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I Am In Recovery From Self Harm

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 147 People

    As my featured story stated,

    I’ve been struggling with self-injury for a while now, my date I chose recovery, and decided to remain clean, March 5, 2014, remains the same. I made the choice to become clean for a bunch of reasons, but the main being that I wanted it for me. In the past I would try and quit...
    tayelizabeth tayelizabeth 18-21, F Jun 4, 2014

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    My story. I can think of the exact time my

    addiction started, which is kinda funny, because I don't remember what triggered it. What I do remember, is sitting in the bathroom bawling my eyes out as I carve the word "lost" into my arm. I remember feeling numb. I could feel the blade tugging at my skin, but it didn't hurt...
    spiritchaser458 spiritchaser458 18-21, F Jan 19, 2014

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    Ugh I said that this site would be the one I'd

    be true to myself since I can't really get myself into that in real life so I guess its time for me to get over with this topic... I hate myself so much right now, why am I even writing this? I don't know, its not like anyone is forcing me to I just feel like its easier to share...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 7, 2014

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    I am 3 months clean. I really don't want to

    relapse. I promised my boyfriend that I wouldn't hurt myself again. I get urges sometimes but they go away if I distract myself by doing something I enjoy.
    Allcatsareawesome Allcatsareawesome 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 20, 2014

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    I started self harming in August 2010.

    It started off with scissors, just little scratches that barely broke skin. Then it slowly got worse, until it got to the point where I'd take a razor and wouldn't stop until both of my arms were dripping blood, both covered in deep, gaping wounds from wrist to elbow. I was...
    meggypeggy1996 meggypeggy1996 18-21, F Jun 27, 2014

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    When I was severely depressed I used to self

    harm ever single day. Some days it was really bad and other days it was just light cuts. It moved from my arms to my legs. Especially because I started hating my bust and how "fat" I was. It was terrible i even spelled it out on my thigh with a blade. Most scars are gone now but...
    gm126 gm126 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    I've been self harming

    since I was 7 so I'm kinda well experienced with cutting, burning, carving, scratching, bruising and this has gone on for a while now and I always try to stop but I relapse all the damn time like I just need it because it helps me keep my sanity and so far I'm 4 days clean...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F 1 Response May 22, 2014

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    My Story

    It all started with a simple scratch on my wrist and then it got harder and harder and more and more everyday. I eventually got caught by my sister and lied and said the Dog scratched me. I then went to my bicep area I guess that's what it's called. Then I begin scratching and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 25, 2012

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    Recovery

    It is a long and hard road to recover I self harmed for 6 years from the age of 7 to 16 I am only 17 now but i feel i am totally in recovery I know how addictive it is, when you want to stop, you cant and when you can, you dont want to . . . I just want people to know that...
    RememberTheStars RememberTheStars 16-17, F Jun 4, 2010

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    It has been 7 and a half months

    since my last relapse. That time, I had made it to 9 months. Then my love left me, after countless promises and reassurances - which I did not ask for but he gave freely. I knew what I was doing, and it wasn't impulsive. I deliberately chose my arm over my usual area (thighs...
    softbunny6 softbunny6 26-30, F 4 Responses May 2, 2014

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    I broke my streak... it was April 2nd exactly

    11 months of being clean. I ****** it all up and cut up my entire stomach with those same weak safety scissors. Even though the scissors were weak my drive to **** up my body was so strong the cut's were the deepest ive ever done. I disappointed myself so much and ruined my goal...
    MorbidRainbow MorbidRainbow 13-15, F Apr 4

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    myhappylittlepill myhappylittlepill 13-15, F Nov 25, 2014

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    One Week Down!

    So it's been a week since I last cut, and it's a challenge. I'm great full for the support I'm getting, and for those who are being patient with me. I still feel the urge, and it drives me crazy, but I'm not giving in. It's gonna be a rough trip!
    Jacqid96 Jacqid96 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 10, 2013

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    Megsupermario Megsupermario 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 14, 2014

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    I caved about a week ago.

    I don't really feel like sharing the full details, but it's going to be hard to hide it all wearing shorts... Guess I might just suffer the heat and wear pants until it's healed. But I feel better now.... I think...
    That0neGuy That0neGuy 22-25, M May 22, 2014

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    I just flushed my blades

    and I plan to tell my therapist when I see her in a few days. I really want to recover and I hope I can.
    waffles0113 waffles0113 13-15 Jul 29, 2014

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    A whole year and a half

    and I've come so close today... what the hell is wrong with me? I just lost my positivity and everything I've worked hard to develop...
    appleof5 appleof5 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 22, 2014

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    Its Hardest When I Think Im Doing The Best

    i have been self mutilating since 6th grade. there have been long periods where ill stop but then ill just relapse into it after being hurt or depressed to the point of hysteria. i have several people for a support system but the thing is when it really comes down to it i dont...
    swoosh1baby swoosh1baby 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 2, 2010

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    I'm doing good. I'm 8 months clean

    and I don't plan on going back. The last time I harmed was February 2013, my boyfriend and I had just broken up and it was rough. I wasn't doing very well and I broke down and cut and cut the scars are still there and it was by far my worst episode. After that I got help. And...
    Leahisawesome Leahisawesome 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 5, 2014

