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I Am Losing Myself

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    And My Miiiiind.

    i don't want to become the human robot.   you know....work work work sleep work work sleep eat work work eat sleep..   i think i'm losing myself to the bad economy and bad employment opportunities.. i want to be able to live in my life. not lose my self in it. bah...
    iveseenitall iveseenitall 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 27, 2008

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    I Am Scared

    I know I am just running away from my problems by focusing on others problems. I know I should stop running. BUT Im afraid, I dont know who I will run to anymore. I have no friends to rely on, I have siblings that gets mad and tells me "Told you so". If I talk to my mom, she'll...
    ScaredFlower ScaredFlower 16-17, F 1 Response May 16, 2013

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    Losing Myself But I Cant Understand Why

    well everything has been going great so far im in college taking culinary courses to obtain a degree and recently i found out the my sister was coming home after doing 7+ years in prison and i was excited. At the same time i was awaiting my results from a test i took and i...
    Bluebirdilllusion Bluebirdilllusion 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 2, 2010

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    And...

    i think i'm losing it... all of it... my best friend... my family... my studies... and now...i will lose my life.... i wish i never existed in the first place...i really do... that way, no one would get mad at me cos i never existed in the first place!!!
    stawribi stawribi 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 8, 2007

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    I don't know where to start,

    in my 36 years of existence my life has been complicated ever since. I have an unusual family to start, I have an adopted older sister which had been dear to me, like me she still wondering about her biological family which we don't have any whereabouts wondering about a...
    jopet jopet 31-35, M Apr 4

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    I Don'T Know What To Do Anymore

    I feel abandoned. Abandoned by my love, abandoned by God, my friends, my family. I'm in a time of need but no one can hear me crying. When it's 3 in the morning, I can turn to no one. When I'm bawling, when I'm cutting, when I'm eating myself alive from the inside out, there is...
    DancingWithFire DancingWithFire 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 3, 2013

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    It's Been Months… And Still No Change.

    . I Still Love Her.. I Still Want To Be With Her.. I Don't Feel Age Plays A Part In This Situation.. I Feel That It's Just The Fact That I've Never Opened Up And Been So Vulnerable For Anyone And She Comes Along And Breaks Down Every Barrier.. Every Wall.. Every Guard That I've...
    HopelessLoveHer HopelessLoveHer 18-21, F Mar 20

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    Today as I woke up, I started thinking.

    "Who am I" I thought it was something simple to think of. I realize now that it isn't. I really don't know who I am anymore. I know I don't have anyone and basically get anything I want, but I can't see myself. I can't see what I was and what I will become. Things are...
    Aoberry Aoberry 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    You Cant Fix Whats Not Broken.

    I was good student, i excelled at literature and math. I was also pretty good at sculting people out of varrious clays. But above all, i was a musician. I was ranked third in my entire state for playing ability in a competition of 7-12th grade at only 13 years old. Everything...
    everyboby everyboby 18-21 1 Response Sep 12, 2013

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    So Much Loss...so Much To Live For..

    I have felt for a very long time that I have one foot in this world and another in some other world. My dreams have many layers and I am usually anxious when I wake up in the morning.I was abused as a child in a variety of ways, emotionally and physically. Nonetheless, I grew up...
    masharose masharose 51-55, F 1 Response Jan 22, 2012

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    You actually had me reconsidering everything

    again I feel i need something like you But i know i must be wrong. How can he be a part of my life while still holding everything else i believe and need You tempt and tease me so Do you know what you do at all? Sometimes i just need a parent again because im a lost child...
    Saddiie Saddiie 46-50, F 2 Responses Oct 29

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    Every time I try to think,

    I come up blank. My life before my 14th birthday is practically nonexistent. My life before my 15th birthday is getting blurrier and blurrier. I'm losing memories that I'm sure I used to have. Birthdays and christenings are turning hazy, and the clear memories I do have are all...
    ThePowerOfThree ThePowerOfThree 16-17, F Dec 25, 2013

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    Alone By Choice

    I keep thinking that the old me was better. She knew how to have fun, she knew how to be happy. She could walk around and just live. While I hide behind anger and fake smiles. I pretend to make other people's worlds alright even though I can't make my own right. I think I finally...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 18, 2013

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    My Youth Leader Walked In On Me.

