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I Am Haunted By the Memories

For people whose memories keep them trapped in the past 311 People

    Her Rape= My Fault

    I really don't know how to start this story. I'll start off by saying I want to keep this short and simple for obvious reasons. This happened a few years ago. I was around 16 and she was 14. The "she" in this story was a girl I was assigned to tutor and mentor since she was a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 13, 2013

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    I came to EP to escape a few realities it is my

    happy place alone time away from those memories and people but a person with that name had to appear I know having the same name and age group is a high possibility but why doesn't it leave me alone. why doesn't it let me have my peace why!!
    unsaid3words unsaid3words 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 18

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    "weeping Endless For The Night..."

    Sometimes I lay awake in bed at night trying to sleep. Memories of you are in my head. In my mind I can see your eyes, dark smoldering eyes. A dark smoldering soul. Haunting. I remember watching you through the kitchen window, in the back yard playing in the garden. The...
    blindhorse63 blindhorse63 46-50, M 2 Responses Aug 21, 2012

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    For god sakes! Why are they

    so important? Why cant I just forget that you ever happened. I can't. Because as much as you think you didn't know. I knew. And now I'm ****. I've been ****. This feeling is the worst. These thoughts are the worst. I believe I'm think more than I've ever. And that's not a good...
    Alayjahndro Alayjahndro 18-21, M May 11

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    I Am Always Constsntly Thinking about my dads

    death he died too early he was only 34, :( although im on 13 yrs old i know whats going on people dont think i do but i know alot of unspoken things. My Dad was shot 8-9 times and it seems to center around violence im happy that hes finally in peace because he was living a very...
    trvstislimited trvstislimited 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 27, 2014

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    My Mom Is Dead But Won't Leave Me Alone.

    My mother was a drunk. She was a violent, hate-filled person who punished me because she couldn't cope with her life, which was a pretty good life. Loving husband who took care of all the bills, never hit her or treated her wrong in any way. I was beaten, verbally abused, thrown...
    bronx56 bronx56 51-55, F 1 Response Apr 1, 2011

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    Everyday

    There are always this small flashbacks coming back to me. Times of a life I once lived. They are happening more often each time. I hate it in a way... I can't really explain. These memories haunt me day and night. They never cease.
    TheemopandaX TheemopandaX 18-21, F Apr 23, 2011

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    The Memories

    there are some times at night i have flashbacks and dreams of my past . my mother dieing , foster parents , moms funeral , moving  . the car ride to florida from arkansas . being expelled from high school  . trying to commit sucide at age 11 in a middle school...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 26, 2010

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    They Come In Waves..

    I will be doing so well for a while, I will be happy, life will be awesome.. But then one bad thing will happen and all the memories come flooding back. I get distant and deppressed, causing even more bad things to happen.. Most of my life I have been unhappy, the few times I am...
    Petriebaby Petriebaby 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2013

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    Ghosts, Dreams & Memories.

    It started recently. I knew I was in for a ride, But I never imagined what would happen next. I started to see people that looked like old crushes. Could have been but I wasn't sure. Then the dreams started. But more overwhelming than they were a few years ago. People I shouldn't...
    DGSteele DGSteele 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 1, 2013

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    My Life Sucks!

    Today i found out the three people that can stand me think im a ***** i asked my boyfriend to kill me and he did not object. I should die but don't want another attempt o my record and dont have the money for a hospital stay, I know there is someone out there that will finish the...
    JoJinx JoJinx 18-21 2 Responses Jul 19, 2009

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    My Lifes Story

    My mom had an affair and i was the result, and caused my parents to get divorced. I was sexually abused by my step brother until i was in forth grade. My family always made fun of me. I have the worst self esteem in the world. I feel like i was the stupidest kid growing...
    JoJinx JoJinx 18-21 1 Response Jul 15, 2009

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    they scream from my body like knives forced

    into a wound that had already been cut. it is a slow and painful process in which the darkness slits the single pieces of you that still remain with the light. shreds of past memories tug at my sleeve like an orphan going from one person to the other to find its mother. little...
    UnusualAngel UnusualAngel 18-21, F Jan 21, 2014

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    That Day

      I can/will never get that image of my granny taking her last breath; when they rolled her outta the hospital room-in the body bag. That long black bag..it'll forever be burned in my memory.
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 11, 2009

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    I've remembered everything.

