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I Am Holding Back The Tears

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    Tears are not reasonable

    Feel so guilty, feel like a monster. Must have made some mistake, must have hurt someone. But there's not a single explanation equivalent to those words said. The look on his face; the aversion of eye sight. I'm sure I did something wrong, but I don't know what it is. Negativity...
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F Dec 7, 2013

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    Raindrops

    Raindrops are falling on my head. My dad used to sing that song and love it. I love my dad and want him to be proud of me. He might be diagnosed with pulmonary fibrosis. That brought tears back into my life. Tears fall and I have no pill to pop. That's how my heart beats with...
    glasslipstick1 glasslipstick1 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 1, 2013

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    Not Anymore

    Because I can't hold it anymore... and now the tears won't stop coming. words cannot express how badly hurt i am now.
    kmisfit123 kmisfit123 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 29, 2013

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    Simply Red

    holding back the tears.....
    sharpTresHombre sharpTresHombre 41-45, M Jun 10, 2010

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    Inner Strength...or Maybe Weakness..

    The most I've cried in many years is four tears. Four tears for fear, loss and self anger. A long time ago my father told me that real men don't cry. I took him on that because I wanted to make him happy. So I taught myself not to cry. I learned how to suck back the sobs and...
    BillyCistra BillyCistra 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 17, 2011

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    I can't do it anymore!

    My tears can no longer be held in. I've held in my pain long enough, today I even woke up crying..
    Bryonna123 Bryonna123 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 8, 2013

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    A doctor entered the hospital in hurry

    after being called in for an urgent surgery. He answered the call asap, changed his clothes and went directly to the surgery block. He found the boy’s father pacing in the hall waiting for the doctor. On seeing him, the father yelled, “Why did you take all this time to come...
    AJAY2404 AJAY2404 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 12

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    Dancing Through Glass Tears Of "pane"

    While chatting with a dear woman and friend of mine here, AlyceNWonderland, I noticed her status talked about swimming through glass tears.  Her status made me think and below is the thought that followed. Rain drops pounding on the window like glass prisms falling from the sky...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F May 12, 2011

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