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I Am In Recovery From Self Harm

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    I am 3 months clean. I really don't want to

    relapse. I promised my boyfriend that I wouldn't hurt myself again. I get urges sometimes but they go away if I distract myself by doing something I enjoy.
    christarose96 christarose96 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 20

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    I'm doing good. I'm 8 months clean

    and I don't plan on going back. The last time I harmed was February 2013, my boyfriend and I had just broken up and it was rough. I wasn't doing very well and I broke down and cut and cut the scars are still there and it was by far my worst episode. After that I got help. And...
    Leahisawesome Leahisawesome 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 5

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    Ugh I said that this site would be the one I'd

    be true to myself since I can't really get myself into that in real life so I guess its time for me to get over with this topic... I hate myself so much right now, why am I even writing this? I don't know, its not like anyone is forcing me to I just feel like its easier to share...
    alpaqqa alpaqqa 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    Its Hardest When I Think Im Doing The Best

    i have been self mutilating since 6th grade. there have been long periods where ill stop but then ill just relapse into it after being hurt or depressed to the point of hysteria. i have several people for a support system but the thing is when it really comes down to it i dont...
    swoosh1baby swoosh1baby 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 2, 2010

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    Recovery

    It is a long and hard road to recover I self harmed for 6 years from the age of 7 to 16 I am only 17 now but i feel i am totally in recovery I know how addictive it is, when you want to stop, you cant and when you can, you dont want to . . . I just want people to know that...
    RememberTheStars RememberTheStars 16-17, F Jun 4, 2010

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    I've been self harming

    since I was 7 so I'm kinda well experienced with cutting, burning, carving, scratching, bruising and this has gone on for a while now and I always try to stop but I relapse all the damn time like I just need it because it helps me keep my sanity and so far I'm 4 days clean...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F 2 Responses May 22

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    megsupermaherio megsupermaherio 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 14

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    I caved about a week ago.

    I don't really feel like sharing the full details, but it's going to be hard to hide it all wearing shorts... Guess I might just suffer the heat and wear pants until it's healed. But I feel better now.... I think...
    That0neGuy That0neGuy 22-25, M May 22

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    On And Off

    I have been self harming my self since grade 7 at first it was just little cuts then in grade 9 I when deeper and they where longer I would have just cut up and down my whole arms. People would make fun of me but it got to the point where I didn't care about trying to hide the...
    kaylatheanimegirl3 kaylatheanimegirl3 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2012

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    As my featured story stated,

    I’ve been struggling with self-injury for a while now, my date I chose recovery, and decided to remain clean, March 5, 2014, remains the same. I made the choice to become clean for a bunch of reasons, but the main being that I wanted it for me. In the past I would try and quit...
    tayelizabeth tayelizabeth 18-21, F Jun 4

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    In about a week and a half,

    I will be 3 months clean. My last relapse really terrified me because I accidentally went too deep, and since then I haven't been getting urges. I don't know if its because of the new meds (they switched me from celexa to zoloft) or because how scared I was last time I cut. So...
    spiritchaser458 spiritchaser458 16-17, F Jan 27

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    My Story

    It all started with a simple scratch on my wrist and then it got harder and harder and more and more everyday. I eventually got caught by my sister and lied and said the Dog scratched me. I then went to my bicep area I guess that's what it's called. Then I begin scratching and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 25, 2012

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    It has been 7 and a half months

    since my last relapse. That time, I had made it to 9 months. Then my love left me, after countless promises and reassurances - which I did not ask for but he gave freely. I knew what I was doing, and it wasn't impulsive. I deliberately chose my arm over my usual area (thighs...
    softbunny6 softbunny6 26-30, F 5 Responses May 2

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    My story. I can think of the exact time my

    addiction started, which is kinda funny, because I don't remember what triggered it. What I do remember, is sitting in the bathroom bawling my eyes out as I carve the word "lost" into my arm. I remember feeling numb. I could feel the blade tugging at my skin, but it didn't hurt...
    spiritchaser458 spiritchaser458 16-17, F Jan 19

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    October 30th 2012

    I have been dealing with self-harm since I was 15 (2005) and I've fallen in and out of recovery more times than I can count. This time around I've been clean since the 30th of October and holding strong for the moment. I've been making a paper chain. Adding a new link for every...
    Revelx Revelx 22-25, F Dec 5, 2012

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    A whole year and a half

    and I've come so close today... what the hell is wrong with me? I just lost my positivity and everything I've worked hard to develop...
    appleof5 appleof5 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 22

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    myhappylittlepill myhappylittlepill 13-15, F Nov 25

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    I just flushed my blades

    and I plan to tell my therapist when I see her in a few days. I really want to recover and I hope I can.
    waffles0113 waffles0113 13-15 Jul 29

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    I started self harming in August 2010.

    It started off with scissors, just little scratches that barely broke skin. Then it slowly got worse, until it got to the point where I'd take a razor and wouldn't stop until both of my arms were dripping blood, both covered in deep, gaping wounds from wrist to elbow. I was...
    meggypeggy1996 meggypeggy1996 18-21, F Jun 27

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    One Week Down!

