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I Am Lost and Cannot Find My Center

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    Struggle Within

    The beast within me is asleep once again.  How long will it stay that way?  How much longer can I keep him at bay?    I try not to feed this beast with my hate. I will not sate its thirst with alcohol.  The beast fears no man, and at times like this, I...
    wikkedirish wikkedirish 31-35, M 5 Responses Aug 17, 2008

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    I Want To Be Alone

    I have a feeling that I hate most people, because I think they are cruel and mean and they want to hurt me. I am so nervous around people, but I hide behind a mask of a strong and condident person. But, inside me, there is a broken and scared child, who is looking for care, love...
    BigChild BigChild 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 17, 2011

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    I wish I had all the answers to understand

    why I feel so depressed and lost. I tried denying to myself that I'm not depressed which only left me feeling worse, instead off accepting my feelings and dealing with them has had far worse repurcasions. People don't want to hear if you tell them you are depressed, this has...
    Jay04Sch Jay04Sch 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    Since long I am travelling tired

    and weary through the paths of darkness I urge you show me the light. In my eyes are only visions of dreadful dark nights I plea to you blossom in them golden lights as vibrant flowers smiles bathing in morning dew. With your graceful uplifting words help me erase my fearful...
    winterfall winterfall 36-40 Mar 8

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    MPD With No Host

    I feel I do not have a real me or center person.  I have DID of MPD, but I have come to the conclusion we are all alters and maybe the host is dormant or simply quite exsiting when I was very young.  We all share the same memories but have always made group descions on...
    allofus allofus 46-50, M Apr 28, 2009

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    Stumbling In The Dark

    I have never had a perfect marriage, but thought we would be together till the end. I foolishly engulfed myself in my husband, our sons and our business. Two years ago I noticed a huge change in my husband. Now he tells me he wants out. I am realing from this, as I have stood...
    katlady66 katlady66 46-50, F 2 Responses Nov 2, 2010

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    Help! I Cant Find Myself

    The title says it all. Im lost and i try to find myself ive done yoga meditation and just tried to think of things i like and when i think i find myself i lose it and sometimes it was never me. Maybe me is jus messed up but i was me when i was young i lost her when i was about 5...
    desertedangel desertedangel 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 15, 2009

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    Out of Balance

    There is just something wrong.  I have no focus and it has taken me a lot of reflection to see that.  My moods are so far to the left or to the right.  Well, if the “left” is sadness and the “right” is hostility, then I must retract that...
    wikkedirish wikkedirish 31-35, M 4 Responses Aug 14, 2008

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    Please pray for me that Christ will give me another chance. I failed His test and cannot feel His presence in my life. I am afraid that I have missed Him completely. Please help me...
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    I had to go bad early this morning and I couldn't hold it. I tried to let a little bit out and the warm pee felt good in my panties. I was wearing a sheer blouse and light weight...
    carlayvonne carlayvonne 41-45, F 6 hrs ago

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    For quite some time now actually. At this point I think I can deal with it much better than years ago and find myself not concerning with what I'm doing or where I'm going so long...
    lFrostBitel lFrostBitel 22-25, M Nov 23

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    Being young and struggling with severe chronic migraines and acid reflux.. I can tell you my life and physical appearance has changed like if I was some drug addict. Recently I've...
    littlemac64 littlemac64 22-25, M 2 Responses Nov 29

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    My husband had EMERGENCY heart surgery 2 years ago, we fell behind on all our bills. I had heart surgery a year later. Now I cannot work. I stay depressed. I worry about...
    bet105 bet105 56-60, F 1 Response Dec 2

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    finding myself is a process that will most likely take my entire life, but I can concentrate on what makes me happy and fulfilled and find the center of my being, along with it, my...
    sister11 sister11 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 10

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    Sitting up in the dark watching a movie while my fiancé is sleeping, thinking on a decision I might go through tomorrow but debating. I'm going on 39 yrs old in a few weeks I just...
    mznyc75 mznyc75 36-40, F 4 Responses Nov 28

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    Like a kid in a candy store the internet is full of women that are showing off their incredible assets.Hugh Hefner eat your heart out.It seems like every woman is a Playboy bunny...
    AfanOfbigNaturals AfanOfbigNaturals 41-45, M Dec 3

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    Find happiness or die trying. I feel like I cannot have been put on this earth to simply earn a living and struggle to push through the day. Life has to be more than a career...
    LeBonBon LeBonBon 22-25, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    I just feel lost and hopeless. I lost the love of my life, my career and my bestest friend. Even though i have a new life now. I can't seem to enjoy it. I can't seem to find...
    ivory0510 ivory0510 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 28

