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I Am Healing Myself And Changing

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 325 People

    So What Now?

    I read a book about dating (yes I'm 62 yrs old and still learning) last night, and yes I read fast. It is titled 'Dateable: are you? are they?' by Justin Lookadoo and Hayley DiMarco. OMG it sure  opened my eyes to my mistakes. I thought I could find a sexual partner that would...
    djw1 djw1 61-65, F 3 Responses Apr 24, 2012

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    I do... I know I am. But I have days,

    weeks... Where I just cry. I don't think I'm strong enough to continue sometimes. I want to forget the past. I want to accept my life and move on and appreciate the beauty around me. But sometimes... It's just there.... In my head. Flashbacks, fear, feelings, songs, smells...
    Tihtil Tihtil 36-40, F 2 Responses Sep 18

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    I never wanted a fresh start,

    but I have one. I am going to make the most of it.
    lanns lanns 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    "That place of true healing is a fierce place.

    It’s a giant place. It’s a place of monstrous beauty and endless dark and glimmering light. And you have to work really, really, really hard to get there, but you can do it. You’re a woman who can travel that far. I know it." - From the book "Tiny Beautiful Things" by...
    brightonion brightonion 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    Peaceful

      The Jewish Buddha says: If there is no self, whose arthritis is this? Be here now. Be someplace else later. Is that so complicated? Drink tea and nourish life; with the first sip, joy; with the second sip, satisfaction; with the third sip, peace; with the...
    burwi333 burwi333 36-40, M 3 Responses Oct 14, 2010

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    I am trying hard to heal myself from the recent

    bad incidents. I mostly don't share my pain with others so it's hard for me to write this aswell. But i want to change myself for better after all the pain and hurt i have let someone give me. I loved, hated, cried, laughed, was revengeful, kind and compassionate, was honest...
    Anujk8 Anujk8 26-30, M 5 Responses Jul 22

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    If you want to make a permanent change,

    stop focusing on the size of your problems and start focusing on the size of you!.........
    mariacutte mariacutte 31-35, F Jul 24

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    Self Care. Who Knew?

    It's hilarious how much I've gotten in my own way. When I was married I did not take care of myself. I ate poorly and did not exercise. I craved bad food, in fact. When I finally admitted to myself I was living a myth, I actually started to crave good food. I now use my cravings...
    Veryinfj Veryinfj 36-40, M 1 Response Aug 8, 2012

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    This Is How You Lose Her

    You lose her for every second you make her feel less and less of the beauty that she is. When you make her feel that she is replaceable. She wants to feel cherished. When you make her feel that you are fleeting. She wants you to stay. When you make her feel inadequate, she wants...
    Wistina Wistina 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 21, 2013

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    Finally Getting My Life Back.. Sorta

    I have struggled for months to get my friends back to get back to the things i was used to. I finally got my friends back and i realize that i am just an outsider now. Its like I am a supporting character in my old life. I feel so out of place in everything i do. I wish i...
    lostandconfused1002 lostandconfused1002 26-30, F 1 Response May 22, 2013

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    I Am

    i had a pretty deep emotinal gash. and it will be there forever as a scar. but i can heal what i have now. it will be a hard road but with the help of my friends i know i can do it. i will heal for them.
    LelouchZero LelouchZero 18-21, T 1 Response Nov 18, 2010

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    12/18/2012

    Feeling very low today and I am trying to cheer myself up by doing random stuffs. I haven't been here for almost 2 weeks and I have come here today because writing is one of the things that makes me feel better although I am not so good at it.. Lots of mixed up thoughts running...
    Waocky Waocky 26-30, F Dec 18, 2012

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    I Suddenly Want To Drink And Steal

    this may sound really stupid to you (because it sounds stupid to me) but lately I've been wanting to drink, steal things, and have sex. I understand the have sex part, I'm a teenager that's evolution. But drinking and stealing things? I've never done either. well until now I...
    daydreamer27 daydreamer27 16-17, F Nov 27, 2013

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    My Life

    I have been through a lot in the past. From literally starved for 2 weeks, was physically abused, my husband was inlove with his ex even while we were married, Homeless, Uncontrollable child with health n mental issues, No money, no job, stress most of the time. But now, one...
    ocngirl ocngirl 41-45, F 5 Responses Jan 23, 2012

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    She Sent Me Flowers Today And It Inspired Me To Share My Soundtrack Of Her..

