I Am In Intesive Therapy

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    Well I Got Cancelled!

    I do not have to make this step for one more week. WHEW! Seems odd that I would be ready to take it and then fair pass out when the time came.  I should not be so happy to put it off one week. But I am! I think in my mind it is the need for control. She said be ready. Now...
    btrflysfound btrflysfound
    41-45
    1 Response Nov 14, 2008

    The Hardest Parts

    It isn't the numbness I fear or the terror it isn't the memories of the yelling and screaming that make these tears fall. It isn't remembering the things that happened in the dark. It is not the faded bruises or the marks on my soul. It isn't even the deep scars on my mind...
    btrflysfound btrflysfound
    41-45
    1 Response Oct 2, 2008

    Put It Out There

    Okay... They say that you put out into the atmosphere by simply being, and you receive what it is that you called for. Like a phone call so to speak. I for example have heard people say "Everyone uses me. It's like I have use me on my for head." They put out use me...
    btrflysfound btrflysfound
    41-45
    1 Response Oct 27, 2008

    The Day I Have Waited For Is Finally Here!!

    I have been on the waiting list for years for intensive therapy and my turn is here! I am very happy and excited, scared as hell, but relieved. The Post Traumatic Stress Clinic at my hospital offers a great program for survivors of trauma and I am certainly one of those. This is...
    btrflysfound btrflysfound
    41-45
    2 Responses Oct 1, 2008

    This Is My Last Floater Week

    I have to decide if I want to do the two years, if I want do it with the person I have in place and if I feel ready to face my shi*. I can answer the last question pretty easy. I have always been ready to do that. I face myself head on everyday. I think I am not insane for that...
    btrflysfound btrflysfound
    41-45
    Nov 6, 2008

    Wow! Week Three and I Need Drugs!!

    Okay... This is really hard. Today I had to pick a support person. Yuck. Then I had to admit to being too open and create a list of people in my life. Yuck. This scares me. I do not want to change. I want to get better, be healed, healthy, but not change. That is insanity by the...
    btrflysfound btrflysfound
    41-45
    Oct 16, 2008
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