I Am Hoping For the Best

Hoping for the best,That's what I'm doing,Uncertain times,What will become of Me?I wonder,Will I get through?Or will I not?Only time will tell.

So I am going to stop.  I am not the forgive and forget kinda girl so i doing buy in hand in hand with the you need to forgive to get better theories..
But I can stop punishing myself for things that aren't my fault.  ...

So about a year ago Anthony and I started dating and I knew right from the start he wanted to join the army. I got pregnant very early in our relationship and even though we both wanted to have children one day...

People always tell me how pessimistic I am and how I never see the good.Whenever I have hope my hope always gets let down. Whenever I start to trust someone again they always go and fuck up.Whenever I go to give up on someone I just...

Depression Sucks-It sucks the life out of you.

Today, I am tired of being depressed -Today, I am hoping for the best.

I can live in the day-It is when I try to live in the past that I get sucked back in.

And when I think of the past...

I want to go feral one day-gather enough money and go travel overseas incognito-maybe carry a pocket knife for protection and meet up with distant freinds. I am yet to travel. I was talking to this older lady today who is going to India...

until everything got thrown over board again. Everything went so well for one week and then it all came crashing down in one day. Tis is why i dont trust people and this is why I think so negatively because i know in the end im always...

One day I hope for true happiness and contentment.
At the moment I think i'm happy sometimes but never contented. i'm better than I used to be thoughn but I want to be happier and I seem to be hitting my head agains't a bit of a brick...