I Am Locked In My Mind And Long To Be Released

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 275 People

    I Have No Idea What I Want/panic Attacks

    Hey guys, i have come on here in the hope ill meet some like minded people, with some advice, or just to take the journey with. Since leaving uni, starting a new job, moving away, moving in with my gf, i feel like i have completly lost myself. It has been like a huge smack in the...
    rachaelwhoami rachaelwhoami
    22-25, F
    Nov 30, 2011

    Bad Story - 2010

    The old man asks the voice, 'How many people can you see out the window?'   "No one, I can't see anyone out the window" the voice says.   'Correct' says the old man. Do you know why you can't see anyone out the window?   "No" says the voice, "I don't know why I...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell
    18-21, M
    Jul 24, 2011

    I See Or Not As Seeing Is Not Me

    I start this with a title, A beginning to an end,   I See,       Or Not,              As Seeing Is,                           Or Was Not,                                      Me.   The people in their houses, The...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell
    18-21, M
    Jul 24, 2011

    This battle of thoughts

    that goes on constantly in my mind! Sometimes its like a thousand different thoughts locked in and I struggle as they rush forward, demanding my attention all at the same time. I don't know how to calm down my mind as it goes on and on and the thoughts keep flowing. Sometimes...
    intothedarknesss intothedarknesss
    22-25, F
    10 Responses May 4, 2014

    In One Ear And Out The Other

    I sit in a classroom with words in my head. They never go in so I may as well be dead. The thoughts are for thinking but they're too hard for me. The words go in one ear, then straight out the other.   I'm sorry you've wasted, all of your time. On telling me...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell
    18-21, M
    Jul 24, 2011

    Looking for freedom .

    I try to be free so I get mad a lot, like when somebody doesn't answer at my question as I would like to...I get mad too easy. I live my day alone looking for freedom, and I know I will be free from this obsession when I will reach my goal.. this is not easy.. I hope in a year...
    CrookedMat CrookedMat
    26-30, M
    May 4, 2014

    Coloured Glass Pebbles - Fill My Brain

    My mind is full of pebbles, Little glass and colourful, They shine like stars as ideas burst from veins like squirts of paint.   My eyelids are dark and bagged, My eyes they shine out anyway, They see around from sky to ground and create my world of everyday...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell
    18-21, M
    Jul 24, 2011

    The Cell I Call My Mind

    Dark cell with one window, chained to an iron chair.   This cell is my mind.   Those chains are my thoughts.   Free me so I too can look out the window and out on the world.
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell
    18-21, M
    Jul 24, 2011

    A And A G And A 1, 2, 3

    With an A and G and 1,2,3,  Out the window and upon the stars,  Following dreams and polluted streams,  Through the universe, heading for Mars,    Heavy footsteps hidden by sounds of wonder as ye stares high from above.    Clouds of white...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell
    18-21, M
    Jul 24, 2011

    You can't take me serious Even tho everything I

    say is So raw so true so deep. You think you know what's coming out my mouth next, But sir, you know nothing, So sit back, shut it down and enjoy the ride. Into my mind, the one place I rule. The one destination you may never leave from. When the lights shut off and the...
    peacefulkhaos peacefulkhaos
    22-25, F
    May 2, 2014

    My View Of Religion

    Believe what you must. Create hope, live with hope, pay for hope, pray for hope, believe in hope and be comforted by hope.   Wars are created and all are controlled. Many different forms, each with different ideas, beliefs, leaders and rules to be followed...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell
    18-21, M
    Jul 24, 2011

    Enter The Dreamland

    open eyes and yellow hearts, Trees of green blowing in the wind, float on stars with silver faces, Meet the moon, pocked and old, Once was cheese but now is rock, Fall asleep and wake up sun, Burning brightly, always in a hurry, Floating ships and orange fields...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell
    18-21, M
    Jul 24, 2011

    I feel like a ghost, like no matter how I try

    and push away or swat at these feelings my hands just phase right through, I'm really am trying to be positive but it’s not working, the more I try the more I fail, is the failure just life’s way of telling me get used to this because you can’t change it?
    LovingDead LovingDead
    26-30, M
    Jun 10, 2014

    A Poem About James K Baxter - Written By Me In 2008

    NOTE TO READERS: This poem is not about me, it is about famous New Zealand poet James K. Baxter and is part of a scripted drama performance which I wrote. However, if you wish to relate the poem to other people you know or yourselves, that is fine. Please feel free to leave...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell
    18-21, M
    Jul 24, 2011

    I stay in this depressed state of mind.

