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I Am In Recovery From Self Harm

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    It has been 7 and a half months

    since my last relapse. That time, I had made it to 9 months. Then my love left me, after countless promises and reassurances - which I did not ask for but he gave freely. I knew what I was doing, and it wasn't impulsive. I deliberately chose my arm over my usual area (thighs...
    softbunny6 softbunny6 26-30, F 6 Responses May 2

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    I've been self harming

    since I was 7 so I'm kinda well experienced with cutting, burning, carving, scratching, bruising and this has gone on for a while now and I always try to stop but I relapse all the damn time like I just need it because it helps me keep my sanity and so far I'm 4 days clean...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F 2 Responses May 22

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    I caved about a week ago.

    I don't really feel like sharing the full details, but it's going to be hard to hide it all wearing shorts... Guess I might just suffer the heat and wear pants until it's healed. But I feel better now.... I think...
    That0neGuy That0neGuy 22-25, M May 22

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    In about a week and a half,

    I will be 3 months clean. My last relapse really terrified me because I accidentally went too deep, and since then I haven't been getting urges. I don't know if its because of the new meds (they switched me from celexa to zoloft) or because how scared I was last time I cut. So...
    spiritchaser458 spiritchaser458 16-17, F Jan 27

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    October 30th 2012

    I have been dealing with self-harm since I was 15 (2005) and I've fallen in and out of recovery more times than I can count. This time around I've been clean since the 30th of October and holding strong for the moment. I've been making a paper chain. Adding a new link for every...
    Revelx Revelx 22-25, F Dec 5, 2012

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    I started self harming in August 2010.

    It started off with scissors, just little scratches that barely broke skin. Then it slowly got worse, until it got to the point where I'd take a razor and wouldn't stop until both of my arms were dripping blood, both covered in deep, gaping wounds from wrist to elbow. I was...
    meggypeggy1996 meggypeggy1996 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 27

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    My story. I can think of the exact time my

    addiction started, which is kinda funny, because I don't remember what triggered it. What I do remember, is sitting in the bathroom bawling my eyes out as I carve the word "lost" into my arm. I remember feeling numb. I could feel the blade tugging at my skin, but it didn't hurt...
    spiritchaser458 spiritchaser458 16-17, F Jan 19

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    A whole year and a half

    and I've come so close today... what the hell is wrong with me? I just lost my positivity and everything I've worked hard to develop...
    appleof5 appleof5 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 22

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    megsupermaherio megsupermaherio 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 14

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    On And Off

    I have been self harming my self since grade 7 at first it was just little cuts then in grade 9 I when deeper and they where longer I would have just cut up and down my whole arms. People would make fun of me but it got to the point where I didn't care about trying to hide the...
    kaylatheanimegirl3 kaylatheanimegirl3 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2012

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    As my featured story stated,

    I’ve been struggling with self-injury for a while now, my date I chose recovery, and decided to remain clean, March 5, 2014, remains the same. I made the choice to become clean for a bunch of reasons, but the main being that I wanted it for me. In the past I would try and quit...
    tayelizabeth tayelizabeth 18-21, F Jun 4

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    One Week Down!

    So it's been a week since I last cut, and it's a challenge. I'm great full for the support I'm getting, and for those who are being patient with me. I still feel the urge, and it drives me crazy, but I'm not giving in. It's gonna be a rough trip!
    Jacqid96 Jacqid96 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 10, 2013

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    Its Hardest When I Think Im Doing The Best

    i have been self mutilating since 6th grade. there have been long periods where ill stop but then ill just relapse into it after being hurt or depressed to the point of hysteria. i have several people for a support system but the thing is when it really comes down to it i dont...
    swoosh1baby swoosh1baby 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 2, 2010

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    My Story

    It all started with a simple scratch on my wrist and then it got harder and harder and more and more everyday. I eventually got caught by my sister and lied and said the Dog scratched me. I then went to my bicep area I guess that's what it's called. Then I begin scratching and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 25, 2012

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    Ugh I said that this site would be the one I'd

    be true to myself since I can't really get myself into that in real life so I guess its time for me to get over with this topic... I hate myself so much right now, why am I even writing this? I don't know, its not like anyone is forcing me to I just feel like its easier to share...
    alpaqqa alpaqqa 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    Recovery

    It is a long and hard road to recover I self harmed for 6 years from the age of 7 to 16 I am only 17 now but i feel i am totally in recovery I know how addictive it is, when you want to stop, you cant and when you can, you dont want to . . . I just want people to know that...
    RememberTheStars RememberTheStars 16-17, F Jun 4, 2010

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    I just flushed my blades

    and I plan to tell my therapist when I see her in a few days. I really want to recover and I hope I can.
    waffles0113 waffles0113 13-15 Jul 29

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    Related Experiences

    I don't know where it all went wrong but my life is a mess my life has never been easy and i have always had struggles to overcome but it has never been this bad i am suffering...
    jennylontay148 jennylontay148 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I"ve been free from self harm for 2 months never though i would make it ;)
    nagaseiori nagaseiori 18-21, F Aug 11

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    19 weeks clean today...that's right!! Every week I just get more excited!! I can't believe I'm almost at 5 months...last time I made it 4 and I lost it all...this time is different...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 4

