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I Am Hurting, Every Second Is Painful

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 125 People

    I'm being eaten alive by the thoughts inside my

    body which equal self harm I don't want to suffer anymore it hurts mentally and physically but I am here I need to know why
    tgrayson27 tgrayson27 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 3, 2014

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    This Entry Is to Invite You to Know Me

    In a fit of rage I broke up with the woman I loved( J). My heart can only take so much abuse, and it feels like torture. The way I listen, to hear a cue about how to act, or what say. It's absolute pain. She wants me to stay for my daughter sake and J has a...
    Glennsbeach Glennsbeach 26-30 1 Response Jul 20, 2009

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    The Other Me!

    Just growing up and being different was very hard. It wasn't no little scratch u get when you fall, it was even deeper. If you know me or even took the time to read my stories you would know the pain I go through every second I am breathing. It's just getting worse and worse and...
    Silence01 Silence01 18-21, F May 9, 2012

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    Life Is Complicated

    Feeling down this early morning life is so complicated i think my sister hate me forever hurmm... i guess i will dwell with this problem until~~~hurmmm..i dont really know plus with my break up and also her breakup~~~she said after i meet his bf, his bf rarely sms or call her...
    lawra123 lawra123 22-25, F May 19, 2013

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    Today I Woke to Find Him Looking Down At Me; I Felt Love In His Eyes Again...

    The last words i heard before i went to sleep were, "I don't love you". Just a few hours later i woke  to find Him looking at me; it felt as though His eyes were full of love. His gaze felt just like the one He had on O/our wedding night. There was no mistake! He...
    sobroken sobroken 36-40, F Apr 13, 2009

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    When Will the Hurt Ever Get Better?

    My husband left me the week before Christmas this past year. I can't begin to count how many times he has left in the past, but this time he had me at a lawyer's office the day after Christmas. My ex and I have had a rocky relationship for the 15 years we were together, but we...
    betrayer betrayer 36-40, F Mar 8, 2009

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    Please Pray For Jesse, My Son

    Please PRAY for Jesse. He is my son. He is 20 years old. He posted a note on facebook at approximately 5:30 p.m. Then he left his apartment. Intentionally his keys and his roomates empty pill bottles were left on the keyboard of his laptop. The room mate had just seen him a block...
    sobroken sobroken 36-40, F 4 Responses May 3, 2009

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    Thank God He Was Found!

      For those of you believing i should have done SOMETHING, i did! Lost my mind needing to do anything but wait. To explain what looked to be my inactivity when my son was missing, and if some day it is useful to anyone else, suicidal people who are very seriously...
    sobroken sobroken 36-40, F 3 Responses May 4, 2009

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    I have one friend whom I know

    for the past 6 months. We clicked and get close pretty fast, hanging out and talking like a close friend. She personally had one bestfriend whom she knew for more than 4 years, which I respect their bestfriend relationship on the first place and I know no one can replace her...
    anonymousme517 anonymousme517 22-25, F Jan 26, 2014

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    My Life Sukz

    When I thought my life ended it was just getting started. When I was 10 1/2 yrs old our house burned up in flames and my adopted parents and birth parents died. i had no family to go to after i got out of the house. i was scared and made my home in the woods and learned to take...
    ninjagurl73sex ninjagurl73sex 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 10, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    Wow this brings me way back...I was young, 14 or so. I had this beautiful blonde hair, blue eyed boyfriend, who was completely head over heals for me. Being the Bratty teen i was...
    SecretAngel6 SecretAngel6 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    1. Can't even describe the years of pain I went through during school. High school until I left at age 16 was one of the most painful times of my life. The depth of bullying and...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 1 Response Jan 29

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    When's it going to be my turn? I'm just wondering, you know? Because I thought I was doing everything right. What do you do, when you give all of yourself to someone, you try your...
    ifitellyouigottakillyou ifitellyouigottakillyou 26-30, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm not sure I can take much more of him ignoring me....well...ignoring isn't really the word for it...either way I can't message him...I'd hate to be attention seeking...so now I...
    Inara24 Inara24 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 15

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    one of the most painful part in life is when you love and trust someone only to find out they're just telling a lie...
    KarenIsMyName KarenIsMyName 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 19

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    It's terrifying that no matter how many promises you've made, no matter how much long you've been together, someone can get up and walk out of your life without a second thought...
    Rourou19 Rourou19 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    people always say its going to get better you guys are basically prefect and don't get anything we are going through most of the time you never new about this crap its annoying...
    wintter54 wintter54 16-17, F 7 Responses Feb 6

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    Hello everyone, new here. Well, I am 26 years old, single mother of twins... Since I was 12 I still remember some episodes on which I was experiencing severe anxiety just a couple...
    phailey phailey 26-30, F Feb 8

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    One year ago today, this world lost yet another beautiful soul. One of my best friends, Sarah, was killed when she and her husband slid into an icy intersection and were hit by a...
    AntiveninKiss AntiveninKiss 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 9

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    I've officially begun lying to everyone again... I'm pretending to be just fine, but I'm not... Ive started cutting again (I made it a whole year, cut free, but now I'm back to it...
    iamFrightened iamFrightened 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 3

