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I Am Living In a Life That I Dont Always Understand

This is a group made for people who need someone there for them when they dont know what to do with the life they have now. 1,027 People

    I'm More Than An Eating Disorder

    When I was younger I knew I was different. I knew that everyone had a reason for being here, I just couldnt figure out what my reason was.My mom and dad weren't prepared when they knew I was coming, they never planned to have a baby. But one way or another, I'm here. My older...
    StarvedAndScarred StarvedAndScarred 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 27, 2012

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    My Work Shift

    I'm living in agony. I have social anxiety. I work a nine hour shift at work. It's hell getting thereevery there everyday. But the important thing is that I do it. I do it because I need to be an adult. My mother died when I was twelve, and every problem I have no formed from...
    allissaxx allissaxx 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 14, 2011

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    my dreams or paralyzing experiences started in

    my late 20s often I would awake and could not move a muscle but my eyes were open and I could see upward but could not move them side to side. I would try to scream but couldn't nore move but I would see horrible things above me I saw a dark cloud come in across my bedroom...
    evaal123456789 evaal123456789 46-50 Apr 22

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    Knotted Spirit

    Tied and tightly bound I find my spirit Twisted and turned in Knots How did I get here? I took the Narrow Road The road of humility and prayer Others claiming to be true Slaughtered the Spirits That God made through me All along I twisted and turned Trying to stay on the...
    jenvice jenvice 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 21, 2013

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    Let It Be

    The new born baby cried for two months but I could not find her The parents moved on, but their hearts were embedded in the child who never let go Friends touched hands as they passed by in a seemingly endless line The one came and taught her everything then baby all grown up...
    jenvice jenvice 46-50, F 1 Response May 21, 2013

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    I love my parents.. I want them to understand

    that I love a girl and even though I am sick I need to see her!! I told my girl I won't be able to stay or live like I was talking about and I can tell she's hurt and disappointed. I'm sick.. I can visit for two months but I will have to come back to whare I was. Everyone is...
    josh221992 josh221992 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 12

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    My step daughter has not spoken to us in about

    5 months. (Before that, 2 1/2 years, the only reason she came for two months is because she had no where else to go) She has not returned texts or calls or any type of messages. Out of the blue today, she texts my husband, " hey dad I'm having my baby tomorrow." Advise Please...
    RuRu80 RuRu80 31-35, F Oct 9, 2014

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    It's So Ridiculous

    i've been in a relationship with a man for the past four years.  we seem like a pretty normal couple.  we go on vacation together, to baseball and football games, to concerts, the shore, amusement parks, the park, etc.  he is very affectionate towards me in public...
    geenpunchbuggie geenpunchbuggie 31-35 2 Responses Mar 27, 2009

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    Sometimes I just have to stop.

    I don't understand my life or where it's taking me. I want to shut myself into my room and never talk to anyone ever again. I'm so scared of making the wrong choice and getting hurt. Or hurting someone else. I know I'm no devil. But I'm definitely no angel. Im in love with 2...
    Livvy2 Livvy2 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 17, 2014

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    I've moved to a lot of countries in my life~

    never stayed in one place for more than 5years~ it's a good experience but I miss the people I've met in the past and wish they would just talk to me...
    Yaz1998 Yaz1998 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    Sometimes I am shocked at how bad a judge of

    character I am. But am I a bad judge of character or are people just not really who they are until they're tested. Holding punches is not my cup of tea and pretending to be perfect is always an exercise in futility so I just SKIP that 'getting to know you' step. I want to meet...
    missquietriot missquietriot 26-30, F Mar 23, 2014

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    Officer Bradford

    He came to the house again today. The officer walked up the stairs and knocked on the door. He has heard the family is not there anymore. As he leaves his card and his kind note he remembers the first time he met the woman he was leaving a note for... He could not believe he was...
    jenvice jenvice 46-50, F 8 Responses Feb 20, 2012

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    Faith Circle Words written in lists - not

    poetry. She fervently wrote it all down. "What to do" was a large calendar on the desk in the classroom. What she already did often crossed out on the other side of today's page. No worries, today's list could start with everything she didn't do the day before, as laundry piled...
    jenvice jenvice 46-50, F 2 Responses Feb 15

