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    my mother died two days

    after Christmas last year. Christmas is coming again... I'm counting down the days, I'm terrified and I can't talk to anyone because no one knows what to say to the motherless teenager... Everyone keeps asking me what I want for Christmas but how can I possibly think of...
    TheUntrainedSubmissive TheUntrainedSubmissive 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 9, 2014

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    "I bet you didn't know she has cut on her arm.

    I bet you didn't know she hates her self. I bet you didn't know she cries herself to sleep. That every word she's been called sticks to her. I bet you didn't know she's not perfect. She's not happy. I bet you didn't know she loves others people more then herself. I bet you didn...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2013

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    So you wanna play Games with my head?

    But you make me fall apart I wish that I was dead. Can't believe I fell For such a blackened heart Played me for a fool And just used me from the start. Bullet For My Valentine- Pretty on the Outside
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 10, 2014

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    I don't really know why.

    I'm feeling very down on myself today of all days. At least I have a big steak to look forward later this evening for dinner.
    vault101 vault101 26-30, F 1 Response May 10

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    bringthesirens bringthesirens 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    what hurt most is when you turn your head,

    wipe your tears, and walk away but he never bother to run after you...
    ElizabethSwanTurner ElizabethSwanTurner 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 24

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    Today was such a drag I almost wanted to storm

    out somebody said to me today 'nobody even likes you any more' certainly that can't be true can it ? How should I react to that ... I hate everyone at the moment 😑
    mixedfellings mixedfellings 31-35, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Every time someone good comes into my life,

    they end up leaving me. I'm sorry that I care about you. And want the best for you
    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    I cannot get out of this situation

    and my friend cannot help me because she is not a true friend. I hate my friend and I hate my God and I hate my life and I want to end the pain .
    Thedepressedgirlatthewindow Thedepressedgirlatthewindow 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 30

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    I am a young teacher

    who has moved rural. It's pretty lonely. I wish I had a friend.
    jasminemorris jasminemorris 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Hi. This is part two to my friendship story.

    I, hopefully we, fell deeply in love on EP for more than 4 months. It might as well of been a lifetime because it sure felt like it. I couldn't believe this amazing young woman took a liking to me. I look at this little device in my hand and wonder how sonething so small can...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 2, 2014

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    trueloveriamonly trueloveriamonly 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 25

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    I don't get life. Why is people

    so cruel and mean? I feel so ugly and alone , everyone my age has dated but I never have I feel so ugly like No one loves me or want me. My brother said if he had a knife he would kill me, my Sister said I'm worthless and she want a better Sister. Yeah I get it I make mistakes...
    bitchybrandi bitchybrandi 13-15, F 5 Responses Aug 7, 2014

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    I'm feeling a lot better now,

    but I'm still kind of amazed at the bitterness of people in this world. I feel like people are just too sensitive and when I try to be nice I get slapped in the face.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 2, 2014

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    I tell myself there are a lot of people worse

    off than me, and i have days where i feel capable of anything. But it's not enough. I'd like to apologise to those on Ep whom i've talked to, if you've felt ignored by me. Whenever i try and face conversation, it just becomes too much for me, my nerves go into overdrive. I've...
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 16-17, F 5 Responses Nov 20, 2014

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    I am really hurting so badly right now.

    While I have come to terms with the fact I am a transgender woman, and feel wonderful because of that. My wife on the other hand is having a really hard time accepting and or understanding. So while I feel so good about who and what I am. I mean I used to think I was sick or...
    DawnR59 DawnR59 51-55, T 5 Responses Jan 4

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    I hate that when I think of you I am in

    not only emotional pain, but physical. My chest is on fire and my stomach aches. It's almost been 6 months and I still feel like this.... Why can't I just let go?
    vault101 vault101 26-30, F May 8

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    Why

    You were my best friend we called eachother sisters. Its funny how were not sisters when somethings 'wrong' with me. Out of all people i thought you would understand me i loved you like a sister. Looks like you were just pretending. I cant believe i once trusted you and you...
    rageandhate rageandhate 18-21 3 Responses Apr 3, 2013

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    justliloleme97 justliloleme97 16-17, F 1 Response May 5

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    I Doesn't Go Away

     I hurt.  My past won't leave me.  My mind goes to past pain and anguish when I least expect it.  I want to forget.  I have argued in the past that the pain is necessary for forward movement, but that was all bullshit.  I don't need this pain. ...
    StardustShimmer StardustShimmer 36-40, F 4 Responses Jan 14, 2008

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    My parent and brother found a chardonney bottle

    in the mail that i brought :(. Had a long talk about not drinking and how it will ruin my life, Yet im still craving a glass of wine.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 10

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    Alam mo ba kung ano ang nakakaiyak sa isang

    relasyon? yung habang tumatagal ang relasyon nyo saka naman sya nawawalan ng time sayo :( ung feeling na parang burden pa sa kanya ung pagsagot sa mga messages mo at tamang "wala" "oo" at "hindi" na lang ang reply. Masakit, oo sobra! lalo na kung effort ka ng effort tapos sya...
    ElizabethSwanTurner ElizabethSwanTurner 18-21, F May 15

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    i feel like I'm halfway between heaven

    and earth. so near death but still living. when im with people i pretend to be happy. when im alone i feel so alone. i think i prefer that. there isn't a soul i can talk to. i just wander to myself if there is something waiting for me out there and i should wait for it, or if i...
    justkeating justkeating 16-17, F 1 Response May 2

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    What the **** do you do

    when the one thing you love is the one thing you will never have, and it kills you and kills you and kills you every damn night?
    SunnysBlueForever SunnysBlueForever 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 4

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    Seeking Acceptance

    It comes in waves. One minute I'm fine, then the next minute I've burst into tears and collapsed on the floor. When I shower seems to be the most difficult. Other times I can feel it start in my belly. I feel sick to my stomache, then there is this incredible pressure on my chest...
    BellealaViolet BellealaViolet 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 5, 2013

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    In the moonlight I wish on the stars

    that you were here stead of being there. One day I will feel your warm embrace and no more tears will fall down from my face Kari Johnson
    Masterskitten503 Masterskitten503 46-50, F 2 Responses May 1

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    So Tired!