    *How it began* Ani Difranco Hypnotized So that's how you found me Rain falling around me Lookin down at a worm With a long way to go And the traffic was hissing by And i was homesick And i was high I was surrounded by a language In which i could say only hello And thank you...
    Aw8ingf8 Aw8ingf8 26-30, F Feb 8, 2010

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    I wonder since when was it

    that I stopped being suicidal, how long has it been I went to sleep crying and wishing that I would just never wake up. Now and probably for a long time, I've had this crazy idea, that I can't die, unless I try and experience a lot of things. See various of nature scenes, try...
    Summ3rRain Summ3rRain 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 13

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    My#

      Your Life Path Number is 9 Your Life Path Number represents the path you should take through life and the talents and skills you have to make your journey a rewarding one. A 9 Life Path will lead you to look at all with love, compassion and tolerance. You will explore...
    burwi333 burwi333 36-40, M Oct 14, 2010

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    Succeding

    I had posted a story here awhile ago and I figured I'd take the time to update. I have accepted myself, flaws and all. Life has stabilized and I have much more confidence in myself now than I did a few months back. Still on the path to loosing weight and I am really enjoying...
    Wistina Wistina 22-25, F Dec 5, 2012

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    I have... A lot of work.

    A lot of emotional and working through hurt. Sometimes, though, I am so confused by who I am. Or, rather, who I am meant to be.
    Tihtil Tihtil 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 19

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    New Age For Me...

    Well, I feel myself changing again. I used to be a very cold person. I've always been distant, untrusting, and mechanical. My mind has been hard and scientific, and I repel intuition and biological impulses. Emotions and feelings did not come to me easily and I was very...
    CinnamonKnight CinnamonKnight 22-25, F 8 Responses Apr 26, 2013

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    burwi333 burwi333 36-40, M Nov 18, 2010

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    I battle depression.

    hi there my name is eli, and i am starting to realise something about who i am, i started this life just like anyone, and i thought i was happy but later when i was 5 or something i started to get bad energy couped up inside me this has affected me my whole life i didnt...
    quietsoul quietsoul 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 28, 2009

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    Remember Who You Are...

     You are goodness and mercyCompassion and understanding.You are peace,joy and light.You are forgivness and patience,Strength and courage.A helper in the time of need,A comforter in a time of sorrow,A healer in time of injury,A teacher in times of confusion,You are the...
    fluidhips fluidhips 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 17, 2010

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    Is it possible that I'm healing

    and changing? Because I don't cry as much as I used to? Or I can tolerate the pain does that mean it just hurts less or does that mean that there's true healing happening? How do you tell the difference between healing and just plain numb?
    lionessstrong lionessstrong 46-50, F Jan 16

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    But Where Do You Start...

    One of my biggest things that I need to do in my life is learn self-acceptance. That is where my insecurity stems from, that is why I don't feel "safe" in a most environments that are actually safe, that is why I don't have a much self-esteem. I don't like myself, I don't accept...
    Wistina Wistina 22-25, F Sep 19, 2012

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    Never Give Up

    Never give up or accept defeat as a final choice, when there are more options to choose. When you feel the weakest, that’s when you are the strongest in Christ Jesus. His strength is made perfect in times of weakness, therefore never give up and don’t quit for the race is far...
    mysteryman1966 mysteryman1966 46-50, M 1 Response Mar 10, 2013

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    It's courage to be here!

