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I Am Hurting

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    I Doesn't Go Away

     I hurt.  My past won't leave me.  My mind goes to past pain and anguish when I least expect it.  I want to forget.  I have argued in the past that the pain is necessary for forward movement, but that was all bullshit.  I don't need this pain. ...
    StardustShimmer StardustShimmer 36-40, F 4 Responses Jan 14, 2008

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    I was blinded. The guy I really liked took

    advantages from me. I am a conservative girl but for him, I let him hold my hand. I let him hug me tight. I let him lay down beside me on the bed (nothing sexual happened okay). But even though these had happen, I knew that he was flirting with my friend. We are in a...
    wreckedserenity wreckedserenity 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 5

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    I went on an overseas holiday at the end of my

    lease and left the house hunting to my partner of seven years. When I returned he said he'd been ill and fortunately his sister was going overseas too so he offered to house sit. We put our belongings into storage. I was reticent at first but relented and 1 month blurred into...
    Suadade Suadade 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 3

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    Almost 5am: head pounding,

    been going on for hours non stop now, another migraine. Tears rolling down my face, so lonely, so unloved, in so much eternal pain it's physically hurting. Haven't been able to sleep even a second. I need love. I deserve it. Or maybe I don't. In so much pain right now, head...
    secretdestiny secretdestiny 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 7

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    Left For Dead

    I wish we could be cool again andshare the magic we had,instead of sitting on the fencewith both sides being sadwhen we need to be gladwe even got to be friendsI just don't understandthe misunderstandingthe lack of explainingor misguided blamingwhen all I've really been is the...
    AllStarcrushNate AllStarcrushNate 26-30, M 2 Responses Jun 24, 2013

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    The worst part is that I don't

    even know myself what exactly it is that is hurting so bad. It just feels like a punishment, but for what? Perhaps it's just His way of keeping me safe, because I always follow my heart.
    kiddishguy kiddishguy 26-30, M Oct 6

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    So Tired!

    I'm tired of the pain. It drains me. It has robbed me of what I need to make the necessary changes. Try pulling up your boot straps when you're barefoot. Not asking for crutches, just the shoes I came with and a little push. Not into traffic, though. I don't need you to...
    fetish27 fetish27 46-50, F 6 Responses Apr 29, 2011

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    I wish I didn't hurt

    so much. I wish I didn't have to feel so let down. I can't help but feel like I'm the one, there's something the matter with me for this to always happen. For me to never be given a chance. I feel like I have so much love to give, but am never given the opportunity to explore...
    emelon12 emelon12 18-21, F Sep 8

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    I hate what i've become,

    i wish i could change myself so much. What i need more than anything is a friend.
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    So you wanna play Games with my head?

    But you make me fall apart I wish that I was dead. Can't believe I fell For such a blackened heart Played me for a fool And just used me from the start. Bullet For My Valentine- Pretty on the Outside
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 10

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    You know I came on here to get away from bad

    things in my real life, but they seem to just follow me and keep stabbing me until I break, there is a person that was once in my life that is on here I cannot seem to get away from the hurt they have caused, I can't seem to get away ever the town I live in is too small I just...
    ccher95 ccher95 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    In a loving relationship,

    there are often hurt feelings. We have certain expectations of our partner, and when they do not live up to them we are likely to feel a sense of betrayal. The truth is that if we put our hurt aside for a moment we may realize that our lover was not even aware of the...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M 1 Response Oct 22

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    I am hurting in a relationship

    that seems so broken and makes me cry every weekend. I no longer believe in myself as a good person. I like this forum to try and relate to people and begin to feel good again. I wish someone would reach out to me.
    altabe43 altabe43 36-40, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Need someone to talk to having relationship

    problems . Is any one else hurting and want to talk?
    kristel88 kristel88 26-30, F 5 Responses Oct 6

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    A lot right now. Mostly

    because of my anxiety. Smoking helps a lot, but I am constantly having nicotine fits if I go more than an hour or 2 without lighting up. The sad thing is my husband is addicted too. But if everyone says we will die early than I guess we will die together. :(
    MissChelsea97 MissChelsea97 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I Cried A Tear For You Today

    We all come here for a reason and we all have issues. We find no understanding in the outside world and we come together here in the Experience Project. Yet even when we feel people understand us; do they love us and do they care and can we trust them and can we trust them?I do...
    MandyzYouthPastor MandyzYouthPastor 46-50, M 7 Responses May 10, 2012

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    I don't get life. Why is people

    so cruel and mean? I feel so ugly and alone , everyone my age has dated but I never have I feel so ugly like No one loves me or want me. My brother said if he had a knife he would kill me, my Sister said I'm worthless and she want a better Sister. Yeah I get it I make mistakes...
    bitchybrandi bitchybrandi 13-15, F 5 Responses Aug 7

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    i dont know whats wrong really.

    im just really upset, my chest is tight and it hurts. im so pissed im shaking. so sad i want to cry. so sick and tired of drama. wish life wasnt so complicated. life is overrated.
    Blissfulkissofdeath Blissfulkissofdeath 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 21

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    "I bet you didn't know she has cut on her arm.

