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I Am Lost and Cannot Find My Center

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    MPD With No Host

    I feel I do not have a real me or center person.  I have DID of MPD, but I have come to the conclusion we are all alters and maybe the host is dormant or simply quite exsiting when I was very young.  We all share the same memories but have always made group descions on...
    allofus allofus 46-50, M Apr 28, 2009

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    Stumbling In The Dark

    I have never had a perfect marriage, but thought we would be together till the end. I foolishly engulfed myself in my husband, our sons and our business. Two years ago I noticed a huge change in my husband. Now he tells me he wants out. I am realing from this, as I have stood...
    katlady66 katlady66 46-50, F 2 Responses Nov 2, 2010

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    I wish I had all the answers to understand

    why I feel so depressed and lost. I tried denying to myself that I'm not depressed which only left me feeling worse, instead off accepting my feelings and dealing with them has had far worse repurcasions. People don't want to hear if you tell them you are depressed, this has...
    Jay04Sch Jay04Sch 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 8, 2014

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    Help! I Cant Find Myself

    The title says it all. Im lost and i try to find myself ive done yoga meditation and just tried to think of things i like and when i think i find myself i lose it and sometimes it was never me. Maybe me is jus messed up but i was me when i was young i lost her when i was about 5...
    desertedangel desertedangel 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 15, 2009

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    Out of Balance

    There is just something wrong.  I have no focus and it has taken me a lot of reflection to see that.  My moods are so far to the left or to the right.  Well, if the “left” is sadness and the “right” is hostility, then I must retract that...
    wikkedirish wikkedirish 31-35, M 4 Responses Aug 14, 2008

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    Since long I am travelling tired

    and weary through the paths of darkness I urge you show me the light. In my eyes are only visions of dreadful dark nights I plea to you blossom in them golden lights as vibrant flowers smiles bathing in morning dew. With your graceful uplifting words help me erase my fearful...
    winterfall winterfall 36-40 Mar 8, 2014

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    Struggle Within

    The beast within me is asleep once again.  How long will it stay that way?  How much longer can I keep him at bay?    I try not to feed this beast with my hate. I will not sate its thirst with alcohol.  The beast fears no man, and at times like this, I...
    wikkedirish wikkedirish 31-35, M 5 Responses Aug 17, 2008

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    I Want To Be Alone

    I have a feeling that I hate most people, because I think they are cruel and mean and they want to hurt me. I am so nervous around people, but I hide behind a mask of a strong and condident person. But, inside me, there is a broken and scared child, who is looking for care, love...
    BigChild BigChild 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 17, 2011

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    ...but I don't know where to look. Everything's up in the air, I don't have any solid ground to tread on. Looking at all that's going on around me, long lost friends finding...
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    I was in love once. Actually twice. And I lost both of them. In different ways. The first was when I was 19. Even though I was young, it was not typical teen puppy love. Nor was...
    ManinNY ManinNY 41-45, M Jan 13

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    I wish I could find somebody irl who I could count on for support. Someone who will be there for me. I want someone who will make me feel good and I could do the same for them. I...
    cat1024 cat1024 18-21, M 1 hr ago

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    Fate has been very cruel to both my husband and me. I lost my two precious angels to a lethal lung disorder called alveolar capillary dysplasia. We have an elder daughter named...
    catherinesingh15 catherinesingh15 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    Fate has been very cruel to both my husband and me. I lost my two precious angels to a lethal lung disorder called alveolar capillary dysplasia. We have an elder daughter named...
    catherinesingh15 catherinesingh15 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    Her name was Olivia Pernicka. I set up a Instagram memorial pg in her honor, with her art,pic etc called = Olliepop_art. She was my cousin, she was 19 and an...
    RagAmuFFin92 RagAmuFFin92 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 9

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    I haven't written a thing in a month. I have had no words to say, just dealing with myfeelings. Yes, my feelings, are all over the place like an abandoned animal left to fendon its...
    bemyvalentine bemyvalentine 56-60, F 8 Responses Jan 19

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    My mom deid when I was five years old she was giving birth to my sister when she deid the worst of all was my baby little sister also did along with her since then I have been...
    vikerkelvin vikerkelvin 18-21, M 7 Responses 5 days ago

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    My sister took her life 5 mos ago. I still have to walk myself through this new reality forgetting or finding it impossible to believe that this actually happened. Life is tricky...
    missdioggi missdioggi 36-40, F 16 Responses Jan 9

