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I Am In the Closet

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    I've known I wasn't straight

    for a few years now, I just recently (year or so) figured out I'm pansexual (was really questioning for a while). I'm not really close at all with my family, I'm kinda the black sheep in my family cause I don't fit in with any of their interests at all. I'm atheist, and my whole...
    likesugarandcyanide likesugarandcyanide 18-21, F Dec 20, 2014

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    I'm am a13 year old gay boy

    and I'm out of the closet with school but not my family I just wanna know what to do about my family I know I should wait but she can't kick me out that's basically child abuse right?
    Andrewwhittemore Andrewwhittemore 13-15, M Dec 6, 2014

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    My first gay experience was in the 7th grade.

    My friend was in 11th grade. We liked to camp in my back yard. When we did, he usually brought some **** mags with him. I was around 5 feet tall, still no hair on my face or penis area. He was 6' 1'' blond, blue eyes. I didnt look at boys at this time. But he was cute in...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 7, 2014

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    sweetestguyever666 sweetestguyever666 18-21, M 4 Responses Jun 11, 2014

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    Only my best friend knows.

    If I tell my parents, I'm going to get kicked out. I don't have anyone to accept me, as me
    Jamesandthestars Jamesandthestars 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 28, 2015

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    im bisexual, only my friends know,

    I dont really need to tell anyone. my sexuality is my own dang business. therefore I shall not tell my family.
    HandyMannyWanny HandyMannyWanny 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 8, 2014

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    I believe sexuality is ever-changing.

    That being said, the best I can identify as is a bisexual but heteroromantic female. I have never told anyone this, and here I am, telling the internet. It feels good though to say it anonymously.
    totallyconfused28 totallyconfused28 18-21, F May 19, 2015

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    "She knew this transition was not

    about becoming someone better, but about finally allowing herself to become who she'd always been." I am learning to accept what I have always felt. Trying to overcome what I always believed was "wrong", be it by my Catholic upbringing or social/environmental factors. This...
    lifesinlimbo lifesinlimbo 51-55, F 5 Responses Jan 8, 2014

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    I'm afraid I'll be in the closet forever.

    How am I ever going to find a way to come out to parents who are too close minded to understand
    nightowl902 nightowl902 16-17, F Sep 15, 2015

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    I'm an 18 year old virgin male

    who has had a crossdessing fantasy all my life. I have already wrote 2 questions that were way to long so I'll keep this short. I have never been with a man or woman but I love crosser dressing. Am I gay? Can I tell anyone? Should I see a therapist? This constant fear and...
    Zxxvb Zxxvb 22-25, M Oct 25, 2015

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    My Avi

    My avi is not me. It's the gorgeous Mary Stuart Masterson as Idgie Threadgoode in Fried Green Tomatoes, which was a great lesbian love story that the film turned into a buddy story, but whatever-- the gay undercurrent prevailed;)
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 4, 2013

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    hi am 21 years old guy

    and I dont have any friends just I don't have frinds because if I hang out there going to assume am different and I don't want to have gay friends because I don't like that so am always by myself am attractive but why dosent matter so I go out with my mom to eat and stuff...
    nene1211 nene1211 18-21 1 Response Jun 22, 2015

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    Name Change

    I originally had the name Gayheat. Which implies all sorts of things I am not. That name was chosen in haste when I first arrived at EP on a Google search. Using my real name would be my preference, but considering my circumstances that just isn't possible. I've long wanted to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Aug 3, 2013

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    Even Admitting On Here Scares Me In Case I'm Found Out

    It's sad but somewhat comforting to see so many people on here in the same boat as I am...unable to say who we truly are! My mother always spoke of disgust at Gays/Bisexuals...anyone who in her eyes wasn't 'normal'. So I have chosen to hide who I am for all these years. I'm...
    Inapickle45 Inapickle45 46-50, F 3 Responses Jan 1, 2013

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    I get depressed a lot

    and hide my emotions from others because I can't live my life without being someone I'm not
    Maddya Maddya 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 4, 2014

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    OK here goes. I have to try

    so hard to seem straight. Whether it means wearing certain clothes or talking a certain way, I'm always limiting myself of my actions. I want to come out and tell my friends what's going on, but I'm afraid I'll lose them and they won't accept me. I'm also not sure if I'm gay...
    inserthappyfacehere inserthappyfacehere 13-15, M Jan 30

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    I think I'm am on the closet,

    I feel ashamed. But on well may God help me.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 4, 2015

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    Okay, so I have been skipping P.

    E lessons a lot recently and it's really been getting me down. I was never a big sports fan and I don't like the lesson that much but it kind of went down hill for me when my own cousin outted me to everyone in my school. Now I told my tutor that I was skipping. My reason being...
    forminghaikus920 forminghaikus920 16-17, F May 2, 2015

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    WakeupArtist WakeupArtist 22-25, F May 25, 2015

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    and I plan on staying in the closet

    for awhile. The reason being that because I'm still young my parents will say stuff like "It's just a faze" or "You'll grow out of it." But the thing is, I'm dead serious about this. I can't imagine myself being with a boy. I want to date and marry a girl. So, in the closet...
    iwassoStupid iwassoStupid 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 4, 2014

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    I feel that I am a person no one would expect

    to be anything but straight. I'm masculine. I go to church. But that doesn't change who I am. I'm bisexual and know one knows yet. Most days, I'm grateful that no one knows what I am, but sometimes I wish that the people closest to me would know.
    MyOwnSecretSide MyOwnSecretSide 18-21, M 7 Responses Jun 28, 2014

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    HER... I just want to take a moment

    and thank The Universe for being the ever maddening Prankster that It is. And It knows precisely to what I'm referring. To whom, to be exact. I dreamed that she'd be brainy. Check, abundantly. That she'd wield a large wit. Check, skillfully, with deadly aim. That...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jan 7, 2014

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    I've come to terms with the fact

    that i like girls sometimes and im ok with it, but i want to figure out my label before i come out
    infb infb 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 10, 2015

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    This Woman, Er, Me...

