I Am In Narcotics Anonymous

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 100 People

    Clean Time Vs. Recovery

       Recently I celebrated 4 years clean.  About a month ago I was doing step work with my sponsor and she asked me some very tough questions. What has changed? Other than not using, what is different? the truth is, I couldn't come up with very much. I have learned to conform to...
    Samsara02 Samsara02
    36-40, F
    1 Response Mar 2, 2011

    Why I Hate Narcotics Anonymous

    why i hate narcotics anonymous they flip when someone says 'sober' they are little felons pieces of krap who think they're bad when they're punks. lock them all up.
    badservicecrazypostalworker badservicecrazypostalworker
    3 Responses Mar 28, 2013

    My Life Divine

    I want to first of all thanks everyone in this group who is honest enough to share their deepest secret and their past. I was 16 and thought I was as cool as could be. I had a bunch of friends in high school, a boyfriend seven years older than I was who had a Harley Davidson...
    RavenmoonCanada RavenmoonCanada
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Sep 16, 2012

    A Young Addict

    im 19 years old and i am an addict. when i first went to NA i thought that they would judge me because of my age but they took me in and showed me they cared. Admitting i had a problem was the hardest thing i ever had to do,. Ive been clean for 47 days and its a battle that im...
    Sky4177 Sky4177
    2 Responses Jun 3, 2012

    Touched Moved And Inspired

    I was in a meeting at noon today and the topic was from the "Just for Today" which was titled "Fun". I had no idea what real fun was until I got off of the drugs. The drugs only afforded me the illusion that I was having fun. During the meetings someone shared that usually is...
    rmclin rmclin
    51-55, M
    2 Responses Feb 10, 2011

    When The Program Doesn't Work!

    Sometimes I get really sick of NA. I have had a hard time making friends in the program. I have made some mistakes in my relationships with others and sometimes feel judged by them. It is so easy to sit in my **** and feel sorry for myself. I have been involved in AA/NA since...
    rmclin rmclin
    51-55, M
    1 Response Aug 20, 2011

    Today I went to my brothers house.

    I've been sober a total of 7 days today and he was/is one of my main enablers. He left to go get some drugs and I stayed to continue my work on his computer. My boyfriend, with whom I am getting clean, showed up and told me how uncomfortable he was with me staying there alone...
    gellis123 gellis123
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 25, 2015

    Pain Is What Got Me Through Life

    I'm a 20 year old recovering addict. I was addicted to heroin but it all started with oxycontins. The pain of knowing that I had nothing when I was in active addiction is what got me clean and sober. I can't live life the way I did before. I must find a new way to live and I now...
    Highsun123 Highsun123
    2 Responses May 11, 2011

    My Story?

    Do YOU really want to hear MY story?? I do think not, judging from the number of entries here. I came to this website in search of an online chat room. And ended up here... Do YOU really want to hear MY story?? I am an addict. I consider myself to be a member of NA. Have been for...
    RoKuS RoKuS
    3 Responses Sep 13, 2013

    Like Lime On Trees

    “Do you think you’re sitting over there drinking that alcohol like water because you’re trying to feel more insecure about yourself?”Jimmie turned away from Spoojack and looked down the street. His eyes were filling with tears. He would not believe what he was to see. But...
    gsparky22 gsparky22
    41-45, M
    Apr 1, 2013

    Im An Addict

    I've always felt different and it wasnt till I came into the rooms of Na that I finally felt I'd come to a place I belonged . My journey of self district began when I was a young girl . At a very early age I felt that u was not as good as others and felt that there was something...
    Katieannacookabarra Katieannacookabarra
    31-35, F
    1 Response Sep 24, 2012

    Hi Everyone

    H i I'm a recovering addict my name is JoyM and I'm from NA Kolkata area , india region.I was using weed>booze>pills>heroine for 30 years and never thought I would be completly drug free ever.Drugs were my way of lofe.After marriage the heroine habit was playing merry...
    domking domking
    46-50, M
    5 Responses Nov 19, 2009

    My Boyfriend Is In NA

    I'm very proud of him, sober for 13 months....
    liligat liligat
    41-45, F
    1 Response Sep 14, 2013

    Sangha Invitation

    In my pursuit of further understanding and reduction of suffering I have studied and practiced mindfulness as much as possible on my own over the past year. Mindfulness practice is being employed in Western psychology to alleviate a variety of mental and physical conditions...
    gsparky22 gsparky22
    41-45, M
    Apr 20, 2013

    I am currently an addict.

    I have been an addict for about 7 yrs. I'm a week and a half away from moving home. I have put in my two weeks at wrk and am preparing to quit. I'm scared
    sarahmarie6896 sarahmarie6896
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jul 19, 2015

    An Addict's Story

    About 4 years back,I was attending an NA meeting.It was a celebration meeting, 4 persons celebrating 49 years of clean time in total,and the rooms was jampacked.And I was down and dejected,I was scared and unable to relate to the people assembled.Before that large gathering,I put...
    domking domking
    46-50, M
    5 Responses Jan 14, 2011

    Na Really Works, If You Work It.

    I am also an addict, it took years before I realized I wasn't just having fun, I was wasting away in front of everyone but I finally felt that I was okay, and I didn't ever want to stop. Even when I had to admit my daily usage, I justified it, I honestly believed that my using...
    Universallyunsure Universallyunsure
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 3, 2012

    Dancing Evergreen

    I checked the number on the incoming call vibrating in my hand. It was a call I was required, by law, to answer twenty-four hours a day seven days a week.I practice walking meditation and breathing exercises around an old historic State Penitentiary long since closed and turned...
    gsparky22 gsparky22
    41-45, M
    Nov 5, 2012

    I've been going to meetings.

    Went to my 6th meeting today because I'm trying to do 90 in 90 days and I was finally able to get a sponsor. I felt like using again this morning but after today's meeting which was O, D, I feel great and motivated to keep clean :)
    Nmetb Nmetb
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Jan 20


    I'm thinking about joining narcotics anonymous. I want to, but I'm a little apprehensive. I want help, but I also like my addiction. I relapsed just recently. Got my hands on some heavy narcotics. I want to stop before it gets out of hand again. They'll help me get clean right...
    absolutionist absolutionist
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Oct 7, 2010

    I'm Scared To Call My Sponsor For The First Time!

    She messaged me on facebook last night to call her. I first met her a few weeks ago and she gave me her number but I've been too nervous to call her. I'm gonna call her today, but I'm scared!
    songbirdsomething songbirdsomething
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 26, 2012

    Hoping to meet great people here.

    ..I'm 31 single .want to get a good companion
    loser0loser loser0loser
    31-35, M
    1 Response Jul 4, 2015

    I Enjoy The Moment.

    I,m greatful that i,m an addict.To day,secure in love of the fellowship,i can finally look another human being in the eye and be greatful for who i am,the Love i find in NA program reopen the world to me this what i feel my god send me new frontiers,are open to my self as i learn...
    aparel aparel
    Feb 15, 2013

    The Eyes Of A Stranger

    In my addiction, I was a stranger.  Nobody knew me anymore.  I was told the light in my eyes had vanished, and in my reflection, I saw someone else's face.  It seemed I could never run fast enough, and as time went on, what I thought of as my safe place had begun to morph...
    landonsgirl landonsgirl
    1 Response Sep 17, 2011

    for the first time since i quit 91 days ago i

    hold some b.s on my hand just hold it then i gave it back to my friend . i feel more powerful to go forward recovery way
    loser0loser loser0loser
    31-35, M
    Jul 5, 2015

    I have a hard time with NA,

    I love and hate you all, I aim for a better life sober of the demons that tormented me for so many years but I love marijuana and the health benefits it brings us, I consider myself clean and it doesn't matter what you want to say
    SinOrSaint SinOrSaint
    22-25, M
    1 Response Sep 2, 2014