    I bet you didn't know she hates her self. I bet you didn't know she cries herself to sleep. That every word she's been called sticks to her. I bet you didn't know she's not perfect. She's not happy. I bet you didn't know she loves others people more then herself. I bet you didn...
    TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles TheGirlThatAlwaysSmiles 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2013

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    My Last Stand

    this is it my final hour for my second family:sagediation33, heartlesstemptation, normally unique, heart collector, invisible broken innocence, and all of you who tried to help worthless me. thank you i wish i could say im cured but i dont want to lie this is the end i cannot go...
    Anastas17 Anastas17 18-21, T 8 Responses Apr 8, 2013

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    Every time someone good comes into my life,

    they end up leaving me. I'm sorry that I care about you. And want the best for you
    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I tell myself there are a lot of people worse

    off than me, and i have days where i feel capable of anything. But it's not enough. I'd like to apologise to those on Ep whom i've talked to, if you've felt ignored by me. Whenever i try and face conversation, it just becomes too much for me, my nerves go into overdrive. I've...
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 16-17, F 7 Responses 3 days ago

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    Be careful to whom you give your heart.

    They may not care for it well or may even take delight in destroying it. There are some injuries that never heal.
    abrokenlittlegirl abrokenlittlegirl 46-50, F 2 Responses Jun 8

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    When you are hurting,

    there will always be people who find a way to make it about themselves. If you break your wrist, they’ll complain about a sprained ankle. If you are sad, they’re sadder. If you’re asking for help, they’ll demand more attention. When you get angry, there are going to be...
    Synthessisong Synthessisong 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 6

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    Hi. This is part two to my friendship story.

    I, hopefully we, fell deeply in love on EP for more than 4 months. It might as well of been a lifetime because it sure felt like it. I couldn't believe this amazing young woman took a liking to me. I look at this little device in my hand and wonder how sonething so small can...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 2

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    Be careful to whom you give your heart.

    They may not care for it well or may even take delight in destroying it. There are some injuries that never heal.
    abrokenlittlegirl abrokenlittlegirl 46-50, F 3 Responses Jun 8

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    I met a guy online three months ago.

    We got along well and decided to meet a month ago. It was like a date, he picked me up from my house, he paid for everything, complimented me, asked me a lot of questions about myself and opened up about his life. He is really busy with his work as he works two shifts but he...
    take90 take90 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    It feels like my soul is being beaten,

    twisted, and stabbed over and over again......i just want to give up and die! Just needed to get that off my chest...you do not have to try and help or anything.
    zombieman1 zombieman1 18-21, M 5 Responses Oct 5

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    I keep getting messages saying oh yah life

    could be worse. R u ****** kidding me
    Ashlee344 Ashlee344 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    Today I ask him, what did he say

    that day that made me feel hurt. He say: how old did you lose your virginity. This was actually the question. So I was really angry about it again and he felt it. He kept telling me don't angry bla bla. And I say can I vent my anger on you? I need to punch a wall. He say don't...
    badromance96 badromance96 18-21, F Oct 14

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    It is like soaring, having wings,

    when falling in love. But as it is stated, you are falling. Once you realize this, it is too late. It is really like having a rock tied to your legs, ropes wrapped around you, and being heaved into the ocean. Your mind loses sanity as you lose what air you had, and no matter...
    walker13sl walker13sl 22-25, F Oct 13

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    As you can probably tell from my cover pic,

    my knee is very very swollen and I have no idea why. It's been like this for 3-4 days now and it's very painful not to mention impossible to straighten. I'm hoping to see the doctor tomorrow and hopefully find out what's going on with it..
    misspaperwait misspaperwait 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    I grew up with people criticizing me all the

    time. To this day I cannot accept myself. When people talk about me behind my back or criticize me, I feel so much pain that I fall depressed. I am in so much pain all the time, and I just want to leave on a long trip on my own, but I can't due to being in a relationship. I don...
    adonaielohenu adonaielohenu 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Hurting today...my heart.

