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    Painfully Yes

    Its like my heart is screaming and my soul is ready to tear me apart. The lonliness, the heartache, the pain.... its excruciating!!
    PoeticRejection PoeticRejection 22-25, F 6 Responses Feb 17, 2008

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    Can You Hear Me?

    Hello, can you hear me I'm trapped in my mind Hello, please help me I'm dying inside Please help me Please help me I shake and  cry Please help me, please help me My calm's just a lie Dirty names, accusations My thoughts are wolves Circling snaps I whimper How it sting and it...
    Redeemmeproject Redeemmeproject 26-30, F 1 Response May 28, 2012

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    So Ova Lif

    Some times i feel so ova life.. it seems no matter what i do it will never be good enough.. There are days my i wish my health to get the better of me.. cause when you are dead you dont feel nothing.. but then again knowing mu luck latley i still would feel every thing an be a...
    streak74 streak74 36-40, F 2 Responses Dec 6, 2011

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    Who Says I Look Like You? Maybe You Are MY Hallucination.

    So, i have been thinking more about his whole 'Purpouse in Life' thingy. How will i know who i am in the first place? 'Librarian' is not a title i would appreciate as engraved on my grave stone. What kind of life do i have? Sometimes i get scared that if i stop doing what i love...
    sayonaranow sayonaranow 18-21, F Feb 10, 2013

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    How Can I Feel So Much Pain For Something That Made Me So Happy.

    How is it that the best thing that has ever happend to me in my life has been the thing that has caused me the most pain. The last two years of my life where probably the happyist that I have ever known.  When I met my ex I had been pretty miserable.  I had a good...
    bigchuck1397 bigchuck1397 26-30, M 9 Responses Jun 14, 2007

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    To A Place In My Head...

    My lips are sewn shut with my own tiny thread My jaw clenched tightly Out of fear and of dread Of what might come flowing Through those angry lips Spewing words of hatred, hurt and neglect I wish I could go to a place in my head Where all of my pain and anger had fled I need an...
    Invisible2unow Invisible2unow 41-45, F 8 Responses Jun 19, 2011

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    What Did I Do, That Was So Bad?

    I don't understand what I did that was so bad. I do have a sharp tongue sometimes, and I do get cranky, but it is not all the time.  What did I do that was so bad? Was it because I stayed after work once because I didn't want to come home to you ignoring me? Was it because...
    xFrostyx xFrostyx 26-30, F Apr 13, 2010

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    Hurting So Deep Inside

    I have always been the strong one, never able to show that I do not always have the answer. But truly, I feel weak, like I am being swallowed by everything going on around me. I hurt so much and my only comfort is the Lord. He takes away the pain but when you live in the world...
    UnityFaith UnityFaith 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 21, 2008

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    She Didn't Call Me.

    Last night was the first night that I can remember that my Ex didn't call me at all.  After we split she used to call me during her breaks, and her lunch, and as soon as she got off and on the way to pick up the kids, and after she picked up the kids and was on the way home...
    bigchuck1397 bigchuck1397 26-30, M 2 Responses Jun 14, 2007

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    It's All Crashing...

    So, I'm not going to school today. Again. Lately, the thought of going there is the only thing that triggers my anxiety. But it gets bad whenever I'm about to go out the door. My heart starts racing, it gets difficult to breathe, my insides are screaming. It feels like I'm about...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 11, 2012

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    Oh F I just can't wait

    for this month to come to an end. My mind is just filled with things the past few weeks. I feel like I can't get out of my own head. I miss my ex so much, and I hate to admit that to myself, maybe this is the first time I am admitting it to myself. I miss having someone there...
    Chicgeekgal Chicgeekgal 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 18

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    What To Do

    My Best friend told me she thinks my friend is ugly and nasty cause he has cuts all up his arm but she doesn't know I do.Sometimes I think I'm useless.Im fighting a useless battle against the death angel. Everythings spinning out of control and out of my grips. I neeed to stop...
    brittanytg98 brittanytg98 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 18, 2012

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    I am that cliché, the one

    who is there for everyone but nobody is there for me. I get depended on so much and I feel it has become my main role in life and I resent that because I feel so damn alone, it burns. I hurt too you know? Yes, I am always smiling but appearances can be deceiving. I have wished...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 28

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    All I hear is " your a mistake,

    I wish I never adopted u I can't believe your gay, what's wrong with u, u suck at every thing" over and over " why can't u be like your sister or brother" all I say is I'm sorry over and over I try not to cry but I can't help it I just want to make you proud of me mom I try so...
    alina10912 alina10912 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 30, 2013

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    I have cheated that is what you accuse me well

