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I Am Hiv Positive Gay Man

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    HIV Positive does not mean “Dirty” All

    over hook-up websites, gay men portraying themselves as HIV Negative refer to themselves as “being clean”. This is also true on TV shows and in gay romance novels (one of my guilty pleasures). The fact is that this is true to our gay “culture”. Results coming back as...
    Ralphsnt69 Ralphsnt69 46-50, M 2 Responses Jul 21, 2014

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    I Am Human!

    Once upon a time I was Negative but now I find myself as much a human as the rest of humanity. It has a way to reminding us that we are less than God. He designed us to enjoy the full spectrum of our humanity. I am more alive than ever and I thank God for my human experience...
    ajphilli ajphilli 46-50 Feb 24, 2012

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    Last night was like a dream.

    I've been taking Xanax since I found out my HIV status. For some reason I totally flipped out over a stupid situation. I don't remember most of what occurred and it scares me. I know I didn't hurt anyone but I know I scared the person that I was with. That is not me and...
    mexlover2169 mexlover2169 31-35, M 3 Responses May 4, 2014

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    Im 20 years old and african American.

    I found out I got hiv when I was 19 and in college. Fresh from home jumping on everything "literally" I was never educated on std's by my family whom I've always had to be in the closet about my sexuality with. All I wanted was to feel loved and love and to just have somebody...
    Tb2015 Tb2015 18-21 1 Response Feb 19

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    Day by bay ...I slowly acceptable hiv living in

    my body And I need dealing with it in my life .. Well , I am learning ... I learning how to relax .. I learning how to enjoy my life ... I learning how to appreciate my parents .. I learning how to quite drugs ... I learning how to less smoke ... I learning how to be...
    workvyou2 workvyou2 26-30, M 3 Responses Jul 10, 2014

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    Wishing To Keep In Touch With Other Gays With HIV

    I have been HIV positive for 2 years now. Its a journey but wish to get some contacts so we can support one another online.
    pacifictrotter pacifictrotter 22-25, M 4 Responses Apr 7, 2013

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    I'm at home and I'm as nervous

    if I were at the doctor's clinic. I going to see if my results are already in my file or not. I don't like this type of things. Oh God, please I need better numbers on my HIV.
    Pather2013 Pather2013 46-50, M 2 Responses May 3

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    Need To Release My Love Without Quilt , Thanks Jeff For Being In The Right Place For Us Oxox I Miss Your Voice But Remember Your Laugh

    I am coming up on my 23rd yr of being told that I was HIV positive My partner at the time also got his results an hour after me , I thought he may have been but was already in love with him so I made the decision to stick it out . I thought I was not because I had tested year...
    aquawave aquawave 46-50, M 2 Responses Sep 25, 2011

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    Just Looking To Make Contacts With Other HIV Positive Guys For Friendship And Support

    I'm 24 years old and about 3 months ago I found out that I was HIV positive. I remember the feeling as i sat there with a blank look on my face. I went to the doctor for a a regular checkup but had some blood work done before. As i got there and received the news I was shocked...
    Killerkaze Killerkaze 26-30 8 Responses Jul 1, 2013

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    I am a latino male, who is HIV positive

    since 2009. I live in Mexico and can say that I am healthy and have been undetectable for about a year and a half. My CD 4 is very good and if I could lend an ear (eyes) or could advise you in any way please let me know.
    vstr8328 vstr8328 31-35, M 3 Responses Dec 8, 2014

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    I Am Hiv Positive Gay Man

    Early January of 1987, just after the holidays, I was 31 years old, completely single and very “active”. I got a letter from the American Red Cross. Although I was perfectly healthy, I knew what it was. I gave blood yearly at my place of employment. Why else would the Red...
    pastol pastol 51-55 4 Responses Jan 16, 2011

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    I am so afraid to date

    because of the fact I think I will be rejected because HIV positive. It depresses me sometime. Wish I could have a chance.
    1morestatus 1morestatus 22-25, M 2 Responses Aug 17, 2014

