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I Am In Recovery From Self Harm

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 143 People

    Its Hardest When I Think Im Doing The Best

    i have been self mutilating since 6th grade. there have been long periods where ill stop but then ill just relapse into it after being hurt or depressed to the point of hysteria. i have several people for a support system but the thing is when it really comes down to it i dont...
    swoosh1baby swoosh1baby 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 2, 2010

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    My Story

    It all started with a simple scratch on my wrist and then it got harder and harder and more and more everyday. I eventually got caught by my sister and lied and said the Dog scratched me. I then went to my bicep area I guess that's what it's called. Then I begin scratching and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 25, 2012

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    My story. I can think of the exact time my

    addiction started, which is kinda funny, because I don't remember what triggered it. What I do remember, is sitting in the bathroom bawling my eyes out as I carve the word "lost" into my arm. I remember feeling numb. I could feel the blade tugging at my skin, but it didn't hurt...
    spiritchaser458 spiritchaser458 18-21, F Jan 19, 2014

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    I broke my streak... it was April 2nd exactly

    11 months of being clean. I ****** it all up and cut up my entire stomach with those same weak safety scissors. Even though the scissors were weak my drive to **** up my body was so strong the cut's were the deepest ive ever done. I disappointed myself so much and ruined my goal...
    MorbidRainbow MorbidRainbow 13-15, F Apr 4

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    One Week Down!

    So it's been a week since I last cut, and it's a challenge. I'm great full for the support I'm getting, and for those who are being patient with me. I still feel the urge, and it drives me crazy, but I'm not giving in. It's gonna be a rough trip!
    Jacqid96 Jacqid96 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 10, 2013

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    October 30th 2012

    I have been dealing with self-harm since I was 15 (2005) and I've fallen in and out of recovery more times than I can count. This time around I've been clean since the 30th of October and holding strong for the moment. I've been making a paper chain. Adding a new link for every...
    Revelx Revelx 22-25, F Dec 5, 2012

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    I just flushed my blades

    and I plan to tell my therapist when I see her in a few days. I really want to recover and I hope I can.
    waffles0113 waffles0113 13-15 Jul 29, 2014

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    myhappylittlepill myhappylittlepill 13-15, F Nov 25, 2014

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    When I was severely depressed I used to self

    harm ever single day. Some days it was really bad and other days it was just light cuts. It moved from my arms to my legs. Especially because I started hating my bust and how "fat" I was. It was terrible i even spelled it out on my thigh with a blade. Most scars are gone now but...
    gm126 gm126 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    I caved about a week ago.

    I don't really feel like sharing the full details, but it's going to be hard to hide it all wearing shorts... Guess I might just suffer the heat and wear pants until it's healed. But I feel better now.... I think...
    That0neGuy That0neGuy 22-25, M May 22, 2014

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    Recovery

    It is a long and hard road to recover I self harmed for 6 years from the age of 7 to 16 I am only 17 now but i feel i am totally in recovery I know how addictive it is, when you want to stop, you cant and when you can, you dont want to . . . I just want people to know that...
    RememberTheStars RememberTheStars 16-17, F Jun 4, 2010

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    A whole year and a half

    and I've come so close today... what the hell is wrong with me? I just lost my positivity and everything I've worked hard to develop...
    appleof5 appleof5 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 22, 2014

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    It has been 7 and a half months

    since my last relapse. That time, I had made it to 9 months. Then my love left me, after countless promises and reassurances - which I did not ask for but he gave freely. I knew what I was doing, and it wasn't impulsive. I deliberately chose my arm over my usual area (thighs...
    softbunny6 softbunny6 26-30, F 4 Responses May 2, 2014

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    I'm doing good. I'm 8 months clean

    and I don't plan on going back. The last time I harmed was February 2013, my boyfriend and I had just broken up and it was rough. I wasn't doing very well and I broke down and cut and cut the scars are still there and it was by far my worst episode. After that I got help. And...
    Leahisawesome Leahisawesome 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 5, 2014

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    Megsupermario Megsupermario 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 14, 2014

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    I've been self harming

    since I was 7 so I'm kinda well experienced with cutting, burning, carving, scratching, bruising and this has gone on for a while now and I always try to stop but I relapse all the damn time like I just need it because it helps me keep my sanity and so far I'm 4 days clean...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F 2 Responses May 22, 2014

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    On And Off

    I have been self harming my self since grade 7 at first it was just little cuts then in grade 9 I when deeper and they where longer I would have just cut up and down my whole arms. People would make fun of me but it got to the point where I didn't care about trying to hide the...
    kaylatheanimegirl3 kaylatheanimegirl3 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2012

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    As my featured story stated,

    I’ve been struggling with self-injury for a while now, my date I chose recovery, and decided to remain clean, March 5, 2014, remains the same. I made the choice to become clean for a bunch of reasons, but the main being that I wanted it for me. In the past I would try and quit...
    tayelizabeth tayelizabeth 18-21, F Jun 4, 2014

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    Ugh I said that this site would be the one I'd

    be true to myself since I can't really get myself into that in real life so I guess its time for me to get over with this topic... I hate myself so much right now, why am I even writing this? I don't know, its not like anyone is forcing me to I just feel like its easier to share...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 7, 2014

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    I started self harming in August 2010.

