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I Am Lost and Cannot Find My Center

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    For The Depressed - If you are thinking about suicide read this.Everyone that has ever said that they wanted to commit suicide has never once said how they were happy for what they...
    Wigglebottom Wigglebottom 46-50, M 1 Response Mar 29, 2012

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    Stumbling In The Dark - I have never had a perfect marriage, but thought we would be together till the end. I foolishly engulfed myself in my husband, our sons and our business...
    katlady66 katlady66 46-50, F 3 Responses Nov 2, 2010

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    Help! I Cant Find Myself - The title says it all. Im lost and i try to find myself ive done yoga meditation and just tried to think of things i like and when i think i find myself...
    desertedangel desertedangel 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 15, 2009

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    MPD With No Host - I feel I do not have a real me or center person.  I have DID of MPD, but I have come to the conclusion we are all alters and maybe the host is dormant or...
    allofus allofus 46-50, M Apr 28, 2009

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    Struggle Within - The beast within me is asleep once again.  How long will it stay that way?  How much longer can I keep him at bay?    I try not to feed...
    wikkedirish wikkedirish 31-35, M 5 Responses Aug 17, 2008

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    Since long I am travelling tired and weary through the paths of darkness I urge you show me the light. In my eyes are only visions of dreadful dark nights I plea to you blossom...
    winterfall winterfall 36-40 Mar 8

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    I Want To Be Alone - I have a feeling that I hate most people, because I think they are cruel and mean and they want to hurt me. I am so nervous around people, but I hide behind a...
    BigChild BigChild 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 17, 2011

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    Out of Balance - There is just something wrong.  I have no focus and it has taken me a lot of reflection to see that.  My moods are so far to the left or to the right...
    wikkedirish wikkedirish 31-35, M 4 Responses Aug 14, 2008

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    I wish I had all the answers to understand why I feel so depressed and lost. I tried denying to myself that I'm not depressed which only left me feeling worse, instead off...
    Jay04Sch Jay04Sch 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 8

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    I try every day to find the point in living but every day it becomes harder and harder to want to live... Every day it becomes harder and harder to breathe and I simply cannot find...
    DancingWithFire DancingWithFire 16-17, F a week ago

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    Cannot find my purpose on this Earth...I'm still young but it feels like I've been living for thousands of years without any meaning. I am grateful for every breath that I take...
    sicajae7 sicajae7 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 31

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    I want to find my biological mom so badly. I just want to talk to her. I want to hug her, like i did as a child. I want to give her money and kind words and tell her that though...
    KenzR KenzR 16-17, F Mar 26

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    Had a best friend in elementary school that I lost contact with. I miss her. :) wonder what she's up to. I forgot her name though... Lol
    Cozy01 Cozy01 18-21, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    To anyone who has ever lost a parent to suicide. You need to know something, You are one of the most beautiful people in the word! Even If you have to look in the mirror every...
    thriving thriving 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    There was a time where I had decided to tell someone about the abuse that I'd been enduring at home. Within that abusive situation was a complication. This occurred in 2012. The...
    ArchSeven327 ArchSeven327 18-21, M Mar 17

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    Hello everyone, I'm a bit lost in life, I am 30 years old, soon will turn 31. And I am also singe and living with my parents with barely any income. I came back to my parent's town...
    ElusiveLady ElusiveLady 26-30, F 10 Responses Mar 24

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    It's been more than one year and a half from the start of the event now but I still cannot forget everything we had. We started off as friends, then best friends and eventually...
    koomi koomi 18-21, F Apr 2

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    On December 1st, 2013, I lost one of the most important people in my life. The person I looked up too. My first friend, my brother. I was sitting in my brothers bed waiting for my...
    FMRT FMRT 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 19

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    I lost my best friend when I told her I was bisexual. She accepted me at first but later said. She doesn't feel comfortable around me. I have been bi this whole time and never once...
    meganayyye21 meganayyye21 16-17, F Apr 4

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    This day feels strange. I lost another friend only for being a jerk. Well, isn't exactly so bad. That friend used to come to my house and invade my personal space, it was pretty...
    aestheticisms aestheticisms 18-21, F a week ago

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    I find it really, really hard to learn to drive and it's becoming a huge issue, emotionally and financially. I have been learning to drive since January 2013 and I have had to...
    ladysatine ladysatine 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I am now 25 and find myself living with my parents. I haven't really lived at home since my mid teens because of my drug use which i stopped about 2 years ago. I remember all too...
    WidowsNephew WidowsNephew 22-25, M Mar 22

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    My best friend had just agreed to be the maid of honor at my upcoming wedding. She came to Texas to spend the week with me, it was our game plan to help her get better. When she...
    GoldenGuinevere GoldenGuinevere 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I lost my grandmother October 31, 2000. I was 6 years old and I was lost and still am without her. She was my everything when I was little. She was my best friend, playmate, and...
    katiieadjodha katiieadjodha 18-21, F Mar 23

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    He walked into the room and my heart immediately started beating quickly. I knew of him and his reputation, but it was the first time I ever seen him up close. That all sounds...
    Skinnylove29 Skinnylove29 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    Came to realize a few things but I still feel lost; like I'm living through the motions of life just to live. For so long I've held on to the baggage of my past. Too many times I...
    halfdead25 halfdead25 26-30, F Apr 4

