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I Am In the Closet

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    New Here

    Hey I am new to this site. I am still confused about my sexuality, but I do know I am attracted to women. I am here to make new friends and see other people's experiences. I should also add I am pretty much in the closet.
    kayz91 kayz91 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 1, 2012

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    Its Been a long time

    since ive typed a word on Experience Project and a lot has changed since my last. My last post was in 2012 i believe about 2 years, wow how time flys. If youve read my previous stories you would read about my worries of coming out and planns for my future, living life as a...
    unknownjay25 unknownjay25 18-21, T 1 Response Jan 23

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    You see those knee high stilletto's shoe box in

    the back of my closet , I'm way back there. I soo far back in the closet you will need a trekking expedition to come find me.
    socalsissi socalsissi 36-40, T 1 Response Mar 6

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    Imbatgirl Imbatgirl 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 28

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    A Crush On My Bully

    As a kid I was bullied every day by this one boy who didn't know how to show that he liked me. His name was Jerry. At the time, I had no idea he had a crush on me. And he was afraid because I was also a guy and he thought there was something wrong with being gay. He used to tease...
    HitchhikingProphet HitchhikingProphet 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 18, 2012

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    HER... I just want to take a moment

    and thank The Universe for being the ever maddening Prankster that It is. And It knows precisely to what I'm referring. To whom, to be exact. I dreamed that she'd be brainy. Check, abundantly. That she'd wield a large wit. Check, skillfully, with deadly aim. That...
    CaffeinateMe CaffeinateMe 51-55, F 5 Responses Jan 7

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    I Am Bisexual, But I Haven't Told Anyone.

    I've know ever since I was 12 years old that I've been attracted to both guys and girls, but I've never told my family or friends because I'm afraid to, I don't think they would accept me afterwards, they'll treat me like I have a disease. Most of my friends are Christians and...
    Shadowdreamer69 Shadowdreamer69 18-21, F 7 Responses Aug 26, 2010

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    I'm a closeted gay guy

    that needs some help trying to come out to my family. I think they are antigay so it would be very hard for me because I don't want them to disown me and I just need some help on what I should do and if I should come out now or wait?!?
    heyitsray67 heyitsray67 13-15, M Jan 31

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    Yup I'm on the verge of coming out.

    So far I told 4 of my friends 1 of which I have a crush on x3 XD
    fredlez2306 fredlez2306 13-15, M 3 Responses Mar 31

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    I don't know where to post this to.

    . Or who will exactly see this.. But I'm a poet. I write many times a day on many things, because it remains the only safe way for me to release my true feelings.. I think. Anyway. I don't have any friends, and I blame that on my awkwardness and major anxiety problems. I have no...
    Shhush Shhush 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 6

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    So Far In The Closet...

    I'm gay and i know it, but I just don't want everyone else too. I fear rejection so much that I just don't have the guts to tell anyone...
    jas121 jas121 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 26, 2012

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    Name Change

    I originally had the name Gayheat. Which implies all sorts of things I am not. That name was chosen in haste when I first arrived at EP on a Google search. Using my real name would be my preference, but considering my circumstances that just isn't possible. I've long wanted to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Aug 3, 2013

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    fercrox fercrox 46-50, M 3 Responses Apr 6

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    Happy Valentine's Day to my Baby Love,

    Thing Two, who is really the very first of all Things: The Beckoning In my heart  You are the drummer And I live and love To the pace Of your taking hold. You flow on me With wounds and wonders Releasing the words that  Heal as tender mercies All that had come undone. And...
    CaffeinateMe CaffeinateMe 51-55, F 1 Response Feb 13

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    Will you judge me if you'll know?

