I Am In Grief

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    Grief: Much More Complex Than I Ever Imagined

    It has been exactly one month since Dad died. This grief is complex and confusing. I used to think that it was enough that I just feel pain and would tell myself that I only experience this pain because I have such strong love for my Dad and that would ease the pain a little...
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    Jun 20, 2013

    Nightmares, And Strange Happenings

    I had this weird occurrence happen to me over the weekend.i have a utube channel,with a couple of videos of my late sister.someone had left a comment on one of these videos.but,i don't know who this individual was.they had said''nice footage of Carolyn"",and it is.i then had a...
    deleted deleted
    Jun 3, 2013

    I found out today that a good friend of mine

    have died. No one have died for me so this is hard for me..
    IronHij IronHij
    22-25, M
    Sep 17, 2014

    Push and pull of lonliness

    and despair Desperately trying And failing, To grasp what's 'there' I want this And I should be that I'm none of it And that's that It's not fair And I loiter in despair Desperately trying to grab what illusion I put there It's all my fault I've always been wrong It ends on...
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    1 Response Jun 19, 2015

    I Lost My Mother....

    She passed away on the 17th of this month. I didn't see it happening this soon. What's unreal is that she had died right in front of me and my brother at the hospital on friday the 10th. I was by her side crying and praying and just so shocked and devastated, still there by her...
    emeraldskies emeraldskies
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Jun 27, 2011

    I've Never Shared This With Anyone..

    I've been reading up on how to deal with grief and i've previously kept a journal and it helped a little, but i soon stopped because i was afraid someone would find it and read it. i'm going to give it a shot again. it's been almost three years since my mom has passed and it...
    nayyy nayyy
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 16, 2011

    I'm Heavy With Grief :(

    I am happy I found this website and I hope I can get some feed back for my story. I have had so much pain and loss in my life I feel like I'm an incomplete person. My parents divorced when I was 6 years old and of course I blamed myself because I thought it was because me and my...
    angelbaby8308 angelbaby8308
    1 Response Mar 18, 2011

    The Love Of My Life Is Gone.

    Her name was Lindsay, and she was the most amazing person I've ever met. I could spend ever minute of every day with her and love it all. I said it before and I know now that is true, I am more comfortable with her than I am alone. I feel just, incomplete. Lindsay was diagnosed...
    LeesUncertinFuture LeesUncertinFuture
    31-35, M
    1 Response Jun 1, 2013

    My son died in October 2011.

    He was just 21. I miss him so much that it seems like I'm stuck in a nightmare. If not for my 3 younger children I would have chosen to join him soon after he passed. I'm trying to learn to grieve and go on living.
    sleeplessandused sleeplessandused
    46-50, F
    6 Responses Feb 12, 2014

    "are You Okay?"

    I hate that question. Don't ask me that. I wasn't okay, an hour ago, yesterday or last week. So what, I go to work and help the kids with their homework. I may cook dinner, go shopping, even go to church, but I am Not OKAY! My mother died suddenly on December 22, 2010. We were...
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    1 Response Feb 19, 2011

    It Changes You

    My mom. She left 15 odd months ago. I'm resentful. I miss her. I'd give anything to have her back just for a day, even though she suffered. So I feel guilty. How can she just be gone.
    JustplainJulia JustplainJulia
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Mar 25, 2010

    Healing Words

    Starting with some healing words. I'm not a professional or anything. But this is what I've learned in regards to keeping my sanity. I will end it all with explaining how I know! Please be open and allow me to share. You are emotional, upset, sad, distraught and confused about...
    HyperSensei HyperSensei
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Apr 14, 2013


    i was reading something on the internet about suicide.it scared me.it was describing me,bitter,jaded,someone whose outlived their usefulness.sounds like me.i don't do suicide though.too easy.i just don't feel like living though,need a break.wish I could sleep for 20 yrs.
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    Jun 3, 2013

    Not Sure

    so,its been one year since my sisters husband took his own life.thats when I first came on here.i was pretty depressed,angry,all kinds of bad things.i haven't changed much.i now try and enjoy life,as much as I can,but it is so very hard.i don't have any friends,or much family.i...
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    Jun 2, 2013

