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I Am Locked In My Mind And Long To Be Released

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 273 People

    peanutman27 peanutman27 22-25, M 1 Response May 2

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    A Poem About James K Baxter - Written By Me In 2008

    NOTE TO READERS: This poem is not about me, it is about famous New Zealand poet James K. Baxter and is part of a scripted drama performance which I wrote. However, if you wish to relate the poem to other people you know or yourselves, that is fine. Please feel free to leave...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    I'm not going into tedious detail of how I feel

    within my own head; I'll just liken it to feeling like one of those unsuspecting victims in a Saw movie, it's just ******* torture,lol. But what I'll tell instead in a prolonged dialogue is how it felt for me to... I guess you can call it an 'escape'... from the learned or...
    sheepInwolfsclothing sheepInwolfsclothing 22-25 1 Response May 21

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    Enter The Dreamland

    open eyes and yellow hearts, Trees of green blowing in the wind, float on stars with silver faces, Meet the moon, pocked and old, Once was cheese but now is rock, Fall asleep and wake up sun, Burning brightly, always in a hurry, Floating ships and orange fields...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    I stay in this depressed state of mind.

    I feel as though it is eating me alive! It can be a normal day nothing happen but I still just want to cry! Or I can be okay & someone say something little & i get so emotional.. For example, my friend was suppose to go to the movies with me she called sick & i burst into tears...
    SkinnImIn SkinnImIn 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 6

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    Shadowy Streams

    Shadowy streams,   The water gleams upon the stones that we call home.   Dust and dirt and sand it hurts when blown on parched, cracked faces;   Water for granted and food it's fasted in poverty striken wasteland.   Roll with wind as the peasant joins the land...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    A And A G And A 1, 2, 3

    With an A and G and 1,2,3,  Out the window and upon the stars,  Following dreams and polluted streams,  Through the universe, heading for Mars,    Heavy footsteps hidden by sounds of wonder as ye stares high from above.    Clouds of white...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    You can't take me serious Even tho everything I

    say is So raw so true so deep. You think you know what's coming out my mouth next, But sir, you know nothing, So sit back, shut it down and enjoy the ride. Into my mind, the one place I rule. The one destination you may never leave from. When the lights shut off and the...
    peacefulkhaos peacefulkhaos 22-25, F May 2

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    A Soldier Old, A Soldier New - Is That Soldier You?

    A prisoner in a time of war, A camper in the field, A soldier tramping off to war, says goodbye to all his friends.   Red is the colour of shiny new shoes on school childs feet. Red is the beautiful bow in baby's hair. Red is the colour of blistered feet on...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    The Cell I Call My Mind

    Dark cell with one window, chained to an iron chair.   This cell is my mind.   Those chains are my thoughts.   Free me so I too can look out the window and out on the world.
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    Strange Waves

    waves of white stars of light burning bright in the autumn night blue and red they do shed their light composed with moons of yellow   Truth and lies shadowy eyes blinking darkly under skies   Cloud and rain here again forms the chain in which they...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    I Have No Idea What I Want/panic Attacks

    Hey guys, i have come on here in the hope ill meet some like minded people, with some advice, or just to take the journey with. Since leaving uni, starting a new job, moving away, moving in with my gf, i feel like i have completly lost myself. It has been like a huge smack in the...
    rachaelwhoami rachaelwhoami 22-25, F Nov 30, 2011

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    This battle of thoughts

    that goes on constantly in my mind! Sometimes its like a thousand different thoughts locked in and I struggle as they rush forward, demanding my attention all at the same time. I don't know how to calm down my mind as it goes on and on and the thoughts keep flowing. Sometimes...
    intothedarknesss intothedarknesss 22-25, F 11 Responses May 4

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    I See Or Not As Seeing Is Not Me

    I start this with a title, A beginning to an end,   I See,       Or Not,              As Seeing Is,                           Or Was Not,                                      Me.   The people in their houses, The...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    Bad Story - 2010

    The old man asks the voice, 'How many people can you see out the window?'   "No one, I can't see anyone out the window" the voice says.   'Correct' says the old man. Do you know why you can't see anyone out the window?   "No" says the voice, "I don't know why I...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    Looking for freedom .

    I try to be free so I get mad a lot, like when somebody doesn't answer at my question as I would like to...I get mad too easy. I live my day alone looking for freedom, and I know I will be free from this obsession when I will reach my goal.. this is not easy.. I hope in a year...
    CrookedMat CrookedMat 26-30, M May 4

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    I feel like a ghost, like no matter how I try

    and push away or swat at these feelings my hands just phase right through, I'm really am trying to be positive but it’s not working, the more I try the more I fail, is the failure just life’s way of telling me get used to this because you can’t change it?
    peanutman27 peanutman27 22-25, M Jun 10

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    Not locked in but tired of striving to climb

    out to relaxing positivity. Its like hiking and finding an area full of sink holes. Escape one and hate finding more that you cant leap over. Sigh.
    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M 2 Responses Aug 6

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    Imprisoned inside the darkness of my mind,

    Words of encouragement never make it past security, I can’t envision the sun rising tomorrow because I can’t see past the prison bars, It would be nice to have visitors but I fear that once they get in, they won’t be able to leave, so it’s better that I am left to rot...
    peanutman27 peanutman27 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 25

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    Coloured Glass Pebbles - Fill My Brain

    My mind is full of pebbles, Little glass and colourful, They shine like stars as ideas burst from veins like squirts of paint.   My eyelids are dark and bagged, My eyes they shine out anyway, They see around from sky to ground and create my world of everyday...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    My View Of Religion

    Believe what you must. Create hope, live with hope, pay for hope, pray for hope, believe in hope and be comforted by hope.   Wars are created and all are controlled. Many different forms, each with different ideas, beliefs, leaders and rules to be followed...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    In One Ear And Out The Other

