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I Am Highly Functional When Not Depressed

Depression...Disassociate...depersonalize 229 People

    Today I Cried...

    I went to my Pain and Wellness, Thursday group and I went there feeling happy because I finally think I'll;l soon be able to correspond with my Mother (that's another story)..But The group leader was just talking about good stuff..and I just had all these tears I could not keep...
    csan csan 61-65, F Dec 7, 2007

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    Revelations And Learning To Hope!!!

    I'll never again feel the comfort of joy. Isolated from the freedom of laughter. I have a revelation. I don't need to be happy All I had done in my bleak past was wish for a less bleak furture. This quedt for eternal peace is no longer needed in this tormented mind of mine. It...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F Nov 29, 2010

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    You Can Say That Again...

    When I'm not depressed, I'm energetic and on top of things. I'm not ashamed to say that I'm depressed more often than not.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 26-30, M Aug 12, 2011

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    So We Have to Keep Our Spirits Up!

    I'm not doing  Christmas this year so....I'll get me some good foos the day before and get me some DVD's..UNPLUG my phone...and the day will go quickly...Its just one day...I'll watch midnight mass in Rome with the Pope...and that will be that!...Then I get ready and look...
    csan csan 61-65, F Dec 22, 2007

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    I hate my job! I hate my job

    so much that every working day I woke up and my mind comes up with all the excuses that I can avoid going back here! I wanted to just quit! But I can't, cos my depression let me believe that I'm not capable of getting a better, I'm not worth a higher pay one, or I'm just not...
    52hell 52hell 26-30, F Jan 27

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    Yes. ...

    Yes. Actually, I have noticed that I become not so much creative, but able to express creativity better when I am not depressed and I tend to lean more towards a thirst for knowledge because I can actually focus I find.
    Andariel Andariel 22-25, F May 19, 2008

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    So People I'm In This Department Because...

    I need the support of my fellow friends with this our problem..I seem to be doing okay,,,but I see signs of another episode..I STARTED TAKING 2 WELLBUTRIN everyday..My  psych said I could if I needed. I hae been ANXIOUS< DEPRESSED> ANGRY all of these things and my...
    csan csan 61-65, F Dec 14, 2007

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    Welcome Everyone - Thanks For Your Stories !

    I have to apologize, because I'm just realizing that there are others now joining our group.  For a while it was only me. This Summer I had a longer that usual 'episode' and I was no use to anyone including my self..From August- beginning of October, this was longer than...
    csan csan 61-65, F Nov 17, 2007

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    When Not Depressed...

    I don't get overwhelmed by the mere thought of doing a load of dishes or laundry. I get up, I get out, I play, I have fun, I work hard. I can function socially, and fairly well. ... I wish I wasn't depressed most of the time.
    iFortiTude iFortiTude 31-35 May 19, 2008

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    Yep...

    I'm depressed right now...  Have to work, can't focus, don't have the energy, just want to sleep.  All I can think about is what's depressing me and I can't think of anything else. It's like bricks weighing me down.   Although apparently I'm a really creative...
    NorthernStar NorthernStar 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 20, 2009

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    For the Most Part

    I'm not as functional as i would like to be ... I would love to be able to clean my whole house in one day Like immaculately  clean my house !!! But  Then i think sometimes im being  too hard  on myself ... but then i dont know ..  im too retentive ...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 17, 2007

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    Hi All...i'm Doing Okay & Trying to Be Positive...

    My episode this Summer was the worse I've had in ages..It lasted long,,,and I was completely 'depersonalized' whatever psych term that is..I know I had disassociation, and I shut down..stayed in bed etc,etc...Bills PILE up,,then late fees to pay... Anyway..I'm trying to journal...
    csan csan 61-65, F 4 Responses Nov 28, 2007

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    To All Member of the Group

    I am Just realizing that every time I tell a story I start a group if there is no group already started on the topic...So I apologize for not checking on everyone's story. It is wonderful to see the support of others with this same  problem. You may have been told that you...
    csan csan 61-65, F 3 Responses Nov 17, 2007

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    I Have Too Many Groups...

    I start a story and before I know it I have a group, i CANNOT KEEP UP!....I think all of us should  just go to the DEPRESSION  GROUP, WHAT DO YOU THINK. I WOULD LIKE TO CLOSE THIS GROUP UNLESS SOMEONE ELSE WANTS TO TAKE OVER MANAGING IT?
    csan csan 61-65, F Mar 17, 2008

