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I Am In Recovery From Self Harm

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    When I was severely depressed I used to self

    harm ever single day. Some days it was really bad and other days it was just light cuts. It moved from my arms to my legs. Especially because I started hating my bust and how "fat" I was. It was terrible i even spelled it out on my thigh with a blade. Most scars are gone now but...
    gm126 gm126 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    I broke my streak... it was April 2nd exactly

    11 months of being clean. I ****** it all up and cut up my entire stomach with those same weak safety scissors. Even though the scissors were weak my drive to **** up my body was so strong the cut's were the deepest ive ever done. I disappointed myself so much and ruined my goal...
    MorbidRainbow MorbidRainbow 13-15, F Apr 4

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    October 30th 2012

    I have been dealing with self-harm since I was 15 (2005) and I've fallen in and out of recovery more times than I can count. This time around I've been clean since the 30th of October and holding strong for the moment. I've been making a paper chain. Adding a new link for every...
    Revelx Revelx 22-25, F Dec 5, 2012

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    Megsupermario Megsupermario 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 14, 2014

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    A whole year and a half

    and I've come so close today... what the hell is wrong with me? I just lost my positivity and everything I've worked hard to develop...
    appleof5 appleof5 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 22, 2014

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    It has been 7 and a half months

    since my last relapse. That time, I had made it to 9 months. Then my love left me, after countless promises and reassurances - which I did not ask for but he gave freely. I knew what I was doing, and it wasn't impulsive. I deliberately chose my arm over my usual area (thighs...
    softbunny6 softbunny6 26-30, F 4 Responses May 2, 2014

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    My story. I can think of the exact time my

    addiction started, which is kinda funny, because I don't remember what triggered it. What I do remember, is sitting in the bathroom bawling my eyes out as I carve the word "lost" into my arm. I remember feeling numb. I could feel the blade tugging at my skin, but it didn't hurt...
    spiritchaser458 spiritchaser458 18-21, F Jan 19, 2014

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    myhappylittlepill myhappylittlepill 13-15, F Nov 25, 2014

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    I've been self harming

    since I was 7 so I'm kinda well experienced with cutting, burning, carving, scratching, bruising and this has gone on for a while now and I always try to stop but I relapse all the damn time like I just need it because it helps me keep my sanity and so far I'm 4 days clean...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F 1 Response May 22, 2014

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    I just flushed my blades

    and I plan to tell my therapist when I see her in a few days. I really want to recover and I hope I can.
    waffles0113 waffles0113 13-15 Jul 29, 2014

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    As my featured story stated,

    I’ve been struggling with self-injury for a while now, my date I chose recovery, and decided to remain clean, March 5, 2014, remains the same. I made the choice to become clean for a bunch of reasons, but the main being that I wanted it for me. In the past I would try and quit...
    tayelizabeth tayelizabeth 18-21, F Jun 4, 2014

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    In about a week and a half,

    I will be 3 months clean. My last relapse really terrified me because I accidentally went too deep, and since then I haven't been getting urges. I don't know if its because of the new meds (they switched me from celexa to zoloft) or because how scared I was last time I cut. So...
    spiritchaser458 spiritchaser458 18-21, F Jan 27, 2014

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    On And Off

    I have been self harming my self since grade 7 at first it was just little cuts then in grade 9 I when deeper and they where longer I would have just cut up and down my whole arms. People would make fun of me but it got to the point where I didn't care about trying to hide the...
    kaylatheanimegirl3 kaylatheanimegirl3 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2012

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    I started self harming in August 2010.

    It started off with scissors, just little scratches that barely broke skin. Then it slowly got worse, until it got to the point where I'd take a razor and wouldn't stop until both of my arms were dripping blood, both covered in deep, gaping wounds from wrist to elbow. I was...
    meggypeggy1996 meggypeggy1996 18-21, F Jun 27, 2014

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    I am 3 months clean. I really don't want to

    relapse. I promised my boyfriend that I wouldn't hurt myself again. I get urges sometimes but they go away if I distract myself by doing something I enjoy.
    Allcatsareawesome Allcatsareawesome 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 20, 2014

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    Its Hardest When I Think Im Doing The Best

    i have been self mutilating since 6th grade. there have been long periods where ill stop but then ill just relapse into it after being hurt or depressed to the point of hysteria. i have several people for a support system but the thing is when it really comes down to it i dont...
    swoosh1baby swoosh1baby 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 2, 2010

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    Recovery

    It is a long and hard road to recover I self harmed for 6 years from the age of 7 to 16 I am only 17 now but i feel i am totally in recovery I know how addictive it is, when you want to stop, you cant and when you can, you dont want to . . . I just want people to know that...
    RememberTheStars RememberTheStars 16-17, F Jun 4, 2010

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    I caved about a week ago.

