I Am In a Love Affair With Myself

I never really believed I could support myself (as evidenced by current bank account) As a result, I spent time with men out of a fantasy that they would support me (as evidenced by short-term relationships) At most, they bought...

"If she can do it, so can I."

its not a hot steamy passionate love affair like my last one was, but it will do i guess,im just taking it all in stride...going to the movies going out to eat buying my self flowers,,,,,smh,,,good lord it sounds so pathetic ,now that...

I found this online today:

Love After Love, by Derek Walcott

“The time will come
when, with elation,
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror,
and each will smile at the other’s...

This love affair is working out pretty nicely. My life is pretty orderly--bathroom sink & tub are sparkly, kitchen sink is clear of dishes, and I have been getting to work early! All because I make a point to brush & floss and...

I have a new habit!--Brushing and flossing and washing my face everynight--which I have done 21 nights straight without fail and now I have a new habit. Happily I happened to also keep the basin and tub wiped and clean...

I love myself, I worship myself and I am undoubtedly the centre of my own Universe. I have ventured out to others, but was destroyed. Now I am TRW v.3.0, a cyborg-human-angel-mythical Goddess....behold the Power and respect it!

This is Round 2 Day 15 of my Love Affair with Myself. For the past 2 weeks I have been meditating 15 minutes every night before bed. One more week and it will be a habit!
Here are some remarkable habits that are happening...

...buying well made shoes at a good discount and a very euro design blazer plus pretty tights.
...changed the oil in my car.
...attended an al-anon meeting and met a woman who invited me to call her for support.
..asked the Universe...

...with a couple of guys that I met at a film conference. They were hilarious. They were both cute and one I imagined dating and the thought made me tired. I imagined that I was still with "B" and that I was staying...

and took me to the movies. I even carried the bouquet of flowers (Free trade flowers from Whole Foods) into the movie theater. (Capitalism: A Love Story, of course) I love me.

Going well. Washing my face and brushing and flossing at 8PM b4 getting on computer. Apt is way more tidy, I wipe the counters, put things away. Curiously my desk at work is more tidy too. I'm leaving the house more relaxed and getting...

Since I wrote in October, many changes have taken place. I am now back in my hometown of Seattle, in the house I grew up in. My mother fractured her ankle back in October, and is now transitioned back home. I'm helping her. It feels...

I finally got over my procrastination/fear/dread of getting promo work started on the film I'm producing. The film profile is LIVE to the WORLD. I also emailed the actors and looking forward to their responses.
My study is nice...

This past week was rough. It has been a battle between being a host to the Ego or a host to God.
What went well:
Motivating the group to be prepared for our pitch to the investor yesterday.
Speaking with "B" with the...