I Am Haunted By the Memories

For people whose memories keep them trapped in the past 317 People

    I thought about you, again today.

    I can see you, even feel you in my dreams. It's been so long the details of my memories have begun to fade in the background--now I have a plethora of questions that go unanswered. I feel as though you are watching me from around the corner. Heat emanates from my body awaiting...
    purplegurl22 purplegurl22
    22-25, F
    Mar 3, 2014

    My Best Friend Is Gone!!

    yes.. ican remember it, that day when i was 11 years old.... my best friend went with me to her sister's party.... we had fun, but then. when we entered the car to go back home.... we had an sccedent!! and they took us to the hospital, after 2 days, i waked up and found my self...
    wildsta3 wildsta3
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jul 26, 2012


    There are always this small flashbacks coming back to me. Times of a life I once lived. They are happening more often each time. I hate it in a way... I can't really explain. These memories haunt me day and night. They never cease.
    TheemopandaX TheemopandaX
    18-21, F
    Apr 23, 2011

    hate is only the overstated emotion of

    hopelessness,backlash is the unarmored..... spear
    deleted deleted
    Nov 1, 2015

    My Mom Is Dead But Won't Leave Me Alone.

    My mother was a drunk. She was a violent, hate-filled person who punished me because she couldn't cope with her life, which was a pretty good life. Loving husband who took care of all the bills, never hit her or treated her wrong in any way. I was beaten, verbally abused, thrown...
    bronx56 bronx56
    51-55, F
    1 Response Apr 1, 2011

    IF THERE IS a potion

    that makes you forgets memories, i would spend my lifetime savings and drink it.
    iamnotshy iamnotshy
    Jul 23, 2014

    Her Rape= My Fault

    I really don't know how to start this story. I'll start off by saying I want to keep this short and simple for obvious reasons. This happened a few years ago. I was around 16 and she was 14. The "she" in this story was a girl I was assigned to tutor and mentor since she was a...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Feb 13, 2013

    I Believe In Ghost

    I've never been superstitious I've never feared the unknown But ever since you left me I've believeed in ghosts Girl, i believe in ghosts [Chorus] Well i'm haunted by a memory That won't leave or let me go Call me crazy and i may be But i believe in ghosts Girl, i...
    CountryAngel CountryAngel
    Oct 7, 2008

    My Life Sucks!

    Today i found out the three people that can stand me think im a ***** i asked my boyfriend to kill me and he did not object. I should die but don't want another attempt o my record and dont have the money for a hospital stay, I know there is someone out there that will finish the...
    JoJinx JoJinx
    2 Responses Jul 19, 2009

    Open Doors

    Mommy was done with me. She'd had her fill, it was time for me to get dressed and leave her room so that she could sleep. That made me glad, to finally leave the room and play with my twin. I figured she'd be in our room, so that was where I headed. I limped through the house to...
    xXxAnonymousxWriterxXx xXxAnonymousxWriterxXx
    18-21, M
    May 2, 2011

    "weeping Endless For The Night..."

    Sometimes I lay awake in bed at night trying to sleep. Memories of you are in my head. In my mind I can see your eyes, dark smoldering eyes. A dark smoldering soul. Haunting. I remember watching you through the kitchen window, in the back yard playing in the garden. The...
    blindhorse63 blindhorse63
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Aug 21, 2012

    Ghosts, Dreams & Memories.

    It started recently. I knew I was in for a ride, But I never imagined what would happen next. I started to see people that looked like old crushes. Could have been but I wasn't sure. Then the dreams started. But more overwhelming than they were a few years ago. People I shouldn't...
    DGSteele DGSteele
    22-25, M
    1 Response Oct 1, 2013

    I Am Haunted

    It is fading with the years. Time is good. It has put years between me and that poor, shivering wreck of a person. I don't have to live inside of it like I once did. Eventually, I was able to keep my mind in the present. Whatever trauma I have now, whatever misery I have, at...
    bunnymousekitt bunnymousekitt
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Jun 19, 2009

    Its Still There

    my father leaving me.my mother rasing me by herself.my mom marrying a total ******* just because he got her pregnant. always the moving across the country. having all my favorite loved ones die all around me.my life is just ****** up ='[
    deleted deleted
    May 8, 2011