    I don't really feel like sharing the full details, but it's going to be hard to hide it all wearing shorts... Guess I might just suffer the heat and wear pants until it's healed. But I feel better now.... I think...
    That0neGuy That0neGuy 22-25, M May 22, 2014

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    Ugh I said that this site would be the one I'd

    be true to myself since I can't really get myself into that in real life so I guess its time for me to get over with this topic... I hate myself so much right now, why am I even writing this? I don't know, its not like anyone is forcing me to I just feel like its easier to share...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 7, 2014

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    I'm doing good. I'm 8 months clean

    and I don't plan on going back. The last time I harmed was February 2013, my boyfriend and I had just broken up and it was rough. I wasn't doing very well and I broke down and cut and cut the scars are still there and it was by far my worst episode. After that I got help. And...
    Leahisawesome Leahisawesome 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 5, 2014

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    One Week Down!

    So it's been a week since I last cut, and it's a challenge. I'm great full for the support I'm getting, and for those who are being patient with me. I still feel the urge, and it drives me crazy, but I'm not giving in. It's gonna be a rough trip!
    Jacqid96 Jacqid96 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 10, 2013

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    My Story

    It all started with a simple scratch on my wrist and then it got harder and harder and more and more everyday. I eventually got caught by my sister and lied and said the Dog scratched me. I then went to my bicep area I guess that's what it's called. Then I begin scratching and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 25, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    The thoughts are coming back. I wanted to do it on the way home from a trip I went on and now I'm thinking about it more constantly. I haven't done it for a while but I think I'm...
    JalenFrankie616 JalenFrankie616 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Today i self harmed I'm not proud of myself since i was 6months clean. I feel like I'm not important or nobody cares about me. My depression is going to cause for me to push people...
    reversethetime reversethetime 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    When I was in 8th grade i started dating this girl for a while, she was 4 years older than me and ai lost my virginity to her. I was absolutely in love with her and it seemed like...
    KennethWolf KennethWolf 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I've been clean for a couple months now. I don't really know exactly how long ago it was that I marked myself. but lately I've felt just really numb... I found out that my...
    KennethWolf KennethWolf 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My mom found out about the self harming and is now always looking for scars and cuts. So I have found another way. Stuff like staying up till really early morning, not drinking...
    Bikiexd Bikiexd 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I've got a history of self harming but my method has changed as I got older. When I was 15ish, my method of release was cutting with the sharp point of a maths compass (unusual I...
    Anon0188 Anon0188 26-30, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    For about two to three years, I have self-harmed. Mostly cutting, but I also punched myself, punched objects, starved and made myself throw up {not sure if that the last two are...
    luciethedepressedllama luciethedepressedllama 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    So self harm was something I struggled with for quite a while. It got pretty bad at one point and recently I have decided I can't do that anymore. I no longer want to do it and I...
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I remember when I would cut my wrist ,thighs ,really any where possible. That time In my life was so sad and out of control. It took me 3 years to gain control of me. Gaining self...
    cherryshelby cherryshelby 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I self-harm my mouth. And I do consider it a serious issue. My boyfriend has seen the effect it has on my mental health. I have bitten 1/2-1 inch white scars on my lips, tongue...
    Chrossy Chrossy 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    It's been a couple months, but all my self harmers , and people that are clean , it feels good to have that control, right? I mean even if you don't want to any more, your life...
    everythursday everythursday 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    self harmed just the other night...but this time, there was more blood....
    bpc2415 bpc2415 13-15, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    Before I made that first cut, before I started to harm my body, I thought I would be able to control myself. But with every cut I felt my pain going away and found the blood...
    crey97zy crey97zy 18-21, F a week ago

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    It was a year ago. I started it for a stupid reason. On a whim, I thought I'd try it. My first time I made three cuts. I thought taking the blade slowly across my skin was how it...
    EvaianRae EvaianRae 18-21, F Jul 24

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    I haven't self harmed 9 months now, it's been a struggle and a fight. But I'm making it
    Syyyyyyy14 Syyyyyyy14 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 23

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    U & Me forever this way www.nidhisuraj.com There are so many Love Stories in this world. Few stories become so famous but few are unsaid and been buried with time. Few...
    evan003 evan003 18-21, F Jul 23

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    inb4 tldr;all these beautiful young ladies hurting themselves for whatever reason. i know .. im 35 and i started cutting when i was .. about 14. ive dealt with it for a very long...
    thegreatruiner thegreatruiner 70+, F Jul 22

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    The scars will never go away but my daughter is the reminder of why i stopped. Nothing will keep me from being there for her.
    UkuladyPDX UkuladyPDX 22-25, F Jul 22

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    i have self harmed for over a year now and i am trying to stop but no matter how hard i try i end up failing and the cuts just get deeper and deeper and i dont what to do, my mum...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jul 22

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    I failed. I ******* failed! I was doing okay. My skin was becoming smooth again...some parts were even going back to its natural color but I gave in. Today I started self harming...
    solivagant86 solivagant86 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 21

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    U & Me forever this way www.nidhisuraj.com There are so many Love Stories in this world. Few stories become so famous but few are unsaid and been buried with time. Few...
    evan003 evan003 18-21, F Jul 21

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    For the majority of my short life I've had some form of self harm, to biting my nails/skin, to cutting, to depriving of myself of food or sleep etc. I just keep jumping from the...
    Ugnius2121 Ugnius2121 16-17, M Jul 20