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I Am Losing Control

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    I am married to my amazing husband,

    I have two kids from previous relationship but he stepped in and has been amazing father figure to them as well. I am a military wife and I thought that deployment would be the hardest thing we would have to face but I was wrong. A year ago, my husbands friend was accused of...
    Missunderstood423 Missunderstood423 26-30, F 1 Response May 3

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    Run.

    Everytime I eat I can't wait until I can run to the bathroom and rid myself of the food I've just eaten. It feels so relieving to let all the fat just wash away. I personally don't understand how it's bad for my body. (I don't want a lecture of how it's going to demolish me...
    Isabellesheart Isabellesheart 18-21, F 1 Response May 12, 2009

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    I've Totally Lost It...

    The last couple of days have been complete hell for me.  Jordan, my best friend (or .. was), hasn't talked to me since before May.  And three of my other friends, Gabby, Kiley and Savannah .. they don't talk to me anymore either.  My whole world is falling apart...
    danosaur danosaur 16-18, F 3 Responses May 29, 2007

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    Not Quite a Control Freak

    Now, I'm not saying I am a control freak, but I do like to have at least a little control in my life. This has always been a concern for me.  How much control.  My mom is a total and complete control freak.  So,  I've learned from her, both sides of the...
    meowmeowface meowmeowface 36-40, F Sep 27, 2007

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    No Control Anymore

    I have lost all control over my life. I have tried and tried and nothing has happened. I give up. Whatever happens to me, just happens. I don't even care anymore.
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 7, 2011

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    Falling

    loosing control ?  REALLY ?  Did I ever have control over anything?  Regardless of whether I did or not,  I am seemingly still in a free fall,  tail spinning faster and faster  -  and when I hit  -  its gonna be hard as hell.  I...
    hartleybroken hartleybroken 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 15, 2010

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    At this point in my life,

    I am nothing. A shameful past haunting meaningless present destroying any chance of true future. I have nothing to do. Nights turn into days, I rarely catch the sun anymore. I lie on my back and feel the inevitable depression seeping in. I am not surprised every mind crazed...
    koorlo koorlo 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 23

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    No Control Anymore

    I have lost all control over my life. I have tried and tried and nothing has happened. I give up. Whatever happens to me, just happens. I don't even care anymore.
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F Jan 7, 2011

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    Daddy Controls Me

    I am losing control over my entire life. I do not make my own decisions as my dad makes them for me. He decides everything for me. my body, How I dress, where I go, who I'm with, what I think. It's all controlled by him. I can't even express the thoughts I want to think sometimes...
    vampiredory vampiredory 13-15 Feb 6, 2009

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    Everytime

     i  get where im  just doing real well something happens n messes  it up for me....  eventually  ill   make it  through a crisis and not get down .
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F Aug 24, 2007

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    No one take an Eye on me,

    just myself, but... Still trying to get back! (Starting from ... EP ?)
    KentVu KentVu 22-25, M Aug 12

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    I am so desperate! I lost my sleep!

    I lost my good will! I have nothing!
    WhispersOfTheDark WhispersOfTheDark 26-30, F Dec 24, 2013

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    Well of course I am! That would be pretty silly if I loved someone, lost them and life continued normally. I am so scared of losing the people that mean the most to me. I love them...
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    I used to much more. I felt like at anytime they would siappear and that's a self fulfilling prophecy. My codependent behavior made me do a lot to try for them to not leave ... I...
    wingeyes wingeyes 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 29

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    My best friend is the only person I have. I love her more than anything in the whole world. She just started dating our other friend, and I think I might be jealous of him. I don't...
    dickdurk dickdurk 16-17, F Oct 4

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    Let me start by introducing myself..i am a busy mom with 3 boys who after working 15 yrs in dental decided to stay home after my 2nd baby...my boys are 12 yrs, 32 mths and 13 mths...
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    I lost my father at the end of 2006, 4½ years after my mother. They had both started smoking during WWII (nobody knew about the dangers back then). Dad managed to quit but mum...
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    My friend and I used to be extremely close, but then we began to have feelings for each other. One friend told me she has a crush on me so I decided to tell her I have a crush on...
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    My best friend is a firefighter and I am beyond scared of losing him.. That EVERYTIME the pager goes off, I say a silent prayer
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    All my life I was slowly losing my mind. It was because I was tortured as a child. Then the panic attacks. The nightmares. They gave me medication and that made it worse. So...
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    I'm afraid of losing my dog. He's 5 but he will be 6 in 4 months. He's always been there with me, by my side through everything and he means the world to me. I honestly don't know...
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    My relationship that I am in right now is treated like a marriage. We had the ceremony, but none of the legality due to finance reasons. We currently have in my opinion a very big...
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    Thinking about going to the clinic today and getting birth control pills. No time for babies right now. I'd rather be safe than sorry. But I'll definitely still use condoms too...
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    I need someone to control what I eat. I'm vegetarian but want to be told what to eat every single day. I'm looking to obey someone via PM IRL long term. I want someone to tell me...
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    Here's a bit of background on me first. I'm 21 years old. Graduated with a bachelors of business degree. Have a good paying full-time salary job. Have 1 dog and have been with my...
    shugolfer shugolfer 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 15

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    Recently I started a new job. I absolutely hate being the new person and not knowing how everything is run. I know that it's normal to feel this way and that with time I'll get the...
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    I want someone to control me. I want to belong to someone. I want someone to tell me what to do. I want someone to have the right to touch me however they like. I want someone hold...
    Mia97 Mia97 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm a super shy person with a big mouth. but in the bedroom a man can only take control of me. and I like to take control of a women... I've very dominating and love when I get to...
    chinamary1 chinamary1 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    would love to control some girls that love to be controlled
    porsche928s porsche928s 26-30, M 14 hrs ago

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    Sure did and i hate it,my face breaks out now....and when i took pills my face was so clear....but to be honest i stopped taking them because they made me sick ..upset my stomach...
    amie26 amie26 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 25

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    To start things off I am currently in college working hard going to school from 9-4 every day, soon to be 9-8 every day, but I don't have a life, at least it doesn't feel like I...
    playitsafe playitsafe 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 26

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    Soo with that being said.. take control Lol
    foreverequalsinfinity foreverequalsinfinity 18-21, M Sep 28

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    TRAVIS43 like the sissy you are you blocked me and scuttled for the hills because you think you can control everyone I stood up to you and you hated it because it infuriates you...
    Missreedy Missreedy 31-35 2 Responses Oct 2

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