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I Am Hiv Positive Gay Man

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    My world is so twisted.

    I have been in love with a guy all my life. Finally we got together and been in a relationship for 5 years. I've been hunt so bad within that 5 years I was the only person in love. But I loved him so much I could not see that he didn't care much for me at all. Last year...
    Xoee Xoee 26-30, M 2 Responses Dec 20, 2013

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    22 Year Old Guy With The HIV Positive

    Hi, everyone! I found out I am Hiv positive 4 months ago and right now I am in a relationship with someone, we fell for each other. I am so afraid of letting him know that I am hiv positive but we're never had sex! I am so stress right now!
    purenessly purenessly 22-25, M 4 Responses Nov 9, 2013

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    My life totally changed in three weeks.

    .. From being perfectly normal, to learn I have HIV with a CD4 of 180... What a twist! But I love my life and everything around me... Everything will get better, I know it will :) I start my medications today at night... I hope I don't get so many side effects!!! :)
    fusionconfusion fusionconfusion 26-30, M 4 Responses Mar 5

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    Continuing Story

    You wanted to know how HIV has affected my social life. I'll give you more than that. Being HIV+ has affected my social and personal life. You all knew how open I am with my sexuality, I am an openly gay male. I am also open with my HIV status. I tell all my friends and potential...
    rainbowbright123 rainbowbright123 51-55, M 5 Responses Jun 18, 2009

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    HIV positive I don't know

    where to begin. I am writing this with so much going on in my head, it is painful. I am a 18 years old from Indonesia. Back in August, I had an unprotected sex with someone. Stupid me, I never paid any attention to what people told me about how dangerous unprotected sex is. I...
    hiv95 hiv95 18-21, M 4 Responses Dec 17, 2013

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    I just found out yesterday,

    7/18/14 that I am HIV positive. I was tested in November of 2013 and it was negative. I was recently and infected and I now know who infected me. Neither one of us knew he was positive at the time we had sex. We always had safe sex until one night we just didn't think. I'm 29...
    snipes85 snipes85 26-30, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Maxxymo Maxxymo 22-25, M Dec 30, 2013

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    I think I'm almost MDD.

    No friends , no family, no one can talk . Live alone , walk alone , eat alone , sleep alone , cry alone .
    BBbrownnn BBbrownnn 22-25, M 3 Responses Mar 21

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    HIV Positive does not mean “Dirty” All

    over hook-up websites, gay men portraying themselves as HIV Negative refer to themselves as “being clean”. This is also true on TV shows and in gay romance novels (one of my guilty pleasures). The fact is that this is true to our gay “culture”. Results coming back as...
    Ralphsnt69 Ralphsnt69 46-50, M 4 days ago

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    It's almost 5 months

    since I was diagnosed positive. It was in August of 2013 that my life really changed. Until now now, my family still dont know my status. Only 2 of my closest friends know about it. I got itchy skin rashes. My CD4 count was 21. I guess I am doomed. I wanna go somewhere far...
    IamAugust IamAugust 26-30, M 9 Responses Jan 3

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    I AM HIV+…AND I HAVE FOUND LOVE…ON EP!

    ! The last story I had shared was one in which I had posed a question…at what point in a relationship does sex become secondary? That was back in October. I had been in a relationship since the previous May with a kind hearted man who was good to me. I had originally been...
    Ralphsnt69 Ralphsnt69 46-50, M 1 Response May 2

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    I Am Human!

    Once upon a time I was Negative but now I find myself as much a human as the rest of humanity. It has a way to reminding us that we are less than God. He designed us to enjoy the full spectrum of our humanity. I am more alive than ever and I thank God for my human experience...
    ajphilli ajphilli 46-50 Feb 24, 2012

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    BBbrownnn BBbrownnn 22-25, M 2 Responses Mar 9

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    How do I tell my family my HIV status?

    I'm scared as hell to say anything. I don't even know if I should say something to them.
    mexlover2169 mexlover2169 31-35, M 4 Responses May 5

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    I had a really good day today.

