know when,why or how it started. all I know is that I hate the idea of unnessicary or prolonged touching on me or near me. if some one reaches out to touch me my body cringes and does all it can to avoid their hand. im ok...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jul 17, 2015

    My therapist wants me to try touch therapy.

    I'm scared because touching just about anyone makes me sick and gives me a flight response. I have made leeway with my fiancee and boyfriend of many ways, but he is the only person I am able to be affectionate with. And I know that in complaining about that I may sound...
    ComicGirl97 ComicGirl97
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 4, 2016

    I used to love hugging my friends- I've always

    been very strong for my height and gender, and would often pick up my friends and twirl them around, even in elementary school. However, since 8th grade, I have developed severe haphephobia. My relationship with my mother has turned awful, and I consistently lose friends. I've...
    Illithid13 Illithid13
    1 Response Jun 18, 2014

    Sometimes I wonder why I am

    so afraid of being touched. It's almost ironic that I go rigid when people touch me. My entire life I've just wanted someone to be close to, and be affectionate with, and trust. Yet I put up the barrier. Every night I shiver, not for the cold, but for lack of the warmth of...
    lilrowan lilrowan
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 27, 2015

    I'm only 17 and it was only recently

    that i discovered this. To start with i'd just like to say that never mind not knowing what the phobia of touch was even called which i just recently found out, i was completely unaware that it was a phobia. It was only up until a couple of years ago that i figured that there...
    MonaJ13 MonaJ13
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 13, 2014

    It hurts to be around others wanting to express

    love toward me, but I have to shove them away because of the haphephobia. I have only recently discovered the word for this, but have been dealing with it for a long time. I long to be held and cared for, but cannot handle it when the time comes. Its like wanting to cook but...
    qzmpal24 qzmpal24
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 1, 2015

    Why Can't They Love Me Without Touching Me?

    I am Haphephobic. Or, as I like to remind myself "You're a freak, Lou. You know that." Yes! But even I have rights! I really dislike being touched, and I have a large personal space bubble. Being around too many people (i.e. Theme park, mall, convention, grocery store...
    Voodoolou Voodoolou
    22-25, F
    7 Responses Jul 12, 2009

    My Story

    Ever since I was born, i was extremely shy. I hated boys/ men except for my dad, grandpas and my best friend until i was 5. I would always flinch when someone touched me no matter who. Then as i went through elementary (primary) school it wasn't too bad. But when i turned 10 i...
    pleasedonot pleasedonot
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Jun 8, 2013

    I was raped at 13, and my whole world changed,

    no one knew (no one knows to this day 6 years later) I've always been ok with hugging (I angle my lower body away, people usually don't even notice) but no one can touch my chest, or my legs, or my lower back without me freaking out and getting in a bad mood. I've fought with...
    hiddenbabe hiddenbabe
    18-21, F
    Dec 5, 2013

    Living In a Bubble.

    I am haphephobic. In the years since I first realized that most people don't react as I do, it has ended my Navy career, precluded numerous routine and emergent medical procedures, fouled countless relationships, and at times, made me doubt my sanity. My failed introduction...
    SapphicMojo SapphicMojo
    1 Response Jun 11, 2009

    I Just Found Out There Was A Name For My Phobia.

    I am a female senior in high school and I just found out that I am a haphephobic. I guess i can say that i always know but i didn't know there was a real phobia for it. It all started when I was six years old I went next door to play with an older friend I had (female). I trusted...
    cutiev0900 cutiev0900
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Sep 8, 2013

    Ruled By Fear

    I used to like hugging people when I was younger. But now I can't touch anyone other than my closest female friends. When someone of the opposite sex tries to touch me I panic and get sweaty and anxious. I feel trapped, lite I have no control over the situation. I'm scared that...
    Shatterproof Shatterproof
    31-35, F
    Oct 17, 2013

    Not sure if this is haphephobia

    but I've noticed that lately when it comes to physical contact; I have these jitters that make me jolt my hands away if someone gets too close to touching them. It's not that I'm uncomfortable with physical touching, it's just this impulse that I don't know how to stop from...
    misternobrain misternobrain
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jan 9, 2014

    Experiencing trauma seems to be a trend.

    It makes me question whether it is a criteria for haphephobia, or if I even have this phobia. All I know is that I despise being touched. When someone stands too close in my proximity, it's like every vertebrae in my body is vibrating. My back arches and I cringe away from...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Jun 15, 2015


    I can think of a few experiences that may have mad me a little bit cautious about being touched but as I've gotten older, it seems to be getting worse. My partner is always complaining that whenever he hugs me or gives me a spontaneous kiss I pull away. To give you a visual of...
    Hiley Hiley
    1 Response Oct 24, 2012

    I Wouldn't Call It A Morbid Fear

    I used to be quite a normal kid in school. I'd hug my teachers,friends ,anybody because I liked to be close to people. But I suddenly stop when I was around the age of 11. One day I was taken to a place by someone I knew,since Kindergarten , so I trusted this person and followed...
    2 Responses Jan 20, 2013

    I think I may be haphephobic,

    but im not sure. I did not even know it was a legitimate phobia until very recently, and I think I may have it. To my knowledge I never had any trauma in my childhood that could have prompted it, and I cant be sure exactly when it started, but the first time I noticed it was...
    Andy977 Andy977
    26-30, M
    1 Response Aug 28, 2014

    Past experiences led to it,

    I know this for certain. But I need a way to lead away from it. When I was thirteen I was the victim of attempted rape. I know this is the root of my fear, as my haphephobia is worse with men. I can handle hugs with close friends, as long as Im wearing long sleeves and there is...
    TheUnknownGeek TheUnknownGeek
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 13, 2015

    First I just want to say

    that I'm from Hungary so if i write something wrong, please forgive me. I don't know if what I have can be called haphephobia or not. I just can't stand if somebody is closer than 3 feet to me. I'm not afraid, but all I can think about is that somebody is in my private zone and...
    barrygard barrygard
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 3, 2015
    dressedup dressedup
    31-35, F
    Mar 9, 2014

    I Date a Haphephobic

     This makes for very long dates. Typically after about 5 hours I can touch him. In the first few hours it is such a struggle for him just for me to be around. He keeps asking me back and I enjoy his company. He says he's hoping it will get better. The sad truth is if he...
    datesufferer datesufferer
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Jul 15, 2009

    I've been molested three times

    as a child. The first two times were innocent. Though they made me withdrawn and ashamed they were simply children's curiosity on the other kids parts. I don't blame them anymore for what they did. The third time was the first time I felt violated. I was eight and he was...
    ComicGirl97 ComicGirl97
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 4, 2016
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