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I Am Hurting

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 2,339 People

    So Tired!

    I'm tired of the pain. It drains me. It has robbed me of what I need to make the necessary changes. Try pulling up your boot straps when you're barefoot. Not asking for crutches, just the shoes I came with and a little push. Not into traffic, though. I don't need you to...
    fetish27 fetish27 46-50, F 6 Responses Apr 29, 2011

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    Be careful to whom you give your heart.

    They may not care for it well or may even take delight in destroying it. There are some injuries that never heal.
    abrokenlittlegirl abrokenlittlegirl 46-50, F 2 Responses Jun 8, 2014

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    Does crying help? because I don't think I can

    stop the tears from falling.
    nottheaveragegirl nottheaveragegirl 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 6

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    i dont know whats wrong really.

    im just really upset, my chest is tight and it hurts. im so pissed im shaking. so sad i want to cry. so sick and tired of drama. wish life wasnt so complicated. life is overrated.
    Blissfulkissofdeath Blissfulkissofdeath 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 21, 2014

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    I don't get life. Why is people

    so cruel and mean? I feel so ugly and alone , everyone my age has dated but I never have I feel so ugly like No one loves me or want me. My brother said if he had a knife he would kill me, my Sister said I'm worthless and she want a better Sister. Yeah I get it I make mistakes...
    bitchybrandi bitchybrandi 13-15, F 5 Responses Aug 7, 2014

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    I'm feeling a lot better now,

    but I'm still kind of amazed at the bitterness of people in this world. I feel like people are just too sensitive and when I try to be nice I get slapped in the face.
    stellag23 stellag23 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 2, 2014

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    I Doesn't Go Away

     I hurt.  My past won't leave me.  My mind goes to past pain and anguish when I least expect it.  I want to forget.  I have argued in the past that the pain is necessary for forward movement, but that was all bullshit.  I don't need this pain. ...
    StardustShimmer StardustShimmer 36-40, F 4 Responses Jan 14, 2008

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    Hi. This is part two to my friendship story.

    I, hopefully we, fell deeply in love on EP for more than 4 months. It might as well of been a lifetime because it sure felt like it. I couldn't believe this amazing young woman took a liking to me. I look at this little device in my hand and wonder how sonething so small can...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 2, 2014

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    I Cried A Tear For You Today

    We all come here for a reason and we all have issues. We find no understanding in the outside world and we come together here in the Experience Project. Yet even when we feel people understand us; do they love us and do they care and can we trust them and can we trust them?I do...
    MandyzYouthPastor MandyzYouthPastor 46-50, M 7 Responses May 10, 2012

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    I have undiagnosed depression

    and social anxiety my parents are homophobes equating it to ********** and im bi- they dont know I can't tell them ive gone through my own personal hell it might not be as bad as others but ive felt hell flames I had nightmares almost every night since I was ten it's been five...
    permanentdreams1 permanentdreams1 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 9

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    Be careful to whom you give your heart.

    They may not care for it well or may even take delight in destroying it. There are some injuries that never heal.
    abrokenlittlegirl abrokenlittlegirl 46-50, F 2 Responses Jun 8, 2014

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    If only I knew what to do right now

    but sadly, I don't. I'm just lost and stuck in my own thoughts. I'm trying so hard to keep a brave face and to get out of my head, as being in your head is the most dangerous place to be. I just don't know who I can trust anymore, I don't want to end up hurt again. I have been...
    BeingSara BeingSara 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    me and my fiance have been fighting lately

    and its ben getting worse we im all but positive that we have a kid on the way but we cant find out for sure with a test for another week she wants some space but all its been lately is more space between us and its really hard because its a long distance relationship i really...
    justashyguy87 justashyguy87 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 14

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    I have not cut in a little over three weeks.

    These past three weeks have been horrendous mental rollercoasters. I wake up every morning just knowing today is going to be the day I break. I look at every night and wonder how I'm going to get through it. I keep waiting for some final thing to push me right back over the...
    SunnysBlueForever SunnysBlueForever 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Maang Agar Tu Jaan Bhi To Hans Ke Tujhe De Du,

    Teri To Koi Baat Mujh Se Taali Nahi Jati.
    samgha samgha 18-21, M 23 hrs ago

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    Every time someone good comes into my life,

    they end up leaving me. I'm sorry that I care about you. And want the best for you
    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    samgha samgha 18-21, M 23 hrs ago