    I feel as though it is eating me alive! It can be a normal day nothing happen but I still just want to cry! Or I can be okay & someone say something little & i get so emotional.. For example, my friend was suppose to go to the movies with me she called sick & i burst into tears...
    SkinnImIn SkinnImIn
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 6, 2014

    I'm not going into tedious detail of how I feel

    within my own head; I'll just liken it to feeling like one of those unsuspecting victims in a Saw movie, it's just ******* torture,lol. But what I'll tell instead in a prolonged dialogue is how it felt for me to... I guess you can call it an 'escape'... from the learned or...
    wolfIncheapclothing wolfIncheapclothing
    22-25
    May 21, 2014

    Imprisoned inside the darkness of my mind,

    Words of encouragement never make it past security, I can’t envision the sun rising tomorrow because I can’t see past the prison bars, It would be nice to have visitors but I fear that once they get in, they won’t be able to leave, so it’s better that I am left to rot...
    LovingDead LovingDead
    26-30, M
    1 Response Apr 25, 2014

    Shadowy Streams

    Shadowy streams,   The water gleams upon the stones that we call home.   Dust and dirt and sand it hurts when blown on parched, cracked faces;   Water for granted and food it's fasted in poverty striken wasteland.   Roll with wind as the peasant joins the land...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell
    18-21, M
    Jul 24, 2011

    A Soldier Old, A Soldier New - Is That Soldier You?

    A prisoner in a time of war, A camper in the field, A soldier tramping off to war, says goodbye to all his friends.   Red is the colour of shiny new shoes on school childs feet. Red is the beautiful bow in baby's hair. Red is the colour of blistered feet on...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell
    18-21, M
    Jul 24, 2011

    The More Abuse I Suffer The More Imprisoned My Mind Is

    I just  see limitations around me and focus on the small things I can cope with.  I get depressed a hell of a lot.and when I have physical pain I feel more shut down and closed offwith my ear problems I feel so limited at timesand the worry over income and education ....love...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
    36-40, F
    1 Response Apr 16, 2012
    LovingDead LovingDead
    26-30, M
    1 Response May 2, 2014

    Strange Waves

    waves of white stars of light burning bright in the autumn night blue and red they do shed their light composed with moons of yellow   Truth and lies shadowy eyes blinking darkly under skies   Cloud and rain here again forms the chain in which they...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell
    18-21, M
    Jul 24, 2011