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    i know this sounds kinda stupid for those older than me maybe even those younger than me but i really feel like a failure. got wait listed to my dream college and i feel like...
    youngandinexperienced youngandinexperienced 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 6

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    Today has just been one of this days where everything reminds you of something terrible.. I just keep flashing back to the "It's okay" "It won't hurt" "you'll like it" "it's normal...
    Sarabell00 Sarabell00 13-15, F Feb 6

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    How screwed up is it that I don't know how to cry? I haven't dealt with emotions normally since I started cutting years ago, and even further before that. Now I'm trying to stop...
    SunnysBlueForever SunnysBlueForever 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    I want to say to everyone- I am exhausted and want to be alone six foot deep. I miss you cousin. I don't know who to turn to. I am nice and polite but yet I feel sorrow.,.
    111gadafy 111gadafy 31-35, M 1 Response Feb 1

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    I'm like a broken vase. When he left me, it was as if he took a hammer and smashed me into a million pieces. Even though I managed to put myself back together, you can still...
    paradisiacal paradisiacal 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 1

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    I wish that you could see me past my mistakes, but we know you don't. I wish that you could see me past my premature age, but we know you don't. I wish I could turn back time and...
    somethin2say somethin2say 22-25, F Feb 3

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    I can't tell anybody about it, I have avoidant personality disorder and one of the symptoms are difficulties telling people about it in fear of rejection. I think my parents will...
    xForgottenOne xForgottenOne 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 11

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    You know I'm just fed up with everything like I'm just going to start being heartless like idc. I've had it and I'm tired of it. Starting to build that wall back up again.
    nadiarenee nadiarenee 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 16

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    Why does everybody leave me? I ask them why n they all basically say they don't like me anymore.... What's so bad about me?... I wish somebody would tell me so I could fix it if...
    bigca1697 bigca1697 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 16

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    I don't cry everyday anymore but I still have days where I can't get myself to inhale the fresh air or smile at my parents and my world feels like it might implode
    societykillss societykillss 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    I miss him so much. I went into the pet store today to get a new brush for Duke (the only dog we have still alive) and petsmart had the animals from the shelter out. There was this...
    AngelWithASecret2 AngelWithASecret2 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    I think the further away people are from me the better, not because I set out to hurt others. No, this is due to me being an absolute pain in arse for everyone else. I think it's...
    HelterSkelter1 HelterSkelter1 22-25, M 3 days ago

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    When you do everything for your boyfriend and his kids and his home then he says "I don't ask you for rent and money for food because I earn so much money". How hurt full!
    sarah696969 sarah696969 31-35, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    I joined EP after I had some major personal issues in my life, looking for a place just to vent to get things off my chest. This was back in June 2014 when I found EP. What a...
    hunterw0lf hunterw0lf 41-45, M Feb 14

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    What I'm about to tell you is the experience of love I felt for the first time, the story is very long but I'am very thankful to those who reads this to the very end...Introduction...
    ThatOneGuyInCSK ThatOneGuyInCSK 16-17, M 5 Responses Feb 4

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    I am having difficulties putting my husbands different personas into one. See, he can be quite normal, or even great; mostly around other people and at work. He is funny, charming...
    Dini00 Dini00 31-35, F a week ago

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    Emotionally Hurting SO. Everything is usually fine until I've had a few drinks too many. Which has always caused us problems. I don't want to nor would I seek to hurt him in a...
    LunaFox LunaFox 22-25, F 8 Responses Feb 4

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    Here I am 1000s of miles away at school. here I am getting a phone call telling me that he was gone. here I am with not enough money to my name to fly home and be there for my...
    thebigtimedreamer thebigtimedreamer 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I guess you could argue that I brought it on myself, that it's a choice. Then again, I still don't think there's anything wrong with being an idealist. Back in the day when I was...
    SpaceTurtle SpaceTurtle 31-35, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    This argument tonight is worst then when she found out I cheated. I cheated yeah and she found out I didn't tell her yeah. She took me back. I lost all of her trust and I deserve...
    OaklandCA OaklandCA 18-21, M 1 hr ago

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    I think I'm going crazy and really depressed after 3 years of emotional abuse from my ex that continued for a year after i left him and got with someone else that I completly fell...
    lrrrx lrrrx 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 6

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    There I said it, I'm addicted to food and I can't stop. When I try to kick the addiction sometimes it works for a few days, even maybe a week but then when I feel an overwhelming...
    TheHogwartzJanitor TheHogwartzJanitor 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    Ok, time for my illness story. It's made this school year so much fun (not). The end of Dec I came down with a flu-like virus. Fever, sore throat, etc. I rested a few days and it...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 29

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    I never expected to join this experience or anything like it. I have a story to tell. I've mentioned this before in a lot of my posts, but it's important here. I started cutting...
    SunnysBlueForever SunnysBlueForever 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 31

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    I've been trying to tell people something is wrong.. but I don't know how... I have clinical depression.. I've actually been to a doctor to know that... But somethings wrong... for...
    bambamchickenandham bambamchickenandham 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 1

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    I don't remember the first time. At first I didn't have a clue of what was happening. I was just starting to grow up. I remember one night my brother tried going inside of me and I...
    gxjean gxjean 16-17, M 3 Responses Feb 3

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