    I'm tired of the pain. It drains me. It has robbed me of what I need to make the necessary changes. Try pulling up your boot straps when you're barefoot. Not asking for crutches, just the shoes I came with and a little push. Not into traffic, though. I don't need you to...
    fetish27 fetish27 46-50, F 6 Responses Apr 29, 2011

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    I thought we are friends.

    I thought we were close friends. Then someone said that he hates me. A lot. I don't know if it's true but I am hurting. I stay strong on the outside, but bleeding on the inside... Stupid me, I even thought he care...
    colourflame colourflame 13-15, F May 5

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    so badly I just want to sleep in heaven

    and on Earth . And I want to do whatever I wish to do in freedom. i want to sleep . I want to eat
    Thedepressedgirlatthewindow Thedepressedgirlatthewindow 16-17, F 2 Responses May 2

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    therainbowtree therainbowtree 26-30, F May 11

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    I Cried A Tear For You Today

    We all come here for a reason and we all have issues. We find no understanding in the outside world and we come together here in the Experience Project. Yet even when we feel people understand us; do they love us and do they care and can we trust them and can we trust them?I do...
    MandyzYouthPastor MandyzYouthPastor 46-50, M 7 Responses May 10, 2012

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    I am such a good person/guy to this world

    and the people in it but the world and it's people are not good to me. I am really the purist person I know at heart so why is life so tuff on me. I'm a sweet guy to women but they never want me or want to stay with me. My friends and family aren't helpful when it comes to...
    JohnDivine JohnDivine 18-21, M 2 Responses May 10

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    I was young and unsure what love is.

    Until you left. Then i knew. Missing you... :')
    jebentmooi jebentmooi 22-25, F Jan 30

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    Almost 5am: head pounding,

    been going on for hours non stop now, another migraine. Tears rolling down my face, so lonely, so unloved, in so much eternal pain it's physically hurting. Haven't been able to sleep even a second. I need love. I deserve it. Or maybe I don't. In so much pain right now, head...
    secretdestiny secretdestiny 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 7, 2014

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    I have been smoking weed a lot lately,

    I feel so deppresed, my friend left me, I rlly need some1 t talk to .. plz?
    Mimihun18 Mimihun18 18-21, F 1 Response May 2

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    well love hurts that's a bloody rule and I can

    honestly say that the last two weeks of this April have been the worse in quite some time, I have put up my official depression logo (profile pic) God I remember last Saturday, woke up physically and emotionally sore
    Betruebnis Betruebnis 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 30

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    i want u back....please come back.

    ....i cant anymore take this......i tried believe me .....i tried a lot
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 5 days ago

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    how many times do i have to break in order

    for me to get the love that i deserve?
    callmegee callmegee 22-25, F 2 Responses May 11

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    One year ago today, this world lost

    yet another beautiful soul. One of my best friends, Sarah, was killed when she and her husband slid into an icy intersection and were hit by a van. Everyone survived except Sarah. She was only 23. Sarah and I met in eighth grade. I was new at the school, and we quickly hit it...
    AntiveninKiss AntiveninKiss 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 9

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    my little sister and I need a loving daddy.

    one that will hug and kiss us and hold us and tell us how special we are. I'm 20 and my little sister is 7
    bigsislovesyou47 bigsislovesyou47 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 24

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    I wish i had a loving little sis

    or brother, or even someone that could be my ep mom. im depressed and lonely. I'm a 20 year old girl
    bigsislovesyou47 bigsislovesyou47 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 22

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    I thought he cares. I thought he understands.

    Then one day he just shuts me off with no reason. But what he don't know that he have ripped my heart out and shatter it into pieces
    colourflame colourflame 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    If only I knew what to do right now

    but sadly, I don't. I'm just lost and stuck in my own thoughts. I'm trying so hard to keep a brave face and to get out of my head, as being in your head is the most dangerous place to be. I just don't know who I can trust anymore, I don't want to end up hurt again. I have been...
    BeingSara BeingSara 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2014

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    How can people just say the things they say

    and not expect someone to get hurt? Just two words "i'm fine" and you have them believing your truly fine.
    BloodyVictim BloodyVictim 16-17, F 3 Responses May 9

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    Dude my hand is swollen

    as hell from wrecking my board today. It must heal by friday
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M 1 Response May 9

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    I am a 20 year old girl

    and I wish I had a little sister. someone who loves to give and get hugs and someone who u can talk to about anything. my mom's a drug addict and my dad was killed in a car accident. if yiu want a big sis please message me
    bigsislovesyou47 bigsislovesyou47 18-21, F 6 Responses Apr 17

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    I've been with my boyfriend

    for a year now but I did something and betrayed him and I ****** up badly. I haven't been honest with him lately and it has really hurt him. I love him a lot but know we've broken up. We've decided that we'll both just keep going with our live and still keep each other in our...