I Am Healing Myself And Changing

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 438 People

    Hello, everybody. Changing Mother Nature not

    easy. I always worrying about losing whenever start meeting someone. I keep checking my phone to check did I get any message or call. Or checking on EP inbox. Why I am doing this? Why this happening to me all the time, on first date women shows me interesting and ask me to call...
    mkdpk mkdpk
    41-45, M
    May 24, 2015

    I'm starting to get over you slowly

    and I'm glad because I'm not all that hurt anymore.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jul 5, 2014

    Is it possible that I'm healing

    and changing? Because I don't cry as much as I used to? Or I can tolerate the pain does that mean it just hurts less or does that mean that there's true healing happening? How do you tell the difference between healing and just plain numb?
    lionessstrong lionessstrong
    46-50, F
    Jan 16, 2014


      The Jewish Buddha says: If there is no self, whose arthritis is this? Be here now. Be someplace else later. Is that so complicated? Drink tea and nourish life; with the first sip, joy; with the second sip, satisfaction; with the third sip, peace; with the...
    burwi333 burwi333
    36-40, M
    3 Responses Oct 14, 2010

    It's courage to be here!

    I can simply be surrounded by wrong people who would make me feel bad & think negatively.. I am sure that looking for a positive & meaningful social interaction even online is reflecting inner strength & dedication for achieving true happiness .. This is my 1st post on EP & my...
    bishoman bishoman
    31-35, M
    1 Response Jul 2, 2014

    I do... I know I am. But I have days,

    weeks... Where I just cry. I don't think I'm strong enough to continue sometimes. I want to forget the past. I want to accept my life and move on and appreciate the beauty around me. But sometimes... It's just there.... In my head. Flashbacks, fear, feelings, songs, smells...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Sep 18, 2014

    after my arm is out of this cast

    and I can do stuff again, I'm gonna change myself. My mission in life, I'm gonna finish this art course and go travelling until I can hang my coat up and say 'This is home.' - No relationships along the way either. I'm done with all that.
    LonerGirl24 LonerGirl24
    22-25, F
    Jul 20, 2015

    Jealousy I was jealous once.

    I was jealous of my 2nd Cousin Judy. She was just as pretty as me but she didn’t need glasses like I did. She was also an attention hog unlike me. One day my Grandma had to sell her house to make way for a development that had bought the whole neighborhood. She moved...
    NOWRaptured NOWRaptured
    61-65, F
    1 Response Jun 8, 2015

    My Life

    I have been through a lot in the past. From literally starved for 2 weeks, was physically abused, my husband was inlove with his ex even while we were married, Homeless, Uncontrollable child with health n mental issues, No money, no job, stress most of the time. But now, one...
    ocngirl ocngirl
    41-45, F
    5 Responses Jan 23, 2012

    I am trying hard to heal myself from the recent

    bad incidents. I mostly don't share my pain with others so it's hard for me to write this aswell. But i want to change myself for better after all the pain and hurt i have let someone give me. I loved, hated, cried, laughed, was revengeful, kind and compassionate, was honest...
    Anujk8 Anujk8
    31-35, M
    6 Responses Jul 22, 2014

    Update * Slowly but surely im healing .

    .. Only a month and a half of staying in bed but hopefully this Wednesday ill get some crutches and start walking ... Im praying to god I don't get a walker... My legs are hurting so much right now , but im refusing to take pain meds because how strong and intense the high is...
    Chloeoryan12 Chloeoryan12
    22-25, F
    Apr 4

    If you want to make a permanent change,

    stop focusing on the size of your problems and start focusing on the size of you!.........
    mariacutte mariacutte
    36-40, F
    Jul 24, 2014

    I have been working my hardest to recover

    emotionally, spiritually, and even financially from a difficult situation I blindsidely found myself in. Saving, meditating, exercising, drinking lots of water, therapy... I know I will have my good days and bad days, but I refuse to give up.
    lanns lanns
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Jul 17, 2014

    No one can make you "feel" anything,

    you choose to react to your feelings. I refuse to let her actions get to me. She is an external now...I am gonna keep detaching...calm, cool, collected, confident. I will react out of a place of strength and peace not fear, anger or anxiety.
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire
    41-45, M
    Jan 26, 2015

    You don’t need anyone’s affection

    or approval in order to be good enough. When someone rejects or abandons or judges you, it isn’t actually about you. It’s about them and their own insecurities, limitations, and needs, and you don’t have to internalize that. Your worth isn’t contingent upon other people...
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Sep 27, 2014

    I have... A lot of work.

    A lot of emotional and working through hurt. Sometimes, though, I am so confused by who I am. Or, rather, who I am meant to be.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jul 19, 2014

    Today wasn't bad. I'm doing better.

    Still haven't truly wept. which is good. that's not something I ever wanna do again. I've gone quiet and introspective like I do. reclusive. I got a new camera. I took awesome pics again. so stinking cool.
    ZombieBaitMaiden ZombieBaitMaiden
    31-35, F
    Jan 8, 2015

    I have been quite surprised by the events of

    the past year... I have been from one side of the continent to the other and am finding my balance. Divorce was the best decision of my life even though it cost me most of my relationships... friends that had been with me since childhood... family members who could not see their...
    SoniaGrace SoniaGrace
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jul 2, 2014

    Well, I always have had to do it on my own,

    guess it made me stronger, in some ways. It always a blessing to be able to transform and shed the old.
    deleted deleted
    Jun 16, 2015

    Things are looking up.

    I've decided I never want to see that dark chapter in my life again. So, to improve the shreds my life has become, I decided to read Life Strategies for Teens by Jay McGraw and it's really improved the way I see things. I've been wanting to make a change for years now but I...
    Rucbrar Rucbrar
    13-15, F
    Apr 7

    "That place of true healing is a fierce place.