    It started off with scissors, just little scratches that barely broke skin. Then it slowly got worse, until it got to the point where I'd take a razor and wouldn't stop until both of my arms were dripping blood, both covered in deep, gaping wounds from wrist to elbow. I was...
    meggypeggy1996 meggypeggy1996 18-21, F Jun 27, 2014

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    I am 3 months clean. I really don't want to

    relapse. I promised my boyfriend that I wouldn't hurt myself again. I get urges sometimes but they go away if I distract myself by doing something I enjoy.
    HelloLovelyPerson HelloLovelyPerson 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 20, 2014

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    In about a week and a half,

    I will be 3 months clean. My last relapse really terrified me because I accidentally went too deep, and since then I haven't been getting urges. I don't know if its because of the new meds (they switched me from celexa to zoloft) or because how scared I was last time I cut. So...
    spiritchaser458 spiritchaser458 18-21, F Jan 27, 2014

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    All of my past disorders mainly started from self harm. My anorexia, started with me refusing to eat, because it was physically painful, and if felt right. But later it became an...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I have over 40 scars, one on each wrist and more than 20 on the outside of each thigh. The ones on my wrists are hardly visible. The ones on my thighs are a different story. The...
    quirkygirl520 quirkygirl520 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm 7 months clean, **** YEAAAAAH! Although the scars are showing a bit more, as they do when it gets hot out. Also, I've been outside a lot and my arms tan a little but the scars...
    TickleMeCell TickleMeCell 18-21, T 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    fighting seems pointless. I cannot hide the pain anymore. Too many years of self harm have broken me apart. I am just a shell with no redeeming human qualities. They are right. I...
    SnowInSummer SnowInSummer 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    I use to self-inflict pain upon myself physically but at some point I found emotional pain more painful. Emotional self-infliction is something more controllable than physical; no...
    BriarRose96 BriarRose96 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I relapsed. I just cut myself. I haven't cut myself in several months since my mom took away my razors. But tonight I found an old razor in my room and cut. I was feeling really...
    princessSadness princessSadness 22-25, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I use to be extremely addicted to self harm I wanted nothing more then to feel a blade cut through my flesh. it was more when I was losing control in my personal life that I began...
    emovamp emovamp 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Hiya, i'm Gavin, i like to help others with depression/self-harm, so if you want a friend message me :)
    GavinP GavinP 13-15, M 4 days ago

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    Hiya, i'm Gavin, i like to help others with depression/self-harm, so if you want a friend message me :)
    GavinP GavinP 13-15, M 4 days ago

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    Hiya, i'm Gavin, i like to help others with depression/self-harm, so if you want a friend message me :)
    GavinP GavinP 13-15, M 4 days ago

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    It happened again only this time I bruised myself. I felt like cutting but the people around me notice more and get upset. I don't want to do this anymore but I don't know how to...
    avey10 avey10 18-21, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I don't know if I will ever be able to heal, people keep saying that time is a great healer but how could that be when your past keeps coming back in different ways to haunt you...
    mizzcomplicated mizzcomplicated 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I haven't self-harmed in a month but the urges are strong this time.. I don't know what to do . I might actually give in /.
    anagapesis anagapesis 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I found this really awesome. Aside from the fact that it looks like this person is smearing poop across their stomach with their finger...
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, T 1 Response a week ago

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    Last night... I cut myself again. This has been going on for two years now... I have my times when I stop for a few months. I made it 8 months once. But it comes back again. My...
    ashleigh143 ashleigh143 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    I hate how any time I feel open enough to talk about the scars from the cuts on my arms I feel the need to add a disclaimer that I'm not doing it for attention. So many people have...
    papayalyn papayalyn 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    The last time I self harmed was around 9 months ago. Today, my best friend (aka my dad) got into a huge fight, and he didn't understand at all. So, the person who I usually talk to...
    kylieadams kylieadams 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    I just cut from a month clean. ):
    Pianoplayer13 Pianoplayer13 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 24

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    I've been thinking about it a lot lately... All day I have to hold myself back from doing it. It's just frustrating and tiring to hate myself so much. I want to feel something...
    LoserMaterial LoserMaterial 16-17, F Jun 24

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    So I hit my seventh month mark of being free of self harm! It's weird, a little over half a year. Of course times get hard, but I just think about my loved ones. I think about the...
    TickleMeCell TickleMeCell 18-21, T 1 Response Jun 24