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    I hate what i've become,

    i wish i could change myself so much. What i need more than anything is a friend.
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    I self-harm and I have

    for 6 years. It's consumed my life. I started in 7th grade. they were just little scrapes. They never scarred because they were so shallow. I don't know why I started, exactly; I didn't have many problems with depression. I just liked it I guess. But then things went downhill. I...
    butterflysaviors butterflysaviors 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 12

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    My doggy kissed me right

    now im crying. She licked my tears away i luv her.
    Levi1 Levi1 13-15, M Sep 10

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    Hurting today...my heart.

    ..it will pass, but the hole in my heart and my confusion is distracting me today. I have to work...
    goodnightangel goodnightangel 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    "I bet you didn't know she has cut on her arm.

    I bet you didn't know she hates her self. I bet you didn't know she cries herself to sleep. That every word she's been called sticks to her. I bet you didn't know she's not perfect. She's not happy. I bet you didn't know she loves others people more then herself. I bet you didn...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2013

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    I'm gay and my parents always make fun of gay

    people around me it hurts a lot
    neonpinkcupcakelover neonpinkcupcakelover 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 19

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    I tell myself there are a lot of people worse

    off than me, and i have days where i feel capable of anything. But it's not enough. I'd like to apologise to those on Ep whom i've talked to, if you've felt ignored by me. Whenever i try and face conversation, it just becomes too much for me, my nerves go into overdrive. I've...
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 16-17, F 6 Responses Nov 20

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    Teachers don't understand we're trying our

    ******* hardest just to keep from putting a blade to our wrists or a gun to our heads. We can't handle the pressures everyone else faces when we don't even know if we're going to live through to the end of the week. These deadlines and numbers do nothing but give me anxiety...
    butterflysaviors butterflysaviors 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 11

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    I wish I didn't hurt

    so much. I wish I didn't have to feel so let down. I can't help but feel like I'm the one, there's something the matter with me for this to always happen. For me to never be given a chance. I feel like I have so much love to give, but am never given the opportunity to explore...
    emelon12 emelon12 18-21, F Sep 8

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    I don't get life. Why is people

    so cruel and mean? I feel so ugly and alone , everyone my age has dated but I never have I feel so ugly like No one loves me or want me. My brother said if he had a knife he would kill me, my Sister said I'm worthless and she want a better Sister. Yeah I get it I make mistakes...
    bitchybrandi bitchybrandi 13-15, F 5 Responses Aug 7

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    I've been getting more upset at my Mother

    than usual lately. She's always played favorites with my little sister, I learned to deal with that. But my daughter is 3 and she has spent maybe 4 times alone with her, NEVER comes to see her or tries to bond with her. She thinks buying her things makes up for watching my...
    FreyjaInBattle FreyjaInBattle 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 3

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    LittleBastet9 LittleBastet9 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 13

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    neonpinkcupcakelover neonpinkcupcakelover 16-17, F Nov 19

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    If only I knew what to do right now

    but sadly, I don't. I'm just lost and stuck in my own thoughts. I'm trying so hard to keep a brave face and to get out of my head, as being in your head is the most dangerous place to be. I just don't know who I can trust anymore, I don't want to end up hurt again. I have been...
    BeingSara BeingSara 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I never thought that one day I would make a

    pact with my dad that we can't kill ourselves. my rock. my world. in as much pain, if not more than me. it actually makes me hurt more. but I'll push through. I love you, Papa Bear. hang in there. I'll be right by your side the whole time.
    FlyAwayMyZephyr FlyAwayMyZephyr 16-17, F Dec 11

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    my life is a mess . I'm trying

    so hard but it's just so much easier to give up sometimes. my parents left me in India when I was 6 months old under the care of my grandmother for 9 years. in those years I saw my mom 3 times and dad once. My brother was born when I was 4 and has always stayed with my parents...
    leo1816 leo1816 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 29

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    I'm feeling a lot better now,

    but I'm still kind of amazed at the bitterness of people in this world. I feel like people are just too sensitive and when I try to be nice I get slapped in the face.
    stellag23 stellag23 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 2

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    today i was hurting in school

    when i saw the ex in the hallway.....I've been hurting for the past 7 months I've kept my emotions bottled up inside for a very long time it has been tearing me apart... I fake a smile everyday pretending that im over her but truly i am no where near over her For seven months...
    CESARR7 CESARR7 18-21, M 2 Responses May 23

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    Be careful to whom you give your heart.

