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I Am In Recovery From Self Harm

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 138 People

    Its Hardest When I Think Im Doing The Best

    i have been self mutilating since 6th grade. there have been long periods where ill stop but then ill just relapse into it after being hurt or depressed to the point of hysteria. i have several people for a support system but the thing is when it really comes down to it i dont...
    swoosh1baby swoosh1baby 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 2, 2010

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    One Week Down!

    So it's been a week since I last cut, and it's a challenge. I'm great full for the support I'm getting, and for those who are being patient with me. I still feel the urge, and it drives me crazy, but I'm not giving in. It's gonna be a rough trip!
    Jacqid96 Jacqid96 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 10, 2013

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    Ugh I said that this site would be the one I'd

    be true to myself since I can't really get myself into that in real life so I guess its time for me to get over with this topic... I hate myself so much right now, why am I even writing this? I don't know, its not like anyone is forcing me to I just feel like its easier to share...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 7, 2014

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    When I was severely depressed I used to self

    harm ever single day. Some days it was really bad and other days it was just light cuts. It moved from my arms to my legs. Especially because I started hating my bust and how "fat" I was. It was terrible i even spelled it out on my thigh with a blade. Most scars are gone now but...
    gm126 gm126 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    My Story

    It all started with a simple scratch on my wrist and then it got harder and harder and more and more everyday. I eventually got caught by my sister and lied and said the Dog scratched me. I then went to my bicep area I guess that's what it's called. Then I begin scratching and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 25, 2012

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    I just flushed my blades

    and I plan to tell my therapist when I see her in a few days. I really want to recover and I hope I can.
    waffles0113 waffles0113 13-15 Jul 29, 2014

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    I started self harming in August 2010.

    It started off with scissors, just little scratches that barely broke skin. Then it slowly got worse, until it got to the point where I'd take a razor and wouldn't stop until both of my arms were dripping blood, both covered in deep, gaping wounds from wrist to elbow. I was...
    meggypeggy1996 meggypeggy1996 18-21, F Jun 27, 2014

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    Recovery

    It is a long and hard road to recover I self harmed for 6 years from the age of 7 to 16 I am only 17 now but i feel i am totally in recovery I know how addictive it is, when you want to stop, you cant and when you can, you dont want to . . . I just want people to know that...
    RememberTheStars RememberTheStars 16-17, F Jun 4, 2010

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    Megsupermario Megsupermario 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 14, 2014

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    I am 3 months clean. I really don't want to

    relapse. I promised my boyfriend that I wouldn't hurt myself again. I get urges sometimes but they go away if I distract myself by doing something I enjoy.
    HelloLovelyPerson HelloLovelyPerson 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 20, 2014

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    I broke my streak... it was April 2nd exactly

    11 months of being clean. I ****** it all up and cut up my entire stomach with those same weak safety scissors. Even though the scissors were weak my drive to **** up my body was so strong the cut's were the deepest ive ever done. I disappointed myself so much and ruined my goal...
    MorbidRainbow MorbidRainbow 13-15, F Apr 4

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    October 30th 2012

    I have been dealing with self-harm since I was 15 (2005) and I've fallen in and out of recovery more times than I can count. This time around I've been clean since the 30th of October and holding strong for the moment. I've been making a paper chain. Adding a new link for every...
    Revelx Revelx 22-25, F Dec 5, 2012

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    I'm doing good. I'm 8 months clean

    and I don't plan on going back. The last time I harmed was February 2013, my boyfriend and I had just broken up and it was rough. I wasn't doing very well and I broke down and cut and cut the scars are still there and it was by far my worst episode. After that I got help. And...
    Leahisawesome Leahisawesome 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 5, 2014

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    In about a week and a half,

    I will be 3 months clean. My last relapse really terrified me because I accidentally went too deep, and since then I haven't been getting urges. I don't know if its because of the new meds (they switched me from celexa to zoloft) or because how scared I was last time I cut. So...
    spiritchaser458 spiritchaser458 18-21, F Jan 27, 2014

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    myhappylittlepill myhappylittlepill 13-15, F Nov 25, 2014

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    My story. I can think of the exact time my

    addiction started, which is kinda funny, because I don't remember what triggered it. What I do remember, is sitting in the bathroom bawling my eyes out as I carve the word "lost" into my arm. I remember feeling numb. I could feel the blade tugging at my skin, but it didn't hurt...
    spiritchaser458 spiritchaser458 18-21, F Jan 19, 2014

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    A whole year and a half

    and I've come so close today... what the hell is wrong with me? I just lost my positivity and everything I've worked hard to develop...
    appleof5 appleof5 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 22, 2014

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    I caved about a week ago.

