I Am Hopeless

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 301 People

    About 2 weeks ago I found I had cancer

    and my life has not been great these past years it feels like life is doing everything it can so it could just **** me. I lost my faith in God and also in humanity. So I was wondering how can things get better?
    ivancruz98 ivancruz98
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jun 7, 2014

    I am so full of contradictions

    and I don't know which one is real, which one's the truth, which one's a lie and a fake. I don't understand how I can be both so hopeless and hopeful; how I can believe and cannot believe. I love myself. I am content. I am happy that I am the way I am and I'm glad that I turned...
    Celal Celal
    18-21, F
    Jul 17, 2014

    No Progress At All

    every day in the morning, i am struggling to get up, but still feel desperate. I am always lying on the bed for hours without really sleeping, i hate such a lazy me!!
    cfroi cfroi
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Dec 16, 2007

    I Feel So Hopeless...

    This started a little over 2 years ago..I was working in a call center as a supervisor and it was the last day of the week and of the month for October. I had a small arguement with my girlfriend and I stayed for over 7 hours after my shift to finish any pending stuff that I had...
    denon31 denon31
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Jan 18, 2011

    I really am. My life is over.

    I don't know what to do with my life from hear on out.. I lost way to many people in my life. I don't see my parents, I don't have anyone anymore. Losing someone you love is literally the worst thing that can happen to a human being, the feeling of hopelessness and loneliness...
    Ebolaa Ebolaa
    16-17, M
    1 Response Dec 19, 2014

    Pack me up, and throw me in a pit.

    I'm so ******* tired of dealing with this sh*t.
    WinterIncandescence WinterIncandescence
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Sep 7, 2014

    I suck at all types of relationships I want

    someone who will take control
    00Broken00 00Broken00
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 22, 2015

    I don't remember what long term happiness feels

    like anymore. I've been profoundly unhappy for so long, it seems like there is no other state of being. And it just continues to get worse. On paper, it probably looks like I have no right to feel like this. I have family who loves me, friends who like me, a roof over my head...
    Nolust4life Nolust4life
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 20, 2014

    Point of No Return

    I often wonder if I have passed the point of no return. Perhaps I've let too much hate spill out of me. My infectious psycho-babble leaking out through my fingers, carelessly typing away. I just double-checked to see how many distasteful, rude, and vile stories I have written. I...
    FonderAbsence FonderAbsence
    31-35, M
    1 Response Dec 8, 2013

    I Have Lost So Much Confidence

    self respect and self esteem ... I just feel like I am doomed and all the dreams I had of a life with a husband and children and a career and education were just never meant to be... was I expecting too much????
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Jun 12, 2011

    Socially Damaged! Need The Community's Attention!

    Dear Community I just recently rejoined this site after leaving it for about 9 months. If you guys had read my previous story, i thought that i had resolved all my problems and that i didn't need to seek help anymore. However, to update from my previous story, things were...
    BrokenAndLost94 BrokenAndLost94
    18-21, M
    Dec 31, 2012

    I am the worst enemy of myself.

    I don't know thou whether I am winning or losing the battle. All I know is everything is worthless in the end.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 23, 2014

    21 Guns

    I'm at the end of the road, as it were, and I'm only 19. I'm already thousands of dollars in debt and drink around 7 fifths of liquor weekly. All of my friends depend on me for their support, and more often than not I find myself playing Dr. Phil for them, helping them with...
    financialdisaster financialdisaster
    18-21
    1 Response Aug 7, 2009
    zclark2 zclark2
    22-25, M
    Oct 20, 2014

    I've gottent to the point

    where i really hope the school magicaly burns down overnight
    ablonddude ablonddude
    16-17, M
    1 Response Oct 12, 2014

    It's been years since I last posted here.

    After getting out of high school and went to the city for college, things got better. Not perfect but better. Way better. I knew I wasn't hopeless. I watched myself grow and I finally told myself there was hope for me. Sadly, I had to migrate to Canada so I could live with...
    truebluelf truebluelf
    13-15, F
    Jul 3, 2014

    I Am Completely Hopeless

    I try and try but nothing ever succeeds. I like to psych myself up when I think something is going to happen or when I think I did really well on a test. Then something goes wrong or I get the test with a giant "D" marked on it and al faith is lost. I second guess myself all time...
    destiales destiales
    13-15
    2 Responses Nov 1, 2010

    Just wanted to talk to anyone.

