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I Am In Recovery From Self Harm

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 106 People

    myhappylittlepill myhappylittlepill 13-15, F 12 hrs ago

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    In about a week and a half,

    I will be 3 months clean. My last relapse really terrified me because I accidentally went too deep, and since then I haven't been getting urges. I don't know if its because of the new meds (they switched me from celexa to zoloft) or because how scared I was last time I cut. So...
    spiritchaser458 spiritchaser458 16-17, F Jan 27

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    I'm doing good. I'm 8 months clean

    and I don't plan on going back. The last time I harmed was February 2013, my boyfriend and I had just broken up and it was rough. I wasn't doing very well and I broke down and cut and cut the scars are still there and it was by far my worst episode. After that I got help. And...
    Leahisawesome Leahisawesome 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 5

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    I caved about a week ago.

    I don't really feel like sharing the full details, but it's going to be hard to hide it all wearing shorts... Guess I might just suffer the heat and wear pants until it's healed. But I feel better now.... I think...
    That0neGuy That0neGuy 22-25, M May 22

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    My Story

    It all started with a simple scratch on my wrist and then it got harder and harder and more and more everyday. I eventually got caught by my sister and lied and said the Dog scratched me. I then went to my bicep area I guess that's what it's called. Then I begin scratching and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 25, 2012

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    I started self harming in August 2010.

    It started off with scissors, just little scratches that barely broke skin. Then it slowly got worse, until it got to the point where I'd take a razor and wouldn't stop until both of my arms were dripping blood, both covered in deep, gaping wounds from wrist to elbow. I was...
    meggypeggy1996 meggypeggy1996 18-21, F Jun 27

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    On And Off

    I have been self harming my self since grade 7 at first it was just little cuts then in grade 9 I when deeper and they where longer I would have just cut up and down my whole arms. People would make fun of me but it got to the point where I didn't care about trying to hide the...
    kaylatheanimegirl3 kaylatheanimegirl3 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2012

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    Its Hardest When I Think Im Doing The Best

    i have been self mutilating since 6th grade. there have been long periods where ill stop but then ill just relapse into it after being hurt or depressed to the point of hysteria. i have several people for a support system but the thing is when it really comes down to it i dont...
    swoosh1baby swoosh1baby 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 2, 2010

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    October 30th 2012

    I have been dealing with self-harm since I was 15 (2005) and I've fallen in and out of recovery more times than I can count. This time around I've been clean since the 30th of October and holding strong for the moment. I've been making a paper chain. Adding a new link for every...
    Revelx Revelx 22-25, F Dec 5, 2012

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    My story. I can think of the exact time my

    addiction started, which is kinda funny, because I don't remember what triggered it. What I do remember, is sitting in the bathroom bawling my eyes out as I carve the word "lost" into my arm. I remember feeling numb. I could feel the blade tugging at my skin, but it didn't hurt...
    spiritchaser458 spiritchaser458 16-17, F Jan 19

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    I've been self harming

    since I was 7 so I'm kinda well experienced with cutting, burning, carving, scratching, bruising and this has gone on for a while now and I always try to stop but I relapse all the damn time like I just need it because it helps me keep my sanity and so far I'm 4 days clean...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F 2 Responses May 22

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    One Week Down!

    So it's been a week since I last cut, and it's a challenge. I'm great full for the support I'm getting, and for those who are being patient with me. I still feel the urge, and it drives me crazy, but I'm not giving in. It's gonna be a rough trip!
    Jacqid96 Jacqid96 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 10, 2013

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    I just flushed my blades

    and I plan to tell my therapist when I see her in a few days. I really want to recover and I hope I can.
    waffles0113 waffles0113 13-15 Jul 29

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    As my featured story stated,

    I’ve been struggling with self-injury for a while now, my date I chose recovery, and decided to remain clean, March 5, 2014, remains the same. I made the choice to become clean for a bunch of reasons, but the main being that I wanted it for me. In the past I would try and quit...
    tayelizabeth tayelizabeth 18-21, F Jun 4

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    megsupermaherio megsupermaherio 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 14

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    I am 3 months clean. I really don't want to

    relapse. I promised my boyfriend that I wouldn't hurt myself again. I get urges sometimes but they go away if I distract myself by doing something I enjoy.
    christarose96 christarose96 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 20

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    A whole year and a half

    and I've come so close today... what the hell is wrong with me? I just lost my positivity and everything I've worked hard to develop...
    appleof5 appleof5 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 22

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    It has been 7 and a half months

    since my last relapse. That time, I had made it to 9 months. Then my love left me, after countless promises and reassurances - which I did not ask for but he gave freely. I knew what I was doing, and it wasn't impulsive. I deliberately chose my arm over my usual area (thighs...
    softbunny6 softbunny6 26-30, F 5 Responses May 2

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    Recovery

    It is a long and hard road to recover I self harmed for 6 years from the age of 7 to 16 I am only 17 now but i feel i am totally in recovery I know how addictive it is, when you want to stop, you cant and when you can, you dont want to . . . I just want people to know that...
    RememberTheStars RememberTheStars 16-17, F Jun 4, 2010

