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I Am Lost and Cannot Find My Center

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 142 People

    I Want To Be Alone

    I have a feeling that I hate most people, because I think they are cruel and mean and they want to hurt me. I am so nervous around people, but I hide behind a mask of a strong and condident person. But, inside me, there is a broken and scared child, who is looking for care, love...
    BigChild BigChild 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 17, 2011

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    Struggle Within

    The beast within me is asleep once again.  How long will it stay that way?  How much longer can I keep him at bay?    I try not to feed this beast with my hate. I will not sate its thirst with alcohol.  The beast fears no man, and at times like this, I...
    wikkedirish wikkedirish 31-35, M 5 Responses Aug 17, 2008

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    Help! I Cant Find Myself

    The title says it all. Im lost and i try to find myself ive done yoga meditation and just tried to think of things i like and when i think i find myself i lose it and sometimes it was never me. Maybe me is jus messed up but i was me when i was young i lost her when i was about 5...
    desertedangel desertedangel 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 15, 2009

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    I wish I had all the answers to understand

    why I feel so depressed and lost. I tried denying to myself that I'm not depressed which only left me feeling worse, instead off accepting my feelings and dealing with them has had far worse repurcasions. People don't want to hear if you tell them you are depressed, this has...
    Jay04Sch Jay04Sch 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 8, 2014

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    Stumbling In The Dark

    I have never had a perfect marriage, but thought we would be together till the end. I foolishly engulfed myself in my husband, our sons and our business. Two years ago I noticed a huge change in my husband. Now he tells me he wants out. I am realing from this, as I have stood...
    katlady66 katlady66 46-50, F 2 Responses Nov 2, 2010

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    Since long I am travelling tired

    and weary through the paths of darkness I urge you show me the light. In my eyes are only visions of dreadful dark nights I plea to you blossom in them golden lights as vibrant flowers smiles bathing in morning dew. With your graceful uplifting words help me erase my fearful...
    winterfall winterfall 36-40 Mar 8, 2014

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    Out of Balance

    There is just something wrong.  I have no focus and it has taken me a lot of reflection to see that.  My moods are so far to the left or to the right.  Well, if the “left” is sadness and the “right” is hostility, then I must retract that...
    wikkedirish wikkedirish 31-35, M 4 Responses Aug 14, 2008

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    MPD With No Host

    I feel I do not have a real me or center person.  I have DID of MPD, but I have come to the conclusion we are all alters and maybe the host is dormant or simply quite exsiting when I was very young.  We all share the same memories but have always made group descions on...
    allofus allofus 46-50, M Apr 28, 2009

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    We all have. I liked to think as each and every person that I'd lost in my life as a 'purposeful' loss - one that had meaning, one that was determined by fate and had pushed me...
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    Like many others in Alberta, I was let go from my job back in May. I had hope at first, after all I have 5+ years experience in my field (HR), a degree, a certificate and am...
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    Today I read stories from women of all ages who are suffering from grief because of abortion. Some had been suffering for months, others for decades. My heart truly went out to...
    Bibiana554 Bibiana554 56-60, F 3 days ago

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    It doesn't matter if they have fur, feathers or scales. These creatures with their o so short lifespans find their way into our hearts and we cherish them as we cherish our...
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    I have always been the center of attention and mostly not in a good way. If someone would be nice it would mean the world to me. Text me at 562-719-6375 for a loyal friend.
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    I never knew what it felt like til I lost my precious baby almost a year ago. It still hurts me today. Time doesn't heal all. A parent should NEVER have to bury a child. I find...
    Photogirl685 Photogirl685 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    Shortly after the bomb site in west Baghdad had been cleared, Karim Wasfi, a former director for the Iraqi National Symphony Orchestra, stepped into the blast center with his cello...
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    Although I never fully admitted to my parents about being gay, I recently told them admitted that I cannot perform with women (since they continuously ask why I am not married or...
    GoodLookingArabMale GoodLookingArabMale 31-35, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Like how today I feel it's all just so unfair. That you will get to move on and start a whole new life and I will be picking up the pieces of a broken family. How I'm going to be...
    sp7799 sp7799 36-40, F 10 Responses 6 days ago

