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I Am Lost and Cannot Find My Center

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 142 People

    I Want To Be Alone

    I have a feeling that I hate most people, because I think they are cruel and mean and they want to hurt me. I am so nervous around people, but I hide behind a mask of a strong and condident person. But, inside me, there is a broken and scared child, who is looking for care, love...
    BigChild BigChild 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 17, 2011

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    Since long I am travelling tired

    and weary through the paths of darkness I urge you show me the light. In my eyes are only visions of dreadful dark nights I plea to you blossom in them golden lights as vibrant flowers smiles bathing in morning dew. With your graceful uplifting words help me erase my fearful...
    winterfall winterfall 36-40 Mar 8, 2014

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    MPD With No Host

    I feel I do not have a real me or center person.  I have DID of MPD, but I have come to the conclusion we are all alters and maybe the host is dormant or simply quite exsiting when I was very young.  We all share the same memories but have always made group descions on...
    allofus allofus 46-50, M Apr 28, 2009

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    Stumbling In The Dark

    I have never had a perfect marriage, but thought we would be together till the end. I foolishly engulfed myself in my husband, our sons and our business. Two years ago I noticed a huge change in my husband. Now he tells me he wants out. I am realing from this, as I have stood...
    katlady66 katlady66 46-50, F 2 Responses Nov 2, 2010

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    Out of Balance

    There is just something wrong.  I have no focus and it has taken me a lot of reflection to see that.  My moods are so far to the left or to the right.  Well, if the “left” is sadness and the “right” is hostility, then I must retract that...
    wikkedirish wikkedirish 31-35, M 4 Responses Aug 14, 2008

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    I wish I had all the answers to understand

    why I feel so depressed and lost. I tried denying to myself that I'm not depressed which only left me feeling worse, instead off accepting my feelings and dealing with them has had far worse repurcasions. People don't want to hear if you tell them you are depressed, this has...
    Jay04Sch Jay04Sch 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 8, 2014

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    Struggle Within

    The beast within me is asleep once again.  How long will it stay that way?  How much longer can I keep him at bay?    I try not to feed this beast with my hate. I will not sate its thirst with alcohol.  The beast fears no man, and at times like this, I...
    wikkedirish wikkedirish 31-35, M 5 Responses Aug 17, 2008

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    Help! I Cant Find Myself

    The title says it all. Im lost and i try to find myself ive done yoga meditation and just tried to think of things i like and when i think i find myself i lose it and sometimes it was never me. Maybe me is jus messed up but i was me when i was young i lost her when i was about 5...
    desertedangel desertedangel 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 15, 2009

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    Life has so many twists and turns, for the life of me I don't know where to go or what to do. I am struggling with my faith in God, my belief that my life is on the right path, the...
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    SpiritualBunny SpiritualBunny 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 13

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    My mum and I work at a pharmacy and we get to deliver medications to a retirement home. We love seeing all the residents faces light up as we walk by, greeting each one as we pass...
    Marc99 Marc99 16-17, M 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Signs and notices These are supposedly actual signs that have appeared at various locations. At my University's Student center Bathrooms: "If you see four feet instead of two...
    jml2000 jml2000 56-60, M 3 Responses Apr 4

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    I hate myself. Did you ******* hear me I HATE MYSELF. Yeah. a lot. What you want some kinda proof that only young people can have a monopoly on hating themselves!!! Man. How self...
    lifeisforfree lifeisforfree 66-70, M Apr 16

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    SHOWERED!!!!!!!!!!! Yep. Did. Got a wild hair up inside my ear. And went to a rec center. Three bucks. Am watered. Lol.
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    This post is coming something that I wish I didn't have more than one experience in. When I was a kid I lost my father to cancer after about 15 months from his diagnosis. After...
    Imnotreelyhere Imnotreelyhere 31-35, M 5 days ago

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    I have left for center and headed for victory. This is my story and I am learning how to tell it.
    Stephen25 Stephen25 22-25, M 3 days ago

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    I lost it. All my faith that I got just a few years back. They are gone. Drained out. I prayed and prayed. Slowly depleting. Slowly finding myself in more and more dire situations...
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