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I Am In Recovery From Self Harm

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    I caved about a week ago.

    I don't really feel like sharing the full details, but it's going to be hard to hide it all wearing shorts... Guess I might just suffer the heat and wear pants until it's healed. But I feel better now.... I think...
    That0neGuy That0neGuy 22-25, M May 22

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    On And Off

    I have been self harming my self since grade 7 at first it was just little cuts then in grade 9 I when deeper and they where longer I would have just cut up and down my whole arms. People would make fun of me but it got to the point where I didn't care about trying to hide the...
    kaylatheanimegirl3 kaylatheanimegirl3 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2012

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    Ugh I said that this site would be the one I'd

    be true to myself since I can't really get myself into that in real life so I guess its time for me to get over with this topic... I hate myself so much right now, why am I even writing this? I don't know, its not like anyone is forcing me to I just feel like its easier to share...
    alpaqqa alpaqqa 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    I just flushed my blades

    and I plan to tell my therapist when I see her in a few days. I really want to recover and I hope I can.
    waffles0113 waffles0113 13-15 Jul 29

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    It has been 7 and a half months

    since my last relapse. That time, I had made it to 9 months. Then my love left me, after countless promises and reassurances - which I did not ask for but he gave freely. I knew what I was doing, and it wasn't impulsive. I deliberately chose my arm over my usual area (thighs...
    softbunny6 softbunny6 26-30, F 6 Responses May 2

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    Recovery

    It is a long and hard road to recover I self harmed for 6 years from the age of 7 to 16 I am only 17 now but i feel i am totally in recovery I know how addictive it is, when you want to stop, you cant and when you can, you dont want to . . . I just want people to know that...
    RememberTheStars RememberTheStars 16-17, F Jun 4, 2010

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    A whole year and a half

    and I've come so close today... what the hell is wrong with me? I just lost my positivity and everything I've worked hard to develop...
    appleof5 appleof5 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 22

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    As my featured story stated,

    I’ve been struggling with self-injury for a while now, my date I chose recovery, and decided to remain clean, March 5, 2014, remains the same. I made the choice to become clean for a bunch of reasons, but the main being that I wanted it for me. In the past I would try and quit...
    tayelizabeth tayelizabeth 18-21, F Jun 4

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    Its Hardest When I Think Im Doing The Best

    i have been self mutilating since 6th grade. there have been long periods where ill stop but then ill just relapse into it after being hurt or depressed to the point of hysteria. i have several people for a support system but the thing is when it really comes down to it i dont...
    swoosh1baby swoosh1baby 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 2, 2010

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    My Story

    It all started with a simple scratch on my wrist and then it got harder and harder and more and more everyday. I eventually got caught by my sister and lied and said the Dog scratched me. I then went to my bicep area I guess that's what it's called. Then I begin scratching and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 25, 2012

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    I started self harming in August 2010.

    It started off with scissors, just little scratches that barely broke skin. Then it slowly got worse, until it got to the point where I'd take a razor and wouldn't stop until both of my arms were dripping blood, both covered in deep, gaping wounds from wrist to elbow. I was...
    meggypeggy1996 meggypeggy1996 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 27

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    October 30th 2012

    I have been dealing with self-harm since I was 15 (2005) and I've fallen in and out of recovery more times than I can count. This time around I've been clean since the 30th of October and holding strong for the moment. I've been making a paper chain. Adding a new link for every...
    Revelx Revelx 22-25, F Dec 5, 2012

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    I've been self harming

    since I was 7 so I'm kinda well experienced with cutting, burning, carving, scratching, bruising and this has gone on for a while now and I always try to stop but I relapse all the damn time like I just need it because it helps me keep my sanity and so far I'm 4 days clean...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F 2 Responses May 22

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    My story. I can think of the exact time my

    addiction started, which is kinda funny, because I don't remember what triggered it. What I do remember, is sitting in the bathroom bawling my eyes out as I carve the word "lost" into my arm. I remember feeling numb. I could feel the blade tugging at my skin, but it didn't hurt...
    spiritchaser458 spiritchaser458 16-17, F Jan 19

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    megsupermaherio megsupermaherio 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 14

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    In about a week and a half,

    I will be 3 months clean. My last relapse really terrified me because I accidentally went too deep, and since then I haven't been getting urges. I don't know if its because of the new meds (they switched me from celexa to zoloft) or because how scared I was last time I cut. So...
    spiritchaser458 spiritchaser458 16-17, F Jan 27

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    One Week Down!

    So it's been a week since I last cut, and it's a challenge. I'm great full for the support I'm getting, and for those who are being patient with me. I still feel the urge, and it drives me crazy, but I'm not giving in. It's gonna be a rough trip!
    Jacqid96 Jacqid96 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 10, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    I'm not proud of it. I started self harming when I was 14 years old. I didn't hurt myself, and it wasn't very often. It started getting really bad while I was 15, my parents had a...
    CemoneDC CemoneDC 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 26

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    I find nothing wrong with self harm like most people do. The only thing I find wrong with self harm is what lies beneath it but not the actually self harm itself. Like, I cut...
    starryxo starryxo 22-25 2 Responses Sep 7

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    Hi I'm new here. This is a pretty personal post as a first story, but I feel like I can just let it all out on a community whom I am a stranger to. Basically, I used to self harm...
    DieWithYourMaskOn DieWithYourMaskOn 13-15, T 1 Response Sep 8

