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I Am Haunted By the Memories

For people whose memories keep them trapped in the past 279 People

    Religious Memories

    No matter how much I try to break free, they hold onto me...these old religious memories. Words preached to me to keep me good has turned me evil, heartless and cold. The person that I want to be is forever out of my reach because on and on the past keeps calling, making me feel...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 26, 2009

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    Her Rape= My Fault

    I really don't know how to start this story. I'll start off by saying I want to keep this short and simple for obvious reasons. This happened a few years ago. I was around 16 and she was 14. The "she" in this story was a girl I was assigned to tutor and mentor since she was a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 13, 2013

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    Its Still There

    my father leaving me.my mother rasing me by herself.my mom marrying a total ******* just because he got her pregnant. always the moving across the country. having all my favorite loved ones die all around me.my life is just ****** up ='[
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 8, 2011

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    "weeping Endless For The Night..."

    Sometimes I lay awake in bed at night trying to sleep. Memories of you are in my head. In my mind I can see your eyes, dark smoldering eyes. A dark smoldering soul. Haunting. I remember watching you through the kitchen window, in the back yard playing in the garden. The...
    blindhorse63 blindhorse63 46-50, M 2 Responses Aug 21, 2012

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    I Am Haunted

    It is fading with the years. Time is good. It has put years between me and that poor, shivering wreck of a person. I don't have to live inside of it like I once did. Eventually, I was able to keep my mind in the present. Whatever trauma I have now, whatever misery I have, at...
    bunnymousekitt bunnymousekitt 31-35, F 3 Responses Jun 19, 2009

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    There are some things in my past

    that i cant stop thinking about. I usually go into a deep daydeam and space out... i replay things that have happened in my life over and over and over again. And its ruining my life.
    lovelybutterfly123 lovelybutterfly123 18-21, F Feb 9, 2014

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    they scream from my body like knives forced

    into a wound that had already been cut. it is a slow and painful process in which the darkness slits the single pieces of you that still remain with the light. shreds of past memories tug at my sleeve like an orphan going from one person to the other to find its mother. little...
    UnusualAngel UnusualAngel 18-21, F Jan 21, 2014

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    They Come In Waves..

    I will be doing so well for a while, I will be happy, life will be awesome.. But then one bad thing will happen and all the memories come flooding back. I get distant and deppressed, causing even more bad things to happen.. Most of my life I have been unhappy, the few times I am...
    Petriebaby Petriebaby 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2013

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    I Believe In Ghost

    I've never been superstitious I've never feared the unknown But ever since you left me I've believeed in ghosts Girl, i believe in ghosts [Chorus] Well i'm haunted by a memory That won't leave or let me go Call me crazy and i may be But i believe in ghosts Girl, i...
    CountryAngel CountryAngel 18-21 Oct 7, 2008

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    My Lifes Story

    My mom had an affair and i was the result, and caused my parents to get divorced. I was sexually abused by my step brother until i was in forth grade. My family always made fun of me. I have the worst self esteem in the world. I feel like i was the stupidest kid growing...
    JoJinx JoJinx 18-21 1 Response Jul 15, 2009

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    Everyday

    There are always this small flashbacks coming back to me. Times of a life I once lived. They are happening more often each time. I hate it in a way... I can't really explain. These memories haunt me day and night. They never cease.
    TheemopandaX TheemopandaX 18-21, F Apr 23, 2011

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    Open Doors

    Mommy was done with me. She'd had her fill, it was time for me to get dressed and leave her room so that she could sleep. That made me glad, to finally leave the room and play with my twin. I figured she'd be in our room, so that was where I headed. I limped through the house to...
    xXxAnonymousxWriterxXx xXxAnonymousxWriterxXx 18-21, M 1 Response May 2, 2011

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    Bad . Depressed . Old memories .

    Haunt me . I feel like I would never get over them . It just makes me feel a failure I want to forgot it .
    lordeley952 lordeley952 18-21, M Jul 5, 2014

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    That Day

      I can/will never get that image of my granny taking her last breath; when they rolled her outta the hospital room-in the body bag. That long black bag..it'll forever be burned in my memory.
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 11, 2009

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    Constant Struggle

    I have several unwanted memories haunting my mind. They are part of who I am now. I believe I am suffering some sort of post traumatic stress disorder. There is a lot I won't do anymore and a lot I have to avoid just so the memories won't resurface... but they...
    flyawayhome flyawayhome 22-25, F 5 Responses Sep 3, 2009

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    I thought about you, again today.

