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I Am Locked In My Mind And Long To Be Released

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 281 People

    A Poem About James K Baxter - Written By Me In 2008

    NOTE TO READERS: This poem is not about me, it is about famous New Zealand poet James K. Baxter and is part of a scripted drama performance which I wrote. However, if you wish to relate the poem to other people you know or yourselves, that is fine. Please feel free to leave...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    I stay in this depressed state of mind.

    I feel as though it is eating me alive! It can be a normal day nothing happen but I still just want to cry! Or I can be okay & someone say something little & i get so emotional.. For example, my friend was suppose to go to the movies with me she called sick & i burst into tears...
    SkinnImIn SkinnImIn 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 6, 2014

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    The More Abuse I Suffer The More Imprisoned My Mind Is

    I just  see limitations around me and focus on the small things I can cope with.  I get depressed a hell of a lot.and when I have physical pain I feel more shut down and closed offwith my ear problems I feel so limited at timesand the worry over income and education ....love...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 16, 2012

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    This battle of thoughts

    that goes on constantly in my mind! Sometimes its like a thousand different thoughts locked in and I struggle as they rush forward, demanding my attention all at the same time. I don't know how to calm down my mind as it goes on and on and the thoughts keep flowing. Sometimes...
    intothedarknesss intothedarknesss 22-25, F 10 Responses May 4, 2014

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    You can't take me serious Even tho everything I

    say is So raw so true so deep. You think you know what's coming out my mouth next, But sir, you know nothing, So sit back, shut it down and enjoy the ride. Into my mind, the one place I rule. The one destination you may never leave from. When the lights shut off and the...
    peacefulkhaos peacefulkhaos 22-25, F May 2, 2014

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    Coloured Glass Pebbles - Fill My Brain

    My mind is full of pebbles, Little glass and colourful, They shine like stars as ideas burst from veins like squirts of paint.   My eyelids are dark and bagged, My eyes they shine out anyway, They see around from sky to ground and create my world of everyday...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    I Have No Idea What I Want/panic Attacks

    Hey guys, i have come on here in the hope ill meet some like minded people, with some advice, or just to take the journey with. Since leaving uni, starting a new job, moving away, moving in with my gf, i feel like i have completly lost myself. It has been like a huge smack in the...
    rachaelwhoami rachaelwhoami 22-25, F Nov 30, 2011

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    My View Of Religion

    Believe what you must. Create hope, live with hope, pay for hope, pray for hope, believe in hope and be comforted by hope.   Wars are created and all are controlled. Many different forms, each with different ideas, beliefs, leaders and rules to be followed...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    I See Or Not As Seeing Is Not Me

    I start this with a title, A beginning to an end,   I See,       Or Not,              As Seeing Is,                           Or Was Not,                                      Me.   The people in their houses, The...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    I'm not going into tedious detail of how I feel

    within my own head; I'll just liken it to feeling like one of those unsuspecting victims in a Saw movie, it's just ******* torture,lol. But what I'll tell instead in a prolonged dialogue is how it felt for me to... I guess you can call it an 'escape'... from the learned or...
    wolfIncheapclothing wolfIncheapclothing 22-25 May 21, 2014

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    Enter The Dreamland

    open eyes and yellow hearts, Trees of green blowing in the wind, float on stars with silver faces, Meet the moon, pocked and old, Once was cheese but now is rock, Fall asleep and wake up sun, Burning brightly, always in a hurry, Floating ships and orange fields...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    In One Ear And Out The Other

    I sit in a classroom with words in my head. They never go in so I may as well be dead. The thoughts are for thinking but they're too hard for me. The words go in one ear, then straight out the other.   I'm sorry you've wasted, all of your time. On telling me...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    A And A G And A 1, 2, 3

    With an A and G and 1,2,3,  Out the window and upon the stars,  Following dreams and polluted streams,  Through the universe, heading for Mars,    Heavy footsteps hidden by sounds of wonder as ye stares high from above.    Clouds of white...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    The Cell I Call My Mind

    Dark cell with one window, chained to an iron chair.   This cell is my mind.   Those chains are my thoughts.   Free me so I too can look out the window and out on the world.
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    Imprisoned inside the darkness of my mind,

    Words of encouragement never make it past security, I can’t envision the sun rising tomorrow because I can’t see past the prison bars, It would be nice to have visitors but I fear that once they get in, they won’t be able to leave, so it’s better that I am left to rot...
    LovingDead LovingDead 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 25, 2014

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    Bad Story - 2010

    The old man asks the voice, 'How many people can you see out the window?'   "No one, I can't see anyone out the window" the voice says.   'Correct' says the old man. Do you know why you can't see anyone out the window?   "No" says the voice, "I don't know why I...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    I feel like a ghost, like no matter how I try

    and push away or swat at these feelings my hands just phase right through, I'm really am trying to be positive but it’s not working, the more I try the more I fail, is the failure just life’s way of telling me get used to this because you can’t change it?
    LovingDead LovingDead 26-30, M Jun 10, 2014

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    Looking for freedom .