    It took me some time, but I remember it all now. These past few days have been a nightmare. I just feel so out of it. I can't handle anything right now. I try to distract myself, get caught up in my life, in finals, but it just isn't working. I need to be alone, to think. But I...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2013

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    There are some things in my past

    that i cant stop thinking about. I usually go into a deep daydeam and space out... i replay things that have happened in my life over and over and over again. And its ruining my life.
    lovelybutterfly123 lovelybutterfly123 18-21, F Feb 9, 2014

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    But I Don't Remember Where

    I don't remember or know where these memories come from...but the images & feelings I get are sooo unpleasant...I recognize the places as warped areas of our city...& bigger, different cities...it's like I should remember them...these are the repressed memories that...
    FastLaneC3 FastLaneC3 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 7, 2009

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    After receiving the summons of the Sirdar,

    we arrived at the winter camp at mid morning. The Jangi Spai, the camps large nomad dogs, ran to investigate us before returning to circle a knot of men standing outside one of the larger traditional black felt tents. Sirdar himself stepped out of the tent and hustled his ample...
    SayLowMan SayLowMan 46-50, M 1 Response Jan 30

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    Its Still There

    my father leaving me.my mother rasing me by herself.my mom marrying a total ******* just because he got her pregnant. always the moving across the country. having all my favorite loved ones die all around me.my life is just ****** up ='[
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 8, 2011

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    My Best Friend Is Gone!!

    yes.. ican remember it, that day when i was 11 years old.... my best friend went with me to her sister's party.... we had fun, but then. when we entered the car to go back home.... we had an sccedent!! and they took us to the hospital, after 2 days, i waked up and found my self...
    wildsta3 wildsta3 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 26, 2012

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    I Am Haunted

    It is fading with the years. Time is good. It has put years between me and that poor, shivering wreck of a person. I don't have to live inside of it like I once did. Eventually, I was able to keep my mind in the present. Whatever trauma I have now, whatever misery I have, at...
    bunnymousekitt bunnymousekitt 31-35, F 3 Responses Jun 19, 2009

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    I Don't Regret Any

    All the tears, smiles, fights, pains, near deaths, neglect, depravity, laughs, shouts, stupid funny moments, screams, departs, warmth, caring, friends; at times I become sad remembering... wish I had some back even just for a second too make me smile and forget present stress, to...
    Marowit Marowit 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 18, 2009

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    She Lives In Me.....

    She's dead, but yet she's still very much alive. She is my Mother.When I was a child I was thrown in and out of care, beaten for no reason and abused by her boyfriend. This pretty much my every day life during childhood. My Mum had bipolar and she was very unhappy with her life...
    angelface21 angelface21 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 14, 2012

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    IF THERE IS a potion

    that makes you forgets memories, i would spend my lifetime savings and drink it.
    iamnotshy iamnotshy 22-25 Jul 23, 2014

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    Open Doors

    Mommy was done with me. She'd had her fill, it was time for me to get dressed and leave her room so that she could sleep. That made me glad, to finally leave the room and play with my twin. I figured she'd be in our room, so that was where I headed. I limped through the house to...
    xXxAnonymousxWriterxXx xXxAnonymousxWriterxXx 18-21, M 1 Response May 2, 2011

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    I thought about you, again today.

