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    "I bet you didn't know she has cut on her arm.

    I bet you didn't know she hates her self. I bet you didn't know she cries herself to sleep. That every word she's been called sticks to her. I bet you didn't know she's not perfect. She's not happy. I bet you didn't know she loves others people more then herself. I bet you didn...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2013

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    I went to my dads for the first time

    since he got back in the country and my room is nothing but storage and my stepsisters friends stuff and clothes. My stuff was shoved in the corner and under the bed and in the closet. Totally feel so wanted & welcomed...
    ThatOneSadGirl19 ThatOneSadGirl19 16-17, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    It's 1:27am here. I can't sleep

    even though my body it's relentlessly tired from today's beatings of the daily grind. My mind drifts to different things but most randomly to my most recent pain. I keep thinking about that day. the day I tried to give cpr to my dead mother. My brain not processing that she was...
    Sometimesilence Sometimesilence 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 27

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    Honestly I'm in so much pain right now.

    I have a contusion on my tail bone, and I've had it since Sunday night. I finally got my dad to let me stay home today from school, and I might have to go to the emergency room tonight. I'm so not looking forward to this, and of all the weekends for this to happen on...
    bemyforeverlove97 bemyforeverlove97 16-17, F Feb 12

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    I know I'm in a much better place in my life

    right now compared to when I hadn't dealt with the rape at all, but I feel so much pain still. I am still hurting so bad and I'm scared that this hurt will never leave. I just wish things were different
    Jmemma Jmemma 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    how would you guys do

    if !! u flirt with someone from the first sight ...and in th next day they wont answer ur calss !! and if u call with a different number they would answer but once they notice ur voice they shut the phone again ..and not even answer ur messages ...am I that bad !! what should I...
    typic1990 typic1990 22-25, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    What's the point of living

    if I will continue to repeat the same sadness over and over again? Every time I find some kind of happiness, it gets ripped away from me and I am left in a worse state than before. Do you know what that feels like? Why can't my happiness last? Why can't I be happy? Why must I...
    rusputia rusputia 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I am really hurting so badly right now.

    While I have come to terms with the fact I am a transgender woman, and feel wonderful because of that. My wife on the other hand is having a really hard time accepting and or understanding. So while I feel so good about who and what I am. I mean I used to think I was sick or...
    DawnR59 DawnR59 51-55, T 7 Responses Jan 4

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    Thought I was over my ex.

    . But last night dream was horrible, I had a dream about her and it haunted me throughout my sleep. I can feel the pain the whole night. Thought I had forgotten her
    Ken0707 Ken0707 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 17

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    When you are hurting,

    there will always be people who find a way to make it about themselves. If you break your wrist, they’ll complain about a sprained ankle. If you are sad, they’re sadder. If you’re asking for help, they’ll demand more attention. When you get angry, there are going to be...
    Synthessisong Synthessisong 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 6, 2014

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    Hurting today...my heart.

    ..it will pass, but the hole in my heart and my confusion is distracting me today. I have to work...
    goodnightangel goodnightangel 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 6, 2014

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    I Cried A Tear For You Today

    We all come here for a reason and we all have issues. We find no understanding in the outside world and we come together here in the Experience Project. Yet even when we feel people understand us; do they love us and do they care and can we trust them and can we trust them?I do...
    MandyzYouthPastor MandyzYouthPastor 46-50, M 7 Responses May 10, 2012

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    i dont know whats wrong really.

    im just really upset, my chest is tight and it hurts. im so pissed im shaking. so sad i want to cry. so sick and tired of drama. wish life wasnt so complicated. life is overrated.
    Blissfulkissofdeath Blissfulkissofdeath 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 21, 2014

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    One year ago today, this world lost

    yet another beautiful soul. One of my best friends, Sarah, was killed when she and her husband slid into an icy intersection and were hit by a van. Everyone survived except Sarah. She was only 23. Sarah and I met in eighth grade. I was new at the school, and we quickly hit it...
    AntiveninKiss AntiveninKiss 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 9

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    sometimes I want a chance.

