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    I Cried A Tear For You Today

    We all come here for a reason and we all have issues. We find no understanding in the outside world and we come together here in the Experience Project. Yet even when we feel people understand us; do they love us and do they care and can we trust them and can we trust them?I do...
    MandyzYouthPastor MandyzYouthPastor 46-50, M 7 Responses May 10, 2012

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    One year ago today, this world lost

    yet another beautiful soul. One of my best friends, Sarah, was killed when she and her husband slid into an icy intersection and were hit by a van. Everyone survived except Sarah. She was only 23. Sarah and I met in eighth grade. I was new at the school, and we quickly hit it...
    AntiveninKiss AntiveninKiss 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 9

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    my mother died two days

    after Christmas last year. Christmas is coming again... I'm counting down the days, I'm terrified and I can't talk to anyone because no one knows what to say to the motherless teenager... Everyone keeps asking me what I want for Christmas but how can I possibly think of...
    TheUntrainedSubmissive TheUntrainedSubmissive 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 9, 2014

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    It's 1:27am here. I can't sleep

    even though my body it's relentlessly tired from today's beatings of the daily grind. My mind drifts to different things but most randomly to my most recent pain. I keep thinking about that day. the day I tried to give cpr to my dead mother. My brain not processing that she was...
    Sometimesilence Sometimesilence 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 27

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    I am really hurting so badly right now.

    While I have come to terms with the fact I am a transgender woman, and feel wonderful because of that. My wife on the other hand is having a really hard time accepting and or understanding. So while I feel so good about who and what I am. I mean I used to think I was sick or...
    DawnR59 DawnR59 51-55, T 8 Responses Jan 4

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    I'm not sure if I can take this pain anymore.

    It's getting so bad again that I don't even know what to do , I don't want to talk about it , but I don't want to hold it in because I know what will happen , but I have to pretend to be ok but I can't pretend anymore , I'm stuck again and I need to get out . Its funny because...
    holdontome holdontome 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I Doesn't Go Away

     I hurt.  My past won't leave me.  My mind goes to past pain and anguish when I least expect it.  I want to forget.  I have argued in the past that the pain is necessary for forward movement, but that was all bullshit.  I don't need this pain. ...
    StardustShimmer StardustShimmer 36-40, F 4 Responses Jan 14, 2008

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    I cry little muffled tears

    so no one will hear, i cry and people wonder whats wrong with me, i cry and no one ever asks whats wrong.
    Bloodyvictim Bloodyvictim 13-15, F 3 Responses Feb 16

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    Yeah nope. She dumped me today over text

    for her ex girlfriend. Literally falling apart right now. This isn't ******* right.
    xXxbrokenangelxXx xXxbrokenangelxXx 16-17, F 18 hrs ago

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    Yeah, it takes my heart to break into a

    bajillion pieces for two other people to be happy, but it's better me be crushed than them.
    StrawBracelet StrawBracelet 16-17, F Dec 10, 2014

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    It's like an arrow pierced my heart

    so deep that it hurts, it hurts a lot. I don't know what really trigger the pain but what I feel right now is beyond compare. I know that I have let my fences down, all of it that it took years for me to build; all collapsed because of falling in love.
    smilemelove smilemelove 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    I don't cry everyday anymore

    but I still have days where I can't get myself to inhale the fresh air or smile at my parents and my world feels like it might implode
    societykillss societykillss 18-21, F a week ago

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    I was young and unsure what love is.

    Until you left. Then i knew. Missing you... :')
    jebentmooi jebentmooi 22-25, F Jan 30

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    bringthesirens bringthesirens 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 2

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    Almost 5am: head pounding,

    been going on for hours non stop now, another migraine. Tears rolling down my face, so lonely, so unloved, in so much eternal pain it's physically hurting. Haven't been able to sleep even a second. I need love. I deserve it. Or maybe I don't. In so much pain right now, head...
    secretdestiny secretdestiny 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 7, 2014

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    It's never going to get better.

    I ******* hate myself.
    SunnysBlueForever SunnysBlueForever 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 6

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    So Tired!