    I can see you, even feel you in my dreams. It's been so long the details of my memories have begun to fade in the background--now I have a plethora of questions that go unanswered. I feel as though you are watching me from around the corner. Heat emanates from my body awaiting...
    purplegurl22 purplegurl22 22-25, F Mar 3, 2014

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    I Believe In Ghost

    I've never been superstitious I've never feared the unknown But ever since you left me I've believeed in ghosts Girl, i believe in ghosts [Chorus] Well i'm haunted by a memory That won't leave or let me go Call me crazy and i may be But i believe in ghosts Girl, i...
    CountryAngel CountryAngel 18-21 Oct 7, 2008

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    Constant Struggle

    I have several unwanted memories haunting my mind. They are part of who I am now. I believe I am suffering some sort of post traumatic stress disorder. There is a lot I won't do anymore and a lot I have to avoid just so the memories won't resurface... but they...
    flyawayhome flyawayhome 22-25, F 5 Responses Sep 3, 2009

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    Religious Memories

    No matter how much I try to break free, they hold onto me...these old religious memories. Words preached to me to keep me good has turned me evil, heartless and cold. The person that I want to be is forever out of my reach because on and on the past keeps calling, making me feel...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 26, 2009

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    She was a 12 year old Pashai girl from the

    Lowgar province of Afghanistan when I met her in the late Fall of 1986. The Soviets had completely destroyed her village in a bombing campaign just two weeks before I met her. Her Mother and all of her siblings, two older brothers and a younger sister, perished in that raid...
    SayLowMan SayLowMan 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 2, 2014

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    Related Experiences

    It has been over 15 years since we moved out of the haunted house I grew up in, and today I found myself randomly thinking about it. We experienced everything in our house from...
    Jennio1559 Jennio1559 31-35, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    there are some memories that haunt me , memories i don't like at all, they make it hard for me to stay focused and calm.
    mistywillow mistywillow 22-25, M 1 Response May 8

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    Memories are great to have (only when they're good ones). Things change so much that only a memory is all that's left. And it would've been great to relive those good memories but...
    rocketguy19 rocketguy19 16-17, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I really wish I could though....all of it. The good ones and bad ones....when I remember the memories I only feel one thing...hurt...past is past...because people like me are gone...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 3

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    I hold on to memories. I let them control me.. I should stop because its just making me so terrible. I remember the good times.. and I Cant move on from them.
    Vanessyi Vanessyi 18-21, F 1 Response May 9

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    London Grammar — Strong This will always bring me back to that room I stayed in an airbnb flat in Bath, England on that cold January day. My host had her music on out loud in...
    littlemisslight littlemisslight 26-30, F May 12

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    Memories are so confusing.The happy moments make us cry and the sad moments make us laugh..
    MaddyBale MaddyBale 18-21, F 1 Response May 16

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    I wish I could just put in a new brain. My PTSD can drive me up the wall with flashbacks. I still don't know all my triggers yet stil...but the ganja bud chill you out && the...
    PartyGuy21 PartyGuy21 18-21, M May 24

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    It's basically these memories I have of my childhood which always bring me down gets me back were I started they're basically what screw me up physically and mentally and...
    freedom1608 freedom1608 16-17, F 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    Some good memories like: Singing around the fire with whole family on summer night full of starts while my grandparents singing their favorite old songs about far away lands...
    Lucije Lucije 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I remember being about 5 or 6 years old and running around the house half naked with my twin sister and playing together with our power rangers, barbies, and lion king toys. (This...
    TacitDrift TacitDrift 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    I've been a person who has been through experiences that I pray others would not have to experience. As a girl , I have had my self esteem stepped on , shat on and torn apart by...
    onemanpack onemanpack 16-17, F May 11

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    Before my trauma, I thought sexual assault was completely physical. I understood it was a terrible thing, but I couldn't understand how messed up people could get over something...
    PendulEmPlum PendulEmPlum 18-21, F 1 Response May 11

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    I still remember every detail. Still hear your voice so clearly... Like it was yesterday. But it was 27th November
    pansexualgirl pansexualgirl 13-15, F May 11

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    Another earthquake just now.Epicenter Nepal.Take care everyone.All safe here.