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I Am Lost

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    I suffer alone, carelessly destroyed by love.

    This world a passing enigma I must endure until death steals my heart. This wasn’t how I imagined my life to end, but end it has, and I am lost. I can not dream for fear of loosing you again, I can not wake as the pain would grow to eat my very soul. What’s left is emptiness...
    ProfessorDrew ProfessorDrew 51-55, M Oct 12, 2014

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    Life feels entirely pointless.

    I hate to be so existentially nihilistic about things in general. I can't grab onto time before it slips away.
    s0undgarden s0undgarden 18-21, M 3 Responses Feb 15, 2015

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    So on this day....14 Feb.

    ...valentine's day.....with all the strength I have and with all the positive thoughts I feel lost.....I would rather be honest with myself than put on a fake smile.....I am heart broken.....plain and simple....not a real hug or a kiss.....not a look....not a glance....not a...
    huckleberrybunches huckleberrybunches 36-40, M 4 Responses Feb 14, 2015

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    Someone Find Me.

    I am lost and in pain. I am in search for something and someone greater for me in my life. I have been lost for so long in fear and in doubt that Im holding on to hope for as long as possible. I have always been the romantic, the lover, fighting for what I believe in and holding...
    EarthBear2784 EarthBear2784 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 28, 2013

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    I have always been the polite,

    quite one. The one lost in their head and doesn't bother anyone. Some how...just standing in someone's presence is a bother, living is a bother. I feel uncomfortable, unwanted, I don't belong here. I'm not happy, but I don't have the confidence to make the leap. Change my life...
    Mars000 Mars000 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    Why come back to this.

    I never expected an easy route but this. Its not healthy. I know I need to start picking up the peices again.Your never out. Not truly but its rough. The first thing you learn is to conceal yourself. Your emotions, intentions, strengths. Now with whats going on everthing moving...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 7

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    October is only a week away.

    With the smell of fall and the yellowing of the leaves will come my favorite season, the calm of walking home from school after chess tournaments still makes me happy to be alive, the air felt different, I felt free. But that wasn’t meant to last for me. I should be...
    CrimsonKnight117 CrimsonKnight117 22-25, M 2 Responses Sep 21, 2015

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    Somehow whenever I try to make a decesion I

    loose things out of control. Whether I make or not, it happens. It is quite confusing how I tend to double my mind when it comes to things..
    MaggieAndTheFerociousBeast MaggieAndTheFerociousBeast 22-25, F Jun 30, 2015

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    I'm Lost In My Religion

    My family is not very religious, I know that my mom is and I know that she prays. But we never went to church. I used to believe in God and pray and when my prayers came true I believed that God really existed and that he is helping me. But a while ago I started thinking maybe...
    GrueneRose GrueneRose 22-25 7 Responses Sep 4, 2007

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    2014 Jan 4.I type this in an effort to retrace

    my steps all the way back to the beginning of my Life.I am strong in many things: Love, Compassion, Creativity, Humor, Writing, Empathy, Sympathy, and Wonder.Yet, at the moment as I type this, I do not know of what the hell I'm doing; I am a top spun with no direction, in the...
    LysanderFremont LysanderFremont 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 4, 2014

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    As i said i come from a traditional orthodox

    family ........i being a lesbian can't be open with my parents or friends .....as they don't accept this ..... My parents are strict ...such strict that they never let me to go out alone .........i couldn't enjoy with friends as such........other than this matter my parents are...
    avaniavi avaniavi 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 26, 2014

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    I'm Strong and I'll survive.

    Sometimes I feel like ruining all the good I have, it makes no sense to some people, but sometimes life can get you down, and make you feel like nothing is important anymore. Right now I'm just struggling to find out what is going on with the people around me. Do they love me of...
    sillykittycat sillykittycat 18-21, F Oct 27, 2015

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    I always seem to have an object in my hand.

