I Am Lost

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    I am sitting here on Christmas Eve.

    Alone. Hating myself. Hating the world. Hating everything. I am sobbing because I don't know what to do or where to go. Sometimes I feel ok. Sometimes I want to die. It never goes away. There is always pain. People tell me it comes and goes. I'm just tired of it. I'm tired of...
    yeswonderful yeswonderful
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Dec 24, 2015

    I have no idea what to do with my life.

    I'm completely lost. I never had "goals" or "dream jobs". I just got my Bachelor's degree in something I'm not even remotely interested and I took me several years to finish. 3 years ago started to work in a hostel. Overall, it was a very pleasant experience and I thought I...
    mtea mtea
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Feb 9, 2015

    Everything has become incredibly muddled,

    and it only seems to be getting worse. I feel directionless. I can't seem to make heads or tails of anything anymore, and I am offputting as ****. I just want to lay in bed with somebody who loves me.
    Dreambrother Dreambrother
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 24, 2015

    I sometimes don't even think I know what

    direction I want to go in. I can't help but feel I'm going in a totally different one. I feel like I am totally wasting my life, but everything is so garbage right now to me that isn't a lucid feeling. I know the steps I need to take, just, in this moment, they are really hard...
    dammitjanit dammitjanit
    26-30, F
    2 Responses May 12, 2014

    Imagine a psychiatrist being guided by their

    patient, a kid guiding their parents, a student guiding the smartest teacher, a dog ruling the family, the blind leading those who can see, the deaf instructing those who can hear how to hear, the pilot sitting in the plane while the passenger flies it, the Spanish tutor guiding...
    QuestionMarks QuestionMarks
    41-45, F
    1 Response Nov 8, 2015

    I Dont Know Anymore

    As I lay here within this dark room..my mind wanders through a maze of lost hopes and dreams..Everything lost....Coldness consumes my heart my soul....Empty...Desperate to find something to rekindle the fire within....Searching....Longing....But what is it that I desire....Where...
    SingleDad40 SingleDad40
    41-45, M
    4 Responses Feb 18, 2012

    October is only a week away.

    With the smell of fall and the yellowing of the leaves will come my favorite season, the calm of walking home from school after chess tournaments still makes me happy to be alive, the air felt different, I felt free. But that wasn’t meant to last for me. I should be...
    CrimsonKnight117 CrimsonKnight117
    22-25, M
    1 Response Sep 21, 2015

    Also going back into bad habits of listening to

    depressing music. I long for the feeling of sadness sometimes.
    EleanorSmithson EleanorSmithson
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 4, 2015

    Idk what to do. I usually have a solution to my

    problems but this time I have nowhere or anyone to turn to.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Nov 9, 2015

    Life feels entirely pointless.

    I hate to be so existentially nihilistic about things in general. I can't grab onto time before it slips away.
    s0undgarden s0undgarden
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Feb 15, 2015

    So...I feel rather silly here trying to explain

    to everyone why life sucks at this point, but I'm here and I'm going to try it because I have nobody else to talk to. As of yesterday, I moved out of my home and into a friends house. I can't even begin to describe to you the ins and outs of my previous relationship in just a...
    katastrofic katastrofic
    31-35, F
    Jan 8, 2014

    I don't think life has ever intended

    for me to have a purpose
    ywilliam31 ywilliam31
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Nov 29, 2015

    Cast away in light or day,

    sail out toward the forgotten bay. Throw the anchor in the water, just before we begin the slaughter. Many faces near and far, remind me of the one I called my star. Lost in the current of the sea, my men shout out in greed. Can you hear the tidal wave roar, "Captain, we are...
    MussiociZinni MussiociZinni
    18-21, M
    Jan 4, 2014

    I'm Strong and I'll survive.

