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I Am In Recovery From Self Harm

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    It has been 7 and a half months

    since my last relapse. That time, I had made it to 9 months. Then my love left me, after countless promises and reassurances - which I did not ask for but he gave freely. I knew what I was doing, and it wasn't impulsive. I deliberately chose my arm over my usual area (thighs...
    softbunny6 softbunny6 26-30, F 4 Responses May 2, 2014

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    I just flushed my blades

    and I plan to tell my therapist when I see her in a few days. I really want to recover and I hope I can.
    waffles0113 waffles0113 13-15 Jul 29, 2014

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    I've been self harming

    since I was 7 so I'm kinda well experienced with cutting, burning, carving, scratching, bruising and this has gone on for a while now and I always try to stop but I relapse all the damn time like I just need it because it helps me keep my sanity and so far I'm 4 days clean...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F 2 Responses May 22, 2014

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    Megsupermario Megsupermario 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 14, 2014

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    When I was severely depressed I used to self

    harm ever single day. Some days it was really bad and other days it was just light cuts. It moved from my arms to my legs. Especially because I started hating my bust and how "fat" I was. It was terrible i even spelled it out on my thigh with a blade. Most scars are gone now but...
    gm126 gm126 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    A whole year and a half

    and I've come so close today... what the hell is wrong with me? I just lost my positivity and everything I've worked hard to develop...
    appleof5 appleof5 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 22, 2014

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    On And Off

    I have been self harming my self since grade 7 at first it was just little cuts then in grade 9 I when deeper and they where longer I would have just cut up and down my whole arms. People would make fun of me but it got to the point where I didn't care about trying to hide the...
    kaylatheanimegirl3 kaylatheanimegirl3 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2012

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    As my featured story stated,

    I’ve been struggling with self-injury for a while now, my date I chose recovery, and decided to remain clean, March 5, 2014, remains the same. I made the choice to become clean for a bunch of reasons, but the main being that I wanted it for me. In the past I would try and quit...
    tayelizabeth tayelizabeth 18-21, F Jun 4, 2014

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    I started self harming in August 2010.

    It started off with scissors, just little scratches that barely broke skin. Then it slowly got worse, until it got to the point where I'd take a razor and wouldn't stop until both of my arms were dripping blood, both covered in deep, gaping wounds from wrist to elbow. I was...
    meggypeggy1996 meggypeggy1996 18-21, F Jun 27, 2014

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    October 30th 2012

    I have been dealing with self-harm since I was 15 (2005) and I've fallen in and out of recovery more times than I can count. This time around I've been clean since the 30th of October and holding strong for the moment. I've been making a paper chain. Adding a new link for every...
    Revelx Revelx 22-25, F Dec 5, 2012

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    My Story

    It all started with a simple scratch on my wrist and then it got harder and harder and more and more everyday. I eventually got caught by my sister and lied and said the Dog scratched me. I then went to my bicep area I guess that's what it's called. Then I begin scratching and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 25, 2012

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    One Week Down!

    So it's been a week since I last cut, and it's a challenge. I'm great full for the support I'm getting, and for those who are being patient with me. I still feel the urge, and it drives me crazy, but I'm not giving in. It's gonna be a rough trip!
    Jacqid96 Jacqid96 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 10, 2013

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    In about a week and a half,

    I will be 3 months clean. My last relapse really terrified me because I accidentally went too deep, and since then I haven't been getting urges. I don't know if its because of the new meds (they switched me from celexa to zoloft) or because how scared I was last time I cut. So...
    spiritchaser458 spiritchaser458 16-17, F Jan 27, 2014

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    Ugh I said that this site would be the one I'd

    be true to myself since I can't really get myself into that in real life so I guess its time for me to get over with this topic... I hate myself so much right now, why am I even writing this? I don't know, its not like anyone is forcing me to I just feel like its easier to share...
    alpaqqa alpaqqa 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 7, 2014

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    Its Hardest When I Think Im Doing The Best

    i have been self mutilating since 6th grade. there have been long periods where ill stop but then ill just relapse into it after being hurt or depressed to the point of hysteria. i have several people for a support system but the thing is when it really comes down to it i dont...
    swoosh1baby swoosh1baby 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 2, 2010

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    myhappylittlepill myhappylittlepill 13-15, F Nov 25, 2014

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    I'm doing good. I'm 8 months clean

    and I don't plan on going back. The last time I harmed was February 2013, my boyfriend and I had just broken up and it was rough. I wasn't doing very well and I broke down and cut and cut the scars are still there and it was by far my worst episode. After that I got help. And...
    Leahisawesome Leahisawesome 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 5, 2014

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    I am 3 months clean. I really don't want to

    relapse. I promised my boyfriend that I wouldn't hurt myself again. I get urges sometimes but they go away if I distract myself by doing something I enjoy.
    christarose96 christarose96 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 20, 2014

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    Recovery

    It is a long and hard road to recover I self harmed for 6 years from the age of 7 to 16 I am only 17 now but i feel i am totally in recovery I know how addictive it is, when you want to stop, you cant and when you can, you dont want to . . . I just want people to know that...
    RememberTheStars RememberTheStars 16-17, F Jun 4, 2010

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    My story. I can think of the exact time my

    addiction started, which is kinda funny, because I don't remember what triggered it. What I do remember, is sitting in the bathroom bawling my eyes out as I carve the word "lost" into my arm. I remember feeling numb. I could feel the blade tugging at my skin, but it didn't hurt...
    spiritchaser458 spiritchaser458 16-17, F Jan 19, 2014

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    I caved about a week ago.