    My Gratitude Speaks

                Some three years back , on this date a member of NA(Narcotics Anonymous) went to another member’s house.The latter had relapsed , and was coming to meetings loaded and was not able to share the relapse. He...
    domking domking
    46-50, M
    Jan 14, 2010

    One Hundred Nineteen Days

    I post sometimes on this website, maybe to just make my journey seem more tangible. I can go look back and see exactly what I was thinking a month ago, two months ago, even on my first days of recovery. I think that's pretty special. I managed to pull through the rampant emotions...
    emmaliejay emmaliejay
    18-21, T
    Jun 22, 2012


    God give me the serenity to accept things which cannot be changed, Give me courage to change things which must be changed; And the wisdom to distinguish one from the other.
    jack303 jack303
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jun 2, 2013


    I am 45 yrs old, parents both left me when I was young. I never learned how to show love, because I never got it. Ive been married 3 times (currently am) . Had a son whos now 21, hes dying of a rare disease he was diagnosed of having at age 6. Its been a long, rough road caring...
    forsaken2 forsaken2
    41-45, M
    Feb 19, 2013


    With the help of 12 steps of Narcotics Anonymous program n AA/NA fellowship, and with help from my parents,wife n many others , I have completed 6 years in recovery.My clean date is 14 Jan 2007. NA had promised me 'freedom from active addiction' and it has delivered, and with...
    domking domking
    46-50, M
    1 Response Jan 13, 2013
    duhwellman duhwellman
    22-25, M
    1 Response Nov 8, 2015

    My, my. In the two (almost) years

    since I signed on to this "Experience Project", all of three people responded to my sarcastic post. Which only tells me that my 'experience' is certainly not noteworthy. Not that it needs to be, not by a long shot. At best, it goes to show that I am still alive, still breathing...
    RoKuS RoKuS
    3 Responses Jul 20, 2015

    5 Minutes A Day

    The Serenity paragraph of the breathing exercise is an adaption of the Serenity prayer. While we lay in bed at night, waiting to fall asleep, we could easily spend what could be the best 5 minutes of the day. I wrote the following breathing exercise to help sleep uninterrupted...
    gsparky22 gsparky22
    41-45, M
    Nov 29, 2012

