I Am Losing It

Just because you're paranoid, doesn't mean the world isn't out to get you. -_- 108 People

    Scary

    Yes, it's official. I was awake at 5 or so this morning and couldn't get back to sleep.  Usually I can muster up some kind of enthusiastic thoughts to outweigh the troublesome ones.   I did try, honestly. All I could feel was a kind of numb acceptance.  A dead weight inside...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss
    51-55, F
    9 Responses Oct 25, 2011

    I already gave up on myself

    when I lose someone. Actually, I tried to make myself disappear including everyone else around me. Why? because the end of 2013 ****** me up. I'm ok on the outside but I'm begging to hear your voice in the inside. I often tell myself that I should stand like a concrete wall...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jan 1, 2014

    Yep. I'm losing it. I was abused

    when I was younger. I have other stories on here about it, so I don't think I need to detail that again. Anyway, I've gone so long without telling my family, and it's eating me up inside. I can't decide what the right thing to do is. Selfishly, I want to. I think I could get the...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 3, 2014

    I Really Don't Know What To Do Anymore...

     I dont want to write to much now but i have suicidal thoughts a couple times a week.I know from myself that i will never actually do it ( at least i think so ) however something keeps telling me to do so.I dont want to make my parents and brother sad but to be honest those...
    Dutchguy1994 Dutchguy1994
    22-25
    Oct 5, 2013

    Hello everybody! I don't really know

    why am I writing in this public space, I guess I just want to write something down.. I am exhausted in this period. I feel like a mess. I just got my undergraduate degree, I spent the summer working and studying, I had huge fight with all of the family member and I ended up...
    raidordie raidordie
    22-25, M
    Oct 17, 2015

    Its been six years, and slowly slowly I think I

    am losing it a bit daily, I am trying to think straight and make it work but I don't know, what future holds. I think I am refusing my self from getting help by not telling anyone , sometime I think I am punishing them by not telling it because what future holds will be tragic...
    rockfordseagull rockfordseagull
    22-25, M
    Aug 15, 2014

    I've been dealing with a lot of my stuff

    and whatever. My roommates keep talking about me to other people, and when people come to our room and they talk about me. Whatever it may be, there is something. I feel like I'm losing it. Though they are suppose to be moving out next semester. I can't wait until Thanksgiving...
    languagelover1031 languagelover1031
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 18, 2014

    I was at the grocery store.

    It was packed too. Did the whole routine, veggies first bread second... But every damn time I turned the corner the same little Asian man was there, staring back at me. At first it was an amusing coincidence, thought nothing. But by the pasta aisle I'm getting a little skeptical...
    neveragoodusername neveragoodusername
    26-30, F
    1 Response May 5, 2014

    Drowning, slipping under this despair

    and I can't catch breath
    Sewmuch2do Sewmuch2do
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Mar 4, 2015

    i must really be losing my touch with woman i

    just dont think im good at flirting anymore
    mustangkid2021 mustangkid2021
    18-21, M
    Feb 7, 2015

    Resisting the urge to call

    or text you right now is a living hell temptation inside of me growing every second more and more. I don't know if I can stop it it just might get the better of me I'm hoping to stay strong. Wish me luck.
    AlliHastings AlliHastings
    26-30
    Jul 11, 2014

    Okay this may just sound weird,

    and while others want to fall in love, I want out! It's going hella fast. I thought going with the flow was the best option. Now I just don't have the guts to tell her how uncomfortable I think this relationship is going. I guess 'insecure' is the word to put it. I feel I'm not...
    NuthinbutaGthang NuthinbutaGthang
    22-25, M
    Jan 17, 2014

    With each and every day

    that passes, I am slowly drifting away from reality into my own reality that is nothing more but a dull gray sphere of spite, hate and manipulation. This is the darker path of reality, and i'm starting to get enough out of it. I start to hate more and more, I am becoming...
    Voidspirit Voidspirit
    22-25, M
    1 Response May 26, 2014

    I can feel my self slipping more

    and more everyday. I know I'm becoming this miserable person. Each day I dig my grave deeper and deeper. I am becoming overwhelmed with darkness. My heart is slowly dying a very painful death. I can feel it, I can see it, but yet I do nothing about it. I'm trapped in my own...
    justaninvisiblegirl justaninvisiblegirl
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 6, 2014
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