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I Am Losing Myself

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    Is it possible to be

    so happy, then suddenly fall out of love with your partner for no reason???
    sharz16 sharz16 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 21, 2014

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    When you say, "I can't"

    and expect the worst, you become weak and unhappy." "When you say "I can", and expect success, you fill yourself with confidence and happiness." "Reading a few positive thinking quotes before going to sleep at night, and first thing in the morning, will gradually change your...
    ApacheKuruk ApacheKuruk 46-50, M 1 Response Apr 20

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    Can Anyone Help Me?

    Generally, I'm a happy person. There's not a day I can't smile. But lately I've been feeling so fake--like the smile on my face is there from pure habit. I don't like making people worry about me. My friends look up to me and depend on me for a lot of things. I...
    elizabethhhhh elizabethhhhh 16-17 4 Responses Sep 30, 2008

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    Everyday I wake up, I can sense

    that I am drifting farther away. The world slowly devolves from the bright happy place it used to be, to a grey mass of nothingness. I've wandered too far from the path and into the woods surrounding. The trees now block my way and the fog engulfs me so that I cannot see. My...
    LoneDragon99 LoneDragon99 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 28, 2014

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    I've been getting high

    for 3 straight days. Just so I can forget about everything for a while... Sit there, still in agony, yet I can't feel it. But at the same time I feel everything. The memories. The heartbreak. The pain. All of it. I feel it... But for once I don't need to cry about it. I don't...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 8

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    Everyday I Struggle to Stay Sane.

    everyday is a struggle for me to stay sane, being a single mum certainly doenst help things, in fact is probably the course of it all, i dont get time for me, everyday is a struggle, and i just have to get on with it. i have no company, no freinds to speak of, simply because non...
    lushandlippy lushandlippy 18-21, F 1 Response May 6, 2008

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    It's Been Months… And Still No Change.

    . I Still Love Her.. I Still Want To Be With Her.. I Don't Feel Age Plays A Part In This Situation.. I Feel That It's Just The Fact That I've Never Opened Up And Been So Vulnerable For Anyone And She Comes Along And Breaks Down Every Barrier.. Every Wall.. Every Guard That I've...
    HopelessLoveHer HopelessLoveHer 18-21, F Mar 20, 2014

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    And...

    i think i'm losing it... all of it... my best friend... my family... my studies... and now...i will lose my life.... i wish i never existed in the first place...i really do... that way, no one would get mad at me cos i never existed in the first place!!!
    stawribi stawribi 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 8, 2007

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    Losing Myself But I Cant Understand Why

    well everything has been going great so far im in college taking culinary courses to obtain a degree and recently i found out the my sister was coming home after doing 7+ years in prison and i was excited. At the same time i was awaiting my results from a test i took and i...
    Bluebirdilllusion Bluebirdilllusion 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 2, 2010

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    I Feel Like I'm Sacrificing Myself If I Let Husband & Stepson Come Back Home.

    I've been with my husband for 7 yrs.  We've known each other for more than 18 yrs.  We have a 6y/o son & a 4 y/o daughter together.  He also has a 10-1/2 y/o son thru a previous relationship.  To say that our blended family life has been difficult is an...
    scapegoatprophecy scapegoatprophecy 31-35 1 Response Dec 18, 2009

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    Here I am. 21, mother of two.

    I love my children. I love being a mother. Its what I've always wanted. But I'm also raising my fiances 2 and four year old. Along with my newborn and 2 year old. I only get to leave the house once a week to go grocery shopping. The rest of the week I sit here staring at these...
    katyhad katyhad 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 23, 2014

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    I've lost sight of potential.