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    I met Noah and his brother in 2013. We were both in a dark place in our lives and pretty lost. His brother simon was the most beautiful person in the world and kept us both...
    MindlessMatters MindlessMatters 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 16

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    I miss him... I still miss him. I don't know sometimes how I am supposed to do this without you. I'm still angry sometimes that you were taken from me. I'm strong until I'm alone...
    Runningwild00 Runningwild00 41-45 2 Responses Jan 16

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    His name is Doobie (that's him in the picture). He is a 12 year old red nose staffordshire bull terrier. He has recently been diagnosed with cancer. He has two tumors in his...
    Sapphic33 Sapphic33 26-30, F 14 Responses a week ago

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    What is love? People say love is given not taken Love is putting him first before you Love is doing anything to keep that someone happy Love is trust Love for me cannot be...
    jiajee jiajee 18-21 5 Responses Jan 18

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    As I sit here contemplating it all, I just cannot believe that I have lost someone whom I have cared very deeply for here on EP. I respect that my friend must leave I guess? And I...
    allsfinebime allsfinebime 51-55, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Before I begin positing about my experiences, I'd like the world to know where I am at and where I have been. After my father passed away in 1994 (I was 2 and my sister turned 1...
    SamRoberts3 SamRoberts3 22-25, M Jan 14

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    This made me laugh! I'm afraid I'm ridiculously absentminded. Just got sighed at the other day because he had to phone the house so I could find the extension I had lost. Still don...
    justNIK justNIK 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 18

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    Bob Duggan is an passionate sportsman and has actually been all his life. He grew up in San Jose and went to St. Francis Secondary school in Mountain View where he played...
    Matthew0593cun9 Matthew0593cun9 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 2

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    I was young when I lost the love of my life, to young, I thought I didn't even know what love was. But its been almost 3 years now (in a couple weeks) that I lost him. I am now...
    livingwithlife livingwithlife 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 17

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    He grew up in San Jose and attended St. Francis High School in Mountain View where he played basketball. At the University of California in Santa Barbara, he played intramural...
    Joseph0368lyk7 Joseph0368lyk7 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 1

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    He grew up in San Jose and went to St. Francis High School in Mountain View where he played basketball. At the University of California in Santa Barbara, he played intramural...
    Alexander0493fzr1 Alexander0493fzr1 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 1

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    He grew up in San Jose and attended St. Francis High School in Mountain View where he played basketball. At the University of California in Santa Barbara, he played intramural...
    Matthis936h6fu1 Matthis936h6fu1 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 1

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    I am a good soul to everybody... even though i will be used. I simply cannot learn who to trust who to not trust.... Too naive... i haye myself...
    Potchii Potchii 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 2

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    I used to be able to write stories, explain everything in detail and socialize. Now I am unable to do any of that. My skills have deteriorated and they are getting worse as we...
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    In September/October 2012, there was this incident about the cartoons and Islam etc… I had a strong faith back then and I was one of the people who got incredibly angry over the...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F 8 Responses Jan 12

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    I can't remember the six first years of my life but they were the happiest years i've had for sure.I lived my life thinking that i had everything,that i was the luckiest person on...
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    It is actually abnormal, but probable, that astigmatism may be induced following LASIK, causing blurred vision postoperatively. Astigmatism can be quickly managed together with...
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    I'm head over heels in love with a man who lives with another woman. We've been seeing each other secretly for just over 6 months and the connection between us is crazy intense! I...
    hdlace79 hdlace79 31-35, F Jan 18

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    I miss you.. You were my anchor, and now I'm floating adrift, lost at sea. You're my strength and my happiness, without you I'm nothing but a walking corpse. Without you I'd rather...
    PorcelainGrenade PorcelainGrenade 13-15, F Jan 20

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    The Valley of Reality "You won't pass this test; you're not strong; you are angry.", the devil kept telling me in my mind. I didn't care if I passed a test I had never signed up to...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 23

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    Beware what the night beholds !I lay down in the comfort of my bed but with fear. Can't close my eyes for fear of the nightmare creeping up on me. I am so tired, so sleepy but I...
    SilverLeviathan SilverLeviathan 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    MrsBlue MrsBlue 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    Uncle Adam There are a lot of alcoholics in my family, including my father, now sober. But the first in our family to be recognised for this disease was my uncle, Adam. He was...
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