    I'm tired of the pain. It drains me. It has robbed me of what I need to make the necessary changes. Try pulling up your boot straps when you're barefoot. Not asking for crutches, just the shoes I came with and a little push. Not into traffic, though. I don't need you to...
    fetish27 fetish27 46-50, F 6 Responses Apr 29, 2011

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    i dont know whats wrong really.

    im just really upset, my chest is tight and it hurts. im so pissed im shaking. so sad i want to cry. so sick and tired of drama. wish life wasnt so complicated. life is overrated.
    Blissfulkissofdeath Blissfulkissofdeath 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 21, 2014

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    Why

    You were my best friend we called eachother sisters. Its funny how were not sisters when somethings 'wrong' with me. Out of all people i thought you would understand me i loved you like a sister. Looks like you were just pretending. I cant believe i once trusted you and you...
    rageandhate rageandhate 18-21 3 Responses Apr 3, 2013

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    You said words to me tonight

    that I never thought you would say, yes I agree I was a fool and stupid for what I said but you saying that one sentence as really hurt me.
    Sirwithherkey Sirwithherkey 31-35, M Jan 30

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    I just picked myself up from hurting

    now knocked back down. I made some great friends losing them. Meet someone on here feel like I lost them too. Just whats the point really carrying on in this life. I just want to be happy again. Think I need to just away for awhile on my own. Faced so many battles on my own. I...
    stupid28 stupid28 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 9

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    I miss you..so so bad

    yet I was the one who left.
    crumblingcookies crumblingcookies 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 17

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    If only I knew what to do right now

    but sadly, I don't. I'm just lost and stuck in my own thoughts. I'm trying so hard to keep a brave face and to get out of my head, as being in your head is the most dangerous place to be. I just don't know who I can trust anymore, I don't want to end up hurt again. I have been...
    BeingSara BeingSara 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    Not for any emotional reason.

    For this damn rabies shot
    IngensImpetum IngensImpetum 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 4

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    I've officially begun lying to everyone again.

    .. I'm pretending to be just fine, but I'm not... Ive started cutting again (I made it a whole year, cut free, but now I'm back to it) I'm still blaming myself for my dad's death, don't try to tell me it's not my fault, it was 100% my fault.. I want to open up to people about...
    iamFrightened iamFrightened 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 3

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    So you wanna play Games with my head?

    But you make me fall apart I wish that I was dead. Can't believe I fell For such a blackened heart Played me for a fool And just used me from the start. Bullet For My Valentine- Pretty on the Outside
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 10, 2014

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    I don't get life. Why is people

    so cruel and mean? I feel so ugly and alone , everyone my age has dated but I never have I feel so ugly like No one loves me or want me. My brother said if he had a knife he would kill me, my Sister said I'm worthless and she want a better Sister. Yeah I get it I make mistakes...
    bitchybrandi bitchybrandi 13-15, F 5 Responses Aug 7, 2014

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    Have you ever longed

    for something from the past which you know you can't get back? Even if it became a part of the present, it wouldn't be the same as how it was. I mourn the loss of the parts of the past that I loved. Of course you've felt that way. It's human.
    itworkedintheory itworkedintheory 31-35 Feb 7

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    so I have recently found out

    that I have genital herpes and I can't stand this pain its the most horrible thing I have ever been through in my while life I just can't take it anymore I don't wanna live.
    shellxo shellxo 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    sometimes I want a chance.

    I want to be loved cared for and respected I don't want to be called a freak I want people to respect who I am in the heart I want to have friend that can support me and help me stand up not laugh at me to me it hurts, it hurts more then a bruise, it hurts more then a scratch...
    wintter54 wintter54 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 5

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    Hi. This is part two to my friendship story.

    I, hopefully we, fell deeply in love on EP for more than 4 months. It might as well of been a lifetime because it sure felt like it. I couldn't believe this amazing young woman took a liking to me. I look at this little device in my hand and wonder how sonething so small can...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 2, 2014

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    I never thought that one day I would make a

    pact with my dad that we can't kill ourselves. my rock. my world. in as much pain, if not more than me. it actually makes me hurt more. but I'll push through. I love you, Papa Bear. hang in there. I'll be right by your side the whole time.
    FlyAwayMyZephyr FlyAwayMyZephyr 16-17, F Dec 11, 2014

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    Honestly I'm in so much pain right now.

    I have a contusion on my tail bone, and I've had it since Sunday night. I finally got my dad to let me stay home today from school, and I might have to go to the emergency room tonight. I'm so not looking forward to this, and of all the weekends for this to happen on...
    bemyforeverlove97 bemyforeverlove97 16-17, F Feb 12

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    "I bet you didn't know she has cut on her arm.

