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I Am Hurting

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    It's 1:27am here. I can't sleep

    even though my body it's relentlessly tired from today's beatings of the daily grind. My mind drifts to different things but most randomly to my most recent pain. I keep thinking about that day. the day I tried to give cpr to my dead mother. My brain not processing that she was...
    Sometimesilence Sometimesilence 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 27

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    I've never really had a father.

    I actually thought I could rely on my biological dad for something today, but of course he backs out in the last minute. He doesn't know how to be a father. I can't trust him or rely on him to ever be there. He claims he loves me but he doesn't know how to love.
    flowerchilddd flowerchilddd 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 19

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    Waiting. Hoping. 1000 mg of magnesium may

    help. Took it with raisins. Hope my muscles relax soon.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 1 Response Mar 18

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    what hurt most is when you turn your head,

    wipe your tears, and walk away but he never bother to run after you...
    KarenDew KarenDew 18-21, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    So you wanna play Games with my head?

    But you make me fall apart I wish that I was dead. Can't believe I fell For such a blackened heart Played me for a fool And just used me from the start. Bullet For My Valentine- Pretty on the Outside
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 10, 2014

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    my mother died two days

    after Christmas last year. Christmas is coming again... I'm counting down the days, I'm terrified and I can't talk to anyone because no one knows what to say to the motherless teenager... Everyone keeps asking me what I want for Christmas but how can I possibly think of...
    TheUntrainedSubmissive TheUntrainedSubmissive 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 9, 2014

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    I went to my dads for the first time

    since he got back in the country and my room is nothing but storage and my stepsisters friends stuff and clothes. My stuff was shoved in the corner and under the bed and in the closet. Totally feel so wanted & welcomed...
    ThatOneSadGirl19 ThatOneSadGirl19 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 5

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    Have anybody felt like giving up?

    because you think thats what is best?
    Simone717 Simone717 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 17

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    i dont know whats wrong really.

    im just really upset, my chest is tight and it hurts. im so pissed im shaking. so sad i want to cry. so sick and tired of drama. wish life wasnt so complicated. life is overrated.
    Blissfulkissofdeath Blissfulkissofdeath 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 21, 2014

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    Just want to be held,

    sometimes the emotional pain and abuse is so hard to deal with it almost becomes overwhelming
    UnwantedHuman UnwantedHuman 18-21, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    I am really hurting so badly right now.

    While I have come to terms with the fact I am a transgender woman, and feel wonderful because of that. My wife on the other hand is having a really hard time accepting and or understanding. So while I feel so good about who and what I am. I mean I used to think I was sick or...
    DawnR59 DawnR59 51-55, T 7 Responses Jan 4

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    I thought that I was good enough I thought we

    had a lot of trust I thought you would be faithful if I wasn't going through your stuff I thought I was the only one I thought this here was more than fun I thought that if I gave it up you wouldn't need to find you none I thought that I meant more to you I thought that all your...
    asiaromero asiaromero 16-17, F Mar 20

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    I Doesn't Go Away

     I hurt.  My past won't leave me.  My mind goes to past pain and anguish when I least expect it.  I want to forget.  I have argued in the past that the pain is necessary for forward movement, but that was all bullshit.  I don't need this pain. ...
    StardustShimmer StardustShimmer 36-40, F 4 Responses Jan 14, 2008

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    So Tired!

    I'm tired of the pain. It drains me. It has robbed me of what I need to make the necessary changes. Try pulling up your boot straps when you're barefoot. Not asking for crutches, just the shoes I came with and a little push. Not into traffic, though. I don't need you to...
    fetish27 fetish27 46-50, F 6 Responses Apr 29, 2011

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    The edge is so close

    and I am alone. Eight weeks and two days without it. The hurt is so bad and all it would take is one cut to **** everything up and completely set everything back that I've worked so hard for. But ****! I have NO idea what to do right now, stuck in my head again and completely...
    SunnysBlueForever SunnysBlueForever 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 2

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    My heart hurts when I think of all the time I

    haven’t spent with you.
    trueloveriamonly trueloveriamonly 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    bringthesirens bringthesirens 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 2

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    i was so happy at the beginning of the year

    happier that i ever been now everything came crashing down....iou ts gotten to where i dont wanna live anymore i feel like what for? 19 years its been nothing but pain,hurt,anger, and frustration.... id pray but for what? false hope doesn't work anymore i cant do right by anyone...
    fuvklife fuvklife 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 5

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    I Cried A Tear For You Today

    We all come here for a reason and we all have issues. We find no understanding in the outside world and we come together here in the Experience Project. Yet even when we feel people understand us; do they love us and do they care and can we trust them and can we trust them?I do...
    MandyzYouthPastor MandyzYouthPastor 46-50, M 7 Responses May 10, 2012

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    I feel so hurt and depressed this morning.

    The last few days my husband has been quite bitter. I know he has a hard time where he is working and wishes he could get out. Because of this when he gets home he's all snappy at me. He uses obscene language but not directly at me. It makes me feel as though I have to keep...
    Chenk Chenk 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 6

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    Hurting today...my heart.

    ..it will pass, but the hole in my heart and my confusion is distracting me today. I have to work...
    goodnightangel goodnightangel 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 6, 2014

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    Isn't it sad when you get hurt

    so much, you can finally say "I'm used to it."
    KarenDew KarenDew 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    "I bet you didn't know she has cut on her arm.

