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I Am Losing Control

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    No Control Anymore

    I have lost all control over my life. I have tried and tried and nothing has happened. I give up. Whatever happens to me, just happens. I don't even care anymore.
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 7, 2011

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    No one take an Eye on me,

    just myself, but... Still trying to get back! (Starting from ... EP ?)
    KentVu KentVu 22-25, M Aug 12, 2014

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    I am so desperate! I lost my sleep!

    I lost my good will! I have nothing!
    WhispersOfTheDark WhispersOfTheDark 26-30, F Dec 24, 2013

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    Not Quite a Control Freak

    Now, I'm not saying I am a control freak, but I do like to have at least a little control in my life. This has always been a concern for me.  How much control.  My mom is a total and complete control freak.  So,  I've learned from her, both sides of the...
    meowmeowface meowmeowface 36-40, F Sep 27, 2007

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    I am married to my amazing husband,

    I have two kids from previous relationship but he stepped in and has been amazing father figure to them as well. I am a military wife and I thought that deployment would be the hardest thing we would have to face but I was wrong. A year ago, my husbands friend was accused of...
    Missunderstood423 Missunderstood423 26-30, F 1 Response May 3, 2014

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    I've Totally Lost It...

    The last couple of days have been complete hell for me.  Jordan, my best friend (or .. was), hasn't talked to me since before May.  And three of my other friends, Gabby, Kiley and Savannah .. they don't talk to me anymore either.  My whole world is falling apart...
    danosaur danosaur 16-17, F 3 Responses May 29, 2007

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    No Control Anymore

    I have lost all control over my life. I have tried and tried and nothing has happened. I give up. Whatever happens to me, just happens. I don't even care anymore.
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F Jan 7, 2011

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    Daddy Controls Me

    I am losing control over my entire life. I do not make my own decisions as my dad makes them for me. He decides everything for me. my body, How I dress, where I go, who I'm with, what I think. It's all controlled by him. I can't even express the thoughts I want to think sometimes...
    vampiredory vampiredory 13-15 Feb 6, 2009

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    Falling

    loosing control ?  REALLY ?  Did I ever have control over anything?  Regardless of whether I did or not,  I am seemingly still in a free fall,  tail spinning faster and faster  -  and when I hit  -  its gonna be hard as hell.  I...
    hartleybroken hartleybroken 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 15, 2010

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    Everytime

     i  get where im  just doing real well something happens n messes  it up for me....  eventually  ill   make it  through a crisis and not get down .
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F Aug 24, 2007

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    Run.

    Everytime I eat I can't wait until I can run to the bathroom and rid myself of the food I've just eaten. It feels so relieving to let all the fat just wash away. I personally don't understand how it's bad for my body. (I don't want a lecture of how it's going to demolish me...
    Isabellesheart Isabellesheart 18-21, F 1 Response May 12, 2009

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    At this point in my life,

    I am nothing. A shameful past haunting meaningless present destroying any chance of true future. I have nothing to do. Nights turn into days, I rarely catch the sun anymore. I lie on my back and feel the inevitable depression seeping in. I am not surprised every mind crazed...
    koorlo koorlo 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 23, 2014

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    Sometimes I just feel like disappearing. Just running away. No note, no trace of a presence left behind. Just getting my ****, and leaving.
    BloodofAmara BloodofAmara 16-17, F Apr 6

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    Control...Letting the Curves Take You...The answer to control is practicing surrender.Trying to maintain control in this life is a bit like trying to maintain control on a roller...
    anghel77 anghel77 36-40, F 2 hrs ago

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    My boyfriend and I have been together off and on for 2 years. He breaks up with me when he gets mad or doesn't get his way. He always tell me what to do and what to wear. I can't...
    idk3913 idk3913 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 29

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    I no longer believe in love, and I realize now that that has been foundational for me for my entire life- and now I feel like a false-storefront, everything looks quite alright...
    nighthouse66 nighthouse66 36-40, F 5 days ago

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    I have lost 20 lbs in the last month. You might think that's unhealthy, but I'm actually doing it in the healthiest way possible!(: I'm doing the paleo/ketogenic lifestyle. I am...
    DemitriaGoddess3 DemitriaGoddess3 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 15

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    Not scared.. terrified. I stay up all night worrying. I worry if someone gets in a car. I worry when it rains. When I was in elementary school I would purposely make myself sick...
    DeIuxedEdition DeIuxedEdition 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I made like 2 new friends a few weeks ago, and they all pretty much left me. Something bad happened to one of them, (she never told me what it was) and she had to delete her...
    TheMasterMan1 TheMasterMan1 16-17, M Mar 27