    Related Experiences

    I wasn't here very long, but enjoyed reading other's stories and also sharing a few of my own. Made a couple of friends, one really good one. You know who you are... thanks for...
    sheltielady4 sheltielady4
    56-60, F
    Apr 21
    what is so degrading to a lady just because he wants oral sex from her and if it is degrading why do they love guys going down on them is that not the same answer quick so long ep
    sexymangirl sexymangirl
    56-60, M
    Apr 21
    I want to delete all my memories of the people I love.. They're gone but their memories haunt me every minute. Even in my sleep, I am plagued with nightmares. My mind feels like it...
    IAmDaenerysTargaryen IAmDaenerysTargaryen
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 20
    N/C for a week. I can't believe he can endure not to contact me for that long. I sent him a letter via text about setting him free, last week, I ddn't hear from him at all. He ddn...
    Ladyheart2016 Ladyheart2016
    31-35, F
    Apr 19
    I live with my boyfriend but he is an over the road truck driver and is only home about 5 or 6 days a month and the rest of the time he is away so our relationship is basically...
    annon85 annon85
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 19
    I am afraid I will miss the end of EP, it has been a long fun journey. I have peen fighting the urge to kill myself now for months, and it is getting stronger daily. I have a few...
    Glennr67 Glennr67
    46-50, M
    Apr 18
    I hate people who judge why can't people get to know you first also I'm open minded I tend to agree to disagree who cares if someone disagrees I don't care what others think about...
    LauraBowker LauraBowker
    46-50, F
    10 Responses Apr 18
    My family and some of my church friends think before at puberty all boys should always be locked in a chastity belt. I agree that boys should be take control; moreover, they don't...
    kainmom123 kainmom123
    41-45, F
    9 Responses Apr 18
    We are a desi couple and I am the husband here. Have been here earlier and had some good interaction with people and friends here. Since EP is closing, I would like to connect...
    Desicouplefun Desicouplefun
    46-50, M
    Apr 17
    Actually I love a lady with beautiful long hair, she did cut it but it is still pretty long. A month or so ago I decided to just not cut my hair anymore and it is getting there. In...
    boldtimer boldtimer
    66-70, M
    Apr 17
    I miss my sexual ways it's been to long
    chocolategirl101 chocolategirl101
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Apr 17
    One thing better then a long, hot, shower. A bubble bath :)
    littlerayofsunshine666 littlerayofsunshine666
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 16
    Im a nice guy i clingy becuse i care yet i get pushed to the side lines..... but i have the dirtiest mind you will never know ;)
    hotspot1989 hotspot1989
    26-30, M
    1 Response Apr 16
    Got to love women with long hair, though I wonder why its so hard to get a date with them :( so if your in Florida/Tampa area and this is something you may like :P
    Livingmylifetime Livingmylifetime
    18-21, M
    Apr 16
    single for a long long time
    Angel1ne Angel1ne
    13-15, F
    Apr 15
    I am very much into long term male chastity and Tease & denial. I Would love being locked up for a very long time and being teased and reminded constantly
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 14
    The only thing I feel jealous on girls is long hair, There are times I starts thinking of changing my gender to grow long braid <3
    AnithaCD AnithaCD
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Apr 14
    My bf and I are in a long distance relationship. Yes, long distance relationships are little hard to maintain but they are not impossible! so all the people who say they (long...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    6 Responses Apr 14
    haven't been here all that much but am sure i will miss the interaction with the few like minded folks on here. if any care to continue interacting i can be emailed anytime. cheers...
    isadore isadore
    46-50, M
    Apr 13
    Alright. Now how do I deal with this? "Okay. Now stop thinking you're being such a hardworker. Stop thinking and save those thoughts for another day. Okay? Alright. I'm telling...
    SparkofDecency SparkofDecency
    18-21, F
    Apr 13
    I miss him everyday since we last said goodbye in early January. Some days I just miss him, but it's fine, because the happiness of having him is stronger and other days when...
    rakachinotohi rakachinotohi
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 11
    That's what most people think, as they are all narrow minded and ****** .
    likePheonix likePheonix
    26-30, M
    Apr 11
    If I could I'd fly away. I'd morph myself and change my name. To find the one, my heart desires, Someone who really knows me. We'd be friends-- maybe more than friends. And we...
    ProxyVox ProxyVox
    18-21, M
    Apr 11
    *I've. Yep. Started flooding private experiences here when I was 13. My EP life is so lively back then. EP literally became a part of my daily routine (before). I've met several...
    BittersweetRose BittersweetRose
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 10
    I want to cut it off but then again I don't ...I feel like if I cut it I'll regret it a lot and I'll probably end up crying for a whole week ...ill probably look bad with short...
    LovelyGorillla LovelyGorillla
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Apr 9
    Since a very young age, I have a thing for hair, especially when it comes to cutting it off. To me, there is nothing more fascinating as grabbing a pair of scissors, select a long...
    KeshavK2J KeshavK2J
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 9
    Long thick braid at the airport Few hours ago, I was at the airport waiting for my bag to arrive. Near the same baggage collection belt, was a lady, appearing to be in her early...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 9
    Since a very young age, I have a thing for hair, especially when it comes to cutting it off. To me, there is nothing more fascinating as grabbing a pair of scissors, select a long...
    KeshavK2J KeshavK2J
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 9
    Since a very young age, I have a thing for hair, especially when it comes to cutting it off. To me, there is nothing more fascinating as grabbing a pair of scissors, select a long...
    KeshavK2J KeshavK2J
    22-25, M
    Apr 9
    I would erase all the stupid things people have said to me over the years. Things that made me wonder what their intentions were. Once, after I was physically attacked by a family...
    PickoftheLitter PickoftheLitter
    46-50, F
    1 Response Apr 8
    Let me tell you a story of a couple that I know. They used to be in a Long Distance Relationship. The guy is from Germany and the woman is from the Philippines. They met online...
    HomelessSoul HomelessSoul
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 8
    There used to be 3 friends in a city and they are close friends their names 1.charan 2.Karthik 3.subhash. they have different characters and different life styles. charan's life...
    Mrsubhash Mrsubhash
    22-25, M
    Apr 7
    Everything seems so wrong nowdays, and i dont mean that it wasnt bad before. Im just becoming more senseless everyday and everyone is becoming more alienated with computers, mobile...
    Mic99 Mic99
    16-17, M
    Apr 7
    When I say I can't speak my mind... I don't mean I can't stand up for myself because I definitely can! As a 17 year old girl soon to begin the university application process, in...
    Pheeeb Pheeeb
    16-17
    1 Response Apr 7
    07/04/2016 - 99% of the time this is the main reason why I can't sleep every night. Why I lay awake in bed wishing I could just go to sleep. Wishing I could just turn my brain...
    shecanonlydream shecanonlydream
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 6
    Im in a long distance relationship with my boyfriend and i dont talk to him or txt him sometimes for hours on a daily basis. I dont know what to do because i love him very much and...
    PaperMoonz PaperMoonz
    13-15, F
    Apr 6
    ~Peeping J“Why are you looking in there, No one is allowed to see that place but me,” she boldly shouted to him, even though shouting didn’t seem to faze him. He...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 6
    I wish i had the motivation to write about my experiences, I have only just found this website and It's just the kind of escape I think I've needed for a very long time. Sad to...
    Misaura Misaura
    22-25, F
    Apr 6
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