    ..it will pass, but the hole in my heart and my confusion is distracting me today. I have to work...
    goodnightangel goodnightangel 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    Memories...Love...Feeling....Something.

    I'm invisible. I go under people's radar. They don't notice me. They don't care about me. Some days, I couldn't care less about this. Others, I wonder why. I'm random, crazy...maybe a little insane. I want people to notice me, and I don't. I ask to be loved, and shy away when...
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 25, 2013

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    I'm gay and my parents always make fun of gay

    people around me it hurts a lot
    neonpinkcupcakelover neonpinkcupcakelover 16-17, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Seeking Acceptance

    It comes in waves. One minute I'm fine, then the next minute I've burst into tears and collapsed on the floor. When I shower seems to be the most difficult. Other times I can feel it start in my belly. I feel sick to my stomache, then there is this incredible pressure on my chest...
    BellealaViolet BellealaViolet 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 5, 2013

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    “It's so hard to forget pain,

    but it's even harder to remember sweetness. We have no scar to show for happiness. We learn so little from peace.” ― Chuck Palahniuk, Diary
    nealbrute nealbrute 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 6

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    MADE ME CRY.... I know

    if you want love you have to try.You know I was good to you but you still made me cry. I never wanted perfection. I know there are things in me that need correction. When you told me you love me you touched my heart so deeply. When you cheated you left me with no choice. I miss...
    quito1969 quito1969 41-45, M Nov 13

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    My doggy kissed me right

    now im crying. She licked my tears away i luv her.
    Levi1 Levi1 13-15, M Sep 10

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    For sale: One broken heart,

    shattered beyond recognition. Comes with all the pain you can't deal with, and I'll even throw in all the tears I can't cry. Know what? Here. I'll just cut the damn thing out and you can have it for free.
    SunnysBlueForever SunnysBlueForever 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 6

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    Yesterday I got in an argument with my adult son

    after he snapped at me when I asked him to clean up his stuff. He blurted out. I'm moving out tomorrow anyways. So he and his fiancé are moving into my wife's tiny apartment. Two weeks ago I told them I did not want them sleeping together. I wanted to set up a room for his...
    myyself myyself 46-50, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    neonpinkcupcakelover neonpinkcupcakelover 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    Can't say I don't love him.

    Still I can't pretend that my heart is torn just knowing that I'm losing my bestfriend. If it's easier said and done then someone tell me why. I could tell him that I'm sorry hope he'll understand, he will have to do with someone else. I'd rather him hear the truth than hurt him...
    LoveHadassah LoveHadassah 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 1

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    Im happy its the weekend

    but that means that HE will be hanging out with HER. Doesnt he care I was the one who told him she was lying about us?! What a wasted weekend
    Ashlee344 Ashlee344 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    today i was hurting in school

    when i saw the ex in the hallway.....I've been hurting for the past 7 months I've kept my emotions bottled up inside for a very long time it has been tearing me apart... I fake a smile everyday pretending that im over her but truly i am no where near over her For seven months...
    CESARR7 CESARR7 18-21, M 2 Responses May 23

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    you know what hurt so much?

    it's when someone makes you feel special yesterday but make's you feel like you're nobody today.... :'(
    LoveHadassah LoveHadassah 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 29

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    Why

    You were my best friend we called eachother sisters. Its funny how were not sisters when somethings 'wrong' with me. Out of all people i thought you would understand me i loved you like a sister. Looks like you were just pretending. I cant believe i once trusted you and you...
    rageandhate rageandhate 18-21 3 Responses Apr 3, 2013

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    I Dont Know How To Be Not Married--------im So Alone-----------

    i have been married to the same man for 44 years.6 years ago i became chronically ill.he started verbally and emotionally ,abusing me.i could not bear it .i made him leave.that was 6 years ago.we have 3 children and 6 grandchildren together. i was with him from the age of 19,-i...
    senecagirl11 senecagirl11 61-65, F 6 Responses Jan 24, 2012

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    Why Mother? Why do you have to ruin everything?

    Why do you do these to me? Why do you always see me as the bad one? Why!? Remember when i was a child and you almost gave me to my aunt? For money!? I was sick at that time so you gave me to her.. I understand that.. But when i was healthy you bring me back to you.. Giving me a...
    LittleMiss04 LittleMiss04 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 31

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    ArayaSymone ArayaSymone 16-17, F Oct 30

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