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    Once again it says LIFE it's greatest moments

    half of the time are unexpected and I really just don't understand that just like I don't understand why god would make us have to have good to live and most of all I don't understand the pain in life
    livelovehopefree livelovehopefree 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 9, 2014

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    Ups And Downs

    Today I am in a very upbeat mood, no worrying about bills or how much weight I've been putting on since I am now 23 weeks pregnant. But last night... WOW. I was in a very sad place. I am a decently intelligent woman. I know that life is what we make it. But sometimes.. just...
    CuteInChaos CuteInChaos 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 24, 2011

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    Were All Born Here, And Created If Your Religious

    We're born with nothing barley a name for some of us. The rush of a surprise and the willingness to keep yourself from getting hurt mentally and physically is the ideal life goal.Some think differently they have the guts and game that takes them to your highest high, for me it...
    mscolour mscolour 22-25, F Jun 26, 2012

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    I dont know how i got here.

    Dont really know where im going even though i consciously make decisions that seem to alter my path it feels more like im going in circles. Everybody around me is very good at keeping up appearances of them knowing exactly how the pices are supposed to land after theyre done...
    shinjorai shinjorai 36-40, M Aug 10, 2014

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    I kinda just take life day-to-day.

    I overthink and under think. I'm just kinda going with the flow and capturing every opportunity that comes along. It's actually quite nice!
    Bcori1999 Bcori1999 16-17, F Aug 31, 2014

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    My life is stuck and empty

    for like 8 years now. Ive been staying in my room all day. I dont understand whats happening to me, to my life. Its not just like im lazy to do anything. Its not like that. I dont even understand it myself. Its like ive no motivation or inspiration in life. I surely dont wanna...
    justalittlehuman justalittlehuman 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 9, 2014

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    Key Word

    Living. We don't have to understand in order to Live, We can enjoy Life.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 17, 2013

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    My Life

    So I have a little story to tell you until I finish remembering everything in my life. Wow were do I start for right now, well I guess I can tell you this. Before I was born my mom was living with my father Mark. Now Mark he was BIG on going out all the time with his friends to...
    Chappy89 Chappy89 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 25, 2008

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    Born Sick.

    I was born with an illness that makes me different from everyone else. I feel like I never understand what is going on hehe. I have always struggled and felt outcast. I have a very strange mind. My mind has made it very difficult that I struggle everyday that I am around people...
    WhoisChaff WhoisChaff 26-30 3 Responses Dec 14, 2011

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    I imagine all of the people I could be.

    I'm young, I have so many options. My boyfriend proposed and I haven't said yes. With him, I'd lead the life of a Milso (Military Spouse). We'd move around. I'd lose and gain new friends every day. I'd have the faithful love of a honorable man. My ex contacted me recently. He's...
    Livvy2 Livvy2 22-25, F Jun 8, 2014

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    For the past couple of years it feels I've lost

    myself, I used to be spontaneous and funny and enjoyed going out and mixing with people but since my last child was born ( he's 5 now) I've become an introvert. Just going to the shop on my own takes a lot of courage. I used to be a teacher until last year when I had to resign...
    clueless75 clueless75 36-40, F Feb 22, 2014

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    life they say is good

    but i see nothing good about life ...
    ruthlove123 ruthlove123 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 18

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    I hardly ever understand.

    . Just try to keep in mind that everything happens for a reason
    Tiffany303 Tiffany303 18-21, F Jan 4, 2014

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    I'm sad all the time .

    I only have 2 friends and my cousin . I'm homeschooled and I don't talk to people if they don't talk to me . I want friends . What can I do ?
    heidimichelle heidimichelle 16-17, F 2 Responses May 26, 2014

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    I am constantly being bullied.

    I hav e a lot of health problems. I also have almost killed myselgf
    ginny1q1q ginny1q1q 13-15, F Aug 23, 2014

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    Was it me, or was it really them?