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    I never thought that one day I would make a

    pact with my dad that we can't kill ourselves. my rock. my world. in as much pain, if not more than me. it actually makes me hurt more. but I'll push through. I love you, Papa Bear. hang in there. I'll be right by your side the whole time.
    FlyAwayMyZephyr FlyAwayMyZephyr 16-17, F Dec 11, 2014

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    bringthesirens bringthesirens 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 2

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    When you are hurting,

    there will always be people who find a way to make it about themselves. If you break your wrist, they’ll complain about a sprained ankle. If you are sad, they’re sadder. If you’re asking for help, they’ll demand more attention. When you get angry, there are going to be...
    Synthessisong Synthessisong 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 6, 2014

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    I tell myself there are a lot of people worse

    off than me, and i have days where i feel capable of anything. But it's not enough. I'd like to apologise to those on Ep whom i've talked to, if you've felt ignored by me. Whenever i try and face conversation, it just becomes too much for me, my nerves go into overdrive. I've...
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 16-17, F 6 Responses Nov 20, 2014

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    I think I've lost my best friend

    for good.. I know what I did to her was really messed up. hugest mistake in my life. Trying to fix it hurts more.. I could lose her.
    ajksx3 ajksx3 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 9

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    Every night when you leave me,

    I know I should be secure in the knowledge that you'll come back...and I hate myself for being terrified that you won't. Every single time. I hate myself for being so lonely I ache... I ache. My wrists ache.
    SunnysBlueForever SunnysBlueForever 18-21, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    Seeking Acceptance

    It comes in waves. One minute I'm fine, then the next minute I've burst into tears and collapsed on the floor. When I shower seems to be the most difficult. Other times I can feel it start in my belly. I feel sick to my stomache, then there is this incredible pressure on my chest...
    BellealaViolet BellealaViolet 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 5, 2013

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    Maang Agar Tu Jaan Bhi To Hans Ke Tujhe De Du,

    Teri To Koi Baat Mujh Se Taali Nahi Jati.
    samgha samgha 18-21, M 23 hrs ago

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    I am really hurting so badly right now.

    While I have come to terms with the fact I am a transgender woman, and feel wonderful because of that. My wife on the other hand is having a really hard time accepting and or understanding. So while I feel so good about who and what I am. I mean I used to think I was sick or...
    DawnR59 DawnR59 51-55, T 8 Responses Jan 4

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    I feel.. Horrible, I guess?

    At 14 years old, I'm too young to feel like this at all. I spend night after night awake, thinking terrible thoughts. I have never actually told anyone about how I want to end my life, and I possibly can't tell my mother because I don't think she's still at all over how my...
    Kkmsj2015 Kkmsj2015 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    maleficent08 maleficent08 31-35, F 3 days ago

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    Maang Agar Tu Jaan Bhi To Hans Ke Tujhe De Du,

    Teri To Koi Baat Mujh Se Taali Nahi Jati.
    samgha samgha 18-21, M 3 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    Almost 5am: head pounding,

    been going on for hours non stop now, another migraine. Tears rolling down my face, so lonely, so unloved, in so much eternal pain it's physically hurting. Haven't been able to sleep even a second. I need love. I deserve it. Or maybe I don't. In so much pain right now, head...
    secretdestiny secretdestiny 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 7, 2014

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    How screwed up is it

    that I don't know how to cry? I haven't dealt with emotions normally since I started cutting years ago, and even further before that. Now I'm trying to stop.....and I don't have a way to cope anymore. I don't have it anymore and I'm floundering, and I can't think through the...
    SunnysBlueForever SunnysBlueForever 18-21, F 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    ..but I dont say anything about it & I think

    that makes it hurt more but I just cant find the words
    ChefJerfey ChefJerfey 18-21, M Jan 8

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    Left For Dead

    I wish we could be cool again andshare the magic we had,instead of sitting on the fencewith both sides being sadwhen we need to be gladwe even got to be friendsI just don't understandthe misunderstandingthe lack of explainingor misguided blamingwhen all I've really been is the...
    AllStarcrushNate AllStarcrushNate 26-30, M 2 Responses Jun 24, 2013

