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I Am Highly Functional When Not Depressed

Depression...Disassociate...depersonalize 227 People

    Hi All...i'm Doing Okay & Trying to Be Positive...

    My episode this Summer was the worse I've had in ages..It lasted long,,,and I was completely 'depersonalized' whatever psych term that is..I know I had disassociation, and I shut down..stayed in bed etc,etc...Bills PILE up,,then late fees to pay... Anyway..I'm trying to journal...
    csan csan 61-65, F 4 Responses Nov 28, 2007

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    Welcome Everyone - Thanks For Your Stories !

    I have to apologize, because I'm just realizing that there are others now joining our group.  For a while it was only me. This Summer I had a longer that usual 'episode' and I was no use to anyone including my self..From August- beginning of October, this was longer than...
    csan csan 61-65, F Nov 17, 2007

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    Revelations And Learning To Hope!!!

    I'll never again feel the comfort of joy. Isolated from the freedom of laughter. I have a revelation. I don't need to be happy All I had done in my bleak past was wish for a less bleak furture. This quedt for eternal peace is no longer needed in this tormented mind of mine. It...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F Nov 29, 2010

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    When Not Depressed...

    I don't get overwhelmed by the mere thought of doing a load of dishes or laundry. I get up, I get out, I play, I have fun, I work hard. I can function socially, and fairly well. ... I wish I wasn't depressed most of the time.
    iFortiTude iFortiTude 31-35 May 19, 2008

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    I Have Too Many Groups...

    I start a story and before I know it I have a group, i CANNOT KEEP UP!....I think all of us should  just go to the DEPRESSION  GROUP, WHAT DO YOU THINK. I WOULD LIKE TO CLOSE THIS GROUP UNLESS SOMEONE ELSE WANTS TO TAKE OVER MANAGING IT?
    csan csan 61-65, F Mar 17, 2008

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    For the Most Part

    I'm not as functional as i would like to be ... I would love to be able to clean my whole house in one day Like immaculately  clean my house !!! But  Then i think sometimes im being  too hard  on myself ... but then i dont know ..  im too retentive ...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 17, 2007

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    I hate my job! I hate my job

    so much that every working day I woke up and my mind comes up with all the excuses that I can avoid going back here! I wanted to just quit! But I can't, cos my depression let me believe that I'm not capable of getting a better, I'm not worth a higher pay one, or I'm just not...
    52hell 52hell 26-30, F Jan 27, 2015

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    Today I Cried...

    I went to my Pain and Wellness, Thursday group and I went there feeling happy because I finally think I'll;l soon be able to correspond with my Mother (that's another story)..But The group leader was just talking about good stuff..and I just had all these tears I could not keep...
    csan csan 61-65, F Dec 7, 2007

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    To All Member of the Group

    I am Just realizing that every time I tell a story I start a group if there is no group already started on the topic...So I apologize for not checking on everyone's story. It is wonderful to see the support of others with this same  problem. You may have been told that you...
    csan csan 61-65, F 3 Responses Nov 17, 2007

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    Yes. ...

    Yes. Actually, I have noticed that I become not so much creative, but able to express creativity better when I am not depressed and I tend to lean more towards a thirst for knowledge because I can actually focus I find.
    Andariel Andariel 22-25, F May 19, 2008

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    So We Have to Keep Our Spirits Up!

    I'm not doing  Christmas this year so....I'll get me some good foos the day before and get me some DVD's..UNPLUG my phone...and the day will go quickly...Its just one day...I'll watch midnight mass in Rome with the Pope...and that will be that!...Then I get ready and look...
    csan csan 61-65, F Dec 22, 2007

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    So People I'm In This Department Because...

    I need the support of my fellow friends with this our problem..I seem to be doing okay,,,but I see signs of another episode..I STARTED TAKING 2 WELLBUTRIN everyday..My  psych said I could if I needed. I hae been ANXIOUS< DEPRESSED> ANGRY all of these things and my...
    csan csan 61-65, F Dec 14, 2007

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    Yep...

    I'm depressed right now...  Have to work, can't focus, don't have the energy, just want to sleep.  All I can think about is what's depressing me and I can't think of anything else. It's like bricks weighing me down.   Although apparently I'm a really creative...
    NorthernStar NorthernStar 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 20, 2009

