I Am In A ''Very Dark Place'' And Trying To Get Out

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    do you ever just sit there

    and realize that you mean nothing to anyone and, you start feeling lost, alone, and unloved, and truly unwanted.
    SilverSpiritWolf32 SilverSpiritWolf32
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Sep 24, 2015

    Today was a horrible day

    for me mentally, I'm mentally exhausted. I had these few constant thoughts bothering me all day, and I guess it affected my mood. I hate feeling like this, I just hope that I can get these thoughts out by tomorrow. I don't like seeing them worried over me, and I don't want to...
    RandomExistence RandomExistence
    18-21, M
    Oct 29, 2015

    The dark is consuming me,

    bit by bit, day after day. It never gives up. It's forever trying to break me down. And It has almost succeeded...
    saigebeck101 saigebeck101
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jan 2, 2016

    i was in a top, i finally opened up,

    i thought i found someone to rely on. It was a first time in my life i put my shield down. And now, it hurts me much more than I have ever been. I hope the only one who got hurt is me, but it also my parents. I saw them there, I wish I could do anything for them. But I cannot...
    BlackKittenf BlackKittenf
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 5, 2015
    yuki25 yuki25
    26-30, F
    Apr 7, 2016

    so many people in this world have trust issues

    because people say "i'm here for you" and then run away as soon as things start to fall apart
    SilverSpiritWolf32 SilverSpiritWolf32
    31-35, F
    1 Response Sep 24, 2015

    Don't tell someone with depression to "just be

    happy." You wouldn't throw someone who can't swim in the ocean and tell them to not drown. RIP Cyndago we love you, ur gone but not forgotten U will be truely MISSED :( :( :( if any one has youtube u know who I'm talking about Daniel of Cyndago was a very funny kind person but...
    SilverSpiritWolf32 SilverSpiritWolf32
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Sep 24, 2015

    The trial As my fingers pry these thoughts

    from my mind. Please understand, my intent is not unkind. The thoughts confused, the guilt in the fore. Have I done wrong? Caused pain once more? The past has gone, but still it haunts. With unknown intent and feelings it flaunts. What does it want? Why is it here? It has...
    Luke5150 Luke5150
    36-40, M
    Jan 3, 2016

    so many people in this world have trust issues

    because people say "i'm here for you" and then run away as soon as things start to fall apart
    GoldenTigerSpirit GoldenTigerSpirit
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jan 23, 2016

    All the things he said to me was a lie

    or it was for someone else. I want to give him a piece of my mind. Tell him that I hate him for exploiting something to which I hold precious. I knew that I wanted to see his true colors. He didn't hold up his end of the bargain. I want to ask him...How can you fake feelings for...
    BernadetteAshley BernadetteAshley
    31-35, F
    1 Response Mar 20, 2016

    I am suffering from anxiety

    and I really do have a lot of racing thoughts. Right now, I am having this one thought about being scared of myself! O_O
    Shanmaro Shanmaro
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Feb 25, 2016

    I feel so awful inside

    and I don't know how to make it better.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Dec 12, 2015

    I am so tired but my mind won't allow sleep to

    come. My depression has overtaken my entire being and will not let me escape, even for the night.
    fracturedforever fracturedforever
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Jun 29, 2015

    Good news, I'm slowly getting out of this dark

    place. Almost at the middle, but I don't want to rush it, I might fall off.
    ThisIsWhatItFeelsLike ThisIsWhatItFeelsLike
    31-35, M
    1 Response Jun 15, 2014

    It's very dark but as long

    as I stay here I won't have to deal with all the freakin hicks, and rednecks out there. I will be fine here thanks anyhow.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Dec 12, 2015

    I don't know how much longer I can go on like

    this. I'm 37 and I've never succeeded at anything in my life. I'm in love with someone I can't have and there's nothing I can do about it. It's killing me. I don't enjoy anything about my life any more and just recently I've started wishing I was dead. Just felt like sharing...
    Milo77 Milo77
    36-40, M
    3 Responses Jun 20, 2014

    This pit is torture. This helps me: Small

    things. Meditate. Relax. Breathe. Clear your mind. After going through a horrible spell of depression, isolation, loneliness, guilt, despair, sorrow, hopelessness, anxiety, fear - I try the above. Put yourself in a quiet place (preferably bed) and just relax, breathe, and...
    LoneWolf37 LoneWolf37
    36-40
    Dec 6, 2015

    ive decided that my future is going to require

    my absolute attention otherwise it will be controlled by careless ******** or unknowing do gooders who think they understand. My future starts now. I have enough money to pay for any assistance I need for necessities and I have decided that I will no longer feel the need to...
    luckylassie luckylassie
    56-60, F
    4 Responses Feb 25, 2016

    always,..............

    ...................
    vf702 vf702
    26-30, F
    Sep 25, 2015
    DeAnnsharon DeAnnsharon
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Apr 14, 2015

    I feel sadness has taken over my life to the

    point I can't see any light. I can't eat and all I do is think about how sad I am. My husband doesn't love me anymore and I don't know how to walk away as the thought of the unknown is breaking me. I've been with him since I was 17 and I am now 34. All I've ever known was the...
    Amira81 Amira81
    36-40, F
    1 Response Nov 13, 2015

    At times, I think I've successfully pulled

    myself out of the darkness but like a thief in the night....it creeps up on me and drags me back in.
    BlissfulTendencies BlissfulTendencies
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 4, 2016

    I'm going to try and describe my 'dark place'

    as briefly as possible. Married - happily, mostly - for 20 years, with the exception that he has a very low libido and always has done. I have had a bunch of miscarriages and ill health and have gradually become very overweight, and since 2011 have had a run of bad luck...
    ProfessorYaffle ProfessorYaffle
    46-50, F
    1 Response Feb 24, 2016

    Always have been in a dark place.

