I Am Hurting On the Inside

Tired...

Tired of the same feelings
engulfing my mind

Tired of the same words
line after line

Tired of the same routine
day after day

Tired of always feeling
exactly the same way

Tired of wanting change
but not knowing how

Tired...

I keep telling my kids and grandkids that they needn't protect me. I am here for them and I want to be here for them and that they need to keep me in the loop. But, that loop is so full of pain, these days. Why is everyone in my family...

                         
I am like both the woman and the man in this image lol.  I know that doesn't make much sense, and I know this is a love image... but what I mean is...  
I can be like a woman in...

Last night was the first night that I can remember that my Ex didn't call me at all.  After we split she used to call me during her breaks, and her lunch, and as soon as she got off and on the way to pick up the kids, and after she...

So, i have been thinking more about his whole 'Purpouse in Life' thingy. How will i know who i am in the first place? 'Librarian' is not a title i would appreciate as engraved on my grave stone. What kind of life do i have?
Sometimes i...

Swimming in the ocean
The tide so very strong
I struggle and strain
For what seems like so long

I'm making no ground, I'm stuck in the same place
Now I am sinking, falling from grace
Can't fight the current
Feeling weak and afraid

No...

Because I'm losing friends. Not just losing them, but they're actually turning on me. For no reason that's relevant to them. It makes me feel furious to see outsiders manipulating a situation that has nothing to do with them. They will...

My Best friend told me she thinks my friend is ugly and nasty cause he has cuts all up his arm but she doesn't know I do.Sometimes I think I'm useless.Im fighting a useless battle against the death angel. Everythings spinning out of...

when someone steals your wallet and
punches you in the face to make his getaway
the only thing that will help heal that black eye isice
when a husband has cheated on his wife;
or a wife has cheated on her husband
and left, taking...

Yes, indeed my insides hurt at time. A combination of a poor eating habit & wide span drug consumption has rendered me within various situations. I have become tolerant for the most part, but who know where it will go.

No one told me it would be this hard. No one warned me that I was getting too close. No alarm bells went off to tell me that I was on the edge of the cliff and in danger of falling head over heels. So, I fell - right off that cliff...

My lips are sewn shut
with my own tiny thread
My jaw clenched tightly
Out of fear and of dread
Of what might come flowing
Through those angry lips
Spewing words of hatred, hurt and neglect
I wish I could go
to a place in my head
Where...

Hello, can you hear me
I'm trapped in my mind
Hello, please help me
I'm dying inside
Please help me
Please help me
I shake and  cry
Please help me, please help me
My calm's just a lie
Dirty names, accusations
My thoughts are wolves...

I have lost everything in a mere couple of weeksThe boy truly love is so confusing and upsettingNo one cares when I try to make a fuss about it because I am not some to make a fuss about thingsMy parents hate me and My brother and...

I'm starting a new life, but i'm frigile and weak. I need someone to hold my hand, even if it's just in my mind, even if that person is far away from me and the voice that comforts me is a soundless whisper.
I'm opening my heart...

This post is dedicated to one of my best friends in this world. You have stood beside me through so many trials and I will always be here supporting you until the day I take my last breath. I kept my promise to you and I was not mean...

So, I'm not going to school today. Again. Lately, the thought of going there is the only thing that triggers my anxiety. But it gets bad whenever I'm about to go out the door. My heart starts racing, it gets difficult to breathe, my...

Some times i feel so ova life.. it seems no matter what i do it will never be good enough.. There are days my i wish my health to get the better of me.. cause when you are dead you dont feel nothing.. but then again knowing mu luck...