    My sister Jordan died awhile ago

    and my brothers girlfriend decided it would be a bright idea to post a picture of jordans grave on facebook and pretend shes her sister and all this stuff....Im so mad. What is wrong with people?
    darebearsworld darebearsworld
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 2, 2015

    The Worst Decisions Of My Life

    This is a long story, but i have had this on my chest for 1 year, and i need to get it out, so weather or not your prepared to read it is up to you. Anger. As powerful as it is dangerous. I remember my parents telling me to never make an angry decision, but I was always too...
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    Jul 20, 2013

    You hear the words over the phone.

    And instantly, your mind short circuits. "What?" you scream, over and over again. Yor mind refuses to process the information. Different parts of your body malfunction all at once. You can't breathe. You can't see. You can't move. Your heart's forgotten the rhythm it must beat...
    midnightdahlia midnightdahlia
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 17, 2014


    Suddenly you rise against me As so many times before Yet this time This time An effective weapon you've found Against this heart of stone To inflict your pain Never before Have you struck me And caused your desired effect A flood of tears Extreme anguish Heartfelt pain...
    Kinkreader Kinkreader
    Feb 19, 2013

    I Am Too Much In Greif For My Aunt Rhoda

    My aunt died Monday in Washigton State, she was 99 years old.  I live in NJ, I sould celebrate her life not morn her loss, I have gotten help from many people my church deacon, and priest too, I turn to this group for emotional support too, when I cry its of dry pessure...
    Ratfink Ratfink
    51-55, M
    1 Response Sep 5, 2008

    Poem Called Granddad

    shall13 shall13
    41-45, F
    Apr 29, 2013

    I Lost the Love of My Life and Am So Devastated

    My husband and the love of my life is gone forever.  We met and dated as young kids but met up again years later.  We were married 21 great years.   We had a great night together and then after he went to sleep he woke up and said he couldn't breathe...
    Carol202 Carol202
    9 Responses Sep 4, 2009

    The Light That Never Leaves - May This Sustain You

    I hope this story inspires anybody who is struggling with grief and loss. I want you to know there is a light and it will shine for you and everyone you have ever lost.When I attempted to contact my mother with the methods I have used, these are the words I received: ...
    51-55, F
    2 Responses Jan 5, 2010

    My Life Has No Sunlight Now

    I lost my dad 3 years ago followed by my sister a year later. I can't put into words the extent of my love for my father, he was simply everything to me, my sunlight. My sister lived in the states she was from my dad's first marriage and although we only saw eachother once a year...
    SamWhatever SamWhatever
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Oct 2, 2011

    Dad Died On May 20, 2013

    My Dad died on May 20th and here is how it has been: Week 1: Blur of shock, sadness and rage Week 2: Numbness, sadness, crying, disbelief Week 3: Sadness, numbness, more sadness I know I have to find a way to move on....so much of the past year was caregiving for Dad or helping...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jun 13, 2013

    My Fading Family Members

    My family is fading away.... Of course making room for the younger generation but its happening so fast. I didn't know my family was bonded so close together until this year. This year I have had four deaths in one half of my family. All women of course. And now all I can think...
    Lunae89 Lunae89
    26-30, F
    May 29, 2013

    I am greatly concerned with my anger.

    My father passed away almost 10 years ago. I am so angry. I never let myself grieve for him due to the fact I helped my mother raise my sisters. Now 10 years later, I am getting my life together and getting married. There is something holding me back though. My fiancé says it's...
    JessieMae23 JessieMae23
    18-21, F
    Dec 10, 2014

    Hi there Dunno where to start Recently iv

    lost my soulmate and my kids have lost there mother After going into hospital in 09/07/2015 with a brain anyerysm and sadly passing away on the 20/07/2015 and being buried 30 th I'm struggling with my grief My partner Sharon was only 36 n I'm 35 and we had been together...
    gers56 gers56
    36-40, M
    1 Response Sep 8, 2015

    A very close family friend has been diagnosed

    with terminal cancer and really hasn't got long... Is there anyone out there who has been through this who has any advice on dealing with this kind of grief?
    henry1998 henry1998
    18-21, M
    Nov 1, 2014

    I Push Away People Who Get Close To Me.