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    "It was just a weekend,

    " I want to scream. It is barely contained within me. Your message left unanswered, because I can't. You come to me so we can lick our wounds together, console each other in our brokenness. Because we are the same. But we aren't the same. We have never been the same. But...
    laurisilva laurisilva 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    I Dont Know How To Be Not Married--------im So Alone-----------

    i have been married to the same man for 44 years.6 years ago i became chronically ill.he started verbally and emotionally ,abusing me.i could not bear it .i made him leave.that was 6 years ago.we have 3 children and 6 grandchildren together. i was with him from the age of 19,-i...
    senecagirl11 senecagirl11 61-65, F 6 Responses Jan 24, 2012

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    today i was hurting in school

    when i saw the ex in the hallway.....I've been hurting for the past 7 months I've kept my emotions bottled up inside for a very long time it has been tearing me apart... I fake a smile everyday pretending that im over her but truly i am no where near over her For seven months...
    CESARR7 CESARR7 16-17, M 2 Responses May 23, 2014

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    If she loved me why would she kiss him?

    Does she even know what love is? She's a robot, an ice queen. She tries but she doesnt understand. I need more, but I need her. Its a cruel joke. Should I give up? Would she even fight for me... Im hurting so bad, why did i let her get behind my walls...
    MistyDayz MistyDayz 18-21, F Jan 13

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    What the **** do you do

    when the one thing you love is the one thing you will never have, and it kills you and kills you and kills you every damn night?
    SunnysBlueForever SunnysBlueForever 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 4

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    why people leaves me saying

    that I deserve it......
    saurabh1993 saurabh1993 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 7

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    Me and my boyfriend have been together

    for almost 10 months and he is literally the love of my life. I am extremely happy but when we fight its bad. We've both given each other several chances and we both need to fix ourselves and as long as we do that we'll stay together. The one thing my boyfriend has asked me...
    laxlife laxlife 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 8

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    Why

    You were my best friend we called eachother sisters. Its funny how were not sisters when somethings 'wrong' with me. Out of all people i thought you would understand me i loved you like a sister. Looks like you were just pretending. I cant believe i once trusted you and you...
    rageandhate rageandhate 18-21 3 Responses Apr 3, 2013

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    So you wanna play Games with my head?

    But you make me fall apart I wish that I was dead. Can't believe I fell For such a blackened heart Played me for a fool And just used me from the start. Bullet For My Valentine- Pretty on the Outside
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 10, 2014

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    This is a poem i have written about my mother,

    she continues to hurt and abuse me emotionally. When will the day come where I can sleep in peace..with no tears? -your habits grow like weeds you leave me drained day after day for your own selfish needs i want to love you but you're too close to see i cant love you when...
    ComposerOfVitality ComposerOfVitality 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    For a minute this morning I woke up

    and I felt everything was perfectly fine, happy, nothing had happened last night, then seconds later it all came gushing back. I just laid in bed for a few minutes, getting the strength to tackle this day. Happy Wednesday everyone.
    nottheaveragegirl nottheaveragegirl 18-21, F Jan 7

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    Being depress does not help.

    . I need to be happy so it'll stop..
    ajksx3 ajksx3 13-15, F Jan 11

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    I feel sad all the time,

    I find it hard to smile, I cant remember the last time I was happy, I hate waking up every morning, I hate looking in the mirror I hate my face I hate my body I hate everything, Sometimes I hurt myself because Im disgusting and I deserve it. Im tired Im exhausted I cant be...
    AlyUniqueGirl AlyUniqueGirl 16-17, F Jan 9

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    Everyone I think I'm close to someone I am

    awakened by some horrid event that shows that I'm the only one that feels that way. The only time anyone ever comes to me is for advice or help with their life problem. I care about everyone so of course I listen. I try my hardest to help them because their happiness becomes my...
    Roxas3421 Roxas3421 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    I wish I didn't hurt

    so much. I wish I didn't have to feel so let down. I can't help but feel like I'm the one, there's something the matter with me for this to always happen. For me to never be given a chance. I feel like I have so much love to give, but am never given the opportunity to explore...
    emelon12 emelon12 18-21, F Sep 8, 2014

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    the past is cutting me into pieces.

    .. it was like it will never end... i can feel it running into my veins...
    HinamoriAmu HinamoriAmu 18-21, F 16 hrs ago

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    kxkid422 kxkid422 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Hurting today...my heart.

    ..it will pass, but the hole in my heart and my confusion is distracting me today. I have to work...
    goodnightangel goodnightangel 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 6, 2014

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    Yeah, it takes my heart to break into a

    bajillion pieces for two other people to be happy, but it's better me be crushed than them.
    StrawBracelet StrawBracelet 16-17, F