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I Am Lost

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    I suffer alone, carelessly destroyed by love.

    This world a passing enigma I must endure until death steals my heart. This wasn’t how I imagined my life to end, but end it has, and I am lost. I can not dream for fear of loosing you again, I can not wake as the pain would grow to eat my very soul. What’s left is emptiness...
    ProfessorDrew ProfessorDrew 51-55, M Oct 12, 2014

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    Here i am again. Another night having cried

    myself to sleep. Then waking up sick. I have so many things spinning around in my head and it hurts me to think about them.
    BrokenPhoenixx BrokenPhoenixx 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 23, 2014

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    Also going back into bad habits of listening to

    depressing music. I long for the feeling of sadness sometimes.
    EleanorSmithson EleanorSmithson 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 4

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    I wish that I could explain how I think

    or feel sometimes to the rest of the world.....There are a thousand things I wish to express but do not have the proper forum to do so.....So for the time being I must keep painting the picture in my head that no one else can see.... the gift and the curse....
    Loso1331 Loso1331 26-30, M 2 Responses Feb 18

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    Home Home isn't a place,

    Home isn't biological Family, Home is where the people you love are, Home is where your real family is, Not the one you were born with, But the one you made.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 27, 2014

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    I am almost 18 years.

    I have been developing a male-ish psychology, but my body says otherwise. I have small shoulders, large hips, embrassing boobs and small hands but large feet. Since I was born, my parents and my brother and my friends have all treated me like a boy, and I have always felt like a...
    anbuopps anbuopps 18-21, M May 5

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    I loved my best friend

    and then I found out i bothered him when I complain about the things I need help dealing with and now I feel annoying and bothersome when I talk to him, so I apologize, and then he asks me why in apologizing and I don't know what to do. I'm starting to realize this is not how a...
    SoManyShadows SoManyShadows 13-15, F Mar 24

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    I am lost! i cant remember the last time i knew

    what was going on around me! i am missing my life... i spend my days confused... that's what i feel like! well in reality life around me is quite vivid, a little too vivid.... i notice every thing but then i end up with too many things in my mind and then i end up missing a few...
    imapakistani imapakistani 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 11, 2014

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    I am lost, lost in this place

    that I can't breathe in. There's to many people. When I finally feel like I can breathe something happens. I can't breathe again. Why is my life like this, I'm fat. I'm ugly. Have no friends. My family hates me. I have found myself I'm happy everything is looking up. Until I...
    Losing1190 Losing1190 13-15, F Jun 17

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    Omg I Feel So Overwhelmed And Confused About So Much

    I am 8 months pregnant and I have been supporting my jobless boyfriend. On Thursday I found out he has been cheating on me and sleeping with other women in my bed when I am at work. Why is it so easy for me to forgive him? I have decided to move out Sunday and he doesn't know. I...
    mandyfizzle mandyfizzle 26-30, F 2 Responses May 26, 2012

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    I don't know whats worse.

    Long distance - but it doesn't hurt when your bf/gf can't make it because of the distance obviously and there's not a high expectancy of seeing each other regularly. Or short distance - where you are close to one another but fail to make plans or meet up keeping the other...
    sammipudd sammipudd 16-17, F Jun 3

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    I hate it when people comment on how happy I am,

    because I'm not. Not really. I cry constantly, it's so hard for me to wake up and even harder to fall asleep. I can't look in the mirror at myself, not properly anyways, because I hate what I see. I hate going to my friends house and meeting their parents and knowing how sweet...
    LoveforCurls LoveforCurls 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 28

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    Recently, I found out

    that I cannot have children. Its not like I wanted to have kids anytime soon, but I did want the option. Anyway, I've been learning about alternatives and ways to bypass my condition, but most sound pretty expensive. More than anything though, I just feel really empty. I know...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 16

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    Here I am once again.

    ...this is getting to be a regular thing.. But anyway.... I met this amazing woman...we shared so much..it was though we were cut from from the same clothe..as she told me her life story it almost matched mine to the letter...we could literally finish the others sentences with...
    SingleDad40 SingleDad40 41-45, M 5 Responses May 25

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    CaraBlossom CaraBlossom 18-21, F Feb 23

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    Cast away in light or day,

    sail out toward the forgotten bay. Throw the anchor in the water, just before we begin the slaughter. Many faces near and far, remind me of the one I called my star. Lost in the current of the sea, my men shout out in greed. Can you hear the tidal wave roar, "Captain, we are...
    MussiociZinni MussiociZinni 18-21, M Jan 4, 2014

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    I always seem to have an object in my hand.

