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I Am In Recovery From Self Harm

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 139 People

    One Week Down!

    So it's been a week since I last cut, and it's a challenge. I'm great full for the support I'm getting, and for those who are being patient with me. I still feel the urge, and it drives me crazy, but I'm not giving in. It's gonna be a rough trip!
    Jacqid96 Jacqid96 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 10, 2013

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    My story. I can think of the exact time my

    addiction started, which is kinda funny, because I don't remember what triggered it. What I do remember, is sitting in the bathroom bawling my eyes out as I carve the word "lost" into my arm. I remember feeling numb. I could feel the blade tugging at my skin, but it didn't hurt...
    spiritchaser458 spiritchaser458 18-21, F Jan 19, 2014

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    It has been 7 and a half months

    since my last relapse. That time, I had made it to 9 months. Then my love left me, after countless promises and reassurances - which I did not ask for but he gave freely. I knew what I was doing, and it wasn't impulsive. I deliberately chose my arm over my usual area (thighs...
    softbunny6 softbunny6 26-30, F 4 Responses May 2, 2014

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    I've been self harming

    since I was 7 so I'm kinda well experienced with cutting, burning, carving, scratching, bruising and this has gone on for a while now and I always try to stop but I relapse all the damn time like I just need it because it helps me keep my sanity and so far I'm 4 days clean...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F 2 Responses May 22, 2014

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    Recovery

    It is a long and hard road to recover I self harmed for 6 years from the age of 7 to 16 I am only 17 now but i feel i am totally in recovery I know how addictive it is, when you want to stop, you cant and when you can, you dont want to . . . I just want people to know that...
    RememberTheStars RememberTheStars 16-17, F Jun 4, 2010

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    A whole year and a half

    and I've come so close today... what the hell is wrong with me? I just lost my positivity and everything I've worked hard to develop...
    appleof5 appleof5 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 22, 2014

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    When I was severely depressed I used to self

    harm ever single day. Some days it was really bad and other days it was just light cuts. It moved from my arms to my legs. Especially because I started hating my bust and how "fat" I was. It was terrible i even spelled it out on my thigh with a blade. Most scars are gone now but...
    gm126 gm126 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    I just flushed my blades

    and I plan to tell my therapist when I see her in a few days. I really want to recover and I hope I can.
    waffles0113 waffles0113 13-15 Jul 29, 2014

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    In about a week and a half,

    I will be 3 months clean. My last relapse really terrified me because I accidentally went too deep, and since then I haven't been getting urges. I don't know if its because of the new meds (they switched me from celexa to zoloft) or because how scared I was last time I cut. So...
    spiritchaser458 spiritchaser458 18-21, F Jan 27, 2014

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    I am 3 months clean. I really don't want to

    relapse. I promised my boyfriend that I wouldn't hurt myself again. I get urges sometimes but they go away if I distract myself by doing something I enjoy.
    HelloLovelyPerson HelloLovelyPerson 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 20, 2014

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    As my featured story stated,

    I’ve been struggling with self-injury for a while now, my date I chose recovery, and decided to remain clean, March 5, 2014, remains the same. I made the choice to become clean for a bunch of reasons, but the main being that I wanted it for me. In the past I would try and quit...
    tayelizabeth tayelizabeth 18-21, F Jun 4, 2014

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    On And Off

    I have been self harming my self since grade 7 at first it was just little cuts then in grade 9 I when deeper and they where longer I would have just cut up and down my whole arms. People would make fun of me but it got to the point where I didn't care about trying to hide the...
    kaylatheanimegirl3 kaylatheanimegirl3 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2012

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    I broke my streak... it was April 2nd exactly

    11 months of being clean. I ****** it all up and cut up my entire stomach with those same weak safety scissors. Even though the scissors were weak my drive to **** up my body was so strong the cut's were the deepest ive ever done. I disappointed myself so much and ruined my goal...
    MorbidRainbow MorbidRainbow 13-15, F Apr 4

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    Its Hardest When I Think Im Doing The Best

    i have been self mutilating since 6th grade. there have been long periods where ill stop but then ill just relapse into it after being hurt or depressed to the point of hysteria. i have several people for a support system but the thing is when it really comes down to it i dont...
    swoosh1baby swoosh1baby 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 2, 2010

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    My Story

    It all started with a simple scratch on my wrist and then it got harder and harder and more and more everyday. I eventually got caught by my sister and lied and said the Dog scratched me. I then went to my bicep area I guess that's what it's called. Then I begin scratching and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 25, 2012

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    I'm doing good. I'm 8 months clean

    and I don't plan on going back. The last time I harmed was February 2013, my boyfriend and I had just broken up and it was rough. I wasn't doing very well and I broke down and cut and cut the scars are still there and it was by far my worst episode. After that I got help. And...
    Leahisawesome Leahisawesome 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 5, 2014

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    October 30th 2012

    I have been dealing with self-harm since I was 15 (2005) and I've fallen in and out of recovery more times than I can count. This time around I've been clean since the 30th of October and holding strong for the moment. I've been making a paper chain. Adding a new link for every...
    Revelx Revelx 22-25, F Dec 5, 2012

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    Ugh I said that this site would be the one I'd

    be true to myself since I can't really get myself into that in real life so I guess its time for me to get over with this topic... I hate myself so much right now, why am I even writing this? I don't know, its not like anyone is forcing me to I just feel like its easier to share...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 7, 2014

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    myhappylittlepill myhappylittlepill 13-15, F Nov 25, 2014

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    I started self harming in August 2010.