    I try to be free so I get mad a lot, like when somebody doesn't answer at my question as I would like to...I get mad too easy. I live my day alone looking for freedom, and I know I will be free from this obsession when I will reach my goal.. this is not easy.. I hope in a year...
    CrookedMat CrookedMat 26-30, M May 4, 2014

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    Shadowy Streams

    Shadowy streams,   The water gleams upon the stones that we call home.   Dust and dirt and sand it hurts when blown on parched, cracked faces;   Water for granted and food it's fasted in poverty striken wasteland.   Roll with wind as the peasant joins the land...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    LovingDead LovingDead 26-30, M 1 Response May 2, 2014

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    A Soldier Old, A Soldier New - Is That Soldier You?

    A prisoner in a time of war, A camper in the field, A soldier tramping off to war, says goodbye to all his friends.   Red is the colour of shiny new shoes on school childs feet. Red is the beautiful bow in baby's hair. Red is the colour of blistered feet on...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    Strange Waves

    waves of white stars of light burning bright in the autumn night blue and red they do shed their light composed with moons of yellow   Truth and lies shadowy eyes blinking darkly under skies   Cloud and rain here again forms the chain in which they...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    I am at the point of accepting a grad school offer. Because of my field I had two choices. One near me and one near my now boyfriend. The grad school applications came before I met...
    ally1194 ally1194 18-21, F 4 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    I love this avatar: It is hard to see it now (as EP has shrunk avatars) It is a bright and happy mosaic of many homes and houses kind of stacked all together really snugly and...
    NyxInvictus NyxInvictus 41-45 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    Yes, I guess it has been "way too long" now. I do not even know how it came to be so long. Time has just passed very promptly. At first it was all about healing, then becoming more...
    GhostPizza GhostPizza 31-35, M 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    Way too long. Halfway down my back if not longer. Need a trim and to have it thinned out some but my hairdresser is in Auckland so for now it stays the way it is. Arghh.
    shecanonlydream shecanonlydream 26-30, F 4 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    I think there are different cases in long distance marriages. I believe the emotional challenges is different even though they are all "long distance marriages". The list below...
    rainyrainsky rainyrainsky 26-30, F 22 hrs ago

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    Evidently this place is full of them. I like asking what society (and EP censorship) considers "controversial" questions. I ponder and ponder on why some issues are so "offensive...
    TheSaintWhoSins TheSaintWhoSins 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My mind is made up, Great Sex is in my Mind with the Pretty Lady I met on EP. My mind is made up and still thinking about her.
    Zzzzme Zzzzme 51-55, M 1 day ago

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    You are 90% dirty minded!!!!!!! You are a sick minded freak, like me! You point out everything that sounds even the littlest bit wrong, you might get annoying when ppl talk 2 u...
    sandyluvs sandyluvs 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Hmm.. when the spouse is not interested in finding job in my country, not interested in adapting to my country.. I can adapt to the lifestyle of his country, but I guess I wont get...
    rainyrainsky rainyrainsky 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Pass or fail tomorrow, I am done with driving lessons. This has been hanging over me for nearly twenty years, and I refuse to be held as an emotional hostage any longer.
    coffeeguy80 coffeeguy80 36-40, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Where am I It's been so long since ive really seen Since i've really looked and since ive took it in Since the fire has been ablaze I've lost my way But I didn't notice until I was...
    Rucbrar Rucbrar 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    telling a white lie is still a lie. don't be afraid to tell the truth, it will be better in the long run.
    NightshadesSnowflake NightshadesSnowflake 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    I love taking long hot showers.. its almost like as soon as that water hits your body like all your worry's just wash away... I remember as a little girl I would be in the bath...
    SinfulSkin SinfulSkin 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    Anyone can stimulate another person's body... it takes real skill to stimulate someone else's mind as well. Sadly, i sometimes have to wonder if we as a species are losing the...
    LoneSouls LoneSouls 31-35, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    Seduction starts in the mind. So you have sexy lips and a hot body, but you are always me me me... If you can't turn on a mind, then it is all volatile.
    Gallantio Gallantio 36-40, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    My mind is in a place full of noise. Constant buzzing, full of thoughts, ruminating, contemplating. I figured that there's no use complaining on this gift/curse but it's hard to...
    Shahedansharif Shahedansharif 16-17, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Can true open mindedness exist? If it did would that mean you'd have to have no opinion about anything. Or can open mindedness mean that you don't judge people under any...
    Nadiiaa Nadiiaa 18-21, F 9 Responses a week ago

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    It's something I appreciate but Hmmm... You know when you hang out with a group of friends and you start to observe and analyse each and everyone of them? You start studying...
    brendanrwee brendanrwee 16-17, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    headspace.comI am reading lots about rewiring our brain....taking charge of our thoughts. emotions fuel our thoughts so its not enough to say " I will not be angry/...I will be...
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 1 Response Feb 3

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