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I Am Locked In My Mind And Long To Be Released

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    A Poem About James K Baxter - Written By Me In 2008

    NOTE TO READERS: This poem is not about me, it is about famous New Zealand poet James K. Baxter and is part of a scripted drama performance which I wrote. However, if you wish to relate the poem to other people you know or yourselves, that is fine. Please feel free to leave...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    A Soldier Old, A Soldier New - Is That Soldier You?

    A prisoner in a time of war, A camper in the field, A soldier tramping off to war, says goodbye to all his friends.   Red is the colour of shiny new shoes on school childs feet. Red is the beautiful bow in baby's hair. Red is the colour of blistered feet on...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    The Cell I Call My Mind

    Dark cell with one window, chained to an iron chair.   This cell is my mind.   Those chains are my thoughts.   Free me so I too can look out the window and out on the world.
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    LovingDead LovingDead 22-25, M 1 Response May 2, 2014

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    I'm not going into tedious detail of how I feel

    within my own head; I'll just liken it to feeling like one of those unsuspecting victims in a Saw movie, it's just ******* torture,lol. But what I'll tell instead in a prolonged dialogue is how it felt for me to... I guess you can call it an 'escape'... from the learned or...
    wolfIncheapclothing wolfIncheapclothing 22-25 May 21, 2014

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    Imprisoned inside the darkness of my mind,

    Words of encouragement never make it past security, I can’t envision the sun rising tomorrow because I can’t see past the prison bars, It would be nice to have visitors but I fear that once they get in, they won’t be able to leave, so it’s better that I am left to rot...
    LovingDead LovingDead 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 25, 2014

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    Strange Waves

    waves of white stars of light burning bright in the autumn night blue and red they do shed their light composed with moons of yellow   Truth and lies shadowy eyes blinking darkly under skies   Cloud and rain here again forms the chain in which they...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    I See Or Not As Seeing Is Not Me

    I start this with a title, A beginning to an end,   I See,       Or Not,              As Seeing Is,                           Or Was Not,                                      Me.   The people in their houses, The...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    In One Ear And Out The Other

    I sit in a classroom with words in my head. They never go in so I may as well be dead. The thoughts are for thinking but they're too hard for me. The words go in one ear, then straight out the other.   I'm sorry you've wasted, all of your time. On telling me...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    I feel like a ghost, like no matter how I try

    and push away or swat at these feelings my hands just phase right through, I'm really am trying to be positive but it’s not working, the more I try the more I fail, is the failure just life’s way of telling me get used to this because you can’t change it?
    LovingDead LovingDead 22-25, M Jun 10, 2014

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    You can't take me serious Even tho everything I

    say is So raw so true so deep. You think you know what's coming out my mouth next, But sir, you know nothing, So sit back, shut it down and enjoy the ride. Into my mind, the one place I rule. The one destination you may never leave from. When the lights shut off and the...
    peacefulkhaos peacefulkhaos 22-25, F May 2, 2014

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    Shadowy Streams

    Shadowy streams,   The water gleams upon the stones that we call home.   Dust and dirt and sand it hurts when blown on parched, cracked faces;   Water for granted and food it's fasted in poverty striken wasteland.   Roll with wind as the peasant joins the land...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    Coloured Glass Pebbles - Fill My Brain

    My mind is full of pebbles, Little glass and colourful, They shine like stars as ideas burst from veins like squirts of paint.   My eyelids are dark and bagged, My eyes they shine out anyway, They see around from sky to ground and create my world of everyday...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    My View Of Religion

    Believe what you must. Create hope, live with hope, pay for hope, pray for hope, believe in hope and be comforted by hope.   Wars are created and all are controlled. Many different forms, each with different ideas, beliefs, leaders and rules to be followed...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    I stay in this depressed state of mind.

    I feel as though it is eating me alive! It can be a normal day nothing happen but I still just want to cry! Or I can be okay & someone say something little & i get so emotional.. For example, my friend was suppose to go to the movies with me she called sick & i burst into tears...
    SkinnImIn SkinnImIn 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 6, 2014

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    Enter The Dreamland

    open eyes and yellow hearts, Trees of green blowing in the wind, float on stars with silver faces, Meet the moon, pocked and old, Once was cheese but now is rock, Fall asleep and wake up sun, Burning brightly, always in a hurry, Floating ships and orange fields...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    Looking for freedom .