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    Actually, someone here pointed it out. Am I? I don't know. I'm not unhappy or happy. I'm nothing. I'm indifferent, like, to everything. I just don't care. My favorite place...
    nothingbetterthanlaughing nothingbetterthanlaughing 31-35, F 3 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    i am really depressed because i talked to one of my old ex's broke up with me last month and i talked to her today and shes getting married and dosent want to be friends no more...
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    I want to give up. I'm beyond sick of getting disappointed. Why do I even bother maintaining hope anymore?? I'm constantly getting disappointed in every way possible and it's all...
    unpredictableprediction unpredictableprediction 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    what a big topic depression who isn't depressed? I don't beleive everyone in life feels wonderful, I love it when you get those people that say I never get depressed, never catch...
    Diciullo Diciullo 46-50, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm not really depressed, but I need someone to talk to. I want a story, something..... please. (desperate for internet friends. Basically someone I can confide in)
    TeRiiFiiC TeRiiFiiC 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    again i am setting in a dark room smoking, having a drink, tv on for background noise. feeling depressed
    kometsr kometsr 61-65, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Heads up not saying I am depressed but lately I've been feeling so unmotivated, quiet, uninterested, giving up and feel like everything is my fault. I just have the urge to not...
    jennifer5006 jennifer5006 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I been depressed for a long time now... I was molested four times by different people. Two were girls when i was younger. I just got out of a controlling relationship. I dont have...
    SimplyEbonie SimplyEbonie 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    Envying somebody who is about to die or died. This is my feelings right now. Somebody I barely knew had a cancer. That person sent a message to my parents. "I don't want to die...
    Tazmanou Tazmanou 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Anyone with social anxiety here? Feel free to message me if you have it. I wanna know how you guys cope with overwhelming situations. When im alone, its so relaxing & I can walk...
    XXLovelyPoisonXX XXLovelyPoisonXX 18-21, F 7 Responses 3 days ago

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    Honestly I'm a dramatic. Narcissistic. Conceited person. And I've always thought highly of myself. It has it's Pros and Cons but honestly. I've tried to change these qualities. I...
    LeahLovee LeahLovee 70+, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I feel like a broken record everyday. School, family, and life overall have made me feel overwhelmed. I can't act like myself because I'm too depressed and my school is...
    Imbolcumbra Imbolcumbra 16-17, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I have been depressed over 3 weeks and none of my friends and family realize it because I always fake smile and fake laugh and it's so easy to foul them and I know that they won't...
    Iszy143 Iszy143 16-17, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I've noticed a change in my mood in the past month or so and I think it's because of Spring and Summer approaching. I don't know why but I'm dreading the hotter months and the bugs...
    emjm013 emjm013 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    Nothing ever goes right for me it seems like. My asshat husband is going to get everything in the divorce while I'll get almost nothing. He was emotionally abusive to me...
    GoldenHeart69 GoldenHeart69 22-25, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I randomly came across this website when I was looking for ways to assuage my unhappiness. I have been feeling depressed for the past year and I couldn't heal myself with...
    Silh0uettes Silh0uettes 16-17, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I figured out how to fix it. I have to change. But in order to understand what I have to change I have to be able to identify what's causing me pain. My pain seems to stem from...
    imjustaghost imjustaghost 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 3

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    I just started talking to this guy and he tells me how happy he is to have met me. He has said that I have really kept him happy over these past few weeks. I knew something was up...
    Leolatina Leolatina 31-35, F 3 Responses Feb 2

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    I m a hsp and I'm always being told I'm good looking and girls tend to flirt with me... As an hsp you all know how we can feel others emotions. I have noticed several times I get...
    realcomplicated realcomplicated 26-30, M Feb 2

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    I dont know if i am really this depressed. I feel sometimes useless and powerless. I was born in a broken family and that makes me becomes insecure in so many ways, ashamed, no one...
    findingmerlyn findingmerlyn 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 31

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    I like to help the depressed populace because I may not be going through the same situation that they're facing; but depression, that is something I have suffered like so many...
    MyLifeIsStrange MyLifeIsStrange 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 30

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    Wow, what a week! I realized that what has been eating me up and it has been that my birth mother never said sorry for putting me up for adoption and never trying to find me...
    Leolatina Leolatina 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 29

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    I'm depressed because I feel like life isn't getting any better . I feel like I'm trapped in this depressing cage of a life . Every time something bad happens I long for the past...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jan 29

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    anyone get to a point of depression they feel nothing? i do. when im feeling a really bad depression moment i have no emotions at all, i dont feel anything not hunger or thirst...
    rebornlover101 rebornlover101 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 29

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    I wish I hadn't had so much to drink at my friend's birthday party. I got very upset later because I had way too much, possibly the most I've ever had. I think it was because I'd...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 29

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    normal people avoid depressed people like the plague. EP is the only place where people listen with empathy
    Q2013 Q2013 46-50, F 4 Responses Jan 29

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    Self diagnosed and completely hidden in my real life. I've known for a while now that I'd crept past just simply feeling down to something more serious. I'm an intelligent woman...
    snoopysgirl snoopysgirl 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 29

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    I don't like to use the word "Depressed" lightly. But I think I'm allowed to use it now, after not wanting to admit it for months, maybe even years. It's later than 3 am and I...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming 18-21, T 2 Responses Jan 29

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