I Am In The Middle Of A Breakup

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    obe been with my now ex

    for only five month's if that. he from the start was very nean and controlling abusive and selfish. i knew what i was getting myself into and blame no one but me for staying with him threw such a drug addicted toxic and bad relationship. i had never been the way i am now we...
    jesslove5553 jesslove5553
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 21

    We Are Being So Civilised About All This

    that it has been a bit difficult to hang on to the idea that we are actually breaking up and I am almost at the point of wondering if my leaving really is the best thing to do. But we have arranged the wallaby's new home and I have put a deposit on a new puppy to take with...
    bewildered99 bewildered99
    51-55, F
    Sep 23, 2010

    I'm Supposed To Be Leaving Tomorrow

    It is 10.30 a.m. and I still haven't lifted a finger towards packing. Soon it will be too hot to move again. I am not 100 percent convinced that I am doing the right thing. She made a comment this morning when she got out of bed. I knew she had been lying there in the dark...
    bewildered99 bewildered99
    51-55, F
    2 Responses Sep 26, 2010

    Oh How I Wish I Didn't Have To Do This

    today is the day I have to give my darling little wallaby up. I am so sad.........
    bewildered99 bewildered99
    51-55, F
    2 Responses Sep 25, 2010

    The Next Step

    Hello friend   Well, you know me, straight to the point........well, the short story is that as of today, I am ceasing to be *****'s "partner" and am leaving this place. We have spent the entire day talking about it, discussing the terms of the amicable separation...
    bewildered99 bewildered99
    51-55, F
    Sep 18, 2010

    I'm Not Saying She's A Bad Person

    but six months of living together with no sex has proved to me that we are as unequally matched and as opposite in every way as two people could possibly be. And I hate this place
    bewildered99 bewildered99
    51-55, F
    Sep 17, 2010

    Post script

    Two and a half months later.........it's been a hard road but I am still alive, which is saying something. Some days I actually feel glad to be alive, which is saying even more. 
    bewildered99 bewildered99
    51-55, F
    1 Response Dec 13, 2010

    So I Am Going To Break Up With My Boyfriend...

    made plans to see my boyfriend this thursday. im planning on breaking up with him. he is a nice guy and all but for the past month or so i have been getting completely pushed aside and taken for granted. we barely talk anymore and i feel like hes becoming more and more like a...
    alannahmurphy alannahmurphy
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 25, 2013

    She Doesn't Want Me To Talk About It To Anyone

    She hasn't actually ever dared to try and forbid me from doing anything, but I know she was uncomfortable with it when everybody knew who I was.
    bewildered99 bewildered99
    51-55, F
    Sep 17, 2010

    She Doesn't Want Me To Go

    which makes it even more difficult. Every word I say is making her cry, something she said had never happened to her before. I am the only person who has ever made her cry, which I have done rather periodically all the way through this relationship, simply by stating the truth of...
    bewildered99 bewildered99
    51-55, F
    Sep 17, 2010

    That's Right!

    No sex EVER! She thinks it has been my fault, that I have "never let her get close to me"  but I insist that she take part of the responsibility
    bewildered99 bewildered99
    51-55, F
    Sep 17, 2010

    It's Hard But It's Necessary

    One way or another, I cannot stay another week in this place with things the way they are and leaving is the only thing I can do to change things. I have no forward plan, very little money, nowhere to go  but to throw myself as an uninvited indefinite guest on one of my...
    bewildered99 bewildered99
    51-55, F
    1 Response Sep 17, 2010

    The Thing Is

    the need to have time on my own has always been some kind of warning signal for any relationship I have been in.
    bewildered99 bewildered99
    51-55, F
    Sep 26, 2010

    It's Getting Harder

    Only four more days and on the fifth day, I am supposed to be leaving. I haven't lifted a finger towards packing or starting to get my gear organised for the long, long drive I am going to have to  make on my own.  My friend has given permission for me to stay at his...
    bewildered99 bewildered99
    51-55, F
    6 Responses Sep 23, 2010

    I didn't really love him,

    I loved the companionship and I'm sad it's gone. He's the one who broke it off. This is all my fault. I feel like I could've grown to love him. I am torn from the feeling of rejection and fear of missing an opportunity.
    nikkisun nikkisun
    26-30, F
    1 Response Feb 28, 2014

    A Long Talk With Myself

    It's been a week since I told her that I don't want to be her girlfriend any more, that I hate living here, that I feel I was a fool and an idiot to give up my life in ******** to be with her, that I don't like being in a relationship, that I have no interest at all in having sex...
    bewildered99 bewildered99
    51-55, F
    2 Responses Sep 24, 2010

    Milestones

    He could see the goodbye in her leaving eyes as soon as he woke upShe crept into the room,Still smelling of dawn air.Her skin was cold asleep in his room. She touched his face.He was so naked, he didn’t know.She wished it didn’t have to be this way.She could feel him missing...
    shamrock17 shamrock17
    18-21, F
    Dec 13, 2012

    I woke up from a dream about him.

    I'm sad he wants to break up. He says he is unhappy with himself and needs to work on it. Says he loves me and that I make him happy but he needs time to himself. I can't shake the feeling there was/is another girl. I saw him texting someone named "Nicole" last week. I feel...
    nikkisun nikkisun
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 1, 2014

    I'm at the point where I'm craving human

    contact. Calling old flames to just have something familiar next to me. But I'm scared of getting rejected, it would be too much right now. I don't know how to handle this stage. It's been 2 weeks (since the breakup)
    nikkisun nikkisun
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 6, 2014

    The Thing Is......

    ......that if we had ever really been lovers, we would have had beautiful make-up sex by now and it would all look completely different. I would be able to cope with all the other things that make life seem unbearable sometimes, or just wrong somehow.  Sometimes I just...
    bewildered99 bewildered99
    51-55, F
    Sep 24, 2010

    I have quite the predicament going on.

    .. My cousin is married to a abusive husband who hits her, strangles her, and locks her in rooms. He's not a good man for her at all. They constantly fight. They now have a 10 month old kid together, and now he's even mean to the baby. He can be a really funny guy to be around...
    cahote cahote
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 24, 2015

    This Is Goodbye

    After writing and posting this note, the computer will be in the car and tomorrow morning I will be on my way.
    bewildered99 bewildered99
    51-55, F
    2 Responses Sep 27, 2010

    Relationships Just Suck, Why Cant I Just Get Married Already?! -___-

    so my boyfriend and i are kind of broken up and not broken up at the same time... heres a little recap of whats been happening with my life lately: so on thursday my boyfriend (we will call him D so i dont have to keep saying "my boyfriend") texted me while i was at work saying...
    alannahmurphy alannahmurphy
    18-21, F
    Mar 3, 2013

    A chapter of 3 1/2 years has ended

    for me today. The physical pain of this is unlike any other. This man is my first love. It's hard because I'm going through my first break up now, and I'm in my late 20's. This is something a lot of people go through by the time they're entering the college years, but I was a...
    beautifuldizaster143 beautifuldizaster143
    26-30, F
    Dec 26, 2013
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