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I Am In Recovery From Self Harm

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    It has been 7 and a half months

    since my last relapse. That time, I had made it to 9 months. Then my love left me, after countless promises and reassurances - which I did not ask for but he gave freely. I knew what I was doing, and it wasn't impulsive. I deliberately chose my arm over my usual area (thighs...
    softbunny6 softbunny6 26-30, F 6 Responses May 2

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    One Week Down!

    So it's been a week since I last cut, and it's a challenge. I'm great full for the support I'm getting, and for those who are being patient with me. I still feel the urge, and it drives me crazy, but I'm not giving in. It's gonna be a rough trip!
    Jacqid96 Jacqid96 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 10, 2013

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    I've been self harming

    since I was 7 so I'm kinda well experienced with cutting, burning, carving, scratching, bruising and this has gone on for a while now and I always try to stop but I relapse all the damn time like I just need it because it helps me keep my sanity and so far I'm 4 days clean...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F 2 Responses May 22

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    On And Off

    I have been self harming my self since grade 7 at first it was just little cuts then in grade 9 I when deeper and they where longer I would have just cut up and down my whole arms. People would make fun of me but it got to the point where I didn't care about trying to hide the...
    kaylatheanimegirl3 kaylatheanimegirl3 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2012

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    October 30th 2012

    I have been dealing with self-harm since I was 15 (2005) and I've fallen in and out of recovery more times than I can count. This time around I've been clean since the 30th of October and holding strong for the moment. I've been making a paper chain. Adding a new link for every...
    Revelx Revelx 22-25, F Dec 5, 2012

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    I just flushed my blades

    and I plan to tell my therapist when I see her in a few days. I really want to recover and I hope I can.
    waffles0113 waffles0113 13-15 Jul 29

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    Ugh I said that this site would be the one I'd

    be true to myself since I can't really get myself into that in real life so I guess its time for me to get over with this topic... I hate myself so much right now, why am I even writing this? I don't know, its not like anyone is forcing me to I just feel like its easier to share...
    alpaqqa alpaqqa 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    My story. I can think of the exact time my

    addiction started, which is kinda funny, because I don't remember what triggered it. What I do remember, is sitting in the bathroom bawling my eyes out as I carve the word "lost" into my arm. I remember feeling numb. I could feel the blade tugging at my skin, but it didn't hurt...
    spiritchaser458 spiritchaser458 16-17, F Jan 19

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    Recovery

    It is a long and hard road to recover I self harmed for 6 years from the age of 7 to 16 I am only 17 now but i feel i am totally in recovery I know how addictive it is, when you want to stop, you cant and when you can, you dont want to . . . I just want people to know that...
    RememberTheStars RememberTheStars 16-17, F Jun 4, 2010

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    I started self harming in August 2010.

    It started off with scissors, just little scratches that barely broke skin. Then it slowly got worse, until it got to the point where I'd take a razor and wouldn't stop until both of my arms were dripping blood, both covered in deep, gaping wounds from wrist to elbow. I was...
    meggypeggy1996 meggypeggy1996 18-21, F Jun 27

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    A whole year and a half

    and I've come so close today... what the hell is wrong with me? I just lost my positivity and everything I've worked hard to develop...
    appleof5 appleof5 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 22

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    Its Hardest When I Think Im Doing The Best

    i have been self mutilating since 6th grade. there have been long periods where ill stop but then ill just relapse into it after being hurt or depressed to the point of hysteria. i have several people for a support system but the thing is when it really comes down to it i dont...
    swoosh1baby swoosh1baby 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 2, 2010

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    My Story

    It all started with a simple scratch on my wrist and then it got harder and harder and more and more everyday. I eventually got caught by my sister and lied and said the Dog scratched me. I then went to my bicep area I guess that's what it's called. Then I begin scratching and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 25, 2012

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    In about a week and a half,

    I will be 3 months clean. My last relapse really terrified me because I accidentally went too deep, and since then I haven't been getting urges. I don't know if its because of the new meds (they switched me from celexa to zoloft) or because how scared I was last time I cut. So...
    spiritchaser458 spiritchaser458 16-17, F Jan 27

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    I am 3 months clean. I really don't want to

    relapse. I promised my boyfriend that I wouldn't hurt myself again. I get urges sometimes but they go away if I distract myself by doing something I enjoy.
    christarose96 christarose96 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    As my featured story stated,

    I’ve been struggling with self-injury for a while now, my date I chose recovery, and decided to remain clean, March 5, 2014, remains the same. I made the choice to become clean for a bunch of reasons, but the main being that I wanted it for me. In the past I would try and quit...
    tayelizabeth tayelizabeth 18-21, F Jun 4

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    megsupermaherio megsupermaherio 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 14

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    I caved about a week ago.

    I don't really feel like sharing the full details, but it's going to be hard to hide it all wearing shorts... Guess I might just suffer the heat and wear pants until it's healed. But I feel better now.... I think...
    That0neGuy That0neGuy 22-25, M May 22

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    Related Experiences

    I'm two months clean of self harm.. Yet I've always wanted to find a guy who does/ is recovering from self harm.. So we can help each other and get stronger together..
    xxshishixx xxshishixx 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I've been self-harming for almost 2 years. It didn't really get bad until my online friend faked her suicide. And I started to self harm almost daily. It was mostly cuts starting...
    mugzib mugzib 13-15, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I never wanted to self harm. I thought "This is stupid, why would anyone do this?" Then at sixteen, after an awful fight with my stepfather about an ex-boyfriend, I knew why. I...
    Ginkofishin Ginkofishin 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    I don't mind people who self harm or judge them, though i personally think that the act of self harm is stupid. I understand that people do it to relieve pain that they hold, but...
    DexterPyro DexterPyro 13-15, M 1 Response Oct 15