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    Oh i hate losing you i cannot live
    Thedepressedgirlatthewindow Thedepressedgirlatthewindow 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    I'm seriously losing it over here. I really really really want to leave this life, but I'm terrified of breaking my parents' hearts. I just can't do this. Life hurts so much. I don...
    Emilyyyyy Emilyyyyy 18-21 1 Response Apr 5

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    I think we have to be careful here there's a difference between controlling with permission and directing the family and real hard control of every aspect of your life. Now my...
    louisetiger1 louisetiger1 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 11

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    I'm not sure what's causing it, but I am losing touch with all my close friends and family, can't seem to make time for anyone, and I can't find time for art, literature, music all...
    ianbrewman ianbrewman 26-30, T 2 Responses Apr 18

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    Has anyone ever been in a rough relationship and it feels like you're losing who you are as a person?
    xSweetnessx xSweetnessx 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 19

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    So about ten minutes ago, I went around the neighborhood asking neighbors I knew if there was any housework I could do for them for a little pay. A little pay being like two...
    DementedKarkat DementedKarkat 13-15, T 1 Response 3 days ago

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    There are things in life that I wish for - a better life, more time with my close ones, getting fit etc. Yet my laid back attitude is working against me, with me doing nothing and...
    HappieStinger HappieStinger 41-45, M 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    Anyone wanna control my bladder? You can control when and where will i use the bathroom, what kinds of actions u want me to do, how many waters u want me to drink, what should i...
    iwannapee448 iwannapee448 22-25, M Apr 1

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    who the hell would be against birth control? Seriously, people never cease to amaze me. "Sure, let's go against birth control! This way if the condemn breaks, the girl will get...
    PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    Not in every aspect of my life. I think is more of I allow him to be in control in a few things. Either because he's better at it or he's just sexy while I'm control. But at the...
    Likmesilly Likmesilly 26-30, F Apr 11

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    I have two fantasies about control and food. In the first, someone keeps gifting me weight loss supplements while I work out and lose weight. In the second, someone insists on...
    need2Bcontrolled83 need2Bcontrolled83 31-35, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I realized tonight that even though I may worry and stress about someone, they may not know how much it hurts me. I can control that person but I can control how they are in my...
    MiBelleAmie MiBelleAmie 41-45, F 3 Responses Apr 1

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    Not both my parents are controlling, just my mother. I use to love my mother but for the past several years all I feel is hate towards her. She has made it her own personal mission...
    schiisha schiisha 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 3

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    He was crazy controlling ignorant unreasonable and irrational. He constantly accused me of cheating. He had to know where I was and what I was doing every second of the day. If I...
    DeeDoubleYoux DeeDoubleYoux 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    Been trying to control it for years. Started Remeron when I was 8. Took that daily until I turned 13. Then I started Lexapro and took that until now as I am 14. I'll be 15 in...
    SparkleSwirl SparkleSwirl 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 5

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    I am so in control in every situation that life seems to throw t me that it feels so awsome when i get to go home and have my an take total control in a gentle way ofcourse...
    stephanie82 stephanie82 31-35, F Apr 10

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    Until I met my wife I used to think that women who wanted a man to be in control were a myth. She has shown me what it means to her to give me that control, and it has made me...
    thickyholden thickyholden 51-55, M 1 Response Apr 11

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    I tell everyone I'm doing OK but I'm really not. Truth is my life sucks right now and has been sucking for awhile now. I've totally let myself go. I don't work, go to school, hate...
    bmorev bmorev 22-25, F 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    I'm starting to feel like I can not control my anger! I've taken anger management and everything! When my boyfriend and I get into arguments I black out and say thing I do not mean...
    Lolabeautyy Lolabeautyy 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 29

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    My parents did not like the wedding date that my fiance and I had set, so they kept throwing out ultimatums until we finally pushed the date back. Now they are freaking out because...
    southernlove45 southernlove45 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 29

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    I really want to control someone's bladder 24 hours a day every day
    kaysyn kaysyn 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 1

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    Anyone want to control my bladder? I'm practically bursting. Torture me to your hearts content. Message me or comment
    ggirl49 ggirl49 18-21, F 9 Responses Apr 1

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    I know I can't control this.I saw a Bengali movie last night.In it ,the hero kind of forcefully tries to form a relationship with the heroine against her wishes.Her parents were on...
    restored87 restored87 46-50, F 7 Responses Apr 2

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