    Potential in myself, potential in others, and potential in my ideals. I feel like I have rationalized everything up to this point. Rationalizing that the world "Is just the way it is" or that a close friend is "set in there ways" or "are who they are". I've drifted from my...
    xlux xlux 26-30, M Jul 11, 2014

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    How can I be so ****** up

    that I fear happiness... I fear that one day I'll be happy... How the **** does that even make sense?!?!
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 4

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    yesterday my band teacher,

    fagner, was trying to get us to pit more emotion into our music. ive gotten to where i don't show anything anymore. he then went on to say that bad things will happen to us in our lives, and we should find a release for it, otherwise we'll be self destructive, or worse. well...
    zydeko zydeko 18-21 Mar 5

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    Smoking. Drinking. I've been asked by some

    friends if I wanted to do Acid and Shrooms with them... Sad part is I said that I might... This is not at all who I wanted to be... But here we go... You only live once. It's too short to not experiment. Let's hope it takes my life early.
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 3 Responses May 13

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    I feel like disappearing.

    Going to find a dive bar. A sad sad dive bar.
    AndreiTarkovsky AndreiTarkovsky 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 17, 2014

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    I don't know where to start,

    in my 36 years of existence my life has been complicated ever since. I have an unusual family to start, I have an adopted older sister which had been dear to me, like me she still wondering about her biological family which we don't have any whereabouts wondering about a...
    jopet jopet 31-35, M Apr 4, 2014

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    Forgetting Who I Really Am

    I was always knew exactly who i was.I always thought of my self of being very strong and independent. About 6 months ago i would of sworn i found the love of my life. As me and him grew closer i started changing things about myself because he didnt like certain things about me...
    wonderwall12 wonderwall12 16-17, F 111 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    I am not okay. I don't know

    where to go or how to see all of my flaws. I see them and then lose sight and in return continue to repeatedly make the same mistakes over and over. I need to find the control.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 14

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    Losing Hope

    I woke up this morning and for some reason all of my hope was gone. I realized that no matter how much I make plans and delude myself that things will change, they most likely never will. I'll continue to live in this shithole town, work some meaningless job, never further my...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 4 Responses Oct 27, 2009

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    I'm in a relationship

    and want out but afraid the other guy will be better of than me cause he's younger, and more of a hustler type , should I stay and pay the way or let go and find someone else , I have a lot to offer someone , but scared to be alone feel like I lost the person I was and became...
    builtstud builtstud 46-50, M 2 Responses May 1, 2014

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    My Dad Is Killing Me Slowly And Painfuly Every Day, Losing Hope In This Life And Is Seeing Death As The Only Way To Rest

    am in the lowest point of my life right now, my story begin when i was small life was perfect mom dad house and everythin great then mom me and my brother moved back to our country to finshe our study by our own lng as my dad works in another country we moved back as he said will...
    112010as 112010as 18-21 2 Responses Sep 15, 2011

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    It's been an week I'm going crazy,

    my gf is ready to leave me,as her family is about to reject the proposal for marriage which my parent sent........reason for it is love marriage with ruin the status in community and respect will go down,she say to be ready what the outcome may be.....she is ready to except what...
    vegeta420 vegeta420 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 9

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    Good-for-nothing

    First of all I'm sorry if I make some grammar mistake but I'm Italian, so.. I've always been good at school, and I also graduate with honors, and even if my private life always sucked I really didn't care much. Then I choose to study mathematics and the first year was good, I...
    moonsoul7 moonsoul7 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 30, 2012

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    ...people came into your life

    for a reason , a season or a lifetime. When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do....
    gracey23 gracey23 36-40, F 1 Response Jun 13, 2014

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    Today as I woke up, I started thinking.