    ...before I know it, it mysteriously disappears.... Noooo lol I literally just had it in my hand. 😂😂😂 love when that happens lol
    haystack121 haystack121 18-21, F Jul 21

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    I am puzzled, I am buffled,

    I am no where, I myself don't know who I am !!!
    yahooabcd yahooabcd 26-30, M Jun 22

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    Every morning when I wake up,

    I have this severely nihilistic feeling that all is lost. I have no idea where I am, where I came from, where I am going, or why I am here. Nobody does. Oftentimes, I think of the allegory of the cave. Are we all in a place that is only a fragment of reality? What is reality...
    omnisciententity omnisciententity 26-30 2 Responses Jan 23, 2014

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    I Just Love This Clip

    I'm not really lost, I just love this clip from Up In The Air:- http://movies.wally.tv/watch-video/454189/up-in-the-air/comments If you didn't like Geoge Clooney before, you should now.
    GarciaMarquez GarciaMarquez 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 18, 2012

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    How am I supposed to deal with something I can't

    even talk about? My chest gets tight.. it feels like there's something lodged in my throat and I can't breathe. I know the words I want to say, but I can't bring myself to say them because I'm afraid I'll break if I do. I'm so ashamed, and my feelings have had me twirling...
    Bubblery Bubblery 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2014

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    Lost & Wandering Aimlessly Through the Wasteland Called Life

    i am experiencing a horrible, life altering disconnect from self.  there is apparently no origin, no direction, and not yet a culmination; i don't know where i'm coming from, what i'm doing at the present moment, or where i'm going. 
    trixi trixi 41-45, F 3 Responses Jan 20, 2008

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    I am new to this, don't really know how to

    explain this, but I will to the best of my ability. Ever since I was little I knew there was something different about me. I hate the world in general, I don't really converse with many people. I am 22 years of age, and live about as normal of a life as anyone could I guess...
    Mywolfinmydreams Mywolfinmydreams 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 25

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    I don't often feel lost,

    but I guess I do today. something just feels out of place. wondering about life choices and all that.
    alexis77 alexis77 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    Life feels entirely pointless.

    I hate to be so existentially nihilistic about things in general. I can't grab onto time before it slips away.
    s0undgarden s0undgarden 16-17, M 3 Responses Feb 15

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    So on this day....14 Feb.

    ...valentine's day.....with all the strength I have and with all the positive thoughts I feel lost.....I would rather be honest with myself than put on a fake smile.....I am heart broken.....plain and simple....not a real hug or a kiss.....not a look....not a glance....not a...
    huckleberrybunches huckleberrybunches 36-40, M 4 Responses Feb 14

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    2014 Jan 4.I type this in an effort to retrace

    my steps all the way back to the beginning of my Life.I am strong in many things: Love, Compassion, Creativity, Humor, Writing, Empathy, Sympathy, and Wonder.Yet, at the moment as I type this, I do not know of what the hell I'm doing; I am a top spun with no direction, in the...
    LysanderFremont LysanderFremont 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 4, 2014

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    Someone Find Me.

    I am lost and in pain. I am in search for something and someone greater for me in my life. I have been lost for so long in fear and in doubt that Im holding on to hope for as long as possible. I have always been the romantic, the lover, fighting for what I believe in and holding...
    EarthBear2784 EarthBear2784 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 28, 2013

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    I've exhausted all possible avenues,

    inside and out. My mind is melted, my heart is a mess. Where can you go when there's no more help out there?
    rorenchan rorenchan 22-25, F 1 Response May 21

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    How do you tell a friend you need them?

