I Am Losing My Battle With Depression

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    So I tried committing suicide again this past Sunday. Yes, again. Attempt number one was last year in July when I slit my wrists and my boyfriend at that time came to my rescue. So this time I tried something new. Pills. Pills and alcohol. Clearly that didn't work either. I took...
    SirenThing SirenThing
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 19, 2013

    I've had depression for years,

    since I was 7. Bullies and family are the cause of it. It's such a horrible thing to experience and I'm here for anyone who is battling depression, like me. I just want someone to talk to who won't judge me and who can relate to me. Please message me if you can help...
    anonymousgirl1906 anonymousgirl1906
    16-17, F
    1 Response May 17, 2015

    I think about her every day

    and want to talk to her see people who look like her and then realize she is gone forever. It sucks to know you love someone and they will never be yours again. The more time that passes the more I miss her
    dillonwatson dillonwatson
    22-25, M
    Jun 15, 2014

    Sometimes wish i just would let it end.

    I want to let everyone to know that i love them and i do not post this because i want attention i just want you to understand how i feel. I do not be long on earth. I dont belong here. If i do die i want you to know that it is not your falt. Its the worlds. i wish i could make...
    phaselove86 phaselove86
    18-21, F
    Mar 25, 2015

    Days became weeks. Weeks became months.

    Months became years. Years became a decade. No future, no hope. Only pain. Emptiness. Don't listen to them when they tell you it's getting better. Time to go, it's all over now
    itsallovertomorrow itsallovertomorrow
    26-30, M
    Oct 10, 2015

    The World Terrifies Me

    I'm in my late 30's, and have no adult education to speak of beyond what I've taught myself. I'm not dumb or slow. I'm just terrified of people. Kind of makes school an impossibility for me. I will never have a degree in anything. And yet, I'm pretty well-read and intelligent. I...
    CeruleanSkies CeruleanSkies
    41-45, M
    Sep 15, 2013

    I have the whole week off,

    not sure if I should run away from my own apartment for a week or just sit in it alone? My mother is visiting for now she lives 4hours away not sure what to do, let her house sit while I cry my face off somewhere else
    ghetti24 ghetti24
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 16, 2014

    U know what's hard? Having to stand there

    and not cry just so that people think you're happy.. No matter how much everything hurts and your eyes go blurry.. You can't let the tears come out.. You let them out and everyone asks if you're ok.. And when that happens then you just have no control over the tears that roll...
    deleted deleted
    Jun 10, 2015

    I have been depressed

    for so long it's became second nature I have been drinking just to feel normal for the last two to three years and have lost multiple jobs do to this fact but resentful I've been thinking instead of killing myself slowly and just wishing my ****** up state of mind would go away...
    dillonwatson dillonwatson
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jun 20, 2014

    Trapped In The Past,

    Understanding my perception is skewed, does not change my frame of reference, it just makes it that much harder to recognize the elusive normal. Relating to others is difficult, not for lack of interest or trying, but for fear of learning about what else was not normal in my...
    tijcat88 tijcat88
    1 Response Mar 12, 2012
    frozenfanatic frozenfanatic
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 29, 2014

    I no longer believe in love,

    and I realize now that that has been foundational for me for my entire life- and now I feel like a false-storefront, everything looks quite alright, but suddenly I feel like I will just implode on myself like a controlled demolition. On the surface I am making mostly A's on...
    nighthouse66 nighthouse66
    36-40, F
    Apr 21, 2015

    I'm Losing The Battle

    When I think about my life I feel like I'm dying inside. I go from having a glowing soul to one that don't shine as bright. I feel I'm in a dark place & I'm just looking for some light. While I'm battling depression but I'm about to lose the fight. I'm trying to remain strong...
    Cali4fun Cali4fun
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Mar 25, 2012
    dillonwatson dillonwatson
    22-25, M
    1 Response Aug 31, 2014

    A Losing Battle

    I can't even tell you what happened or why; I just suddenly went downhill. It was slow and painful: and now I sit at the bottom of the deepest emotional pit. I don't cry, I don't hate anyone, and in a way I've accepted that one day I may cause my own death. I thank God, that he...
    FastLaneC3 FastLaneC3
    18-21, F
    29 Responses May 11, 2009

    Things Like That Don't Really Matter Anymore

    "Wake up, honey! Time to get ready for school!" I hear my mom's voice. I keep my eyes shut, not because i'm tired, but because I'm afraid that when I open them, life starts and I'm pulled from my safe place. My warm bed where I can sleep and forget about everything. I curl up...
    SirenThing SirenThing
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 7, 2012

    Less Than Nothing.

    Purgatory is seeing and knowing all the beauty of life but being unable to feel it. The facts of my life are wonderful. I have almost everything, and what I don't have doesn't bother me much. I see with perfect clarity how enviable my life is in every way. But I can't reach out...
    inimois inimois
    3 Responses Mar 29, 2012

    I wish someone would tell me it's ok to kill

    myself. I wish people would understand. I don't want to hurt anyone with my actions. But I've felt like this for so long and I don't believe it will get better. I just want someone to tell me it's ok to end things on my own terms.
    username17452 username17452
    26-30, F
    Sep 17, 2015

    I am going down. I've gone back to cutting.

    I'm breaking out in violent acts, and getting irritated even easier than before. I'm constantly fighting the urge to stick my tweezers into my vein on my arm and just let it bleed. I nearly did yesterday when my sister started yelling at me for being useless and not doing...
    Lilith29 Lilith29
    18-21, F
    Sep 7, 2015
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