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I Am In Hell

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    Hell To Me

    Is boredom, banality, and self-loathing. Plus anger. Angry at the world, angry at people, angry at my thoughts, irritated at the slightest thing, then spiral back to depression. It sucks. But I'm walking on.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 31, 2010

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    No Escape

    my hell is my life, trapped inside of myself, i see no way out. there is only one escape from this life from my fate.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 13, 2009

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    Trapped

    i now many people who have far worse lives then me, people who have dealt w/ things that r nightmares made real. am not saying my life is worse, that i suffer more then anyone, i now i have people who love me, when others have noone. but this pain, n this darkness its actual...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 14, 2009

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    why me? i cant take this anymore it really make

    me depress, i cant brush it off in my mind it really torments me . .i hate it i cant get over it. . i cant function socially. .i always wear fake mask . .i totally suck . . why didnt i just given a fair fight in this life this is really unfair . .to hell with my life, this is...
    crushingnails crushingnails 18-21 3 days ago

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    Every step I take I am going deeper into the

    depths of misery. I can feel the fat on my body weighing me down as the hot coals under my feet make me melt. I am used to the pain. I am numb. I am strong. I will make my goal no matter how much it hurts. I will climb out of this. But I am already so far under. I will make it a...
    cheyseason cheyseason 13-15, F Mar 10

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    Hell Is The Impossibility Of Reason.

     ...I don't know what to do...ever had your character assassinated?  I have no more credibility...no one to talk to.  The worst part is that these people only see a fraction of what's actually there, but they judge the whole picture by that fraction.  People...
    infinitesorrows infinitesorrows 31-35, M 4 Responses Oct 28, 2009

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    Hell

    I CANT ESCAPE THIS WORLD OF HELL I LIVE IN.THERE IS NO WAY OUT N ESCAPE, BUT DEATH.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 6, 2009

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    There Is An Experience On Here

    "I don't want to live a lie." I don't know why such experiences exist at all - if those who supposedly "don't want to live a lie", ARE THE LIEMAKERS IN FACT.
    Thought1 Thought1 22-25 4 Responses Sep 5, 2009

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    I Am In Hell

    Hi. I have been in psychiatric therapy for 10 years and recently admitted that "I am in hell" to my therapists. He said that I had built a wall around myself.So how do I tear down this wall? I did sense a bit of relief after admitting this, but I had still rather be dead. I take...
    jj50518 jj50518 51-55 1 Response Jul 19, 2011

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    Really

    we say we r in hell. but the hell we r in is in us, in r minds n bodies. there is no escape. no way out.i am being tortured, but its me hurting myself. i wish i could escape, go far away, but i will always be me.u cant escape yourself, so i will never leave this private hell.
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Oct 5, 2009

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    I Am In Hell

    what is hell you ask?not the lake of fire ,but the cold dfarkness of knowing your alone and no one cares.no one to hear your screams.no one to calm your soul.dayds blend together.no time.you lose your self in an abyss that has no shape.it is all that is.being all alone in your...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 Feb 19, 2011

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    Darkness

    i can feel the darkness as it gets nearer.i try to keep it at bay. but i can feel it as it wraps its icey cold arms around me.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 30, 2009

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    He Begins His Eternity

    Entering hell. The walls are sweaty with small vents oozing out super heated slow moving orange-yellow burning air. The caverns are narrow and winding. satan is hovered over his book of souls making comments to somone else. His grotesque face sits on hunched shoulders. He's...
    youcthrume youcthrume 36-40, M Nov 20, 2013

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    Hell

    I can't sleep in this state, I think about past events and the things which have occurred to me; tv shows, statements people have previously said, and it all makes sense to me. It all justifies my existence is only of suffering. I find hidden symbolism behind the words of others...
    proby117 proby117 16-17 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    Highway To Hell

    I am in HellDevil Face >NooooooooooooooooThe End
    JimMorrisonRocks JimMorrisonRocks 26-30, M May 28, 2012

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    I travel in and out of hell every time someone

    makes me mad or when I feel like tormenting someone and the reason why I travel to hell is that my lord Satan turned me into one of his special demons that can travel to hell and my lord Satan has made me the Sargent in hell so I command 22 demons if you don't believe then I...
    Destruction666 Destruction666 22-25, T Jul 16, 2014

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    No Way To Escape This Abyss

    Aren't we all in the same hell, just dealing with different devils? I look around this and this isn'tĀ paradiseĀ and nothing that I can do in my power will make this somewhat like paradise this is just hell. There has to be something better after this, this can't be all of it...
    imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 3, 2012

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    This World Is Not For Me...

