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I Am Healing Myself And Changing

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 380 People

    "The soul always knows what to do to heal

    itself. The challenge is to silence the mind." - Caroline Myss
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 28, 2014

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    Peaceful

      The Jewish Buddha says: If there is no self, whose arthritis is this? Be here now. Be someplace else later. Is that so complicated? Drink tea and nourish life; with the first sip, joy; with the second sip, satisfaction; with the third sip, peace; with the...
    burwi333 burwi333 36-40, M 3 Responses Oct 14, 2010

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    I never wanted a fresh start,

    but I have one. I am going to make the most of it.
    lanns lanns 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 2, 2014

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    Finally Getting My Life Back.. Sorta

    I have struggled for months to get my friends back to get back to the things i was used to. I finally got my friends back and i realize that i am just an outsider now. Its like I am a supporting character in my old life. I feel so out of place in everything i do. I wish i...
    lostandconfused1002 lostandconfused1002 26-30, F 1 Response May 22, 2013

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    I am trying hard to heal myself from the recent

    bad incidents. I mostly don't share my pain with others so it's hard for me to write this aswell. But i want to change myself for better after all the pain and hurt i have let someone give me. I loved, hated, cried, laughed, was revengeful, kind and compassionate, was honest...
    Anujk8 Anujk8 26-30, M 6 Responses Jul 22, 2014

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    I have been working my hardest to recover

    emotionally, spiritually, and even financially from a difficult situation I blindsidely found myself in. Saving, meditating, exercising, drinking lots of water, therapy... I know I will have my good days and bad days, but I refuse to give up.
    lanns lanns 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    You don’t need anyone’s affection

    or approval in order to be good enough. When someone rejects or abandons or judges you, it isn’t actually about you. It’s about them and their own insecurities, limitations, and needs, and you don’t have to internalize that. Your worth isn’t contingent upon other people...
    Tonia248 Tonia248 51-55, F 5 Responses Sep 27, 2014

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    I definitely have gone through a metamorphosis.

    ...I'm not the same woman I was a year ago...I'm learning to be stronger, discovering who I am again, and healing from past hurts....learning from mistakes and moving forward... I'm looking forward to what the future has in store for me...in all aspects of my life...:)
    sistahgirl39 sistahgirl39 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 5

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    New Age For Me...

    Well, I feel myself changing again. I used to be a very cold person. I've always been distant, untrusting, and mechanical. My mind has been hard and scientific, and I repel intuition and biological impulses. Emotions and feelings did not come to me easily and I was very...
    CinnamonKnight CinnamonKnight 22-25, F 7 Responses Apr 26, 2013

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    Life is not about avoiding pain.

    ..it is about making good pain and ally for growth. Make sure the pain is the pain of *maturing not the pain of being needy pouty or focused on your injury only. -boundaries with kids Cloud & Townsend Wow.
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M Jan 21

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    I used to be a" people pleaser",

    not so much now,thank goodness.This is a great video which gives an insight in how some of us do become people's pleasers and why.
    berangere berangere 66-70, F 2 Responses May 15

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    Remember Who You Are...

     You are goodness and mercyCompassion and understanding.You are peace,joy and light.You are forgivness and patience,Strength and courage.A helper in the time of need,A comforter in a time of sorrow,A healer in time of injury,A teacher in times of confusion,You are the...
    fluidhips fluidhips 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 17, 2010

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    Today I was feeling really upset

    but instead of just staying in my bed all day, I got up and took a long walk about 10 km. Every inch of my muscles hurt at the moment bıt Im proud of myself because Im a fighter :D
    jokerwithamask jokerwithamask 16-17, F 1 Response May 30

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    after my arm is out of this cast

    and I can do stuff again, I'm gonna change myself. My mission in life, I'm gonna finish this art course and go travelling until I can hang my coat up and say 'This is home.' - No relationships along the way either. I'm done with all that.
    LonerGirl24 LonerGirl24 22-25, F Jul 20

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    I do... I know I am. But I have days,

    weeks... Where I just cry. I don't think I'm strong enough to continue sometimes. I want to forget the past. I want to accept my life and move on and appreciate the beauty around me. But sometimes... It's just there.... In my head. Flashbacks, fear, feelings, songs, smells...
    mollyhearts mollyhearts 36-40, F 2 Responses Sep 18, 2014

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    I have been quite surprised by the events of

    the past year... I have been from one side of the continent to the other and am finding my balance. Divorce was the best decision of my life even though it cost me most of my relationships... friends that had been with me since childhood... family members who could not see their...
    SoniaGrace SoniaGrace 41-45, F Jul 2, 2014

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    I have... A lot of work.

    A lot of emotional and working through hurt. Sometimes, though, I am so confused by who I am. Or, rather, who I am meant to be.
    mollyhearts mollyhearts 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 19, 2014

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    I'm starting to get over you slowly

    and I'm glad because I'm not all that hurt anymore.
    Togepi07 Togepi07 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 5, 2014

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    Sometimes I can feel my broken soul inside.

    Sometimes suicidal thought appears in my mind. I have OCD. From time to time, I am hoping for a breakthrough in my life, so that I can feel better about myself. I pray that God can lead me out from the darkness. I wish to feel, alive again.
    phoebesoo phoebesoo 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    My Life

    I have been through a lot in the past. From literally starved for 2 weeks, was physically abused, my husband was inlove with his ex even while we were married, Homeless, Uncontrollable child with health n mental issues, No money, no job, stress most of the time. But now, one...
    ocngirl ocngirl 41-45, F 5 Responses Jan 23, 2012

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    If you want to make a permanent change,

    stop focusing on the size of your problems and start focusing on the size of you!.........
    mariacutte mariacutte 36-40, F Jul 24, 2014

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    Self Care. Who Knew?

