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I Am Hiv Positive Gay Man

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    I think I'm almost MDD.

    No friends , no family, no one can talk . Live alone , walk alone , eat alone , sleep alone , cry alone .
    BBbrownnn BBbrownnn 22-25, M 3 Responses Mar 21

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    Maxxymo Maxxymo 22-25, M Dec 30, 2013

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    Someone I Loved And Trusted Infected Me With Hiv When He Knew He Was And Never Told Me

    About 11 years ago I was in a relationship with a person whom I loved and trusted. He was HIV positive and never told me. I became infected by him. I have lived in a state of extreme anger, pain, and lack of trust ever since. It has made my life unbearable at times. Every...
    Sjacobson507 Sjacobson507 36-40 4 Responses Nov 21, 2011

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    I am so afraid to date

    because of the fact I think I will be rejected because HIV positive. It depresses me sometime. Wish I could have a chance.
    1morestatus 1morestatus 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 17

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    Hiv+ And I'm Scared...

    I found out I was HIV+ this morning. When my doctor called me, I figured it was just to let me know my results were in for the std test that I got a week before and also treated for. I could tell immediately that it was not good. Once I found out, my knees grew week and I went...
    Mickies09 Mickies09 22-25, M 3 Responses Sep 28, 2013

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    Last night was like a dream.

    I've been taking Xanax since I found out my HIV status. For some reason I totally flipped out over a stupid situation. I don't remember most of what occurred and it scares me. I know I didn't hurt anyone but I know I scared the person that I was with. That is not me and...
    mexlover2169 mexlover2169 31-35, M 3 Responses May 4

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    Hi all mate , I'm 27 yo ,

    gay male ,from Malaysia ,just knew I m hiv+ two mnt ago .. I'm very emotional ppl , my mood kept up n down everyday , night time when sleep I will awake n feeling how sadness . I'm very scared about it.
    workvyou2 workvyou2 26-30, M 3 Responses Jun 19

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    I AM HIV+…AND I HAVE FOUND LOVE…ON EP!

    ! The last story I had shared was one in which I had posed a question…at what point in a relationship does sex become secondary? That was back in October. I had been in a relationship since the previous May with a kind hearted man who was good to me. I had originally been...
    Ralphsnt69 Ralphsnt69 46-50, M 1 Response May 2

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    Hiv Positive Gay Man Needs Your Help In Reaching Dream Of Becoming A Doctor

    Hello my name is Adam Kessinger and I am a Clinical Psychology PhD candidate focusing on gay men's health. I am currently conducting a research study focusing on relationship satisfaction and positive growth after receiving an HIV/AIDS diagnosis in a population of gay men. I have...
    adamk83 adamk83 26-30, M 3 Responses Jan 8, 2013

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    Know that I have HIV.

    I would rather date a guy who had it also. Personal opinion
    1morestatus 1morestatus 18-21, M Aug 19

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    My life totally changed in three weeks.

    .. From being perfectly normal, to learn I have HIV with a CD4 of 180... What a twist! But I love my life and everything around me... Everything will get better, I know it will :) I start my medications today at night... I hope I don't get so many side effects!!! :)
    fusionconfusion fusionconfusion 26-30, M 4 Responses Mar 5

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    HIV Positive does not mean “Dirty” All

    over hook-up websites, gay men portraying themselves as HIV Negative refer to themselves as “being clean”. This is also true on TV shows and in gay romance novels (one of my guilty pleasures). The fact is that this is true to our gay “culture”. Results coming back as...
    Ralphsnt69 Ralphsnt69 46-50, M Jul 21

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    Day by bay ...I slowly acceptable hiv living in

    my body And I need dealing with it in my life .. Well , I am learning ... I learning how to relax .. I learning how to enjoy my life ... I learning how to appreciate my parents .. I learning how to quite drugs ... I learning how to less smoke ... I learning how to be...
    workvyou2 workvyou2 26-30, M 3 Responses Jul 10

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    HIV positive I don't know

    where to begin. I am writing this with so much going on in my head, it is painful. I am a 18 years old from Indonesia. Back in August, I had an unprotected sex with someone. Stupid me, I never paid any attention to what people told me about how dangerous unprotected sex is. I...
    hiv95 hiv95 18-21, M 4 Responses Dec 17, 2013