    "Who am I" I thought it was something simple to think of. I realize now that it isn't. I really don't know who I am anymore. I know I don't have anyone and basically get anything I want, but I can't see myself. I can't see what I was and what I will become. Things are...
    Aoiberry Aoiberry 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    Im On The Edge Of Giving Away My Last Bit Of Light

    I used to be a christain, not "holier than thou" but not a jerk that went around saying he was one yet being an ***, but i became agnostic a few months ago and ive finnaly gotten comfortable with the idea but i promised myself that id be different then most of the other "godless...
    Ziox Ziox 18-21, M 1 Response May 27, 2010

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    There's ghosts in my bedroom,

    watching me as I fall asleep. They're standing over me as I dream, I can't move, can barely scream...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Mar 17

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    College Is Making Me Lose Myself

    I thought going to college would be a great experience for me, a fresh start. I'd get to know people from all over the world, learn about different perspectives on things, live alongside others who were going through the same thing as me, and make close lifelong friends. My first...
    ghayebgirl ghayebgirl 18-21 3 Responses Jan 3, 2012

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    I am showing signs of schizophrenia.

    .. I never wanted to believe it... I see things that aren't there... There's voices in my head... I feel sensations on my skin as if there were bugs crawling on me. But there's not. Sometimes it feels like someone is putting their hand on me... I feel like I'm losing myself...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 22

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    You actually had me reconsidering everything

    again I feel i need something like you But i know i must be wrong. How can he be a part of my life while still holding everything else i believe and need You tempt and tease me so Do you know what you do at all? Sometimes i just need a parent again because im a lost child...
    Saddiie Saddiie 46-50, F 2 Responses Oct 29, 2014

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    And My Miiiiind.

    i don't want to become the human robot.   you know....work work work sleep work work sleep eat work work eat sleep..   i think i'm losing myself to the bad economy and bad employment opportunities.. i want to be able to live in my life. not lose my self in it. bah...
    iveseenitall iveseenitall 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 27, 2008

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    How come the thought of being unhealthy makes me

    so happy? Eating disorder. Self harm. Smoking? Why does it all make me "happy" God I'm so ****** up...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 11

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    Fooled By My Girlfriend

    It funny when people take things for granted like someone else feeling, in the past 3yrs I have enjoyed a close relationship with Eva and everything was fine without mentioning hecupps here and there. Things are know on the argliest side, my working collegue is cheating on me...
    johnmo45 johnmo45 26-30 1 Response Apr 21, 2011

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    I've never known who I really am

    and lately I've been questioning myself about that, the deal is that I am the only one who can answers to those questions but I don't know how... I'm feeling not good enough but people around me say that I am "amazing" but I don't know why I can't trust in what they are saying.
    Fernweh0215 Fernweh0215 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 30, 2014

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 17, 2014

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    I'm slowly fading away into the dark thoughts

    of my mind. I have not been myself recently.
    LifeIsShitLetsEndIt LifeIsShitLetsEndIt 18-21, M Sep 24, 2014

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    Gonna go home and get drunk by myself.

    These voices are getting to be too much for me today!!! :(
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 19

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    Before I cross my heart

    and hope to die at all Take off my mask and leave the lies to the liars Before I close my eyes I'm gonna give it up Take off my mask and leave the lies to the liars
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Apr 26

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    I don't even know who I am anymore.

    I feel like I'm drowning in a sea of what everyone wants me to be. I'm sick of it.
    DayDreamingDragon DayDreamingDragon 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 9

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    I feel as if I'm losing everything I know how

    to be. I've lost all my motivation and feel like I'm just clinging onto a memory of who I used to be. I'm all alone and feel as if I'm being looked at like I'm not even human, just some unwanted mutt that's only a burden. I really don't know what to do. I see myself failing...
    Zestyginge Zestyginge 18-21, M 2 Responses May 6, 2014

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    What's lost can be found.

    You just have to force yourself sometimes to keep looking. Even though it seems everything is crumble before you doesn't mean it's the end. I was in the same position. Once you hit rock bottom, the way is to climb up. GOD heals the broken and honestly he healed me. I was super...
    sashakimi4 sashakimi4 16-17, F Jun 11, 2014

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    grommit3 grommit3 36-40, F 8 Responses Apr 20

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    Its not a bad thing really.

    As long as you focus in improving yourself. A few positive changes go along way !
    Mi5h Mi5h 18-21, F Jul 17, 2014

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