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I Am Haunted By the Memories

For people whose memories keep them trapped in the past 323 People

    There are some things in my past

    that i cant stop thinking about. I usually go into a deep daydeam and space out... i replay things that have happened in my life over and over and over again. And its ruining my life.
    lovelybutterfly123 lovelybutterfly123 18-21, F Feb 9, 2014

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    My Mom Is Dead But Won't Leave Me Alone.

    My mother was a drunk. She was a violent, hate-filled person who punished me because she couldn't cope with her life, which was a pretty good life. Loving husband who took care of all the bills, never hit her or treated her wrong in any way. I was beaten, verbally abused, thrown...
    bronx56 bronx56 51-55, F 1 Response Apr 1, 2011

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    Religious Memories

    No matter how much I try to break free, they hold onto me...these old religious memories. Words preached to me to keep me good has turned me evil, heartless and cold. The person that I want to be is forever out of my reach because on and on the past keeps calling, making me feel...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 26, 2009

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    My Lifes Story

    My mom had an affair and i was the result, and caused my parents to get divorced. I was sexually abused by my step brother until i was in forth grade. My family always made fun of me. I have the worst self esteem in the world. I feel like i was the stupidest kid growing...
    JoJinx JoJinx 18-21 1 Response Jul 15, 2009

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    But I Don't Remember Where

    I don't remember or know where these memories come from...but the images & feelings I get are sooo unpleasant...I recognize the places as warped areas of our city...& bigger, different cities...it's like I should remember them...these are the repressed memories that...
    FastLaneC3 FastLaneC3 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 7, 2009

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    The Memories

    there are some times at night i have flashbacks and dreams of my past . my mother dieing , foster parents , moms funeral , moving  . the car ride to florida from arkansas . being expelled from high school  . trying to commit sucide at age 11 in a middle school...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 26, 2010

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    I Am Always Constsntly Thinking about my dads

    death he died too early he was only 34, :( although im on 13 yrs old i know whats going on people dont think i do but i know alot of unspoken things. My Dad was shot 8-9 times and it seems to center around violence im happy that hes finally in peace because he was living a very...
    trvstislimited trvstislimited 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 27, 2014

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    Constant Struggle

    I have several unwanted memories haunting my mind. They are part of who I am now. I believe I am suffering some sort of post traumatic stress disorder. There is a lot I won't do anymore and a lot I have to avoid just so the memories won't resurface... but they...
    flyawayhome flyawayhome 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 3, 2009

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    For god sakes! Why are they

    so important? Why cant I just forget that you ever happened. I can't. Because as much as you think you didn't know. I knew. And now I'm ****. I've been ****. This feeling is the worst. These thoughts are the worst. I believe I'm think more than I've ever. And that's not a good...
    Alayjahndro Alayjahndro 18-21, M May 11

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    Her Rape= My Fault

    I really don't know how to start this story. I'll start off by saying I want to keep this short and simple for obvious reasons. This happened a few years ago. I was around 16 and she was 14. The "she" in this story was a girl I was assigned to tutor and mentor since she was a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 13, 2013

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    I thought about you, again today.

    I can see you, even feel you in my dreams. It's been so long the details of my memories have begun to fade in the background--now I have a plethora of questions that go unanswered. I feel as though you are watching me from around the corner. Heat emanates from my body awaiting...
    purplegurl22 purplegurl22 22-25, F Mar 3, 2014

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    "weeping Endless For The Night..."

    Sometimes I lay awake in bed at night trying to sleep. Memories of you are in my head. In my mind I can see your eyes, dark smoldering eyes. A dark smoldering soul. Haunting. I remember watching you through the kitchen window, in the back yard playing in the garden. The...
    blindhorse63 blindhorse63 46-50, M 2 Responses Aug 21, 2012

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    Its Still There

    my father leaving me.my mother rasing me by herself.my mom marrying a total ******* just because he got her pregnant. always the moving across the country. having all my favorite loved ones die all around me.my life is just ****** up ='[
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 8, 2011

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    They Come In Waves..

    I will be doing so well for a while, I will be happy, life will be awesome.. But then one bad thing will happen and all the memories come flooding back. I get distant and deppressed, causing even more bad things to happen.. Most of my life I have been unhappy, the few times I am...
    Petriebaby Petriebaby 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 24, 2013

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    IF THERE IS a potion

    that makes you forgets memories, i would spend my lifetime savings and drink it.
    iamnotshy iamnotshy 22-25 Jul 23, 2014

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    I Believe In Ghost

    I've never been superstitious I've never feared the unknown But ever since you left me I've believeed in ghosts Girl, i believe in ghosts [Chorus] Well i'm haunted by a memory That won't leave or let me go Call me crazy and i may be But i believe in ghosts Girl, i...
    CountryAngel CountryAngel 18-21 Oct 7, 2008

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    Ghosts, Dreams & Memories.

    It started recently. I knew I was in for a ride, But I never imagined what would happen next. I started to see people that looked like old crushes. Could have been but I wasn't sure. Then the dreams started. But more overwhelming than they were a few years ago. People I shouldn't...
    DGSteele DGSteele 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 1, 2013

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    That Day

      I can/will never get that image of my granny taking her last breath; when they rolled her outta the hospital room-in the body bag. That long black bag..it'll forever be burned in my memory.
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 11, 2009

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    I came to EP to escape a few realities it is my

    happy place alone time away from those memories and people but a person with that name had to appear I know having the same name and age group is a high possibility but why doesn't it leave me alone. why doesn't it let me have my peace why!!
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 18

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    I've remembered everything.