    I can simply be surrounded by wrong people who would make me feel bad & think negatively.. I am sure that looking for a positive & meaningful social interaction even online is reflecting inner strength & dedication for achieving true happiness .. This is my 1st post on EP & my...
    bishoman bishoman 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 2

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    I'm starting to get over you slowly

    and I'm glad because I'm not all that hurt anymore.
    Togepi07 Togepi07 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 5

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    Full Moon Taurus

    November 21 at 17:27 UT (9:27 AM PST -- 12:27 PM EST), we have a potent Full Moon in Taurus. The Moon is at its best placement and is said to be 'exalted' in this practical and grounding sign, and the emotional and sensitive aspects of the Moon gains stability. As we discussed...
    burwi333 burwi333 36-40, M Nov 20, 2010

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    "The soul always knows what to do to heal

    itself. The challenge is to silence the mind." - Caroline Myss
    FBR4536 FBR4536 41-45, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I have been quite surprised by the events of

    the past year... I have been from one side of the continent to the other and am finding my balance. Divorce was the best decision of my life even though it cost me most of my relationships... friends that had been with me since childhood... family members who could not see their...
    SoniaGrace SoniaGrace 41-45, F Jul 2

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    Spread your wings for you have become a

    butterfly. Fly into the sun if you should return to me we truly were meant to be.
    wackywoman wackywoman 26-30 Apr 15

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    I have been in three terrible god awful

    relationships which have changed who I am but I am better for it. I may not be okay every moment of the day but I value myself more now.
    eessbb16 eessbb16 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 15

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    Desiderata Poem

      -- written by Max Ehrmann in the 1920s -- Not "Found in Old St. Paul's Church"! -- see below Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons...
    burwi333 burwi333 36-40, M Oct 29, 2010

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    Kind Of ...

    I guess at this point... I can say I am determined to heal the hurts I've endured one way or another.As for changing...  I will not change 'me'.  BUT, I am trying to change the way I do and handle things, by putting ME ahead of some things that I normally would have put front...
    BooBooBunny BooBooBunny 46-50, F May 16, 2012

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    Truth?

     
    burwi333 burwi333 36-40, M Nov 9, 2010

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    You don’t need anyone’s affection

    or approval in order to be good enough. When someone rejects or abandons or judges you, it isn’t actually about you. It’s about them and their own insecurities, limitations, and needs, and you don’t have to internalize that. Your worth isn’t contingent upon other people...
    Tonia248 Tonia248 51-55, F 6 Responses Sep 27

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    Giant Bell Chant The Most Beautiful Clip Ever ... ?

     cant get it to embed http://vimeo.com/6518109 i apologize for the trouble,never said that i am a smart man ... please watch
    burwi333 burwi333 36-40, M 1 Response Oct 20, 2010

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    I have been working my hardest to recover

    emotionally, spiritually, and even financially from a difficult situation I blindsidely found myself in. Saving, meditating, exercising, drinking lots of water, therapy... I know I will have my good days and bad days, but I refuse to give up.
    lanns lanns 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 17

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    The cuts on my neck are finally healing and i'm happy about it but at the same time i'm slightly upset that they didn't scar cause most the time before I cut I count my scars and i...
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    I don't know where to start this off, but I'll just first say that I can't do anything remarkable. I'm not special. I'm not good at anything. I'm just ordinary. I try so hard to...
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    Marvin Gaye is the man...but I don't want sexual healing from him...he's dead anyways...I love his music!
    jeremiah3698 jeremiah3698 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    So there's an ex-boyfriend, and sometimes I like to pretend he doesn't matter at all. When its fairly obvious that sometimes it still hurts, and sometimes I'm aggressive about it...
    Ceciliaasaurus Ceciliaasaurus 13-15 Nov 30

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    Self love... Today i feel open. Yesterday is the past, it was a terrible day. But i will not dwell on it now. Today and so forth i will practice self love. I will build connections...
    AndrogynousBeauty AndrogynousBeauty 22-25 1 Response Dec 3

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