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    I started becoming depressed when I was 12 in the middle of 7th grade. My depression got worse and I began to self harm during the summer (when I was going into 8th grade). I had...
    livinglifeinpain livinglifeinpain 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Cutting is one of the most misunderstood human behaviors. And like any addiction, cutting is an extremely difficult thing to stop. We can become addicted to the chemicals that our...
    findmeholdmeloveme findmeholdmeloveme 18-21 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I used self harm for attention, and then it soon became more like an addiction so I started keeping it to myself. I now have stopped and Im almost a year clean :) I'm so glad I got...
    zennarts zennarts 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    I don't consider myself as battling self harm, it's somewhat true for the most part but in all honesty I'm not battling self harm..I'm battling myself.
    XxBadXVibesxX XxBadXVibesxX 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 2

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    I have always been bad around knives and sharp objects like broken glass, and it's gotten beyond a joke. Every day I fantasise about self-harming, thinking about the pain it will...
    Rowenya Rowenya 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 3

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    I never cut myself. I thought I was strong because of this. But I realised I self-harmed in other ways. I would deny myself good things to punish myself for something. I would...
    kalila37 kalila37 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 12

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    Today, I made my first appointment with a mental health service. I am yet to hear back from them. I'm scared, relieved, excited, nervous and a part of me wants to call up to say to...
    Kneetar04 Kneetar04 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    So, I had been self harming for about 3 years, but I only started "cutting" this year, and my friends noticed the scars and tried to get me to stop. So I told them I had and just...
    ItalicHail ItalicHail 16-17, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm addicted to self harming, I just feel so worthless, ugly and insecure. I can just never see my self as beautiful, or someone who has a good personality. everyone just know me...
    averageme1 averageme1 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 28

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    This kind of sh*t is just ridiculous. EP Link Romanticising self harm is just bloody stupid; it's not cute, lovely, 'tragically beautiful' or any of that bullsh*t. It's just a...
    BrokenThread BrokenThread 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    I am battling self harm.People make you feel so **** that you have to take a blade to your skin and sit there crying for hours finding yourself worthless.Its horrible....I cut my...
    jasminebieber1234 jasminebieber1234 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 8

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    Self harmed for 4 years... Stopped about three months ago because of my wonderful boyfriend Mark. He has helped me so much and Is there for me all the time. I no longer feel the...
    gorgeoushobo gorgeoushobo 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    About a month ago I opened up to my parents about my self harm and it felt simply..great. I was so scared about their reaction but they've been actually amazing. I haven't cut...
    xdropsofjupiter xdropsofjupiter 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    If you used to self-harm, what are the strategies you used that helped you stop?
    Kneetar04 Kneetar04 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 25

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    i used to self harm. i want to help people get better and keep clean
    blosszm blosszm 13-15, F Aug 26

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    Back to being three days free of self harm again....
    hellerpeople hellerpeople 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 29

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    I self harm and I'm trying to stop but it's so hard...not even my best friend can help my depression...
    suicideDepression suicideDepression 13-15, M 2 Responses Aug 29

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    I started to self harm in senior school, as I would constantly get bullied by people. I have been bullied my whole life, and by the time I went to senior school, I had just had...
    shannonmeier1 shannonmeier1 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 31

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    I wanna try and stop self harming myself. But it's so hard doing it. All I need help and finding people who actually care about me.
    CuttingIsMyBestFriend CuttingIsMyBestFriend 18-21, F Sep 1

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    I wanna try and stop self harming myself. But it's so hard doing it. All I need help and finding people who actually care about me.
    CuttingIsMyBestFriend CuttingIsMyBestFriend 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 1

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    I wanna try and stop self harming myself. But it's so hard doing it. All I need help and finding people who actually care about me.
    CuttingIsMyBestFriend CuttingIsMyBestFriend 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 1

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    My self harm thoughts and urges are really getting to me but I have been clean for almost a month.. I don't want to relapse now..
    Muppo23 Muppo23 13-15, F Sep 1

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    I'm disappointed by how broken of a person I am. I have so many scars. I hide them all by bracelets and no one has any idea. I want to stop and I know it would break my moms heart...
    milesfromsaftey milesfromsaftey 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 3

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    Stopped self harming for this girl I liked...turned out she didn't like me back :( ever have that one crush that you just felt something with? Ya..it was like that
    suicideDepression suicideDepression 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 3

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    I youse to self harm until I repulsed yeh I did it because that is my way of coping but then I reulised the people who bully me and make me do this are winning so I decided to cope...
    Lewismarsh99 Lewismarsh99 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 6

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    It's been a while since I thought about self harm , but the urge is back once again.
    mimilsu mimilsu 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 7

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    What's better a knife or a blade? hang or drown? Off a bridge or bleed to death? love or hate? Good or bad? I self harm, I wish I had pills or a rope, a shape blade, I wish someone...
    brownzugar brownzugar 16-17, M 2 Responses Sep 8

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    to anyone that is, was, or isn't a self-harmer, just remember it's suicide awareness/ prevention day and that you should put your tools down and think of the good things in life...
    cakehhx cakehhx 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 10

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    Oh wow. I haven't done this in so long. It hurts sooo good xD My gosh I haven't feel this high in a long time. It's morbid and I know it's a little bit wrong but I do not regret it...
    gigglesounds gigglesounds 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 10

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