I've thought about suicide again. I just can't help it. The school, preparations for univeristy and every other thing in my life at the moment gives me loads of stress and I crack...
It's a process everyday. I'm told I'm not good enough or I fail at everything. I work hard to keep it together for my children.
I have lots of friends, but no one that I am extremely close to. They all have someone else they would rather talk to and I feel very lonely. My boyfriend hasn't talked to me in 4...
at the present looking at a broken mirror. I gave you a chance to be your self. but I see now you won't change. you stuck in your old ways so now I must kill you. drain your blood...
I'm completely lost in life I have no path but I keep walking towards my goal. I don't know what I am searching for but I'll keep searching for it. How does one find their path?
again I find myself in a dark road that leads to pain and suffering. before I make the choice of ending my suffering.
Again and again I just stare.
I look past the glare.
I look pass the superficial beauty.
deep into my heart, and my duty?
I am just as ugly and rotten as my heart.
I try to find...
but unfortunately I have failed.
before 1year I tried to stop smoking .. i did it