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I Am In Recovery From Self Harm

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 152 People

    As my featured story stated,

    I’ve been struggling with self-injury for a while now, my date I chose recovery, and decided to remain clean, March 5, 2014, remains the same. I made the choice to become clean for a bunch of reasons, but the main being that I wanted it for me. In the past I would try and quit...
    tayelizabeth tayelizabeth 18-21, F Jun 4, 2014

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    On And Off

    I have been self harming my self since grade 7 at first it was just little cuts then in grade 9 I when deeper and they where longer I would have just cut up and down my whole arms. People would make fun of me but it got to the point where I didn't care about trying to hide the...
    kaylatheanimegirl3 kaylatheanimegirl3 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2012

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    In about a week and a half,

    I will be 3 months clean. My last relapse really terrified me because I accidentally went too deep, and since then I haven't been getting urges. I don't know if its because of the new meds (they switched me from celexa to zoloft) or because how scared I was last time I cut. So...
    spiritchaser458 spiritchaser458 18-21, F Jan 27, 2014

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    myhappylittlepill myhappylittlepill 13-15, F Nov 25, 2014

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    Its Hardest When I Think Im Doing The Best

    i have been self mutilating since 6th grade. there have been long periods where ill stop but then ill just relapse into it after being hurt or depressed to the point of hysteria. i have several people for a support system but the thing is when it really comes down to it i dont...
    swoosh1baby swoosh1baby 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 2, 2010

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    I caved about a week ago.

    I don't really feel like sharing the full details, but it's going to be hard to hide it all wearing shorts... Guess I might just suffer the heat and wear pants until it's healed. But I feel better now.... I think...
    That0neGuy That0neGuy 22-25, M May 22, 2014

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    I started self harming in August 2010.

    It started off with scissors, just little scratches that barely broke skin. Then it slowly got worse, until it got to the point where I'd take a razor and wouldn't stop until both of my arms were dripping blood, both covered in deep, gaping wounds from wrist to elbow. I was...
    meggypeggy1996 meggypeggy1996 18-21, F Jun 27, 2014

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    I've been self harming

    since I was 7 so I'm kinda well experienced with cutting, burning, carving, scratching, bruising and this has gone on for a while now and I always try to stop but I relapse all the damn time like I just need it because it helps me keep my sanity and so far I'm 4 days clean...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F 1 Response May 22, 2014

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    My story. I can think of the exact time my

    addiction started, which is kinda funny, because I don't remember what triggered it. What I do remember, is sitting in the bathroom bawling my eyes out as I carve the word "lost" into my arm. I remember feeling numb. I could feel the blade tugging at my skin, but it didn't hurt...
    spiritchaser458 spiritchaser458 18-21, F Jan 19, 2014

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    I'm doing good. I'm 8 months clean

    and I don't plan on going back. The last time I harmed was February 2013, my boyfriend and I had just broken up and it was rough. I wasn't doing very well and I broke down and cut and cut the scars are still there and it was by far my worst episode. After that I got help. And...
    Leahisawesome Leahisawesome 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 5, 2014

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    I broke my streak... it was April 2nd exactly

    11 months of being clean. I ****** it all up and cut up my entire stomach with those same weak safety scissors. Even though the scissors were weak my drive to **** up my body was so strong the cut's were the deepest ive ever done. I disappointed myself so much and ruined my goal...
    MorbidRainbow MorbidRainbow 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 4, 2015

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    I just flushed my blades

    and I plan to tell my therapist when I see her in a few days. I really want to recover and I hope I can.
    waffles0113 waffles0113 16-17 Jul 29, 2014

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    It has been 7 and a half months

    since my last relapse. That time, I had made it to 9 months. Then my love left me, after countless promises and reassurances - which I did not ask for but he gave freely. I knew what I was doing, and it wasn't impulsive. I deliberately chose my arm over my usual area (thighs...
    softbunny6 softbunny6 26-30, F 4 Responses May 2, 2014

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    I am 3 months clean. I really don't want to

    relapse. I promised my boyfriend that I wouldn't hurt myself again. I get urges sometimes but they go away if I distract myself by doing something I enjoy.
    BeautifulSoul09 BeautifulSoul09 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 20, 2014

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    Recovery

    It is a long and hard road to recover I self harmed for 6 years from the age of 7 to 16 I am only 17 now but i feel i am totally in recovery I know how addictive it is, when you want to stop, you cant and when you can, you dont want to . . . I just want people to know that...
    RememberTheStars RememberTheStars 16-17, F Jun 4, 2010

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    When I was severely depressed I used to self

    harm ever single day. Some days it was really bad and other days it was just light cuts. It moved from my arms to my legs. Especially because I started hating my bust and how "fat" I was. It was terrible i even spelled it out on my thigh with a blade. Most scars are gone now but...
    gm126 gm126 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 19, 2015

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    A whole year and a half

    and I've come so close today... what the hell is wrong with me? I just lost my positivity and everything I've worked hard to develop...
    appleof5 appleof5 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 22, 2014

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    If you get urges read this.

    http://m.wikihow.com/Stop-Self-Harming Even if you think that it's another bullsh*t
    ghostdolly ghostdolly 13-15, F Jan 24

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    Megsupermario Megsupermario 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 14, 2014

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    One Week Down!