    I don't feel good today, I feel as if those I call friends already know the secret that I kept from eveyone except my friends on EP and some close ones.. I feel awful. I came here in EP to know more about other people and other things but also to know myself more than anyone else...
    darknesswithnolight darknesswithnolight 18-21, F 11 Responses Jan 1

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    "She knew this transition was not

    about becoming someone better, but about finally allowing herself to become who she'd always been." I am learning to accept what I have always felt. Trying to overcome what I always believed was "wrong", be it by my Catholic upbringing or social/environmental factors. This...
    lifesinlimbo lifesinlimbo 46-50, F 4 Responses Jan 8

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    Poem: Freeform: Stop,

    I wish I could just ******* stop. Looking at them, craving them, needing them. I'm sick, these feelings will go away soon. Think about something else, anything else. You can't, you just can't like them. Stop, I wish I could just ******* stop! Shame, what a horrible sick person I...
    Shhush Shhush 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    Well i am kinda. I never thought

    that i am pansexsual but when i looked at all of my past loves i realized that i am. I am still getting used to that fact. It is something that i found out a few weeks ago and it is still settling in my mind. I don't think i am ready to tell my parents yet. Honestly i don't know...
    LunaOanaAris LunaOanaAris 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    How can I come out to a stereotypical family of

    Christians. I'm not even Christian amongst my entire family; I'm atheist. My parents always talk about religious things and they don't even know that I don't believe in it. Also, they constantly talk about gay marriage and how it's wrong and how it's a "spirit". They hate seeing...
    Audrina14 Audrina14 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 6

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    My first gay experience was in the 7th grade.

    My friend was in 11th grade. We liked to camp in my back yard. When we did, he usually brought some **** mags with him. I was around 5 feet tall, still no hair on my face or penis area. He was 6' 1'' blond, blue eyes. I didnt look at boys at this time. But he was cute in...
    Wannabeme1 Wannabeme1 41-45, M 1 Response Jan 7

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    My Avi

    My avi is not me. It's the gorgeous Mary Stuart Masterson as Idgie Threadgoode in Fried Green Tomatoes, which was a great lesbian love story that the film turned into a buddy story, but whatever-- the gay undercurrent prevailed;)
    CaffeinateMe CaffeinateMe 51-55, F 3 Responses Nov 4, 2013

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    Pansexual

    I'm Pansexual and have know that for a long time, but the rest of my family doesn't know. The topic of sexuality came up today between my mother and I, and I asked her "What would you do if one of your kids wasn't straight?" she just said "No comment". I tried to push the topic...
    KindZombie KindZombie 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 13, 2013

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    I get depressed a lot

    and hide my emotions from others because I can't live my life without being someone I'm not
    Maddya Maddya 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 4

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    And I've been here to long.

    Yet, I know there's been some in longer. I already feel the dust mites and limited space pressuring me to just scream out this is me. But who can I scream it to? I'm pansexual, and that's not just a cool name for bisexual. It means I fall in love with anyone based solely on...
    Audrina14 Audrina14 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 1

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    I am a closeted: Pansexual Bigendered

    person I can't imagine coming out. I married a straight bio male and that makes me invisible. I'm also afraid that the queer community won't accept me because even though I have gender dysphoria I don't plan to transition and even though I like women I am in a heterosexual...
    Sapphire89 Sapphire89 22-25 3 Responses Jan 26

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    20 And Still Hiding

    I've known I'm attracted to women since 7th grade. I've never found any form of sexuality to be upsetting or seem unnatural- gay, lesbian, bisexual, transgender, whatever makes you happy because that's what's most important. I live in an incredibly rural, judgmental...
    Louffox Louffox 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 15, 2013

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    I want to come out to the one person

    who I want to be with. That's my goal now. As for my family, I don't think I'll ever, ever have enough courage. My parents are absolutely against homosexuality/bisexuality and expects that one day I'd be happily married to a guy. I'll be disowned or something .. =X
    yuuism yuuism 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 17

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    Half In, Half Out of the Closet.....

    I suppose I've always known I'm not straight really. I know I like girls a LOT more than guys, so you could say I'm a lesbian, because my sexual preference would be for women, but I'm still attracted to some guys. And I don't believe in boundaries, at least not untill you're...
    Zarfo Zarfo 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 18, 2009

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    I Need To Get Out

    Im 14 and im scared to get out the closet. Im so scared what the people may think about me,that i am scared to tell this boy that i love him. Nobody knows that im gay not even my family but im scared to tell them. I need help ,I need a way out but i dont know how.
    gaysexyteen13 gaysexyteen13 13-15, M 6 Responses Jun 2, 2013

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    I Might Be The Hardest Wisher In The Whole World.