    Or was it life, that passed like death, so cold between us, that it blew us all so far apart?
    jenvice jenvice 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    I was always there for EVERYONE

    yet when I need people now they're not there and they wipe it away by being like 'need to focus on me now' MATE I WAS THERE AND FOCUSED ON YOU AND HELPED YOU. Guess 'I need to focus on me now' just like everyone else... is this what it looks like to transition into an older life...
    Misscoconut Misscoconut 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    It is just a empty day in a empty life,

    so why i'm afraid of dying? All the **** i did there is no way to fix it, so why i have to live in this world to see it?Am i paying for my sins?Paying to invisable father that never once looked at me.
    AnabellaWW AnabellaWW 16-17, F Dec 21, 2014

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    I am having a hard time in my marriage not sure

    when enough is enough??? Sometimes it so lonely! But when u have kids it's never easy.
    icecold29 icecold29 36-40, F Mar 21, 2014

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    I'm not happy most of the time

    and I always wonder why I'm even here.
    jadeetylerr jadeetylerr 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 22, 2014

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    A Place

    hide in the beat of the drum lean against the bark of the tree while my mind flies away to a good place long ago and far away forward in the future and close to my heart there is a place that I can walk to just the ground under my feet sometimes sand some stone...
    jenvice jenvice 46-50, F May 27, 2013

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    I've never had a clear idea of what was

    expected of me, but I've always known for sure that other people were firmly convinced I wasn't living up to it.
    iwastedmyyouth iwastedmyyouth 18-21, F Dec 13, 2013

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    I understand life. I understand my life.

    .. I don't understand people trying to understand life and then tell other people they know how it is...
    ValhallaAwaits ValhallaAwaits 22-25, M Oct 8, 2014

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    Relationships

    Recently I have realized that all of my relationships with the guy's I've dated have not been healthy. I think the only exception was the first boyfriend I ever had at age sixteen. He was my first real kiss, my first companion and my first intimacy. I was only the second girl he...
    deadlee deadlee 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 30, 2012

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    He has claimed me since we were

    both 13. Now it is almost 10 years later and he owns more of me than I ever thought possible. I married another man, mistakenly believing I would regain the parts of myself i had lost. But they are not my husbands, and i have no more control over those parts than i ever have. I...
    AphroditeComplex AphroditeComplex 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 18

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    Where ever you are today.

    ..If you are spinning, or waiting to catch If you find yourself flying through the air Or your feet are firmly planted on the ground If you are wondering where you will land or if you are hitting all of your marks Just remember - you are the dancer And life is just the...
    jenvice jenvice 46-50, F 3 Responses Jan 17

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    Intentional Living

    You need to be intentional he told me. It got me to thinking. I remember intentional. When my kids were little my entire life was intentonal. Everything was done intentionally to make sure they were brought up in a safe and loving home.It was successful over all. The places where...
    jenvice jenvice 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 23, 2012

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    Life

    I can never figure out my life.  I just get so confused as to the way or direction it is going.  I feel I am a good person, giving, leanding a hand, surpportive, caring, loving but I just never recieve any affection back.  I do not understand...
    tatteredwings tatteredwings 36-40 6 Responses May 6, 2009

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    Bonjour, Hola, I would like to first off by

    saying that I am new to EP and I'm looking to use this as a resource of looking out on other peoples responses on questions and experiences to manage my life in an easier way. However, I believe that will take time... My brain feels like a foggy brain, forgetfulness and a...
    adolphdabber adolphdabber 22-25, M Feb 22, 2014

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    Life is so confusing.

    ...scratch that.... The world is confusing there are so many people being hurt in wars, schools, in their own homes, etc. and I don't understand why.. Why do people have to be so cruel? Why can there just be peace in the world? Why can people believe what they want to believe...
    Arielle1justsmile Arielle1justsmile 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 7, 2014

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    But I can't break their hearts

    so I will just break my spirit.
    bethany444 bethany444 46-50, F 4 Responses Aug 9, 2014

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    Only For Now..

    Letting go and giving up, this I understand Just goin with the flow these days, tired of fighting all the demands.  My life is still, no moving in any direction.. and I'm ok with this.   For one step out of place and my cards will come tumbling down. So I sit and enjoy the...
    whisperingsunshine whisperingsunshine 31-35, F 9 Responses Apr 9, 2011

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