    I was born and raised in south korea, and i hate this country so much that my life's last goal is to immigrate to another country. I am sick of living here, and i am hopeless i have no way to escape this land. The very worst problem here is we got no freedom and conflicts of...
    zoellayoung zoellayoung
    22-25, F
    Mar 12, 2014
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Jul 3, 2014

    Hopeless Waste Of Flesh

    Last month i tried to kill myself. i have done this before, & i have thus been in mental hospitals several times. When i was released i actually felt happy for once. I was worried it was temporary,  i just found an entry i had written after i got out & started crying. it made me...
    sewXmyselfXshut sewXmyselfXshut
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 19, 2012

    I just feel so hopeless sometimes,

    like nothing will ever get better. Because when I have a happy moment, the other people there take it away and laugh about the good times, leaving me lonely in a corner. I just constantly feel pushed aside, and yeah I guess there are a few feelings of jealousy, but mainly I just...
    loveyourselfalwaysxx loveyourselfalwaysxx
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Mar 22, 2014

    Hey

    hey guys, sorry for my english. so now you say you are hopeless, you don't want to live or you can't find happiness. ok i'm 16-year-old girl. at age 13 i started smoking cigarettes and drinking alcohol, at age 14 i started smoking marijuana. age 15-tried amphetamine, age 16 i...
    ravy ravy
    16-17
    Apr 19, 2012

    well, my guy friend i like met this girl on

    tinder a couple weeks ago. last night i was up till 2 consoling him because he claims he told her shes moving too fast and she felt bad and guilted him into sleeping with her. today i asked him if he wanted to grab pizza and chat to see how he was doing or if he needed to talk...
    cocotoned cocotoned
    18-21, F
    Feb 15, 2015

    All my hopes my visions my goals my aspirations

    my inspirations have died , I dono what to do my daughter is acting out again and there is nothing i can do , i failed absolutely , I failed everyone and everything .......
    anasteel2 anasteel2
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jan 30, 2015

    I Found Hope

    When I was about 6 my dad went insane. For the next 5 years we were tormented by his illness. He often didn't work and many times was in the mental hospital for 6 months at a time. There for we most of the time had no money. Power and phone were cut off, food ran out, and we had...
    unnoticed unnoticed
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 28, 2008

    I feel hopeless. At everything.

    I am majoring in biochemistry but I just can't see any future for me... I feel hopeless when I gaze at the man I'm falling for, when he's too busy chatting up his female friends. I feel hopeless when I remember my mum and dad have disowned me. I am just.. hopeless.
    LilithAbney LilithAbney
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 18, 2014

    I Am :(

    I wish I could stay afloat I don’t want to sink and be gone forever Desperately I abandoned things I owned So that I weigh less For all I wish is to stay All that is left is my hope Should I abandon it too?
    anathema09 anathema09
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Oct 16, 2012

    I Am Even Weaker Than the One Committe Suicide

    God! i felt guilty and extremely hopeless now! Every day when i get up, i am just lack of energy and hope. When people concerned me ask: are you feeling painful of your heart or is there any uncomfort? I dont see any, except my mind is blank and stucked... I felt guilty of my...
    cfroi cfroi
    26-30, M
    6 Responses Nov 24, 2007

    I Am Hopeless The initial reason I joined ep is

    to get rid of the things that have been bottled up inside of me for a long time reach out and hopefully feel better. But I've found even though everyone has been helpful, I still feel this emptiness inside and it grows everyday, I am very tired of everyday. I just feel like...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 11, 2014

    We used to be so close

    but you've changed so much. Is it really possible for me to accept the way you have become? Or is it just hopeless to think that we could ever be close like we used to be. I don't really understand you anymore. I can't help but feel like I've lost someone very close to my heart...
    Aquatica Aquatica
    22-25, F
    Sep 1, 2014

    It Backfired.

    Over the past few days, I've noticed a significant difference in my mood. I have been feeling happier and more upbeat. I want this to be a good thing, but it's actually worse because I've cut a lot of people out of my life because of my depression, and now I'm all alone and...
    flyawayhome flyawayhome
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Apr 12, 2010

    Life Changing

    I'm hopeless,When it comes to things,Life changing,I don't like those interruptions,They worry me,I'm not daring,Not that sort,I feel hopeless,When it comes to change.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket
    46-50, M
    Nov 4, 2011

    You are part of a machine.