    So it's been a week since I last cut, and it's a challenge. I'm great full for the support I'm getting, and for those who are being patient with me. I still feel the urge, and it drives me crazy, but I'm not giving in. It's gonna be a rough trip!
    Jacqid96 Jacqid96 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 10, 2013

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    Judge me if you want but you don't even know my name so why would you?
    Queennnnnnn Queennnnnnn 13-15, F Dec 2

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    even if people try to understand why I do it they just don't get the fact that I'm broken and empty inside
    thedeathmist thedeathmist 16-17, F Dec 7

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    I stop self harm for a long while but this month was the hardest. I started cutting again. Why did everything happen, maybe it was my fault. Now I self harm again
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    As an individual, speaking with all honesty ... I still have not approached the light at the end of the tunnel which is loving myself the way I am. I've come to a realization that...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 25

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    I started self harming three years ago I don't do it a lot I do it when I can't take it anymore. I first self harmed when I found out that dad cheated on mom and I felt so bad I...
    Busexx Busexx 16-17, F Nov 28

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    A few years go, my parents go in to HUGE arguments. I hated it. There were some that were just like ehhh and just some that were OMG just stop. I cry every time that my parents...
    cantsaymynamesorry cantsaymynamesorry 13-15, F Nov 22

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    I've tried so hard to stop but it's the biggest release I have It got so bad It was effecting me at school and people noticed I was pulled in for a really long meeting with a...
    AdventureIsAlwaysAroundTheBend AdventureIsAlwaysAroundTheBend 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    For the past 3 years of my life I have self harmed almost every single day, but this is the first time I have ever been able to say that I am 1 month clean and I have never felt...
    originalitydied originalitydied 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH THAT I AM GOING TO GO ON A SELF-HATING MARATHON... I AM GOING TO NOT BATHE OR BRUSH MY TEETH FOR A WEEK, UNLESS I HAVE TO GO SOMEWHERE BECAUSE I AM UGLY AND...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 8

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    im done with saying i might, maybe , should i the breaking point is 1 thing away. if one more bad thing happens then yes i will self harm. it is sad thinking that by the 30 th i...
    alysia28 alysia28 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I have always fought with an eating disorder and anxiety but this year I became involved with depression and self-harm. In the spring of 2014, I got involved in a car accident and...
    ecokismet ecokismet 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    im so angry and upset about every thing that is happening and every thing that has happened. i feel like the only way to get it out properly is to make my self feel pain i cant go...
    alysia28 alysia28 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Today i was upset at school i really want to self harm but i left my cutter at home so i use my empty pencil mechanic to self harm well it didn"t bleed at all and the scar is...
    reginacs reginacs 16-17, F Nov 26

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    2 years I struggled with self harm ... Scars on my wrist and thigh ... I haven't self harmed in over a year ... Just got my heart ripped out and stomped on .... I have my blade in...
    dyinginside4 dyinginside4 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 27

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    I'm going to be 6 months clean on the 20th of December, but I don't know if I'll last that long. I've been feeling very, very triggered lately and I don't know what to do. I'm...
    nowimawarrior nowimawarrior 13-15, F 3 Responses Dec 1

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    I just want to let all the people who say self harming is "dumb" and "pointless", know that they are very ignorant about the situation and they should just shut up. I used to self...
    Roadtorecovery31997 Roadtorecovery31997 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 3

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    Okay am I the only one who gets annoyed when people glorify self harm like its some fashion trend. Saying "it's so beautiful" "I love self harm" and stuff. Like seriously stop it's...
    alicepulkin alicepulkin 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    I self harm just about every day. But for what? Why do we do these things to ourselves? I mean I know why but... I started cutting when I was around 16 or 17, but then later...
    trayomis trayomis 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 14

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    My family are driving me closer and closer to self harming and today I nearly done it but I stopped myself but I really want to just to try relieving a little bit of pain from my...
    xXxLaylaxXx xXxLaylaxXx 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    self harm is a beautiful thing and I enjoy it <3
    kittykittyoxc kittykittyoxc 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    I'm 14. And I self harm. I am trying to stop but I don't know if I can. Does anyone care enough to help me? Someone please help me!?!?
    aFightingHeart aFightingHeart 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 23

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    Geez, I'm mad. someone i know just say 'what's with your hand? it looks like you're on drugs' well, shut the **** up! self-harming isn't drugs and you should be thankful for that...
    roseinsurvival roseinsurvival 13-15 Nov 26

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    I've seen my ex fb n she's wiv some 1 and she decides to unblock me on fb why is she doing this to me ??? Dose she wants me dead ??!! I've already self harmed and it's not nice...
    babel123456 babel123456 26-30, M Nov 27

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    it's been about six months since I've last self harmed now. the last few days I've come close to ruining that many times....
    crazycat012 crazycat012 18-21, T Nov 30

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    Yay.... I've haven't self harmed for a good 3 days now. Its been really really hard with all the crap I've been dealing with lately. But when I eventually succumb to my knife, it...
    SweetcakesJr SweetcakesJr 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 1

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    today I got called a bad mum, it all started when I took my 2 babies ( they aren't really babies they are 2 and 3) swimming and obviously I wroe a swimsuit and my legs and scars...
    leahlovesyou leahlovesyou 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 3

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    Nighttime It's dark outside, people are sleeping in their beds. I am sitting in the bathroom and I can only see red. It's flowing down my upper arms, lower arms, legs, stomach...
    LostEmptySoul LostEmptySoul 22-25, F Dec 4

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    I've just told my best guy friend of 3 years that I self harm, and he said that we should talk about it tomorrow. I'm just not sure if I did the right thing. what if he changes his...
    averageme1 averageme1 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 7