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    Today I felt as if things were getting easier,

    for a min I forgot and put my status away in the far away corner of my head!! But it hit me that I was lying to myself when I read an email from my doctor about scheduling my next appointment. My reality is becoming more clear and it makes me feel even worse. Helllppp
    mexlover2169 mexlover2169 31-35, M 1 Response May 5, 2014

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    It's almost 5 months

    since I was diagnosed positive. It was in August of 2013 that my life really changed. Until now now, my family still dont know my status. Only 2 of my closest friends know about it. I got itchy skin rashes. My CD4 count was 21. I guess I am doomed. I wanna go somewhere far...
    IamAugust IamAugust 26-30, M 9 Responses Jan 3, 2014

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    wow,,,, I am so happy finally

    after 5 months of medication I get very good news....my cd count which had gone down to 230 last time FINALLY went up to 350 within just a month( to be honest I was taking some supplements also, so maybe they helped too)and my viral load is now down to just 20 wow im so happy...
    paulcor paulcor 51-55 1 Response Jan 15

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    Today mark the one year

    after I am diagnosed with HIV. I was tested in a private anonymous clinic, Dr Tan and Partners at Robertson Walk. After receiving my results, I requested the doctor to did one more test again. I was confused and in disbelieve. He did a swap and it tuns out positive. My...
    raltegravir raltegravir 31-35, M Mar 30

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    HIV positive I don't know

    where to begin. I am writing this with so much going on in my head, it is painful. I am a 18 years old from Indonesia. Back in August, I had an unprotected sex with someone. Stupid me, I never paid any attention to what people told me about how dangerous unprotected sex is. I...
    hiv95 hiv95 18-21, M 4 Responses Dec 17, 2013

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    Seeking poz man who wants to settle down

    for good. Must able to come and see here in the Philippines. Open for a possible marriage. Love not Lust. Serious only please.
    philb0i philb0i 26-30, M Sep 9, 2014

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    Know that I have HIV.

    I would rather date a guy who had it also. Personal opinion
    1morestatus 1morestatus 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 19, 2014

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    BBbrownnn BBbrownnn 22-25, M 2 Responses Mar 9, 2014

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    I find a new dating site

    for poz.It looks pretty good.Pozoq.com
    pozoq pozoq 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 25, 2014

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    Continuing Story

    You wanted to know how HIV has affected my social life. I'll give you more than that. Being HIV+ has affected my social and personal life. You all knew how open I am with my sexuality, I am an openly gay male. I am also open with my HIV status. I tell all my friends and potential...
    rainbowbright123 rainbowbright123 51-55, M 6 Responses Jun 18, 2009

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    I had a really good day today.

    I have been on Stribild since January, it's hard to remember to take it daily though. I got my first labs back today and I am undetectable and my T-cells are above 350. It's the best news I've gotten. It helps me progress my life forward and strive to be better and live for a...
    mitchell713 mitchell713 22-25, M 5 Responses Apr 28, 2014

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    And here I am... Scared.

    .. After 19 months on HAART treatment. Don't know why but I feel like crying. I hate not to have control over this ****, but to take my meds. I don't know what to expect if I should expect anything. Also the day is cloudy. I call them "ugly grey days" I was so sleepy and tired...
    Pather2013 Pather2013 46-50, M 2 Responses Apr 23

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    22 Year Old Guy With The HIV Positive

    Hi, everyone! I found out I am Hiv positive 4 months ago and right now I am in a relationship with someone, we fell for each other. I am so afraid of letting him know that I am hiv positive but we're never had sex! I am so stress right now!
    purenessly purenessly 22-25, M 4 Responses Nov 9, 2013

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    My world is so twisted.

    I have been in love with a guy all my life. Finally we got together and been in a relationship for 5 years. I've been hunt so bad within that 5 years I was the only person in love. But I loved him so much I could not see that he didn't care much for me at all. Last year...
    Xoee Xoee 31-35, M 2 Responses Dec 20, 2013

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    I think I'm almost MDD.

