I Am Living In a Life That I Dont Always Understand

This is a group made for people who need someone there for them when they dont know what to do with the life they have now. 1,941 People

    mabuhayka mabuhayka
    31-35, F
    Sep 16, 2015
    deleted deleted
    Oct 19, 2015

    I rise with The Morning Sun,

    yet I don't know why. I communicate with Beings that share not the same interests as me, yet I do this anyway. I sing to the Full Moon when heart is full of grief, others frown on this yet it feels right to me. I worship someone my mortal eyes can't see, but my soul can feel. I...
    AmaterasuNoOkami AmaterasuNoOkami
    18-21, F
    Jun 3, 2015

    I was clean off meth

    for six years. Started doing it again six months ago, and I can feel it overtaking me. I get so mad at myself every time I go on one of my week long binges. If I could have one wish, it would be to go back in time 10 years and stop myself from ever trying this drug. I will...
    oneluvlychik2 oneluvlychik2
    Aug 26, 2015

    It's a big game and I only have one life.

    And I'm already game over at the beginning. Whenever I watch tv shows like Modern Family . Instagram photos. I'm like "Oh I want to have those things" "Oh I want to be like that" "Oh I want to be successful" But then "NO! YOU DONT NEED THOSE THINGS, YOU DONT NEED TO HAVE THEM...
    CallMeBuddy CallMeBuddy
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Feb 20, 2016

    Officer Bradford

    He came to the house again today. The officer walked up the stairs and knocked on the door. He has heard the family is not there anymore. As he leaves his card and his kind note he remembers the first time he met the woman he was leaving a note for... He could not believe he was...
    jenvice jenvice
    46-50, F
    8 Responses Feb 20, 2012

    He has claimed me since we were

    both 13. Now it is almost 10 years later and he owns more of me than I ever thought possible. I married another man, mistakenly believing I would regain the parts of myself i had lost. But they are not my husbands, and i have no more control over those parts than i ever have. I...
    AphroditeComplex AphroditeComplex
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 18, 2015

    Where ever you are today.

    ..If you are spinning, or waiting to catch If you find yourself flying through the air Or your feet are firmly planted on the ground If you are wondering where you will land or if you are hitting all of your marks Just remember - you are the dancer And life is just the...
    jenvice jenvice
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Jan 17, 2015

    Intentional Living

    You need to be intentional he told me. It got me to thinking. I remember intentional. When my kids were little my entire life was intentonal. Everything was done intentionally to make sure they were brought up in a safe and loving home.It was successful over all. The places where...
    jenvice jenvice
    46-50, F
    1 Response Jul 23, 2012

    So I live this life that I fought hard to get

    into from birth...yes I have tried to exit, failing of course. Seeing the effects of the aftermath has made me struggle through many days. I am realizing that each day is new and different and that we can't get one second back that we choose to let pass by. Yes I still have...
    brooklynnejones brooklynnejones
    51-55, F
    1 Response Nov 16, 2015

    Faith Circle Words written in lists - not

    poetry. She fervently wrote it all down. "What to do" was a large calendar on the desk in the classroom. What she already did often crossed out on the other side of today's page. No worries, today's list could start with everything she didn't do the day before, as laundry piled...
    jenvice jenvice
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Feb 15, 2015

    I don't understand my life

    or even how my life turned out this way. I would say I am a nice person, I love God, and I try to never judge someone for who they are. I often ask the questions "if I'm such a good person then why am I not happy with life" or "Does life have a purpose?" I am not suicidal. I...
    Shamwowza Shamwowza
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 9, 2016

    My life is stuck and empty

    for like 8 years now. Ive been staying in my room all day. I dont understand whats happening to me, to my life. Its not just like im lazy to do anything. Its not like that. I dont even understand it myself. Its like ive no motivation or inspiration in life. I surely dont wanna...
    justalittlehuman justalittlehuman
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 9, 2014

    I feel like for the last 3 years I'm in an

    episode of the twilight zone and someone needs to just yell "cut" already.
    sambular1313 sambular1313
    31-35, F
    Feb 6, 2016

    I hardly ever understand.