    I have been on Stribild since January, it's hard to remember to take it daily though. I got my first labs back today and I am undetectable and my T-cells are above 350. It's the best news I've gotten. It helps me progress my life forward and strive to be better and live for a...
    mitchell713 mitchell713 22-25, M 4 Responses Apr 28

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    I Am Hiv Positive Gay Man

    Early January of 1987, just after the holidays, I was 31 years old, completely single and very “active”. I got a letter from the American Red Cross. Although I was perfectly healthy, I knew what it was. I gave blood yearly at my place of employment. Why else would the Red...
    pastol pastol 51-55 4 Responses Jan 16, 2011

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    Someone I Loved And Trusted Infected Me With Hiv When He Knew He Was And Never Told Me

    About 11 years ago I was in a relationship with a person whom I loved and trusted. He was HIV positive and never told me. I became infected by him. I have lived in a state of extreme anger, pain, and lack of trust ever since. It has made my life unbearable at times. Every...
    Sjacobson507 Sjacobson507 36-40 4 Responses Nov 21, 2011

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    Hi all mate , I'm 27 yo ,

    gay male ,from Malaysia ,just knew I m hiv+ two mnt ago .. I'm very emotional ppl , my mood kept up n down everyday , night time when sleep I will awake n feeling how sadness . I'm very scared about it.
    workvyou2 workvyou2 26-30, M 3 Responses Jun 19

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    I am Thai gay. I am bottom 35 175 63.

    I have just told my BF that I have HIV+ And I told him to stop relationship. It is really sad. But I am still think that love is important. The healthy problem lead me to leave from my BF. I hope, this healthy problem will lead me to meet a person who is my real love and for the...
    khungai khungai 31-35, M 2 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    Just Looking To Make Contacts With Other HIV Positive Guys For Friendship And Support

    I'm 24 years old and about 3 months ago I found out that I was HIV positive. I remember the feeling as i sat there with a blank look on my face. I went to the doctor for a a regular checkup but had some blood work done before. As i got there and received the news I was shocked...
    Killerkaze Killerkaze 22-25 9 Responses Jul 1, 2013

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    I found I am positive 3 weeks ago.

    My world was turned upside down when I was told I was indeed positive. I fell in love with a man who himself is positive and practiced safe sex, one night though that wasn't the case. We both let things happened that we shouldn't have and we here Iam today. We were together...
    mexlover2169 mexlover2169 31-35, M 3 Responses May 1

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    Hiv+ And I'm Scared...

    I found out I was HIV+ this morning. When my doctor called me, I figured it was just to let me know my results were in for the std test that I got a week before and also treated for. I could tell immediately that it was not good. Once I found out, my knees grew week and I went...
    Mickies09 Mickies09 22-25, M 3 Responses Sep 28, 2013

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    I don't know what to think

    or feel anymore. I'm still scared of all this, I know that I need to relax, and not think so much but how do you not of this? I'm worried about how the meds are going to make me feel and look because of certain stuff that I have read. My world has been flipped upside down. I...
    mexlover2169 mexlover2169 31-35, M 3 Responses May 12

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    Need To Release My Love Without Quilt , Thanks Jeff For Being In The Right Place For Us Oxox I Miss Your Voice But Remember Your Laugh

    I am coming up on my 23rd yr of being told that I was HIV positive My partner at the time also got his results an hour after me , I thought he may have been but was already in love with him so I made the decision to stick it out . I thought I was not because I had tested year...
    aquawave aquawave 46-50, M 2 Responses Sep 25, 2011

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    Day by bay ...I slowly acceptable hiv living in

    my body And I need dealing with it in my life .. Well , I am learning ... I learning how to relax .. I learning how to enjoy my life ... I learning how to appreciate my parents .. I learning how to quite drugs ... I learning how to less smoke ... I learning how to be...
    workvyou2 workvyou2 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 10

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    Hiv Positive Gay Man Needs Your Help In Reaching Dream Of Becoming A Doctor

    Hello my name is Adam Kessinger and I am a Clinical Psychology PhD candidate focusing on gay men's health. I am currently conducting a research study focusing on relationship satisfaction and positive growth after receiving an HIV/AIDS diagnosis in a population of gay men. I have...
    adamk83 adamk83 26-30, M 3 Responses Jan 8, 2013

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    Today I felt as if things were getting easier,

    for a min I forgot and put my status away in the far away corner of my head!! But it hit me that I was lying to myself when I read an email from my doctor about scheduling my next appointment. My reality is becoming more clear and it makes me feel even worse. Helllppp
    mexlover2169 mexlover2169 31-35, M 1 Response May 5

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    Long-term Person

    I can't say long-term SURVIVOR, because I have not survived HIV if I still have it. I've been HIV for over 23 years and still healthy and strong. MY numbers are 874 and I've been undetectable for over 15 years. My doctor doesn't know why I'm as healthy as I am. Me either! I eat...
    rainbowbright123 rainbowbright123 51-55, M 12 Responses Jun 11, 2009

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    Last night was like a dream.

