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I Am Lost and Cannot Find My Center

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    I Want To Be Alone

    I have a feeling that I hate most people, because I think they are cruel and mean and they want to hurt me. I am so nervous around people, but I hide behind a mask of a strong and condident person. But, inside me, there is a broken and scared child, who is looking for care, love...
    BigChild BigChild 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 17, 2011

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    Since long I am travelling tired

    and weary through the paths of darkness I urge you show me the light. In my eyes are only visions of dreadful dark nights I plea to you blossom in them golden lights as vibrant flowers smiles bathing in morning dew. With your graceful uplifting words help me erase my fearful...
    winterfall winterfall 36-40 Mar 8

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    Stumbling In The Dark

    I have never had a perfect marriage, but thought we would be together till the end. I foolishly engulfed myself in my husband, our sons and our business. Two years ago I noticed a huge change in my husband. Now he tells me he wants out. I am realing from this, as I have stood...
    katlady66 katlady66 46-50, F 3 Responses Nov 2, 2010

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    MPD With No Host

    I feel I do not have a real me or center person.  I have DID of MPD, but I have come to the conclusion we are all alters and maybe the host is dormant or simply quite exsiting when I was very young.  We all share the same memories but have always made group descions on...
    allofus allofus 46-50, M Apr 28, 2009

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    Help! I Cant Find Myself

    The title says it all. Im lost and i try to find myself ive done yoga meditation and just tried to think of things i like and when i think i find myself i lose it and sometimes it was never me. Maybe me is jus messed up but i was me when i was young i lost her when i was about 5...
    desertedangel desertedangel 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 15, 2009

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    I wish I had all the answers to understand

    why I feel so depressed and lost. I tried denying to myself that I'm not depressed which only left me feeling worse, instead off accepting my feelings and dealing with them has had far worse repurcasions. People don't want to hear if you tell them you are depressed, this has...
    Jay04Sch Jay04Sch 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 8

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    Out of Balance

    There is just something wrong.  I have no focus and it has taken me a lot of reflection to see that.  My moods are so far to the left or to the right.  Well, if the “left” is sadness and the “right” is hostility, then I must retract that...
    wikkedirish wikkedirish 31-35, M 4 Responses Aug 14, 2008

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    Struggle Within

    The beast within me is asleep once again.  How long will it stay that way?  How much longer can I keep him at bay?    I try not to feed this beast with my hate. I will not sate its thirst with alcohol.  The beast fears no man, and at times like this, I...
    wikkedirish wikkedirish 31-35, M 5 Responses Aug 17, 2008

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    My Mom's Death I remember it clearly as though it happened yesterday. She was an amazing woman. Very independent yet not. My dad really held her together. I remember the...
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    Have you ever found yourself lying awake in bed at night, with so many questions and observations and thoughts seemingly crashing around in your brain refusing to let you sleep...
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    On guys, they're all the same and there's none with good intentions out there and yes I've heard it all before "they're all not the same" "you'll find someone" but no.
    Mariejxy Mariejxy 16-17, F 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I sit at home all day we don't have many off together but he always find things to do rather than stay home or go somewhere with me. I know why he's not in love with me he would...
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    She still doesn't care. Nor does he. I don't know why I spend so many tears of sorrow on them. I just can't seem to stop. No matter how hard I try to push away the memories, they...
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    I lost her... Again. The first time she left was back in October I think because me and her boyfriend had started talking and became like brother and sister. She left and I cried...
    talia13 talia13 16-17, F Jul 7

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    i didn't completely lose them, im afraid im dead to them by now. I loved him and have him everything.. i thought i was wayy too ugly to get a boyfriend. i had liked this kid since...
    internationalinspire internationalinspire 13-15, F 23 hrs ago

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    valerieisabelle valerieisabelle 13-15, F 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    I lost her due to buying a guitar. It's a long and absurd story.
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    Reading everyone else's experiences.... It makes me feel so young. I lost my virginity at 10. To a 14 year old. He was my friend's brother. I was really close with him and we...
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    TheFemaleSimpleton TheFemaleSimpleton 13-15, F 3 hrs ago

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    Has anyone ever lost a friend because they got so caught up their 'relationships' with to many people to count(I was gonna post my story about this but apparently EPallie thinks it...
    rottenroses rottenroses 16-17, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    I'm one of those people that never usually goes on these forums to pour my heart out as I usually internalise things and try to deal with it myself - this seems to be one of the...
    Liya2004 Liya2004 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 3

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    Cupcakeinhailer Cupcakeinhailer 22-25 4 days ago

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    I am not afraid i wont find anyone to love me. I chose to live my life to the fullest and just be here to help people in need. Plus finding someone to love you these day doesnt...
    Atlchris Atlchris 16-17 3 hrs ago

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    July 5. Survivor Guilt. We begin recovering. We begin taking care of ourselves. Our recovery program starts to work in our life, and we begin to feel good about ourselves. Then...
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    I know I am young but I always worry about not finding the one.
    thatgirlluvsred thatgirlluvsred 13-15, F 4 hrs ago