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    I have the kind of depression that's been with you for a lifetime. It's the kind that's so ingrained within your psyche that it's become part of who you really are. Some days it's...
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    One of life's cruelest jokes is that we want to be around other people but it's other people who start us on the road to depression. Usually abuse, rejection, bullying start it...
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    Soo idk if I'm having a mid life crisis and I'm 23 now. Right now I have no money in officially broke, it's a good think all the bills got taken care off with the lil money I had...
    dreamB1G dreamB1G 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    My moods to the point of being angry with everyone or everything I see, not only that but I also feel kinda depressed for everything that's happening to me. I'm thinking thoughts...
    Cooper802 Cooper802 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    ive been feeling suicidal recently. but im christian. im always going home alone. i walk down the hallways alone. i dont have anyone whom i can relate to. except for one person but...
    SolaCeEncE SolaCeEncE 16-17, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    So I'm new here... I'm not really sure what to start with. But I have always suspected, but through a bit of research have come to really understand that I am highly sensitive. I...
    Selebiss Selebiss 31-35, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    Over the past 3 months I have been treated with strong pain killers and had terrible pain. After several ultrasound examinations all showing a cyst of about 2.5-3 cm some times...
    Chillifizz Chillifizz 36-40, F 6 days ago

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    I think in the back of my mind, I'm always sad. But it's days like these that I know that I really am depressed. Those days where I'm lying on my bed, staring at my ceiling...
    AKGhost98 AKGhost98 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I am a 23 yr old student in college and unfortunately to say, I have been extremely depressed for the past couple of years. This mostly has to do with the fact that I have no...
    lonelyman1113 lonelyman1113 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 25

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    i never thought i could be this depressed. i just miss this girl so much and ive heard about things like soulties and stuff like that and idk it might be true cause i feel like...
    pepetheanarchistfrog pepetheanarchistfrog 13-15, M 1 Response Jun 24

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    I recently broke up with my ex and I just found she cheated on me and now she is happily either the person they cheated with and I'm just left here alone. It doesn't really seem...
    karizombie07 karizombie07 22-25, T Jun 24

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    Why does everyone come to me when they're depressed or sad or whatever? Just leave me alone! I have my own problems! I can't carry your problems on top of mine. I'm sorry, but I...
    HidingBehindTheShadows HidingBehindTheShadows 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 24

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    Someone please put me out of my misery my heart hurts so much and it's depressing me no one loves me and no one ever will im always a second choice it's feels like **** I wanna...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 3 Responses Jun 24

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    I do not remember a time where I have been 100% happy with myself and with life itself. I was depressed at a very young age because of things at home but no one knew how I was...
    Charli101 Charli101 16-17 Jun 24

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    I always thought people could tell that I was insecure and depressed, but I have a mask that I put on and everyone says I look perfect. You can almost never tell that I'm depressed...
    sirianstarsoul sirianstarsoul 16-17, M 3 Responses Jun 24

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    I see it, my mom, my gf ,my sisters , cousins, everyone sees it, I'm just becoming more and more depressed more and more each day, I literally cut myself out of depression...
    Jerseyboi Jerseyboi 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 24

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    I misscarried at 9 weeks it had a inpact so bad that I am still depressed over it and now I can't get pregnant after 1-1/2 year of trying with my bf
    DollFacedBeauty2k15 DollFacedBeauty2k15 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 23

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    Today I am. I'm coming out of it. Slowly but surely. Maybe too slow and I won't make it. Damn, just need a balance in my life. A woman is made to balance a man as a man is...
    Golfknar Golfknar 36-40, M 2 Responses Jun 23

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    I get very sad and depressed at night when I'm alone in my room. It usually happens around 11pm and then continues until I can't distract myself. I get depressed because I am...
    JaxxBlackBlood JaxxBlackBlood 13-15, T 1 Response Jun 23

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    I remember having a bad day at school a while ago. I don't recall why I was upset but these two girls noticed and I heard one of them whisper behind me "I think she's depressed...
    anonamanda001 anonamanda001 18-21, F Jun 23

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    depressed and have no motivation for multiple reasons that i cant change :(
    pepetheanarchistfrog pepetheanarchistfrog 13-15, M 1 Response Jun 22

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    I am the eldest in my sisters. But i constantly have this pressure to get better grades than my sister, she's quite smart. This makes me depressed a lot. The kids in my class...
    Lalaloopsiebabe Lalaloopsiebabe 13-15, F 5 Responses Jun 22

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    I'm not depressed right now but I have been in the past. I am more than happy to talk with anyone who needs help dealing with depression. Just don't use me as your only source of...
    Maybeincubus Maybeincubus 22-25, M Jun 22

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    I am depressed for I loved this young man named Asa too much and too far. He is still my ex boyfriend but I still love him truly and purely.
    XxCuTiE14xX XxCuTiE14xX 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 21

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    I wouldn't say depressed, just have a social interaction deficiency...
    Cosmic0Potato Cosmic0Potato 13-15, M 2 Responses Jun 21

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    I feel so depressed. everything is grey. even though there is things for me to be happy for I just feel so depressed. and no one cares
    flo877 flo877 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 20

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    I finally opened up and became raw and vulnerable. I explained to my husband how I have no drive to do anything, I'm miserable, and I can't focus on anything. I rely on weed for...
    AmayaHoo AmayaHoo 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 18