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    Ok, some people believe self harm is only cutting yourself. But let me tell you self harm can be done in so many more ways. I've always had an issue with anger, and a big one at...
    Redmaynes Redmaynes 18-21, M 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    I've self harmed since I was 12 (I'm almost 15 now) I started when I was 12 when my online friend told me she self harms so I guess being 12 I did a stupid thing, I self harmed to...
    Yuki101 Yuki101 13-15, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    since the age of 12 i have self harmed, i have a lot of scars and i regret them all but i still cant help but cut myself, however i used to do it daily and now its once a week or...
    fantasycaver fantasycaver 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 2

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    My parents check my wrists from time to time, so I can't cut there :( I want to so bad, I think it would feel loads better than cutting my thighs. Today I did a large burn, right...
    HorizonHeart HorizonHeart 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I find self harming utterly stupid. Why don't you take a look at the bed you sleep on, the good you eat, the roof you have over your head. If you have problems why don't you just...
    ChaoticCaroline ChaoticCaroline 13-15, F 15 Responses Jul 27

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    I started self harming when I was 6. The older I got the worst it was. I cut, burn, and sometimes I would even set parts of my arm on fire. I don't do it as much anymore. I only...
    MgkLez96 MgkLez96 18-21, F Aug 2

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    2Years later and I still think about it... I didn't start until I was 13 and had never even heard about it my childhood was a very painful one filled with abuse and neglect as...
    Forbiddenkisses Forbiddenkisses 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 10

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    I have one on my left arm near my wrist. This was from the first time I tried it. I have another one on that side on my upper arm, it goes vertical almost all the way to my elbow...
    XxEvolxX XxEvolxX 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 4

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    I remember the first time i self harm that time i was realy stress out and don"t know what to do that"s why i selfharm at first i would selfharm at a visible place because i...
    nagaseiori nagaseiori 18-21, F Aug 11

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    Why is it always looked at so negatively? I don't think it's a bad thing at all. I think if you tell somebody cutting is a horrible thing to do, chances are you'll make them feel...
    BulletproofLoneliness BulletproofLoneliness 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 25

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    I have self harm scars (new cuts and old scars), and I have no idea how to hide them from my parents and elders who will constantly question them. Currently, I wear bracelets, long...
    Dascenequeen Dascenequeen 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 26

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    USED to is the key word here and it was a one time thing in a time of desperation. We lost our child and I think the emotions overcame me. I was looking into the mirror and...
    Chicgeekgal Chicgeekgal 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 28

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    18.5 weeks clean...I've been doing a good job but today I lost another friend...a friend of mine says he still has feelings for me and even though I've told him I just want to be...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F Jul 31

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    Not ready to go into details but I self harm because at the moment it's the only way out for me. But I'm terribly scared no one will accept me for that. What do guys -or does...
    carrotshallot carrotshallot 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 5

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    Ive self harmed for a lot oc years but recently its intensified I look like ive been attacked by a wild animal mainly using Stanley knife its not for distraction but to self...
    inhell2014 inhell2014 36-40, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    so yeah i'm stupid and suicidal don't worry you are not to blame. Your drinking and beating did nothing to me. just hurt me and showed me that love is not real. or that it is...
    blackSky1 blackSky1 16-17, M 5 days ago

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    I self harmed for years. Cut and burned. I put lotion and makeup on mine to cover them and make them go away slowly. I hate when idiot guys say "You're to pretty to do that." News...
    hellerpeople hellerpeople 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 23

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    My sister has started self harming again. She was clean for awhile but she started a week ago again.
    blahlahblah599 blahlahblah599 16-17, F Jul 24

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    I have scars everywhere. Wrists, thighs, arms, legs and ankles. It's getting hardener and harder each day to hide them. Especially since it's now summer and the weather is becoming...
    DreamingOfSunsets DreamingOfSunsets 16-17, F Jul 27

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    I have a serious question. I'm getting a surgery done in my (girl area). Anyways I have several (deep) self harm scars than weren't there the last time I was under the knife. (A...
    EvilSnowWhite EvilSnowWhite 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 29

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    Today is an epic day. It has been 100 days since I last self harmed. Sure there are days where all I want to do is carve my body but I don't because I have a great support system...
    haileemattis haileemattis 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 30

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    I have an issue I have an issue I wish would stop I have an obsession with cutting around my mouth I already self harm and my mouth is something I've wanted to destroy and the...
    Kurpenter Kurpenter 13-15, T 2 Responses Aug 3

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    I self harm...and I don't wanna stop
    xLittleVampirex xLittleVampirex 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 4

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    I was at my friends volleyball practice at our school and I was wearing a sweatshirt, jean shorts ( long enough to cover my thigh) , and had my summer reading book and phone in...
    CatWithScars CatWithScars 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 5

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    Getting clean.. I'm finally over my addiction to self harming.. This is the best I've felt in a long long time..
    SqueakyRaveFox SqueakyRaveFox 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 7

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    Been clean all summer. Although it's been pretty low stress, perhaps there is a correlation between the high levels of stress at school and my self-harm. Only one way to find out...
    Bongopanda Bongopanda 16-17, M Aug 10

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    after I told my boyfriend about my self harm and depression , he broke up with me . he said that I only did it for attention and I was a drama ***** . to this day he doesn't know...
    brokewings brokewings 13-15, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    My mother knows I self harm and she's really mad at me for doing it. She makes fun of me like this whole thing is a joke! She thinks I'm crazy when I'm not! I'm just deeply wounded...
    bruisexviolet bruisexviolet 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Have you ever loved someone so much but that person wasn't your boyfriend or a part of your family. You spend each day thinking about them, even if its just something as simple as...
    wishitwouldend wishitwouldend 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago