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I Am Hurting, Every Second Is Painful

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    Please Pray For Jesse, My Son

    Please PRAY for Jesse. He is my son. He is 20 years old. He posted a note on facebook at approximately 5:30 p.m. Then he left his apartment. Intentionally his keys and his roomates empty pill bottles were left on the keyboard of his laptop. The room mate had just seen him a block...
    sobroken sobroken 36-40, F 4 Responses May 3, 2009

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    I have one friend whom I know

    for the past 6 months. We clicked and get close pretty fast, hanging out and talking like a close friend. She personally had one bestfriend whom she knew for more than 4 years, which I respect their bestfriend relationship on the first place and I know no one can replace her...
    anonymousme517 anonymousme517 22-25, F Jan 26, 2014

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    Thank God He Was Found!

      For those of you believing i should have done SOMETHING, i did! Lost my mind needing to do anything but wait. To explain what looked to be my inactivity when my son was missing, and if some day it is useful to anyone else, suicidal people who are very seriously...
    sobroken sobroken 36-40, F 3 Responses May 4, 2009

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    When Will the Hurt Ever Get Better?

    My husband left me the week before Christmas this past year. I can't begin to count how many times he has left in the past, but this time he had me at a lawyer's office the day after Christmas. My ex and I have had a rocky relationship for the 15 years we were together, but we...
    betrayer betrayer 36-40, F Mar 8, 2009

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    Life Is Complicated

    Feeling down this early morning life is so complicated i think my sister hate me forever hurmm... i guess i will dwell with this problem until~~~hurmmm..i dont really know plus with my break up and also her breakup~~~she said after i meet his bf, his bf rarely sms or call her...
    lawra123 lawra123 22-25, F May 19, 2013

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    Today I Woke to Find Him Looking Down At Me; I Felt Love In His Eyes Again...

    The last words i heard before i went to sleep were, "I don't love you". Just a few hours later i woke  to find Him looking at me; it felt as though His eyes were full of love. His gaze felt just like the one He had on O/our wedding night. There was no mistake! He...
    sobroken sobroken 36-40, F Apr 13, 2009

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    The Other Me!

    Just growing up and being different was very hard. It wasn't no little scratch u get when you fall, it was even deeper. If you know me or even took the time to read my stories you would know the pain I go through every second I am breathing. It's just getting worse and worse and...
    Silence01 Silence01 18-21, F May 9, 2012

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    It's so painful when I have done

    so much for someone because he is special, but for just a simple mistake, I feel like he is no longer the person I once knew. :(
    SweetEclair SweetEclair 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 25

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    This Entry Is to Invite You to Know Me

    In a fit of rage I broke up with the woman I loved( J). My heart can only take so much abuse, and it feels like torture. The way I listen, to hear a cue about how to act, or what say. It's absolute pain. She wants me to stay for my daughter sake and J has a...
    Glennsbeach Glennsbeach 26-30 1 Response Jul 20, 2009

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    My Life Sukz

    When I thought my life ended it was just getting started. When I was 10 1/2 yrs old our house burned up in flames and my adopted parents and birth parents died. i had no family to go to after i got out of the house. i was scared and made my home in the woods and learned to take...
    ninjagurl73sex ninjagurl73sex 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 10, 2011

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    I'm being eaten alive by the thoughts inside my

    body which equal self harm I don't want to suffer anymore it hurts mentally and physically but I am here I need to know why
    tgrayson27 tgrayson27 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 3, 2014

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    I finally lost it last night. I had been strong for too long. Holding in my pain, keeping it all pushed down. Keeping bad parts of me at bay. Then it happened, he said one thing...
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    You like someone. But it's very obvious that there will never be any chance of you two being together. So you drop the idea by telling yourself that you don't like him. But...
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    ‘"Maybe we will meet again when we are better for each other" No, that line is such ******* bullshit I loved you with every inch of my ****** up heart and you couldn’t love...
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    20Yrs, that's how long I've been married. 17Yrs ago things changed. Of course I blamed myself. He pulled away. It must have been me, right? As a good Christian wife, I worked...
    mefe1 mefe1 46-50, F 21 hrs ago