    It’s a giant place. It’s a place of monstrous beauty and endless dark and glimmering light. And you have to work really, really, really hard to get there, but you can do it. You’re a woman who can travel that far. I know it." - From the book "Tiny Beautiful Things" by...
    brightonion brightonion
    26-30, F
    Dec 22, 2014

    I never wanted a fresh start,

    but I have one. I am going to make the most of it.
    lanns lanns
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jul 2, 2014

    One thing I have discovered

    that is really harmfull to health is: REFINED SUGAR,it is now found in many processed and other foods,included tin foods. Sugar is added into practically everything we eat nowadays,even in bread and that "tasty" Mac Donald bun is packed with it.It is also added to all fruit...
    berangere berangere
    66-70, F
    4 Responses Jul 21, 2015

    Life is not about avoiding pain.

    ..it is about making good pain and ally for growth. Make sure the pain is the pain of *maturing not the pain of being needy pouty or focused on your injury only. -boundaries with kids Cloud & Townsend Wow.
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire
    41-45, M
    Jan 21, 2015
    CrazyDaisyeee CrazyDaisyeee
    22-25, F
    Jun 18, 2015

    i had girlfriend for almost 6years,

    she moved to florida. i met filipino lady at walmart. Filipino lady used to live in my neighbor 14years back. That day i was walking in walmart and i noticed lady looking at me and smiling. I stopped by her and said "hello" and asked her do i know you? Yes, 14 years ago...
    mkdpk mkdpk
    41-45, M
    1 Response Jun 4, 2015

    Self Care. Who Knew?

    It's hilarious how much I've gotten in my own way. When I was married I did not take care of myself. I ate poorly and did not exercise. I craved bad food, in fact. When I finally admitted to myself I was living a myth, I actually started to crave good food. I now use my cravings...
    Veryinfj Veryinfj
    36-40, M
    1 Response Aug 8, 2012

    "The soul always knows what to do to heal

    itself. The challenge is to silence the mind." - Caroline Myss
    deleted deleted
    Dec 28, 2014

    I have been in three terrible god awful

    relationships which have changed who I am but I am better for it. I may not be okay every moment of the day but I value myself more now.
    eessbb16 eessbb16
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 15, 2014

    Remember Who You Are...

     You are goodness and mercyCompassion and understanding.You are peace,joy and light.You are forgivness and patience,Strength and courage.A helper in the time of need,A comforter in a time of sorrow,A healer in time of injury,A teacher in times of confusion,You are the...
    fluidhips fluidhips
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jan 17, 2010

    I wonder since when was it

    that I stopped being suicidal, how long has it been I went to sleep crying and wishing that I would just never wake up. Now and probably for a long time, I've had this crazy idea, that I can't die, unless I try and experience a lot of things. See various of nature scenes, try...
    Summ3rRain Summ3rRain
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 13, 2014

    I definitely have gone through a metamorphosis.

    ...I'm not the same woman I was a year ago...I'm learning to be stronger, discovering who I am again, and healing from past hurts....learning from mistakes and moving forward... I'm looking forward to what the future has in store for me...in all aspects of my life...:)
    sistahgirl39 sistahgirl39
    41-45, F
    1 Response Mar 5, 2015

    I used to be a" people pleaser",

    not so much now,thank goodness.This is a great video which gives an insight in how some of us do become people's pleasers and why.
    berangere berangere
    66-70, F
    2 Responses May 15, 2015

    This Is How You Lose Her

    You lose her for every second you make her feel less and less of the beauty that she is. When you make her feel that she is replaceable. She wants to feel cherished. When you make her feel that you are fleeting. She wants you to stay. When you make her feel inadequate, she wants...
    Wistina Wistina
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jun 21, 2013
    GettingOverShit GettingOverShit
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 4

    Finally Getting My Life Back.. Sorta

    I have struggled for months to get my friends back to get back to the things i was used to. I finally got my friends back and i realize that i am just an outsider now. Its like I am a supporting character in my old life. I feel so out of place in everything i do. I wish i...
    lostandconfused1002 lostandconfused1002
    26-30, F
    1 Response May 22, 2013

    Full Moon Taurus

    November 21 at 17:27 UT (9:27 AM PST -- 12:27 PM EST), we have a potent Full Moon in Taurus. The Moon is at its best placement and is said to be 'exalted' in this practical and grounding sign, and the emotional and sensitive aspects of the Moon gains stability. As we discussed...
    burwi333 burwi333
    36-40, M
    Nov 20, 2010

    Sometimes I can feel my broken soul inside.

    Sometimes suicidal thought appears in my mind. I have OCD. From time to time, I am hoping for a breakthrough in my life, so that I can feel better about myself. I pray that God can lead me out from the darkness. I wish to feel, alive again.
    phoebesoo phoebesoo
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jan 26, 2015

    New Age For Me...

    Well, I feel myself changing again. I used to be a very cold person. I've always been distant, untrusting, and mechanical. My mind has been hard and scientific, and I repel intuition and biological impulses. Emotions and feelings did not come to me easily and I was very...
    CinnamonKnight CinnamonKnight
    22-25, F
    7 Responses Apr 26, 2013

    I battle depression.

    hi there my name is eli, and i am starting to realise something about who i am, i started this life just like anyone, and i thought i was happy but later when i was 5 or something i started to get bad energy couped up inside me this has affected me my whole life i didnt...
    quietsoul quietsoul
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Oct 28, 2009

    "People heal over time.

    Sometimes fast. Sometimes slow. What’s important is that time heals all wounds." -By yours truly ❤️
    princessjasmne princessjasmne
    18-21, F
    Apr 10

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