    I want to be loved cared for and respected I don't want to be called a freak I want people to respect who I am in the heart I want to have friend that can support me and help me stand up not laugh at me to me it hurts, it hurts more then a bruise, it hurts more then a scratch...
    wintter54 wintter54 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 5

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    Why

    You were my best friend we called eachother sisters. Its funny how were not sisters when somethings 'wrong' with me. Out of all people i thought you would understand me i loved you like a sister. Looks like you were just pretending. I cant believe i once trusted you and you...
    rageandhate rageandhate 18-21 3 Responses Apr 3, 2013

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    Yeah, it takes my heart to break into a

    bajillion pieces for two other people to be happy, but it's better me be crushed than them.
    StrawBracelet StrawBracelet 16-17, F Dec 10, 2014

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    I feel so hurt and depressed this morning.

    The last few days my husband has been quite bitter. I know he has a hard time where he is working and wishes he could get out. Because of this when he gets home he's all snappy at me. He uses obscene language but not directly at me. It makes me feel as though I have to keep...
    Chenk Chenk 22-25, F 3 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    I Doesn't Go Away

     I hurt.  My past won't leave me.  My mind goes to past pain and anguish when I least expect it.  I want to forget.  I have argued in the past that the pain is necessary for forward movement, but that was all bullshit.  I don't need this pain. ...
    StardustShimmer StardustShimmer 36-40, F 4 Responses Jan 14, 2008

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    I never thought that one day I would make a

    pact with my dad that we can't kill ourselves. my rock. my world. in as much pain, if not more than me. it actually makes me hurt more. but I'll push through. I love you, Papa Bear. hang in there. I'll be right by your side the whole time.
    FlyAwayMyZephyr FlyAwayMyZephyr 16-17, F Dec 11, 2014

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    It's never going to get better.

    I ******* hate myself.
    SunnysBlueForever SunnysBlueForever 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 6

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    Yeah nope. She dumped me today over text

    for her ex girlfriend. Literally falling apart right now. This isn't ******* right.
    xXxbrokenangelxXx xXxbrokenangelxXx 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    I cry little muffled tears

    so no one will hear, i cry and people wonder whats wrong with me, i cry and no one ever asks whats wrong.
    BloodyVictim BloodyVictim 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 16

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    I don't cry everyday anymore

    but I still have days where I can't get myself to inhale the fresh air or smile at my parents and my world feels like it might implode
    societykillss societykillss 18-21, F Feb 20

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    I tell myself there are a lot of people worse

    off than me, and i have days where i feel capable of anything. But it's not enough. I'd like to apologise to those on Ep whom i've talked to, if you've felt ignored by me. Whenever i try and face conversation, it just becomes too much for me, my nerves go into overdrive. I've...
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 16-17, F 6 Responses Nov 20, 2014

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    so I have recently found out

    that I have genital herpes and I can't stand this pain its the most horrible thing I have ever been through in my while life I just can't take it anymore I don't wanna live.
    shellxo shellxo 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 25

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    Hi. This is part two to my friendship story.

    I, hopefully we, fell deeply in love on EP for more than 4 months. It might as well of been a lifetime because it sure felt like it. I couldn't believe this amazing young woman took a liking to me. I look at this little device in my hand and wonder how sonething so small can...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 2, 2014

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    What the **** do you do

    when the one thing you love is the one thing you will never have, and it kills you and kills you and kills you every damn night?
    SunnysBlueForever SunnysBlueForever 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 4

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    So you wanna play Games with my head?