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    I don't know if part of it was the episode of Criminal Minds I watch last night but oh my god, I had a dream where everyone was coughing up blood and I swear to god I saw someone...
    odessa94 odessa94 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I thought he was the man I was going to spend my life with at 21 and 5 years into our relationship I knew that was no longer a possibility. Me and T. Had an amazing relationship...
    2015dao 2015dao 22-25, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I feel complicit in making myself lonely and miserable, because I am surrounded by people who would be willing to listen but I just cannot talk to them. I was tortured at the age...
    aersibeth aersibeth 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    He say he love me he say he care but I am a birch when I tell him about how I feel he say Ian all he need but ever so ofthen he's in an online relasonship so I tell him to end it...
    spice3xl spice3xl 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    As I was erasing my sent messages and old emails, I stumbled upon our old email exchanges. Constantly... I'd say I love you... Constantly you'd reply w/ I love you. Now... Now that...
    ComplicatedWounded ComplicatedWounded 26-30, F 4 days ago

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    My heart drops every time I receive a text and it's not from him. The funny thing is I know he's not thinking about me. God I really need to move on with my life.
    Diamondlove5 Diamondlove5 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I'm sorry I used you. I'm sorry I ripped you apart. I'm sorry I didn't care. I'm sorry for it all darling. I wish I could take it all back. I wish I could take it all away. I felt...
    saraandherfoxes saraandherfoxes 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    So here i am, on the internet... trying to let it out, trying to tell my story.. It took me so long to realize and admit that its not me who's bad and emotionless in my family. My...
    Sadlostlittlegirl Sadlostlittlegirl 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    I really want to kill myself. My life is going on horribly. My mother has psychotic depression, she has been on an affair for 9 years & has just recently stopped after being...
    mangoseed mangoseed 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 22

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    I really have no idea what to do:/ A couple weeks ago I went on holiday with my dad and while I was away my mum went onto my laptop and she read through my conversation to my best...
    skyealexandra skyealexandra 13-15, F 5 Responses Aug 22

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    It's like you get a mix of anxious, worried, upset and sometimes angry all at once to the point where you feel physically sick and sometimes everything blurs and you have like a...
    Voldermin Voldermin 18-21, F Aug 21

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    I swear its times like this when I wish I had that one person in my life who can make me forget about everything bad that's going on....I'm fuc**** done believe all the lies and...
    xBlueMoonx xBlueMoonx 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 20

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    I wrote few days earlier a farewell post about my dearest friend but today I want to announce I was mistaken. I never lost my dearest friend, I thought he was, I wanted him to be...
    StrongWoman9 StrongWoman9 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 20

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    Hi, I'm Mark and I'm an alcoholic, at the very beggining on my road to sobriety, those were the words that were the hardest to say, it was hard for me to admit I had a drinking...
    aerosnz aerosnz 56-60, M 2 Responses Aug 19

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    Note - Have made on of these before but it started late on and i didnt put in my opinion enough detail about my experience so far in my life of being a transgenderIntroduction per...
    louisenufc louisenufc 13-15, T 1 Response Aug 19

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    This is gonna be long but this is my experience - my story. I come from a complicated family background. You can say I don't know much about my parent's stories since they never...
    Abcak937 Abcak937 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 18

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    Who is to blame really? Five months ago I met a great guy by chance. When I first saw him, when I first shook his hand, there were sparks. After the second time we met at a semi...
    Junemenon Junemenon 31-35 1 Response Aug 18

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    1. What is your middle name? - I have two Chinese middle names, Mei-Ling 2. How old are you? - 38 3. When is your birthday? - August 7 4. What is your zodiac sign? - Leo 5...
    loveismyfriend loveismyfriend 36-40, F Aug 17

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    On the one hand, I want people in my life. On the other hand, I'm afraid of people hurting me so I rather don't let anyone get close. My options: I can either stay alone (what I'm...
    crackedwriter crackedwriter 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 17

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    I'm not the OW anymore. Read this if you've ever thought about walking away... Ladies (and gentlemen if you're in here), don't settle for second place. I was the OW for close to...
    ashadams244 ashadams244 26-30, F 16 Responses Aug 17

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    Well I can't run from my problems anymore thought that if I distracted myself everything would be ok in time but I was wrong whenever I get asked if I'm ok I always just say yeah...
    cgr1994 cgr1994 18-21, M Aug 17

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    one day..everything will be right. one day..my tears will be gone on day..i will have my dream I guess not now...one day
    Masterskitten15 Masterskitten15 46-50, F 3 Responses Aug 17

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    I always say that I am fine even if I am in a bad mood. Why do I have to tell everyone how I am actually feeling when nobody cares?
    xCristiana xCristiana 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 16

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    Don't worry, it happens no more but for the longest time I did. The guy is dead to me. We were together for a grand total of 6 months and from the beginning it was attacks so yeah...
    buffalobaby2016 buffalobaby2016 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 16