    Sometimes I feel like ruining all the good I have, it makes no sense to some people, but sometimes life can get you down, and make you feel like nothing is important anymore. Right now I'm just struggling to find out what is going on with the people around me. Do they love me of...
    sillykittycat sillykittycat
    18-21, F
    Oct 27, 2015

    As i said i come from a traditional orthodox

    family ........i being a lesbian can't be open with my parents or friends .....as they don't accept this ..... My parents are strict ...such strict that they never let me to go out alone .........i couldn't enjoy with friends as such........other than this matter my parents are...
    avaniavi avaniavi
    22-25, F
    Aug 26, 2014

    I don't know what I should say about my

    situation right now. I feel completely lost. I always do my routine day by day, without feeling happy or sad about anything. It seems like my life is just pretty flat, and I just live my life in order to survive, not to be happy or anything. I can't find any happiness in the...
    val7117 val7117
    16-17, F
    Mar 12

    i dont know what to do with myself.

    i am at a complete dead end job. it's so bad that I am thinking of just quitting and go without a job till i find another. I've been looking in school and am thinking of going back to get an AA in an in demand field. That way ill always be able to find a job. i just feel so...
    redaxl redaxl
    31-35, F
    1 Response Sep 7, 2015

    I lost the track of time

    while busy in life I lost the love that I vowed to forever I lost the shining moment of friendship I lost in defining myself I thought it’s ok to have nothing because I got you. But I was wrong.... Life became messy when I ignored time The vow was defiled because I loved too...
    4BlackForest 4BlackForest
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Feb 2, 2014

    I cry a lot lately because I am surrounded by

    people and walls, yet, the war in my head isn't stopping.
    hateme92 hateme92
    18-21, F
    Dec 9, 2015

    Lost In Depression

            I have no skills, no great education and horrible self esteem. I was born disfigured, and have spent the majority of my life hiding away as an outcast. I barely have any social skills, I get terribly anxious around too many people, I almost always wear dark...
    aquietman aquietman
    26-30, M
    5 Responses Mar 17, 2012

    Someone said there are 2 types of people in the

    world. Those who are lost and do not deny it, and those who are lost but deny it to themselves and everyone else His point was that if you know you're lost then you can take action, get help and directions. But then I sometimes think even if I know I am lost and seek help or try...
    frankiegee frankiegee
    46-50, M
    Aug 19, 2015

    Here i am again. Another night having cried

    myself to sleep. Then waking up sick. I have so many things spinning around in my head and it hurts me to think about them.
    BrokenPhoenixx BrokenPhoenixx
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 23, 2014
    ProfessorPsycho ProfessorPsycho
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 4, 2014

    Someone Find Me.

    I am lost and in pain. I am in search for something and someone greater for me in my life. I have been lost for so long in fear and in doubt that Im holding on to hope for as long as possible. I have always been the romantic, the lover, fighting for what I believe in and holding...
    EarthBear2784 EarthBear2784
    26-30, M
    1 Response Oct 28, 2013

    Every morning when I wake up,

    I have this severely nihilistic feeling that all is lost. I have no idea where I am, where I came from, where I am going, or why I am here. Nobody does. Oftentimes, I think of the allegory of the cave. Are we all in a place that is only a fragment of reality? What is reality...
    omnisciententity omnisciententity
    26-30
    2 Responses Jan 23, 2014

    I am still having trouble coping with the fact

    that I don't have my kids anymore. It is hard for me day after day. It is hard seeing parents with their children. I don't know how I can deal with it.
    tasha2kids tasha2kids
    26-30, F
    Aug 17, 2015

    Daddy seems to rule the world

    but he can not ever rule me. I seem to always dance to my own beat. Maybe, I hear drums he never allowed himself to enjoy. I mean nothing he loved me then one day like a ghost he was gone. He wanted to live like a king in a castle but he has lost so much in the process of doing...
    natalie3247 natalie3247
    36-40, F
    Oct 2, 2015

    I have so much stress in my life.

    .. And lately everything is just going harder and harder. Absolutely everything I just can't believe that!
    suffitjustedesurvivre suffitjustedesurvivre
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 10, 2014

    So basically my best friend dropped me

    for a girl and another group.... Im ******* my grades up... I got suspended for getting drunk and high before school and falling down the stairs... And I get taken by the police like 3 times a week because my parents hate me and call them whenever i get mad.
    ItsNothingMuch ItsNothingMuch
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jan 3

    Drowning In Tears

    i have never felt so lost and alone as i do now.yesterday i was broken.i lost myself.i had to talk to someone.i got into my car and pulled over.i was unable to drive any further.the last hurtful words i heard were too much to bare.i can no longer and believe i no longer deserve...
    freeangel freeangel
    31-35, F
    9 Responses Mar 22, 2011