    ...before I know it, it mysteriously disappears.... Noooo lol I literally just had it in my hand. 😂😂😂 love when that happens lol
    haystack121 haystack121 18-21, F Jul 21, 2015

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    Also going back into bad habits of listening to

    depressing music. I long for the feeling of sadness sometimes.
    EleanorSmithson EleanorSmithson 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 4, 2015

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    Every morning when I wake up,

    I have this severely nihilistic feeling that all is lost. I have no idea where I am, where I came from, where I am going, or why I am here. Nobody does. Oftentimes, I think of the allegory of the cave. Are we all in a place that is only a fragment of reality? What is reality...
    omnisciententity omnisciententity 26-30 2 Responses Jan 23, 2014

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    Everything has become incredibly muddled,

    and it only seems to be getting worse. I feel directionless. I can't seem to make heads or tails of anything anymore, and I am offputting as ****. I just want to lay in bed with somebody who loves me.
    Dreambrother Dreambrother 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 24, 2015

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    I have so much stress in my life.

    .. And lately everything is just going harder and harder. Absolutely everything I just can't believe that!
    suffitjustedesurvivre suffitjustedesurvivre 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 10, 2014

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    I've been wondering this

    for a while now, maybe about a year or so more or less. And the question I've been wondering stems from a problem I've been having with my friends (of course they dont know) and the problem is this. I've been here for about two years now, and during this time I've met some great...
    tothoseleftbehind tothoseleftbehind 16-17, M Sep 12, 2015

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    I'm not going anywhere.

    But I just want to tell someone to "listen" to what I have to say. I'm lost, I don't know where my life is headed. I'm scared of death and I'm scared of life. I just don't want to exist. I can't take any more pain, I'm tired of all of it. I'm seeking change, but why don't things...
    sillykittycat sillykittycat 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 20, 2015

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    Someone said there are 2 types of people in the

    world. Those who are lost and do not deny it, and those who are lost but deny it to themselves and everyone else His point was that if you know you're lost then you can take action, get help and directions. But then I sometimes think even if I know I am lost and seek help or try...
    frankiegee frankiegee 46-50, M Aug 19, 2015

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    "Where is my mind? Waaay out in the water,

    see it swimming" - The Pixies
    Kinn23 Kinn23 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 18, 2014

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    Imagine a psychiatrist being guided by their

    patient, a kid guiding their parents, a student guiding the smartest teacher, a dog ruling the family, the blind leading those who can see, the deaf instructing those who can hear how to hear, the pilot sitting in the plane while the passenger flies it, the Spanish tutor guiding...
    QuestionMarks QuestionMarks 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 8, 2015

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    Drowning In Tears

    i have never felt so lost and alone as i do now.yesterday i was broken.i lost myself.i had to talk to someone.i got into my car and pulled over.i was unable to drive any further.the last hurtful words i heard were too much to bare.i can no longer and believe i no longer deserve...
    freeangel freeangel 31-35, F 9 Responses Mar 22, 2011

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    So basically my best friend dropped me

    for a girl and another group.... Im ******* my grades up... I got suspended for getting drunk and high before school and falling down the stairs... And I get taken by the police like 3 times a week because my parents hate me and call them whenever i get mad.
    ItsNothingMuch ItsNothingMuch 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 3

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    I am still having trouble coping with the fact

    that I don't have my kids anymore. It is hard for me day after day. It is hard seeing parents with their children. I don't know how I can deal with it.
    tasha2kids tasha2kids 26-30, F Aug 17, 2015

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    Idk what to do. I usually have a solution to my

    problems but this time I have nowhere or anyone to turn to.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 9, 2015

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    I am puzzled, I am buffled,

    I am no where, I myself don't know who I am !!!
    yahooabcd yahooabcd 26-30, M Jun 22, 2015

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    Why live? I spend my life getting walked on

    for being nice and for what? Everyone's always told me my ADD will ensure I don't amount to anything in life. What's the point in living if i'm just going to spend my life paying off debts and bills. This same emotional problem killed my girl friend. Now I have no-one to die for...
    samburke1999 samburke1999 16-17, M Aug 12, 2015

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    Omg I Feel So Overwhelmed And Confused About So Much

    I am 8 months pregnant and I have been supporting my jobless boyfriend. On Thursday I found out he has been cheating on me and sleeping with other women in my bed when I am at work. Why is it so easy for me to forgive him? I have decided to move out Sunday and he doesn't know. I...
    mandyfizzle mandyfizzle 26-30, F 2 Responses May 26, 2012

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    Daddy seems to rule the world

    but he can not ever rule me. I seem to always dance to my own beat. Maybe, I hear drums he never allowed himself to enjoy. I mean nothing he loved me then one day like a ghost he was gone. He wanted to live like a king in a castle but he has lost so much in the process of doing...
    natalie3247 natalie3247 36-40, F Oct 2, 2015