    It's hilarious how much I've gotten in my own way. When I was married I did not take care of myself. I ate poorly and did not exercise. I craved bad food, in fact. When I finally admitted to myself I was living a myth, I actually started to crave good food. I now use my cravings...
    Veryinfj Veryinfj 36-40, M 1 Response Aug 8, 2012

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    i had girlfriend for almost 6years,

    she moved to florida. i met filipino lady at walmart. Filipino lady used to live in my neighbor 14years back. That day i was walking in walmart and i noticed lady looking at me and smiling. I stopped by her and said "hello" and asked her do i know you? Yes, 14 years ago...
    mkdpk mkdpk 41-45, M 1 Response Jun 4

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    "That place of true healing is a fierce place.

    It’s a giant place. It’s a place of monstrous beauty and endless dark and glimmering light. And you have to work really, really, really hard to get there, but you can do it. You’re a woman who can travel that far. I know it." - From the book "Tiny Beautiful Things" by...
    brightonion brightonion 26-30, F Dec 22, 2014

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    Today wasn't bad. I'm doing better.

    Still haven't truly wept. which is good. that's not something I ever wanna do again. I've gone quiet and introspective like I do. reclusive. I got a new camera. I took awesome pics again. so stinking cool.
    ZombieBaitMaiden ZombieBaitMaiden 31-35, F Jan 8

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    Jealousy I was jealous once.

    I was jealous of my 2nd Cousin Judy. She was just as pretty as me but she didn’t need glasses like I did. She was also an attention hog unlike me. One day my Grandma had to sell her house to make way for a development that had bought the whole neighborhood. She moved...
    NOWHealing NOWHealing 61-65, F 2 Responses Jun 8

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    This Is How You Lose Her

    You lose her for every second you make her feel less and less of the beauty that she is. When you make her feel that she is replaceable. She wants to feel cherished. When you make her feel that you are fleeting. She wants you to stay. When you make her feel inadequate, she wants...
    Wistina Wistina 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 21, 2013

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    Spread your wings for you have become a

    butterfly. Fly into the sun if you should return to me we truly were meant to be.
    wackywoman wackywoman 26-30 Apr 15, 2014

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    Is it possible that I'm healing

    and changing? Because I don't cry as much as I used to? Or I can tolerate the pain does that mean it just hurts less or does that mean that there's true healing happening? How do you tell the difference between healing and just plain numb?
    lionessstrong lionessstrong 46-50, F Jan 16, 2014

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    No one can make you "feel" anything,

    you choose to react to your feelings. I refuse to let her actions get to me. She is an external now...I am gonna keep detaching...calm, cool, collected, confident. I will react out of a place of strength and peace not fear, anger or anxiety.
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M Jan 26

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    I battle depression.

    hi there my name is eli, and i am starting to realise something about who i am, i started this life just like anyone, and i thought i was happy but later when i was 5 or something i started to get bad energy couped up inside me this has affected me my whole life i didnt...
    quietsoul quietsoul 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 28, 2009

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    CrazyDaisyeee CrazyDaisyeee 18-21, F Jun 18

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    Well, I always have had to do it on my own,

    guess it made me stronger, in some ways. It always a blessing to be able to transform and shed the old.
    Jhayne8 Jhayne8 31-35, F Jun 16

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    I wonder since when was it

    that I stopped being suicidal, how long has it been I went to sleep crying and wishing that I would just never wake up. Now and probably for a long time, I've had this crazy idea, that I can't die, unless I try and experience a lot of things. See various of nature scenes, try...
    Summ3rRain Summ3rRain 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 13, 2014

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    I have been in three terrible god awful

    relationships which have changed who I am but I am better for it. I may not be okay every moment of the day but I value myself more now.
    eessbb16 eessbb16 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 15, 2014

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    One thing I have discovered

    that is really harmfull to health is: REFINED SUGAR,it is now found in many processed and other foods,included tin foods. Sugar is added into practically everything we eat nowadays,even in bread and that "tasty" Mac Donald bun is packed with it.It is also added to all fruit...
    berangere berangere 66-70, F 4 Responses Jul 21

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    Hello, everybody. Changing Mother Nature not

    easy. I always worrying about losing whenever start meeting someone. I keep checking my phone to check did I get any message or call. Or checking on EP inbox. Why I am doing this? Why this happening to me all the time, on first date women shows me interesting and ask me to call...
    mkdpk mkdpk 41-45, M May 24

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    It's courage to be here!

    I can simply be surrounded by wrong people who would make me feel bad & think negatively.. I am sure that looking for a positive & meaningful social interaction even online is reflecting inner strength & dedication for achieving true happiness .. This is my 1st post on EP & my...
    bishoman bishoman 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 2, 2014

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    Full Moon Taurus

    November 21 at 17:27 UT (9:27 AM PST -- 12:27 PM EST), we have a potent Full Moon in Taurus. The Moon is at its best placement and is said to be 'exalted' in this practical and grounding sign, and the emotional and sensitive aspects of the Moon gains stability. As we discussed...
    burwi333 burwi333 36-40, M Nov 20, 2010

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    I need to work on loving myself. If you can't love yourself, nobody else can love you. You can't find the person you need, if you don't know what you need. I'm taking this time to...
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    I enjoy being by myself, almost more than anything. I have created a nice reclusive room for me to stay and be alone from the rest of the world. I love not having to leave me room...
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    I've asked this to myself for the past 5 years. sometimes I wish faking your death was possible somehow, like an actual wake & funeral. just to see the effect. & I would totally...
    itllkillme itllkillme 18-21, F 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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