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I Am Losing Control

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    No Control Anymore

    I have lost all control over my life. I have tried and tried and nothing has happened. I give up. Whatever happens to me, just happens. I don't even care anymore.
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F Jan 7, 2011

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    Run.

    Everytime I eat I can't wait until I can run to the bathroom and rid myself of the food I've just eaten. It feels so relieving to let all the fat just wash away. I personally don't understand how it's bad for my body. (I don't want a lecture of how it's going to demolish me...
    Isabellesheart Isabellesheart 18-21, F 1 Response May 12, 2009

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    At this point in my life,

    I am nothing. A shameful past haunting meaningless present destroying any chance of true future. I have nothing to do. Nights turn into days, I rarely catch the sun anymore. I lie on my back and feel the inevitable depression seeping in. I am not surprised every mind crazed...
    koorlo koorlo 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 23

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    No Control Anymore

    I have lost all control over my life. I have tried and tried and nothing has happened. I give up. Whatever happens to me, just happens. I don't even care anymore.
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 7, 2011

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    No one take an Eye on me,

    just myself, but... Still trying to get back! (Starting from ... EP ?)
    KentVu KentVu 22-25, M Aug 12

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    I've Totally Lost It...

    The last couple of days have been complete hell for me.  Jordan, my best friend (or .. was), hasn't talked to me since before May.  And three of my other friends, Gabby, Kiley and Savannah .. they don't talk to me anymore either.  My whole world is falling apart...
    danosaur danosaur 16-18, F 3 Responses May 29, 2007

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    Everytime

     i  get where im  just doing real well something happens n messes  it up for me....  eventually  ill   make it  through a crisis and not get down .
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F Aug 24, 2007

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    Daddy Controls Me

    I am losing control over my entire life. I do not make my own decisions as my dad makes them for me. He decides everything for me. my body, How I dress, where I go, who I'm with, what I think. It's all controlled by him. I can't even express the thoughts I want to think sometimes...
    vampiredory vampiredory 13-15 Feb 6, 2009

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    I am married to my amazing husband,

    I have two kids from previous relationship but he stepped in and has been amazing father figure to them as well. I am a military wife and I thought that deployment would be the hardest thing we would have to face but I was wrong. A year ago, my husbands friend was accused of...
    Missunderstood423 Missunderstood423 26-30, F 1 Response May 3

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    Not Quite a Control Freak

    Now, I'm not saying I am a control freak, but I do like to have at least a little control in my life. This has always been a concern for me.  How much control.  My mom is a total and complete control freak.  So,  I've learned from her, both sides of the...
    meowmeowface meowmeowface 36-40, F Sep 27, 2007

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    I am so desperate! I lost my sleep!

    I lost my good will! I have nothing!
    WhispersOfTheDark WhispersOfTheDark 26-30, F Dec 24, 2013

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    Falling

    loosing control ?  REALLY ?  Did I ever have control over anything?  Regardless of whether I did or not,  I am seemingly still in a free fall,  tail spinning faster and faster  -  and when I hit  -  its gonna be hard as hell.  I...
    hartleybroken hartleybroken 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 15, 2010

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    I've been dealing with a lot of my stuff and whatever. My roommates keep talking about me to other people, and when people come to our room and they talk about me. Whatever it may...
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    Everyone leaves because of me it has to be me doesn't it? I want things to go back to normal and start over I fear losing people but they always do anyway :(
    lela201465 lela201465 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 27

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    Ok maybe I'm being a little dramatic but I'm not really losing him he's just moving away.... I met my friend about a year and a half ago and we just clicked instantly. I must say I...
    Edzo808 Edzo808 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 1

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    Last night was the worst night of my life I didn't sleep at all and it was all my own fault you sent me a pic which was a massive thing for you and instead of just taking it and...
    Sirwithherkey Sirwithherkey 31-35, M 2 Responses Dec 7

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    i am not thnking. i am losing my mid because i cant take thus life anymore
    msworstlife msworstlife 18-21, F Dec 8

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    I have a fantasy i can't shake. I can't stop fantasizing about loss of control. More specifically, about someone literally sponsoring and controlling what I eat. As long as it's...
    need2Bcontrolled83 need2Bcontrolled83 31-35, F Nov 26

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    And I don't mind it at all. I love to be controlled and bossed around. I have a strong personality but I love being submissive, and if you don't establish clear control from the...
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    This is all new to me but I needed to talk to someone. I feel that my husband is trying to control me. I've told him how I feel and he don't see it my way. He won't allow me to...
    tiggerfan78 tiggerfan78 36-40, F Dec 8

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    I want to my bladder to be controlled. Any women interested in controlling my bladder tonight and making it hurt?
    ThereBackAgain87 ThereBackAgain87 26-30, M Nov 21

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    I am done making the decisions. I want someone to control what I eat. Whether I gain or lose weight. I want to find someone who wants to mold me...I want to give up control.
    need2Bcontrolled83 need2Bcontrolled83 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 25

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    Only for myself. I'm a 31 year old woman who wants more children someday. So I want to stay as fertile as possible. I already have a beautiful 3 year old daughter. I also can't use...
    CreoleItalianwoman CreoleItalianwoman 31-35, F 3 Responses Nov 29

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