    . Just try to keep in mind that everything happens for a reason
    Tiffany303 Tiffany303
    22-25, F
    Jan 4, 2014

    Some days i feel everything at once.

    Other days i feel nothing at all.
    Elaina12 Elaina12
    22-25, F
    Oct 19, 2015

    I always wanted to live my life to the fullest

    but whenever I keep my first step.. Life pulls me back and gives me a great setback or should I call it a shock.. when I try to get up again and start moving my life then again same thing.. I am so pissed off with this life where there is no way I can move ahead.. its so...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Nov 22, 2015

    why things happen the way they happen.

    my choices brought me to where I am and they were obviously the wrong ones :( grant me a due over lol
    deleted deleted
    Mar 7, 2016

    life they say is good

    but i see nothing good about life ...
    ruthlove123 ruthlove123
    31-35, F
    1 Response Apr 18, 2015

    I used to love reading

    and writing, that is until I came to college. I hate reading and writing now. hate everything about my life. Most people don't know this but I really truly hate myself. I do obscured things, and I'm always tired. I'm getting my degree just because y mother wants me to get it...
    Lupita0631 Lupita0631
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 14, 2015

    why do i feel so strongly?

    never just a touch of emotion to color a scene of memory. but a riot of color. love burns red and gold...grey foggy fear tapering off into stygian black of despair. greens and blues of a glimpsed paradise viewed through the distorted silvered mirrors of dreams. purple...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer
    46-50, M
    Sep 20, 2015
    StevieOakley14 StevieOakley14
    16-17, F
    May 9, 2015

    I don't really understand the father of my

    child anymore. One time he has lots of plans for us, sounding like he wants to be a real family again, next minute he resents me. I am tired of him playing with my emotions. He sometimes says that he misses me, and sometimes he says that he only misses my daughter. I am in the...
    walkawayifyoudontlikeme walkawayifyoudontlikeme
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 22, 2016

    My fiance and our kids live with his aunt

    while we're going thru some financial troubles. She's an alcoholic, and hard drug addict. My fiance couldn't see how bad it was and would side with her and was making me feel absolutely insane. Yesterday he finally saw. He apologized profusely. I'm glad to know I'm not alone...
    MrsJBrown MrsJBrown
    26-30, F
    1 Response Nov 19, 2015

    The way we're falling like stars losing their

    light. The whole world against you collides. And I try not to lose. I try to find my way. My way back to you.
    Stormeyes Stormeyes
    18-21, F
    Feb 27, 2016


    Recently I have realized that all of my relationships with the guy's I've dated have not been healthy. I think the only exception was the first boyfriend I ever had at age sixteen. He was my first real kiss, my first companion and my first intimacy. I was only the second girl he...
    deadlee deadlee
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 30, 2012

    I am the scourge of every fake & every lie.

    Because I am the most original & true thing on the planet.Ego Unknown Zero-Metatron
    Egolikeme69 Egolikeme69
    46-50, M
    1 Response Nov 13, 2015

    Im living in a life that I dont under stand.

    .... I feel like everything I do is fake.... everything I say dont feel right.....
    jojorigal jojorigal
    Aug 2, 2015

    i dont understand men in general,

    if someone could explain me?
    laulala laulala
    22-25, F
    3 Responses May 9, 2015

    How To Turn Six Dollars Into Six Thousand

    Dollars: I found this on a bulletin board and decided to try it. A little while back I was browsing through newsgroups just like you are now and came across an article similar to this that said you could make thousands of dollars within weeks with only an initial investment...
    manusundr manusundr
    51-55, M
    Aug 22, 2015

    No matter what you do .