    I bet you didn't know she hates her self. I bet you didn't know she cries herself to sleep. That every word she's been called sticks to her. I bet you didn't know she's not perfect. She's not happy. I bet you didn't know she loves others people more then herself. I bet you didn...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2013

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    Seeking Acceptance

    It comes in waves. One minute I'm fine, then the next minute I've burst into tears and collapsed on the floor. When I shower seems to be the most difficult. Other times I can feel it start in my belly. I feel sick to my stomache, then there is this incredible pressure on my chest...
    BellealaViolet BellealaViolet 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 5, 2013

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    Thought I was over my ex.

    . But last night dream was horrible, I had a dream about her and it haunted me throughout my sleep. I can feel the pain the whole night. Thought I had forgotten her
    Ken0707 Ken0707 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 17

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    How can you do this to me,

    even now? Why do you have so much power over me? I'm going to be sick. ****. My stomach is in knots. I feel like you just slit me open and I'm pouring out. I hate you. I hate that I believed you. I hate that I ******* love you. That even now you turn my life upside-down...
    laurisilva laurisilva 31-35, F 1 day ago

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    I tell myself there are a lot of people worse

    off than me, and i have days where i feel capable of anything. But it's not enough. I'd like to apologise to those on Ep whom i've talked to, if you've felt ignored by me. Whenever i try and face conversation, it just becomes too much for me, my nerves go into overdrive. I've...
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 16-17, F 6 Responses Nov 20, 2014

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    luciiia luciiia 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Today has just been one of this days

    where everything reminds you of something terrible.. I just keep flashing back to the "It's okay" "It won't hurt" "you'll like it" "it's normal" "don't wake up mom and dad or they'll get mad" "if you tell them they won't love you anymore." I was sexually abused from age 4 to 9...
    Sarabell00 Sarabell00 13-15, F Feb 6

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    my best friend has tried to kill herself 3

    times. she's not even 16. she doesn't see how beautiful she is and she feels like a burden.
    kscott17 kscott17 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 13

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    Hurting today...my heart.

    ..it will pass, but the hole in my heart and my confusion is distracting me today. I have to work...
    goodnightangel goodnightangel 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 6, 2014

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    Every time someone good comes into my life,

    they end up leaving me. I'm sorry that I care about you. And want the best for you
    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    the past is cutting me into pieces.

    .. it was like it will never end... i can feel it running into my veins...
    HinamoriAmu HinamoriAmu 18-21, F Jan 27

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    When you are hurting,

    there will always be people who find a way to make it about themselves. If you break your wrist, they’ll complain about a sprained ankle. If you are sad, they’re sadder. If you’re asking for help, they’ll demand more attention. When you get angry, there are going to be...
    Synthessisong Synthessisong 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 6, 2014

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    people always say its going to get better you

    guys are basically prefect and don't get anything we are going through most of the time you never new about this crap its annoying. yes I am hurting and people try to help but when they do they make my feel worst some time you just want to be alone this stuff to me will never...
    wintter54 wintter54 16-17, F 7 Responses Feb 6

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    I know I'm in a much better place in my life

    right now compared to when I hadn't dealt with the rape at all, but I feel so much pain still. I am still hurting so bad and I'm scared that this hurt will never leave. I just wish things were different
    Jmemma Jmemma 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    i know for sure he wants me out of his life.

    he can't tell it to me directly but his actions show, he's being rude and mean, harsh words are all there is to say and makes me feel i am unworthy of his love. i don't know what to do...wait actually i do, i know i should stop this foolishness. but i can't!!! :(
    guiltandpleasure guiltandpleasure 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 3

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    You have to care, love

    and make that person happy even if you're suffering from the pain, sorrow and sadness that he/she has caused you. Because there's no other fulfilling and satisfying moment than to see your loved one happy because of your effort to make that person feel loved and cared for. Then...
    jebentmooi jebentmooi 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 3

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    wildberryswirl wildberryswirl 13-15, F 5 Responses Jan 29

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    I Dont Know How To Be Not Married--------im So Alone-----------

    i have been married to the same man for 44 years.6 years ago i became chronically ill.he started verbally and emotionally ,abusing me.i could not bear it .i made him leave.that was 6 years ago.we have 3 children and 6 grandchildren together. i was with him from the age of 19,-i...
    senecagirl11 senecagirl11 61-65, F 6 Responses Jan 24, 2012

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