    . Ever since I was a kid..
    kidLeftInTheDark kidLeftInTheDark
    16-17, F
    1 Response Sep 25, 2015

    yes iam really flooded in

    that place, but do you know what is the advantage of being there!!!!!?, it is to become totally believer in ability of the human's will in making the marvels when you get out of there. It is to perceive the light better than what the others do, since the light thereupon will...
    umayyad umayyad
    31-35, M
    1 Response Dec 12, 2015

    Just sleep, sleep, inhale

    and exhale...that would be easier.
    Jessiemm Jessiemm
    13-15, F
    Jan 3, 2016

    being suicidal and trying to help someone

    who is also suicidal doesn't make you a hypocrite. it means you hate seeing people suffer like you
    SilverSpiritWolf32 SilverSpiritWolf32
    31-35, F
    1 Response Sep 24, 2015

    Forgive me for the rant I am about to commence

    EP friends. I needed to let this out. Everywhere I turn to, I see inconsistency. I've come to loathe the company of people. I despise the lies. When the one person I could count on pushes me to start building the walls again, I feel like clawing my nails on concrete. To let...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Aug 16, 2015

    I hate feeling depressed

    and hopelessness. Hope this feeling starts to shake off
    yuki25 yuki25
    26-30, F
    Apr 3, 2016

    I went to the hospital to get help

    for the first time. I stayed over night and was monitored throughout the night. For the first time in a long time I felt like I was taking control of my life and the depression was pushed aside. I'm on meds now and see two doctors every week. I'm so scared and feel so alone...
    jackjack600 jackjack600
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 14, 2015

    So I am just a guy that wants a place to put

    all his feelings, without being judged and without people knowing it's me. At this moment in time I am more lonely than I have ever felt, yet I am surrounded by those who care. They seem to fade into the background and rush past me and the only person I feel I can talk to is...
    charlieedwards charlieedwards
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Jun 17, 2014
    DoYouTryToUnderstand DoYouTryToUnderstand
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 15, 2015

    I've been trying to get out of this black hole

    thats sucking the life out of me for about 2 years now, and nothing is working. I don't tell anyone about it because I am supposed to be the friend that has it all together. Trying to keep it a secret is getting harder & harder everyday.
    taydolla taydolla
    18-21
    1 Response Jan 4, 2016

    I'm currently writing a blog surrounding mental

    health. Depression, self harm etc. I want to raise awareness and get as many people talking as best i can. So i'm starting with my own story. Would appreciate it if everyone could have a read and share it as much as possible http://wp.me/p6TXAc-e
    Ottway23 Ottway23
    26-30
    Dec 5, 2015

    I've been trying so hard to get over the city,

    and remind myself soon I'll move again to a place I'll actually like. No matter how much I try to excite myself about it I just can't. No matter what I do, I'm still upset about the city and not having friends. And I've had a lot of people say things like "Well be yourself, and...
    Musicislife03 Musicislife03
    22-25, F
    Dec 15, 2015

    from childhood to the present day,

    I have a big wall with several meters high and will not let me overcome all my fears and past, so the darkness is the only place that I can not overcome. While trying to make others happy I forget my own, I need to go beyond the darkness and be happy. It's needed It is...
    lovingCuteSmartGirl lovingCuteSmartGirl
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 14, 2016

    my stomache really bothers my self esteem to

    have lost the weight and still have a ugly stomache. sometimes i want to self sabitoge. any way hanging in there
    DeAnnsharon DeAnnsharon
    41-45, F
    1 Response Mar 19, 2015

    Why not just die now of I'm gonna die

    why not now, people say it's selfish to kill yourself but isn't it more selfish for people to force them to stay I just want to die 🔫
    lewis349 lewis349
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jun 20, 2014
    angiebirdflyaway angiebirdflyaway
    22-25, F
    Jan 18, 2015
    umayyad umayyad
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Sep 26, 2015

    it hurts like hell when someone makes you feel

    special, then suddenly leaves you hanging, and you have to act like you don’t care at all.
    SilverSpiritWolf32 SilverSpiritWolf32
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Sep 24, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Oct 28, 2015

    I ve been feeling very depressed

    and alone for many years ever since I was a child. I m 23 years old and I am unable to form connections with people because I find it so difficult to talk to them and they find me very awkward. I dont really have friends and I cant rely on my family because my dad is dead and my...
    djoo709 djoo709
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Dec 5, 2015

    I'm so physically and emotionally drained from

    this ten year relationship full of abuse of all kinds addictions etc.....
    Brokenwingz1986 Brokenwingz1986
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Mar 27, 2016

    Get support at http://live-another-day.

    boards.net/ Share your depression, anxiety and other mental disorders as well as divorce, abandonment, bullying and much more we will help you get through it!
    driftingalone driftingalone
    18-21, F
    Jan 23, 2016

    I love to read, but I struggle to concentrate

    when there's so much on my mind. I wish I could free myself from everything that bothers me.
    kells815 kells815
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 26, 2016

    ive been with the same drunk person

    for years now. but im not number 1 the bottle is. i cant be called names forever. i just dont know if i was ever meant to have true love it never works
    DeAnnsharon DeAnnsharon
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Mar 19, 2015

    I know I'm just looking

    for someone to share this with, and for someone to talk to me about this.. I might just need a little attention from someone who do do not know who I am and vice versa. I'm a teenage girl. I was bullied and physically abused in school when I was younger. I turn 19 this year and...
    justateengirl justateengirl
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 15, 2014
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