    I can see you, even feel you in my dreams. It's been so long the details of my memories have begun to fade in the background--now I have a plethora of questions that go unanswered. I feel as though you are watching me from around the corner. Heat emanates from my body awaiting...
    purplegurl22 purplegurl22 22-25, F Mar 3, 2014

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    The Memories

    there are some times at night i have flashbacks and dreams of my past . my mother dieing , foster parents , moms funeral , moving  . the car ride to florida from arkansas . being expelled from high school  . trying to commit sucide at age 11 in a middle school...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 26, 2010

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    I Don't Regret Any

    All the tears, smiles, fights, pains, near deaths, neglect, depravity, laughs, shouts, stupid funny moments, screams, departs, warmth, caring, friends; at times I become sad remembering... wish I had some back even just for a second too make me smile and forget present stress, to...
    Marowit Marowit 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 18, 2009

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    Ghosts, Dreams & Memories.

    It started recently. I knew I was in for a ride, But I never imagined what would happen next. I started to see people that looked like old crushes. Could have been but I wasn't sure. Then the dreams started. But more overwhelming than they were a few years ago. People I shouldn't...
    DGSteele DGSteele 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 1, 2013

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    My Best Friend Is Gone!!

    yes.. ican remember it, that day when i was 11 years old.... my best friend went with me to her sister's party.... we had fun, but then. when we entered the car to go back home.... we had an sccedent!! and they took us to the hospital, after 2 days, i waked up and found my self...
    wildsta3 wildsta3 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 26, 2012

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    She was a 12 year old Pashai girl from the

    Lowgar province of Afghanistan when I met her in the late Fall of 1986. The Soviets had completely destroyed her village in a bombing campaign just two weeks before I met her. Her Mother and all of her siblings, two older brothers and a younger sister, perished in that raid...
    Saylowman Saylowman 46-50, M 2 Responses Dec 2, 2014

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    I've remembered everything.

    It took me some time, but I remember it all now. These past few days have been a nightmare. I just feel so out of it. I can't handle anything right now. I try to distract myself, get caught up in my life, in finals, but it just isn't working. I need to be alone, to think. But I...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2013

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    But I Don't Remember Where

    I don't remember or know where these memories come from...but the images & feelings I get are sooo unpleasant...I recognize the places as warped areas of our city...& bigger, different cities...it's like I should remember them...these are the repressed memories that...
    FastLaneC3 FastLaneC3 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 7, 2009

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    My Mom Is Dead But Won't Leave Me Alone.

    My mother was a drunk. She was a violent, hate-filled person who punished me because she couldn't cope with her life, which was a pretty good life. Loving husband who took care of all the bills, never hit her or treated her wrong in any way. I was beaten, verbally abused, thrown...
    bronx56 bronx56 51-55, F 1 Response Apr 1, 2011

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    She Lives In Me.....

    She's dead, but yet she's still very much alive. She is my Mother.When I was a child I was thrown in and out of care, beaten for no reason and abused by her boyfriend. This pretty much my every day life during childhood. My Mum had bipolar and she was very unhappy with her life...
    angelface21 angelface21 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 14, 2012

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    IF THERE IS a potion

    that makes you forgets memories, i would spend my lifetime savings and drink it.
    Carlson18 Carlson18 22-25 Jul 23, 2014

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    My Life Sucks!