    I lay on the floor in my living room

    and stare at the wall all day. I then roll over and face the back of my couch at night. Repeat. I am alone. No one hits me up. No one responds to my messages. When around people I am lost. Nothing helps the loneliness and depression. Read my other posts, I'm about to explode...
    Tantalustay Tantalustay
    22-25, M
    Nov 25, 2014

    Omg I Feel So Overwhelmed And Confused About So Much

    I am 8 months pregnant and I have been supporting my jobless boyfriend. On Thursday I found out he has been cheating on me and sleeping with other women in my bed when I am at work. Why is it so easy for me to forgive him? I have decided to move out Sunday and he doesn't know. I...
    mandyfizzle mandyfizzle
    26-30, F
    2 Responses May 26, 2012

    "Where is my mind? Waaay out in the water,

    see it swimming" - The Pixies
    Kinn23 Kinn23
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 18, 2014

    Home Home isn't a place,

    Home isn't biological Family, Home is where the people you love are, Home is where your real family is, Not the one you were born with, But the one you made.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jan 27, 2014

    I am lost since my childhood .

    ... I don't know where my family is ..... maybe one day I will find them .... I am living for this one hope ....
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Oct 19, 2015

    I'm not going anywhere.

    But I just want to tell someone to "listen" to what I have to say. I'm lost, I don't know where my life is headed. I'm scared of death and I'm scared of life. I just don't want to exist. I can't take any more pain, I'm tired of all of it. I'm seeking change, but why don't things...
    sillykittycat sillykittycat
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 20, 2015

    Why come back to this.

    I never expected an easy route but this. Its not healthy. I know I need to start picking up the peices again.Your never out. Not truly but its rough. The first thing you learn is to conceal yourself. Your emotions, intentions, strengths. Now with whats going on everthing moving...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jan 7

    Lost & Wandering Aimlessly Through the Wasteland Called Life

    i am experiencing a horrible, life altering disconnect from self.  there is apparently no origin, no direction, and not yet a culmination; i don't know where i'm coming from, what i'm doing at the present moment, or where i'm going. 
    trixi trixi
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Jan 20, 2008

    I've been wondering this

    for a while now, maybe about a year or so more or less. And the question I've been wondering stems from a problem I've been having with my friends (of course they dont know) and the problem is this. I've been here for about two years now, and during this time I've met some great...
    tothoseleftbehind tothoseleftbehind
    18-21, M
    Sep 12, 2015

    Every time I look in the mirror,

    I feel ashamed. I hate everything about myself. I don't even know how to put this into words... I hate myself and I don't know how to stop. If anyone here is getting bullied at school or camp or home, please remember that I care about you. I know I'm a total stranger on the...
    gumption23 gumption23
    18-21
    Dec 7, 2015

    I don't know what to do.

    I feel like I'm slowly losing my best friend that I have feelings for. We use to talk everyday, and now when I try to talk to him, he acts like he doesn't know me. I want to text him and ask what's going on but I don't want to be annoying. He has helped me through so much and I...
    Flyyer73 Flyyer73
    18-21, F
    Oct 12, 2015

    I feel so empty right now.

    .. Nothing keeps me motivate to do study except playing game. I don't feel motivated to study even I should be. In the back of my mind, I feel like working on a mini project for myself, but I don't have to feel to start but envision it... :( I don't know why I should feel this...
    Rosiinysr Rosiinysr
    18-21, F
    Feb 10

    So on this day....14 Feb.

    ...valentine's day.....with all the strength I have and with all the positive thoughts I feel lost.....I would rather be honest with myself than put on a fake smile.....I am heart broken.....plain and simple....not a real hug or a kiss.....not a look....not a glance....not a...
    huckleberrybunches huckleberrybunches
    41-45, M
    3 Responses Feb 14, 2015

    How am I supposed to deal with something I can't

    even talk about? My chest gets tight.. it feels like there's something lodged in my throat and I can't breathe. I know the words I want to say, but I can't bring myself to say them because I'm afraid I'll break if I do. I'm so ashamed, and my feelings have had me twirling...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 25, 2014
    StrangeMotions StrangeMotions
    16-17, M
    1 Response Mar 12

    I Just Love This Clip

    I'm not really lost, I just love this clip from Up In The Air:- http://movies.wally.tv/watch-video/454189/up-in-the-air/comments If you didn't like Geoge Clooney before, you should now.
    GarciaMarquez GarciaMarquez
    46-50, M
    1 Response Feb 18, 2012

    I always seem to have an object in my hand.