    I accept but can you tell me whom I can't understand ..I always feel have cheated myself and relentlessly doing so..The little sky was my wandering space that also you want to ****** take it if that makes you happy..but the truth is you won'tt be satisfied with that also because...
    trappedwings trappedwings 26-30, F Dec 23, 2013

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    Definitely Hurting

    Because I'm losing friends. Not just losing them, but they're actually turning on me. For no reason that's relevant to them. It makes me feel furious to see outsiders manipulating a situation that has nothing to do with them. They will see in the end, but it upsets me so much to...
    fresheyes fresheyes 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 16, 2012

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    I can put on a smile And say

    that life is great, but nothing can cover the pain I feel in my heart. I guess when life gives u lemons ur supposed to make lemonade, but sometimes I think ur supposed to just give them back. I know slowly comeback to a hole heart but it will be a while
    bizzarebandcutie bizzarebandcutie 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 3

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    Story # 151 In The Loop

    I keep telling my kids and grandkids that they needn't protect me. I am here for them and I want to be here for them and that they need to keep me in the loop. But, that loop is so full of pain, these days. Why is everyone in my family hurting so badly. What could I have done...
    Serenitree Serenitree 70+, F 1 Response Sep 11, 2011

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    My Inards

    Yes, indeed my insides hurt at time. A combination of a poor eating habit & wide span drug consumption has rendered me within various situations. I have become tolerant for the most part, but who know where it will go.
    Underwatermellon Underwatermellon 22-25, M Jul 30, 2011

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    i have experienced alot in my life

    and had to it all alone, i have never asked for help, i suppose this is why i am feeling the way i am today, alone, confused and very hurt.... i once loved a nasty man for 11yrs, and through the beatings and affairs i endured from him, it has left me empty, i moved away from...
    jayne2468 jayne2468 46-50, F Apr 2

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    I really wish you truly see a day without me on

    this earth ..Hope from above I can feel that atleast without my presence in your life no hatred,no angst,no agony,no pain,no liability you hold for me. I am the pain in your life I realise every moment but today here in a wall I confess am a coward I can't kill myself because...
    trappedwings trappedwings 26-30, F Dec 23, 2013

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    Cleaning

    Yesterday I was doing some cleaning in mine and my boyfriends closet. He asked me to go through all his old papers to get rid of some things so we could make more room in our closet. He told me to throw away anything that was not important to him and to keep important...
    marbella marbella 26-30 6 Responses Aug 1, 2008

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    Some Days I Succeed...Other Days.... Not So Much

    No one told me it would be this hard. No one warned me that I was getting too close. No alarm bells went off to tell me that I was on the edge of the cliff and in danger of falling head over heels. So, I fell - right off that cliff before I knew what had happened. But as the old...
    LadyBronte LadyBronte 46-50, F 10 Responses Jul 27, 2010

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    I Am Hurting Inside From a Relationship I Left Three Years Ago

    My daughters dad and I met four to five years ago. He's a divorce single father with custody of his two kids. We hit it off pretty good. The kids enjoyed my presences as well as I. A few months later, he started acting weird, like we were moving too fast the relationship. He wasn...
    islandhuneygyrl33 islandhuneygyrl33 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 29, 2008

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    Take this knife and stab me in my back

    because i can guarantee it will hurt less than to see you with another person.
    Thiswillbethelast Thiswillbethelast 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    Hold Me Please

    I'm starting a new life, but i'm frigile and weak. I need someone to hold my hand, even if it's just in my mind, even if that person is far away from me and the voice that comforts me is a soundless whisper. I'm opening my heart, afraid that i'll get hurt, but hopefull that it...
    sayonaranow sayonaranow 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 21, 2012

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    Trying To Survive My Husband's Infidelities...help

    I am trying to rebuild my relationship with my H after discovering his double life only a year ago. His double life consisted of 5 years of physical infidelity. Starting with a lounge singer (10 years younger than him, who had a 5 year old son but never married) for almost 2...
    justcouldcry justcouldcry 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 25, 2011

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    The past few months have been pretty bittersweet

    for me. As much as I hated my old job, I went in anyway figuring it at least paid the bills.  As much as I wished I could have been laid off, I at least had some place to go to.  Instead, I was terminated for "performance" this past July.  Being laid off would have been...
    bobrido bobrido 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 13, 2013

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    I Am Dying Inside

    I have lost everything in a mere couple of weeksThe boy truly love is so confusing and upsettingNo one cares when I try to make a fuss about it because I am not some to make a fuss about thingsMy parents hate me and My brother and sister are meanI have no one left...And I am 12
    Kairi121 Kairi121 13-15 2 Responses May 4, 2012

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    My Heart....