    .. probably a couple months ago now. My parents went out of state for a wedding, so I was left at home for a week with my remaining sibling, Andrew, an 8 year old stud who can cook better than 3/4 of the kids at my school. Friday night Andrew went to his friends house, so I broke...
    TryingFailing TryingFailing 16-17, M Mar 7

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    Forgetting Who I Really Am

    I was always knew exactly who i was.I always thought of my self of being very strong and independent. About 6 months ago i would of sworn i found the love of my life. As me and him grew closer i started changing things about myself because he didnt like certain things about me...
    wonderwall12 wonderwall12 16-17, F 111 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    I Want To Let Go

    I want to give back the life the lord gave me. I know giving it back means leaving everything or everyone. But i am losing my mind, I have started isolating others i didn't even notice. Its getting harder for me to smile, and pretend like nothing is wrong. I am so tired. I have...
    ScaredFlower ScaredFlower 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 19, 2012

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    I Am Mentally Broken

    I do not know what is wrong anymore. I tend to forget things,names,dates, if they aren't that important That's fine. But now I have been having a hard time sleeping. I have been vomiting the food I have digested. I have been starting to hate my self more. I am getting confused...
    ScaredFlower ScaredFlower 16-17, F Nov 16, 2012

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    MrFoe MrFoe 13-15, M Aug 17

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    I Don't Know Anymore...

    I don't know where I belong - I've never really known. Sometimes I feel like I am where I should be, but other times I just hate everyone around me. I don't know what I want in life - I study hard enough, I am good at what I do, but I'm not the best. Sometimes I feel I'm trying...
    chibidoll chibidoll 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 3, 2012

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    I'm in a relationship

    and want out but afraid the other guy will be better of than me cause he's younger, and more of a hustler type , should I stay and pay the way or let go and find someone else , I have a lot to offer someone , but scared to be alone feel like I lost the person I was and became...
    builtstud builtstud 46-50, M 2 Responses May 1

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    My Dad Is Killing Me Slowly And Painfuly Every Day, Losing Hope In This Life And Is Seeing Death As The Only Way To Rest

    am in the lowest point of my life right now, my story begin when i was small life was perfect mom dad house and everythin great then mom me and my brother moved back to our country to finshe our study by our own lng as my dad works in another country we moved back as he said will...
    112010as 112010as 18-21 2 Responses Sep 15, 2011

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    I want to die but I want to survive,

    I feel like I'm in a dark room sitting in the corner and theirs barley any light I'm swallowing myself up whole and I'm scared the thought of suicide comes more often though out the day. Everything won't stop it's all passing by me when I go somewhere it feels like I'm not even...
    Otakuforlife Otakuforlife 16-17, F Jan 25

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    I feel like disappearing.

    Going to find a dive bar. A sad sad dive bar.
    tarkovsky tarkovsky 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 17

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    Slowly but surely I am changing.

    I live alone,far away from parents,friends,surrounded with people who talk of work all day.Parents and friends are just voices over telephone.I consume my anger,i feed it to myself.I share my hapiness with me.I consume the happiness too..the sadness too...Slowly I am starting to...
    heartPour heartPour 26-30 Dec 28, 2013

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    Im On The Edge Of Giving Away My Last Bit Of Light

    I used to be a christain, not "holier than thou" but not a jerk that went around saying he was one yet being an ***, but i became agnostic a few months ago and ive finnaly gotten comfortable with the idea but i promised myself that id be different then most of the other "godless...
    Ziox Ziox 18-21, M 1 Response May 27, 2010

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    I'm slowly fading away into the dark thoughts

    of my mind. I have not been myself recently.
    MusicJunkie6794 MusicJunkie6794 18-21, M Sep 24

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    Don'T Know Anymore

    I don't even think I know who I am what I'm doing here I've totally lost myself in the sense that I feel non exsisting I. This world I feel I've detached somehow quite rapidly beyond my control and I feel regretful at this stage I could not get a hold of it earlier when I noticed...
    Dolniceanu Dolniceanu 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 25, 2013

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    Is it possible to be

    so happy, then suddenly fall out of love with your partner for no reason???
    sharz16 sharz16 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 21

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    You Used Me

    You claimed I was your "perfect girl", and even though I disagreed to furthering our relationship, we remained best friends for months. You never stopped flirting with me and it was weird, but I let it slide. Then I found out you used me. You told me in public, and asked for...
    ghayebgirl ghayebgirl 18-21 2 Responses Apr 23, 2013

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    Everyday I Struggle to Stay Sane.

    everyday is a struggle for me to stay sane, being a single mum certainly doenst help things, in fact is probably the course of it all, i dont get time for me, everyday is a struggle, and i just have to get on with it. i have no company, no freinds to speak of, simply because non...
    lushandlippy lushandlippy 18-21, F 1 Response May 6, 2008

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    I've lost sight of potential.

    Potential in myself, potential in others, and potential in my ideals. I feel like I have rationalized everything up to this point. Rationalizing that the world "Is just the way it is" or that a close friend is "set in there ways" or "are who they are". I've drifted from my...
    xlux xlux 26-30, M Jul 11

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    I Am Messier Than Ever

    I am so tired of faking smiles and laughter I want to express myself, but I dont know where. I cant cry at home, I cant cry at school. I dont know where to run to anymore. I am so confused and so lost Before my aunt talked to me and wants me to move to another country. I refused...
    ScaredFlower ScaredFlower 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 5, 2013

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    Losing Hope

    I woke up this morning and for some reason all of my hope was gone. I realized that no matter how much I make plans and delude myself that things will change, they most likely never will. I'll continue to live in this shithole town, work some meaningless job, never further my...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 4 Responses Oct 27, 2009

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    I feel as if I'm losing everything I know how

    to be. I've lost all my motivation and feel like I'm just clinging onto a memory of who I used to be. I'm all alone and feel as if I'm being looked at like I'm not even human, just some unwanted mutt that's only a burden. I really don't know what to do. I see myself failing...
    Zestyginge Zestyginge 18-21, M 2 Responses May 6

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    Here I am. 21, mother of two.