    No friends , no family, no one can talk . Live alone , walk alone , eat alone , sleep alone , cry alone .
    BBbrownnn BBbrownnn 22-25, M 4 Responses Mar 21, 2014

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    Hiv Positive Gay Man Needs Your Help In Reaching Dream Of Becoming A Doctor

    Hello my name is Adam Kessinger and I am a Clinical Psychology PhD candidate focusing on gay men's health. I am currently conducting a research study focusing on relationship satisfaction and positive growth after receiving an HIV/AIDS diagnosis in a population of gay men. I have...
    adamk83 adamk83 26-30, M 4 Responses Jan 8, 2013

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    Hiv+ And I'm Scared...

    I found out I was HIV+ this morning. When my doctor called me, I figured it was just to let me know my results were in for the std test that I got a week before and also treated for. I could tell immediately that it was not good. Once I found out, my knees grew week and I went...
    Mickies09 Mickies09 22-25, M 3 Responses Sep 28, 2013

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    How do I tell my family my HIV status?

    I'm scared as hell to say anything. I don't even know if I should say something to them.
    mexlover2169 mexlover2169 31-35, M 5 Responses May 5, 2014

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    Hi all mate , I'm 27 yo ,

    gay male ,from Malaysia ,just knew I m hiv+ two mnt ago .. I'm very emotional ppl , my mood kept up n down everyday , night time when sleep I will awake n feeling how sadness . I'm very scared about it.
    workvyou2 workvyou2 26-30, M 2 Responses Jun 19, 2014

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    I AM HIV+ AND I HAVE FOUND LOVE ON EP -

    UPDATE Back in May 2014, I shared the story of how I met Eric on EP and how we fell in love with one another. When I wrote that story it had been about a month since he had moved down from New York to be with me in Florida...a month since we had seen each other in person for...
    Ralphsnt69 Ralphsnt69 46-50, M 4 Responses Jan 7

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    I found I am positive 3 weeks ago.

    My world was turned upside down when I was told I was indeed positive. I fell in love with a man who himself is positive and practiced safe sex, one night though that wasn't the case. We both let things happened that we shouldn't have and we here Iam today. We were together...
    mexlover2169 mexlover2169 31-35, M 3 Responses May 1, 2014

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    Long-term Person

    I can't say long-term SURVIVOR, because I have not survived HIV if I still have it. I've been HIV for over 23 years and still healthy and strong. MY numbers are 874 and I've been undetectable for over 15 years. My doctor doesn't know why I'm as healthy as I am. Me either! I eat...
    rainbowbright123 rainbowbright123 51-55, M 12 Responses Jun 11, 2009

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    Maxxymo Maxxymo 22-25, M Dec 30, 2013

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    I don't know what to think

    or feel anymore. I'm still scared of all this, I know that I need to relax, and not think so much but how do you not of this? I'm worried about how the meds are going to make me feel and look because of certain stuff that I have read. My world has been flipped upside down. I...
    mexlover2169 mexlover2169 31-35, M 2 Responses May 12, 2014

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    My life totally changed in three weeks.

    .. From being perfectly normal, to learn I have HIV with a CD4 of 180... What a twist! But I love my life and everything around me... Everything will get better, I know it will :) I start my medications today at night... I hope I don't get so many side effects!!! :)
    fusionconfusion fusionconfusion 26-30, M 3 Responses Mar 5, 2014

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    I just found out yesterday,

    7/18/14 that I am HIV positive. I was tested in November of 2013 and it was negative. I was recently and infected and I now know who infected me. Neither one of us knew he was positive at the time we had sex. We always had safe sex until one night we just didn't think. I'm 29...
    snipes85 snipes85 26-30, M 6 Responses Jul 19, 2014

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    I AM HIV+…AND I HAVE FOUND LOVE…ON EP!

    ! The last story I had shared was one in which I had posed a question…at what point in a relationship does sex become secondary? That was back in October. I had been in a relationship since the previous May with a kind hearted man who was good to me. I had originally been...
    Ralphsnt69 Ralphsnt69 46-50, M 1 Response May 2, 2014

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    I am Thai gay. I am bottom 35 175 63.

    I have just told my BF that I have HIV+ And I told him to stop relationship. It is really sad. But I am still think that love is important. The healthy problem lead me to leave from my BF. I hope, this healthy problem will lead me to meet a person who is my real love and for the...
    khungai khungai 36-40, M 2 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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