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I Am Lost and Cannot Find My Center

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    I wish I had all the answers to understand

    why I feel so depressed and lost. I tried denying to myself that I'm not depressed which only left me feeling worse, instead off accepting my feelings and dealing with them has had far worse repurcasions. People don't want to hear if you tell them you are depressed, this has...
    Jay04Sch Jay04Sch 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 8

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    Out of Balance

    There is just something wrong.  I have no focus and it has taken me a lot of reflection to see that.  My moods are so far to the left or to the right.  Well, if the “left” is sadness and the “right” is hostility, then I must retract that...
    wikkedirish wikkedirish 31-35, M 4 Responses Aug 14, 2008

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    I Want To Be Alone

    I have a feeling that I hate most people, because I think they are cruel and mean and they want to hurt me. I am so nervous around people, but I hide behind a mask of a strong and condident person. But, inside me, there is a broken and scared child, who is looking for care, love...
    BigChild BigChild 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 17, 2011

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    Struggle Within

    The beast within me is asleep once again.  How long will it stay that way?  How much longer can I keep him at bay?    I try not to feed this beast with my hate. I will not sate its thirst with alcohol.  The beast fears no man, and at times like this, I...
    wikkedirish wikkedirish 31-35, M 5 Responses Aug 17, 2008

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    MPD With No Host

    I feel I do not have a real me or center person.  I have DID of MPD, but I have come to the conclusion we are all alters and maybe the host is dormant or simply quite exsiting when I was very young.  We all share the same memories but have always made group descions on...
    allofus allofus 46-50, M Apr 28, 2009

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    Help! I Cant Find Myself

    The title says it all. Im lost and i try to find myself ive done yoga meditation and just tried to think of things i like and when i think i find myself i lose it and sometimes it was never me. Maybe me is jus messed up but i was me when i was young i lost her when i was about 5...
    desertedangel desertedangel 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 15, 2009

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    Since long I am travelling tired

    and weary through the paths of darkness I urge you show me the light. In my eyes are only visions of dreadful dark nights I plea to you blossom in them golden lights as vibrant flowers smiles bathing in morning dew. With your graceful uplifting words help me erase my fearful...
    winterfall winterfall 36-40 Mar 8

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    Stumbling In The Dark

    I have never had a perfect marriage, but thought we would be together till the end. I foolishly engulfed myself in my husband, our sons and our business. Two years ago I noticed a huge change in my husband. Now he tells me he wants out. I am realing from this, as I have stood...
    katlady66 katlady66 46-50, F 3 Responses Nov 2, 2010

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    She still doesn't care. Nor does he. I don't know why I spend so many tears of sorrow on them. I just can't seem to stop. No matter how hard I try to push away the memories, they...
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    I lost the only person i have ever cared about. First thing first, i should have known. I just should have. I'd known Jake for 5 years, hell i'd even been in a relationship with...
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    I lost her... Again. The first time she left was back in October I think because me and her boyfriend had started talking and became like brother and sister. She left and I cried...
    talia13 talia13 16-17, F Jul 7

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    I'm one of those people that never usually goes on these forums to pour my heart out as I usually internalise things and try to deal with it myself - this seems to be one of the...
    Liya2004 Liya2004 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 3

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    I want God at the center of my life. I really do. But its so hard with all the distractions in life. When I live for God I am much happier but it takes more effort. Someone at my...
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    Gentleandlovingsoul Gentleandlovingsoul 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 1

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    24 year old woman-child. she comes home to visit and its a nightmare. She doesnt take care of things. like physical 'stuff', material things. She smashed her iPhone, then got drunk...
    milkynine milkynine 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 16

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    Cupcakeinhailer Cupcakeinhailer 22-25 Jul 19

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    I look out into the empty void of my world and I see nothing. I see only the possibility of what could be, the seed that has no where to grow. And it hurts. To be stuck and not...
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    July 5. Survivor Guilt. We begin recovering. We begin taking care of ourselves. Our recovery program starts to work in our life, and we begin to feel good about ourselves. Then...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 5

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    July 5. Survivor Guilt. We begin recovering. We begin taking care of ourselves. Our recovery program starts to work in our life, and we begin to feel good about ourselves. Then...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 5

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    heartsofgold22 heartsofgold22 22-25, F Jul 9

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    I cannot believe in THE ONE because that makes it only one person. Let me explain: if only one human on this planet will actually make you feel amazing for longer than a crush...
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    July 29. Have Some Fun. Have some fun. Loosen up a bit. Enjoy life! We do not have to be so somber and serious. We do not have to be so reflective, so critical, so bound up...
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    July 29. Have Some Fun. Have some fun. Loosen up a bit. Enjoy life! We do not have to be so somber and serious. We do not have to be so reflective, so critical, so bound up...
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    MatureNotDead MatureNotDead 51-55, M 1 Response Jul 9

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    lovelittleones lovelittleones 18-21, F Jul 15

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    I went through tough times.. And I feel like I have let down God.. Many times.. I feel ashamed and I want to rebuilt this relationship that we had.. But I don't know what to say...
    muyakaa muyakaa 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I'd be completely lost without them, I don't smoke many a day, but I'm still dependent on having at least a couple every single day. :)
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