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    Don’t close your eyes The blue will be gone

    forever from the skies Let this not be my last kiss I hold my breath to give it to you.. The sweet will be gone from springs wind And jasmine will lose the sweet from the breath of your last kiss Let not the light of your eyes fade Let the light shine in darkness of night...
    nocool nocool 41-45, M 4 Responses Jan 16

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    Things were good, as they usually are

    for a while, then **** comes crashing down again. An avalanche of feelings, thoughts and dreams; a white out, a complete disaster. But on the outside, no evidence of the destruction. People move on. Smile and nod. Sleep and wake. You keep invading my dreams, which lead me...
    cbnfvr cbnfvr 26-30, F Jan 18

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    I don't know what to do.

    I feel like I'm slowly losing my best friend that I have feelings for. We use to talk everyday, and now when I try to talk to him, he acts like he doesn't know me. I want to text him and ask what's going on but I don't want to be annoying. He has helped me through so much and I...
    Flyyer73 Flyyer73 18-21, F Oct 12, 2015

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    What can you do when all hope is gone?

    Nothing or no one can help you in any way. What is happiness? Were those moments happiness? Or were they mere illusions? Is happiness within? But where? What is real anyway, seems like we all are just deluded beings always lost in the possessions of me and mine that were never...
    DropsOfRain DropsOfRain 26-30, F 5 Responses Jul 27, 2015

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    i dont know what to do with myself.

    i am at a complete dead end job. it's so bad that I am thinking of just quitting and go without a job till i find another. I've been looking in school and am thinking of going back to get an AA in an in demand field. That way ill always be able to find a job. i just feel so...
    redaxl redaxl 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 7, 2015

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    I Just Love This Clip

    I'm not really lost, I just love this clip from Up In The Air:- http://movies.wally.tv/watch-video/454189/up-in-the-air/comments If you didn't like Geoge Clooney before, you should now.
    GarciaMarquez GarciaMarquez 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 18, 2012

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    Home Home isn't a place,

    Home isn't biological Family, Home is where the people you love are, Home is where your real family is, Not the one you were born with, But the one you made.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 27, 2014

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    I lay on the floor in my living room

    and stare at the wall all day. I then roll over and face the back of my couch at night. Repeat. I am alone. No one hits me up. No one responds to my messages. When around people I am lost. Nothing helps the loneliness and depression. Read my other posts, I'm about to explode...
    Tantalustay Tantalustay 22-25, M Nov 25, 2014

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    I lost the track of time

    while busy in life I lost the love that I vowed to forever I lost the shining moment of friendship I lost in defining myself I thought it’s ok to have nothing because I got you. But I was wrong.... Life became messy when I ignored time The vow was defiled because I loved too...
    4BlackForest 4BlackForest 36-40, F 2 Responses Feb 2, 2014

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    Mental and emotional whiplash.

    Guess my age does show. I cant keep up with you, I try but I am lost. I am just living in that fantasy world.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 21, 2015

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    So...I feel rather silly here trying to explain

    to everyone why life sucks at this point, but I'm here and I'm going to try it because I have nobody else to talk to. As of yesterday, I moved out of my home and into a friends house. I can't even begin to describe to you the ins and outs of my previous relationship in just a...
    katastrofic katastrofic 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 8, 2014

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    Here i am again. Another night having cried

    myself to sleep. Then waking up sick. I have so many things spinning around in my head and it hurts me to think about them.
    BrokenPhoenixx BrokenPhoenixx 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 23, 2014

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    ProfessorPsycho ProfessorPsycho 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 4, 2014

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    Little Lost (Miserable Read...Be Warned)

    I'm feeling like I'm running in circles. The moment I get this !@#$% pain under control (with meds and a hell of a lot of focus) and my body bursts with infections.  I struggle to get them under control and the moment I do the pain comes crashing back in on me.  Headaches so...
    Whym Whym 36-40, F 11 Responses Oct 16, 2013

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    here I am sitting here writing this.

    .. not sure what to say anymore.. my heart is hurt and broken. I am trying tinwork everything out. I don't know rather I should stay ur friend or leave. I want you in my life. but as if right nothing more then a friend. I know you feel as if I am paying games but that is not true...
    love0914 love0914 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 7, 2015

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