    I don't really feel like sharing the full details, but it's going to be hard to hide it all wearing shorts... Guess I might just suffer the heat and wear pants until it's healed. But I feel better now.... I think...
    That0neGuy That0neGuy 22-25, M May 22, 2014

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    It has been 7 and a half months

    since my last relapse. That time, I had made it to 9 months. Then my love left me, after countless promises and reassurances - which I did not ask for but he gave freely. I knew what I was doing, and it wasn't impulsive. I deliberately chose my arm over my usual area (thighs...
    softbunny6 softbunny6 26-30, F 4 Responses May 2, 2014

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    As my featured story stated,

    I’ve been struggling with self-injury for a while now, my date I chose recovery, and decided to remain clean, March 5, 2014, remains the same. I made the choice to become clean for a bunch of reasons, but the main being that I wanted it for me. In the past I would try and quit...
    tayelizabeth tayelizabeth 18-21, F Jun 4, 2014

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    On And Off

    I have been self harming my self since grade 7 at first it was just little cuts then in grade 9 I when deeper and they where longer I would have just cut up and down my whole arms. People would make fun of me but it got to the point where I didn't care about trying to hide the...
    kaylatheanimegirl3 kaylatheanimegirl3 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2012

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    I've been self harming

    since I was 7 so I'm kinda well experienced with cutting, burning, carving, scratching, bruising and this has gone on for a while now and I always try to stop but I relapse all the damn time like I just need it because it helps me keep my sanity and so far I'm 4 days clean...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F 2 Responses May 22, 2014

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    Related Experiences

    Yesterday was my 1 month of being clean from cutting. I feel proud of that. No more ugly scars that people stare at. It was like everyone was seeing my fresh cuts, but no one cared...
    Nick54 Nick54 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    I did it again :( what is wrong with me
    jorgoth jorgoth 16-17, M 2 Responses Apr 14

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    I think my finger is infected... Not even from self harm... But... I still love it.. It hurts so much... And I hope that it gets worse... Why do I enjoy the pain.. That actually...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Found this on tubler, really strong. Before you self harm in any way, you should probably know what you’re getting into. Before you make that cut, please keep in mind that you...
    josef2000 josef2000 13-15, M 3 Responses Apr 13

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    yesterday (24th of March) was... It was hard. I didn't feel bad or anxious until late night, and even then it wasn't that bad really. I however had a problem. At about mid-day I...
    bluecupcakes bluecupcakes 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    Just last year I had a really bad depression where I ended up self harming... & the depression is starting again . But this time I promised myself that I won't self harm. I will...
    Davidthree Davidthree 13-15, M 2 Responses Mar 29

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    THIS IS REALLY IMPORTANT Comment down below what you associate as being silly. Only once you've done that continue reading- So maybe you relate being silly to a child capering...
    AwquardTallGirl AwquardTallGirl 13-15, F Apr 12

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    There was a group of people I went to school with that self harmed. I thought it would help me fit in. Imagine my surprise when it became my life raft. It's been about 2 years...
    Euzy07 Euzy07 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I have self harmed since I was about 15 and it has steadily got worse. I hate the pain of self harm now although I think I used to use it to calm me down. It's better to feel...
    LinkinParkMuse LinkinParkMuse 26-30, F Mar 28

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    Sometimes I just get so frustrated. Im trying to not self harm but its just so hard. Everything builds up inside and I explode. If I cant cut ill punch walls, sometimes even myself...
    darebearsworld darebearsworld 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 13

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    For all of you out there who have trouble stopping self harm, I have a suggestion. First of all, PLEASE get help, even just talking to a therapist once a week will help. Second of...
    xCrowSong xCrowSong 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 16

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    Years ago when I was younger used to self harm. Got over it was fine my daughter started self harming so could give her some good advise. Worst thing is I have now started again...
    angelcakebaby angelcakebaby 41-45, F Apr 3

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    It's been a couple months since my last episode. It's exhausting living a life with self harm. If you have any questions about self harm just comment or message me. Please be...
    TickleMeCell TickleMeCell 16-17, T 1 Response Apr 8

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    So....when my parents found out that I cut myself....they just kept making me feel even worse with all those questions of why I did that...and since i´m adopted they make me feel...
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 4 Responses Apr 15

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    For all the suicidal and self harming people out there. Stay strong please stay strong, life is full of ups and downs so some day life will give you all an up and you all will be...
    demonswithin demonswithin 18-21, M Mar 26

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    Haven't self harmed in over a month. I'm coming back to school from spring break in 2 days, I think I'll probably start again...
    PriscilaG PriscilaG 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 11

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    Like if you self harm or have, don't take it as a diss like I think you need my sympathy. Ik u don't, and I know you aren't asking for handouts. But I just have a soft spot for...
    TrackStackz TrackStackz 13-15, M Mar 28

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    self harming is the only way I can make the pain go away:(
    meghantownsend1999 meghantownsend1999 13-15, F 4 Responses Mar 28

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    I have self harmed for ages but it's just getting worse 😭😭
    lauj16 lauj16 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    You are the only people who know about this, im never telling anyone in person, ever. Okay two weeks ago, during PE class, she wore a tshirt into PE where you can see her wrists...
    imme163 imme163 13-15, F Mar 29

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    I've self harmed for a looooong time. It's pretty normal for me now, not some awful ordeal, just an annoying bit of my daily routine. I couldn't imagine quitting, not that keeping...
    KittyCunt KittyCunt 18-21, F Mar 31

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