    I don't really feel like sharing the full details, but it's going to be hard to hide it all wearing shorts... Guess I might just suffer the heat and wear pants until it's healed. But I feel better now.... I think...
    That0neGuy That0neGuy 22-25, M May 22, 2014

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    Related Experiences

    I have self-harmed currently in recovery been 8 months since I've cut. But this past months has been nothing but an emotional roller coaster I'm just so anxious I start therapy on...
    Keephope14 Keephope14 22-25, F Feb 16

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    So many people in my age group are beginning to self harm and it makes me sick. I wish I could stop. This is my story: When I was younger, I would look at self harmers and go, "My...
    lily13576349 lily13576349 13-15, F Feb 17

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    I have been self harming since I was 12, I am about to be 21. The last time I harmed was a month ago and I made one big deep cut that should've had stitches because the scar now is...
    avey10 avey10 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 4

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    Do you ever feel like because people know you self harm you have to self harm badly to be worthy of help, like otherwise you're not upset enough, stressed enough of important...
    BellaE15 BellaE15 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 27

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    I can't tell which scars came from what anymore, from being bullied or self-harm or suicide.
    PantomimeEira PantomimeEira 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 27

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    Yesterday I was 6 months self-harm free...today, new cuts burn my thighs. I let ana and mia let me cut myself again. I love ana and mia, but cutting wasn't supposed to happen again...
    darebearsworld darebearsworld 16-17, F Jan 30

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    I've been self harming since 7th grade. I'm currently a sophomore in Highschool and I don't do it as often but I still get strong urges to do it all the time. My mom knows that I...
    Gerardfuckinway Gerardfuckinway 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 18

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    I guess I'm never gonna stop. I can't go a day without thinking constantly about cutting. I don't wanna stop. I don't wanna get better. I have no idea why. I've spend so much time...
    elena1998 elena1998 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 9

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    I was bullied to the point I didn't want to be alive anymore, I still blame it on my self 2 years later, it effects how I am around people. It makes me feel worthless and I feel...
    elliemayxo elliemayxo 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    I self harmed again. I am scared of school and I still haven't gotten my period. I am 7 days late but the pregnancy test said "negative". Am I too fat to get my period now?! I just...
    BloodRedRiver BloodRedRiver 22-25, F Jan 27

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    I used to self harm. Today **** went down that reminded me of the farmers part of my life. I did it again. I feel bad now. I managed to stop myself half way. Help I don't want to...
    ElCharlotte ElCharlotte 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 28

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    I am at the hospital now. Someone at my school found out about my depression, my self-harming, and my suicide date. They told the school. we had a medical lock down and I was taken...
    krodonnell krodonnell 13-15, F Feb 5

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    I had stop self harm. But for the past few weeks I been getting flashbacks ever time I close my eyes and nightmares every time I sleep. When someone taps me on the shoulder behind...
    wisdomgirl wisdomgirl 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 17

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    well i have lots of scars. i started cutting in grade 7. i guess you can say i've been self-harming since i was young because i would pinch myself until i bled and just watched...
    aishastewie aishastewie 13-15 2 Responses Feb 18

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    i ended up self harming last night... and i still dont feel better
    maddymo23432 maddymo23432 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 18

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    How do I make people see how bad I'm feeling without starting to self harm again? I always try but no one is really ever there to help me and I don't want to worry my mum by asking...
    BellaE15 BellaE15 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 18

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    50 days more and I'll be 1 year self harm free
    rtprt rtprt 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 18

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    I used to self harm , I'm scared to go back but I can't Control myself , I feel the need to hurt myself so I won't feel what my heart wants
    angie314 angie314 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 18

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    I wish I could stop self harming but everytime it get harder to stop , I wish I was died is that to much to ask
    angie314 angie314 13-15, F Feb 18

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    So...umm...I have been self harming since I was 13...umm...I am getting worse and it feels like nobody gives a da*n about me...I feel soo alone
    CountryLover321 CountryLover321 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Self harm has been my drug. And now i'm addicted. I've been 1 week clean but i got hurt and i relapsed. So **** it. I'm tired of getting hurt i'm tired of everything. It's just...
    xxxalyssabrownxxx xxxalyssabrownxxx 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    i haven't self-harmed in a month and it's such a big accomplishment i had to tell someone.
    tremere tremere 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    i self harmed and i am 4 weeks clean i have scars and im proud of them cause as my friend says they are battle scars now my life is back on track and im joining cadets in september...
    katiealex11 katiealex11 31-35, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I have been self harming on and off since I was 14. It started when my mum met her new fella but wasn't that bad. I then did it again when my friend passed away at 16. And have...
    silentbe89 silentbe89 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    My cousin tells me I should do what she does and get tattoos and piercings and that's how I should get my self harm ... I didn't know I had money coming out of my *** to buy all...
    annirawrmuffin annirawrmuffin 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    It started October last year, I ran up to my room after a crappy day at school. I get bullied a lot and my parents tend to blame for everything. I knew it was something I had to do...
    MidnightWolf190 MidnightWolf190 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 1

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    Every time I walk into the kitchen, I glance at those knifes. How can something so harmful feel so protective. Every day that passes, I don't know how much longer I can just not do...
    theperz217 theperz217 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 27