    They may not care for it well or may even take delight in destroying it. There are some injuries that never heal.
    abrokenlittlegirl abrokenlittlegirl 46-50, F 2 Responses Jun 8

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    I just lost my best friend.

    I need a new one :'(
    lemondroppings lemondroppings 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    Yeah, it takes my heart to break into a

    bajillion pieces for two other people to be happy, but it's better me be crushed than them.
    thegrasswillgetgreener thegrasswillgetgreener 16-17, F Dec 10

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    Almost 5am: head pounding,

    been going on for hours non stop now, another migraine. Tears rolling down my face, so lonely, so unloved, in so much eternal pain it's physically hurting. Haven't been able to sleep even a second. I need love. I deserve it. Or maybe I don't. In so much pain right now, head...
    secretdestiny secretdestiny 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 7

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    As you can probably tell from my cover pic,

    my knee is very very swollen and I have no idea why. It's been like this for 3-4 days now and it's very painful not to mention impossible to straighten. I'm hoping to see the doctor tomorrow and hopefully find out what's going on with it..
    misspaperwait misspaperwait 22-25, F Nov 21

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    My ex promised me to contact me

    after her exam completes..... Today she is sitting for her last paper........ I don't know how to communicate with her..... I don't want to talk but I feel guilty not to..... I don't want to remain friends with her.........
    Ken0707 Ken0707 18-21, M Nov 30

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    kurtsanders kurtsanders 18-21, M Dec 11

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    Hi. This is part two to my friendship story.

    I, hopefully we, fell deeply in love on EP for more than 4 months. It might as well of been a lifetime because it sure felt like it. I couldn't believe this amazing young woman took a liking to me. I look at this little device in my hand and wonder how sonething so small can...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 2

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    So Tired!

    I'm tired of the pain. It drains me. It has robbed me of what I need to make the necessary changes. Try pulling up your boot straps when you're barefoot. Not asking for crutches, just the shoes I came with and a little push. Not into traffic, though. I don't need you to...
    fetish27 fetish27 46-50, F 6 Responses Apr 29, 2011

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    When you are hurting,

    there will always be people who find a way to make it about themselves. If you break your wrist, they’ll complain about a sprained ankle. If you are sad, they’re sadder. If you’re asking for help, they’ll demand more attention. When you get angry, there are going to be...
    Synthessisong Synthessisong 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 6

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    She comes online starts chating with me

    and disappears and if I get upset I might be wrong
    cocopops1017 cocopops1017 18-21, M Dec 7

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    Why Mother? Why do you have to ruin everything?

    Why do you do these to me? Why do you always see me as the bad one? Why!? Remember when i was a child and you almost gave me to my aunt? For money!? I was sick at that time so you gave me to her.. I understand that.. But when i was healthy you bring me back to you.. Giving me a...
    JinxRaven JinxRaven 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 31

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    It hurts so bad when you love someone

    and they love someone else, and I know I should get over him, but I can't. I'm so sad and I'm crying in the inside and I don't want anyone to know that I still love him, Because then they'll judge me and say that I need to move on, Okay I know I need to move on. but I can't.
    taid2000 taid2000 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 24

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    Going to get fu*ked up tonight to forget all

    the pain. Done with getting to think you actually might have something with a person and they just leave.
    Lovelybae Lovelybae 16-17, F Dec 8

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    i dont know whats wrong really.

    im just really upset, my chest is tight and it hurts. im so pissed im shaking. so sad i want to cry. so sick and tired of drama. wish life wasnt so complicated. life is overrated.
    Blissfulkissofdeath Blissfulkissofdeath 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 21

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    I've had depression for 10 years.

    Some days I still hurt, but usually I know how to keep myself happy and safe from myself. When I'm hurting, I usually go to my boyfriend or a friend to vent instead of hurt myself.
    CaliginousHeart CaliginousHeart 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 3

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    Every time someone good comes into my life,

    they end up leaving me. I'm sorry that I care about you. And want the best for you
    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 21

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    In a loving relationship,

    there are often hurt feelings. We have certain expectations of our partner, and when they do not live up to them we are likely to feel a sense of betrayal. The truth is that if we put our hurt aside for a moment we may realize that our lover was not even aware of the...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M 1 Response Oct 22

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    When I watch these movies about bullying

    and depression and whatnot... There is always someone there for them ! Someone to comfort them and give them a hug and just listen. I don't have that person. There's no one in my life who would truly understand me. Who would come to my house when I'm crying in bed and try to...
    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 22

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    People think my life is perfect,

    but the truth is I've delt with some strong issues that are breaking me silently. My family somehow manages to sell the idea that we have no problems at our house, when in reality my parents fight 24/7 and they make home feel like hell. They do not get a divorce because their...
    Anonymous7921 Anonymous7921 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    How much longer can I do this?