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    Ugh I said that this site would be the one I'd

    be true to myself since I can't really get myself into that in real life so I guess its time for me to get over with this topic... I hate myself so much right now, why am I even writing this? I don't know, its not like anyone is forcing me to I just feel like its easier to share...
    alpaqqa alpaqqa 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    I'm just about a month clean from self harm, but the weight of the world keeps making it harder and harder to stay clean.
    BeYou321 BeYou321 13-15, F Nov 4

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    Today i was upset at school i really want to self harm but i left my cutter at home so i use my empty pencil mechanic to self harm well it didn"t bleed at all and the scar is...
    reginacs reginacs 16-17, F 1 hr ago

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    As an individual, speaking with all honesty ... I still have not approached the light at the end of the tunnel which is loving myself the way I am. I've come to a realization that...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 2 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    Hi guys. I'm Jennifer and Im 18 years-old and used to be very happy-go-lucky and in love with life. I was in an depression because my best friend commited suicide. I wont go in...
    JennyVDV JennyVDV 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I've almost completely moved on from physical self harm; I find mental/psychological self harm more exciting, as well as much more dangerous
    EvaSFenty EvaSFenty 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 3

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    Lately I've decided to really try to stoop self harming and so far it is going really well. I'm still not ready to recover from my ED (eating disorder) but self harm has made such...
    littlecrazymia littlecrazymia 13-15, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    A few years go, my parents go in to HUGE arguments. I hated it. There were some that were just like ehhh and just some that were OMG just stop. I cry every time that my parents...
    cantsaymynamesorry cantsaymynamesorry 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    From the age of 13 iv'e had bouts of crippling depression, developing into insomnia, losing dangerous amounts of weight from not eating, and generally hating myself. I remember...
    smokentokes smokentokes 22-25, M Nov 7

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    Is it weird to self harm even though I know it isn't healthy. Something about self-harm, even if it's just a few scratched, seems to relieve my anxiety unlike anything else I have...
    RainyMaze RainyMaze 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 6

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    In a video that I just finished watching, a man said that people that self harm are "weak and cowardly" because they can't deal with their problems head on.....so just because I...
    Ki123 Ki123 18-21, F 6 Responses a week ago

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    I'm watching the blood drip from my arm. I've been wanting to do this for so long, and now I've got the balls. I think the only thing beautiful about me is the blood. It's so red...
    Cazjarvo Cazjarvo 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 14

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    i can't stop self-harming, and i'm tired of it. I will get anxiety real bad, like I'll sweat, start trembling, my adrenaline pumps, sometimes I can't breath and start...
    killeyj killeyj 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 15

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    I haven't self harmed for 3 years and I'm still recovering from my past..
    Brookedrumm Brookedrumm 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    I'm making a long story short, but I started self harming in 6th grade. (That's 12y/o for those of u who don't know) and I stopped just before 7th grade started. I casually cut a...
    LittlemsA LittlemsA 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 2

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    I used to self harm I still think about the relief that it gives me , I still stick the blade up to my skin to try and remember how good it felt ... But I'm staying strong and I'm...
    randicandi456 randicandi456 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 26

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    ok so I self harm lots and last night I cut all up my arms, down my legs and even where I could reach my back. I'm covered in scars and my parents don't even notice. Anyone else...
    Randomperson27704695 Randomperson27704695 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 31

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    I'm really frustrated. I keep getting triggered by one of my favorite shows (Supernatural!) because people keep getting cut in it. Not even in a self harm way, just like in...
    xoxoCharlierose xoxoCharlierose 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 2

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    there's many problems at home , with my friends & I can't take life anymore , I do self harm , I feel stressed most of the time & I feel lonely .
    julissaaxx julissaaxx 18-21, F Nov 2

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    I've been self harming since I was 10 years old and I'm 18 now. I don't really want to stop. It helps me in ways nothing else can. Well nothing else except maybe drugs, but I don't...
    DarkEyedDreamers DarkEyedDreamers 18-21, F Nov 6

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    I'm afraid the only way to make my self harm area not disfigured is plastic surgery. I just keep opening the same place up over and over. To me it looks damaged, yes, but the one...
    PinkBunnyBlackHeart PinkBunnyBlackHeart 36-40, F Nov 10

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    I'm zero days clean again. I hate how people think that self harming is just cutting because it's not. I scratch. Today was the first time that I actually drew blood. It wasn't...
    bvbandmcr bvbandmcr 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 10

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    I was outside with my sister in front of the restaurant. What I planned was to let that damn car run over me all the setting is perfect, the van driver looks handsome and my sister...
    SwanNual SwanNual 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 12

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    I did it again. Self harm is hard to stop. I wish I could stop.
    wisdomgirl wisdomgirl 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 13

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    Today in class I got a assignment that I'm supposed to write about my child hood since that class around noon I've been super depressed and have been having a lot of flashbacks. I...
    Muppo23 Muppo23 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 14

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    I've been clean for 5 days now but I don't know how much longer I can stay clean for. It's getting harder to not self harm. 5 days ago was the first time that I actually drew blood...
    bvbandmcr bvbandmcr 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 16

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    The other day I cut myself on my thigh and my father saw them because I was stupid and wore shorts to bed. Later on that day he told me I'm acting like a little girl and others...
    helloimxxxxx helloimxxxxx 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 17

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    Not only do I do it but I am obsessed with it. When I watch famous youtubers or even celebrities on tv I listen carefully to hear for them to mention self harm of any kind. Even if...
    battlefighter battlefighter 18-21, F a week ago

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