    I have given up. I have watch the things i love destroy themselves. I have been destroyed by this. I cant find work. I cant trust love. I am soon to be in the position where i cant help/take care of my kids. I have been manipulated and betrayed by those who say they care. and...
    thewaytheraincomesdownhard thewaytheraincomesdownhard 41-45 2 Responses Mar 29, 2013

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    I Thought It Was Just 2010...

    ...but apparently not. I am miserable most of the time, i cant connect to people or hold any hope for the future or feel happy and content for any amount of time, im not even sure i remember what "content" even feels like any more, and every time i manage to connect to anyone...
    djpanda djpanda 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 25, 2010

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    Everyday

    I just hate this life and I'm thinking that if I believed in a hell this would be it. I love the kids but this torment that I deal with inside is enough to eat anyone alive. I don't know if it's because I've done it for so long or if I just know that there is no other option but...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 3 Responses Oct 3, 2007

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    People Don't Help

    I hate it when people say "I understand ..." because they don't they can try and may think they do but i can tell you something they don't know S***!!!!! they try getting in your head when you just want to be left alone and it gets me so P***** off...
    LittleLostQueen LittleLostQueen 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 28, 2007

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    My Life

    if there is a hell on earth, then this is it, am living it. i hate my life, myself, everything except, my children my grandchildren, they r my only brief escape from this hell.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 11, 2009

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    Pain

    a world full of pain, darkness all around me, there is no escape, nowhere to go, welcome to hell, your new home
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jan 5, 2010

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    An Exaggeration

    I think anytime we think we are in he'll, it's self imposed. Still sucks though.
    NoLongerHere NoLongerHere 41-45, M 7 Responses Apr 6, 2013

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    Trapped

    websters dicationary says hell is=a place where souls of the dead r believed to exisist = a place or state of punishment 4 the wicked after death= a place r state of misery r wickedness.      i 'am not wicked, , n do not deserve this punishment. hell 4 me is a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 12, 2009

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    This World Is the Hell

    THIS IS OBVIOUS TRUTH. NOTHING IS EVER PROPER ON EARTH.
    Thought1 Thought1 22-25 4 Responses Sep 5, 2009

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    Hell On Earth

    I feel like am in hell on earth. Everyday i wake up i feel like i dont want to be here no more. That's why it feel like hell to me. Being a person who don't know what's wrong with me, who can't seen to find no greater good in life for me. I feel like giving up everyday. I tell...
    Shy024 Shy024 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 29, 2013

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    My Fate

    i can not leave, this is where i will 4 ever be, trapped in this hell i helped create, there will never be n escape, this is my fate,
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 26, 2009

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    One Day

    i see the way u look at me, u think am crazy, u just dont believe.   i have seen n heard things which u say can not be real. i have been tortured, my heart ripped out of my chest. i have watched as my life as slipped away. i cant even begin to describe the pain, flames...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Oct 2, 2009

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    No More

    I felt like i was in my own personally hell for too many years.But i realize know that only i can truly make myself happy.That to achieve the things i want out of life i must become stronger then i ever was.I know how depression can take ahold of us and feel like it wont ever let...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 19, 2010

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    Hell

    there is no escape, i can never leave. i created this hell, know it lives inside of me.
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Dec 11, 2009

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    This would have no off button in my case! so tell me all ! how about you? My luck I hit the nuclear launch button adjasoned to it!
    Brickcanas Brickcanas 46-50, M 1 Response Mar 4

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    miss2015 miss2015 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 6

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    divinitydragon divinitydragon 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 9

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    Dark night of the soul, I have been here before actually all my life. I've had very small bouts of relief then plunged back into the gut wrenching pain. Each time being worse...
    curiosi curiosi 51-55, F 1 Response Mar 9

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