I Am Looking For Something

I don't really know what my purpose in life is. I need to find what it is.

I was destined to become a Ninja and a published author in New York City. Now I'm so Depressed I wish I was a baby again because I don't know what to do anymore.

Even in a crowded room...
I feel so all alone.
People try to get me...
But they always get it wrong.

To most, I'm just a toy...
A pretty face, a tiny frame.
She couldn't have real thoughts,
That girl is built to play the game.

The...

I know I'm looking and searching for something. Though I have no idea what it is. Maybe I'm looking too hard, and should just let it come to me. It could be numerous things I'm looking for. Not just one. I am such a puzzle right now...

Driving... far away, maybe follow the sun or a polar star. It feels like this is not where i suppose to be. I feel like there is a place, but i am not there yet. Many years will pass until ill get there. Maybe it's a chase for something...

It's the happiness you get from being truly happy with yourself and what you are doing and why you are doing it.   Now I am testing things out to find out what makes me happy and what I need to do to make myself happy and once...

I am looking for something.....
I know that what I am looking for lies within
I know that I will not find what I am looking for in the external world
Yet that is where I choose to look, I think because it seems easier and more exciting...

I am new to EP and this Group so I will keep it brief to start off a discussion.

I have always felt that I do not fit here and that I am in the wrong place or the wrong time. So all my life I have been searching for "something...

I am lost right now. I have lost sight of my dreams and goals in life. Ever since these series of manic and depressive episodes, I went farther and farther away to what I aim for. I don't know what I want anymore. I do not have any...

But have no idea what the hell it is! Is it love? A boyfriend? Peace of mind? Excitement? Satisfaction? WHAT THE HELL IS IT??? I can't make up my mind what I really want these days, every new day brings a change of heart in the things I...

I think I am looking for myself.  I just know I left me around here somewhere... please let me know if you find me! 

Been lookin' 4 it since last month. I REALLY need it now!

In my quest to get over my ex I'm also looking to get to a point where letting go is ok. I want to be happy for him because he's moved on and not have these thoughts of poor me because I'm still hurting over the way it happened. I've...

But I just havent found it?  I think im too busy looking for it that I wouldnt recognize it if it were in front of me.

Is it under my bed?
Is it in the couch?
Perhaps under the pillow?
No It's not under anything.  Ooh, Maybe behind something? Nah. Hmmm.
I'm not even sure what it looks like.
Maybe it's in my soul.
Maybe it's in yours.