    It took me some time, but I remember it all now. These past few days have been a nightmare. I just feel so out of it. I can't handle anything right now. I try to distract myself, get caught up in my life, in finals, but it just isn't working. I need to be alone, to think. But I...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2013

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    She Lives In Me.....

    She's dead, but yet she's still very much alive. She is my Mother.When I was a child I was thrown in and out of care, beaten for no reason and abused by her boyfriend. This pretty much my every day life during childhood. My Mum had bipolar and she was very unhappy with her life...
    angelface21 angelface21 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 14, 2012

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    My Life Sucks!

    Today i found out the three people that can stand me think im a ***** i asked my boyfriend to kill me and he did not object. I should die but don't want another attempt o my record and dont have the money for a hospital stay, I know there is someone out there that will finish the...
    JoJinx JoJinx 18-21 2 Responses Jul 19, 2009

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    they scream from my body like knives forced

    into a wound that had already been cut. it is a slow and painful process in which the darkness slits the single pieces of you that still remain with the light. shreds of past memories tug at my sleeve like an orphan going from one person to the other to find its mother. little...
    UnusualAngel UnusualAngel 18-21, F Jan 21, 2014

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    My Best Friend Is Gone!!

    yes.. ican remember it, that day when i was 11 years old.... my best friend went with me to her sister's party.... we had fun, but then. when we entered the car to go back home.... we had an sccedent!! and they took us to the hospital, after 2 days, i waked up and found my self...
    wildsta3 wildsta3 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 26, 2012

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    I Don't Regret Any

    All the tears, smiles, fights, pains, near deaths, neglect, depravity, laughs, shouts, stupid funny moments, screams, departs, warmth, caring, friends; at times I become sad remembering... wish I had some back even just for a second too make me smile and forget present stress, to...
    Marowit Marowit 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 18, 2009

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    I Am Haunted

    It is fading with the years. Time is good. It has put years between me and that poor, shivering wreck of a person. I don't have to live inside of it like I once did. Eventually, I was able to keep my mind in the present. Whatever trauma I have now, whatever misery I have, at...
    bunnymousekitt bunnymousekitt 31-35, F 3 Responses Jun 19, 2009

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    Open Doors

    Mommy was done with me. She'd had her fill, it was time for me to get dressed and leave her room so that she could sleep. That made me glad, to finally leave the room and play with my twin. I figured she'd be in our room, so that was where I headed. I limped through the house to...
    xXxAnonymousxWriterxXx xXxAnonymousxWriterxXx 18-21, M 1 Response May 2, 2011

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    Everyday

    There are always this small flashbacks coming back to me. Times of a life I once lived. They are happening more often each time. I hate it in a way... I can't really explain. These memories haunt me day and night. They never cease.
    TheemopandaX TheemopandaX 18-21, F Apr 23, 2011

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    As children we remember things with the sight, heart and mind of being a child, but as we grow older we find that the reality of adulthood can often taint these sweet memories and...
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    I sometimes have these strange memories of certain shows I use to watch as a child. One memory I have is an episode of punky brewster where the school was having a dress up where...
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    Remembering some of the dreams I had when I was young, things don't always turn out like you planned
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    My mom and dad were both drug addicts and alcoholics. I lived in a bad neighborhood with not many friends. Birthdays and Christmases were basically non existent for me. The day I...
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    Some of mine are from a few fleeting moments, like when I was thirteen traveling from a day trip with my parents on a coach, and as we pulled up at the lights I noticed this guy on...
    Teamouse Teamouse 26-30, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    This was in 2013 so i was 13. So this one time i was at my friend isaiahs house getting blazed. It was my first few times i got high. We smoked about a gram (we were lightweights...
    Cheeched2015 Cheeched2015 16-17, M Jul 23

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    I was in grade 3 and it was recess time. The class decided to play tag. I was wearing these tight *** beige pants. Anyways the one that was "it" was coming toward me and i was...
    Cheeched2015 Cheeched2015 16-17, M Jul 23

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    I am a WATER BABY who learned how to swim by taking a plunge at around 4 years of age.
    iCuriousBabe iCuriousBabe 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 22

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    I just want to forget all those memories and finally move on. If there's any short cut to this I will take it.
    Asereht Asereht 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    I'm so tired of remembering all of the stuff I tried so hard to forget, I can't do this anymore, I complain I need someone to talk to but then I just push them away. I don't trust...
    IwillBePretty4U IwillBePretty4U 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 21

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    The terror nightmare as a child , and being alone
    wishingwellguy wishingwellguy 36-40, M Jul 21

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    I have so many memories tucked away inside. A few that I could throw away and care to relive but most of them I would repeat over and over again. When asked my most memorable...
    HiddenGems HiddenGems 46-50, F Jul 21

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    I can' forget the memory of "him" no matter how i tried i think deep inside me i still love him even i am married now... why we're not together..if there is another chance i'll do...
    Carolyn17 Carolyn17 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 20

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    Lol I remember when this fuckboy asked me to come to his house so we can "watch netflix & chill" and I was like alright this should be interesting. When I got there he didn't even...
    KaiyaStacks KaiyaStacks 16-17, F 9 Responses Jul 20

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    When you lose someone, you try to remember the last time you saw them. And most of the time it’s a blurry memory, because at that time you had no idea it would be the last.
    RedHwaiting RedHwaiting 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 18

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