    ....your always cast away as if your worthless ......
    deleted deleted
    Sep 15, 2015

    I don't understand why I still try to give

    someone a chance all over again despite the fact that there's already trust issues there. Why am I so naive to know that the signs are all there. I have spent my past 8 yrs living a life like that. But I am proud to know that I can stand on my own now without anybody to rely on...
    mabuhayka mabuhayka
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Nov 13, 2015

    Life is full of confusion.

    I keep holding on with an invisible hope. We feel heartaches, we feel pain, sometimes happiness, that didn't last. I had lived a tough life. We used to sleep in dirty places. When I was young, I walk down the hot street and wonder where am I going. Now that I am a teen.ager, I...
    deleted deleted
    May 9, 2015

    ophthalmology y u did this?

    i lost my distinction by one mark only .....
    doctorsrb doctorsrb
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 21, 2016

    Was it me, or was it really them?

    Or was it life, that passed like death, so cold between us, that it blew us all so far apart?
    jenvice jenvice
    46-50, F
    1 Response Jan 4, 2015

    Life is so confusing.

    ...scratch that.... The world is confusing there are so many people being hurt in wars, schools, in their own homes, etc. and I don't understand why.. Why do people have to be so cruel? Why can there just be peace in the world? Why can people believe what they want to believe...
    Arielle1justsmile Arielle1justsmile
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Oct 7, 2014

    i took 4 pregnancy tests all they all can up

    postive and i took one with a clearblue and it said i was we weeks plus i have been to my doctors and they have done a blood test and i have to wait till tuesday i was wondering if it will come up on my blood test that am pregnant
    danni2015 danni2015
    22-25, F
    Feb 6, 2016


    I can never figure out my life.  I just get so confused as to the way or direction it is going.  I feel I am a good person, giving, leanding a hand, surpportive, caring, loving but I just never recieve any affection back.  I do not understand...
    tatteredwings tatteredwings
    6 Responses May 6, 2009

    A Place

    hide in the beat of the drum lean against the bark of the tree while my mind flies away to a good place long ago and far away forward in the future and close to my heart there is a place that I can walk to just the ground under my feet sometimes sand some stone...
    jenvice jenvice
    46-50, F
    May 27, 2013

    Making a decision does not make it the right

    one. As I get older realize things are not as simple as I pictured them when I was a teenager.
    deleted deleted
    May 31, 2015

    Today, I decided not to dress

    for PE because I was tired from yesterday's bike ride, and when I sat down on the ground by the bleachers, I sat on gum. I'm the person at school who holds the door open for everyone and lends a pencil or paper or whatever I have, so I was confused as to why this happened. I had...
    Disgraceful Disgraceful
    16-17, T
    Oct 16, 2015

    Hi I'm Nicole a psychic reader ,

    spiritual advisor , life coach and reiki master , if anybody would like a readings or life coaching session plz feel free to message me , and I will give more info on price and how the sessions and readings work
    psychicnicole psychicnicole
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Aug 3, 2015

    But I can't break their hearts

    so I will just break my spirit.
    bethany444 bethany444
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Aug 9, 2014

    Hi l Just want to say ( don't

    even know who l am saying it to) but l just typed in a question into Google last night and l ended up on this site and registered. please help not very tecno and don't understand all this different questions about different subjects is it you go into a certain group depending on...
    sha222 sha222
    51-55, F
    2 Responses May 11, 2015

    Let It Be

    The new born baby cried for two months but I could not find her The parents moved on, but their hearts were embedded in the child who never let go Friends touched hands as they passed by in a seemingly endless line The one came and taught her everything then baby all grown up...
    jenvice jenvice
    46-50, F
    1 Response May 21, 2013

    Sometimes I just have to stop.

    I don't understand my life or where it's taking me. I want to shut myself into my room and never talk to anyone ever again. I'm so scared of making the wrong choice and getting hurt. Or hurting someone else. I know I'm no devil. But I'm definitely no angel. Im in love with 2...
    Livvy2 Livvy2
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 17, 2014
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