I Am Losing Myself

i think i'm losing it...

all of it...

my best friend...

my family...

my studies...

and now...i will lose my life....

i wish i never existed in the first place...i really do...

that way, no one would get mad at...

everyday is a struggle for me to stay sane, being a single mum certainly doenst help things, in fact is probably the course of it all, i dont get time for me, everyday is a struggle, and i just have to get on with it.
i have no company...

I use to feel like I had something to live for, something to prove to everyone but now I don't even feel human anymore I don't even know what to call myself. It all started when my mother passed I was depressed, I am over coming that...

I want to give back the life the lord gave me.
I know giving it back means leaving everything or everyone.
But i am losing my mind, I have started isolating others i didn't even notice.
Its getting harder for me to smile, and pretend...

I've been with my husband for 7 yrs.  We've known each other for more than 18 yrs.  We have a 6y/o son & a 4 y/o daughter together.  He also has a 10-1/2 y/o son thru a previous relationship.  To say that our...

I woke up this morning and for some reason all of my hope was gone. I realized that no matter how much I make plans and delude myself that things will change, they most likely never will. I'll continue to live in this shithole town...

I am so tired of faking smiles and laughter
I want to express myself, but I dont know where.
I cant cry at home, I cant cry at school.
I dont know where to run to anymore.
I am so confused and so lost
Before my aunt talked to me and...

You claimed I was your "perfect girl", and even though I disagreed to furthering our relationship, we remained best friends for months. You never stopped flirting with me and it was weird, but I let it slide.

Then I found out you used...

dont knw how to express the feeling that is stuff deep inside me.dont knw whether ma post is going to be notice by you people or anyone is going to help me out it.i have to help myself with it. but it is necessary just to puke all the...

I don't know where I belong - I've never really known. Sometimes I feel like I am where I should be, but other times I just hate everyone around me.
I don't know what I want in life - I study hard enough, I am good at what I do, but I'm...

First of all I'm sorry if I make some grammar mistake but I'm Italian, so..
I've always been good at school, and I also graduate with honors, and even if my private life always sucked I really didn't care much.
Then I choose to study...

I know I am just running away from my problems
by focusing on others problems. I know I should stop running.
BUT Im afraid, I dont know who I will run to anymore.
I have no friends to rely on, I have siblings that gets mad and tells me...

I feel abandoned. Abandoned by my love, abandoned by God, my friends, my family. I'm in a time of need but no one can hear me crying. When it's 3 in the morning, I can turn to no one. When I'm bawling, when I'm cutting, when I'm eating...

I thought going to college would be a great experience for me, a fresh start. I'd get to know people from all over the world, learn about different perspectives on things, live alongside others who were going through the same thing as...

I do not know what is wrong anymore.
I tend to forget things,names,dates, if they aren't that important
That's fine.
But now I have been having a hard time sleeping.
I have been vomiting the food I have digested.
I have been starting to...

I keep thinking that the old me was better. She knew how to have fun, she knew how to be happy. She could walk around and just live. While I hide behind anger and fake smiles. I pretend to make other people's worlds alright even though...

i don't want to become the human robot.
 
you know....work work work sleep work work sleep eat work work eat sleep..
 
i think i'm losing myself to the bad economy and bad employment opportunities..
i want to be able to...

well everything has been going great so far im in college taking culinary courses to obtain a degree and recently i found out the my sister was coming home after doing 7+ years in prison and i was excited. At the same time i was...

It funny when people take things for granted like someone else feeling, in the past 3yrs I have enjoyed a close relationship with Eva and everything was fine without mentioning hecupps here and there. Things are know on the argliest...

Generally, I'm a happy person. There's not a day I can't smile. But lately I've been feeling so fake--like the smile on my face is there from pure habit. I don't like making people worry about me. My friends look up to me and...