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    How do do you do to forget someone you truly loved and you still love. I joined this forum and I am truly scared I won't be able to move on... It's been a while and I cannot see...
    leakcim leakcim 26-30, M 3 Responses Apr 6

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    I feel so strange. A giddy happiness is flowing through my veins searing all my sad dead flesh and causing it to become bright and happy again, burning away the rotten bits but...
    SunlilySky SunlilySky 18-21, F Mar 19

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    I lost my first love, it has been a crazy road for the first 2 months. Once my head finally accepts what is going on i am excited for what the future may bring, and i cannot wait...
    imlostforever313 imlostforever313 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 24

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    I had so much faith that everyone was going to work out. I was determined to commit myself to my relationship with my Saviour and trust that whichever path He takes me is the right...
    puberro puberro 70+, F 4 Responses Mar 25

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    I joined this experience group when I was much more lost than I am now. I am slowly finding my way. It's a rough journey, though. I'm facing a whole new set of fears and worries...
    couldbeheaven couldbeheaven 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 29

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    My Story . . . The one I've been needing, so bad, to tell. Now is my chance. My dad died October 16th, 2012 at 12:10am. He was diagnosed with Lymphoma (cancer in the lymph nodes...
    iLucky iLucky 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    I used to be the happiest girl in the world, great friends, a hell of an awesome family. But, now I feel as if everything is falling apart and it all started with my dad loosing...
    beaudsaste beaudsaste 13-15, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Living at home makes me feel as though i am trapped in a cage. I can't do anything I want to do, at least not at home. I want to move out but i don't have a job and am studying and...
    grungehippy grungehippy 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    I've never been the most handsome person, or maybe I'm the most handsome person, I truly couldn't tell you. None of that ever mattered though because low-self esteem had me in the...
    Indari Indari 31-35, M 5 days ago

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    I have not posted on here in two weeks. Because of the last two weeks I've lost someone else that I love. I cannot believe how bad 2014 is. Every month brings a new death. I've...
    Shmily68 Shmily68 41-45, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Hey everyone, I hope your day is going well. I can't imagine what any of you have been through. I've never lost anyone close to me and for that I am lucky. My grandfather died of...
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F 4 hrs ago

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    I remember looking death in the eye. Suicide. I've had headaches and nightmares since. I've had nightmares my whole life. I need a reason to live. I can't find it. There are only a...
    DancingWithFire DancingWithFire 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    I lost my mom to pancreatic cancer in May 2012. The summer after I graduated from high school is when my mom got diagnosed. I had a boyfriend at the time but he became frustrated...
    kristyd713 kristyd713 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    Okay so long story short, my boyfriend and I broke up because his best friend decided to tell him 6 months into out relationship that she had feeling for him. Prior to us dating he...
    snm2407 snm2407 18-21, F Mar 20

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    At work, I'm fine. But in my personal life, on my own time, I'm sorry but I want to do what I want to do, and I want people to be on the same wave length as me (which I realize is...
    lizrdr lizrdr 26-30, F Mar 22

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    It took me a while to realize that somewhere along my path of life I actually managed to lose myself in reality. I lost old friends and gained new ones and realized I had changed...
    ariel2891 ariel2891 22-25, F Mar 26

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    I am 27, I lost my father to lung cancer 3 weeks ago he was 67, i feel so sad and alone and i feel that there's nothing to live for anymore. what breaks my heart more is that i...
    DadysGirl DadysGirl 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 31

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    I lost my first love to suicide at age 19 (he was 20). I found him hanging in the attic. His parents were out of town…so I rode alone in the ambulance to the hospital with him...
    shylainey shylainey 18-21, F 6 Responses Apr 6

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    He said we were the happiest angels in Hell -- an inherent contradiction, something that never should have been, but was; the flowers grown from bloodied stone. I remain in love...
    SisterCyanide SisterCyanide 26-30, T Mar 18

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    I'm letting go of the things that used to hold me back. For example, my weight, drug usage, people who I considered "friends" and even "family", but most importantly, myself. I...
    SweetxSorrow SweetxSorrow 18-21 Mar 18

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    Growing up was hell. It was hard to to say the least. Lost my father to suicide. Never met the guy. His family has never cared or wanted to be a part of my life. Even when I needed...
    Iammyownworstenemy79 Iammyownworstenemy79 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    -And thus, laziness has consumed me earlier. But (stress on the word but), here I am again, and I’ve come back to finish what I started. "You seem like a good guy, would you...
    Ansonicchi Ansonicchi 18-21, M 5 Responses Mar 20

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    People have an amazing way of shaping your perception about yourself. I have struggled my whole life with issues either about body image, confidence, academic performance or other...
    maddyha maddyha 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 22

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    The failure of the modern day Church to align themselves with the teaching and practice of the 1st century church has created the circumstances where loss of faith really means a...
    churinga churinga 70+, M Mar 24

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    I've been a single parent child since I was 2 months old. Dad has my custody but he lives alone... And I guess a part of him blamed himself for not being a good father but I missed...
    akmsara akmsara 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 24

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    I am living with my husband 10 years we have two kids sims like he always was faithful never gave me reasons to be jealous in The beginning of December he start telling me about...
    natalie1025 natalie1025 31-35, F Mar 27