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      My name is Bob. I am 45 and i'm sad. There is a reason for it and once i tell you, i'm guessing you will either laugh at me or feel pity for me. I have held this in too...
    zerobitRaD zerobitRaD 41-45, M a week ago

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    You cannot become who you need to be by remaining who you are. Keep finding yourself you awesome and beautiful creature.
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 18-21, F a week ago

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    The last few days I've been letting self-doubt creep in. I got a "No" the other day which caused me to spend the rest of it and some of the next in "Pity Party" mode. Then I let...
    MyKidsAreMyWorld MyKidsAreMyWorld 36-40, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    I keep most all money whenever I find it . I have found way over £1. ooo in all . I find money in the street all the time. I have twice found £40 on two separate occasions .once...
    peterstephen7 peterstephen7 36-40, M a week ago

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    My brother Jake had died at the age of 22 3 months ago. He was found dead in his room from one of his coworkers who called the cops. My dad had shown up to my work and told me i...
    Justdyl28 Justdyl28 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 27

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    I want a happy life where I see everyone as a person I can trust, but through my experiences I have seen that no one can be trusted but yourself, my mind is corrupted. I want to...
    Patrikc Patrikc 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 27

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    I searched through experiences and I think this makes the most sense to me though my parents are alive. My mom and dad did horrific things to me and I can't express the suffering...
    honestlyanonymouslyme honestlyanonymouslyme 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 24

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    Like a dog chasing his tail, but without the comedic effect. Proving once again the wisdom of Einstein's adage about the definition of insanity, I continue my spiral. Orbiting...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer 46-50, M Aug 24

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    The Glass He sits alone watching the passing parade Couples walking hand in hand Husbands, wives, fathers, mothers Boyfriends, girlfriends Love and affection seem to be everywhere...
    Cherridarling Cherridarling 56-60, M Aug 24

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    You are more lost than found. This is because you are not meant to be in control of yourself. Your Goddess offers you the chance to find your true self. Give your Goddess the...
    TheGoddesstoAll TheGoddesstoAll 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    Finding out you have a disease that has no cure and is very painful. And developing a low self esteem from it is extremely rough on me right now.
    pandapirate20 pandapirate20 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 23

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    From time to time he was asked; 'So, what are you looking for in an ideal woman?' Whether this was just a casual ice breaker, or something that the questioner had the genuine...
    Bramwellbooth Bramwellbooth 46-50, M 6 Responses Aug 23

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    I've been in college for 5 years. I've been in and out of different career paths along the way and last year, I told myself I would go to a university and just do what I felt would...
    breezeee12 breezeee12 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    Since my divorce, I have been feeling lost...I am trying to move on and find peace. He didn't leave me, I left him. I thought I found peace by meeting 2 great guys, but when it...
    14nolookingback 14nolookingback 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 22

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    today I think I made the biggest mistake of my life apologizing to my older brother. about 3months ago I was applying for a scholarship to fund my tuition and needed a reference...
    ALifeInterupted ALifeInterupted 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 22

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    So I am 5 months pregnant and have left the father, my off and on boyfriend of 3 years, because he has an anger problem yet blames it on everyone else and refuses to accept...
    1luckynebula 1luckynebula 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 21

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    If I only wanted things that money could buy, I would be perfectly content with life. Instead I want true love from a woman I have never met. You cannot buy love, you cannot pay...
    stewartgreen stewartgreen 18-21, M Aug 21

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    I found this poem on the internet and could not find an author, but I loved it and am sharing it. It seems people come and people go here on EP for me. I'm realizing it is...
    ImKeepinItReal ImKeepinItReal 41-45, F 1 Response Aug 20

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