    Like, how? They're busy with their own things, with their own issues, what makes me special enough to put more pressure on them? How do I tell someone that I'm just hardly holding together? How can I when they're already falling apart? Or worse, when they're all 'better' and...
    thehonestgentleman thehonestgentleman 18-21, M Oct 26, 2014

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    Somehow whenever I try to make a decesion I

    loose things out of control. Whether I make or not, it happens. It is quite confusing how I tend to double my mind when it comes to things..
    MaggieAndTheFerociousBeast MaggieAndTheFerociousBeast 18-21, F Jun 30

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    I am tired and lost. In pain from my past,

    and the one who broe my heart. Am trying to move on and now... this...
    Emety Emety 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    Lost In Depression

            I have no skills, no great education and horrible self esteem. I was born disfigured, and have spent the majority of my life hiding away as an outcast. I barely have any social skills, I get terribly anxious around too many people, I almost always wear dark...
    aquietman aquietman 26-30, M 5 Responses Mar 17, 2012

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    ProfessorPsycho ProfessorPsycho 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 4, 2014

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    I Dont Know Anymore

    As I lay here within this dark room..my mind wanders through a maze of lost hopes and dreams..Everything lost....Coldness consumes my heart my soul....Empty...Desperate to find something to rekindle the fire within....Searching....Longing....But what is it that I desire....Where...
    SingleDad40 SingleDad40 41-45, M 4 Responses Feb 18, 2012

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    i wanna be home again.

    ..................................... Please take me back...
    nealbrute nealbrute 26-30, F Mar 5

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    I feel so empty. I feel

    so tired of feeling like a screw up to others or that I'm not good enough. I can't catch a break, if I'm not getting laughed at by my co-workers, I'm getting insulted and verbally abused by my dad, or my sister's argue with me and gang up on me, or my "friends" hang out with...
    LoveisBeautiful5013 LoveisBeautiful5013 18-21, F 1 Response May 15

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    Since you brought back my key I'm hunting you,

    so I can give it back to you The clock has struck three, A worn out record plays in me I'm not for you, you're not for me, my heart is broken, you see Since you left me brokenhearted, It doesn't rain, but it bleeds Since you left my soul, part of me is also gone I'm not for...
    anthonysheriff anthonysheriff 13-15, M Apr 3

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    I have no idea what to do with my life.

    I'm completely lost. I never had "goals" or "dream jobs". I just got my Bachelor's degree in something I'm not even remotely interested and I took me several years to finish. 3 years ago started to work in a hostel. Overall, it was a very pleasant experience and I thought I...
    mtea mtea 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 9

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    My life looks like going smoothly,

    like everything is ok, but the truth is not. I smile so big that no one would questioned if I am happy with my life. But the truth is. My life sucks... I am like a leaf carried by the wind.. I just go with the flow wherever the wind will carry me.. I have no definite...
    myleslus myleslus 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 16

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    I'm Lost In My Religion

    My family is not very religious, I know that my mom is and I know that she prays. But we never went to church. I used to believe in God and pray and when my prayers came true I believed that God really existed and that he is helping me. But a while ago I started thinking maybe...
    GrueneRose GrueneRose 22-25 7 Responses Sep 4, 2007

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    I lost the track of time

    while busy in life I lost the love that I vowed to forever I lost the shining moment of friendship I lost in defining myself I thought it’s ok to have nothing because I got you. But I was wrong.... Life became messy when I ignored time The vow was defiled because I loved too...
    4BlackForest 4BlackForest 36-40, F 2 Responses Feb 2, 2014

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    Little Lost (Miserable Read...Be Warned)

    I'm feeling like I'm running in circles. The moment I get this !@#$% pain under control (with meds and a hell of a lot of focus) and my body bursts with infections.  I struggle to get them under control and the moment I do the pain comes crashing back in on me.  Headaches so...
    Whym Whym 36-40, F 11 Responses Oct 16, 2013

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    I despise situations like this.

    A crossroads. Choices... so many choices. Each leaves someone hurt... I don't even know what I want any more...
    thehonestgentleman thehonestgentleman 18-21, M Mar 29

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    I. Hurting terribly over my ex lover.

    She has moved on and has no sympathy for me and it sucks . I have my beautiful daughter and I am unable to be the dad I used to be. She sees me crying all the time and now I am just shut down. Her mom wasn't good for me and yet I miss her every day
    mooserbears mooserbears 31-35, M Mar 14

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    A voice in mind keep whispering run,

    and day to day it's getting louder, it says run, run as far as you can, don't look back just run. Where am I supposed to run? Why do I have to run? What am I running from? uhhh I am just lost and I don't know how to shut the voice down.
    ruthm ruthm 18-21, F May 15

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