    I try to be free so I get mad a lot, like when somebody doesn't answer at my question as I would like to...I get mad too easy. I live my day alone looking for freedom, and I know I will be free from this obsession when I will reach my goal.. this is not easy.. I hope in a year...
    CrookedMat CrookedMat 26-30, M May 4, 2014

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    The More Abuse I Suffer The More Imprisoned My Mind Is

    I just  see limitations around me and focus on the small things I can cope with.  I get depressed a hell of a lot.and when I have physical pain I feel more shut down and closed offwith my ear problems I feel so limited at timesand the worry over income and education ....love...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 16, 2012

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    Bad Story - 2010

    The old man asks the voice, 'How many people can you see out the window?'   "No one, I can't see anyone out the window" the voice says.   'Correct' says the old man. Do you know why you can't see anyone out the window?   "No" says the voice, "I don't know why I...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    This battle of thoughts

    that goes on constantly in my mind! Sometimes its like a thousand different thoughts locked in and I struggle as they rush forward, demanding my attention all at the same time. I don't know how to calm down my mind as it goes on and on and the thoughts keep flowing. Sometimes...
    intothedarknesss intothedarknesss 22-25, F 10 Responses May 4, 2014

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    A And A G And A 1, 2, 3

    With an A and G and 1,2,3,  Out the window and upon the stars,  Following dreams and polluted streams,  Through the universe, heading for Mars,    Heavy footsteps hidden by sounds of wonder as ye stares high from above.    Clouds of white...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    I Have No Idea What I Want/panic Attacks

    Hey guys, i have come on here in the hope ill meet some like minded people, with some advice, or just to take the journey with. Since leaving uni, starting a new job, moving away, moving in with my gf, i feel like i have completly lost myself. It has been like a huge smack in the...
    rachaelwhoami rachaelwhoami 22-25, F Nov 30, 2011

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    Its hard for me to have my mind locked on one thing. I like to see things from all angles and point of views...even the closed minded people
    UselessAmerican42 UselessAmerican42 18-21, M 4 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Hi Painfog here. I hope this is useful to someone, anyone. I haven't been around much - this darned CRPS thing is rather consuming just to survive takes lots of planning and energy...
    Painfog Painfog 56-60 8 hrs ago

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    thoughts pounding my mind, everything is moving so fast I can't get a grip of myself. I need to take back my life, I need to regain sight back on the positive.
    CasseMoi CasseMoi 36-40, F 12 hrs ago

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    It's rarely focused on just one thing, one thing doesn't grab my attention for too long, I lose interest very quickly and move on. And then it becomes a cycle.
    usernameinneed usernameinneed 26-30, M 1 day ago

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    I don't mind talking to people so long as it isn't about ordinary things or perverse things.
    SeptimiusDriver SeptimiusDriver 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    There was a really funny answer to a question lately about how to read minds. "You stare intensely at the persons forehead". Haha, no, you cannot read minds. And if you only...
    mirkwood86 mirkwood86 26-30, M 1 day ago

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    I wish for it so that I cant remember my past, and walk innocently a long the street~
    RachelThatsall RachelThatsall 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I took one with Epsom salts and scented oil. That bruise still isn't healed from being locked out and breaking in. I had Avril lavigne on. It was nice and relaxing. Do you guys...
    katariffik katariffik 31-35, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I say that sometimes people will pretend to be something that they are not! If you continue to stand before long you will see there true colors.
    Babeondwy Babeondwy 41-45, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Hi just returning to EP. I am not interested in talking to the young or immature people here. If you can't handle stories or fantasies PM me I will gladly remove you from my circle...
    m1ckm m1ckm 41-45, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    When I woke up the pain is still here. The pain is still out there, everywhere, it seems. Perhaps it's just me and life is not what it seems, perhaps everything is just a vivid...
    softspokenman softspokenman 41-45, M 6 days ago

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    LongBoarding helps clear your mind. It's like your problems ride away, until you stop
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 days ago

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    http://themindunleashed.org/2015/07/the-people-of-this-isolated-tribe-kill-anyone-approaching-their-island.html On an isolated Indian island lives a tribe that has never had...
    Levat Levat 22-25, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Interesting how pro neoliberal capitalists say how it is the only good way to govern the economy and that neoliberal capitalism will lead the world to prosper! And there's so much...
    Levat Levat 22-25, M 3 Responses Jul 22

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    I hate that there's a whole world inside that I can never explain in words. It's just too vast and too deep. It's always too much. It's a never ending quest and I'm in constant...
    AquariusLife AquariusLife 26-30, F 5 Responses Jul 22

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    I'm getting more and more surprised to see what is the world I actually live in. Yesterday I wrote a comment on an article about anti-semitism and Israeli politics, an article that...
    Levat Levat 22-25, M 3 Responses Jul 21

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    I wish I could delete the years I wasted with toxic people who only ****** up my long term mental health. Therapy and meds<this button.
    sunafterstorm sunafterstorm 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 21

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    Here is a game my ex keyholder (female coworker) used to determine how long I would be locked up. Take a standard deck of playing cards with 2 jokers, shuffle well. Draw 5 cards...
    Cancun72 Cancun72 41-45, M Jul 20

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    Here is a game my ex keyholder (female coworker) used to determine how long I would be locked up. Take a standard deck of playing cards with 2 jokers, shuffle well. Draw 5 cards...
    Cancun72 Cancun72 41-45, M Jul 20

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    Here is a game my ex keyholder (female coworker) used to determine how long I would be locked up. Take a standard deck of playing cards with 2 jokers, shuffle well. Draw 5 cards...
    Cancun72 Cancun72 41-45, M Jul 20

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    Here is a game my ex keyholder (female coworker) used to determine how long I would be locked up. Take a standard deck of playing cards with 2 jokers, shuffle well. Draw 5 cards...