    Once upon a time, there was a woman, yours to the truly, who was on EP for awhile and developed a bad case of toxic profile. Brought on, perhaps, by her having initially arrived here with the intent to spill the beans about her lifetime spent in the closet. Stories were written...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Oct 30, 2013

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    I'm in the closet bisexual.

    Actually, I'm not really sure if I'm bisexual or if I'm just with guys because it's socially acceptable. I've only been with one woman, but I've been trying to get closer to women all of my life just so I could have that intimacy with them. It's all about intimacy for me. That...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 1, 2015

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    I'm bisexual, and it sucks

    because I really don't want to be. I just want to be normal. Why do I have to be so disgusting? Why ME? Of all people, did it really have to be me?
    BeautyOfTheBeast BeautyOfTheBeast 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 1, 2014

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    I'm a closet pansexual.

    Even if I did come out, nobody even knows what that means. But it doesn't matter, I will love who I love and be attracted to what I'm attracted to.
    puppy85899 puppy85899 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 10, 2014

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    I am 14 and I'm currently in the closet.

    I've always had a feminine behavior, and I've shared many of the same interests as girls. I didn't realize that I was truly gay until 6th grade, when I began to develop feelings for cute boys and-- well, *********** to hot guys on the Internet. I've had countless memories of...
    Koreku Koreku 13-15, M 3 Responses Aug 19, 2014

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    Well night y'all Good night Sleep

    tight Don't let the monsters in ur closet bite Lol
    RainbowWolf13 RainbowWolf13 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 24, 2014

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 28, 2015

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    I am a closeted: Pansexual Bigendered

    person I can't imagine coming out. I married a straight bio male and that makes me invisible. I'm also afraid that the queer community won't accept me because even though I have gender dysphoria I don't plan to transition and even though I like women I am in a heterosexual...
    Sapphire89 Sapphire89 26-30 4 Responses Jan 26, 2014

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    "You choose to be Gay"

    Do the people who claim this; realize that they are actually implying that, Everyone has homosexual feeling just some CHOOSE to act on them. So when they say that they are implying they, too, are at least bisexual. And therefore, are sinners and should also be sent to hell...
    LDR87 LDR87 22-25, M 2 Responses Nov 21, 2012

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    The closet is a nice

    and quiet place, I might just settle down here :v
    scias scias 22-25, M Nov 11, 2014

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    If anyone needs help

    or have any question if be really happy to help :3 ! Even if you're bicurious and need advices I'd be happy to help you c: Don't hesitate !
    GabbyTheSiren GabbyTheSiren 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 16, 2014

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    A Crush On My Bully

    As a kid I was bullied every day by this one boy who didn't know how to show that he liked me. His name was Jerry. At the time, I had no idea he had a crush on me. And he was afraid because I was also a guy and he thought there was something wrong with being gay. He used to tease...
    HitchhikingProphet HitchhikingProphet 18-21, M 3 Responses Feb 18, 2012

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    I have been in the closet

    since 2012. I am bisexual and gender fluid.
    wheelz2527 wheelz2527 18-21, F Jul 3, 2015

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    I keep walking around holding on to

    who I am on the inside and then letting people label me as they see me. It's an interesting experience.
    DoIknowmenow DoIknowmenow 26-30, F Jan 25

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    Happy Valentine's Day to my Baby Love,

    Thing Two, who is really the very first of all Things: The Beckoning In my heart  You are the drummer And I live and love To the pace Of your taking hold. You flow on me With wounds and wonders Releasing the words that  Heal as tender mercies All that had come undone. And...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 13, 2014

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    You see those knee high stilletto's shoe box in

    the back of my closet , I'm way back there. I soo far back in the closet you will need a trekking expedition to come find me.
    socalsissi socalsissi 36-40, T 1 Response Mar 6, 2014

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    I Might Be The Hardest Wisher In The Whole World.

    Since I was little I've done this thing where even though I know nothing will happen, I'll shut my eyes so tight it hurts and wish for something. I have no reason to. I've grown up in a healthy family who loves me dearly and I've never wanted for anything. But shut inside a...
    Farmboy89 Farmboy89 22-25, M 15 Responses Dec 6, 2012

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    Will you judge me if you'll know?

    I don't feel good today, I feel as if those I call friends already know the secret that I kept from eveyone except my friends on EP and some close ones.. I feel awful. I came here in EP to know more about other people and other things but also to know myself more than anyone else...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Jan 1, 2014

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    Yeah I'm bisexual and in the closet.

    The reasons I am keeping it from people is because well my "father" is a "catholic" now don't get me wrong I'm not against Christianity or anything and there's nothing wrong if you are but my "father" is the type of "catholic" that is totally against homosexuality and constantly...
    DarkRun421 DarkRun421 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 23, 2014

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    Why, is this so hard!

    Why are people so judgmental and have no knowledge on the subject but sure do know condemnation!
    countryurbanboy countryurbanboy 22-25, M Nov 8, 2015

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    Yesterday i found the prettiest rainbow bracelet

    that my little brother made, so i informed him that i was stealing it. (Cuz thats a tad bit nicer than just taking it.) i wore it all through school today, half hoping someone would ask me about it... I had a conversation with a friend in the morning where i casually mentioned...
    peaceinmiles peaceinmiles 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 15, 2014

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    YoImJo YoImJo 13-15, M Apr 20, 2015

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