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I Am Highly Functional When Not Depressed

Depression...Disassociate...depersonalize 225 People

    Revelations And Learning To Hope!!!

    I'll never again feel the comfort of joy. Isolated from the freedom of laughter. I have a revelation. I don't need to be happy All I had done in my bleak past was wish for a less bleak furture. This quedt for eternal peace is no longer needed in this tormented mind of mine. It...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F Nov 29, 2010

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    Hi All...i'm Doing Okay & Trying to Be Positive...

    My episode this Summer was the worse I've had in ages..It lasted long,,,and I was completely 'depersonalized' whatever psych term that is..I know I had disassociation, and I shut down..stayed in bed etc,etc...Bills PILE up,,then late fees to pay... Anyway..I'm trying to journal...
    csan csan 61-65, F 4 Responses Nov 28, 2007

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    Yes. ...

    Yes. Actually, I have noticed that I become not so much creative, but able to express creativity better when I am not depressed and I tend to lean more towards a thirst for knowledge because I can actually focus I find.
    Andariel Andariel 22-25, F May 19, 2008

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    You Can Say That Again...

    When I'm not depressed, I'm energetic and on top of things. I'm not ashamed to say that I'm depressed more often than not.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 26-30, M Aug 12, 2011

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    For the Most Part

    I'm not as functional as i would like to be ... I would love to be able to clean my whole house in one day Like immaculately  clean my house !!! But  Then i think sometimes im being  too hard  on myself ... but then i dont know ..  im too retentive ...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 17, 2007

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    Welcome Everyone - Thanks For Your Stories !

    I have to apologize, because I'm just realizing that there are others now joining our group.  For a while it was only me. This Summer I had a longer that usual 'episode' and I was no use to anyone including my self..From August- beginning of October, this was longer than...
    csan csan 61-65, F Nov 17, 2007

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    I hate my job! I hate my job

    so much that every working day I woke up and my mind comes up with all the excuses that I can avoid going back here! I wanted to just quit! But I can't, cos my depression let me believe that I'm not capable of getting a better, I'm not worth a higher pay one, or I'm just not...
    52hell 52hell 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    When Not Depressed...

    I don't get overwhelmed by the mere thought of doing a load of dishes or laundry. I get up, I get out, I play, I have fun, I work hard. I can function socially, and fairly well. ... I wish I wasn't depressed most of the time.
    iFortiTude iFortiTude 31-35 May 19, 2008

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    So We Have to Keep Our Spirits Up!

    I'm not doing  Christmas this year so....I'll get me some good foos the day before and get me some DVD's..UNPLUG my phone...and the day will go quickly...Its just one day...I'll watch midnight mass in Rome with the Pope...and that will be that!...Then I get ready and look...
    csan csan 61-65, F Dec 22, 2007

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    Yep...

    I'm depressed right now...  Have to work, can't focus, don't have the energy, just want to sleep.  All I can think about is what's depressing me and I can't think of anything else. It's like bricks weighing me down.   Although apparently I'm a really creative...
    NorthernStar NorthernStar 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 20, 2009

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    To All Member of the Group

    I am Just realizing that every time I tell a story I start a group if there is no group already started on the topic...So I apologize for not checking on everyone's story. It is wonderful to see the support of others with this same  problem. You may have been told that you...
    csan csan 61-65, F 3 Responses Nov 17, 2007

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    I Have Too Many Groups...

    I start a story and before I know it I have a group, i CANNOT KEEP UP!....I think all of us should  just go to the DEPRESSION  GROUP, WHAT DO YOU THINK. I WOULD LIKE TO CLOSE THIS GROUP UNLESS SOMEONE ELSE WANTS TO TAKE OVER MANAGING IT?
    csan csan 61-65, F Mar 17, 2008

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    Today I Cried...

    I went to my Pain and Wellness, Thursday group and I went there feeling happy because I finally think I'll;l soon be able to correspond with my Mother (that's another story)..But The group leader was just talking about good stuff..and I just had all these tears I could not keep...
    csan csan 61-65, F Dec 7, 2007

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    So People I'm In This Department Because...

    I need the support of my fellow friends with this our problem..I seem to be doing okay,,,but I see signs of another episode..I STARTED TAKING 2 WELLBUTRIN everyday..My  psych said I could if I needed. I hae been ANXIOUS< DEPRESSED> ANGRY all of these things and my...
    csan csan 61-65, F Dec 14, 2007

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