    So much piling up. How much more can I take?... Suicide seems so easy.
    SunnysBlueForever SunnysBlueForever 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 12

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    You know I came on here to get away from bad

    things in my real life, but they seem to just follow me and keep stabbing me until I break, there is a person that was once in my life that is on here I cannot seem to get away from the hurt they have caused, I can't seem to get away ever the town I live in is too small I just...
    ccher95 ccher95 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 18

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    I Doesn't Go Away

     I hurt.  My past won't leave me.  My mind goes to past pain and anguish when I least expect it.  I want to forget.  I have argued in the past that the pain is necessary for forward movement, but that was all bullshit.  I don't need this pain. ...
    StardustShimmer StardustShimmer 36-40, F 4 Responses Jan 14, 2008

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    I Dont Know How To Be Not Married--------im So Alone-----------

    i have been married to the same man for 44 years.6 years ago i became chronically ill.he started verbally and emotionally ,abusing me.i could not bear it .i made him leave.that was 6 years ago.we have 3 children and 6 grandchildren together. i was with him from the age of 19,-i...
    senecagirl11 senecagirl11 61-65, F 6 Responses Jan 24, 2012

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    I Cried A Tear For You Today

    We all come here for a reason and we all have issues. We find no understanding in the outside world and we come together here in the Experience Project. Yet even when we feel people understand us; do they love us and do they care and can we trust them and can we trust them?I do...
    MandyzYouthPastor MandyzYouthPastor 46-50, M 7 Responses May 10, 2012

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    my mother died two days

    after Christmas last year. Christmas is coming again... I'm counting down the days, I'm terrified and I can't talk to anyone because no one knows what to say to the motherless teenager... Everyone keeps asking me what I want for Christmas but how can I possibly think of...
    TheUntrainedSubmissive TheUntrainedSubmissive 16-17, F 4 Responses Dec 9

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    So you wanna play Games with my head?

    But you make me fall apart I wish that I was dead. Can't believe I fell For such a blackened heart Played me for a fool And just used me from the start. Bullet For My Valentine- Pretty on the Outside
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 10

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    Be careful to whom you give your heart.

    They may not care for it well or may even take delight in destroying it. There are some injuries that never heal.
    abrokenlittlegirl abrokenlittlegirl 46-50, F 2 Responses Jun 8

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    I am breaking down. My life is flashing

    before me, all of the pain I have ever had reawakening. I am in so much pain. I just want to end it all forever.
    AleaAndLexi AleaAndLexi 13-15, F Dec 14

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    I grew up with people criticizing me all the

    time. To this day I cannot accept myself. When people talk about me behind my back or criticize me, I feel so much pain that I fall depressed. I am in so much pain all the time, and I just want to leave on a long trip on my own, but I can't due to being in a relationship. I don...
    adonaielohenu adonaielohenu 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 22

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    So much pain is inside me right now.

    Two people have recently been taken by cancer that were very close to me. This very nice man that helps with my school has cancer and they are sure this is his last week. My heart is hurting. People don't see it, I cover it best I can, but I don't think I can hide it anymore. I...
    BellJane BellJane 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Left For Dead

    I wish we could be cool again andshare the magic we had,instead of sitting on the fencewith both sides being sadwhen we need to be gladwe even got to be friendsI just don't understandthe misunderstandingthe lack of explainingor misguided blamingwhen all I've really been is the...
    AllStarcrushNate AllStarcrushNate 26-30, M 2 Responses Jun 24, 2013

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    Seeking Acceptance

    It comes in waves. One minute I'm fine, then the next minute I've burst into tears and collapsed on the floor. When I shower seems to be the most difficult. Other times I can feel it start in my belly. I feel sick to my stomache, then there is this incredible pressure on my chest...
    BellealaViolet BellealaViolet 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 5, 2013

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