    I bet you didn't know she hates her self. I bet you didn't know she cries herself to sleep. That every word she's been called sticks to her. I bet you didn't know she's not perfect. She's not happy. I bet you didn't know she loves others people more then herself. I bet you didn...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2013

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    I tell myself there are a lot of people worse

    off than me, and i have days where i feel capable of anything. But it's not enough. I'd like to apologise to those on Ep whom i've talked to, if you've felt ignored by me. Whenever i try and face conversation, it just becomes too much for me, my nerves go into overdrive. I've...
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 16-17, F 6 Responses Nov 20, 2014

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    I'm feeling a lot better now,

    but I'm still kind of amazed at the bitterness of people in this world. I feel like people are just too sensitive and when I try to be nice I get slapped in the face.
    stellag23 stellag23 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 2, 2014

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    Why

    You were my best friend we called eachother sisters. Its funny how were not sisters when somethings 'wrong' with me. Out of all people i thought you would understand me i loved you like a sister. Looks like you were just pretending. I cant believe i once trusted you and you...
    rageandhate rageandhate 18-21 3 Responses Apr 3, 2013

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    unknownGirlwithabrokenheart unknownGirlwithabrokenheart 18-21, F Mar 9

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    But wars against muslims.

    Trump dental needs of the poor. EP Link
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 1 Response Mar 19

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    KarenDew KarenDew 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    He hasn't texted or called,

    makes me believe that he doesn't miss me at all. But then again I haven't texted or called him either and I am dying without him. Maybe, just maybe, he's dying too...
    reem999 reem999 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 6

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    I never thought that one day I would make a

    pact with my dad that we can't kill ourselves. my rock. my world. in as much pain, if not more than me. it actually makes me hurt more. but I'll push through. I love you, Papa Bear. hang in there. I'll be right by your side the whole time.
    FlyAwayMyZephyr FlyAwayMyZephyr 16-17, F Dec 11, 2014

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    i can never find the one

    for me lied to cheated on abused i want some yo love me be there for me and i them
    Alitia Alitia 18-21, F Mar 8

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    Have you ever longed

    for something from the past which you know you can't get back? Even if it became a part of the present, it wouldn't be the same as how it was. I mourn the loss of the parts of the past that I loved. Of course you've felt that way. It's human.
    itworkedintheory itworkedintheory 31-35 Feb 7

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    If only I knew what to do right now

    but sadly, I don't. I'm just lost and stuck in my own thoughts. I'm trying so hard to keep a brave face and to get out of my head, as being in your head is the most dangerous place to be. I just don't know who I can trust anymore, I don't want to end up hurt again. I have been...
    BeingSara BeingSara 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    Me anf my dad always had issues he physically

    and emotionally abused me and made me feel unlove then he kicked me out and i had to ho in foster care and then they sent me back home and im not h happy
    asiaromero asiaromero 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 11

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    Almost 5am: head pounding,

    been going on for hours non stop now, another migraine. Tears rolling down my face, so lonely, so unloved, in so much eternal pain it's physically hurting. Haven't been able to sleep even a second. I need love. I deserve it. Or maybe I don't. In so much pain right now, head...
    secretdestiny secretdestiny 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 7, 2014

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    My fiance passed away 18 months ago in a tragic

    accident. Following his death I've dealt with several other disheartening family medical problems, spent months in the hospital with my mother, and lost my job. Basically life's had more downs then it has had ups. I never thought I'd find myself even interested in being...
    tiara29 tiara29 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    so I have recently found out

    that I have genital herpes and I can't stand this pain its the most horrible thing I have ever been through in my while life I just can't take it anymore I don't wanna live.
    shellxo shellxo 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 25

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    My scars are fading loosening their protection

    over me from my emotional pain. it's coming back to me as every scar from every cut fades away. I remember what lurks inside my memories and causes me this unseable but real pain.
    FrayedGamer FrayedGamer 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 17

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    I'm hurting, baby, I'm broken down I need your

    loving, loving I need it now When I'm without you I'm something weak You got me begging, begging I'm on my knees I don't wanna be needing your love I just wanna be deep in your love And it's killing me when you're away, ooh, baby, 'Cause I really don't care where you are I just...
    TRHL TRHL 26-30, M 2 Responses Mar 13

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    I dont know if its just a new phase of grief

    that I am at or just a realization! I am absolutely done with the drama, enough with being sad and over dramatic. So he left, **** him, I know I deserve a lot better than a cheating lying bastard. I believe that God has something way more special for me and thats all I need to...
    reem999 reem999 22-25, F Mar 9

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    mamma mia fa male :/ love hurts

    so much but i dont know if its hurting so much because im the one to blame for everything :(
    confusednormalness confusednormalness 18-21, F Mar 10

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    I just had to let to go the person I loved the

    most in my life out of my life. It was constantly like trying to fit together puzzle pieces when there were always some missing. I believe in love and for that reason I believe in heartbreak. I don't know how to love again but one day I know I will be able to, its just the...
    newsoul93 newsoul93 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    Every time someone good comes into my life,

    they end up leaving me. I'm sorry that I care about you. And want the best for you
    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    Trying to be strong while I'm getting over my

    ex. I feel so horrible and sick though. My heart hurts so bad. I never want to feel this way again. How can I ever trust someone with my heart again?
    kendalh kendalh 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I was young and unsure what love is.

    Until you left. Then i knew. Missing you... :')
    jebentmooi jebentmooi 22-25, F Jan 30

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    I got hurt and I want to take out the trash

    but for some reason I can't
    meltingicequeen meltingicequeen 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 14