    I love my children. I love being a mother. Its what I've always wanted. But I'm also raising my fiances 2 and four year old. Along with my newborn and 2 year old. I only get to leave the house once a week to go grocery shopping. The rest of the week I sit here staring at these...
    katyhad katyhad 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 23

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    I'm restless, every night is getting longer,

    it's getting harder for me to fall asleep. I feel unnaturally heavy when I try to sleep or wake up, not physically heavy, but as if a giant weight has been tied to me waist, keeping me feeling stuck. Most days I have my thoughts and myself under control, I would think. I go...
    cassie000 cassie000 22-25, F Feb 28

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    ...people came into your life

    for a reason , a season or a lifetime. When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do....
    gracey23 gracey23 31-35, F 1 Response Jun 13

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    Good-for-nothing

    First of all I'm sorry if I make some grammar mistake but I'm Italian, so.. I've always been good at school, and I also graduate with honors, and even if my private life always sucked I really didn't care much. Then I choose to study mathematics and the first year was good, I...
    moonsoul7 moonsoul7 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 30, 2012

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    What's lost can be found.

    You just have to force yourself sometimes to keep looking. Even though it seems everything is crumble before you doesn't mean it's the end. I was in the same position. Once you hit rock bottom, the way is to climb up. GOD heals the broken and honestly he healed me. I was super...
    sashakimi4 sashakimi4 13-15, F Jun 11

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    Lost Faith In Lov ,Fndship ,Trust ....

    dont knw how to express the feeling that is stuff deep inside me.dont knw whether ma post is going to be notice by you people or anyone is going to help me out it.i have to help myself with it. but it is necessary just to puke all the stuff inside me..people r leaving me or i m...
    variayash variayash 22-25 1 Response Apr 15, 2013

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    I've never known who I really am

    and lately I've been questioning myself about that, the deal is that I am the only one who can answers to those questions but I don't know how... I'm feeling not good enough but people around me say that I am "amazing" but I don't know why I can't trust in what they are saying.
    Fernweh0215 Fernweh0215 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 30

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    Fooled By My Girlfriend

    It funny when people take things for granted like someone else feeling, in the past 3yrs I have enjoyed a close relationship with Eva and everything was fine without mentioning hecupps here and there. Things are know on the argliest side, my working collegue is cheating on me...
    johnmo45 johnmo45 26-30 1 Response Apr 21, 2011

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    Everyday I wake up, I can sense

    that I am drifting farther away. The world slowly devolves from the bright happy place it used to be, to a grey mass of nothingness. I've wandered too far from the path and into the woods surrounding. The trees now block my way and the fog engulfs me so that I cannot see. My...
    LoneDragon99 LoneDragon99 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    Its not a bad thing really.

    As long as you focus in improving yourself. A few positive changes go along way !
    Mi5h Mi5h 16-17, F Jul 17

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    College Is Making Me Lose Myself

    I thought going to college would be a great experience for me, a fresh start. I'd get to know people from all over the world, learn about different perspectives on things, live alongside others who were going through the same thing as me, and make close lifelong friends. My first...
    ghayebgirl ghayebgirl 18-21 3 Responses Jan 3, 2012

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    Can Anyone Help Me?

    Generally, I'm a happy person. There's not a day I can't smile. But lately I've been feeling so fake--like the smile on my face is there from pure habit. I don't like making people worry about me. My friends look up to me and depend on me for a lot of things. I...
    elizabethhhhh elizabethhhhh 16-17 4 Responses Sep 30, 2008

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    I feel depressed. i am losing hope.

    .. I have good job and good promising sales and marketing career but i feel indifferent. i am gaining weight! i am so good at what i do though i don't like it that much. i find myself always hitting the search by the suicide pictures. i want to talk about it but i just feel...
    Spermatozoa Spermatozoa 22-25, M Mar 15

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    I Feel Like I'm Sacrificing Myself If I Let Husband & Stepson Come Back Home.

    I've been with my husband for 7 yrs.  We've known each other for more than 18 yrs.  We have a 6y/o son & a 4 y/o daughter together.  He also has a 10-1/2 y/o son thru a previous relationship.  To say that our blended family life has been difficult is an...
    scapegoatprophecy scapegoatprophecy 31-35 1 Response Dec 18, 2009

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    If your brave enough to say goodbye, life will reward you with a new hello!! Don't be afraid of losing what was never yours to begin with!!
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