    ...before I know it, it mysteriously disappears.... Noooo lol I literally just had it in my hand. 😂😂😂 love when that happens lol
    haystack121 haystack121
    18-21, F
    Jul 21, 2015

    What can you do when all hope is gone?

    Nothing or no one can help you in any way. What is happiness? Were those moments happiness? Or were they mere illusions? Is happiness within? But where? What is real anyway, seems like we all are just deluded beings always lost in the possessions of me and mine that were never...
    DropsOfRain DropsOfRain
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Jul 27, 2015

    I haven't been motivated to do anything lately

    and I've done nothing. Just stayed in bed for weeks. I haven't ever bee like this before and I think it's too late for me. I'm sinking into a pit of despair No one's knows, no one cares People pass me unaware No one sees , no one dares Wandering the streets all day Another...
    simplysusan01 simplysusan01
    46-50, F
    1 Response Dec 30, 2015

    I guess this is the last post

    for me here. I wish I could say it's been therapeutic but in reality my time here has only served as a sign that there really is no hope. I want to say, I was honest here. Repetitive, yes. Angsty, yes. Depressing, yes. However, I was always honest. A rarity in my life. I didn't...
    bunnyXbunny bunnyXbunny
    26-30, M
    Mar 30

    Why live? I spend my life getting walked on

    for being nice and for what? Everyone's always told me my ADD will ensure I don't amount to anything in life. What's the point in living if i'm just going to spend my life paying off debts and bills. This same emotional problem killed my girl friend. Now I have no-one to die for...
    samburke1999 samburke1999
    16-17, M
    Aug 12, 2015

    Things were good, as they usually are

    for a while, then **** comes crashing down again. An avalanche of feelings, thoughts and dreams; a white out, a complete disaster. But on the outside, no evidence of the destruction. People move on. Smile and nod. Sleep and wake. You keep invading my dreams, which lead me...
    cbnfvr cbnfvr
    26-30, F
    Jan 18

    Is there any honest person

    that wouldn't say so? I believe the truly lost are those who think/believe they are not!!!
    frankiegee frankiegee
    46-50, M
    Oct 19, 2015

    here I am sitting here writing this.

    .. not sure what to say anymore.. my heart is hurt and broken. I am trying tinwork everything out. I don't know rather I should stay ur friend or leave. I want you in my life. but as if right nothing more then a friend. I know you feel as if I am paying games but that is not true...
    love0914 love0914
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 7, 2015

    I suffer alone, carelessly destroyed by love.

    This world a passing enigma I must endure until death steals my heart. This wasn’t how I imagined my life to end, but end it has, and I am lost. I can not dream for fear of loosing you again, I can not wake as the pain would grow to eat my very soul. What’s left is emptiness...
    ProfessorDrew ProfessorDrew
    51-55, M
    Oct 12, 2014

    Mental and emotional whiplash.

    Guess my age does show. I cant keep up with you, I try but I am lost. I am just living in that fantasy world.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 21, 2015

    2014 Jan 4.I type this in an effort to retrace

    my steps all the way back to the beginning of my Life.I am strong in many things: Love, Compassion, Creativity, Humor, Writing, Empathy, Sympathy, and Wonder.Yet, at the moment as I type this, I do not know of what the hell I'm doing; I am a top spun with no direction, in the...
    LysanderFremont LysanderFremont
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jan 4, 2014

    I'm Lost In My Religion

    My family is not very religious, I know that my mom is and I know that she prays. But we never went to church. I used to believe in God and pray and when my prayers came true I believed that God really existed and that he is helping me. But a while ago I started thinking maybe...
    GrueneRose GrueneRose
    22-25
    7 Responses Sep 4, 2007
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