    Im not sure whats wrong with me lately, i guess its the time of year, but i cant stop htinking about the rape,... all the time hes with me, i can feel his breathe on my neck, his hands on my wrist... i feel sick to my stomach... everyone at uni is starting to get home sick... im...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 27, 2008

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    Need to Get This Off My Chest...

    Do you really think I will always be here to pick up the pieces? Guess I have been your doormat all these years that that is all you think I am good for… I am exhausted with your double talk about all the mistakes from the past and promises for the future. They...
    justcouldcry justcouldcry 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 4, 2009

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    "-Marshall, you so funny man.

    You should be a comedian, god damn! - unfortunately, I am. I just hide behind the tears of a clown. So why don't we all sit down, listen to the tale I'm about to tell. We ain't gotta trade our shoes, and you ain't gotta walk no thousand miles"
    idontmindtherain idontmindtherain 18-21, M Aug 13

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    On That Very First Day...

    Swimming in the ocean The tide so very strong I struggle and strain For what seems like so long I'm making no ground, I'm stuck in the same place Now I am sinking, falling from grace Can't fight the current Feeling weak and afraid No desire to thrive I have no will to survive...
    Invisible2unow Invisible2unow 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 3, 2011

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    Im Confused and I Dont Know What to Do..

    i really don't know what to do.. i like him and i'm willing to wait for him till he arrive here in the Philippines.. he told me to wait for him.. i do.. and i'm still waiting for him.. it was oct. 10, 2007 since he said that to me.. he frequently calls me at night on my phone...
    prettychiq prettychiq 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 2, 2008

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    Just Saying My Peace!

    This post is dedicated to one of my best friends in this world. You have stood beside me through so many trials and I will always be here supporting you until the day I take my last breath. I kept my promise to you and I was not mean but I was very truthful. I love you.  I...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 27 Responses Jun 14, 2010

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    It Hurts

    I have to hide how I feel even though I feel like I am dying a little more with each breath I take. Time heals all they say - let's hope it's true.  
    titfortattoo titfortattoo 36-40, F 4 Responses Feb 20, 2008

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    Poem # 208 Ice

    when someone steals your wallet and punches you in the face to make his getaway the only thing that will help heal that black eye isice when a husband has cheated on his wife; or a wife has cheated on her husband and left, taking everything they built together only one thing will...
    Serenitree Serenitree 70+, F 2 Responses Oct 3, 2011

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    Can you see through my mask?

    My smile is all you see you don't see the pain in my eyes I don't know how you cant ITS SO ******* OVIOUS come on I'm broken so ******* broken i sit hear trying to cry I can't even cry any more I'm that broken ugh I'm sowwry
    IAmHatedForWhoIAm IAmHatedForWhoIAm 13-15, T Jul 8

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    I feel like the world's trying to make me a tin

    man. I was born with the face of a guy, not a cute guy, an Egyptian. In short, I look like either a creep or someone who's about to beat your ***. I was forced to be the strongest person in the room. I'm empathetic, a great writer as they tell me, but I feel like I'm playing a...
    ChosenCharacter ChosenCharacter 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 2

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    I am living yes am living a handicapped life.

    .My eyes are spared to see the puppet show that goes around..everyone has reason to give and all justified but for me nothing simply nothing..my fingers are chopped ,my limbs are cut tactfully .. Heart crucified each day slow but steadily. Life’s greatest irony the action...
    trappedwings trappedwings 26-30, F Dec 12, 2013

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    My head says "who cares about him"

    but my heart yell to my head "you do stupid " I hate this conflict
    bizzarebandcutie bizzarebandcutie 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 13

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    Tired...

    Tired... Tired of the same feelings engulfing my mind Tired of the same words line after line Tired of the same routine day after day Tired of always feeling exactly the same way Tired of wanting change but not knowing how Tired of crying inside but never aloud Tired of...
    Invisible2unow Invisible2unow 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 5, 2011

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    Life Can Be Diffficult At Times.

    I find myself currently saiing through rough waters,whilst trying to give the apparance to the world that its all fair weather.Inside my  mind is in a state of distress and turmoil  struggeling to keep up appearances that all is well .My heart is carrying a...
    garvan garvan 46-50, M 7 Responses Jun 15, 2010

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    You had become my jailor,

    your web my darkest jail I lost all sense of who I was, confounded, stuck, impaled. To free myself I had to find a part of me unknown– a spider of my own. I wove my own protection, a silky soft cocoon You harmed my health. How can I forgive you for what you did to me? The...
    trappedwings trappedwings 26-30, F Aug 5

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