    I've been taking Xanax since I found out my HIV status. For some reason I totally flipped out over a stupid situation. I don't remember most of what occurred and it scares me. I know I didn't hurt anyone but I know I scared the person that I was with. That is not me and...
    mexlover2169 mexlover2169 31-35, M 3 Responses May 4

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    Wishing To Keep In Touch With Other Gays With HIV

    I have been HIV positive for 2 years now. Its a journey but wish to get some contacts so we can support one another online.
    pacifictrotter pacifictrotter 22-25, M 4 Responses Apr 7, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    HIV Positive does not mean “Dirty” All over hook-up websites, gay men portraying themselves as HIV Negative refer to themselves as “being clean”. This is also true on TV...
    Ralphsnt69 Ralphsnt69 46-50, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    now its a month since I know that im hiv positive..of course im not happy about it ..but then I have to accept my situation and look at the future with positivity.....reading...
    paulcor paulcor 51-55 2 Responses a week ago

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    Hiv and me A bundle of joy, turned dull from pain, She found herself running all over again. And out of the blue it all happened so fast, She tried to forget but the nightmare...
    k4m4r k4m4r 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 28

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    I'm a gay man living in DC. I struggled for years but am finally out to most everyone in my life. Happy to share my experiences.
    shortadonis shortadonis 31-35, M Jul 7

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    I am an attractive closeted gay man, looking for a closeted lesbian for marriage. I would prefer someone who can be my companion, my best friend and soul mate. I am not looking for...
    spartian spartian 26-30, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Today I moved from my Hometown of 21 years! I'm now two hours away and in the city. Also closer to the clinic.. Day 1- moved in, got dinner in the oven and room clean. My roommate...
    acetray acetray 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 5

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    Today is day 15 without smoking . I feel great . HIV is an awful dizzies but we can control it by medication !!! And we are very lucky to have it these days. Actually just would...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 1 Response Jun 29

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    I was diagnosed HIV+ 2 years ago....I'm currently very healthy and on medications and physically feel great. But I hate the stigma of being HIV+....I feel like no woman will...
    SuperblackSER SuperblackSER 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 2

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    Day by day , I slowly acceptable hiv stay in my body and I need deal with it in my whole life .. Well, I am learning... I learning how to be strong .. I learning how to be alone...
    workvyou2 workvyou2 26-30, M 3 Responses Jul 10

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    Siting on the train and thinking ... It's gonna be 5 months since I got the life changing news about my status . So far accepted that life is like this even though it was and still...
    1981angel 1981angel 31-35, M 3 Responses Jul 15

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    Today I have been chatting with the guy who transmitted HIV to me and conversation with his is a bit off. Since I have found out I am positive we have sat down and talked, but all...
    mitchell713 mitchell713 22-25, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have recently been talking to a guy that I met on an app called Scruff. He lives about 45 miles from me and I am ok with that because not many people will know him. I am also...
    mitchell713 mitchell713 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 9

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    Well If you followed my first story, I went to the specialist infection control doctor since my last post. He Started me on Atripla once a day. I will be going for more blood work...
    Mr5cellophane Mr5cellophane 26-30, M 4 Responses Jul 13

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    I'm about to go into the doctors for my HIV test. I feel almost certain that i have it... I exposed myself within the last two months to people that could definitely have it. I...
    Matat12 Matat12 22-25, M 3 Responses Jul 14

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    Well today was the last day I will see the man I fell in love with, seemed as if the world was against us and both thought it was for the best. Now I just feel alone, loving out of...
    acetray acetray 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 26

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    I found out I was hiv poz last November. I was very shocked. My doc started me on atripla I was scared but so far I've hadn't had any complications. My numbers been good and my doc...
    Dmdmz Dmdmz 26-30, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I experience a lot of discrimination since I black as well as because I am not as masculine as the gays of the community want you to be. I get tired of the hyper masculinity and...
    simplycomplex82 simplycomplex82 31-35, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    (Part 4) And so we continued to text each other throughout the night semi joking about hugging together as it was cold. Then what happened next was sad but expected. He was told by...
    zacklengthorn zacklengthorn 18-21, M Jul 16

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    (Part 5) (Part 5) We continued as if nothing happened everyone was asking me if we were together and after the drama of Ben being called a fa**ot everyone had decided we were...
    zacklengthorn zacklengthorn 18-21, M Jul 16

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    Does any one need a sub I am looking for a master I've never done anything gay but my mistress says I need to be trained by a guy
    yourstouseandabuse yourstouseandabuse 18-21, M Jul 3

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