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    October 30th 2012

    I have been dealing with self-harm since I was 15 (2005) and I've fallen in and out of recovery more times than I can count. This time around I've been clean since the 30th of October and holding strong for the moment. I've been making a paper chain. Adding a new link for every...
    Revelx Revelx 22-25, F Dec 5, 2012

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    In about a week and a half,

    I will be 3 months clean. My last relapse really terrified me because I accidentally went too deep, and since then I haven't been getting urges. I don't know if its because of the new meds (they switched me from celexa to zoloft) or because how scared I was last time I cut. So...
    spiritchaser458 spiritchaser458 18-21, F Jan 27, 2014

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    On And Off

    I have been self harming my self since grade 7 at first it was just little cuts then in grade 9 I when deeper and they where longer I would have just cut up and down my whole arms. People would make fun of me but it got to the point where I didn't care about trying to hide the...
    kaylatheanimegirl3 kaylatheanimegirl3 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    I couldn't stop myself from cutting today and the worst part is I enjoyed it.
    Simiyes Simiyes 26-30, M 1 day ago

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    I keep on fainting and getting really drowsy and wanting to throw up after I cut. Is there any way to stop fainting after I self harm. Don't say "don't self harm" cuz I'm going to...
    JustaGirlWhoDrinksTooMuchTea JustaGirlWhoDrinksTooMuchTea 13-15, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I found a new way to self harm and it has went unknown plz don't try it could get u really sick but I don't care
    wolf124 wolf124 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    I'm early 20s and self harm when I feel very overwhelmed by emotion or my surrounding. Not often but it is something I've struggled with for years. Since puberty. Just sayin I'm...
    Lhokw Lhokw 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    So ive been self harming by burning and this is my last night to do it cause i promised myself i wouldn't do it for a while after this and i got to say im not really being...
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    It's just something that I do a lot now. I hate myself so much. I continually and increasingly see how utterly worthless I am. I always feel the urge to slice my skin open to just...
    Whobody Whobody 16-17, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I can't even freaking walk to my room from the shower anymore. Probably should have thought that through before cut all over my shoulders and upper arms. -.-
    brokenangel14 brokenangel14 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    Hey, I need some help. And please don't comment saying this is bad and wrong and I shouldn't be doing it because I've been told a few too many times. I've been battling self harm...
    georgia5656 georgia5656 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I do it so much. I don't know what to do. I cut all the time. When ever I feel negative emotions and even when I'm bored too. I'm addicted to the the pain and watching the blood...
    AceTeen123 AceTeen123 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I used to self harm. haven't for two years. believe it or not I still struggle with the thought of doing it. I thought I wouldn't anymore.. it's been two years, you know? I...
    lydiamarie15 lydiamarie15 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    i have them on the side of my right thigh. Back in January I was going through a difficult time and I was in constant anger and didn't know how to release it so, I harmed myself. I...
    Perseph0ne Perseph0ne 26-30, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I have a very weird self-harm issue. It's not in a traditional sense. I don't cut myself. I just purposely hurt myself. I've taken over 35 pills and have been absolutely fine...
    KristinJuliet KristinJuliet 16-17, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I used to self harm for a lot of reasons and in a lot of different ways. I self harmed because I was scared and angry. I did it because I was abused by one of my treatment centers...
    LateApology LateApology 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I want to self harm again, it's a bad time and I feel myself slowly drifting back into these negative moods and at the end of the day all I want is cry and harm myself. It's so...
    Swombl Swombl 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I've just started again but I want to stop. Does anyone have any tips on what to do instead of self harming because my old isn't working as much now.
    JoshKilbride2 JoshKilbride2 13-15, M 3 Responses Aug 23

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    I self harm and yet I'm not ashamed of my scars nor do I hide them any more. I used to cut on my arm till one drunk night I cut so deep I gave my self permanent nerve damage in my...
    cosciatony cosciatony 26-30, M Aug 22

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    People always wonder what's the gain out of self harming.. And I was like "I feel so much better" but I was wrong. There is no gain. Glad I stopped. I actually feel pretty lame...
    Alltimefreak Alltimefreak 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 22

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    I feel pretty lame that I self harmed. my dad is emotionally, verbally, and mentally abusive towards me. I guess anytime he was abusive towards me that's when I'd self harm. I...
    haleymc haleymc 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 22

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    On the 4th of February this year my best friend was believed to have committed suicide. The girlfriend I had at the time didn't like him so shouted at me when I became upset that...
    ECH0o ECH0o 16-17, T Aug 21

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    I used to self harm a few months back but then I did it again last night. It's been so hard because my girlfriend has been all depressed and I've made her feel better but I've gone...
    JoshKilbride2 JoshKilbride2 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 18

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    Everything is falling apart and I'm losing everyone and I don't know what to do I'm just blaring my music and sobbing into my pillow I really feel like I'm going to self harm and I...
    LostAndLonelyBoy LostAndLonelyBoy 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 17

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