    Today i found out the three people that can stand me think im a ***** i asked my boyfriend to kill me and he did not object. I should die but don't want another attempt o my record and dont have the money for a hospital stay, I know there is someone out there that will finish the...
    JoJinx JoJinx 18-21 2 Responses Jul 19, 2009

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    I Am Always Constsntly Thinking about my dads

    death he died too early he was only 34, :( although im on 13 yrs old i know whats going on people dont think i do but i know alot of unspoken things. My Dad was shot 8-9 times and it seems to center around violence im happy that hes finally in peace because he was living a very...
    trvstislimited trvstislimited 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 27, 2014

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    Related Experiences

    I want to forget, but can't. I'm haunted by them and the ripple effect it had on my life. I've experienced the darkest side of people, people I thought I could trust, people I...
    fracturedforever fracturedforever 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 9

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    What to do when a formerly abused and abandoned child survives and comes of age to become a young adult haunted by the memories? What to do when sleep is often interrupted by...
    TenThousandSorrows TenThousandSorrows 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    The uncle I suspect of raping me died this Monday... And memories started to haunt me again. All the things I keep inside... Most of them are about my grandmother. He used to live...
    Mellangela Mellangela 26-30, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    This is going to be VERY emotional becuase this was truly the WORST day of my life. Out of the twenty-eight years of being on this planet, this was the day of sadness.Back in...
    FashionQueen86 FashionQueen86 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I woke up in the middle of the night yesterday. Anxiety. I don't really WANT to leave my Husband and find a new guy etc. I seriously miss the sweet masculine guy I married...
    ObiOneyouremyonlyhope ObiOneyouremyonlyhope 41-45, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I hate when people say high school relationships aren't real. "It's just puppy love" and "high school relationships mean nothing" are phrases that make any love struck teenager...
    ohaleakala ohaleakala 18-21, F Dec 29, 2014

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    There are two memories I can't get out of my head. And I've never told anyone about them because they're that terrifyingly shocking. I was just confused when I was a kid and tried...
    Mariyah22 Mariyah22 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 25, 2014

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    I Have A Box Full Of Memories.. It's Funny I Say This Because... By Box.. I Mean My Heart.. And By Memories.. I Mean Things I Want To Forget
    HopelessLoveHer HopelessLoveHer 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 25, 2014

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    I would love to erase more than half of the past. Meeting certain people to prevent all the heartbreak they would cause for me down the road. I never saw it coming, I don't even...
    Thefightingangel Thefightingangel 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 26, 2014

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    Should I be grateful I saw myself even before I was myself today? Anyway, to the main point. During another counsel session today, medical expertise tried to help me out by using...
    iTetra iTetra 13-15, F Jan 11

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    Some people are hard to forget.I remember the memories we shared though,with both of you,I remember what you would tell me K you seemed so wise to me sometimes knowledgeable,smart...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 12

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    There is no way to substantiate what I am about to say, but then I guess this is not about proof. Through the help of others, I have learned that I have been around for a little...
    Drachona Drachona 18-21 a week ago

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    when I try to look back or whenever I happen to pass by memories, I just can't help but draw a smile on my face...
    pitchy28 pitchy28 13-15, F Dec 26, 2014

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    I hate this. I struggle with depression but I don't have any medicine because I know I'm strong enough. But I'm not. I try to make it all better but the memories knock me down. The...
    kpfoster1985 kpfoster1985 13-15, M 1 Response Dec 27, 2014

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    Because of my past I relive these memories, in some form, every night. For the past 11 years I have suffered night terrors that grow increasingly worse once my "tolerance" matches...
    MsBree01 MsBree01 22-25, F Dec 29, 2014

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    Do you ever find yourself almost instantly attracted to someone who reminds you of the one you really love? You become intrigued by them. You want to be close. Your heart is...
    Carissimi Carissimi 56-60, F 4 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    whatever memories are ...........good or bad they are really troublesome for me when they are good it gives me nostalgia and when they are bad it gives me pain so i just live my...
    silsax silsax 16-17, F Dec 31, 2014

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    what makes memories flash into your mind, when they come they can make you smile or they can make you cry, but I am so glad that I have each and every one of them, just had one...
    Shamrock40 Shamrock40 36-40, M 1 Response Jan 3

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    They are great memories I'd never trade for anything. Camp fires, girlfriends, kindergarden, my first school dance, my first kiss. I can never forget them nor would I want to
    NewBeginnings5 NewBeginnings5 22-25 2 Responses Jan 8

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    Those perfect memories with always stay in my heart. And I'm sure there are so many more coming soon!
    dariada dariada 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    Memories are significant to me... Some are warmly cherished moments, floating upon the clouds along with my dreams. Never ceasing to display their depth of happiness... often...
    WithGracefulness WithGracefulness 46-50, F 7 Responses Jan 12