    I push away people who get close to me. It's too overwhelming for me. I fear getting hurt. I fear becoming vulnerable. I fear losing it all again. I struggle to manage the shocks of grief and highs of happiness. I'm confused about people now. My grief is a physical tearing of my...
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    3 Responses May 20, 2013

    A Hell Of A Week

    This past week i would do anything to change it, On wednesday my mom's best friend died from cancer of the throat, chest, and brain a year after retireing, if that wasnt enough that very same day my brother's best friends(2 of them age 16 and 19) died in a horrible car...
    CaliGurl2007 CaliGurl2007
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 1, 2010

    I Find Grief Is Not Something I Can Even Articulate To Myself, It’s A Foriegn Scary Planet

    Dear friend and beloveds of those you too have lost.... I have been in terrible grief for 4 months now (April 16, 2012) he died unexpectedly. He was the best! and he is the best! I find lonliness at a level I never knew, nor even imagined. I can find someone I am sure to go with...
    activforlife activforlife
    46-50, F
    1 Response Aug 31, 2012


    My mom died on Sept. 9, 2009. She was my best friend and the one person I loved most on this earth. I am in terrible pain and grief over this. She had colon cancer and after about a year and a half she died in her hospice bed. I was there and am traumatized by memories of it...
    EmilyisHome EmilyisHome
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Oct 16, 2009

    A few days ago, my beloved friend Alexander

    passed away. After 18 long years of life, and tremendous hardship, it was his time to slip from this world and into the loving arms of God, leaving behind someone who loved him very dearly.Our regrettably short story began on a summer day, two years ago. I was sitting out back...
    KoalaRising KoalaRising
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jan 4, 2015

    The Hardest Thing..

    It's like your screaming but nobody can hear you, they don't understand how it feels to lose someone so close to you it hurts really bad. I lost my great-grandma 3 weeks ago. She'd been ill for 11 weeks and she made no improvements each week she seemed to be getting weaker and...
    deexx deexx
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Oct 12, 2012

    Is This Denial Or Madness Or A Bit Of Both

    I lost my wife just over a month ago. She had cancer and about 15 months before she died her oncologist had given her prognosis as a year. I looked after her up to the moment she died arranged her funeral and have her ashes in a casket. Yesterday I was looking for something and...
    Halley2 Halley2
    56-60, M
    5 Responses Sep 11, 2011

    Take It Easy.

    For My grandad. Easy now, easy now. The trees flutter brown and they stand strong now, I hate them all, from the roots in the ground, this is the season that I find the hardest, the time when everything thing departed, from all my securities, to love life and death, the winter...
    maskus maskus
    18-21, M
    May 21, 2012

    Mourning X 2

    Having to mourn for a loved one and a beloved pet at the same time is almost too much to bear. I ask God everyday WHY? It wasn't enough to take my grandfather away but you had to take my beloved pet rabbit as well. How could he be so cruel?
    howsab howsab
    31-35, F
    Jun 18, 2011


    My grief is nothing to what some on here are feeling and as time goes by mine will ease. Granddad died in hospital at 2am on Saturday 20 April 2013. I know I am feeling a bit better currently as I so far today have not cried but the funeral is not until 7 May so between now and...
    shall13 shall13
    41-45, F
    Apr 26, 2013

    For someone who is so alone who has the company

    of just one person most of the time Who doesnt really talk to anyone who would like to give up on life herself everyone who she thought she could hope in but really. You can only hope for yourself with yourself as yourself otherwise youll be alone forever and just be living this...
    deleted deleted
    Sep 17, 2015

    My Best Friend Is Gone.

     My best friend and her husband, small son and her mother were killed in a horrific car accident that was caused by a semi. They were on their way to a funeral when a car accident occured. While they were in a stand still a semi came barreling down on them. Witnessed said...
    jgirl69 jgirl69
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Sep 10, 2009
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