    But I Don't Remember Where

    I don't remember or know where these memories come from...but the images & feelings I get are sooo unpleasant...I recognize the places as warped areas of our city...& bigger, different cities...it's like I should remember them...these are the repressed memories that...
    FastLaneC3 FastLaneC3
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Sep 7, 2009

    I came to EP to escape a few realities it is my

    happy place alone time away from those memories and people but a person with that name had to appear I know having the same name and age group is a high possibility but why doesn't it leave me alone. why doesn't it let me have my peace why!!
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Feb 18, 2015

    Constant Struggle

    I have several unwanted memories haunting my mind. They are part of who I am now. I believe I am suffering some sort of post traumatic stress disorder. There is a lot I won't do anymore and a lot I have to avoid just so the memories won't resurface... but they...
    flyawayhome flyawayhome
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Sep 3, 2009

    The Memories

    there are some times at night i have flashbacks and dreams of my past . my mother dieing , foster parents , moms funeral , moving  . the car ride to florida from arkansas . being expelled from high school  . trying to commit sucide at age 11 in a middle school...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Mar 26, 2010

    I've remembered everything.

    It took me some time, but I remember it all now. These past few days have been a nightmare. I just feel so out of it. I can't handle anything right now. I try to distract myself, get caught up in my life, in finals, but it just isn't working. I need to be alone, to think. But I...
    Hush92 Hush92
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 17, 2013

    they scream from my body like knives forced

    into a wound that had already been cut. it is a slow and painful process in which the darkness slits the single pieces of you that still remain with the light. shreds of past memories tug at my sleeve like an orphan going from one person to the other to find its mother. little...
    UnusualAngel UnusualAngel
    18-21, F
    Jan 21, 2014

    She Lives In Me.....

    She's dead, but yet she's still very much alive. She is my Mother.When I was a child I was thrown in and out of care, beaten for no reason and abused by her boyfriend. This pretty much my every day life during childhood. My Mum had bipolar and she was very unhappy with her life...
    angelface21 angelface21
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 14, 2012

    There are some things in my past

    that i cant stop thinking about. I usually go into a deep daydeam and space out... i replay things that have happened in my life over and over and over again. And its ruining my life.
    A1Csladiie A1Csladiie
    18-21, F
    Feb 9, 2014

    My Lifes Story

    My mom had an affair and i was the result, and caused my parents to get divorced. I was sexually abused by my step brother until i was in forth grade. My family always made fun of me. I have the worst self esteem in the world. I feel like i was the stupidest kid growing...
    JoJinx JoJinx
    1 Response Jul 15, 2009

    Religious Memories

    No matter how much I try to break free, they hold onto me...these old religious memories. Words preached to me to keep me good has turned me evil, heartless and cold. The person that I want to be is forever out of my reach because on and on the past keeps calling, making me feel...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Oct 26, 2009

    Today a person from my dark past popped out of

    no where...and triggered my paranoia and distrust....I hate this...its been two years...why can't the memories & the negative, evil feelings just go away!! I'm trapped and haunted by my past.
    deleted deleted
    Aug 18, 2015

    That Day

      I can/will never get that image of my granny taking her last breath; when they rolled her outta the hospital room-in the body bag. That long black bag..it'll forever be burned in my memory.
    lostprophet lostprophet
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Feb 11, 2009

    I Don't Regret Any

    All the tears, smiles, fights, pains, near deaths, neglect, depravity, laughs, shouts, stupid funny moments, screams, departs, warmth, caring, friends; at times I become sad remembering... wish I had some back even just for a second too make me smile and forget present stress, to...
    Marowit Marowit
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jun 18, 2009

    I have been put to rest.

    Well my past and demons have been...now its time to deal with the truth.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Oct 2, 2015

    They Come In Waves..

    I will be doing so well for a while, I will be happy, life will be awesome.. But then one bad thing will happen and all the memories come flooding back. I get distant and deppressed, causing even more bad things to happen.. Most of my life I have been unhappy, the few times I am...
    Petriebaby Petriebaby
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 24, 2013

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