    I sit in a classroom with words in my head. They never go in so I may as well be dead. The thoughts are for thinking but they're too hard for me. The words go in one ear, then straight out the other.   I'm sorry you've wasted, all of your time. On telling me...
    MyMindIsACell MyMindIsACell 18-21, M Jul 24, 2011

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    The More Abuse I Suffer The More Imprisoned My Mind Is

    I just  see limitations around me and focus on the small things I can cope with.  I get depressed a hell of a lot.and when I have physical pain I feel more shut down and closed offwith my ear problems I feel so limited at timesand the worry over income and education ....love...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 16, 2012

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    I kept something locked up for almost 12 years before I snapped and I wish I would of just came out a long time before that and just let it off my chest. It killed me keeping it...
    tigersfan195 tigersfan195 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I've had almost 2000 mL to drink within the last 7 hours and haven't released since I woke up... I'm squirming and trying to hold it all in!!
    donteatjustpee donteatjustpee 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 12

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    I am a 13 year old boy living in Charlotte, NC and I want to be kidnapped, chained to the cold cement pole in someones unfinshed basement for the rest of my life. I dont care how...
    takemenow2014 takemenow2014 70+, M 1 Response Oct 13

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    I regularly lock myself in my metal lock as practise. 21 days is my longest
    dirtylad1975 dirtylad1975 36-40, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    You can say its just a random thought.. haha The way I used to answer people's questions here without any boundary says its the free playful soul and the way I am using/wasting...
    satyr1007 satyr1007 26-30, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    99.9% of problems could be avoided if everyone minded there own damn business. If I wanna sex 10 strangers in month. Mind your business. If a dude wants to blow another guy. Mind...
    pinkypie5 pinkypie5 22-25, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    Here we go again... first of all because it's a really spiffy song. And secondly, because I was going to launch into a long explanation, but then I realized what I really long for...
    Faust76 Faust76 36-40, M Sep 27

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    My mind is a black place. Its no place to sit and dwell for too long. There are nasty things that live in the shadows. Linger too long and you will find the pathway you entered...
    ultimatehacker ultimatehacker 26-30, M 4 days ago

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    As a kid, my mom Always kept my hair short, because growing up in a farm, my hair would Always end up full of leaves, grass, dirt, and whatever else you can mind... according with...
    DildoSlut DildoSlut 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 6

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    Let's just say but I was living wasn't theat I was very close minded growing up as a teenager. always wanted to feel attached to something and be someone that I wasn't. I think I...
    Miche1e Miche1e 36-40, M 4 days ago

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    It's been so long since I had anyone who enjoyed long conversations with me. My husband said I'm boring so I've gotten out of the habit of speaking. I really miss just engaging in...
    niklb niklb 41-45, F Oct 3

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    As of March 21st 2015, I will have been in a long distance relationship for 5 years. I am in love with the guy I am with, but the only problem is, while we are apart, he hardly...
    anonymouslymysterious anonymouslymysterious 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 12

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    If ive had a long day, chances are i wont be able to sleep. I get this strange feeling when something bad has happened throughout my day and it will cause me to be restless. If...
    Sierra1993 Sierra1993 18-21, F Oct 6

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    I make all my decisions with our future in mind. He works hard every day to prove that he believes in us completely. The road is long, and not easy, but it will be so worthwhile in...
    NCheartinNY NCheartinNY 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 8

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    As long as its not used in serious situations lets say someones loved ones died or if a disaster happened. As long as its used for playful joking
    NotActive NotActive 18-21, M Oct 11

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    Can you imagine a truly open minded society? I'm not talking about just losing silly social conventions. I mean realizing that we are all here on this planet as one and we have...
    Aiyana77 Aiyana77 36-40, T 20 Responses 5 days ago

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    Nike Working is a business founded in 1972 in Oregon, United states of america by runners, for runners, Nike revolutionised the thought of cushioning in sneakers with It is really...
    Daniel3434sfb3 Daniel3434sfb3 31-35, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Looking for a man to spoil me n love me care for me cherished me long distance I am openly minded and will do anything for you as you spoil me too :)
    Teeteesky Teeteesky 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I wouldn't mind, as long as you are not inappropriate.
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 16-17, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Why do most people on EP assume being open minded is exclusively something séxual?! Is there anything that could be more narrow minded than that?! When I say I'm open minded...
    laleee laleee 26-30, F 8 Responses Sep 29

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    Feeling really ****** right now. She smoked because of depression and the last time she did that I told her if it happen again we would be over. But now I can't make up my mind. I...
    NuclearWarhead NuclearWarhead 16-17, M 7 Responses Sep 27

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    Missing him intensely. I have to go to court today. Domestic abuse case with husband (separated). If he were within 3 hours of here, he would be with me. No doubt in my mind. He...
    NCheartinNY NCheartinNY 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 2

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    I am a very open minded person.... i don't mind trying new things out. I like hearing others points of view and how they see things on life. I try to understand were everyone is...
    Dsanders13 Dsanders13 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 2

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    I miss being in love. Touching, kissing, laughing... All of the things that make you complete in so many different ways. Its crazy how the mind and the heart work together...
    magicalaughter magicalaughter 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 5

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    I have never tried crack but I would think that the feeling of love is similar and on the same level.. You feel it once and you're hooked. You can't eat sleep or work without your...
    MrsKellyJo MrsKellyJo 46-50, F Oct 6

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    Impressively, hopefully (idk, i was just trying to find adverb to initiate this sentence), the most exciting and enjoyable moments in my life until now were… when I was dreaming...
    DiegoSMarinho DiegoSMarinho 16-17, M 1 Response Oct 8

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