    Since I was little I've done this thing where even though I know nothing will happen, I'll shut my eyes so tight it hurts and wish for something. I have no reason to. I've grown up in a healthy family who loves me dearly and I've never wanted for anything. But shut inside a...
    Farmboy89 Farmboy89 22-25, M 13 Responses Dec 6, 2012

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    I'm 14 And Confused. What Am I?

    I've always thought I was straight. But then I started noticing things. In high school there is this one guy, and something about him gives me a huge b**** everytime I see him. I don't know what to do and being *read my username* means I'm sure not to talk to anyone about it. So...
    extremelysociallyawkwardguy extremelysociallyawkwardguy 13-15, M 2 Responses Sep 22, 2013

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    I am an in the closet bi teenager.

    I've been with one guy before and a girl. I'd like to come out, it would make a lot of things easier, but at the same time it would make things a lot harder too. I want people to know who I am, but it want to be able to live a normal life as well instead of people judging me...
    bdub6980 bdub6980 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 28, 2013

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    My mom is kind of against gays

    and my sister has already come out. I feel like theres alot of pressure on me not to be gay. Like its wrong that I am.
    FeliequalsRad FeliequalsRad 22-25, F Mar 2

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    My parents and close friends know.

    Everyone else? Not so much.
    katierose23 katierose23 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 28

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    Well, kinda, sorta...

    creeping out slowly.
    AnonymousMe7 AnonymousMe7 41-45, F 2 Responses Mar 31

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    Identity

    I am a twenty-something year old guy who is most comfortable in Timberland boots, a flannel shirt, and a trucker hat. I enjoy things like podcasts, history, dubstep music, stand up comedy, geography and travel, and a good beer... and a bad beer. I went to college and was in a...
    Globetrotter8703 Globetrotter8703 22-25, M 4 Responses Nov 26, 2012

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    Even Admitting On Here Scares Me In Case I'm Found Out

    It's sad but somewhat comforting to see so many people on here in the same boat as I am...unable to say who we truly are! My mother always spoke of disgust at Gays/Bisexuals...anyone who in her eyes wasn't 'normal'. So I have chosen to hide who I am for all these years. I'm...
    Inapickle45 Inapickle45 46-50, F 4 Responses Jan 1, 2013

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    I'm bisexual, and it sucks

    because I really don't want to be. I just want to be normal. Why do I have to be so disgusting? Why ME? Of all people, did it really have to be me?
    BeautyOfTheBeast BeautyOfTheBeast 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 1

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    This Woman, Er, Me...

    Once upon a time, there was a woman, yours to the truly, who was on EP for awhile and developed a bad case of toxic profile. Brought on, perhaps, by her having initially arrived here with the intent to spill the beans about her lifetime spent in the closet. Stories were written...
    CaffeinateMe CaffeinateMe 51-55, F 11 Responses Oct 30, 2013

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    Where'S The Light

    I'm still in the closet, not sure when will i be willing to walk out on my own. I liked a girl when I was 12. At first i thought it was sort of like a admiration. Cause she was my buddy, the one that always go everywhere with me. But the admiration grew stronger, I started to...
    estles estles 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 13, 2013

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    I am a closeted straight transgendered male.

    Coming out to my family that I like women is one thing, but coming out as trans and that I'm attracted to women is a bit much.
    Paralon Paralon 16-17, T 2 Responses Mar 23

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    Why did God make me this way?

    Was he sleepy when he made me? Why does it have to be me? Was it his intention? Or am I just a flaw? I'm supposed to like men, so why don't I? What the actual ****, God? Just tell me why...
    BeautyOfTheBeast BeautyOfTheBeast 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    Should I Come Out?

    I am a 17 year old and I am gay. I have only recently accepted it myself and I am not sure how everyone will think of me. I am the type of person who gets along with almost everyone and just have a fun time with everyone I'm pretty sure if I came out everything would just become...
    Gunter96 Gunter96 16-17, M 4 Responses Oct 14, 2013

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    "You choose to be Gay"

    Do the people who claim this; realize that they are actually implying that, Everyone has homosexual feeling just some CHOOSE to act on them. So when they say that they are implying they, too, are at least bisexual. And therefore, are sinners and should also be sent to hell...
    LDR87 LDR87 22-25, M 2 Responses Nov 21, 2012

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