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I Am Losing Control

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    Run.

    Everytime I eat I can't wait until I can run to the bathroom and rid myself of the food I've just eaten. It feels so relieving to let all the fat just wash away. I personally don't understand how it's bad for my body. (I don't want a lecture of how it's going to demolish me...
    Isabellesheart Isabellesheart 18-21, F 1 Response May 12, 2009

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    I am so desperate! I lost my sleep!

    I lost my good will! I have nothing!
    WhispersOfTheDark WhispersOfTheDark 26-30, F Dec 24, 2013

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    No one take an Eye on me,

    just myself, but... Still trying to get back! (Starting from ... EP ?)
    KentVu KentVu 22-25, M Aug 12, 2014

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    At this point in my life,

    I am nothing. A shameful past haunting meaningless present destroying any chance of true future. I have nothing to do. Nights turn into days, I rarely catch the sun anymore. I lie on my back and feel the inevitable depression seeping in. I am not surprised every mind crazed...
    koorlo koorlo 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 23, 2014

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    Not Quite a Control Freak

    Now, I'm not saying I am a control freak, but I do like to have at least a little control in my life. This has always been a concern for me.  How much control.  My mom is a total and complete control freak.  So,  I've learned from her, both sides of the...
    meowmeowface meowmeowface 36-40, F Sep 27, 2007

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    I am married to my amazing husband,

    I have two kids from previous relationship but he stepped in and has been amazing father figure to them as well. I am a military wife and I thought that deployment would be the hardest thing we would have to face but I was wrong. A year ago, my husbands friend was accused of...
    Missunderstood423 Missunderstood423 26-30, F 1 Response May 3, 2014

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    Falling

    loosing control ?  REALLY ?  Did I ever have control over anything?  Regardless of whether I did or not,  I am seemingly still in a free fall,  tail spinning faster and faster  -  and when I hit  -  its gonna be hard as hell.  I...
    hartleybroken hartleybroken 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 15, 2010

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    Daddy Controls Me

    I am losing control over my entire life. I do not make my own decisions as my dad makes them for me. He decides everything for me. my body, How I dress, where I go, who I'm with, what I think. It's all controlled by him. I can't even express the thoughts I want to think sometimes...
    vampiredory vampiredory 13-15 Feb 6, 2009

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    I've Totally Lost It...

    The last couple of days have been complete hell for me.  Jordan, my best friend (or .. was), hasn't talked to me since before May.  And three of my other friends, Gabby, Kiley and Savannah .. they don't talk to me anymore either.  My whole world is falling apart...
    danosaur danosaur 16-18, F 3 Responses May 29, 2007

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    Everytime

     i  get where im  just doing real well something happens n messes  it up for me....  eventually  ill   make it  through a crisis and not get down .
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F Aug 24, 2007

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    No Control Anymore

    I have lost all control over my life. I have tried and tried and nothing has happened. I give up. Whatever happens to me, just happens. I don't even care anymore.
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 7, 2011

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    No Control Anymore

    I have lost all control over my life. I have tried and tried and nothing has happened. I give up. Whatever happens to me, just happens. I don't even care anymore.
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F Jan 7, 2011

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    We met in our sophomore year of high school. He would always try to talk to me but I was so shy that he would usually end up having a conversation with himself. I knew he liked me...
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    I'm shipping out tomorrow and I am so scared I'll be losing someone before I can get back. But it will most likely happen and I've spent so long preparing for that eventuality...
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    I feel like I'm losing my best friend. I've known her 20 years. We've been through many ups and downs. I took her in when she separated. I was there for her and she for me. Now...
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    I know I'm going down hill again. I've been drinking way too much, it's a miracle I haven't managed to kill myself. My scars are seriously adding up, I've gotten to the point where...
    PorcelainGrenade PorcelainGrenade 13-15, F Jan 19

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    So everyday as humans I guess we learn more about ourselves and even though I already knew this it did not fully hit me until today and that was with help from some friends... I...
    Gaffa1234 Gaffa1234 22-25, F Jan 21

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    I'm scared of losing my 2 awesome little dogs, one of them is kinda starting to get old. Though she is very active. The youngest one is really active and she really likes me, she...
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    I am an anxious person when it comes to relationships, whether they are familial, romantic or platonic. The closer I am to somebody, the more I fear of making mistakes. In the past...
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    brenda4696 brenda4696 18-21, F 3 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    ockthedoor ockthedoor 18-21, F Jan 2

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    When you've had enough of bed bugs, dangerous termites, pests, bugs and rats exploring your home, easily growing all types of illnesses then you know it's a chance to contact the...
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    Nope, absolutely hate it...and I rarely use the word hate. :P I don't like emotional control, mental control, physical control etc. Hate it all! I hate being boxed in. Plus I can't...
    ShakenButNotBroken ShakenButNotBroken 18-21, F Jan 17

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    Okay so I was originally going to post how I was the one who brought it up to my mom and I'm supposed to be starting this coming Sunday, but then I saw the other posts saying "I Am...
    losingNemo losingNemo 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    My sister is so controlling over me! She's worse than my mom! Today I curled my eyelashes and she freaked out and took the eyelash curler away, and hid it from me. I'm really...
    AngelinaBlog AngelinaBlog 18-21, F Jan 13

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    Even the usage of the phrase 'my life' is erroneous in this sense, I think. I have come to accept this fact on some level. There no such thing as possessing or having some...
    pretender2687 pretender2687 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 14

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    I am a girl who has a strong craving. My problem is that I can't control my body. It wants to be touched, loved, everything. I try so hard to be good, to keep my morals and body...
    kitty952 kitty952 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    And that's why I'm always paranoid. I always want to be in control and I can't stand the things I can't control in life. Screw the world. It's every man for himself :)
    tangledweb94 tangledweb94 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    I'm wanting to start birth control. I started getting my period when I was 11 and in the last year, I started bleeding heavier and getting more intense cramping when I as on my...
    candicelayla candicelayla 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    Someone send me a rp story please where I am controlled xx
    cutiemaddy cutiemaddy 13-15, F Jan 10

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    I don't know what it is, but I want to be controlled in every aspect. I want to ask permission, I want to be called dirty names. I want you to force me to exercise and mold me into...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jan 10

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    Brainyblonde Brainyblonde 66-70, F 2 Responses Jan 11

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    I don't feel as if I have control of my life in our society. I understand how everybody stays motivated.
    PuckDrop PuckDrop 18-21, M Jan 13

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    My boyfriend is the best. We've been together for 3 years now and he knows my secrets about self harm and depression. He tries his best to help me and be there for me and I really...
    Rishay Rishay 18-21, F Jan 15

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    The television... The leader of the entertainment force. --------------------- Television is not only the main start, but the biggest sign of technology. It's as well the biggest...
    HannahMarieX HannahMarieX 18-21 1 Response Jan 16

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    Oh yes! Im a BBW in need of a Black Man in control.
    lizaslut lizaslut 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 18

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    If it were all up to me and I was in control I would.............Make the media have to be honest about EVERYTHING. American "world news" would actually profile real stories from...
    AllStarcrushNate AllStarcrushNate 26-30, M 4 Responses Jan 18

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    I am a little curious...and a little nervous, but here goes anyway. Take control of my bladder, fill it up to the brim. Tell me that relief will never come, let me know that you...
    VioletXpanze VioletXpanze 26-30, T 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I have been working hard to get healthier. Not necessarily to lose weight, even though I have a lot to lose. I just want to be healthy. Well in the past month I have lost 15lbs...
    dovie6 dovie6 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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