    But you make me fall apart I wish that I was dead. Can't believe I fell For such a blackened heart Played me for a fool And just used me from the start. Bullet For My Valentine- Pretty on the Outside
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 10, 2014

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    How screwed up is it

    that I don't know how to cry? I haven't dealt with emotions normally since I started cutting years ago, and even further before that. Now I'm trying to stop.....and I don't have a way to cope anymore. I don't have it anymore and I'm floundering, and I can't think through the...
    SunnysBlueForever SunnysBlueForever 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    Almost 5am: head pounding,

    been going on for hours non stop now, another migraine. Tears rolling down my face, so lonely, so unloved, in so much eternal pain it's physically hurting. Haven't been able to sleep even a second. I need love. I deserve it. Or maybe I don't. In so much pain right now, head...
    secretdestiny secretdestiny 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 7, 2014

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    I don't get life. Why is people

    so cruel and mean? I feel so ugly and alone , everyone my age has dated but I never have I feel so ugly like No one loves me or want me. My brother said if he had a knife he would kill me, my Sister said I'm worthless and she want a better Sister. Yeah I get it I make mistakes...
    bitchybrandi bitchybrandi 13-15, F 5 Responses Aug 7, 2014

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    I'm feeling a lot better now,

    but I'm still kind of amazed at the bitterness of people in this world. I feel like people are just too sensitive and when I try to be nice I get slapped in the face.
    stellag23 stellag23 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 2, 2014

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    He hasn't texted or called,

    makes me believe that he doesn't miss me at all. But then again I haven't texted or called him either and I am dying without him. Maybe, just maybe, he's dying too...
    reem999 reem999 22-25, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    Every time someone good comes into my life,

    they end up leaving me. I'm sorry that I care about you. And want the best for you
    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    Today has just been one of this days

    where everything reminds you of something terrible.. I just keep flashing back to the "It's okay" "It won't hurt" "you'll like it" "it's normal" "don't wake up mom and dad or they'll get mad" "if you tell them they won't love you anymore." I was sexually abused from age 4 to 9...
    Sarabell00 Sarabell00 13-15, F Feb 6

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    The edge is so close

    and I am alone. Eight weeks and two days without it. The hurt is so bad and all it would take is one cut to **** everything up and completely set everything back that I've worked so hard for. But ****! I have NO idea what to do right now, stuck in my head again and completely...
    SunnysBlueForever SunnysBlueForever 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Seeking Acceptance

    It comes in waves. One minute I'm fine, then the next minute I've burst into tears and collapsed on the floor. When I shower seems to be the most difficult. Other times I can feel it start in my belly. I feel sick to my stomache, then there is this incredible pressure on my chest...
    BellealaViolet BellealaViolet 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 5, 2013

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    I just picked myself up from hurting

    now knocked back down. I made some great friends losing them. Meet someone on here feel like I lost them too. Just whats the point really carrying on in this life. I just want to be happy again. Think I need to just away for awhile on my own. Faced so many battles on my own. I...
    stupid28 stupid28 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 9

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    So Tired!

    I'm tired of the pain. It drains me. It has robbed me of what I need to make the necessary changes. Try pulling up your boot straps when you're barefoot. Not asking for crutches, just the shoes I came with and a little push. Not into traffic, though. I don't need you to...
    fetish27 fetish27 46-50, F 6 Responses Apr 29, 2011

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    yeah it hurts a lot .

    like you starting talking to them and the next day they won't text you back when you say hey and next thing you know they cursing you out and calling you names
    joeFLIRTYboy100 joeFLIRTYboy100 13-15, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I can't recall anyone,

    family or otherwise , ever telling me that they love me or care about me. I guess they don't.
    hreinn hreinn 18-21, M 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    luciiia luciiia 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 21

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    Have you ever longed

    for something from the past which you know you can't get back? Even if it became a part of the present, it wouldn't be the same as how it was. I mourn the loss of the parts of the past that I loved. Of course you've felt that way. It's human.
    itworkedintheory itworkedintheory 31-35 Feb 7

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    I was young and unsure what love is.

    Until you left. Then i knew. Missing you... :')
    jebentmooi jebentmooi 22-25, F Jan 30

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    bringthesirens bringthesirens 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 2

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