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I Am In Recovery From Self Harm

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 109 People

    Megsupermario Megsupermario 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 14, 2014

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    I am 3 months clean. I really don't want to

    relapse. I promised my boyfriend that I wouldn't hurt myself again. I get urges sometimes but they go away if I distract myself by doing something I enjoy.
    christarose96 christarose96 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 20, 2014

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    I'm doing good. I'm 8 months clean

    and I don't plan on going back. The last time I harmed was February 2013, my boyfriend and I had just broken up and it was rough. I wasn't doing very well and I broke down and cut and cut the scars are still there and it was by far my worst episode. After that I got help. And...
    Leahisawesome Leahisawesome 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 5, 2014

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    It all started with a simple scratch on my wrist and then it got harder and harder and more and more everyday. I eventually got caught by my sister and lied and said the Dog scratched me. I then went to my bicep area I guess that's what it's called. Then I begin scratching and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 25, 2012

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    I just flushed my blades

    and I plan to tell my therapist when I see her in a few days. I really want to recover and I hope I can.
    waffles0113 waffles0113 13-15 Jul 29, 2014

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    On And Off

    I have been self harming my self since grade 7 at first it was just little cuts then in grade 9 I when deeper and they where longer I would have just cut up and down my whole arms. People would make fun of me but it got to the point where I didn't care about trying to hide the...
    kaylatheanimegirl3 kaylatheanimegirl3 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2012

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    I've been self harming

    since I was 7 so I'm kinda well experienced with cutting, burning, carving, scratching, bruising and this has gone on for a while now and I always try to stop but I relapse all the damn time like I just need it because it helps me keep my sanity and so far I'm 4 days clean...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F 2 Responses May 22, 2014

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    In about a week and a half,

    I will be 3 months clean. My last relapse really terrified me because I accidentally went too deep, and since then I haven't been getting urges. I don't know if its because of the new meds (they switched me from celexa to zoloft) or because how scared I was last time I cut. So...
    spiritchaser458 spiritchaser458 16-17, F Jan 27, 2014

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    As my featured story stated,

    I’ve been struggling with self-injury for a while now, my date I chose recovery, and decided to remain clean, March 5, 2014, remains the same. I made the choice to become clean for a bunch of reasons, but the main being that I wanted it for me. In the past I would try and quit...
    tayelizabeth tayelizabeth 18-21, F Jun 4, 2014

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    Ugh I said that this site would be the one I'd

    be true to myself since I can't really get myself into that in real life so I guess its time for me to get over with this topic... I hate myself so much right now, why am I even writing this? I don't know, its not like anyone is forcing me to I just feel like its easier to share...
    alpaqqa alpaqqa 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 7, 2014

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    One Week Down!

    So it's been a week since I last cut, and it's a challenge. I'm great full for the support I'm getting, and for those who are being patient with me. I still feel the urge, and it drives me crazy, but I'm not giving in. It's gonna be a rough trip!
    Jacqid96 Jacqid96 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 10, 2013

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    Its Hardest When I Think Im Doing The Best

    i have been self mutilating since 6th grade. there have been long periods where ill stop but then ill just relapse into it after being hurt or depressed to the point of hysteria. i have several people for a support system but the thing is when it really comes down to it i dont...
    swoosh1baby swoosh1baby 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 2, 2010

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    It has been 7 and a half months

    since my last relapse. That time, I had made it to 9 months. Then my love left me, after countless promises and reassurances - which I did not ask for but he gave freely. I knew what I was doing, and it wasn't impulsive. I deliberately chose my arm over my usual area (thighs...
    softbunny6 softbunny6 26-30, F 5 Responses May 2, 2014

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    My story. I can think of the exact time my

    addiction started, which is kinda funny, because I don't remember what triggered it. What I do remember, is sitting in the bathroom bawling my eyes out as I carve the word "lost" into my arm. I remember feeling numb. I could feel the blade tugging at my skin, but it didn't hurt...
    spiritchaser458 spiritchaser458 16-17, F Jan 19, 2014

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    Recovery

    It is a long and hard road to recover I self harmed for 6 years from the age of 7 to 16 I am only 17 now but i feel i am totally in recovery I know how addictive it is, when you want to stop, you cant and when you can, you dont want to . . . I just want people to know that...
    RememberTheStars RememberTheStars 16-17, F Jun 4, 2010

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    A whole year and a half

    and I've come so close today... what the hell is wrong with me? I just lost my positivity and everything I've worked hard to develop...
    appleof5 appleof5 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 22, 2014

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    I started self harming in August 2010.

    It started off with scissors, just little scratches that barely broke skin. Then it slowly got worse, until it got to the point where I'd take a razor and wouldn't stop until both of my arms were dripping blood, both covered in deep, gaping wounds from wrist to elbow. I was...
    meggypeggy1996 meggypeggy1996 18-21, F Jun 27, 2014

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    October 30th 2012

    I have been dealing with self-harm since I was 15 (2005) and I've fallen in and out of recovery more times than I can count. This time around I've been clean since the 30th of October and holding strong for the moment. I've been making a paper chain. Adding a new link for every...
    Revelx Revelx 22-25, F Dec 5, 2012

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    myhappylittlepill myhappylittlepill 13-15, F Nov 25, 2014

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    I caved about a week ago.