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    I started selfharming August 27, 2013 It was just a few little scratches on my wrist and I liked it, so I kept doing it. They hardly even bled but it helped alot my mom saw them...
    Fatteristheshit Fatteristheshit 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 27

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    I had recently started self harming. Most of my life has been filled with misfortune and alot of negative treatment from people. Those negative events started when i was only four...
    DarkKnightPEKKA DarkKnightPEKKA 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 4

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    I have a really hard life. I'm from Palestine, and at 8 i moved to Norway, after i learned the language i started in a new class. It was the fifth grade. I thought that i will get...
    ThatGirlR ThatGirlR 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 11

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    I'm known as the Scar Guy at the gym. Not to my face, of course, but I have good hearing. A lot of the comments are negative, which I expect with the stigma surrounding self...
    InkedAmongTheSands InkedAmongTheSands 31-35, M Oct 4

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    7 months today!!! Every month that passes I put it more and more behind me. In 3 short months it will be a year since I self harmed, so great to keep the fight up! It's so far...
    xImparfaitex xImparfaitex 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 6

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    I guess I'm kinda desperate if I'm posting my story to a bunch of people I don't know, but, I'm too afraid to tell anyone close to me really. So here goes nothing. These past few...
    wifitoasters wifitoasters 13-15, T 1 Response Oct 16

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    There was a time when I used to self harm, yes. I looked at a blade as a distraction from the hell we call a mind, but all it seemed to do was cause drama among friends, family...
    KellySweetzz KellySweetzz 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 29

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    I used to self harm. I haven't since August and I've been trying so hard not to since then. But sometimes, the temptation comes back and I find it nearly impossible to keep my...
    LexyMarie LexyMarie 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I used to self harm.. It was bad. For a long time I felt and still feel as if I ruined my self. My boyfriend taught me how to love myself again the way I used to when I was little...
    chrissyp7 chrissyp7 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 29

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    It used to be for a reason, which I prefer not to state yet. But now it's like a drug, an addiction. Like I'm yearning for it, I want to cut. I want to feel the blade cutting my...
    CurvyBones17 CurvyBones17 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 28

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    So, I started self-harming 3 years ago due to a lot of things. But anyway back in July, I reached out to my parents and asked for help. I told them everything. Things got better...
    CatySansom CatySansom 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 30

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    I'm dealing with self harm and it's really hard,I get a release when I do it,I know it's wrong but I take my anger out on myself because I'm hurting:/ I have depression and anxiety...
    charlottealdridge22 charlottealdridge22 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 3

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    Hey everyone... I know it's been a while since I have posted and stuff... I have been really depressed lately. I've been self-harming a lot lately... I cut again last night and I...
    xxbrokengirl98xx xxbrokengirl98xx 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 7

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    I shot myself. I cut half the skin off my hip with scissors. I burnt my wrist on the fireplace. I have various other burns and cuts as well. But my worst self harm is my alcoholism...
    nonamenofacenolife nonamenofacenolife 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 7

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    I just had a bad self harm relapse parents are pissed I can't do this anymore
    Justanotherpersonn Justanotherpersonn 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 12

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    So I self-harmed today 😔
    LovingBands LovingBands 13-15, F Oct 13

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    Started self harming 3 years ago. Cant remember why. My friend recommended it to me which i now hate her for cos its ****** up my life. I do it every night now. Just feel so lonely...
    saffroncindy saffroncindy 13-15, F Oct 14

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    I used to self harm.. When my parents found out they made fun of me. And yelled at me.. So if you're sad that you disappointed your parents just be happy they didn't make fun of...
    oxoxJillianxoxo oxoxJillianxoxo 13-15, F Oct 14

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    I just started a few days ago. I don't know, on Sunday night I guess? My friend that i know are doing self harm too, they mostly have so many scars, but none of them are deep ones...
    roseinsurvival roseinsurvival 13-15 Oct 15

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    Sometimes all I want to do is see the deep red blood flow..But then it's difficult to stop making more..and more cuts, eventually making your innocent flesh look like a battle...
    Emilylovespiano Emilylovespiano 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 15

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    I hate how a lot of people say self harming is just cutting. It's not just that it's also scratching, punching, and other things too. I scratch but I've been clean for about 2...
    bvbandmcr bvbandmcr 13-15, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    And I've snapped.. Back into place. Recovery starts now. Crazy to think that about a day ago I was about to kill myself. And now I'm recovering. I love you all, and to the ones...
    Theycallherelly Theycallherelly 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    Trying so hard not to hurt myself. I feel like if I had a big enough yard Id go out there and set myself on fire. :c I was doing well. About a month harm-free until today.
    misanthropemeow misanthropemeow 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    And today one of my favorite teachers asked me how old i was when i first started cutting and why. Apparently she had a 13 year old daughter who has been expressing suicidal...
    AliceInHungerland AliceInHungerland 16-17, F Sep 30

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    I keep hiding my cuts from everyone.I'm too afraid to take off my jacket,because someone might notice.I'm afraid my parents will find out I cut.I don't know what to do :(
    Jayla2256 Jayla2256 13-15, F 4 Responses Sep 30

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    The only thing keeping me from cutting myself is the reminder of going back home next weekend..
    mciarleglio26 mciarleglio26 18-21 Oct 5

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    I really hate myself. I want to die and I think about it every minute of everyday. I was clean from cutting for 9 months but then I relapsed. Idk what to do with myself.
    literallythough literallythough 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 10

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