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    It's almost 5 months

    since I was diagnosed positive. It was in August of 2013 that my life really changed. Until now now, my family still dont know my status. Only 2 of my closest friends know about it. I got itchy skin rashes. My CD4 count was 21. I guess I am doomed. I wanna go somewhere far...
    IamAugust IamAugust 26-30, M 9 Responses Jan 3

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    Wishing To Keep In Touch With Other Gays With HIV

    I have been HIV positive for 2 years now. Its a journey but wish to get some contacts so we can support one another online.
    pacifictrotter pacifictrotter 22-25, M 4 Responses Apr 7, 2013

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    BBbrownnn BBbrownnn 22-25, M 2 Responses Mar 9

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    I am Thai gay. I am bottom 35 175 63.

    I have just told my BF that I have HIV+ And I told him to stop relationship. It is really sad. But I am still think that love is important. The healthy problem lead me to leave from my BF. I hope, this healthy problem will lead me to meet a person who is my real love and for the...
    khungai khungai 31-35, M 2 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    Just Looking To Make Contacts With Other HIV Positive Guys For Friendship And Support

    I'm 24 years old and about 3 months ago I found out that I was HIV positive. I remember the feeling as i sat there with a blank look on my face. I went to the doctor for a a regular checkup but had some blood work done before. As i got there and received the news I was shocked...
    Killerkaze Killerkaze 22-25 9 Responses Jul 1, 2013

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    I Am Hiv Positive Gay Man

    Early January of 1987, just after the holidays, I was 31 years old, completely single and very “active”. I got a letter from the American Red Cross. Although I was perfectly healthy, I knew what it was. I gave blood yearly at my place of employment. Why else would the Red...
    pastol pastol 51-55 4 Responses Jan 16, 2011

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    I just found out yesterday,

    7/18/14 that I am HIV positive. I was tested in November of 2013 and it was negative. I was recently and infected and I now know who infected me. Neither one of us knew he was positive at the time we had sex. We always had safe sex until one night we just didn't think. I'm 29...
    snipes85 snipes85 26-30, M 4 Responses Jul 19

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    Continuing Story

    You wanted to know how HIV has affected my social life. I'll give you more than that. Being HIV+ has affected my social and personal life. You all knew how open I am with my sexuality, I am an openly gay male. I am also open with my HIV status. I tell all my friends and potential...
    rainbowbright123 rainbowbright123 51-55, M 5 Responses Jun 18, 2009

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    Long-term Person

    I can't say long-term SURVIVOR, because I have not survived HIV if I still have it. I've been HIV for over 23 years and still healthy and strong. MY numbers are 874 and I've been undetectable for over 15 years. My doctor doesn't know why I'm as healthy as I am. Me either! I eat...
    rainbowbright123 rainbowbright123 51-55, M 12 Responses Jun 11, 2009

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    Need To Release My Love Without Quilt , Thanks Jeff For Being In The Right Place For Us Oxox I Miss Your Voice But Remember Your Laugh

    I am coming up on my 23rd yr of being told that I was HIV positive My partner at the time also got his results an hour after me , I thought he may have been but was already in love with him so I made the decision to stick it out . I thought I was not because I had tested year...
    aquawave aquawave 46-50, M 2 Responses Sep 25, 2011

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    I had a really good day today.

    I have been on Stribild since January, it's hard to remember to take it daily though. I got my first labs back today and I am undetectable and my T-cells are above 350. It's the best news I've gotten. It helps me progress my life forward and strive to be better and live for a...
    mitchell713 mitchell713 22-25, M 4 Responses Apr 28

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    22 Year Old Guy With The HIV Positive

    Hi, everyone! I found out I am Hiv positive 4 months ago and right now I am in a relationship with someone, we fell for each other. I am so afraid of letting him know that I am hiv positive but we're never had sex! I am so stress right now!
    purenessly purenessly 22-25, M 4 Responses Nov 9, 2013

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    I found I am positive 3 weeks ago.

    My world was turned upside down when I was told I was indeed positive. I fell in love with a man who himself is positive and practiced safe sex, one night though that wasn't the case. We both let things happened that we shouldn't have and we here Iam today. We were together...
    mexlover2169 mexlover2169 31-35, M 3 Responses May 1

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    I Am Human!

    Once upon a time I was Negative but now I find myself as much a human as the rest of humanity. It has a way to reminding us that we are less than God. He designed us to enjoy the full spectrum of our humanity. I am more alive than ever and I thank God for my human experience...
    ajphilli ajphilli 46-50 Feb 24, 2012

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    My world is so twisted.