    Related Experiences

    today EP is going to Die it has been a great place to come and post meaningful creations over the last 5 years. it has also been a wonderful place to post meaningless sh*t...
    lionsdenn lionsdenn
    26-30, M
    Apr 21
    Nearly a decade ago, we started Experience Project with a mission of harnessing social media to bring empathy and understanding to all, through the power of anonymously shared...
    mazdanazo mazdanazo
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 20
    1. What is your name? You may call me by "Sydney". 2. How old are you? 13-15. Just to keep myself a little bit mysterious, you know? 3. Are you sure? ... I was a second ago!! D: 4...
    CherryJelly CherryJelly
    13-15, F
    Apr 16
    There is very little information about how the site works. I have sent questions to customer service but I don't know how long it takes them to get back. What are tokens used for...
    GatesofDawn67 GatesofDawn67
    51-55, M
    2 Responses Apr 15
    1.Isha 2.Love the colours blue green and black which is pretty ironic cause they belong to vastly different themes. 3.i hate ceiling fans they make me nostalgic(weird ik). 4.i...
    infie infie
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 14
    I was born in the late 90's, so I suppose I shouldn't exactly feel this way, but I do. The way I was raised differed from most of the people my age and that may have to do with it...
    MokeroX MokeroX
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 13
    Goodbye EP. .... you made it possible for me to get more interactions with people than i get in physical in my day to day . i didnt met much people there, but i also lived weird...
    topazeus topazeus
    22-25, M
    4 Responses Apr 13
    Hello, sorry for the late response. We received your emails, but we are also currently receiving hundreds of other emails as well, and won't be able to respond to all, if we are...
    footsugar123 footsugar123
    51-55, M
    Apr 13
    EP, don't go. You have helped so many and I remember being amazed and overjoyed when I first discovered your site because had been searching for such a thing and I didn't know of...
    SunshineWriter SunshineWriter
    Apr 13
    My wife and I have been married for 14 years. We have a beautiful daughter who is about to be 12 years old. . We had our share of fights the last couple of years, some fights were...
    WhimsicalWill WhimsicalWill
    46-50, M
    1 Response Apr 13
    **** CALLING ALL EP USERS *****Hackers keep trying to bring us down but our small kickstarter campaign was approved this morning for the re-experienceproject.org.REP WILL BE...
    Infinyte Infinyte
    36-40, M
    3 Responses Apr 12
    A person that truly loves you will never let you go, no matter how hard the situation is ~Anonymous And I will not let her go
    poetz13 poetz13
    36-40, F
    Apr 11
    Please take this survey for me, lol. it's for a sociology class and it's super quick plus it's anonymous and I could use a lot of responses. https://surveyplanet.com...
    ImagineA ImagineA
    Apr 11
    this "pause" is described as "unexpected" yet I feel it was to be expected. if the advice and knowledge shared on this site was not posted would any interest in "personal " data be...
    anonymouswolf01 anonymouswolf01
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Apr 11
    I finally find a place where i can freely express myself....and now it's closing. It's nice to get things off of your chest...anonymously and get feedback. A lot of people on here...
    BronzeJamesBond BronzeJamesBond
    31-35, M
    Apr 10
    An open letter to ExperienceProject team; The day I received an email with a subject "Until We Meet Again", I had a fuzzy feeling but doubting that it's bad. Until I read it, and...
    Beliebingxx Beliebingxx
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Apr 10
    I THINK THAT ANONYMOUS are a group of delusional CIWARDS tgat hide behind masks and tgat msy EVEN be affiliated with ISIS..they are a laughing stock and their phukin masks are just...
    LozzyFromRome LozzyFromRome
    46-50, M
    Apr 9
    I want to start a blog. Any ideas how to get started? I think it would be therapeutic
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Apr 9
    So, in 2014, I was going through a really rough patch with this guy I was dating and I needed to find an anonymous platform to vent, seek advice and just be me. I didn't want a...
    notAloneWithYou notAloneWithYou
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Apr 9
    I love it. So I asked this last night somewhere other than EP. "Attention Seeker" Am I an attention seeker or is it that I get so much attention? See. Who cares if I seek...
    LeahLovee LeahLovee
    70+, F
    5 Responses Apr 9
    Ok, a bit of self deprecation here: I occasionally design financial budgetary spreadsheets (I know, 'boring' you say, but read on...); after designing a framework of interrelated...
    TValentine TValentine
    56-60, M
    Apr 9
    If EP is a site/app where being Anonymous is a Norm, it is okay for people to have profile photos of something someone other than themselves.
    LeahLovee LeahLovee
    70+, F
    6 Responses Apr 8
    After going through it all, sifting feelings and emotions from past experiences and reality, I've come today to let go. And ironically, the announcement from EP almost solidifies...
    cbnfvr cbnfvr
    26-30, F
    Apr 8
    I am far from a new member, but seeing as this is the most popular page, I figured I'd post this here. It has come to my attention that Experience Project and the MeToo app will...
    Quillton Quillton
    18-21, M
    Apr 8
    It really does feel better to admit it to myself. At first, it was really hard, and to be honest, it still kinda is. I'm realizing that I've always felt this way, even when I didn...
    MichaeltheChristLover MichaeltheChristLover
    18-21, T
    Apr 8
    Since there's only a couple of weeks left of Ep, I'm going to find more time to come on here. Maybe every other day until they shut this site down. I guess I'll...
    shelikesher shelikesher
    1 Response Apr 8
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