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    Recently, I became sick and my brain started shutting down to save my organs. As a result, I have memory loss and I cannot remember some of the details of my life. Sometimes for a...
    4getmenow 4getmenow 51-55, F 1 Response Dec 5

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    i walk down the street and i see men and women, sons and daughters, husbands and wives, fathers and mothers, brothers and sisters. and i cannot help but feel connected to them in...
    deloss412 deloss412 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I met Jack in high school at a Christian summer camp. I certainly had an interest in him, but at the time my mind was set on the idea that all relationships end. My mind told me...
    LulaZee LulaZee 31-35, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I've never been interested in losing weight the right way. Done with slimming pills, shakes, starving or even vomiting. It worked but I gained again after a few weeks. One time I...
    Elleshore81 Elleshore81 31-35, F Nov 21

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    When started to study the bible , I gradually lost faith in God I cannot understand all the promises that are made in the Bible to protect his children to keep them safe how much...
    willisca49 willisca49 61-65, F 3 Responses Dec 5

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    I'm not trying to be negative but it's just hard to accept the fact that I lost all my respect. I've had some many friends and many were loyal. And now I've lost it all. When I had...
    Justadarkhole Justadarkhole 22-25, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Idk if I lost my soulmate, but I lost someone who didn't leave me to want. Now I can't find anyone I find superior. He's messed me up.
    jrae872010 jrae872010 26-30, F 17 hrs ago

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    I cannot change my past, I can only work on forgiving myself for the mistakes I made, for people I may have hurt without knowing, and for not seeing the truth of someone else's...
    Rainey14 Rainey14 61-65, F 8 Responses Nov 23

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    November 27. We can Trust Ourselves. For many of us, the issue is not whether we can trust another person again; it's whether we can trust our own judgment again. "The last...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Nov 27

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    November 27. We can Trust Ourselves. For many of us, the issue is not whether we can trust another person again; it's whether we can trust our own judgment again. "The last...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F Nov 27

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    The Great **** Debate: My boyfriend and I are in a serious relationship and plan to marry. We don't live together yet, so there are some unknowns as far as permanent domestic life...
    Pinkamina Pinkamina 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 2

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    I been trying to understand why I still am in love with a man I haven't talked to or seen in almost a year now my mom said it is a year get on with your life he is getting on with...
    monica0215 monica0215 51-55, F Dec 6

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    The type of person I am (too long for an experience) is that of someone who believes in "the one," but unfortunately my approach is not generally liked or appreciated under the...
    city87 city87 26-30, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    December 15. Feelings. It's okay to have and feel our feelings - all of them. Years into recovery, we may still be battling with ourselves about this issue. Of all the...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 4 days ago

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    December 15. Feelings. It's okay to have and feel our feelings - all of them. Years into recovery, we may still be battling with ourselves about this issue. Of all the...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 4 days ago

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    December 17. Nurturing Ourselves. Many of us have been so deprived of nurturing that we think it's silly or self-indulgent. Nurturing is neither silly nor self-indulgent; it's how...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    December 17. Nurturing Ourselves. Many of us have been so deprived of nurturing that we think it's silly or self-indulgent. Nurturing is neither silly nor self-indulgent; it's how...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 2 days ago

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    Do you remember, as a kid, the first time you went really fast on your bike, and it felt like you were flying, or the first time you got both wheels off the ground, and how you...
    ColetteR ColetteR 22-25, F Nov 27

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    I'm seeing him for the first time a good two to three weeks. Oh how i've longed to feel his soft embrace and shrink into his chest. I long too feel him tighten his arms around me...
    cydneyxx cydneyxx 13-15, F Nov 30

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    I'm seeing him for the first time a good two to three weeks. Oh how i've longed to feel his soft embrace and shrink into his chest. I long too feel him tighten his arms around me...
    cydneyxx cydneyxx 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    I realize how school is important and have always been a good(ish) student. But recently I just don't care. My latest interim had 3 ds and 2 bs. That is the lowest my grades have...
    SalemKat SalemKat 13-15, F Dec 7

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    My mother passed away on Tuesday. It is now Thursday. I still cannot think. I don't really feel either. I picked up my cousin from the airport this morning. She is willing to help...
    Myzery Myzery 31-35, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    I never thought it was possible to love someone so much that you end up doing so much damage to yourself in the end. You have this big picture in your head the whole time you're...
    shawneysbroken shawneysbroken 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    Everyone who terrifies you is sixty-five percent water. And everyone you love is made of stardust, and I know sometimes you cannot even breathe deeply, and the night sky is no...
    Bubblery Bubblery 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 25

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