    You are not a human being.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 6

    The last post i had on here was about me

    letting her go...but i found that was a lot harder than i originally planned.... I know for sure now that whatever unknown hold that ties me to this woman is deeper than what i believed. So here I am again back at stage one...but this time I'm just going to let destiny play it's...
    shy0funny0lesbian shy0funny0lesbian
    22-25, F
    Mar 11, 2014

    I feel like it is too late

    for everything. It's too late to fix all the damage, it's too late to get out of this depression. I just feel like the only hope left is to die, I guarantee, I would be doing everyone a favor if I was not here anymore.
    Jabx82 Jabx82
    31-35, M
    5 Responses Dec 31, 2014

    I am a 41 year old woman

    who is divorced from a man who loved me. I have gradually realized the main reason I have no close friends and can't maintain a relationship and it makes me feel hopeless because it's things that I cannot change about myself, but it's the very things that people call deal...
    BetsyLi BetsyLi
    46-50, F
    1 Response Apr 16, 2014

    I'm 20 & I haven't done much with my life,

    this is my first time reaching out to people on the internet. Basically I have nothing. No job, no car , no education. I've never been to high school. I left school when I was in 7th grade. After that point no one wanted anything to do with me. I was a loser to everyone. All my...
    Chrisnowhereman Chrisnowhereman
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Dec 21, 2015

    I have lost all control Of my emotions My

    tears fall around me Filling my own ocean Of sadness I am drowning As my lungs fill with water Killing me slowly I am dying In my sea of hopelessness And the glow has since faded From my deep blue eyes Make it stop Please make me Cease to exist Anymore
    KristinaBeena KristinaBeena
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 20, 2014
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 1, 2015

    As far as I can remember,

    the question, "How do you see yourself 5/10/whatever years from now?" has always been hard for me to answer. I mean, if I imagine my future, I would be married to a man I love and has a happy family, with two kids, and with a stable life. Happily ever after, sort of. But no...
    Celal Celal
    18-21, F
    Aug 15, 2014
    Purplelamb Purplelamb
    13-15, F
    Apr 17

    Finding Soulmate Is Difficult...

    hi myself is aman from india. now dis world is total hopeless for me coz i havnt got girl of my type for me in this world.  me having lots of frnds but no gf. girl says m handsome n they like me bu tm nt gtting girl of my type. m total hopeless....m a model by profession...
    amanwadhawan amanwadhawan
    26-30, M
    Dec 20, 2009

    Hopeless

    Living a lie with no one on my side & the one who is suppose too be on my side isthe one hurting mhe physically & emotionally 
    selfishlove selfishlove
    18-21
    Oct 30, 2011

    Hope Is An Illusion

    Hope is some cruel thing we are taught to believe in so the real world can slap us in the face anytime it wants to Hope will put you on life's hamster wheel with the promise that you can at least have a good one and if you work hard it might even be great- oh and there's always...
    tulick tulick
    31-35, F
    16 Responses Sep 2, 2008

    I'm tired, and I want to sleep,

    but it seems like my mind wants me stay up as late as possible, so I get like 3-7 hours a night, or sometimes none at all. I get angry and can't control it, even at the stupidest of things. I sometimes just argue, sometimes shout, and sometimes even hit. I just want to be in...
    loveyourselfalwaysxx loveyourselfalwaysxx
    16-17, F
    May 6, 2014

    Is there hope for me?

    ? Don't have any friends. Never been in love. Don't know if anyone love me. I been through so much crap. Life has just got too much for me. If I would just disappear maybe no one would care. Ugh........ :( :( :( ......
    Jovan1480 Jovan1480
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Jul 14, 2014

    I feel so small. I lack of confidence,

    it ruins my dreams and hopes. I don't even know anymore how to deal with this. But I have to be strong. I got a lesson to learn even though how many lessons that I have to learn later on.
    imanne93 imanne93
    22-25, F
    Apr 24, 2015

    I just don't care much of the time.

    I used to be energetic and passionate. After years of failing at almost everything, I just don't even try most of the time. I have no one to talk to. My wife is one of the least supportive people I know. I've contemplated death, but my kids are the only thing that keep me in...
    ProcrastiNATE1492 ProcrastiNATE1492
    36-40, M
    Jan 20

    Still Hopeless...

    I have been in love with someone for 8 years now and it isn't returned. Met her when I was getting divorced from my second wife who I loved very much but no longer loved me. We have never been more than friends but the attraction for her just goes way overboard. Found that I...
    Husky575 Husky575
    46-50, M
    1 Response Dec 6, 2007
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