    I don't really feel like sharing the full details, but it's going to be hard to hide it all wearing shorts... Guess I might just suffer the heat and wear pants until it's healed. But I feel better now.... I think...
    That0neGuy That0neGuy 22-25, M May 22, 2014

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    I had been doing so well in recovery from self-harm for almost 5 years. And then a bomb was dropped. I found out that my little sister, who I went to inpatient treatment for (for...
    doggiemom90 doggiemom90 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    I have been three month clean from self harm feeling pretty good
    painfullyloving painfullyloving 16-17, F Dec 30, 2014

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    Do you ever feel like because people know you self harm you have to self harm badly to be worthy of help, like otherwise you're not upset enough, stressed enough of important...
    BellaE15 BellaE15 16-17, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I can't tell which scars came from what anymore, from being bullied or self-harm or suicide.
    PantomimeEira PantomimeEira 16-17, F 2 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    I self harmed again. I am scared of school and I still haven't gotten my period. I am 7 days late but the pregnancy test said "negative". Am I too fat to get my period now?! I just...
    BloodRedRiver BloodRedRiver 22-25, F 9 hrs ago

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    *Trigger warnings are in the post* I started self-harming in early 2008. I stopped in late 2011. So four years. I was in highschool then, and finished highschool in 2012. I...
    Nomnomk Nomnomk 18-21, F Jan 4

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    1:30am in the morning, here I am sat in a dark, silent house reflecting on my past, my regrets, my guilt and the ‘what I would have done differently’ scenarios. However...
    deathfromabove1066 deathfromabove1066 22-25, F Jan 18

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    I am a recovering self harm addict. It's been 7 months since I last self harmed, but even though it was only 4 cuts a relapse is still a relapse. It used to be really bad, but the...
    Ramellan Ramellan 22-25, M Dec 30, 2014

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    I am in recovery from addiction to drugs and alcohol. I started drinking and using as a teen, and it took many years before addiction caught up with me. It was a long and slow...
    bethanngirl bethanngirl 56-60, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    What to say to a self harmer in public if you see one? Nothing. Just be nice. The only time I will talk to someone I do not know about self-harm is if they are a cutter or are...
    spudlydudly spudlydudly 22-25 Jan 2

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    I've self-harmed ever since I was a small child really if I get to thinking about it. This is a list I found in an online psychiatric journal for types of self-harm in children...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F Jan 17

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    when i was little i was horribly bullied. one day he tried to strangle me it got to that point. i was only young about 4 or 5 and since then i've always had incredibly low self...
    makeitsomeday makeitsomeday 18-21, F Dec 27, 2014

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    I self harmed for about 4 years. I haven't cut in a year. I'm actually very proud of myself for that. But there are times i think about, when i have wondering thoughts. or when I...
    AfraidOfMyOwnMind AfraidOfMyOwnMind 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I've self-harmed for over a year! I remember crying my self to sleep with my thighs burning, I remember the blood dripping as I cut deeper, feeling like no one loves me. Everyday I...
    ElissaAcosta ElissaAcosta 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 15

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    I used to. Sometimes I still want to.. But I can't. I've tried many times to kill myself but thankfully no success. My 2 little sisters self harm as well. (They're 12&13!!) I'm...
    Gabrielaaaa99 Gabrielaaaa99 13-15, F Jan 16

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    I have harmed since i was 14 (I'm 24 now) i lie to everyone that knew i did it they all think i stopped but really its worse than ever:/ a few cuts are not enough anymore i can...
    rockchick1990 rockchick1990 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    And Suicide but I respect those who do it though, I understand that they are going through so much pain and that to them it's their only way out but to me- I see many different...
    AlohaJess AlohaJess 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    My foster dad walked in on my self-harming today. He was so pissed, he just doesn't under stand that him and his family are a big part of the reason I do self harm. I can't take...
    lostgirl2001 lostgirl2001 13-15, F Dec 28, 2014

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    I started self harming myself in 7th grade. I am now in 8th grade, and have to admit that I still do. I first started because, well, I honestly kind of just wanted to try it out...
    davetheestrider davetheestrider 18-21, T 1 Response Jan 8

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    As long as my boyfriend is in the same room, I cannot self harm. I need him to go so I can hurt myself. I am desperate for release. He got what he wanted, now I have to self harm...
    BloodRedRiver BloodRedRiver 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    Telling someone who self harms to "just stop cutting" is like telling someone who is anorexic to "just eat". They don't see the pain someone had to be in , in order to put a blade...
    holdontome holdontome 18-21, F Dec 29, 2014

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    When I was only twelve years old, life was too much. I thought myself to be fat, ugly, and weak. My best friend was hit by a car and killed, one of my friends got breast cancer...
    Felix112 Felix112 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    self harming used to be my drug,my escape from reality for just a few minutes.
    penguinproblems penguinproblems 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 1

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    I'm having urges, but they'll pass. It'll be okay. I'm trying to quit. No one really knows. I know enough about self-harm to see that the only person that can help me is myself. I...
    Nomnomk Nomnomk 18-21, F Jan 5

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    I know self harming is really bad and that I shouldn't do it anyway but I just can't help it. I don't cut, I scratch. I rarely break the skin, but the lines are visible. One time...
    lily13576349 lily13576349 13-15 Jan 11

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    For the past few years I have been struggling with erotic asphyxiation. I get a high from watching *********** and choking myself until I almost pass out. However, this act has...
    DesperatelyLosingMyself DesperatelyLosingMyself 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 15

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    I self harm for various reasons mostly because depression, the need to feel something, and self punishment. I hope to be clean for a at least a month for my new years resolution
    Horse10202 Horse10202 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 3

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    Both on my body and in life. Self sabotage is self harm too.
    NewBeginnings5 NewBeginnings5 22-25 Jan 11