I Am In Recovery From Self Harm

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 153 People

    Its Hardest When I Think Im Doing The Best

    i have been self mutilating since 6th grade. there have been long periods where ill stop but then ill just relapse into it after being hurt or depressed to the point of hysteria. i have several people for a support system but the thing is when it really comes down to it i dont...
    swoosh1baby swoosh1baby
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 2, 2010

    Anyone who has self harmed

    or wants to or is thinking about it. Please dont....the recovery is harder than it's worth, and the scars aren't worth it. I don't want this to happen to anyone else. Please do your best to stay safe, there is always someone who cares. And you don't want your ankles to look like...
    georgia5656 georgia5656
    16-17, F
    Jan 22

    Recovery

    It is a long and hard road to recover I self harmed for 6 years from the age of 7 to 16 I am only 17 now but i feel i am totally in recovery I know how addictive it is, when you want to stop, you cant and when you can, you dont want to . . . I just want people to know that...
    RememberTheStars RememberTheStars
    16-17, F
    Jun 4, 2010

    I broke my streak... it was April 2nd exactly

    11 months of being clean. I ****** it all up and cut up my entire stomach with those same weak safety scissors. Even though the scissors were weak my drive to **** up my body was so strong the cut's were the deepest ive ever done. I disappointed myself so much and ruined my goal...
    MorbidRainbow MorbidRainbow
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 4, 2015
    myhappylittlepill myhappylittlepill
    13-15, F
    Nov 25, 2014

    My story. I can think of the exact time my

    addiction started, which is kinda funny, because I don't remember what triggered it. What I do remember, is sitting in the bathroom bawling my eyes out as I carve the word "lost" into my arm. I remember feeling numb. I could feel the blade tugging at my skin, but it didn't hurt...
    spiritchaser458 spiritchaser458
    18-21, F
    Jan 19, 2014

    I started self harming in August 2010.

    It started off with scissors, just little scratches that barely broke skin. Then it slowly got worse, until it got to the point where I'd take a razor and wouldn't stop until both of my arms were dripping blood, both covered in deep, gaping wounds from wrist to elbow. I was...
    meggypeggy1996 meggypeggy1996
    18-21, F
    Jun 27, 2014

    I've been self harming

    since I was 7 so I'm kinda well experienced with cutting, burning, carving, scratching, bruising and this has gone on for a while now and I always try to stop but I relapse all the damn time like I just need it because it helps me keep my sanity and so far I'm 4 days clean...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX
    16-17, F
    1 Response May 22, 2014

    October 30th 2012

    I have been dealing with self-harm since I was 15 (2005) and I've fallen in and out of recovery more times than I can count. This time around I've been clean since the 30th of October and holding strong for the moment. I've been making a paper chain. Adding a new link for every...
    Revelx Revelx
    22-25, F
    Dec 5, 2012

    As my featured story stated,

    I’ve been struggling with self-injury for a while now, my date I chose recovery, and decided to remain clean, March 5, 2014, remains the same. I made the choice to become clean for a bunch of reasons, but the main being that I wanted it for me. In the past I would try and quit...
    tayelizabeth tayelizabeth
    18-21, F
    Jun 4, 2014

    Currently 40 days clean

    since February 22nd :)
    StopSuicideAndDepression StopSuicideAndDepression
    16-17, F
    Apr 2

    Ugh I said that this site would be the one I'd

    be true to myself since I can't really get myself into that in real life so I guess its time for me to get over with this topic... I hate myself so much right now, why am I even writing this? I don't know, its not like anyone is forcing me to I just feel like its easier to share...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 7, 2014

    When I was severely depressed I used to self

    harm ever single day. Some days it was really bad and other days it was just light cuts. It moved from my arms to my legs. Especially because I started hating my bust and how "fat" I was. It was terrible i even spelled it out on my thigh with a blade. Most scars are gone now but...
    gm126 gm126
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 19, 2015

    I just flushed my blades

    and I plan to tell my therapist when I see her in a few days. I really want to recover and I hope I can.
    waffles0113 waffles0113
    16-17
    Jul 29, 2014

    My Story

    It all started with a simple scratch on my wrist and then it got harder and harder and more and more everyday. I eventually got caught by my sister and lied and said the Dog scratched me. I then went to my bicep area I guess that's what it's called. Then I begin scratching and...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 25, 2012

    I'm doing good. I'm 8 months clean

    and I don't plan on going back. The last time I harmed was February 2013, my boyfriend and I had just broken up and it was rough. I wasn't doing very well and I broke down and cut and cut the scars are still there and it was by far my worst episode. After that I got help. And...
    Leahisawesome Leahisawesome
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 5, 2014

    It has been 7 and a half months

    since my last relapse. That time, I had made it to 9 months. Then my love left me, after countless promises and reassurances - which I did not ask for but he gave freely. I knew what I was doing, and it wasn't impulsive. I deliberately chose my arm over my usual area (thighs...
    softbunny6 softbunny6
    26-30, F
    2 Responses May 2, 2014

    I caved about a week ago.

    I don't really feel like sharing the full details, but it's going to be hard to hide it all wearing shorts... Guess I might just suffer the heat and wear pants until it's healed. But I feel better now.... I think...
    That0neGuy That0neGuy
    26-30, M
    May 22, 2014

    One Week Down!

    So it's been a week since I last cut, and it's a challenge. I'm great full for the support I'm getting, and for those who are being patient with me. I still feel the urge, and it drives me crazy, but I'm not giving in. It's gonna be a rough trip!
    Jacqid96 Jacqid96
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 10, 2013

    If you get urges read this.

    http://m.wikihow.com/Stop-Self-Harming Even if you think that it's another bullsh*t
    ghostdolly ghostdolly
    13-15, F
    Jan 24

    In about a week and a half,

    I will be 3 months clean. My last relapse really terrified me because I accidentally went too deep, and since then I haven't been getting urges. I don't know if its because of the new meds (they switched me from celexa to zoloft) or because how scared I was last time I cut. So...
    spiritchaser458 spiritchaser458
    18-21, F
    Jan 27, 2014

    A whole year and a half

    and I've come so close today... what the hell is wrong with me? I just lost my positivity and everything I've worked hard to develop...
    appleof5 appleof5
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 22, 2014
    Megsupermario Megsupermario
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Jan 14, 2014

    On And Off

    I have been self harming my self since grade 7 at first it was just little cuts then in grade 9 I when deeper and they where longer I would have just cut up and down my whole arms. People would make fun of me but it got to the point where I didn't care about trying to hide the...
    kaylatheanimegirl3 kaylatheanimegirl3
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 25, 2012

    I am 3 months clean. I really don't want to

    relapse. I promised my boyfriend that I wouldn't hurt myself again. I get urges sometimes but they go away if I distract myself by doing something I enjoy.
    BeautifulSoul09 BeautifulSoul09
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 20, 2014

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