I Am Losing Control

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 75 People

    At this point in my life,

    I am nothing. A shameful past haunting meaningless present destroying any chance of true future. I have nothing to do. Nights turn into days, I rarely catch the sun anymore. I lie on my back and feel the inevitable depression seeping in. I am not surprised every mind crazed...
    koorlo koorlo
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 23, 2014

    Daddy Controls Me

    I am losing control over my entire life. I do not make my own decisions as my dad makes them for me. He decides everything for me. my body, How I dress, where I go, who I'm with, what I think. It's all controlled by him. I can't even express the thoughts I want to think sometimes...
    vampiredory vampiredory
    13-15
    Feb 6, 2009

    I am married to my amazing husband,

    I have two kids from previous relationship but he stepped in and has been amazing father figure to them as well. I am a military wife and I thought that deployment would be the hardest thing we would have to face but I was wrong. A year ago, my husbands friend was accused of...
    Missunderstood423 Missunderstood423
    26-30, F
    1 Response May 3, 2014

    Everytime

     i  get where im  just doing real well something happens n messes  it up for me....  eventually  ill   make it  through a crisis and not get down .
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme
    26-30, F
    Aug 24, 2007

    No Control Anymore

    I have lost all control over my life. I have tried and tried and nothing has happened. I give up. Whatever happens to me, just happens. I don't even care anymore.
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit
    31-35, F
    Jan 7, 2011

    No one take an Eye on me,

    just myself, but... Still trying to get back! (Starting from ... EP ?)
    KentVu KentVu
    22-25, M
    Aug 12, 2014

    I am so desperate! I lost my sleep!

    I lost my good will! I have nothing!
    WhispersOfTheDark WhispersOfTheDark
    31-35, F
    Dec 24, 2013

    Run.

    Everytime I eat I can't wait until I can run to the bathroom and rid myself of the food I've just eaten. It feels so relieving to let all the fat just wash away. I personally don't understand how it's bad for my body. (I don't want a lecture of how it's going to demolish me...
    Isabellesheart Isabellesheart
    18-21, F
    May 12, 2009

    Falling

    loosing control ?  REALLY ?  Did I ever have control over anything?  Regardless of whether I did or not,  I am seemingly still in a free fall,  tail spinning faster and faster  -  and when I hit  -  its gonna be hard as hell.  I...
    hartleybroken hartleybroken
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 15, 2010

    Not Quite a Control Freak

    Now, I'm not saying I am a control freak, but I do like to have at least a little control in my life. This has always been a concern for me.  How much control.  My mom is a total and complete control freak.  So,  I've learned from her, both sides of the...
    meowmeowface meowmeowface
    36-40, F
    Sep 27, 2007

    I've Totally Lost It...

    The last couple of days have been complete hell for me.  Jordan, my best friend (or .. was), hasn't talked to me since before May.  And three of my other friends, Gabby, Kiley and Savannah .. they don't talk to me anymore either.  My whole world is falling apart...
    danosaur danosaur
    16-17, F
    3 Responses May 29, 2007

    No Control Anymore

    I have lost all control over my life. I have tried and tried and nothing has happened. I give up. Whatever happens to me, just happens. I don't even care anymore.
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jan 7, 2011

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