    So it's been a week since I last cut, and it's a challenge. I'm great full for the support I'm getting, and for those who are being patient with me. I still feel the urge, and it drives me crazy, but I'm not giving in. It's gonna be a rough trip!
    Jacqid96 Jacqid96 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 10, 2013

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    Ugh I said that this site would be the one I'd

    be true to myself since I can't really get myself into that in real life so I guess its time for me to get over with this topic... I hate myself so much right now, why am I even writing this? I don't know, its not like anyone is forcing me to I just feel like its easier to share...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 7, 2014

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    My Story

    It all started with a simple scratch on my wrist and then it got harder and harder and more and more everyday. I eventually got caught by my sister and lied and said the Dog scratched me. I then went to my bicep area I guess that's what it's called. Then I begin scratching and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 25, 2012

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    October 30th 2012

    I have been dealing with self-harm since I was 15 (2005) and I've fallen in and out of recovery more times than I can count. This time around I've been clean since the 30th of October and holding strong for the moment. I've been making a paper chain. Adding a new link for every...
    Revelx Revelx 22-25, F Dec 5, 2012

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    Anyone who has self harmed

    or wants to or is thinking about it. Please dont....the recovery is harder than it's worth, and the scars aren't worth it. I don't want this to happen to anyone else. Please do your best to stay safe, there is always someone who cares. And you don't want your ankles to look like...
    georgia5656 georgia5656 16-17, F Jan 22

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    Related Experiences

    My dad saw a girl self harm on a movie I was watching, he tried to make a joke and say that she should just go ahead and kill herself instead of doing that to get attention. But...
    bflyboo14 bflyboo14 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I still self harm and trying my best to stop but it's seems to find its way back and I relapse all over again...
    Kristenandbaby2015 Kristenandbaby2015 13-15 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I self harm a lot. I hate my parents and bullies. I care about my future and I want to be an attorney. I battle with depression.
    sievert sievert 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Hey all, I wanted to take a minute to encourage you that freedom is possible. It’s been ten years since I last cut myself. When I was in 8th grade some of my friends where...
    travelgal8605 travelgal8605 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I've never really took the time to look at my scars fully, and actually see the damage I've done to myself throughout the years. So I have, and a part of me is disgusted that I...
    bflyboo14 bflyboo14 16-17, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    my older sister has a cat and she scratch me. I want to self harm again. it felt so good
    elephant17 elephant17 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    Used to is a joke I struggle with self harm But it's gotten so so so much better
    ClinNN ClinNN 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    Yep... I still self harm to this day.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Used to has turned into "currently self-harm". I relapsed 3 months ago on my birthday, depressed about my birthday. Done it twice since then. Thinking of buying some razors...
    Iscarpia87 Iscarpia87 26-30, M 6 days ago

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    I have been trying to ignore my depression but i feel like im breaking
    MusicalGirl24 MusicalGirl24 13-15, F a week ago

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    I don't self harm anymore but I used to. I used to liked to drag a razor cross my arms and legs to see the blood. I was in Control. It made me feel alive I would forget everything...
    WittyTwit WittyTwit 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 5

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    I'm so very lucky. I'm blessed. I fell in love with someone who doesn't love me back. And that hurts. But he is also the most loving, protective person I know. He saw that I self...
    Thelostsoulslasthope Thelostsoulslasthope 13-15, F Feb 4

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    i never really physically self harmed myself. it was mainly emotionally. there were times when i would publicly humiliate myself on purpose. every time i felt depressed , i would...
    HeySafaaJust HeySafaaJust 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 2

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    Yes, I'm still struggling with this disordered eating things but here is something I don't understand. As I try to pull myself up from this I check what "normal" people eat a day...
    Dreamingoflife01 Dreamingoflife01 18-21 1 Response Feb 2

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    I had quit self harming after 3 years of doing it, and now I did it for the first time in abut a year. It felt great, I just don't want it to become a habit again.
    Sheb33 Sheb33 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 1

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    I self harm whenever I'm in a bad mood. I put all my anger into cutting my arm.
    RainbowCrayon666 RainbowCrayon666 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 31

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    A reminder of my place in this world. Weak, sad and pathetic. Clean for only about 2 weeks. Trigger? The thought of facing people from the past. Having to admit and face my...
    js246 js246 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 31

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    Sometimes I can be my worst enemy. I can be so self destructive. I've cut myself in the past, yes, but more than that I have so much self hatred that I have yet to work through...
    rebekahanastasia rebekahanastasia 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 29

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    does anyone else scratch their hands open as self harm? I don't know many that do but I makes me feel more alone.
    ZDom ZDom 16-17 Jan 29