    I have been in love with a guy all my life. Finally we got together and been in a relationship for 5 years. I've been hunt so bad within that 5 years I was the only person in love. But I loved him so much I could not see that he didn't care much for me at all. Last year...
    Xoee Xoee 26-30, M 2 Responses Dec 20, 2013

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    Today I felt as if things were getting easier,

    for a min I forgot and put my status away in the far away corner of my head!! But it hit me that I was lying to myself when I read an email from my doctor about scheduling my next appointment. My reality is becoming more clear and it makes me feel even worse. Helllppp
    mexlover2169 mexlover2169 31-35, M 1 Response May 5

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    I don't know what to think

    or feel anymore. I'm still scared of all this, I know that I need to relax, and not think so much but how do you not of this? I'm worried about how the meds are going to make me feel and look because of certain stuff that I have read. My world has been flipped upside down. I...
    mexlover2169 mexlover2169 31-35, M 3 Responses May 12

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    How do I tell my family my HIV status?

    I'm scared as hell to say anything. I don't even know if I should say something to them.
    mexlover2169 mexlover2169 31-35, M 4 Responses May 5

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    Related Experiences

    Does anybody here have a HIV negative partner? I met a guy a couple of months ago but we only started dating 2 weeks ago. I want to be open and honest with him because he's a great...
    Twinkles18 Twinkles18 31-35, F Aug 17

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    I went to the clinic couple of weeks ago to have my blood test done. Finally got my numbers. So my VL is down to 67 and my CD4 went up to 408. Almost undetectable. Was hoping that...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 3 Responses Aug 3

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    I am just a mess. I moved across canada for a job, without any idea that I was positive. My ex cheated on me and gave me syphilis a few yrs ago, so when I was consistently feeling...
    justkeepswimming89 justkeepswimming89 22-25, M 7 Responses Aug 19

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    I'll never forget 8/5/2014 the first time I got the bad news an HIV positive test result. It's going to take a long time to feel better and be happy again. Reading stories about...
    francisco75 francisco75 36-40, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I just found out I'm positive last week. I took the test because I was dating this amazing guy for only one month (I was already falling for him), and he asked me to take it, so we...
    d29new d29new 26-30, M 3 Responses Aug 21

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    Can i still work overseas despite of my hiv status?
    mon082912 mon082912 22-25, M 5 Responses Aug 1

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    Yesterday I started my Medication.. cant really yet say if it is effecting me yet ..though I was afraid of maybe some changes in my routine day life... I suppose I started fighting...
    paulcor paulcor 51-55 1 Response Aug 12

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    please check out my friends story she is positive and seeking donations urgently. If you are able to help her or spread the word around. Thank you very much. www.indiegogo.com...
    Tiwollen Tiwollen 18-21, F Aug 21

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    Its been 2 weeks now since I started on medication...today after 2 weeks I feel better..first week was not easy I take 2x a day a lamivudine/zidovudine at 7 am and 12 hours later...
    paulcor paulcor 51-55 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I'm out of the closet and accepted by my mom at last! Oh yeah, and my little brother. LOL. Well a few nights ago, the 30th of July, I got a phone call from the cousin I talked to a...
    DaysEJole DaysEJole 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 2

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    It's been just over a year since my life finally got to the point where if i didn't finally allow myself to be happy nothing but disaster was gonna happen. I spent so long trying...
    dex10 dex10 22-25, M 2 Responses Aug 11

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    hello, i'am 27 years old, living near paris, totally gay but masculine, i'am looking for arabic woman only for mod, who is ok to relocate in france, and who is ok to have a baby in...
    dime313 dime313 26-30, M Aug 1

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    Living in Barrow, Alaska My older bro said how can u b gay there? I can and so.....!!!!!
    alaskandale alaskandale 36-40, M 1 Response Aug 4

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    So I have been really working through being honest with my wife. I have been married 6 years and though I have always been attracted to men, I have never told her. 2 months ago I...
    MrNurseGuy MrNurseGuy 31-35, M 5 Responses Aug 15

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    Any gays in LA? Hmu, I'm versatile.
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    22 lesbian girl from saudi looking for a moc. I live in Riyadh. The guy has to be saudi with a good job. He doesn't have to be gay but there will be no sex at all. Massage me if...
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