    It started off with scissors, just little scratches that barely broke skin. Then it slowly got worse, until it got to the point where I'd take a razor and wouldn't stop until both of my arms were dripping blood, both covered in deep, gaping wounds from wrist to elbow. I was...
    meggypeggy1996 meggypeggy1996 18-21, F Jun 27, 2014

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    Megsupermario Megsupermario 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 14, 2014

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    I caved about a week ago.

    I don't really feel like sharing the full details, but it's going to be hard to hide it all wearing shorts... Guess I might just suffer the heat and wear pants until it's healed. But I feel better now.... I think...
    That0neGuy That0neGuy 22-25, M May 22, 2014

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    I swear to God that I'll never cut so deep like this again or cut at all. I'm going through hell with the healing process. Hurts like a motherfcker and it's so slow. I don't have...
    AndreaCulea AndreaCulea 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 29

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    I recently turned 30, and I have self harming since 12 yrs of age, on and off. I've gone months to years without insistent. However, self harming s always there like a companion...
    Emmy508 Emmy508 26-30, F May 15

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    I no longer cut or burn myself, but I still do other harmful things like picking at my skins and scabs, pulling out my hair, biting my lip until it bleeds, digging my nails into my...
    NaturallyPeculiar NaturallyPeculiar 18-21, F 1 Response May 7

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    You know my Name not my story. You see my smile but it's not real. You see me happy but I'm hurting. I self harm. Know one understands the struggle I go through to get up everyday...
    Madimac Madimac 13-15, F 1 Response May 11

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    Ok so my dad has seen my self harm scars (the picture above shows most of them). He doesn't understand self harm in the slightest bit. He thinks I do it to try to be "cool" or it's...
    KakeLove KakeLove 13-15, F 1 Response May 13

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    September will mark a year without any self-harm. No scratching, no cutting, no eraser burns, no biting, no hitting, no hair pulling. No form of self-harm whatsoever (other than...
    dontyouunderstand dontyouunderstand 18-21 1 Response 6 days ago

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    They cover my forearms, which I have put tattoos over to cover some of the scars. Not all the scars on my forearms are from me, such as an eraser burn scar (although I have given...
    dontyouunderstand dontyouunderstand 18-21 May 3

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    I sometimes find myself surprised that I didn't self-harm earlier on in my life because there’s so many reason why I would have; a) because giving myself physical pain could help...
    lunightandday lunightandday 18-21, F 2 Responses May 3

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    I started self harming when I was 17. I never thought I would because I couldn't cut myself but then I discovered that there are other ways. The first time I burned myself with a...
    ElouiseLou ElouiseLou 22-25, F 13 hrs ago

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    I actually wanted to share this very personal message to everyone with self-harm scars... This isn't anything to prevent you to get more or anything like that, but it's a haunting...
    HighEndofYourLow HighEndofYourLow 18-21, F 2 Responses May 7

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    Ok i have friend whom i normally dont talk to much but still call him as my friend. But he sits near me in Math Class. He was depress that his girlfriend broke up with him. Now he...
    xxPurpleRosesxx xxPurpleRosesxx 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    My friend cold steel, Realistically; I hate that word. Of course I know exactly where my place is in reality. Reality: I am destroyed, if you look close enough (which I don’t...
    Emmy508 Emmy508 26-30, F Apr 30

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    With suicidal thoughts not being enuff I've also got to battle self harm also sitting here trying so hard not to take this double sided blade to my wrist and cut. I'm so...
    blasianalien blasianalien 22-25, F May 8

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    So I tried doing it with a razor first, but the skin wouldn't cut. Then I saw a nail cutter near by and cut myself twice, leaving four nice slices in the skin. I want to do it...
    PulakitSingh PulakitSingh 22-25, M 3 days ago

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    Self harming sucks. It's not fun, it's not beautiful, it's harmful and ugly. I almost relapsed today, it was really scary. I hate that I'm afraid to let myself go near sharp...
    TickleMeCell TickleMeCell 16-17, T 2 Responses May 9

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    I only have one on my wrist that bothers me. It's pretty faded but I get blood drawn or IVs frequently so they always have to check my arms very closely. It's embarrassing but I...
    cpettit757 cpettit757 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 24

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    I self harmed in the weirdest way but I don't Know what to do now...:( I did the eraser challenge but not a challenge. I have long eraser burns across my thighs and don't know how...
    heymad13 heymad13 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 28

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    It didn't quite occur to me until recently when I read something just how many variations of self harm there are. I mean there are some that I don't even realize I'm doing because...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M Apr 30

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    I used to self harm but I don't anymore. I have scars that I am so insecure about. I'm starting to wear shorts again and when people ask I tell them I was in a four wheeling...
    AttachmentIssues AttachmentIssues 16-17, F 2 Responses May 3

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    I've Been self harming since I was 8 and I was clean for one month until yesterday morning...I feel worthless
    EmRiddell EmRiddell 13-15, F 1 Response May 6

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    Hey Y'all I'm 17 almost 18 and I have been dealing with self harm since I was In 6th grade. If anyone needs to talk or vent you can message me. It does get better and You are...
    gaydinosour gaydinosour 16-17, F May 6

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    So.. I just came on here.. Anyway. Yes I self harm.. If anyone needs help or someone to talk to message me. Please❤️
    HisPrincess343 HisPrincess343 13-15, F 1 Response May 7